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Although Kagota thinks she's human with abyssal abilities, she's come to learn this may not be the case after Fontaine - And in truth, it really isn't. Caught up in an endless cycle of rebirth, she is far from a typical human, and it's taken severe trauma building up and finally breaking her in half to realize just what she is.
Her original life ended well over 2,000 years ago; born an abyssal being from a raw, primal source into a realm populated by countless factions seeking power and their own sense of control, she spent her lifetime much like she has this one, growing up alongside her partner and eventual lover, Childe, despite their recruitment by rivaling factions. Though she was trained by a close friend of theirs, a Frost Fall Herald by the name of Leandros, and more than capable of holding her own on the battlefield, she was horribly unprepared for the wiping out of much of her faction, with a fixation on any close to her aside from Leandros. With the clues pointing towards Childe, now the head of his faction, being the one to order the attack, she turned on his side, returning the favor until he managed to stop her.
Upon finding the truth - that rebelling members of his side had taken issue with their bond and sought to remove the opposition if he refused to - and calming her anger by handing her the true culprits to deal with herself, the suggestion was put forth by Leandros to merge the remains of their respective factions, and right their wrongs by taking control of the abyss. The plan was a good one, and quickly implemented, and with Leandros as their right hand, Kagota and Childe quickly took to laying waste to any others who stood in their way. If betrayal was so easy of a thing for abyssal beings, they would trample it and claim their rightful place on top, wipe it out and change the abyss itself-
However, even the most carefully laid plans can come undone, and theirs was no different. Even though they succeeded in conquering much of the abyss, becoming nightmares of the battlefield and making a solid name for themselves, they were still blind to the very thing that had brought them together - Betrayal. Namely a betrayal from their own men, working with the enemy to overthrow them, and killing them though literally stabbing them in the back during battle, forcing them to watch the other's end.
Nobody knows how the laws of the world took pity on them after their deaths, nor why. All was know was that their soul was taken on their passing and cleansed of the abyss, carefully placed into a cycle of rebirth that would see them able to begin again, united yet human... And yet even this would refuse to go smoothly, as the abyss refused to release full control. Unable to be fully removed from their soul, it splintered fragments off to reclaim and prevent them from being whole - Fragments caught by Leandros, who stubbornly and forcibly removed himself from the cycles of the world and even Fate itself to install himself as the guardian of these fragments. Unable to save his friends, he refused to allow them to be consumed by the very realm that saw fit to harm them so much throughout their life, and made sure these fragments would return to him until their rebirth. Not the abyss, not to the darkness, not to demise... To him, where they would be safe until he could return them to where they belonged: Kagota and Childe.
While the legacy of the two beings later known as Heraldic Tempest and Foul Legacy would be remembered and even feared, few would ever know of the full story - Or that Tempest and Legacy had never truly perished as assumed.
More than 2,000 years have passed since their original lives, and Kagota has seen hundreds more since, every one of them by the side of her literal other half, Childe.
For most of her lives, Kagota is completely unaware to the fact she's been reborn countless times, each life's memories locked away in the depths of her soul to give her a fresh start in each - Same Kagota, but no memories, shaped only by the time and place each life she finds herself in. There are several things that have carried over despite this; she's been trained by Leandros in each, found by him in his constant search to return the fractured fragments to the soul they belong to, time and time again, returning them to a 'whole' state. She and Childe have developed a means of tending to the health of their soul and caring for it, and have even learned a last ditch type of ability to retreat into their soul when it's damaged or completely overwhelmed by trauma, and she has been by Childe's side in every one of them constantly drawn back to him time and time again, allowing the two halves of their soul to fuse back together and form back into one like it should have been right alone, with their old friend's help.
But it is in her current lifetime alone Kagota has been forced to retreat into her soul, fractured and in danger of not only shattering, but killing the both of them all over again due to overwhelming trauma neither of them can handle - and it is in this lifetime alone she has learned they've been through many lives prior to it. While she isn't aware of just how many, the reason why they seem to be reborn over and over again, or just what their original lives were, she has gained access to some of her previous memories, and learned Tempest and Legacy, things she had thought to be abyssal power lingering within them, are not what they seem.
Legacy and Tempest... Are just another side of themselves.
Since returning to Snezhnaya with her family and gaining some help in pushing through the overwhelming, soul-breaking trauma they faced, Kagota now struggles to sort through the things she's learned, and is actively trying to make sense of it and learn more. Talking about it is difficult when she's sure even her own husband won't believe her, but... Oh, if she can just make sense of it when it makes so much else make sense-!
But... Can she...? That's the question, now... Even if she's determined to make it all make sense.
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so about the xxxholic posts it just brought back SO many memories like holy shit
i haven’t read the manga in over ten years (about the time it crossed over with TRC and i was super lost, and then it’s when i fell out of manga all together) and i haven’t been thinking too much about it ever since
and there were reasons i don’t really want to get into bc it’s pretty bleak where i convinced myself that perhaps i completely imagined Watanuki and Doumeki’s chemistry and that i was only shipping them for shallow reasons, so i never really looked back
and the gifsets from the movie just hit me violently in the face and now i have so many memories about the manga and especially the whole Eye arc and i’ve been unable to stop thinking about it ever since like holy shit. holy shit. Like yeah no i didn’t imagine shit it was peak romance over here. Like what the hell. No WONDER i was obsessed with them when i was 16.
i need to plan a big reread of both xxxholic and TRC at the same time so at least i can vindicate my younger self, but for now i’m just. goodness. Those two.
And perhaps i should watch the movie bc the aesthetics are on point and the DouWata scenes are making me lose my mind.
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Facts about your body after you turn 25, AKA things I wish someone had told me:
you will get hair in fun new places. this is normal and fine.
these places include (but are not limited to) if you don't already have them: your asscrack, your back, your ears, and moles. it's fine.
some of you, dick or not, will also lose hair. this is normal, but also if you have ovaries maybe get this checked out for PCOS.
your acne will probably change. some people get better. some people get worse. it's fine.
your nails will probably get an infection or a fungus at least once in your life. this is fine. (but also let your doc know).
how you gain and lose fat and where you do so will change. this is fine.
how you smell will change. this is fine. (fishy or rotten smells mean doctor time though)
if you have a prostate: it gets harder to pee. prostates enlarge as you age (get this checked regularly). this is fine.
if you do not have a prostate: it gets easier to pee but not in a good way. as in as you get older, your pelvic floor muscles tend to lose some of their strength. this makes it harder to keep pee in. this is fine.
all breasts and pectorals eventually sag, with the rest of your body. this is fine.
a decent percent of the population will experience a cyst at least once. some of you will make up for the rest with multiple. this is fine, but keep them checked out by a doctor. (sometimes this is a condition! get checked for that too!)
almost half of everyone gets hemorrhoids. it's a good idea to just expect them since your chances of getting them get higher the older you are. your toilet will look like a murder scene. definitely get your booty checked out BUT this is almost always perfectly normal. just eat more fiber. "but I already-" eat more fiber. and maybe suck it up and buy some hemorrhoid cream, you'll thank me later.
yes, this means you will probably need to make an appointment for a doctor to see your butthole. it's okay. not only do they really not care but 1. they've seen weirder that day and 2. they'd far rather you see them now than later when it's been going on for forty years and now it might be colon cancer. it's okay. consider it a rite of passage.
adults need more sleep than children. don't believe the myth that you need less than they do. that is capitalist propaganda to make you give up more of your life to the work grind, comrade.
vitamins and medicine, something you are more likely to take as you get older, sometimes make the toilet turn weird colors. it's okay.
if you still have your tonsils and get those little stones and get sore throats more than once a year you should plan on getting those suckers out before the tonsils cause an infection and go septic. if you're getting stones at all you should get those reevaluated every year, especially if the stones are bigger than a needlehead (or get bigger over time). it's gross and yucky. I don't care. get them looked at before you end up in the hospital.
you'll probably need to add foot support to your shoes if you don't already do. this is fine.
your body changes. sometimes it can feel sorta weird and upsetting that it isn't what it used to be. that is okay, and it is okay to be upset. just know that this is normal, it's normal to be upset or not upset, but don't let it hinder your quality of life. trans or cis, there is a certain level of acceptance you just gotta give your body and forgive your body for as you get older. it's okay.
it's okay. I promise.
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