#oh my god no you’re so right

[simcardiac-arrested]

wehn you think about it ten elements through finite waves is just lije walker white

you’re so fucking right actually Yhey are

#oh my god no you’re so right #FUCKKKK #they have every disease ever #they let their reputation and independance and strict way of living get to their head #everythingg was going to shitttt their kid was doing fuckall their iterator was doing fuckall #they just had to take desperate measures dude. they had to make meth #they had to recite every traumatic event in sep’s life to get him to kill no way back #or something . i dont know i havent finished season 1 even #you can ignore like half of these tags it’s almost 1am i am Nottt comprehensible aboit characters #finite waves you culd’ve just cooked meth #cramswering

[itspileofgoodthings]

also I had a breakthrough today that I had in fact overthought a Specific Problem to Death and that I had created a monster in my own mind and that’s why it felt like I was being eaten alive every time I tried to solve it.

#not to put too fine a point on it but that’s what happened with the whole is Maria going to become a nun question tbh #and I needed a counselor to say to me objectively and yet also crucially without any knowledge of me or my past: #you have overthought this and now you’re terrified of it #anyway it’s so obvious but it came home to me today. slowly. #like it was just like. Oh. You did it again #you’re terrified of this because you have thought of every possibility and every outcome and every twist and turn and shadow—- #until it has become a bloated demon in your mind that is totally separated from reality #while made up of real facts and details! and tbh I know it’s a common problem #but the anxiety chokehold I can put myself in is something that is so impressive and so disturbing #I can render myself absolutely helpless through the meanderings of my own thoughts #and what makes it worse—immeasurably worse—is that I get OUT of problems through careful thought and analysis #I’m programmed that way #so I can’t escape it by the usual means. I have to back away from the monster and see it and NAME it and then it can die away. #and only THEN can I apply my usual ways of going about things. I don’t know it just all clicked today #these past few days have just been bringing it all to a fever pitch for me #anyway I guess it’s also important to me that I still be allowed to be analytical about it!!! I have to use my brain!!!!!!! #in my desperation I have tried to shut it off to feel only with my heart. To try to catch the whisper of God’s voice in the wind #but tbh I am meant to use the gifts I have! But only in the right context #and that’s only after the demon has been killed or more accurately —deflated #my counselor has been so good about this tbh. she’s so matter of fact and blunt and salt of the earth and also she sees how my mind works #and wants me to be able to use it!! #so I’m just going to tell her that I did the bad thing with this other problem and can she help me find a way forward #ANYWAY THE MONSTERS TURNED OUT TO BE JUST TREES

[trash-bin-ary]

I have spent nearly 24 hours playing in stars and time and I’ve only had it for 5 days, this is the face of someone who’s sane totally.

#in stars and time #that’s right it’s another I need to get all of my thoughts out there post #I’ve also learned that it’s 6 acts???? not even halfway through damn #I find it funny that they do not get suspicious of the fact that siff is like ridiculously strong compared to them all of a sudden lol #I also just love doing so many suspicious things on purpose like come on odi call me out #also theory time I’m pretty sure that the head housemaiden played apart In disappearing that country #I’m not as sure of it as I am sure that the king and siff came from that country though but that’s not saying much cause I’m 99% sure of #that now #also wooooowwwww so many cockblockers in this party 😔 #this is a post i made #and the obligatory no spoilers tag #oh yeah the other thing I wanted to tell about!!! wtf we just meet the change god #they’re sorta a meanie to siff 😔 like you’re nice to Mira but wdym you’re enjoying watching siff suffer #yoooooooo a day later and they immediately point out the weird boost in power I love this game

[socialc1imb]

BANGING MY FISTS ON THE TABLE THEYRE SO IN LOVE

#THANK YOU LINKED MAZE DISCORD FOR THE MEME IT IS MY FAVORITE #my art #linked universe #lu spirit #Lu phantom #train whistles and wedding bells au #train whistles and wedding bells #look so like. they’re in a war. right #I need ALL the drama #come home safe #insert Spirit coming home hurt #phantom is like I SAID COME HOME SAFE #Wind worrying about Spirit like “oh my god you’re not allowed to do anything stupid because if you die phantom will kill me #Social's art

[masonscig]

this isn’t constructive criticism by any means but both my detectives are genuine-leaning because the sarcastic dialogue options are so marvel-coded 💔

#DNSKDKSNSKSKSMSMSKSKDJSKDNSMDJJSKDNDSKKDMMSJSJDNSMDKSMDMMS #HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE #oh my god i’m cackling i check blog for the first time today and see this and my world crumbled #SOUND WARNING FOR THE MERYL SCREAM SORRY FJDNDNDNDNDM #i’ve been giggling ab this ask for like 5 mins now thank u ur so fucking right FJJENDJSJDNSMSNSSMMDMS #also you’re my friend now hope u know that #marvel haters have to stick together #asks

[xamaxenta]

Sabo hopelessly in love with Ace all the time is 👌👌👌

Yep whether he remembers him or not is also 👌🏽

Super 👌🏽👌🏽 if he doesnt remember just dudes got a mega crush and he cant explain why hes got a type i guess

#sabo staring at a photo of Ace for far too long like. ever seen someone so beautiful you started crying?!! #koala: you’re seriously not crying rn right? #sabo turns around and hes all teary like hes so beautiful!!! #koala: oh my god.

[shima-draws]

Kirito: Hey welcome back. What took you?

Eugeo: Well uh.

Eugeo: I think

Eugeo: I just got proposed to?

Kirito: Oh neat good for you

Kirito:

Kirito: Wait, WHAT,

#Kirito: But. But babe 🥺 #Eugeo: Oh my god don’t look at me like that. You KNOW I didn’t say yes #Kirito: What the FUCK everyone on CAMPUS knows your ass belongs to me who the hell went #Kirito: ‘Eugeo-sama…I like you 😳 Let’s get married!! 🥺’ #Eugeo: Okay first of all it didn’t happen like that #Eugeo: And secondly you make fun but. It was Tiese so #Kirito: TIESE??? #Kirito: DEADASS?? #Eugeo: I know right? You’d THINK spending so much time with us she’d. You know #Eugeo: Pick up on the fact that we’re super gay for each other? #Kirito: Listen Ronie asked me on day ONE ‘Are you and Eugeo-senpai dating?’ #Kirito: How did SHE pick up on it and not Tiese. Asking real questions here #Eugeo: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #Kirito: Idk maybe your vibes weren’t gay enough #Eugeo: Like your bisexual vibes? #Kirito: My bi vibes are off the CHARTS okay. I am RADIATING with bisexual energy at all times. #Kirito: Anyway I need to have some words with your page. And make it VERY clear that you are MY boyfriend #Eugeo: Yeah yeah okay. #Kirito: And tell her that if you’re marrying ANYBODY it’s going to be me #Eugeo: Yeah yeah I get it—wait what #Kirito: What #JFNSNFMSMFMS #SAO #Yujikiri #Kirito #Sword Art Online #Eugeo #Sorry I’ll shut up now ;) #Shima speaks

[chiara-klara-claire]

6.2.24 🎉🫥

#I brought cake to work because I gues you have to #colleague asked me what are you going to do tonight #I said not much I think #another done said jeez you’re 26 and not doing anything #and I answered oh yeah that’s for the weekend which is true but still #I’m just so down I don’t even have the energies to pretend it’s fine #I was about to cry #I think I’ll spend the day eating and crying #it’s really great how it only gets worse with time #they say at some point things get only get better but truth is it can always get worse #yesterday tho I almost lost my phone by leaving it at the zelfkassa at the Albert Heijn. thank god I realised it run back & it was t #nothing really make sense and I’m tired of sending cvs #there’s nothing I like and I have to pretend I like everything and everything is cool #i replied in a very dry way to my family wishes bc of how bad I’ve been feeling #I’ll probably eventually just throw something on ig and have 2 people say hbd #it’s all about suffering #this weekend I’ll go to Sweden if things go according to plan and will probably feel like crying most of the time there too #by myself in some hostel bc my friends are too busy for me #there’s always some god eating your heart out right #I think I’ll spend a good amount of time blinding myself with tears #I can’t wait to go to the psychologist

[simcardiac-arrested]

your ass on -5 composure rn

SHUT THE FUCK UPPPPPPP DON’T YOU LECTURE ME WITH YOUR DISCO ELYSIUM SKILL PNG

#Composure [Medium: Failure] - Oh my god. You are failing so bad. You are being so pathetic right now. Actually more than pathetic. #How did you even manage that? Dear lord. Now Kim is looking at you weird. Are you listening? He’s staring at you because he thinks you’re #a fucking freak. Get your shit together. Try again. You’re a police officer. #[Red Check - COMPOSURE - 58% EVEN] #🎲🎲 🛑CRITICAL FAIL #Composure [Medium: Failure] - You can’t be serious. Are you serious? You failed a second time? What’s wrong with you? #KIM KITSURAGI - Detective… Is everything alright? - The strange look never leaves his face as he cautiously observes you. #YOU - 1. Oh it’s more than alright baby! It’s bonkers in here! (Point to your head) #2. Can I be honest? I don’t think I’ve ever been alright. I think it all started when I turned 32. #3. Kim. Do you think I’m bisexual #YOU - Kim… Do you think I’m bisexual? #KIM KITSURAGI - His expression turns startled. Then he furrows his brows; considering. #KIM KITSURAGI - Lieutenant. Listen to me. We have more important things to attend to. We have a case to solve. #YOU - But do you? Do you think I’m bi-sexual? Come on Kim. I need this. #KIM KITSURAGI - … #KIM KITSURAGI - How about we stop talking for a while. #cramswering

[m1d-45]

Venti Brainrot eh? I can work with that.

I've read a few fics that say Archons can change their form at will... (minor spoilers for Venti's backstory)

Venti realizing who you are because the wind seems to sing whenever you're around. It's constantly guiding him to you and actively pushes him away from the fake on the throne. He's not stupid, he sees the way the land flourishes wherever you go. The plants and wind seem to cradle you while rejecting the faker outright.

Knowing he can't approach you in his human form (he's seen how you shy away from any and all human contact), he shifts into his wind sprite form to greet you. He's more than happy to show you the love and affection you deserve as the First Guiding Wind. And so what if he keeps quiet about how much he adores the affection you give back? It's not like you mind, ehe!

-sibling anon, who also loves the windy boi

ah, a fellow citizen of brainrot city

anyway the idea of archons changing their forms is so cool actually (and maps to canon bc venti changed into this form so) and i think i’d enjoy small dragon!li as like a weighted blanket pls and thank

but back to the prompt: yes. so much yes.

he’s already tuned into nature quite well, so he can hears how the harmonies turn discordant around the throne room. likewise, he notes that the wind sings of heaven, of liyue, sumeru, of wherever you are, pleading with him to stop the hunt. to pull you away to a castle of gold, filled with whatever you need while keeping you safe from those who dared call you the sinner.

i honestly think a lot of my problems could be solved by simply having Wisp Venti at my side, sagau or not, isekai or not, imposter au or not. like he’s so……..

he comes up to you with a curious trill, wondering if you’ll be receptive to this form- he spends his time floating beside you like one of the companion seelies, and is so much more open to displays of affection than bird!xiao i’m- he openly runs into your hand when he wants pets, he cuddles blatantly into you when it’s time for bed, he leads you towards trees with the freshest apples (or sunsettias, if you’re allergic or don’t like them) and fully expects a pat on the head as a reward. he communicates entirely through sqeaks and chirps—he sounds a lot like the mini seelies actually, at least in my mind, but it has a speech-like pattern to it—and softly hums a little when he’s asleep, like a little white noise machine for you <3

#m1d : [chats] #m1d : [secrets] #sibling anon #BROTHER THAT POSTS BEEN UP FOR LIKE 30 SECONDS?????????? ARE YOU OKAY #not that i mind at all but bRO? #also signing off with the fuckin ‘ehe!’ my brother in christ- #i’m already on the floor head in hands down bad for this little guy and you hit me with the one two combo i’m- #all of this /pos btw #i need to write more venti i need to it’s no longer a want #but the only wips of him are angsty and i just want my boy to do a little lap around my body when he’s excited and end it by flying directly #into my arms with a high squeal an- UGH #FUCK #HES SO #squeezes him squeezes him squeezes him squeezes him squeezes him #speaking of he prolly just pops back after. it’s like a massage. eyes a wind spirit after all he can’t really break- #GOD all i want is for like zhongli to come up post hunt and go …? at venti #and why you don’t know?? it’s venti??? #OH or you go to mondstat and they’re like ‘where’s venti?????’ (more like ‘where the fuck is barbatos and what is he doing’ if you’re jean #or diluc or kaeya or anybody who knows really) but little do they know!! he’s right there baby!!!!!!! #writing essays in the tags again aren’t i- shit sorry— #but not really because. him <3. but also yeah sorry i’ll stop now—

[the-nation-of-today]

GOOD FUCKING MORNING. I AM GOING TO COMBUST.

#black veil brides #bvb #bleeders #maeve.txt #oh my GOD #IT’S SO #IT’S SO GOOD #THE SONG AND THE VIDEO AAAAAAAAA #AREN’T YOU LUCKY YOU’RE A BLEEEEEEEEEDER DAMN RIGHT I AM

[odetolovers]

having conversations with my girlfriend about if we’ll adopt or have a bio baby…my heart is healing. i’ll never get over how lucky i feel to have found my soulmate in my early twenties. i love that we get to grow together, we already have so much. Exploding

#i didn’t even think i wanted marriage or kids before i met her. then i did meet her and i fell in love and i realised that oh actually! #my childhood doesn’t have to even remotely resemble my future child’s #all love is not pain and abuse like what i grew up with #everyday that she loves me she heals a heart she didn’t break fr fr #relationships and love is not easy but when you’re with the right person it is beyond worth it. i do believe i’d face anything about myself #& do anything necessary to be with her. our relationship has forced me to care about myself not just us not just her #i’ve never been one to give people peace but damn i’ll give her peace or die trying #sappy on main 2nite….life and relationships are getting Real and if i can love her this much while so depressed god knows how much i’ll be #able to love her when im not. good lord #my lover

[e-m-p-error]

MULTIMUSE QUESTIONAIRE

Tagging: @infernalight, @infernal-feminae, @heartsofhell, @questionablemuses, @because-i-simp, @frostworkxfiction, @deepspacevivarium, @hotelbitches, @voxiiferous

RULES: Answer the questions with the Muses that would best fit the answers. Bonus if you give details why. If tagged, copy and paste into a new post – DO NOT REBLOG!

1) Rank your softest Muse and your toughest Muse. (Personality-wise)

My softest muse is definitely Vick. He's a 0 on the toughness scale, he's a big teddy bear and he will choose kindness over anything else at any point.

My toughest muse is probably Barbie. Girl is tough as nails and will not be stopped if she puts her mind to something. She doesn't take pain as a reason to stop and will go harder when it hurts.

2) Which Muse would blow through $1000 quickly?

Valentino, hands down. He spends $1,000 every day easily on things he doesn't even need. He loves to buy expensive things and will do so at all hours. He especially loves spending Vox's money. $1,000 is a drop in the bucket for him and he doesn't even notice spending it.

3) Do any of them have nicknames? Is there a meaning behind them?

Quite a few of them do!

Valentino answers to Bunny from his lovers, it's a subspace trigger word for him. I assigned him Bunny because he's Cute And Horny, aka a rabbit, and a bunny sub is fairly common.

4) Are any of them up-to-speed on the latest trends? Anyone more old school?

Velvette, Vox, and Valentino are obsessed with always being on top of the next new thing.

Alastor hates new things and will fight them as much as he can.

5) Who has the best relationship with their siblings?

Valentino had a fairly good relationship with his siblings when he was alive. He had seven of them, plus three live-in cousins that were like his siblings.

6) Karaoke night! Who is likely to grab the mic first and bust out a tune?

Beelzebub, Ozzie, Valentino, and Ostello! They all love to sing and party, and they're all pretty good at it. Ostello was a pop-jazz singer when he was alive and before he died in Hell, too!

7) Who is least likely to enter a beauty pageant/model?

Gretchen. She doesn't think that she's very pretty, and would just feel embarrassed even going to watch.

Travis. He is constantly told he's very ugly, and he doesn't have a very high opinion of his looks.

8) If your Muses visited a haunted house where actors scare you, who would panic and who would be unfazed? 

Chazz, Gretchen, Charlie, Anya, Magpie, Summer, Travis, and Vick would be the easiest to scare!

Valore, Dimas, Cash, Glitz, Stu, Paimon, Alastor, Darío, Niffty, and Vox would be the hardest to phase.

9) Are any of your Muses particular about taking certain modes of transportation?

Vox prefers to be driven around and doesn't like driving himself.

Valentino only likes to drive occasionally and prefers pretty sports cars when he does.

Anya and Darío are motorcycle people.

Emily enjoys bicycles!

10) Share a little-known fact about any Muse.

Adam is actually a very good father and he loves kids and babies. He is very tender with children even if he can be harder on them once they have grown into adults.

#HEADCANONS ➽➽➽ #Reciting Violence Like Poetry (α∂αм) #I’ve Found A Rainbow A Rainbow Baby Trust Me I Know Life Is Scary (ємιℓу) #I’m Standing In The Face Of All That My Story Holds In Its Wake (ναℓσяє) #What We Loved Today We’ll Lose Tomorrow But I Won’t Need To Wait For My Share Of Sorrow Because I Always Kill The Things I Love (∂ιмαѕ) #Who Needs Pepsi Juice Or Sprite? If You Do You’re Weak That’s Right (вαявιє) #I’m Gonna Take Their Hearts For Ransom ‘Cause Everybody’s Always Askin’ When You Gonna Show Us Magnum? (¢нαzz) #Money Can’t Buy Happiness But It Can Rent You Paradise (gℓιтz) #We Put Her Down In A Shallow Grave She Wears A Dress Like A Body Bag Everyday (gяєт¢нєи) #Everyone’s A Winner We’re Makin’ Our Fame Bona Fide Hustler Making My Name (ѕтυ) #Try Not To Move So Fast You Know Dessert Comes Last! (вєєℓzєвυв) #You Can Fool Yourself I Promise It Will Help Every Single Day I Just Wanna Hear You Say I’m So Lucky Lucky I’m So Lovely Lovely (¢нαяℓιє) #Define Your Meaning Of War To Me It’s What We Do When We’re Bored (ραιмσи) #If You End Up On My Table Then It Serves You Right (αℓαѕтσя) #Know I’m All Bite No Bark Like To Catch You Way Off Guard (αиуα) #Take Just One Last Dare Pretend That You Don’t Care (ℓєgισи∂αяισ) #Your Magic White Rabbit Your White Room Straight Jacket (мαgριє) #He Ran Into My Knife He Ran Into My Knife Ten Times (иιfту) #I Love You Oh So Madly But I Don’t Stand A Ghost Of A Chance With You (σѕтєℓℓσ) #Come Come Kitty Kitty You’re So Silly Silly Don’t Go Kitty Kitty Play With Me (ѕυммєя) #Don’t Be Goofy Bring Some Passion To The Table (тяανιѕ) #And If You Get In My Face Then You’ll Get A Taste Even God Would Run Son (ναℓєитιиσ) #Hollywood Made A Killing Machine She’s Like A Teenage Slaughter Movie Scene A Serial Killer Celebrity (νєℓνєттє) #Red Eyes In The Digital Paradise (νι¢к) #Let’s Stop Saying “Don’t Quote Me” Because If No One Quotes You You Probably Haven’t Said A Thing Worth Saying (νσχ)

[weaselishmcdiesel]

weasel i am about to give you the biggest compliment i’ve ever given anyone:

ok so before i had the spoonmoment119 account, i would look at all your posts and just sit. in awe. of like how good you could draw. and i thought that when i got better at art, i wanted to draw just like you. you were my favorite artist. by a long shot.

and when i did make the spoonmoment119 account and started posting a bit of art, i had a few milestones in mind, obviously the simple ones like the 50 followers, 100 followers, 1k followers, but by far the biggest in my mind, was how long it would take for weasel to even so much as like one of my posts.

and as you know, that goal was achieved on my second post. the mumbo body pillow. never in a million years would i have thought of you even just looking at my art. but you did :]

and now to just regularly interact with you and other insanely good artists on a daily basis, is insane,, and to have people looking up to me,, even more insane.

and i would just like to stop by for a bit and thank you for how much you’ve done for me, and how much you’ve helped :]

and you don’t have to reply btw,, i just wanted you to know that :3 okokok goobye <3

SPOON FUCK. I DIDNT SEE THIS BEFORE I FELL ASLEEP FUCKFUCKFUCK

😫😫😫😫😫😫SPOOOOOOOOOON😭😭😭😭

I’m. Forever touched like I have no idea what to say like I’m honored you would even go out of your way to write all this I’m,,, I’m just a little guy!!!! I’m just!!! I just draw my little guys!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭thank you so much! Your favorite artist,,, OTL IT MAKES ME WANT TO MAKE YOU PROUD WAAAAAA THANKYOUUUU

I have, a lot of aspirations like I eventually want to create a cartoon, or potentially work on a video game or like a ton of other stuff whatever my life leads me to but all of them stem from my desire to inspire people, since it’s just this amazing feeling, the most rewarding fulfilling thing I think I can do as an artist. So like. Yeah XD I’m. really really thrilled to hear you say all this, like I actually did something with my art besides… draw boys ahdhagdhs like you’ve touched so many people with your art and I’m so happy I could at least encourage you to start posting it :) we’re all happier when we see a spoon post floating around <3

I’m very happy you’ve gotten the reach that you have :) from all that we’ve interacted you seem incredibly kind and deserving of all the attention you’ve gotten 😌not even just for your kindness but your art seriously, is so pleasing to look at both your creatures and more finished work, it’s all so lovely and your humor is so XD perfect 👌like that weird sort of deadpan sometimes is👌👌👌👌 BUT AHDHAHD WHAT IM TRYING TO SAY IS ITS AWESOME TO INTERACT WITH YOU TOO AND YOURE SUCH A GREAT PERSON THAT IM JUST AS EXCITED TO BE MUTUALS WITH YOU TOO!!

You’re a dear<3 you’re the best <3 goodbye<3333

#I have a friend I text every time a biiig/awesome artist follows me which started happening more after I posted hc #and each time I’m like Holy Shit Holy Shit Look Oh My God #and each time she’s like you’re literally a big artist why are you freaking out #so. SOMETIMES I forget I have the reach I do and your reminder in this form is really. 🥺🥺🥺 man…. yknow…. #very excited to see you continue posting :) and all your art :) even if it’s eventually no longer mcyt related<3 #hshnhnngngn I feel like a million thank yous isn’t enough. so take 2 million #and a million sorties for probably falling asleep right before you sent this OTLLL SPOOOOOOOON💕💕💕💕💕💕🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄 #sorries** #asks! #weasel speaks #my first reaction to compliments is like. ‘oh I’m not that good!!’ but that’s like. inconsiderate to the effort you put in to compliment #so like. NO. THANK YOU. Y O U R E THE AMAZING ONE!!!!! <333333

[abooklover]

Ok so I know I’ve been screaming crying dying over red white and royal blue (which don’t get me wrong I will continue to do because everyone saw that new promo right?!?), but the Heartstopper trailer is absolutely everything to me, it hurts.

#like nick saying you don’t have to understand you’re feelings completelyyou don’t have to have always figured ever out you can just feel #you don’t always have to have everything figured out #you can just feel #like dig my grave and throw me in it gasping for air cause that knocked the wing right out of me #believe me when I say nick is my everything #but like everything else happening as well #with Tao and elle and Tara and Darcy and Isaac and James!!!! #oh my god this is going to be my everything #it is so close too #definitely gonna tie me over till rwrb #heartstopper #August really is for the gays #rwrb #rwrb movie #red white and royal blue #and the teachers

[areyouwho-ithinkyouare]

me internally when i’m trying to respect and recognise that my dad has unaddressed autism that impacts the way he handles social interractions while also trying to not just excuse the shitty insensitive behaviour that has absolutely contributed to my mental health issues

#it’s like. haha yeah he handled that situation terribly but remember it wasn’t intentional and he doesn’t understand how that came across!! #i can’t be mad at him i can’t take it personally and get upset haha. hahaha. #and also it’s like. being autistic isn’t an excuse to be a dick. being autistic doesn’t mean you have to like. emotionally damage ur kid ✌🏻 #which i AM. growing up with him has fucked me up!!! and i’m allowed to be mad at that i’m allowed to be upset!!!!!!!! #but also oh god is that shitty of ME??? is that insensitive???? do i need to just be more empathetic and understanding #but ALSO also. when ur a kid that shit doesn’t matter. when ur a kid and ur dad is making you cry that doesn’t matter. #and those years of damage stick with you even when ur older and trying to be mature and understanding #literally this evening started with me trying to do something nice for him. trying to give him a gift. actually literally giving him a gift. #and it has ended with me feeling fucking….. shit. #and disrespected. and useless. #i try so fucking hard with this man and with our relationship and every fucking time i try to connect with him he throws it back in my face #like. hey! you’ve been saying how much you want to play gran turismo 7!!! i will loan you my PS5 for a while bcus i’m not playing anything #and i will BUY YOU the fucking car game for you to play it while me and my mum are away on our girlie beach holiday #like i will happily and enthusiastically do those things for you because you have been so vocal about wanting to play this game!!! #so it will make you happy right? it will be something positive for you to enjoy!!! right?!!!???? #i will bring my console down to the family tv room for you and i will send you the money so you can buy the game!!!! #oh. oh you’ve clicked around the main playstation menu for 2mins and then turned it off to watch the news. and then just open ur laptop. #not even gonna buy the game huh. just gonna open ur laptop and zone out and act line i’m not even in the room. oh ok. ok ok. #not even a fucking thank you. not even a HINT of recognition. ok ok. ok. ok. now you’re literally ignoring me when i talk to you. ok. ok. #and like!!!! i know this seems so dumb and minor and insignificant but you have to understand. it has been 25 years of this shit. #25 years of me trying to make this man happy and 25 years of him rejecting all of those attempts. #and 25 years of……. a lot of other shit also.