#just hurts so good i cry </3

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

I'm very excited for more content of your lights out au, I'm so eager to see just how good you can get at writing/creating angst!

oh babey. thats where i Shine.

#i have gotten many a fic comment where people curse me out and/or say that they cried #sometimes i get someone saying i made them sob #its a compliment every time and i strive for it! #i dont fuck around with my fics i Do Not Hold Back and that is a Warning #this is the only aspect of my creations that im confident in #and hopefully soon you'll all See! you will see. #just a little taste its nothing too intense really. #id label it more hurt/comfort than straight up angst #but yeah if people arent crying im doing it wrong #i rarely do it wrong. #JESTING JESTING im not That good. now im just exaggerating for a Humorous Touch #rambles from the bog #i might. miiiiiight. might might might maybe mayhaps might #write a certain scene from lights out that everyone already knows will happen #so... might as well dust off my hurt / no comfort skills #could be fun. i want to hurt people again #in a good safe 'you Chose to read this' way #theres a certain feeling that comes with being someone who enjoys writing angst #the happiness i get from people telling me my writing hurt them. Yes <3 #so so validating. so fulfilling. #just read through some old fic comments on my better works and mmmmm talk about an ego boost....

[mars-ipan]

danganronpa is so fucking crazy bc it’s like “hi. this is a game series with a fucking amazing premise. unfortunately the writing sucks and is bad and you will spend half the time going ‘eugh why did they write that’ but you will play the whole thing anyways and get attached to your favorite characters and cry when they inevitably die. also it is filled with romance subplots that will stay in your brain forever” HUH??????

#marzi speaks #like. dr sucks but i like it. #but it sucks #but then like. there’s just??? so much in-depth romance and it makes me want to cry??? #like. like. thh. asahina + sakura (so sorry lesbians i do not know their ship name). they are so cute and then they are so tragic #and ishimondo. GODDDDD ishimondo. you get to go ‘oh HELL yeah’ for a chapter and then they make you HURT #even like. makoto w/sayaka. start of the betrayal girlfriend trend. love it #and even toko and togami are interesting!!! like they will not date and should not date but they are fascinating #and then sdr2. do not get me STARTED on komahina what sort of psychosexual freudian bullshit are they on i will never know #but there’s also like. hinanami who r SO good. and mahiru and hiyoko who. tbh i wish they were handled better but still #fuyupeko. they make me crazy. and their parallels to akane and nekomaru. aaaa #SONDAM oh my goddd. they’re so #i may not be a v3 fan but they DID give us a lesbian love triangle and i do have to thank them for that #also the best polycule in the world in the form of the workout trio #kokichi i don’t like. but i DO like his little crush on shuichi even if i think it’s one-sided #kiibouruma will forever be real to me tho. world’s worst polycule. for balance #anyways why does dr have so many good romance plots. they’re so. why are those so good #AND WHY ARE LIKE HALF OF THEM QUEER. WHY DOES THE HOMOPHOBIA GAME HAVE SO MUCH QUEER CODING #idk i’m insane. <3 i’m a little crazy. komahina what the hell even are you….

[fishnchip3011]

everytime i actually open up sdv to play i get flashbanged with sebastian's white ass sprites because i always forget not everyone sees him as wasian💔 my current hc for him is half chinese (liable to change... but ik for sure he's half asian) but he is Not bilingual he can't rly speak or write the other language he can only understand it when listening but even then he's not very fluent LOL this is just turning into a sebastian hc post might as well go full out. to me sebastian Does have relationship experience but has been thru shitty ones in the past which is part of the reason why he's so pessimistic & brooding </3 and he'd hook up with ppl in zuzu city for a night for a while but it just made him feel shittier so he's stopped since ☝️ also people make him out to be way cooler than he actually is like yea sure he's kinda cool but he's also a Massive Loser especially when he tells you how he hates "seasonal fads" like pumpkin spice and that one line about the potluck soup where he's like "Why ruin the potluck? Hmm... I guess some people feel liberated when the rigid structures of society break down a little. Maybe I'm weird.” WHO ASKED😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 his ass also can NOT cook he can make spaghetti but it's mid. he probably has low ass stamina and yeah he's tall and lanky (rn i see him as around 5'9-5'10) but you could snap him in half over your knee. when he's in an actually healthy relationship he gets really flustered over certain romantic gestures cuz he's not used to feeling valued or being considered someone's #1. he picks up on little things and does acts of service but i also think he can be really callous and insensitive at times because while he can be pretty perceptive he is also Very Emotionally Stunted. he unlearns lots of unhealthy behaviors & mindsets with the help of his partner & family & friends ^__^

#i almost popped a vein trying not to mention rowan in all of this so this post is more. consumable i guess #but rowan to me is soooooo perfect for him to me because rowan's whole thing is empathy and warmth #where it's a strength but also a weakness for him because he's also a chronic people pleaser and a doormat #out of the need he feels to make people feel valued which is a good thing but not when its to the point of self negligence #rowan gives rly good advice but overburdens himself cuz he feels responsible for ppl&doesnt give himself the same treatment he gives others #when he's with sebastian he helps him feel valued and sebastian learns to trust people more and not to immediately assume the worst of ppl #and seb is sooooooo perfect for rowan bc seb is vocal about what he dislikes and when hes not happy w something/one #and is good at setting boundaries whereas rowan is Not. he helps rowan learn how to say no to ppl and be more assertive #& think abt his own feelings more! they both help e/o vocalize their feelings #for rowan its vocalizing his opinions more and valuing himself more & for seb its vocalizing more for the sake of better communication #w other ppl so he can establish better trust & relations w ppl. and stop being so closed off/unapproachable LOL #their differences match up well but it also leads to arguments/tension cuz seb doesnt communicate and resorts to avoidance #and rowan is too pliant sometimes to the point where it hurts not just himself but the ppl around him including seb #also fun fact rowan is the type to cry when he gets really angry/upset & when seb resorts to avoidance instead of reassurance #(which is what rowan wants) rowan sometimes ends up catastrophizing & also bottles up his emotions similarly to seb #they always reconcile in the end tho even if it takes a while </3 they r both learning ok!!!!!!!! #not perfect to the point where they dont argue bc thats Impossible but they suit each other well. they r good for each other qwq #eon babbles #stardew valley #farmer rowan #<- i talk about him in tags. hehehe

[ratgingi]

woe characters inspired by some of my cats be upon ye. info on them in my tags lol

#dialtown oc #jack dlc #twerpys head is a sledgehammer bc the cat theyre based on was born in a wall lmao #he works at the petstore with outis bc i got said cat frm the local petstore #lilys head is a fluffy couch pillow thing and she works at an animal shelter bc thats where i got the cat shes based on #twerpy is genderfluid bc we make jokes that my cat twerpy is genderfluid a lot #also i feel like shed be aroace if she were a person. its just the vibes yk #lily isnt labeled as anything shes just vibin #the 2 are part of a big sorta found family type shit that consists of chars based on my other 3 cats i just didnt feel like drawin more rn #twerpy is really mean and stuck up but is secretly super sweet it just takes them a long time to warm up enough to someone n show it #shes also secretly incredible at like. comforting people and helping them out. but again only shows it for people hes warmed up enough to #lily is super confident and full of herself and spoiled. she thinks shes super fuckin smart but she is very much Not /lh #she loves attention though and gets her feelings hurt super easy #also shes Huge on physical affection. she loves giving people hugs and holding hands and shit #like. shell be like oh im so fuckin hot and cool literally no ones on my level and of ur like eh idk that fit isnt really that good on u #she will start Crying. and get mad that youre being mean to her for no reason while sobbing #and probably will hug onto you while doing it #twerpy also gives really good hugs but they Hate being touched. so if it willingly touches you then youre incredibly lucky special #also lily loves sitting in peoples laps #if youre friends with her she is far more likely to sit on your lap instead of any chair in the room nd thats just smth youll have 2 deal w #dlc wiki

[italictext]

I desperately need to befriend a Death Note fan irl who likes Death Note the way I do.. The only DN fans I've met irl are anime only Near haters :'(

#I NEED someone to shake while I rant to them about Death Note pls pls pls #I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO GIGGLE WITH WHILE WE STARE AT DEATH NOTE PANELS PLS PLS PLS #My sister has seen Death Note but she's not really into it + anime only + Near hater </3 #It sucks to remember that the Death Note fandom isn't just my mutuals.. Some people genuinely hate Near :(( #I LOVE the anime the animation is beautiful the soundtrack is beautiful and OOOOO THE COLOR CODING EEEE but #It butchered the 2nd half soo so badly and changed Near's personality and I'm not a fan of the ending :( #THE MANGA ENDING IS SOOO SO GOOD AND BEAUTIFUL #OMGGGG when Light admits to being Kira and gives them his speech and calls himself god of the new world AND EEEE NEAR SAYS “NO YOURE JUST A #MASS MURDERER“ #LIKE EEEE THAT ALWAYS ALWAYS MAKES ME GIGGLE NEAR WAS SOOO SO COOL FOR THAT LIKE HE'S LITERALLY FACE TO FACE WITH KIRA THE GUY WHO KILLED L #And Near REPEATS IT. HE CALLS HIM “JUST A MURDERER” TWICE. #Sorry but the anime made Near so stupid “lol just let him run away it's not like he'll survive” #I love Near and Light's dynamic so much they're so funny. They have the prettiest panels too #Maybe an unpopular opinion but Near vs Light was wayyy more entertaining that L vs Light #And it hurts me to see people say that it should've ended at the 1st half. I know people can have their own opinions or whatever but THEYRE #WRONG!! DN is SOOO much better with the 2nd half + if it ended at L's death that would've sucked. So glad L died midway #I wish I had a friend I could talk about DN to :( I'll just hope one of my friends decide to watch it because idk how to make new friends #Discord servers scare me and while I love my mutuals if any of you tried to message me I think I'd cry out of nervousness lol #Gosh this is long shoukd I even post this

[thedreadvampy]

idk I had a very interesting therap today but I just

like it's all very well to recognise that I gotta have a fucking open-ended breakdown and jump face first into the Sadness Bog sometimes instead of sitting on all my feelings

but like

I still have to go to work, you know? it's like. ok yeah have a breakdown which like until you jump into it you don't know if it's going to last an hour or a year. yeah go ahead that's all grand. you do have to get up in the morning and go to work though. you're not allowed to not do that. or to not pay the rent or not shower or not eat.

like all my friends and loved ones are constantly like 'you know you're allowed to be sad right' and it's like. AM I??? because I STILL HAVE TO PAY RENT.

#red said #the thing my therapist keeps pointing out is like. i got on this adulthood thing WAY too early #metaphorically i have Had To Go To Work In The Morning since i was like. 4. bc i am congenitally incapable of #Not Thinking About Consequences. and it's so important to be Good and Tough and Have It Together #but like. maybe if id done more crying and melting down when i DIDN'T Have To Go To Work In The Morning bc i was a Literal Infant #i might be a more balanced adult now that i actually DO. Have To Go To Work In The Morning. #what do people like. do. when they have to have feelings but also meet adult responsibilities? impossible. gotta choose. #i think it doesn't help that i already really struggle to work a full time job. like I'm already late basically every day bc i a night guy #so it's like. there's no give in this. maybe if i was back into a 3-4 day week? but idk if i can afford that #but also the work is only partly work. it's also like. having human relationships. eating. washing. being a person. #but idk. like. until i have some genuinely open-ended time i think I'm gonna always find it impossible to actually let go #i said in therapy it's like. like sadness specifically is like a thick muddy bog. and i can dip a foot in it #but bc i know i need to be able to keep moving #i can only stick a foot in and deal with a bit of it if I'm holding onto something. so in practise i can only cry #right before it becomes inappropriate to cry. so like. end of a therapy session. heading to a train station after seeing someone. #that kind of thing. it's a safety thing. #it would be much more effectively Dealing With to go dive into the bog and plough through it #but I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG THAT'LL TAKE and i have to like. come out all muddy and deal with that #and there's always somewhere i gotta be soon. i can't just jump into the mud. not cause I'll get hurt i just Don't Have Time #anyway. feelings. how do they work. embarrassed about having them. embarrassed about suppressing them. generally just embarrassed.

[lunarcry]

shizuku has been winning sm this past year like what the hell

#stardust speaking ! #scopophobia #LIKEEEEEEE WHAAAAAT...........en just finishes the event with one of the prettiest card sets and a massive win of a shizuku card #and then jp releases this #???????????????????????????????? #i RLY love shihos card too aughhh the hair...........all of the cards...T_T mizukis untrained makes me so emotional #i lov sibling stuff so. i can feel it in my bones i Will be crying #ANYHOW echoing what i said on gran but new year new me saying u can also find me at toestalucia (ive written the least on gran this yr but #theyre my no1 5ever. parent issues family issues left behind issues the list goes on. lil brat who wants to believe in the good of ppl #but struggles with coming to terms with whenever they Cant forgive someone who hurt their loved ones. #completely normal about grandjeetafantasy #AND flovverworks...<3 i dont write any other wizard officially here. only figaro for faty shenanigans but. stories about love has a massive #grip on me. akira has a massive grip on me #unrelated but 2024 is when i properly catch up to proseka & reread natsuyuu. i need to emu and natsume post even more #EITHER WAY im not gonna be very sentimental rn but ty for interacting w me this yr its been great

[hecksupremechips]

Girl like. The reason he said "this is how it should be" and faced death with a smile....is cuz he wanted to die. For 2 years he sat there thinking he was worthless and deserved to die. If he hadn’t be shot, his death would’ve been suicide, he was fully planning to die in a gutter somewhere undetected. When saying "this is how it should be" hes literally saying "don’t cry because I’m dying, my death is a good thing actually because I fucking suck and you are better off without me". I don’t think that’s badass even slightly, it’s actually really sad and really shitty. Shinjiro is so convinced that he deserves to die and hates the idea of anyone giving a shit about him because he literally can’t wrap his mind around the idea that he will be missed when he’s gone, that his death is a bad thing actually. And his last words were meant to be comforting because he fully did not intend for anyone to be there when he died, he intended to die alone, so he says them as a reminder that he’s not worth crying over

Personally, if it were me, if I was holding my dying best friend in my arms who was deeply depressed and suicidal and he said "this is how it should be" uh. I wouldn’t admire him for it??? Like am I losing my mind when I say the way this game handles Shinji is bad or is anyone else seeing this too 😰

#its like okay listen i understand the basic math of any persona game they say things and everything they say is actually #very bad when you think about it for more than 3 seconds #like what theyre intending to do with the death of this character is be like oh no your sad friend dies tragically thats so saddddd #but that doesnt mean you cant live a wonderful life full of meaning you cant let grief consume you life is beautiful awagga #and i guess shinji is a specific character whos used cuz i guess its more tragic that he never realized he was worthy of life and shit #and i guess its also like ‘dont be like this guy who let grief consume him and then died you gotta Be Different’ #which i dont. love. that last part cuz if you think about shinji and what led him down this road #its like. of course hes depressed! he accidentally killed a woman with a child when he was 16! #he himself is an orphan and he just made some other kid an orphan as well and it happened cuz his persona went out of control #which very much can translate to ‘this must mean im dangerous and can hurt everyone if im not kept under control’ #so of course he isolated himself and believed he was evil and became suicidal like who wouldnt feel that way #like am i supposed to be mad he left sees and took drugs cuz uh while i dont think isolation or Evil Drug is good for his mental health #i dont think him continuing to fight in sees is something he can just easily do again given how he killed someone like he shouldnt have to #be a part of this thing anymore like how would he even safely get castor to not do that??? he cant kill more people on accident! #so yeah like using shinji as an example of bad coping mechanisms is already just. a big fucking oof to me like it just feels like the game #is saying he shouldve gotten over it and simply not be suicidal and stayed on the team. idk if thats the intent but uh it wouldnt faze me #cuz persona games are notoriously awful at writing characters who are traumatized and abused #but what makes everything even worse is how the game kinda like. acts like shinjis death is a stepping stone #like we’re supposed to use it as a wake up call and understand the stakes but keep going on anyways #and akihiko and Ken get. ‘great character development’ according to the game telling you they have now developed #but damn all akihiko is is just repressed he cries for 3 seconds and then is like I SHOULD MAN UP and then neglects a depressed child #shinjis dying words are words to live by now even though they piss me the fuck off like girl am i crazy HES FUCKING #HES TELLING ME NOT TO CRY OVER HIM BECAUSE HE SHOULD BE DEAD ACTUALLY AND THIS IS A GOOD THING ACTUALLY #like if the game wants us to still find meaning in life despite losing someone it just really hurts that shinji has to die for that to work #apparently. cuz the character i see myself in is shinji. not some perfect prettyboy who does everything perfectly and has 4 gfs #his death seems like a punishment for bad behavior. the bad behavior being of course depression and drug use. and im simply supposed to be #better than that if i want to live. and we dont get to form a connection with him cuz thats gayyyyy #and his death is like a NOBLE HEROIC SACRIFICE idk its just such bullshit to me i hate it so bad #how is killing a suicidal guy and then treating it as admirable that he said ‘this is how it should be’ supposed to make me feel #makes me feel sick personally and it ruins the entire game’s theme to me because its fucking shallow and the story is bad and im tired

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

I adore the way you give fluff to the welcome home cast, I wanna give them all hugs

❤️

i'm not sure if you mean fluff as in Physical Fluff (fur/fuzz/softness/etc) or fluff as in Emotionally Soft/Pleasant but either way! thank you! happy to hear it!

#if you meant the latter... its certainly interesting to be more known for positive feels than Angst #i mean its still very much angst central in my head #i just havent really. shared it yet... #but usually my reputation regarding the emotional genre i provide is #I Will Make It Painful. I Take The Characters. I Shove Them In A Meat Grinder. I Laugh As People Cry #but like. in a fun 'ough owie.... it hurts so good...' way <3 consensual heart-stabbing #rambles from the bog #the only thing i like as much as drawing characters smiling #is drawing them in anguish. tears. horrified expressions. grief. etc. the Woiks #the two are the slices of bread for my favorite tasty sandwich - hurt/comfort <3

[secondhandlovers]

Going to work today

#I can barely walk it hurts so bad #and I already messaged my boss and coworker that I'll work from home bc well. what am I supposed to do when I literally can't WALK to work.. #my father said it's too “risky” to stay at home bc I've only been working there for half a year and that they won't believe me (??) #so NOW his plan is that I basically crawl to work so that everyone can see I'm “actually” sick and go home #like sure. and my coworker definitely won't think there's something wrong with me showing up after saying I'm staying home #they're all gonna think I'm fucking weird 😭 #the way you can also see that I've been crying the entire night and got like 3 hours of sleep #I hate this household I'd say I wanna run into incoming traffic but I can't even so that LOL #also also #if you're asking why I - as a 20 yo - can't decide what to do on my own.. good luck trying to argue with immigrant parents abt literally #anything #someone just take me out thank you

[ghostboyjules]

made the mistake of listening to boygenius' new album while I was at work earlier and it literally hurt my feelings so bad I mentally blocked it out until like. 30 seconds ago. like fr they didn't have to say all that.

#and by mistake I mean that I should NOT have made the first time I listened to it be AT WORK. IN PUBLIC. #where I literally couldn't cry or I would have had to forcefully eject myself from the building. #via. window. 3 floors up. #I'm talking. lower lip trembling type shit I was holding those goddamn tears back so hard. #like they did. NOT. have to do all of that. #fam I haven't even gone to actually IN DEPTH look at the lyrics yet I'm *SCARED*. #those three just. really know how fuck me up. #WHO WROTE THIS. WHO DID. IT. PHOEBE??? I'M LOOKIN AT YOU. #like. for all my fellow mitski girlies (gender neutral) this album legitimately hurt me worse than like. #puberty 2. #it's still so incredibly funny to me how I legit BLOCKED IT OUT ENTIRELY. until fuckin 3 minutes ago. GOD. #okay im done. for now. jfc. #jules.intothevoid✨ #jules.songrec✨ #I GUESS. TECHNICALLY. go ahead like it's so fuckin good but the EMOTIONAL DAMAGE. #the opening track? like what the fuck. that felt personal. like. the typa shit I been on recently?? & they open with that??? hello?? #boygenius

[chlo-le-mouton]

Something that could make me cry is that I'm finally free from bras and now i'm so unused to wear them that they make me feel awful AND I've finally regained enough confidence to wear crop tops, something I've always wanted to do, but I still can't because my boob shape and size makes them look weird on me, and that's when they're not juste hanging out everytime I lift my arms

#i hate this #i'm finally to a point where i've accepted and started to love every part of my body #but this #this hurts #sorry for the rant #i used to think i had a sort of difformity because they looked so different that everybody else #i've been scrolling through vinted looking for cute summer tops #and now i juste wanna cry curled in my 3 old ugly t shirts #i swear it's so hard to find cute tops when you have a big chest #i just wanna find stuff that fits me and I wanna look good in something for once in my life

[fxggotclown]

the anxiety is all consuming

#teamcasper #i cant wait for my meds to start doing shit i want to be a normal guy so bad #im supposed to start a 40 hour work week this week and i dont know if im physically or mentally capable of that #and imr eally stressed abt it bc i dont want to be fired but if i get sick from working to much i will be fired if i call out #soooo ^_^ #but im like . really good at talking myself out of starting conversations bc i dont like talking to ppl abt specific things w/o making a #script for myself so i know what i want to say and how i want to say it even though i definitely dont need that most of the time #i havent been able to sleep well the past few days im losing it okay !! <3 #crying sobbing i want to be normal i keep crying remembering everything and i am so worn out and overwhelmed by everything #but its fine im gonna be fine and okay i just need to not throw up and remember to take pain killers when my head hurts !!!!!!!!!!!!!

[indecisive-dizzy]

GOD HOWDY ANGST HITS ME SO HARD IT MAKES ME SOB UNCONTROLLABLY

I imagine once Howdy makes it to Eddie’s family’s place, he’s immediately accepted and they help him move into the guest bedroom

Howdy keeps up a calm act for most of the day, but later at night Eddie asks him if he’s actually okay and I think he just starts crying and pouring everything out

He tells Eddie about everything, about how he left, how he quit his part time job and bought a bus ticket in the middle of the night, how his little sister caught him packing but helped him leave even if it hurt her, and about how he has no idea what to do now

Eddie comforts him and starts crying too because strong emotions make him cry, they just cry and hug together

Eddie gets to understand Howdy, they’re best friends and he cares for him with all his heart

All this against is gonna make me cry fr /hj

hhhhhhh yeah I feel like Howdy would hold it in and try to bottle it up, maybe it's something he's used to?

Eddie sees this, sees Howdy being a tad quiet and something just feels off

Howdy's breakdown was probably a good turning point to their friendship. They're already best friends but that night added a new level. They're just,, closer now. idk how to explain it.

They cry together and end up falling asleep in Howdy's new room, Eddie's just trapped in all four arms but he doesn't mind.

Eddie's mom finds them in the morning and is glad she raised her boy right, and that Howdy has someone like Eddie.

If I keep going I'll end up rambling about Eddie haha-

but oof the angst,,, srry I had to slide in some comfort at the end to feel better /hj

#they're soo <3 <3 <3 😭😭🥺💕💕 #Howdy and Eddie friendship is soo good to me #so tasty #they both Love hugs #I want them to just fall into each other's arms and Squeeeze #that good “squeeze my soul back into my body” hug #or maybe i projecting- #anyway Yes Howdy angst is real and makes me cry /hj #i kinda turned into a feel good thing at the end #very hurt/comfort vibes I've been on a kick for that lately #dizztalkstoomuch #neon child #welcome home #howdy pillar #eddie dear

[arklay]

tagged by @denerims @florbelles @risingsh0t @leviiackrman @shellibisshe & @fenharel to do this quiz for some of my ocs – thank you all so much ily! ♡

tagging: @aartyom @aelyosos @brujah @calenhads @celticwoman @cultistbase @faarkas @girlbosselrond @narshadda @nocticulas @noonfaerie @nuclearstorms @reaperkiller @risingsh0t @shadowglens @steelport @stormveils @swordcoasts @voerman @windupcharibert @wrymbloods & anyone else who would like to do this! no pressure as always, and if you'd prefer i didn't tag you in these things, just let me know ♡

WHAT'S AT YOUR OC'S CORE?

— rippling sunset.

you're the nicest person i'll ever meet, probably. with an undying passion to protect those who can't protect themselves, you're energetic and bubbly to a fault. it's cute, watching you run around trying to tie up loose ends. i feel bad for you — out of everyone you know, you probably have some of the deepest trauma, more than anyone's aware of. this isn't something that you want attention for at all, and you'd really just rather forget it exists at all… even then, it seems like you can never escape it. i wish you a pleasant rest of your life, full of rippling sunsets and free of prying eyes.

— fractured glass.

no amount of orchestrated class is ever going to hide the fact that you're doomed to be alone. you're a puppet, you're a weapon, but most importantly? you're a fraud. your facade isn't malicious, but that doesn't change a thing. everything in your life is in your control now, and you chose to let yourself become stiff and distant. you're guilty of everything you blame yourself for, and your misfortune is the fault of nobody but yourself. your selfish nature forges you into a man-made monster, so quick to blame and so desperate to escape consequence. i hope that you can become someone you’re proud of soon.

— acerbic wit.

you're a mentor — an old scarred wolf, an injured soldier, a disgraced paladin. your teachings read as shamelessly pretentious, speaking in rhymes and biting down hard into anyone stupid enough to make the wrong move. this isn't your first life, nor your second, nor your sixth — you'll make the most of your time shackled to this world, no matter how many loops it takes to get it right. with every defeat, you reincarnate; a little smarter, a little quicker, crueler and nastier. will you choose to be brutal, equalizing, that final strike in the face of your enemies? will you go soft, become tender and domesticated? the choice is yours. it's not like i can stop you.

— silent admission.

in tarot, the fool is numbered 0 – the number of unlimited potential. as the protagonist, he is ever present and therefore needs no number as well as no introduction. the world revolves around you in ways that i can't begin to describe, though you'd shrug it off if i were to begin to explain. i need you to know that time is running out. if you want to get this done, you need to start now. sloth is your greatest enemy in this world, and you can only run so far from the opposition when you start with such a disadvantage. keep your head high, yeah? the kid you were is still in there somewhere. you need to show him that it was worth it.

#tag games. #oc: dani #oc: diana #oc: ithrenil #oc: reina #so. this quiz was fucked up actually <3 tore my heart out and just stomped on it whadda hell... like i'm sobbing and screaming and wailing #i'm not even joking when i say i teared up over some of these like pLEASE i can't do this!!! like. oh my god. there's so much i could say #about all of these but like omg oughgh like dani's actually made me cry rip i love her so much i love them all so much but something about #that ruined me like she deserves so much aaaaaaaa she's like the most genuine just good out of these guys i'd say. like we know diana is #evil lmao but she's got a lot going on that makes me cry also. ithrenil is like trying so hard to be good but doesn't know how to which #really hurts me. cause after so long of being just. idk. like all survival and self preservation but so much Killing. so much hunting... #ough. the hunter becomes the hunter is their story huh... but reina too like. omg she's just. very much not a good person but still not #evil but also she lichrally kills people and runs a gang to an empire that is very not good lmao idk i have many thoughts i'm oughgugggh