#maybe im perseverating

[sacrificethelamb]

-burrows into a stuffed animal pile with no intention of returning-

#this is my home now #im so tired and anxious and i think winter might be evil tbh #or maybe i just need to touch some grass (probable) #my brain is mean #but we shall persevere #sacrifice speaks

[ciceroballtorture]

me and my mutuals could have done chinon, 1183. easily.

#.text #maybe not easily but with perseverance im sure we would have gotten there

[puphoods]

what tha hell is with these orange cunts

#et cetera #stop.... can they like team up on u or something help #i think maybe im somewhere i shouldnt be so early. but i persevere

[mariemariemaria]

Does anybody else feel the waves of history crashing over them constantly and like they can't escape the generational trauma that permeates and poisons every interaction they have or do I just need to chill and have a drink lol

#'our day has come and we are here. we are alive here. we've built this place. we suffered and starved here. #we own not an acre of land we belong to it. the land of cú chullain and macha. ní muid 'hungry crocodiles'. we are full. #full of knowledge. and talent. and success. #full of drink. and drugs. and stories. #agus beautiful ceol. that spills on sundays. from the windows of ancient pubs like smoke #tá vóta agam. tá acht Gaeilge agam. agus táimid sa rialtas. #we are the landscape. we are the trees and the rivers and the mountains. an integral piece of someone else's infrastructure. #growing strong between cracks in the concrete.' #and whatever else seán an seanchaí said..... #would recommend his instagram. his posts always hit #ngl tho when men post stuff like this about ireland i always think...do you see the similarities between this and patriarchy tho? #but maybe im better off not knowing the answer #whatever!!! we will persevere!!! we will help one another and build trust and relations and improve no matter what governments say or do!!! #just like generations have been doing before us!!! and we who have benefited from our parents making this place better will work to make it #better for our children. who will make it better for theirs. #and maybe i need to stop shying away from difficult conversations. maybe we all do. and maybe then we'll be okay. #my thoughts on mental health + the north + my own personal experience is such a mish mash of several different things #im only truly starting to realise that it's all connected. yes i got depression because i was lonely and vulnerable. but also because of th #trauma my family's been through. and sometimes i feel so angry thinking about what certain family members have been through #and there has been too much silence surrounding it. but maybe i just have to feel the anger and sadness and allow myself to feel it #but continue reaching out and trying to talk and having cups of tea and walking my dog and making memories. #memories that aren't political or based on trauma. to get out of my head and realise that yes this was a terrible thing #but there's so many good things too. and the best thing i can do is to try to make life better for those who lived through the worst of it #and make society better for those who are too young to know any of it yet. #instagram is actually a tonic for me sometimes. would never get such taig specific posts on here like the one from seán #which is probably a good thing lol

[citrusitonit]

ive been writing a fanfic and ive never felt so much like an author i havent had a proper sleep in 2 weeks and ive got 12 tabs open

#just so i could accurately describe terrains and not make characters ooc #its a science fiction whay the hell am i doing #since its a reader insert im also tryna make it super inclusive #as much as i can #but also keep the mc interesting #GRRR #IM BARELY HALF FINISHED WITH CHAPTER 1 #I ONLY FINISHED PROLOGUE #EVERYTIME IM LIKE “maybe this is much more than i can handle i cant do this” #I REMEMBER THAT SENKU ISHIGAMI WOULD NEVER GIVE UP #PERSEVERE PERSEVERE REEAGHHH #NEVER LOSE SIGHT OF WHY U WANTD 2 DO THIS #MY FIRST FANFIC REEAAGHHHH #NEVER GIVE UPR AHHHH

[thotsfortherapy]

I love academia I love homework I love doing readings I love writing scientific papers I love literature reviews I love research <- lying btw

#cy says stuff #my semester starts on monsay #but im bussing back to my uni and the person beside me whipped out their ipad and started doing work #like bestie we still have a few days caj you please chill #it is stressing me out LMAO #it's okay. i will ignore it. #hey my gpa wasn't bad this semester! and i got an A+ for the first time in my uni career #just goes to show i was built to argue not to write scientific essays... alas #god i am not your strongest soldier but i will persevere 🙏 #i am going to try to see more ppl too. maybe a one on one hangout every few weeks too #cause i miss doing that kind of stuff and going back home really reminded me of how much i just like talking to ppl! #so hopefully more coffee dates in my future!

[erzvolnes]

anyway i went for a 15 minute walk today that wasnt at all strenuous or unusual from what i usually do but now my Bad Leg has swollen to twice its size and it feels like my Bones and Tendons have Glass ground up in them so thats where im at health-wise rn

#i am in so much pain i feel Honestly on the Cusp of crying at any moment!!!! #but i must persevere #im going to lay down and put some ice on it and see how it is tomorrow #and maybe call the doctor again if its still this bad in a few days bc it might be the dreaded Rupture

[loverofallthingssmart]

ohhh i can feel the entire summer catching up to me

#one thing u must know is that i could work myself into a grave #not by working 24/7 but by working on so many things in a small time and losing myself in the grind. #it is not good i am aware i KNOW what i shld be doing instead believe me i dont need advice. but like #i feel ill. but like im still functional and i dont have a fever so im going to sleep it off soon ! good night i have another eatly morning #w a to do list but i WILL persevere !!!!!!!! i got a weird little book from the library and i will finish it in 2 days!!! #also i got two shots and my blood drawn so maybe that also has smth to do w it. #REGARDLESS!! GOOD NIGHT BESTIES!!

[thekidsarentalright]

i think im learning to fall in love w life and the world again :]

#slowly. ever so slowly. but i can feel it #i have let negativity consume me recently which is soooo not me i need to let negativity as a coping mechanism go #and like im still depressed but. i wanna be more positive abt it. if that makes sense #like yes im depressed but i still love the world and life. im depressed but i can get through it. i can persevere. something like that idk #need to journal abt what im feeling and then maybe i'll be able to express it better JFNDK #txt

[sucharide]

food issues in the tags BC my tummy is still fucking awful

#It just feels like this could be potentially triggering content!!!!!!! #and i love you guys #so #yeah #i fasted for about 36 hours and look i know there was never any guarantee that would fix me #but everything i eat feels fucking hideous #so i thought maybe if i just. dont eat for a bit? #anyway i feel absolutely no better except now i have a headache and im very fatigued. #im trying my best to choke down some pumpkin soup but it tastes #so bad???? ans the texture is disgusting??? everything feels and tastes disgusting. #i will persevere tho bc all ive eaten is some crackers and a baby food pouch this afternoon #and that was the first thing i'd eaten since yesterday morning. #so i really do need to choke something down. work tomorrow and all.

[shadowfox-sketchbook-258]

To everyone who ever cared about Perseveration, I’m sorry

#i straight up let it die #school got to be too much so i dropped it #however; i may pick it up now that I’m graduated #not immediately of course #im gonna get a bit ahead with it THEN start posting it again #maybe i’ll set up something on ko-fi or get patreon so people can see progress or see pages early idk #maybe thats too ambitious #perseveration au #undertale au #deltarune au #fox.txt

[sixofravens-reads]

Have finished Juniper and Thorn and Seasonal Fears, so I'm back to Fortuna (ahead of schedule!!). Think I'm going to stick with it now as I'm a little burnt out on fantasy and especially fairytale-based stuff, as well as slow and contemplative kind of writing styles. "Hard scifi adventure in space" sounds like exactly what I need to refresh my mind.

#it's 560 pages but I'm hoping i can persevere and read it in a week #once im done that maybe I'll feel like reading some of the novellas i got lol #thinking about reading

[thursdayg1rl]

god FINALLY this hell day is over

#just nearly threw up bc i coughed so hard...... #how can i continue to live. in these conditions. still we must persevere #it is killing me how close i am to getting out of here like i sctually cannot physically give up #im also worrying abt my sister now #bc shes going to have to go through like all of sixth form alone #like she is the only person who talks to me some days and idk maybe she has friends unlike me but. the thought of it is scary #coming home and its only you and her in the house.. andthen that every day for two years..

[puppygirlkat]

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#i dont know when ill have the will to finish this album #it is horrifying #it is stressful #i dread it #i think about it and i dread it #it hurts so much #but i have to finish it #it is important to me #i just dont know if im mentally in a place where i can #maybe it isnt great dredging the horrors of my psyche #i worry about the reception it will have #jack has listened to it and told me its really good #his favorite thing of mine that hes heard #its just hard its so hard #but its not finished yet #there are two more songs to record #the next one is the hardest #but i will persevere #rat thots #i love you all #i love my fans #when you listen to this you might think wow she is really not ok #and maybe i am maybe im not #but i love my girlfriend and my friend and i will be ok #ok long rant over

[britneyshakespeare]

why has working two days in a row started to do that to me again? i got out of work almost four hours ago but i cant move

#idk maybe my immune system is still weak after recovering from that nearly-two-week-cold #the first couple weeks of the school year were going well #i dont have anything scheduled tomorrow which is good bc it seems like i didnt have a choice #bc i could not go in tomorrow even if i wanted to #tales from diana #i wanted to eat after i got home but once i started lying down i just couldnt do it #i found myself doing that thing today where as i was rushing around the school i ws like 'idk how im doin this everything hurts im so tired #i suppose there's just a perseverance despite all the signals and the knowledge that i cant RLY do that #so there's like a mental fortitude to withstand a temporary pain which necessitates an even worse delayed recovery #this isn't just me working two days in a row but working two days for the first time in two weeks #since i didnt work while i was sick #'sick' as in i had that cold (and i tested three times & all were covid negative dw) #i thought i was starting to get better from the health problems i was experiencing in the spring but pls dont tell me god its still as bad #i feel like im either gonna die or become debilitated for the rest of my life bc medical professionals refuse to take me seriously #ok you know what. im gonna stop now so i dont cry byyyye

[vamptastic]

woke up at 5pm stummy hurts head hurts i have to take 5 medications and do the goddamn dishes. life is hell. nevertheless i stay chill and relaxed. due to the medications.

#have panic attack meds that i never use (got prescribed them last year bc i was having a ROUGH time with family stuff) #like i got prescribed 30 of them six months ago and ive used maybe 5-10 of them. and i usually have to take multiple per attack #i have used... four this week so far. bc ive had a panic attack every morning. Odd! #they're not that bad like i literally just start breathing too hard and cant control my heart rate and the meds take care of it within 30min #they're just antihistamines so not addictive or dangerous or anything just help w the heart rate thing #but!! idk whats wrong with me! i mean i do im super behind academically and its terrifying. but normally im fine #its easy to forget that i like have a Disorder and that most ppl do not have daily panic attacks when they're nervous abt things #uh. idk. i need to find a local therapist and talk to my advisor and mayb a school counselor until i find a therapist? #but then the process of like booking an appointment and also admitting how much ive fucked up my grades is also #going to give me panic attacks. ah well. nevertheless i persevere. i walk in the valley of the shadow of death etc etc. #for now im going Home for the weekend and my only goal is to make a list of what i need to do to get back on track #and book appointments. Also change my name but thats NBD i already did all the work for that