#mentally ill experiences tend to be a double edged sword don't they

[halinski]

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#me: being in the mental ward on suicide watch and in the bpd clinic was horrid and traumatizing #also me: what if i romanticize it with my fave ships and make them fall in love there 😍😍😍 #my 1am delusions: this must mean i miss it #mentally ill experiences tend to be a double edged sword don't they #when they're not plain horrible #like i guess i wouldn't be alive without my stays there but am i randomly triggered by just casually thinking back to them #yeah #absolutely #ignore me #also also me after being triggered by my parents today: what if... #all my life im just being prepared to mentally endure to step in and be in the midst of (probably when and not) if #violence (or war aka genocide) breaks out again in bosnia #what if i'm meant to heal and not want to die so i can go and actually survive fighting for my life in real life life-or-death #and then use my now kinda first aid knowledge to help too #i'm falling back into *hackles raised* fighting to my last breath instinct no thoughts panic tonight #but i am aware so we can work on processing that #are we tho? probably not #delete in the next 5 mins probably #bc im being a whiney bitch

[strawberrybabydog]

I've also seen it from the "spiritual 'kin are the only valid experience worth discussing, everyone else is just roleplaying" perspective but it's less common than the "don't call me human" thing

OKAY YES THIS WHOLE "X IS MORE VALID THAN X" THING IS SO FUCKING WEIRD

in otherkin+ communities the spiritual otherkin are the Most Valid, and i think this is just because thats how the community started and the idea that mental illness and neurodivergency (obviously not all psychological 'kin have their 'kinity tied to these, but thats what people usually think when they see psychological) is more of a newer thing - one which terrifies old spiritual otherkin, because thats how they've been bullied for decades; by being called mentally ill. aaaannd because they tend to have really sanist views alongside that, that too. spirituality tends to be more flowery as well which doesn't really help psychological otherkin who typically like to have more fun with their identity see: my name is literally "babydog"

in KFF communitities it's the complete opposite. the more mentally ill you are, the more valid your identity is - sort of. thats why delusional attachment exists - they don't understand how psychosis (and specifically delusions) actually work so they think if you take your identity seriously, it must be delusions. obviously not true but regardless this is very much a double edged sword for them, because they're also very sanist. much more so from what i've seen. so delusional attachments are the highest form of "validity" your identity can have, because its the most mentally ill, while simultaneously being a really sanist insult - if you're Actually mentally ill, or mentally ill in a way they dont find palatable, they're very sanist to you. i dont think KFF really have strong views on spiritual "kinning" because it doesnt really exist in their community though

i really wish we'd stop with the validity olympics and accept that everyone experiences alterhumanity differently, and there's not really a wrong or even lesser way to experience it. get off your high horse! unless you are a tall horse, in which case.... uh, lay down? /j

#dogcourse #asks #not dog #on kff #delusional attachment #otherkin

[teasandcardigans]

so u are aromatic and asexual?

nope nope!

i realized i might have worded that last answer weird so to explain a bit better:

i am a hopeless romantic in every way and i crave love and intimacy with another person so deeply- in theory. but because of my past experiences with relationships in the past, opening up to someone like that again tends to make me shut down a bit. i want it, i want to fall in love with someone and be intimate with someone so badly that sometimes it hurts because i am the reason that the potential relationship never quite works out.

talking about my fear of emotional vulnerability forces me to actually be emotionally vulnerable,, do you see the double edged sword here?

i'm a romantic at heart. i'm quick to catch feelings and sometimes i think i display hypersexual tendencies right out of the gate, so i don't believe i'm asexual or aromantic

baby, i think i'm just mentally ill 😎👉🏼

#teasandmoots #what is going on #why do i keep getting these #like #?????? #congrats you're learning more abt my trauma