#no clue where the seizures are coming from! can't figure it out because they only happen during those specific nightmares!

[cluster-b-culture-is]

cluster b (or trauma) culture is the fucking nightmares!!! they never stop!!! give me a break!!!!!

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#cluster b culture is #cluster b #npd #aspd #bpd #hpd #Mod Reef #anonymous #dear god yeah #at least 50% of my dreams are nightmares. and for some reason a specific type of nightmare ends up with me waking up to a seizure #no clue where the seizures are coming from! can't figure it out because they only happen during those specific nightmares! #and those nightmares can't be predicted since i don't even dream 80% of the time #so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[crazywolf828]

That is very much an eating disorder symptom. I was in a similar situation with one as a teen. Took a couple years to work out of the habits, though I still have a few. Actively trying new foods, even when I wasn't thrilled to, help me alot. Along with the strict eating schedule a 40 hour work week gives you.

But it's kinda a thing you need to recognize in your lifestyle and see what works for you. I don't think there's many good tips to give eating disorders that aren't directly trauma based.

Imma drop my response under a read more just in case anyone is sensitive to the topic

(In case anyone is wondering I'm particularly talking about arfid which this video does a fairly good job explaining)

Honestly I think it probably comes from being poor as a kid and so like growing up I only ever had a constant of three things to eat (besides at school) so I'd just eat one of those for months at a time. Or maybe I already had it and that's why I only ate spaghetti O's for months straight. Like I get on a kick of food (I used to call it a hyperfocus like a fool) and will only eat that. Like over summer I literally only ate pizza which, as you can figure, not very healthy plus my thyroid is already fucked up as it is and makes it so I can't fucking gain any weight which is shitty so that is unhelpful

But you're right, It's also that 'saftey food' thing which I know is also an ADHD/autism thing, where you know what this food is like, you've had it before. It's safe. But sometimes I'll just go days without eating, not for like a body image issue, but because I just don't think about it. I don't get the cues, until I'm shaking, my nystagmus kicks in, I'm like on the verge of a seizure, it beats me over the head three days later and by then I feel too nauseous to eat anything.

And I know I have to eat, I usually manage at least twice a day, once when I wake up and once when I go to sleep (our current 'safe' food is microwavable cheeseburgers btw🥲) but, and I know you feel this, reverse sleep schedule can be rough just in general. I have no one to force me to eat in the middle of the night y'know? So then I just kinda won't.

As for trying new foods, I have been actually! My mom got this new instipot thing and she's been cooking non-stop. I hated everything except the broth she made from the left over bones🥲

Anyway thanks for letting me word vomit here, no clue if it even makes sense because I also haven't slept! But I wanna get better, wanna try. I know it's not a fun thing to joke about like "haha I've only had monster the past three days" but you know better than most, I'm really inept with feelings until it's too late, so my go to is comedy😅

#thanks luv i appreciate it really #honestly i also recently got diagnosed being manic depressive so i think when that mania takes off it sure doesnt help yknow? #im just all fucked up unfortunately #anyway thanks a lot luv just venting was helpful #im going to go eat some granola bars at least #don't mind me #answered #anon #ask #arfid #tw eating disorder #just in case