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epicspheal · 2 years

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When it comes to sensory overloads, I feel like aura users with more empathy or telepathic powers gets the worst of it. Generally it's terrible for everyone, regardless of what your power is, but for empaths and telepaths? Your hearing and feeling EVERYTHING. Emotions and thoughts that aren't yours plus other senses as well? It is so lucky that Jude had a trained Lucario as well as a newly evolved Sylveon when they did. It could've gone terribly bad if they hadn't. I hope none of your characters ( oc or Canon) goes through the same

Anyway, enough angst, aura is pog and your pog too! :)

Hi there @ihopethisendswell!! You're absolutely right that the ones with the empathy/telepathic powers experience the sensory overload the worst. It's again why having proper training, or in Jude's case a Lucario and Sylveon who can help ease their discomfort, is crucial. Otherwise that's just ripe for problems Now uh, unfortunately, my characters do go through it. Remember a lot of the aura guardian culture has been either erased entirely in certain regions or jealously guarded by a few families/clans in other regions. In the few regions that do have an active, open aura guardian culture (Alola, Sinnoh and Kalos) there's still the issue of getting people with aura powers there (financial situations, just even the knowledge that this exists). So this leads to a lot of people entering sensory overload and suffering. Red, N and Hop are the primary examples of this in Cactusverse. This sensory overload is one of the reasons Red runs off to Mt. Silver for 3 years in the first place. N is probably the most tragic example as Ghetsis exploited the sensory overload by putting him with Pokemon that had been hurt to warp his thinking about the relationship between humans and Pokemon. For Hop, the sensory overload is the in-universe justification as to why he gets flustered in battle which allows all of that knowledge he has on Pokemon to go to waste in crucial moments. Since I'm a "earn your happy ending" type of writer, thankfully all three of them do get relief. Red's time up on Mt. Silver does work out in allowing him to overcome the sensory overload and accidentally become a full fledged aura guardian in the process. N being able to journey through Unova up until his defeat in his castle allows him to slowly learn to manage the sensory overload. This gets even better when he flies off on Reshiram for two years. And then Hop eventually gets to train with Mustard (one of two full fledged aura guardians in Galar and the only one that isn't an evil jerk) which allows him to control and better make use of his powers (much like how Leon got to train with Mustard to handle his own powers all those years ago).

#champion red #trainer red #trainer n #rival hop #cactusverse #ask epic spheal

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slowpokesami · 4 years

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Agony (N fanfic)

[SPOILERS!!! of pokemon Black and White] [TW: anxiety, suicidal thoughts, parental abuse]

I can hardly stand on my feet. Damn… I feel really dizzy and my entire body is shaking. I can hardly breathe and I feel like I could fell on the floor at any moment.

Why me? Why me? Please, Arceus, answer… why me? Well, that might be useless. I’ve even lost my faith in Arceus at this point. I don’t trust anyone, not even myself.

How can I have been so wrong all this time? How can I have been so wrong? I’ve been deceived, and used. I feel like a toy, like… I don’t know, I can’t even put this into words.

I just can’t breathe thinking about how, the man who was supposed to be my dad… no, actually my dad, my real dad, could he be so evil?

I’ve spent two days walking through Unova, confused. The children were having fun with their fathers and their mothers. They were loved, I guess. They were hugged, kissed and listened… like I did with my pokemon. But they did so with their children… their human children.

All the fuckin’ bastard of a dad I have ever did was come day after day into my room to tell me how evil humans are, and how lovely pokemon are. And yet, he was the real proof of how evil humans are, and my pokemon were proof of how lovely pokemon are. I was raised to be a king, a hero, the powerful N who would liberate all pokemon from their evil trainers… or so I thought, ‘cause in the end, I ended up being just a tool, a fucking tool; that’s what I was supposed to be; that was the meaning of my life.

What do I have to do with it now?

I feel empty; completely empty and lost. Does my existence have any meaning? Do things even make sense? Why do I exist?

All I can feel is my heavy breath; I would like to cry but my eyes are dry; not a single tear comes from them. I can’t even feel emotions

...

I feel dizzy… I feel dizzy…

Somebody help me… help me… please…

That’s it. I should die. What else can I do? I have no family, I have no friends, I have no… no idea of what I should do now. Zekrom and I left far, far away from Unova. I can’t tell where we are now. Just a new unknown land from the old unknown world

I should die.

My existence has no meaning.

I’m lost, I’m sick, I feel dizzy… my body feels heavy.

That’s it, that’s what I needed. A precipice. I am a lucky boy.

Maybe I should re-think about it?

…

But I have no escape. If I don’t do it, he will do it for me. I’m sure he will come with his weapons – cause that’s how he treats pokemon, as weapons, as tools, as he treated his son – and will make sure to kill me; ‘cause I’m not siding with him again. I rather be dead. I SO rather be dead.

But I don’t want him to be the end of me.

So I will do it myself.

What else can I do?

…

...

Nothing.

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It looks deep

I looks… dark...

Or maybe it’s all in my head…?

‘cause my head is darker than any precipice...

Than anything.

…

That’s it, just jump, this way you will end with this suffering

Jump, Natural, jump…

…

Shit…

I’m falling…

Good bye my little pokemon, it’s been a pleasure…

Good bye, Touya, see ya’ in hell…

…

Good bye Ze-

…

It feels fluffy

Is it how Hell is? It feels more like Heaven.

It reminds me to… to…

...Zekrom?

...

Zekrom… you saved my life…

I can’t think no more… I’m too tired… I just can… hug Zekrom.

It feels fluffy…

Just... Just like heaven…

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Writer’s note: hello! I hardly publish stuff I write apart from comics, so I hope you find it interesting. I like to write about complicated psychologies and N really captivated me. He has a very powerful background; one can easily empathize with him but I think it’s not that easy to understand how he was really feeling after all the Plasma incident happened. I really think he should be broken, and thinking about it I couldn’t help myself from writing this text. Agony is the only thing he could be feeling. Come and cry with me for N.

Also I plan on continuing it with a short comic about N in my invented region Mysteria. Would you like to read that? Thanks @lightninghikari for the corrections! <3

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