#no matter how much I want to drink it

[ruporas]

drank too much

[ID: Digital Art of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun Maximum. Vash’s body is turned slightly away from the viewer as he holds a staggering Wolfwood by his shoulder. He has one foot ahead of the other, the foot in the back used to stabilize himself from tipping over. Wolfwood is tethering into Vash, his weight pressed into him with his arms wrapped around Vash’s waist and his face is hidden away as he leans against Vash’s shoulder. Vash’s expression can be seen, his eyes wide and mouth tight-lipped, and his face is flushed red. A speech bubble comes out from Wolfwood, saying a drawled “Spikeyyy...”. The background are desaturated pastels of blue and green, showing night time, as they stand in the middle of an empty street that is also lit by the moon not depicted. Yellow light is seen coming from the inside of a saloon. End ID]

#vashwood #Vash the Stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #when i think of who handles their alcohol best -- it's going to be vash naturally. considering his age but also his plant biology? #idk how his plant biology comes into things but it feels like it makes sense... and helps build his tolerance... also he's canonically #a bit of an alcoholic i think... one of his vices. and im sure ww drinks but his go-to comfort is through smoking not drinking #slight detour but the barkeeper was also like i'm the angel that provides drinks for these troubled souls. all i could think of is #a parallel from ww to vash... vash going thru this hell on his own during that point in the chapter and ww is the angel who will give him #his space and then also save him later. But anyway. that's a completely different topic. as a result of ww Not being much of a drinker #i feel like he'd be clingy... a LOT less verbal but more physically affectionate #i feel like he'd be able to speak as he normally does but when he wants to ask for something he'd just reduce it down to names #spikey needle noggin while tugging on vash's arm. vash explodes immediately #this is also very self indulgent if u cant tell. #i was just thinking that ww while sober is a hard cage to crack through no matter how close vw gets to one another. #while ww can end up being emotionally vulnerable -- has to at some point within their relationship -- he still just has tons of trouble #navigating his own personal wants. #ruporas art

[tomwambsmilk]

Anyways in the 48 hours since the trailer dropped I have actually developed a mysterious illness which I’ve decided is Tom-induced. I’m like a lovesick Victorian with asbestos in her walls

#actually I’m thinking about going to the emergency room bc this doesn’t feel like a normal cold but it’s also kind of a bizarre collection #of symptoms #I’m super thirsty no matter how much I drink and also I can’t stop coughing?? #idk I don’t really want to go into emerg so I’m thinking of seeing if I can sleep it off and going in if it’s still there tomorrow #it’s all Tom’s fault <3 #physical manifestation of thirstiness and breathlessness or something idk

[eltehdork]

Watching central park is fun when youve watched shows that are bad and see concepts handled by them handled so much better

#case in point: Abby Tillerman is what Charlie Morningstar SHOULD have been #an almost naively optimistic kindhearted goofball who sees the good in everyone #but NOT to the point of being a total spineless pushover #she only takes rhe abuse for so long before she snaps at the person causing all of her grievances #and she doesn't continue to cling to 'theres good in you' because it doesnt matter whether or not theres good deep deep down #when your actions are always bad with no remorse #she calls bitsy bad #and calls her out on her shittiness #if hazbin hotel had the writing of central park it couldve been incredible #think about it both are adult cartoon musicals but only one actually pulls it off without being outrageously offensive and comically edgy #like how a teenager would write an adult show versus how an adult writes one #i put the rant down here cuz i dont want to actually summon the hazbins #theyre fucking crazy. did you know a group of nasty fanatics full on drove someone to suicide??? thats fucked up!!!! #i dont want that to happen to me cuz the crazy fans cant accept criticism of their show #IT COULD HAVE BEEN GOOD IT HAD SO MUCH GOING FOR IT AND THATS WHAT MAKES ME ANGRY #one last thing: redemption has to be wanted in order to be earned. you cant redeem someone if they dont WANT to change #that is what brings abby above charlie #she recognized a person who refuses to do anything that benefits others and realizes theres no changing that #and gets out #you can scrap and claw and fight all day but despite how much you yank the reigns on that horse you can not make it drink

[kalakilo]

i think i need to see all of us strangers again

#need to see 'how about i come in anyway. if not for a drink then...whatever else you might want. there's vampires at my door' #need to see 'they say its a very lonely kind of life' 'they dont say that actually' #need to see 'i know how easy it can be to stop taking care of yourself' #need to see every moment!!! there are so many moments i miss so much #no matter how sad they made me #most beautiful portrayal of loneliness ive ever seen

[cantofworms]

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#ok ik all the hot take asks are pre much done and the sparkly say smth nice asks are better but well I’ve been having thoughts all day at #work and want to get them out now so that’s what I’m doing lol #obvs for the past few months i think ppl are vv heavily leaning into the dnf /r and I firmly believe that they aren’t #like yes I enjoy being a multi shipper but I still primarily read dnf fics bc they’re cute dnf writers and artists MWAHH ilysm #but it’s been increasingly annoying how every move dnf make ppl hyper obsess over it and ignore everything else like blog what u want this #is tumblr dot com but I think ppl how only see dnf thro the lens of romantic do much more ‘harm’ than ppl who dont #like the argument about taking validation out of their very REAL amazing friendship just gets over shadowed by omg Dream posted a pic of #geogre they’re in LOVE and sucking and FUCKING every night. like #and then completely disregard when dnf do and say the exact same shit about all their other friends #like dream has explicitly said they aren’t dating (ignore that tho) amd that’s he’s kissed multiple ppl since coming out (ignore that too) #and their friends naturally say that they’re all single (ignore that too) idk man it’s ok they like to pander amd that dream is a toxic #dnfer but it’s all just For Funsies. another thing is ppl CONSTANTLYYYY putting geohres sexuality under a microscope oh he drinks lemonade #from Starbucks he’s soooo gay like dumb shit like that is so irritating #the fact that geogre has never once talked about his sexuality except that one instance where he got a DONO about it proves how much it #just doesn’t matter or apply to the type of content creator he is/wants to be #to be clear if he is or isn’t or dnf every explicitly announce their romantic relationship im gonna be sooooo happy and supportive like aw #dnfogies🫶🏻 but I think there’s a 99.9% chanve that’ll never happen so maybe we should all just care a Little Less and focus on out lgbt #creators if that’s smth u wanna watch/blog about idk maybe I’m just burnt out from the phandom but whyyyyy does is matter what their #sexualities are they play minecraft who cares who CARESSSS idk maybe just having older brothers around dtqk ages has made me realize that #guys will just act homiesexual no matter What #guys are just Like That and tbc I’m not saying that just bc gnf hasn’t made an official coming out doesn’t mean he’s not queer but for the #sake of his contwnt it doesn’t matter either way ? so why are ppl talking about it on the daily idk man it’s just annoying but Oh Well #at the end of the day they’re all famous white guys and nothing matters hurray !!

[slippery-minghus]

oh no. i feel like if i do not consume an entire load of bread in the very near future i will simply cease to exist.

#very uh. very worried about my finances right now #like. i'm fine. i have some savings. but i also just got to put something into my savings for the first time in a VERY long time and now #now i immediately have to take it out #and i'm getting stressed out about buying groceries #because if i dip into my savings here what about there? where is the line? #and i owe so much to taxes but i can't exactly afford getting less of my pay...... #my last paycheck was $0.66 more than my rent #my insurance is refusing to reimburse the last of my electrolysis visits from last year and like #i'm SO over the fight but that's $120. that i really actually kinda need? #and i'm starting to get that funny in the head feeling about wondering how i'm going to feed myself #i still feel so much shame about that funeral i went to years ago and my only thought during the reception after was about #how there was just so much food and i could actually eat my fill #i have leftovers for dinner tonight and it's fine but.... making a lovely vegan dish wasn't the best choice tbh #i feel like if i don't have a large helping of bread and meat i'm going to go insane #and it really REALLY doesn't help that i've apparently lost the ability to eat in the mornings #so i'm at quite a significant fuel deficit and it's stacking #but no matter how hungry i am in the morning the concept of processing solid food is just repulsive and daunting #eating a clif bar at 9am would take literally all of my spoons for the day #i was looking at protein shakes since i can handles *drinking* breakfast #but the cheapest one that meets my dietary requirements is $35 for a 12pack #and i'm uh. i'm worrying over spending $10 on produce this week #personal #and nevermind that i don't have the spoons to even GO shopping (: #(on an aside i switched back to my regular melatonin gummies last night and i Actually Slept. so hopefully that will continue and help some) #i just want to curl up in a ball on the floor and have someone gently place a roll of bread and hunk of cheese next to me in my enclosure #also it's photophobia season and i still feel like i haven't recovered from saturday #got too much sunlight and was nauseaus for half the day #my body feels so bad

[pale-cheezit]

Its funny how often customers ask me what i think of certain food items on the menu. Im never gonna say i dont like something. I don't understand what they expect me to say! Seriously, why do people do that?

Questions like "Is the buffalo chicken wrap any good?" Or "how is the santa fe?" I dont know what you people want from me!

[sysig]

I like him a normal amount (lying) (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #Max Vyer #Dexter Favin #Was I about to type ''Helix Mainfic'' in reference to these wh - I mean Technically but??? #Anyway lol #Couple'a random Max's to start <3 Love him #So some of these were made with my .5 and some with my .3 - can you guess which ones? :3 #The first one and the last two (and of me lol) were my .5 - the inner three are .3 ♪ #You know it's gotten bad when it's not even an Idea necessarily just Want To Draw Pretty - I'm familiar with that pft #He's pretty tho! Love Max ♥ #Man if Max's snap had come in the form of Fight rather than Flight - he's a twig but I doubt Anyone would've come out of that unscathed #Anger can make a monster out of almost anybody haha #Pretty boy ♥ My .3 is so fun for soft detailing! And Max is pretty much all soft details lol #Cryings ah </3 Dexter's mention of Max's emotions in his meetup with ZEX got me thinking! #Sadness really does trend low on the emotions he's willing to express in company - even when Dex has seen him cry before - like here #It was out of anger so much more than sadness - no wonder he was spooked by ZEX's sudden grief! Max is fairly private with sadness #Or at least he turns it into anger if he's backed into a corner - drinking by himself and making things harder for everyone else haha #And finally his and Dex's difference in the retelling of the story!! Hehe ♪♫ #Since I first read Helix I've been under the impression that what Max told Katherine was - well - how he described it lol #A kind of self-deprecating joke at his own expense - thus his confusion at her reaction of seeming hurt #But that's not what he said at all! That's not even close to how he told it!! Hahaha ♪ Biased narration <3 #I even got a second opinion and we shared the same interpretation so it wasn't just a matter of failing to pick up his meaning hehehe Max! #He's so rude ♥ Terrible man ♪ He's the worst <3

[just-screaming-into-a-void]

So I just learned how to make bread, but I still can’t get my math grade above a 70

Anyway still waiting on the ADHD diagnosis cause they had to run it again without gender stereotypes cause I’m nb. So I’ll just be over here failing math

#hyperfixation #adhd #adhd problems #me and my therapist legit went over the test and it was like yes adhd #and now they’re running it again so I have to do all my finals unmedicated #i fucking hate this #like I’m getting 60s and all I can do is wait #cause no matter how much work I put in or how hard I try that’s the best I can do #Maybe I need to start drinking caffeine again #I stopped cause it makes me tired but maybe it’ll help #please I just want to cry #leave me and my bread alone

[inkykeiji]

Did you know the voice actor who voices Dabi also does a character in serie attack on titan? I must admit I didn't recognize it at first. Just saw his name pop up. - 🦒 ps: I still have my answer in the drafts about the holiday. It got way too long🙈

so i’ve been told!! (*/ω＼*) i don’t watch attack on titan so i wouldn’t know hehe but i’ve been told that he’s in that and that he’s in demon slayer! sighs dreamily hiro is so talented and his voice makes me swoooooon

also!!! that’s okay!! send it whenever u feel like sending it, no pressure at all! <3

#do u know how much money i would pay to have this man call me and just talk in my ear #in japanese or in english it really doesn’t matter #in his dabi voice or in his real voice i don’t even care #ugh <33333333 #omg u know who else has a gorgeous voice???????????? #kouki uchiyama #(aka tomura) #ohhhhhhh my good god #that man!!!!!!!!!!!! #i just want him to call me and read the japanese phone book to me or something like genuinely don’t even care what it is or what language it #is his voice is just so fucking hot it makes me melt #now u got me all hot and bothered over voices #hehehehehe #have a wonderful day sweet giraffe <3 #keep safe and drink enough water okay!!! #🦒.anon #clari gets mail

[rosicheeks]

hiiiiii uh this may be a bit off of my usual format but just wanted to share: last night i had my first time wearing a dress in public, at a gathering with some other trans and queer people, and despite a little anxiety bc of everything going on with regards to trans people rn, i had a lot of fun and took comfort in looking good and being around people like me 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 and i wanted to share a little happiness in the gender euphoria <3

-🌸

🥰🥰🥰

#OMG LOVELY THIS MADE ME SO HAPPY #thank you so so much for sharing #I hope this might reach other trans people who have been scared and discouraged with everything going on #I hope this might uplift them a little bit #to all my trans mutuals and followers - please please please know I love and care about you #my blog will always be a safe place for you 💖 #it should go without saying my blog is a safe place for everyone no matter who you are #but this world has been super dark and cruel #I truly wish I could bring everyone who is hurting a comfy blankie and their favorite drink and just give them a huge hug and all my love #anyway getting distracted (as always) #as for YOU my dear lil flower 🌸 #I can’t tell you how truly happy this ask made me!!!! if you ever feel comfortable (and if you took pics) and want to share them with me #send me a dm I would love to see your pretty dress and tell you how beautiful you looked 🥺🥰🥰🥰🥰 #I’m so so so happy you had so much fun and that you felt comfortable being you 💖 #cause you are pretty damn awesome and all you deserve is happiness and love #I hope these tags aren’t too much #i just can’t express how happy this ask made me #and also can’t express how much I love and care about you guys 🥺 #😘😘😘😘😘 #ask #🌸 anon #ray of sunshine

[la-cocotte-de-paris]

Someone has a dream to wear a long white dress to dance in Irish fields and I don't have the heart to tell them that they really don't wanna do that for a concert there...

#it does not matter what time of year you do not wear a beloved white dress if there's a chance it might get ruined #and it WILL get ruined #if you don't mind wrecking it then ofc go for it but uh...yeah... #i have wanted to shake them by the shoulders and warn them bc summer weather in ireland is usually atrociously rainy and unpleasant #and if there's an event on it will almost certainly be jinxed by bad weather #so being out in the fields with any clothes you actually cherish is NOT a good idea and you need a backup plan #but also I'm hoping they know about backup outfits?? like if they're engaged then SURELY they are clued-in #anyway yeah i don't wanna burst their bubble or crush their dresm bc hey maybe it MIGHT work out!(probably won't but they'd have fun still) #anyway so I'm venting my worry here lmao #roacc #i also think they're gravely underestimating how much irish people drink at events. another reason to avoid white unless you know the sus

[one-sexy-fucking-toucan]

Sometimes girlies will feel many emotions

#The Toucan Squawks #It's me I'm girlies #I am feeling so many things about Portal right now #Like GLaDOS and Chells relationship #And also feeling emotions over art! Rare thing for me usually art doesn't matter to me much #But the “Songs to Test by” image with GLaDOS and Chell in ruins and GLaDOS is huge #Just gave a huge dump about it to my friend #Which I may more may not give if someone asks #I am feeling a lot night boys #Love for everything in the world #General things about Portal #Lots of loneliness #Just so many things #Y'know I'm not scary I promise I just haven't had a real conversation in a while #But please if you ever want to talk to me please do #I don't know how to start conversations so #Ya #Anyways thank you for reading all of this if you did and I love you so much #Please remember to drink water and eat something if you can #And also try to go to bed at a reasonable time #Just try to take care of yourself please #And be kind to others as well as yourself #That's it now thank you for listening to me rant

[pega-chan]

past relationship trauma makes me unintentionally feel wary and uneasy about conventionally attractive people (specifically women) even though i myself am a conventionally attractive afab person

#pegapersonal #an attractive person hurt me #and an 'average' person who left me for someone more physically attractive and keeps telling me how attractive they think other girls are #while they were with me and every time people discuss looks in relation to romance i feel sick #romance tw #bc it feels like they treat people like objects #i either get hurt by pretty people or keep losing to them so i avoid them like the plague #intentionally befriending very average people so i can have a semblance of normal #and they feel more down to earth #with pretty people i feel too uncomfortable no matter how nice they are #maybe if they're nice enough i can look past it. but i just want to hang with painfully normal people who don't drink or smoke or do drugs #not that i judge anyone who does but i don't want to be pressured into it #sometimes i feel left out around smokers #or people who like to go to clubs #bc i'm too much of a homebody and its' not really my scene #i just wanna hang with people who talk about normal things instead of objectifying others idk #alloallo dating world seems so cruel #alloallo queer ones even more so at least in my area

[longagoitwastuesday]

Truly the José Ferrer version of Cyrano de Bergerac is the best by far because by the end of the film he has you convinced he's the most attractive man ever, even if he still doesn't believe it, and that is at the core of what the play is about

#Le Bret at first‚ Christian later on but quite soon and Roxane by the end but much earlier with Christian convinced his looks don't matter #and that his nose is not so ugly or grotesque to make him unlovable‚ not even hard to love #but he dies convinced he can't be loved because unlike the princes in fairytale he remains himself #and his ugliness doesn't disappear when being loved #Le Bret is frustrated about this even before he is on stage!!! I love the scene with the seller girl on Act I #I love that they included it in this adaptation #And I love that Le Bret scoffs when Cyrano tells him he can't confess his love due to his looks in this version #Anyway... Cyrano being a bit shitty in this version and helping Rageneau because otherwise the bakery won't be open #is very funny and also adorable to me in the gesture he makes I can't help it #As it is that he just totally forgets about Ragueneau by the end of the act. I adore that Le Bret tries to go help him #but only when he considers Cyrano is in trouble. I love how well Le Bret manages his pride #And I love that at the beginning of act II in this adaptation Cyrano is anxious about Roxane changing her mind and Ragueneau comforts him #I can't with the duality of this man I adore him. I want to hug him like a plushie. I want to put him in a blender and drink him like juice #Cyrano #Cyrano de Bergerac #I talk too much #I should probably delete this later #José Ferrer is also the best at managing the anger/fun/sad emotions in my opinion. Depardieu is too sad. Kline is too funny #Dinklage is no fun at all and the Jacques Webber version is also too sad. There's another version where the actor was no fun at all either #and definitely too old. The Solès version manages this dance of emotivity quite decently as well in my opinion #but I just prefer Ferrer most of the time. He is dignified and fun and frustrated and confident‚ #so very angry but also loving and self-conscious and a bit bashful at times #And what a voice. What a voice. Truly the best Cyrano's voice of them all. It is important in the play but until I started watching #different versions I didn't truly process just how important the voice is and Ferrer has that velvety growl that is so perfect for this #Oh Mcavoy. I forgot about him. He had potential but I think he is a tad too sad for my liking and mainly not fun enough #but I think it's a problem of the production more than the actor's delivery. He had it in him. We see glimpses #I'm missing some others but meh it doesn't matter