#its weird gordon. ur not normal sorry

[tigerdrop]

i cant believe ur still getting weird anon hate after all this time. sorry to see that u are

its been cropping up for a good while now and i am mostly just astonished that anybody fucking cares anymore. its 2022. the fandom is composed of like, 10 people. the wrtvs themselves barely even give a shit about hlvrai, and they certainly arent ever going to see nsfw fanworks. the only reason to beat this drum is to terrorize queer ppl for having the completely normal desire to see grown men having sex

anyway every single time i get another dumb message i write another 500 words of gordon getting his back blown out so they can all suck me

[eggtwobroes]

frenrye

i dont evem know who these guys ARE!

jokes aside though i luv frenrey. frenrey means alot to me which sounds kind of funny to say. its an inside joke to several friend groups (3 friendgroups i can think of off the top of my head). its a comfort. it makes me unironically nauseous if i think about it in bad contexts. i couldnt look at it for a little bit due to bad associations. it also helped me figure out alot about myself (mostlu helped me figure out that im. fictoromantic </3)

alot of text under the cut sorry. WATCH OUT! (ship ask game)

as for what it means to me personally, at first i was annoying with hlvrai. i had the worst possible characterizations yiu could possibly conjure up because i wanted to frankenstein every fucking ao3 trait for benrey and gordon together because i thought that was the way to characterize them. i was also 13 so whatever. i also projected onto benrey HARD which made him more annoying and me more annoying also. at some point i projected too hard and got nauseous with the ship cuz i convinced myself that i was projecting trauma about my ex friends onto them.??? which was weird but i ended up reaching some closure regarding those ex friends a little while ago and also at the time i realised "hm. no this is stupid" and moved on. then i got on tumblr and became a bigger frenrey fan (really funny to say) and it started meaning more to me... my characterizations got better ovr time (same with my art) and everything was goung well. i had friends who liked frnerey and also i liked frenrey myself. peace and love on planet autism. and then the thing in june happened when my now ex friend told me something about literally everyone in The Frenrey Discord server which caused alot of stuff that i wont explain cuz i think you guys know it by now. that was embarrassing. i also couldnt look at frenrey because i associated it with that and it made me sick to my stomach to think about. at some point i got normaler and less mentally ill and stuff. frenrey also became a relaly big inside joke in my friend groups and stuff <3 i dont really make as much frenrey art as i used to now since im more of a darnrey enthusiast at this point but thats cuz i did figure out im fictoro bcuz of it (shoutout to my wife. girdon)

other than what it personally means 2 me its also a really funny dynamic. guy shows up and starts pestering you the WHOLE FUCKING DURATION of the worst days of ur life. claims he used to know you when you were kids (you fucking didnt). and ur brains response to this is "lets kiss with tongue" its so funny. in canon context its like. this guy plays a game and meets the most fucking insufferable npc of his life and falls in love with him when hes literally not even tangible. how do you store that much emotion towards a character from a game you could just turn off dude. theyre both pathetic i think. their dynamic is kinda hard to describe. i think its funny when benreys head over heels for this guy that hates his guts. i think its funny if they both hate eachothers guts and are simultaneously thinking "i hope this guy fucking goes to hell. i bet he wants to kiss me. good thing i dont want that". i think its funny if benrey doesnt care about gordon at all and just harasses him cuz he thinks its funny and gordons like "god this guy sucks. would it be weird if i kissed him. id hate that probably". idk its a very fun ship to play around with its very flexible.. they fit as queerplatonic, romantic, AND platonic. they work out in game and nongame scenarios. they work in aus because theyre opposites. its so fun. im like dr frankenstein and frenrey is my frankensteins monster that i test on just to see what happens and what works best. idk how else to end this paragraph and continue to the next one sorry

mre related to the first bit about how theyre an inside joke. heres a collection of frenrey related images that are inside jokes or about inside jokes

theres also a lot more videos i have but i cant put themall here. sadly. heres one at least

#im not maintagging any of this for several reasons #asks #NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT #TALKING ABOUT FRENREY TO MARCIE MADE US CLOSER. WERE QPPS NOW #TAHTS SO FUCKING FUNNY TO ME

[gearbroth]

Last coherent thought

#half life #halflife #gordon freeman #drawpile #hl1 #tw: flashing #just a bit #had to absolutely destroy the quality on the gif for tumblr hhhh rip;; #after such a damn fight it took to make it too hsdfkjsd oh well #anyway caption is supposed to reference right before the first morphine shot #well before it took effect rather sdfsdf #for sure got shot after that full brunt hit #also rescas eyes heheheheh #got a lil hc that the rescas ''fixed'' his eyesight #doesnt really need his glasses anymore but wears them anyway for a sense of normallcy #also makes more sense popping out the lenses and just doin the frames bc oh yea those glasses woulda broken ages ago #eventually keeps wearing them for so long cuz thats the look people know him with anyway even tho he doesnt need them #but he doesnt wanna seem weird so still lensless glasses #its weird gordon. ur not normal sorry #anyway sdfjsdhk #myart #also yoo two artposts in a day asjkhsd #i should queue this one for tomorrow but.... naaaah

[sawtual]

Hey max, sorry if this is a weird question but what made you wanna make babs so messy & hot headed in your universe? She’s normally the most well put together & level headed batfamily member besides maybe dick & or Alfred. (Depending on who’s writing)

/pt 2/ Not that messy babs is bad btw im just curious what ur thought process was while makin her!

hey ty for askin!! in my verse im really interested in exploring complex characterizations, specifically for women ! so for making her i really wanted to focus on how her childhood affected her, the maladaptive coping skills and behaviors she learned living in this environment, and how they cause her to interact with the people around her, and what it takes for her to change and grow to be a better person! i really like the concept, with babs, that on a surface level she looks pretty well put together, she's extremely proficient in her technology, is good at asserting her authority, setting plans in motion, and giving orders that people follow. BUT underneath this surface level she's barely keeping herself together. she's like the kind of person to put of a twelve page essay until the night its due, bust it out in 3 hours and still get an +A. but how long can that kind of behavior sustain you? how long before you slip up? its one thing to fail your test, its another to risk the life of your teammate q_q also my concepts for her really stem from what i think a realistic depiction of gordon and her relationship would be like, as well as how that would shape her as an adult? i think Gordon's role as city commissioner causes him to feel like he needs to control everything within his power, he's terrified of loss of control, i mean i cant imagine trying to tackle Gotham's crime problem omfg.. especially when his wife dies due to this problem that he genuinely has to way of making a meaningful difference in stopping, it really scares him! so to help himself deal with that fear he enforces unrealistic limitations of barbara, causing her to feel restricted and overwhelmed. he's very much a helicopter parent, and the fact she never was able to have a healthy amount of exposure to freedom before college is a big reason for why she crashed and burned SO hard there but yeah also! seeing barbara struggle with her behavioral issues so much and then learn how to be a better person and a more competent friend and leader feels a lot more rewarding to me personally! i think she had to work really hard to become the person she is as oracle, and i think it's nice to see that people, even if they fuck up and struggle, can still get better, and be loved!! i hope this makes some sense! i haven't done any extensive research into how dc canonically portrays her, more just stuff ive picked up around, but one thing i really love about her is seeing how, while she is a lot more collected than in my verse, shes still kind of a trainwreck in some aspects... like my friends have told me a lot about the birds of prey dynamic and this just sends me into orbit its so funny. you ruin someones life and think the way to make things better is... telling her you used to stuff your bra? girl youre crazy crazy <3

#asks #anon #barbara gordon #maxverse #dc #ANYWAYYYYSS i hope this helped! IDK #i like complex women a lot so i simply get excited at the chance to portray them with nuance and care

[ak47stylegirl]

Thunderbirds meet Thunderbirds (chapter 15)

alan trip into the movieverse.

(this is my first fanfic, feedback is appreciated. the rest of the chapters are found here)

(movie)alan POV

 (i'll be referring to TAG alan as the younger alan until I get to the bit where the characters figure out that they need to call one of the alans something other that alan )

 5:30 pm

He was frozen in shock, not taking his eyes off his- his younger self? Version? He had blond hair like himself, but its a bright blond come compared to his brownish blond hair.

Scott had come forward, "you okay kid" Scott said as held out his hand to the younger alan. 

"uh yeah, I'm fine," the younger alan said to Scott with a grateful smile, then turned to him " Um hi?" the younger alan said to him.

"hi?" he said. 

"well um, alan... meet ...alan," Scott said. They were both looking at each other. 

There was a weird tension building. 

"um, this pretty weird isn't it?" his younger self-said to him with a nervous laugh, lessing some of the tension.

"you can say that again," Scott muttered off to the side of them.

fermat came up to the younger alan. " hi-hi I'm F-Fermat."

"Um hi." his younger self? said.

This was just too much for him to handle right now. He thought as he looked for a way out, his eyes landed on fermat suitcase.

"um I and fermat need to unpack, so yeah see you around," he said as he made his escape,"come on fermat" he called.

"uh, um coming, uh nice to meet you," fermat said to the younger alan as hurrying after him.

Scott pov.

Did he seriously walk out like that? He asked himself in disbelief.

"soo..." the younger Alan asked looking up at him, "what you guys normally do around here?"

What?

"to keep your selves occupied I mean." alan add-on at his confused look. ohh, he bored huh, he thought in amusement.

"what you normally do, when you bored?" he asked as he started to walk out of the hallway and into the lounge.

Alan said following Scott." well, I usually play a video game or..." alan stopped what he was saying.

What was he going to say?

"or?" he asked. I am not pushing my boundaries, right?

"Well, normally I'll talk to one of my brothers" alan murmurs. oh, you should have left it, Scott!

"so what do you do around here?" Alan asked a cheerful look on his face again. 

This kid doesn't say down for long.

"Um, I have a chess board?... Want to play a game of chess?" he said. I'm may not be his Scott, but the least I can do is spend some time with the kid.

"cool! My Virgil been teaching me to play," Alan said.

Jeff pov. Ten mins out from Tracy Island. 7:50pm

Rescues caused by natural disasters were always the most Emotionally draining for him, too much of a reminder of his wife's death.

His attention drifted to Thunderbird two radio. A call was coming from Tracy Island.

"Thunderbird two here," Virgil answered.

a screen on Thunderbird two console lit up, showing brains on the display.

"what is it brains?" he asked from the pilot seat. 

"I w-was j-just calling to l-let you k-know that S-Scott and the k-kids got home s-safe a-and sound, Mr Tracy" brains said.

that good that they home.

"okay thank you brains, we ten mins out from Tracy island now, so we should be home soon," he said, he ended the call.

"Virgil can you take the controls, I'm going to get a headache tablet," he said as he passed the controls over to Virgil.

"you okay dad?" Virgil asked.

"I'm fine, just a headache," he said, with a smile to reassure his sons that he was okay.

virgil pov

“so Two Alans, in the same room..." Gordon said, " this is going to be one crazy brack.”

 You can say that again. John can probably see the storm brewing from Thunderbird five.

“well it normally is crazy with just one alan, troubles follow that kid,” he said.

"he started his training now. I feel sorry for the unlucky person that has to train him," Gordon joked.

"what makes you think, it won't be you," he asked.

"me, no way, no how, not doing it," Gordon said putting his legs up on the console. Out of the corner of his eye, he saw dad come back as Gordon was talking. Gordon hasn't noticed that dad was back yet. 

"Gordon! Get your feet off that dash right now, young man" dad said.

The reaction was instant. "dad!" Gordon yelped.

"Thunderbird two is a state of the art Rescues vehicle, not your footrest." dad said sternly. 

"Sorry dad," Gordon said.

"I understand that you both are tired, but it not long until we are home,  you can rest then," dad said.

They both nodded.

Gordon pov.

It was late when they got back, about 8 o'clock. 

Scott met them in the kitchen.

"how was the mission?" Scott asked.

"tiring but that not new," he said with a tired smile as he helped himself to some leftovers.

"Scott we should be asking you that, with having to pick up the sprout and fermat," Virgil said, as he got himself some food too.

"ur it wasn't that bad, just take a while to convince Alan that this other alan is a different version of him," Scott said.

"I don't blame him," he said with a mouthful "it's a crazy situation we in."

"Gordon, don't speak with your mouthful," dad said as he made himself a coffee.

”sorry,” he said.

"so I'm guessing those two met already?" Virgil asked Scott.

"huh?"

"Alan and... well the other alan." Virgil said. "wow.. it is going to get very confusing calling them the same name." 

"Oh, yeah they met already.."Scott said." and yeah, it is going to get confusing with them having the same name."

"we can figure that out tomorrow, it's late. I'm off to bed, I suggest you do the same" dad said.

"night dad," they said.

Virgil pov.

They made their way into the lounge.

"wait he just walked out like that?" 

"yeah"

"well, we are talking about our Alan," Gordon said as he made his way to the couch.

"uh, guys?" Gordon said stopping in his tracks.

"what is it gordon?-oh,"he said looking down at where Gordon was looking to find the younger Alan was curled up fast asleep on the couch. 

"what you looking at?" Scott said coming over.

"Shh," he said pointing at the younger alan.

"Oh, what is he doing out here?"Scott asked.

"don't know" he gave a shrug.

"he sure does seems young doesn't he?" Gordon said sitting down on the armrest.

"well he is young, he's fourteen," Scott said sitting in the corner of the couch that alan was asleep on.

"seems so long ago when our alan was his age," he said.

"Yeah," Scott said with a fond smile at the memory. 

"you know this alan, he does act differently than ours, have you noticed?" Gordon asked.

"well yeah, we have," he said, "it hard not to notice." 

scott looked to be in deep thought as he was looking at Alan.

"Scott?" he asked.

"huh? Oh, I was thinking.. well his versions of us must be worried sick."Scott said.

That true, if it were us, we would be terrified. 

"you know... until we can get this kid home, he is our responsibly to look after. Just like any of us would look after each other, we all know we would want our alan to be looked after if it was the other way around," Scott said.

Wow, that a lot to think about now, but Scott's right.

"you right Scott," he said.

gordon nodded.

#thunderbirds 2004 #thunderbirds are go #Thunderbirds tag #thunderbirds tos #Alan Tracy #Scott Tracy #Virgil Tracy #Gordon Tracy #jeff tracy #fermat thunderbirds #family #CrossOver