#let me just pick it up. feels so stupid

[toytulini]

so stupid that if i ever want to learn about working on cars id have to crawl under the car. if my car is barely bigger than a golf cart i should be able to just tip it on its side honestly. where do i get one of those things that holds the cow sideways to clean its hooves or whatever. do that to my car

#toy txt post #smh #you want me to put this shit on a jackstand and crawl under it and lay on the floor and risk gid knows what falling on my face??? #when its this small??? bro im gonna invite the group chat over and we're going to just pick it up #discrimination against clown cars #do NOT come onto this post with actual reasons why this isnt done i dont Care im just Whining #I Dont Want To Be Under It #both my real clown car and the clown car i bought from my grandpa to learn stick shift on in the summer are like. beyond small #let me just pick it up. feels so stupid

[moongothic]

Absolute hate how all Oda has to do is make one (1) fictional man with pretty hair to give me raging gender envy

Like this was so unnecessary and cruel, towards me specifically

#Moon posting #OP Meta #Think I'm just annoyed because One Piece doesn't really have very Gender characters **for me** specifically #'Cause most of the characters are either built like shit brick houses or have horrendous fashion senses #Which also applies to King. He is a Fucking Unit and his gimp suit looks horrendous #But you take off his stupid mask and let his pretty hair out and oh no he looks like he looks like a metalhead oh no that's kinda gender #(Like at most there was Sanji Sometimes because he's sufficiently twinkish and I like some of his suits.) #(And look I love him and his stupid self-loathing self-sacrificing ass but also I need to smack the shit out of Sanji and throw him in jail #(Do not let me get started on Hawkins very specifically in his fight against Killer because jesus christ) #(Toei did not have to go that hard on making Hawkins' hair look THAT FUCKING GOOD in that fight) (Dying of jealousy) #(I just want to have pretty long hair (but in a masc way) is that too much for me to ask) #((Feeling down and desperately need some serotonin so I picked up Wano again. Been a while 'cause I was so frustrated with the pacing))

[isfjmel-phleg]

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#random personal stuff #personal whining ahead feel free to ignore #it's sinking in that the increase in the displaying of these 'jokes' at work is related to our boss no longer being here #it can't have been a coincidence that the picture in the inbox went back on top the very day we threw her her goodbye party #apparently this man thinks that she was the one who was pushing back against the nonsense? #and maybe she was - I don't know what went on between them #(though I always got the impression that she seemed a bit afraid of him for whatever reason and just let him do whatever most of the time) #but I'm tired of having to put up with this and angry at the situation in general #and I really will go and talk with the VP of Academic Affairs once I can get some advice from my communications major friend #so I can avoid just walking into her office and exploding #(I don't understand this I don't understand why he feels the need to display these images in the office & always about this now-completely- #irrelevant topic and even if it were relevant the 'jokes' are juvenile and mean-spirited and I know he thinks he's doing the Lord's work in #picking the kinds of books that he does but tell me exactly how this garbage is the Lord's work and what he thinks he's accomplishing with #this other than making himself look petty and giving me further cause for frustration because it isn't just the stupid pictures it's the #pervasive attitude behind them that I have had to deal with for years now and I wish I were a different person so I could get right in his #face and tell him that this is unacceptable and expect to be heard and regarded)

[vermillioncrown]

at the risk of sounding butthurt for talking about not being butthurt: going through quals really prepared me for trawling through fandom meta and research while keeping my zen

#redglyphs #opinionated verm #i have not seen another fandom as salty and divisive as the dc one #all the interesting meta and summaries come with this implicit ''you illiterate idiot'' vibe (exhausting) #or the ''we do what we want and fuck canon'' mindset is taken to the extreme end (simplistic and lacking nuance) #personally the visual style of a lot of western comics grates at me so it's hard to get into #but i do like the wack and fucked up dynamics of canon + trying to imagine a world/chronology around that #i like calibrating what i write around canon -> thus those meta&summary posters are very valuable and interesting to keep up with #i just gotta do 🙈 whenever they start to lambaste ''''fans'''' for not reading the comics/despised fanon reinterpretations of characters #''mmhmm yep. okay okay. i'm stupid. but let's get to why my blorbo is so fucked up bc of [whatever issue/run]'' #like whatever they say they cannot roast me as hard as this one prof from my quals panel did #that prof is basically the successor of the academic lineage that established his discipline #and man utterly destroyed me during the exam #''you have no idea what you're talking about; you didn't even read taylor's hypothesis from 1941'' and i just let my soul evaporate lmao #anyways. i feel like fandom (all fandom and esp ones w sprawling canons) would benefit from two things: #1) willingness to learn (you gotta try to absorb some of the canon to transform it; ''know the rules to break them'') #2) willingness to accept limits (ppl are allowed to pick and choose; ''you gotta tolerate other ppl on the playground'') #and like. fucking chill out. we're all literally writing about some fictional dudes doing fictional things #rarely is a thing you dislike actually harmful rather than just distasteful (to you personally or broadly w/e)

[munamania]

ok im a really chill and normal person and i get over things and am well adjusted but take a walk with me here. just give me my time to complain when im not in the absolute fucking trenches. and yes i believe i suffered more than those in trench warfare. it was literally a lesbian situationship with a bistraight girl come on. just. magenta choppy shag with the roots coming in. camo cargo pants black t shirt with red lettering and striped long sleeve (sign someone likes music. confirmed). lip ring big black stud earrings and nails. red docs. i think lesbians should be allowed to kill one dyke baiter in their lifetime idc

#and now we're gonna get into some quiet parts and youre just gonna let me have this #i. am so sick. first of all it was kinda funny how people ik ended up sorta surrounding her. felt good. but like we've shared a space #together since everything. i can like be in her presence it's seriously fine. that said. i do sometimes miss her #i say this after going through the really hating her guts period bc of her evil evil evil ways. and feeling like she's lame as hell bc she #s. but i mean it's me talking i have my problems too. i Hate the way we always so naturally act in sync. and i hate that we've both picked #each others' brains for hours so it's like. i knew you once and now we can't even look each other in the eye and that just really sucks #and i feel like. not that i strictly believe in these things. but we were sort of twin flames. i largely suffered for like. basically #falling in love w her. and i know i didn't leave as much of a mark. but i still hope it sucked a little for her #and i'll admit i think it'd be some sort of miracle if we could ever talk civilly. unfortunately we work in two ways #literally behaving in Ways and borderline fucking or not speaking. so. here we are #and i already humiliatingly tried to extend an olive branch this summer so im not gonna be fucking stupid. yk #but GOD how annoying. i did talk to situationship today and we were relatively normal so at least that's not deathly awkward #it's still. definitely um. stiff. but not terrible #i need to get to the club. pretend theres a cig emoji im on desktop rn #sorry for this. #film girl saga

[krispiecake]

i hope that everyone is aware that i am trying SO HARD to be normal but the universe is TESTING ME.

#i am trying ao hard not to fall back into old habits rn but jesus CHRIST brooooooooo #i havent been able to get barely any time with the staff i need for the past two days and now #theyre like 40mins late with my meds bc of another tenant #and its not even like theyre WITH the other tenant rn btw there are two members of staff sat in the office just talking #and its like bro. BROOOOOOOO #like they know this shit is SO triggering and i know they cant help some stuff but i still feel like i should be able to get my meds on time #if they arent actively with another tenant #its such a small thing but it helps my brain remember that actually they do still care abt me lol #all ive wanted to do since like wednesday was just watch a movie with my fp now that we’re cool again #and i was waiting in the lounge for like an hour and no one even came in #and its not like we planned anything so im not mad or whatever im just frustrated that #i had a rlly shit night last night and a pretty shit day today #and there just isnt anyone around to talk to bc theyre all dealing with someone else #or not even just sat around talking or whatever #idk this shit makes me wanna punch things burn everything to the ground and then kill myself if im being totally honest rn #and like last night and this isnt my therapists fault or anything but ahe wasnt able to pick up #and i managed to get thru it but it just added to the feeling like no one gave a shit #and its past nine again so she probs wouldnt be able to pick up now even tho i kinda need help again #idk this shit just. its so fucking triggering and i feel insane and so tightly wound #and ive been putting so much effort into my stupid therapy and i just wanna let go and have a full on meltdown again #i wanna take a bunch of pills and scream and cry and throw things and argue and just LET GO #cuz i feel like thats my ‘true nature’ and everything else is just me faking #or masking #AND IM SO FUCKING SICK OF IT ITS SO MUCH EFFORT AND I FEEL LIKE IM GETTING NOTHING BACK

[maxellminidisc]

It's so frustrating when my parents get all defensive like "We didnt make you feel forgotten as kid when did we do that?!" Instead of just listen and it's like HELLO??? *not a single piece of evidence like photos or videos exist of important growth milestones for me when they do for my other three sisters*

#i dont have ANY graduation photos all 3 of my sisters have them that my mom paid for #we dont have my 1st communion photos which honestly feels worse #cause they actually paid for those but never felt assed to pick up #my sister got a quince and theres huge pictures of her plastered around the house #to be fair i didnt want one but theres no photos of my 15th birthday to at least remember it by #like man....look i know yall love me #but lets not act like i wasnt constantly on the bench so to speak the minute my sister was born #when i graduated all my friends and my sisters got lil celebrations and all I got a 😏 cool good job and thats it #like everything i ever did or accomplished was just expected cause i was the stupid parent pleaser kid

[funkylittlebats]

.

#wow okay so ive been reconnecting with my friend who i previously hadn't seen or spoken to in months #and we've been chatting again for abt a month now and she came to my house univited and without warning today and we hung out #even though i really wasn't prepared for company. i decided it was a pleasant enough surprise. she brought cupcakes. #and then she tells me. a trans man. that she. a lesbian. is in love with me #and im now very uncomfortable bc i don't want to date someone who sees me as a girl. and i Know that that's the case here #bc she's said some Kinda Weird yellow flag things abt trans ppl (esp in regards to passing) that ive overlooked bc i enjoyed her company #and she starts crying on my shoulder bc she “can't believe im rejecting her bc i think shes transphobic” #and how she “thought i liked her too” bc i go along with her flirting (when she first started flirting w me i didn't pick up and she- #-made a joke abt how she likes to flirt w men bc shes gay but it looks like im too dense for that joke (said it a friendly way no really)) #(so i didn't realize she was ACTUALLY flirting bc she would still do this to other guys as a joke) #and she “feels so stupid for letting herself be led on by me” and a bunch of other bullshit #and expected me to comfort her while this was going on #which i did bc i didn't know what else to do #and she decided to take THAT as a mixed signal ig and tried to pet me #so i got away from her and got her some water and asked her to leave after she calmed down #and she started crying more but eventually left #and then like an hour later i start getting texts from our friends saying they couldnt believe i was so rude to her #and thought she was a transphobe and shoved her off of me when she just needed comfort #and so now everyone is refusing to talk to me until *i* apologize to *her* #i literally only have one irl friend now bc of this #fuck this shit #and i have fucking class tomorrow #fuck #this #shit

[squibbles-gubwee]

Lolita dresses are so wild because there's basically three varieties.

Beautifully hand crafted ones with gorgeous details and a hand painted and dyed fabric, or a repurposed old dress found at a thrift store that has been embroidered by hand. This took hours, days, months to put together. You found these specific buttons that matched the exact ones in the dress at a consignment shop 2 hours away. This thing is art.

A super expensive 400 dollar dress made by a manufacturer that does not have a thing under 250, by the way you need the matching parasol and boots to complete the look, thats 300 and 600 respectively. We'll ship in 6 months.

You bought a Shein dress. Pattern is unaligned, the frills and ruffles and lace are held together by visible hot glue. the buttons do not function. It may be too big but it is also too small. This will only somehow fit a pre-pubescent kid right, and everyone else looks wrong. You look it up and its a knock off a 500 dollar dress from that one company. Its 120% polyester and has tons of loose strings. Theres a hole. You spent 100 dollars and you want to die.

#lolita #lolita dress #the amount of cons i went to and the friend i had who was lolita basically let me see all these facets #I remember i saw a girl break down in a hall because the dress she ordered arrived THAT day and when she opened it the thing was terrible #and she ended up dropping like 600 dollars that day at a stall in the con #just so she had a dress she could wear to a lolita tea party because they actually had a dress code #which i like still think was stupid bc like...idk it feels super exclusion-y and there might be people who want to go to learn more about it #but anyways #a girl i knew gave me a petticoat bc i needed it for my cosplay and she said to keep it its only 50 dollars and thought i died #lolitas goths and furries man they sure did pick the expensive aesthetics

[gwyoi]

I have a new issue with cricket. She’s doing good at not pawing at the door anymore but she yells at the door and the window so much now. Im 90% sure it’s because there is a stray outside because when she’s in my room she doesn’t yell nearly as much. it’s gotten to the point where her meows wake me up in the middle of the night because she wants so see the stray so I have to keep her in my room so she doesn’t smell or see the other cat (and that usually does the trick because she chills out after that)…… but now I’m like should I keep her in my room every night?? idk

#I feel bad because I want her to be able to perch on the window when I’m sleeping and stuff but her yelling is so loud she is not a fan of #other cats from what her foster mom has told me so I have no doubt it my mind #she would like to go out to fight….. #I keep her in my room but she has food water and litterbox (bedroom connects to bathroom) and she relaxes so much #like when she yells I pick her up usually and she’s just stressing herself out about it I can tell 😭 #ough. #but yeah she’s been playing with toys just fine and I try to play with her right before bed but she still stresses herself out about the #stray. well it might just be an outside cat but we live in the middle of the city so that would be really stupid to let the cat out at night #gwon

[frecklystars]

today was way too overwhelming... it didnt feel like a day off at all 😔

#vent #my irl friends roped me in the middle of their fight and i refused to comment on any of it #bc i dont want to pick sides theyre both my friends #and then my dad and i got into a fight and he yelled over me like he always does #just out of nowhere he blows up at me and wouldnt let me say a single word #work wont stop calling me. work wont stop scheduling me on the wrong days #i have to meet ppl tomorrow... i dont want to... i keep having to Do Things #i have to meet ppl on wednesday too even tho that was gonna be my ONE day off #so i definitely cant draw anything for my HW anniversary this wednesday like i thought #im going to push it one more week. feels stupid and pointless but im pissed off #i never get enough time!!! to draw!!! #and i want to draw HW at least once this month!! this year!!! is that so hard!!! #i rarely get time to eat or sleep or do anything im always just working #and you'd think i'd make money! bc im working! but im not!! #i dont even make $150 per week and im always so tired out of my goddamn mind #i didnt even get paid this week. i worked 30 hours and got nothing #i cant. keep going like this but nothing in my life is changing no matter what i do #im so tired it isnt fair i didnt ask to be alive i just want to fuckign sleep

[tired-needs-sleep]

it's raining. the forcast never said it was gonna rain today and i wore the one pair of shoes that are a sensory nightmare to walk in the rain with

#i hate wet socks and these stupid knockoff uggs let water in SUPER easy #so by the time i take like 4 steps my socks are wet. #and i hate the way shoes feel without socks too #so i'm just. i'm suffering pick me up #sleepy rambles

[menlove]

today has been such a catastrophic shit show that I can only laugh

#in order: #new frat boy called off 30 minutes till opening shift so I had to open alone #brand new hire gets there for her first shift while I'm dealing with like 3 customers alone #other trainer coming in is late #1 of 2 brewers breaks while I'm alone and is steaming everywhere screaming and leaking absolutely everywhere #which we didn't notice the leaking for a good 2 hours #an espresso head breaks (at this point I just started laughing) #at least 5 asiago bagels get stuck in the toaster conveyer belt #I have to start an insulin pump which is fine but I have to feel that pain get triggered by smth stupid sensation wise & face my weight #I go to get an emotional support diet coke from McDonald's but they're closed for everything but ubereats and mobile orders #fine that's cool then I have to turn left across 4 lanes of traffic #lady behind me gets impatient and gets in the RIGHT turn lane to take the first chance to turn left that I should've had #someone finally brakes and makes eye contact to let me through and then as soon as I go to turn they hit the gas #realize their mistake and then we both have to slam on our brakes so we don't die #get home and the cats have thrown up everywhere #I'm literally...... #and I still have to go pick up prescriptions and vote later so god fucking knows what else is gonna happen I'm expecting aliens or WW3

[piplupod]

also i miss my extensive vocab i used to have when i was in grade 4 and younger :(

i was made fun of (bullied? idk) for how overly formal i spoke though so now im just a fucking goober who talks as if theyre trapped inside a tumblr meme 24/7 bc kids-teens in school wouldnt make fun of this way of talking. but now im in the adult world and i have to find a middle ground to avoid trouble but thats so impossible for me esp bc i have such terrible word recall now (thank u memory issues)

i just miss how clear i used to speak and how much i delighted in expanding my vocab and finding new words and putting together sentences in really pleasing ways. sobbing wailing crying pounding my fists on the ground etc :/

#im feeling weird djfjsll sleep deprivation probably #me when i love words so so so much and not in an academia way but just the SOUND of them. i love words and sentences #i love putting together words in the most pleasing way i can <3 #maybe i should pick up writing again but idk its just every-day conversation that makes me happiest #also i am terrified im going to come across as a pretentious prick but i just... love how words sound fhfkfl #i try to keep my words clear while still having a good time with constructing sentences when i do let myself be a little more formal #i never want to confuse ppl or make them feel stupid fjfkdl i just... i just rly like words idk #i feel like maybe this is a bad thing fnfkdl maybe i am a pretentious prick idk aaaa I'll have to figure this out #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[brad-bakshi-loves-bugs]

just opened the google doc for chapter 6 of wafwaf for the first time in like. 3 days whoops

#wafwaf update #wafwaf #we are fleeting we are feeling #fanfiction #IM SORRY YALL #LOOK IVE BEEN PREPARING FOR A BALL PYTHON I JUST PICKED UP YESTERDAY #AND DEPRESSION HIT OUT OF NOWHERE?? WHICH PISSED ME OFF COME ON IVE BEEN MANIC FOR A MONTH LET ME STAY PRODUCTIVE ASSHOLE #AND I STARTED WORKING ON ANOTHER FIC THAT IVE MENTIONED IN PASSING AND NOW IM HYPERFIXATED ON IT #LOOK IN SHORT IM EASILY DISTRACTIBLE THATS ADHD BABY #but i AM really sorry #i literally busted out 1k words for chapter 5 in a single night last week and then came to a halt and now im really not sure how to continue #im so stupid i keep saying chapter 5 but i just clicked on the ao3 of the fic and apparently im on CHAPTER 6??? #EXCUSE ME? #ive been saying 5 for so long yall.............

[kentopedia]

.𖥔 ݁ ˖ LOOK, MOM! — nanami kento

yuuji accidentally calls you mom

contents: nanami x fem!reader, husband nanami hehe, this is very silly and random and stupid, fluff, nanami & reader are yuuji's adoptive parents fr, words: 1059

“nanamin!” yuuji waves at the figure approaching from behind you, a flashy grin appearing on his face as he glances at the blonde man over your shoulder. “i didn’t know you were coming by today!”

kento's hair sweeps over his forehead in the wind, a few strands coming free as he heads towards you. it's a brisk day, and he has two hot coffees in his hands that he'd picked up after his mission.

a bead of sweat drips down yuuji's temple, and he wipes it with his sleeve, still breathing heavily. you'd spent the last hour training together, pushing his physical capabilities. gojo had been busy recently, between all the missions and his conversations with the higher ups.

so, of course, you'd volunteered to teach the newest student when he couldn't. quickly, he became your favorite of the three first years.

“i’m in between assignments.” kento hands you the coffee, places a gentle hand on your lower back with a smile that is hardly there. “mind if i steal my wife away for a bit?”

yuuji shrugs, his face still bright as he glances between the two of you. ever since he’d found out two of his favorite sorcerers were together, he’d hardly shut up about it.

“no problem. i’m going to meet up with fushiguro anyway.” he brushes the dirt off his pants, waving to the two of you.

“good job today, yuuji!” grateful for something to warm you up in the chilly air, you take a sip of the coffee. it’s perfect, as always, just what you needed. “you’re improving a lot!”

he grins, proud of his accomplishments. “thanks, mom! see you later!”

there's an elongated moment of silence.

you choke on your coffee as kento stiffens beside you, watching while yuuji comes to a skittering halt.

all three of you freeze. you cough, clearing your throat, and kento's hand, steady on your back, has stilled. “yuuji—“

“oh,” the teenager says, his face turning bright red as he realizes what he’s called you. he glances between the two of you, embarrassment evident. “i’m so sorry. i didn’t mean to—“

though, you don’t give yuuji enough time to protest. within seconds, you’ve gathered him up in your arms, squeezing the younger boy to your chest. “kento, we have a son!”

you feel yuuji tense, before he relaxes, and throws his arms around you in an even tighter hug. there’s some sort of thanks resting there. he laughs, carefree, a sound you never want to be taken away from the boy who manages to shine so brightly in such a dark world.

kento stares at you, folds his glasses up in his pocket, as if to show you both how unimpressed he is. “do we?” he asks, lips flat, though, you see through the facade to the amusement hidden in his irises. “i'm certain i would’ve remembered something like that.”

you make a face at him, covering yuuji’s ears dramatically. “oh, don’t listen to your dad, yuuji. he’s old, he doesn’t know what he’s saying.”

kento blinks, and then sighs, wrinkling his nose. though, when he sees yuuji’s wide grin, his eager expression, he decides to play along.

“well, then... there must be a lapse in my memory." kento crosses his arms over his chest as he regards the two of your extensively, searching for something. "that would certainly explain the striking resemblance between us.” he says drily.

yuuji laughs, a loud snort. he looks nothing like either of you, but you’re not sure he’s ever gotten to witness kento's sarcastic sense of humor, the one that not everyone really gets.

“exactly!” yuuji quips back to kento’s blank expression. "everyone tells me i have the same smile as my dad!

kento’s trying hard not to let yuuji win that one, but you can see the slight wrinkle around his eye, the tiny quirk of his lips. beside the pink haired boy, you choke out a few giggles, covering your mouth.

“yes," kento nods, solemn. "i’ve heard that as well.”

"so you do know how to make jokes, nanamin!" yuuji shouts, nearly jumping in the air as he cheers. "i can't wait to tell fushiguro this."

kento rolls his eyes, but yuuji’s so pleased, and he releases you, his eyes soft and bright as he pulls away.

though he doesn’t say it, doesn't thank you for anything, you can tell he’s grateful. itadori yuuji may be happy with his life as it is now, may have found a home within the friends he’s made at the high school, but you know he misses his grandfather. sometimes, perhaps, he even longs for the conventional family he never really got to have.

you ruffle his hair, the pink strands catching between the cracks of your fingers. “tell him i said hello too.”

yuuji nods, stuffing his hands in his pocket as he steps away. “i will!” his cheerful gaze is pinned on your husband, a secretive smile making a home on his lips. “bye, dad.”

kento shakes his head, and sighs again, though you can tell, a part of him is touched to have won so much of yuuji's admiration. “have a good evening, itadori.”

you watch the young boy scurry away, hands in his pockets as he braces himself against the cold.

"you should be nicer to your son, kento."

kento snorts, throwing an arm over your shoulder as he brings you closer to him. "i am nice to him," he says, kissing your temple softly. "a little hard on him, maybe, but i just don't want anything bad to happen to him."

you soften, look up at him with warm eyes, and you squeeze the hand that is resting on your shoulder. "i know," you say, your heart clenching. you've thought about it before, thought of kento with a tiny child that looks just like him, cradled against his chest. thought of him with a little girl whose hair he can braid, a little boy he can raise to be a gentleman.

but you hadn't talked about it; you'd always thought your life was too busy, too dangerous for children.

"you'd make a good dad, ken," you say, your cheeks flushed as you grin at him.

kento's eyes flash. "really?" an array of emotions scurries across his features before he leans down, kissing you softly. "is this your way of telling me you want a baby, sweetheart?" his voice deepens as he whispers against your lips, smiling. "because i'm more than happy to give you one."

#kento nanami x reader #jjk x reader #nanami fluff #nanami kento x reader #nanami kento x you #nanami kento x y/n #kento nanami x you #nanami x reader #jjk x fem!reader #jujutsu kaisen fluff #jujutsu kaisen x you #jujutsu kaisen x reader #xoxo rylie 💌 ୧⋆ ˚｡⋆