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katya-goncharov · 3 years

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Some of my personal Emma headcanons (because I started daydreaming about her and got obsessed):

I do really love the idea of Dean finding her in purgatory between seasons 7 and 8. I think it would take them a while to trust each other, but the thing is that the stakes are different now - Dean doesn't know for sure if she really would have gone through with killing him if Sam hadn't shot her, and maybe even Emma doesn't know, but suddenly it doesn't matter anymore because it's all about survival. So they kind of form an alliance and start to form this tentative bond as they find out more about each other and just chat ect.

As they're preparing to return to the real world, that's when things get sticky. Because of course Dean wants to take Emma with him, but there's this unspoken tension now because can he really trust her? What if the amazons get hold of her again and want to take her back and for her to finish her task of killing her father? Of course Dean wants to trust her and thinks that he probably can, but maybe there's a conversation where either Benny or Cas are more doubtful about it, and Emma overhears and gets upset. Because she knows she was born to be a monster but she's never really had a choice or any agency of her own, and now suddenly for the first time she's going to have to decide whose side she's on. In the end of course she does choose Dean because by that point she's got to know him and it's obvious that he does care about her

Fun little headcanon: I like the idea that there's a certain food or drink she's obsessed with, because it's the first thing she ever has when she's brought back. Maybe Dean takes her to McDonalds and she decides that their caramel milkshakes are the best drink ever invented (because it's literally one of the first things she's ever had) and after that she asks for them every chance she gets

Also she comes back with a bunch of obscure pop culture references because of course Dean's been telling her loads of random trivia while they were in purgatory and also stories that are actually the plots of popular movies to keep her entertained. She's never encountered any of them for herself but she's super invested in them accepts Dean's version of all of them as canon

I like the idea of her being really distrustful and resentful of Sam at first - because he did kill her. Maybe that adds to the tension of Dean being mad about Sam not looking for him in purgatory - because now he's got this kid who Sam literally killed, and maybe he keeps her hidden from Sam at first. There's the way Dean's almost been like a parent to Sam his whole life, but now he's got an actual daughter who he almost feels like he has to protect from him.

Then there's some kind of Big Event that happens that forces the two of them to sort out their differences. Maybe Emma's amazonian family do try to take her back and she thinks a compromise to prove herself to them is to kill Sam instead of Dean - only she changes her mind at the last minute because it's not who she wants to be, and Sam has to save her from them and that's when they finally sort things out between them

I think the first real friend she ends up making is Alex, once she goes to live with Jody. Because neither of them have had proper childhoods, both of them were raised by monsters and forced to break out of that, and finally Emma's got someone her own age (kind of) who really understands her and who she can talk about things like that with. They text each other all the time and have a bunch of inside jokes that completely baffle both Dean and Jody

I also love the idea of Emma being either gay or asexual - crucially, she's Not Into Men. I just think that would be so interesting - because her mother's side of the family's entire existence depends on seducing and killing human men, and so from the start she's wired to break that abusive chain by default. Breaking away from that side of the family is a choice she makes, but she was always different from them, really. That would also make her kind of a Cas parallel, which I just think is really fun!

Also she meets Cas in purgatory and she's, like, completely enthralled by the fact that he's an actual angel. She wants to learn all these things about his true form, and his wings, and what it's like in heaven, and how to speak enochian... because she's technically still young she's naturally really curious and bombards him with questions that Dean and Sam had never even considered. Cas of course takes to her right away, because that's Dean's daughter! How could he not? He keeps mentioning little ways that he thinks that Emma takes after Dean to them - sometimes they think he might be reaching slightly, but they enjoy hearing about them anyway

She's really useful to have on hunts because she was born with all these impressive fighting skills. She'll do anything to defend Dean, Cas or Sam but sometimes they have to warn her off if she gets too aggressive with someone who's just giving them a hard time. Dean tries to explain that they don't kill people, only monsters, but of course that just confuses and upsets her so he's forced to properly confront what that really means

#all right. here it is #this is WAY too long and rambling and honestly if no-one reads it then fair enough #but it's been cluttering up my drafts for so long and today feels like angood time to release it #(also yes i know many people have made similar posts before. i just i really really love reading those so i wanted to make my own one!)#supernatural #dean winchester #emma winchester #emmanatural

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drop-of-infinity · 3 years

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Back at it again with the weirdly formatted Destiel fic! This part is canon compliant with season 7, and it’s kinda short bc Cas is dead for most of that season.

Chapter one is here

Chapter two is here

Chapter three is here

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Chapter 4: season 7

Meet The New Boss

{“I need help.” Even though Cas is clearly not okay, even though they had just been trying to kill each other, even though Dean is so worried about him his throat is closing up, his relief is immense. Cas still cares, which means he’s still Cas which means there’s still hope.

{“I’m sorry Dean.” Cas was ready to accept that this was it. His last words would be trying to fix the harm he had done to the person who meant the most to him. This was it. Cas hoped Dean could understand everything that he still couldn’t say.

{“He’s gone Dean.”

“Cas, you child. Why didn’t you listen to me?” Dean tried to actually get angry, but he didn’t have nearly enough rage to cover the bottomless pit of grief opening in his stomach. But then- Cas opens his eyes with a gasp. The relief almost made Dean’s knees give out, but of course it didn’t last.

{“Dumb son of a bitch.” Again, the rage wasn’t strong enough to cover the grief. As Dean folded Cas’s trench coat over his arm, he realized he was resisting the urge to bury his face in it. Turning around quickly, he headed away from the leviathan infested waters. These feelings... they were stupid. Pointless.

{But Dean kept the coat. He ferried it from stolen car to stolen car, folded carefully in the trunk. Sam saw it once, and gave Dean a look that held more understanding then he had of his own actions. It made him both uncomfortable and strangely relieved. He didn’t know what he was feeling, but it didn’t matter. Dean kept the coat. Part of him stil believed that Cas would come back.

The Born Again Identity

{“Who was that?” Dean stared at the man in front of him. At Cas, somehow, miraculously, alive. He wondered what expression he was making, because he was experiencing so many emotions he thought he might explode. Under the cacophony of deeply repressed feelings, one clear thought managed to form. He’s not wearing the coat. Because I have it. Part of me always believed he would come back... and here he is.

{“Thank you for protecting my wife”

“Your wife?” Dean felt like there was a monster in his chest, squeezing his heart and trying to claw its way out. Trying to kill Daphne, Cas- no Emmanuel’s... wife. That was a perfectly normal thing to feel about your best friend who had just returned from the dead with amnesia right? Well, there was no normal for that. So Dean could feel whatever he wanted, it didn’t mean anything.

{“I don’t remember you, I’m sorry.” It felt like a stab to the chest, even though Dean already knew. To see Cas look him in the eyes and say that... it was a lot.

{“I’m sure it’s just like riding a bike.”

“I don’t know how to do that either.” It was such a Cas thing to say, Dean almost collapsed. He had missed him.

{As the demon screamed, memories rushed in. Castiel remembered who he was, except- who he was wasn’t Castiel anymore. It was Cas. Remembering who he was was just remembering his time with Dean. He could feel that he was thousands of years old, but the memories that built him, the things that made him who he was... he saw himself walking into a barn, lights flashing. The righteous man stabbed him, and he smiled down at the knife. He saw himself rebelling against heaven, against everything he knew... for Dean. Dean, Dean, Dean. After going without his name for so long, his heart seemed to be singing it. He had done... bad things. Cas couldn’t make himself turn back to Dean for a moment. How could this beautiful man with his beautiful soul ever forgive him? He had to leave.

{“Wait.” Dean took something out of the trunk of the car. A folded trench coat. He handed it to Cas slowly, and Cas felt the weight of the gesture. He tried not to obsess over the implications. Why did he want to obsess over the implications? It didn’t matter. There was work to be done.

Reading is Fundamental

{“Pull my finger.”

“Why?”

“My finger. Pull it.” Dean did, and the lights exploded. So Cas was insane. He giggled at his own prank, and Dean ignored the tiny voice in the back of his head that whispered cute.

{“I followed a honeybee!” Cas seemed so excited. So calm. Dean had never seen a smile even half this big on his face. It made his chest ache. If he couldn’t even make his best friend as happy as he was when he had lost his mind, he didn’t deserve Cas in the first place.

{“The very touch of you corrupts. When Castiel first laid a hand on you in heaven he was lost!” Suddenly, Dean is back at his 17th birthday, his first solo hunt. His dad is explaining what they’re dealing with. Two nuns, who... who fell in love. “They were... corrupted, in life and now in death. Take care of it.” John had said. Dean had burned the bones, trying not to think about the pretty boy in his class with the bright blue eyes. He returns to the present, and tries to remember to breathe.

Survival of the Fittest

{“Sorry, but I’d rather have you. Cursed or not.” And it was true. No matter what crap Cas would get them in to, he was all they had. More then that, he was Cas. I’d rather have you, Dean thinks again, but the meaning is slightly different.

{“Do I seem like good luck to you?” Castiel knew on some level that he was staring but he didn’t care. Dean was good luck in a way. No, he was better, because Dean had had to claw his way to every good thing in his life. Cas felt his heart speed up slightly-human bodies are so strange aren’t they?-as he looked at Dean. He had things to say to this man, things he no longer saw the point of holding back. You are my religion, he thinks simply, and it is not earth-shattering, it is not a revelation. It is a long time coming and his Lucifer-ridden head has somehow broken through to it. He doesn’t say it though, at least not in so many words. “Well I’ll go with you,” he says instead.

{Cas is standing nose to nose with Dean inside Dick Roman enterprises. He counts the freckles on the hunter’s face, making swirly constellations. He’s beautiful, he thinks vaguely. This thought is not new, in fact it is so old it has worn tracks and grooves into his brain. Tracks like the little lines next to Dean’s eyes. Dean, who is looking at him with a silent question, and Cas remembers he is here to be useful, and he needs to get on that.

{“I’m afraid we’re much more likely to get ripped to shreds.” Cas realizes it in a second. They are in purgatory, and he has to leave if he wants to keep Dean safe. He so badly wants to stay with him, help him, protect him, but he knows the best way to keep Dean alive is to get as far away from him as possible.

{Cas feels himself falling into his own head as he goes away. His restored mind is trying to find a way this ends where Dean forgives him. It can’t. He makes himself stop.

{Dean is running so fast it feels like flying, and he doesn’t know where Cas is but he has to find him. He wishes he could keep running, but the only way out of this is through. He makes himself stop.

In that moment, they are united across purgatory, joined by the common goal of keeping each other safe. Neither of them have time to consider what each other-or themselves-want.

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