#or at least pay me for the damages

[navarice]

horror and psychological thriller in tgcf was done so incredibly well that if the beautiful and touching love story wasn’t incorporated into the book, I would be fully convinced mxtx decided to switch to another genre.

no one really talks about her fascination with the descent to madness and the morals surrounding humanity. at least one main character of each book goes through it. for lbh, it stemmed from the fear of abandonment and the emptiness that follows when the people you care most about decide you aren’t worth being chosen. for wwx, it was the outside in. society deemed him a monster so he had no other option available to him. no way to prove them wrong, and no way to convince himself he’s not either. anything he would do, despite his most well meaning, sincere, and self sacrificing motives, will always be twisted by the world who likes to paint others the devil. for xl…it was such a defeating combination of the two that it was near impossible for him find a way out. no family nor friend to turn to, no place to hide or run away, continuously forced to confront dilemmas beyond anyone’s capacity that sawed away at his already frayed sanity. worse was him having to confront godhood doesn’t mean omnipotent, nor does ascension mean free of suffering.

the way i choose to see it as this is her commentary on human nature, in both freedom and fallibility. ascend to heaven as a human, yet those in heaven are still human. wants, desires, fears, traumas, love, hate, selfishness, self-lessness, kindness, compassion, sacrifice, loss, hubris, duty, family, friends, hierarchy, power, and, above all, free will are all things that make humans what they are. are we wwx and xl? sacrificing ourselves time and time again only to have it all thrown back at our face? never once chosen or understood unless when it’s something short of a miracle? or are we the masses? afraid of the sinister, the disease, the wars? afraid for our young and old, for the talented and lame? for our lives and legacy? what are we, if not forever doomed to be helplessly flawed and hopelessly human?

the way she sees it, we have always been, and always be, both sides. because to her, they aren’t mutually exclusive, but rather each reflections of the other. both never wrong, but never quite right either. convoluted and confusing, mundane yet a tale as old as time.

mxtx writes her beautiful loves stories seamlessly. but she displays her talent best of all by weaving tales of hope and humanity into the threads.

#mxtx #mo xiang tong xiu #tgcf #tian guan ci fu #heaven official’s blessing #mdzs #mao dao zu shi #the grandmaster of demonic cultivation #the untamed #svsss #scum villian self saving system #meta analysis #critique? analysis? obsession? idk either #I’m always reading too into it but #srsly someone admit her to a psych ward #or at least pay me for the damages #I wanted to make this a small analysis on how well she does horror #but then I had to get on my soap box #getting down now but man I’ve made so many of these things #the fandom fr does NOT need anymore stress #we just want everyone to be happy 🥲

[welcometoteyvat]

the only thing i took away from hsr 2.1 is that march is gay

#who is this bartender and can she become playable she deserves a full on the mouth kiss #hsr spoilers #hsr #also aven meeting his younger self is cute tho i still havent gotten to the part where they explain who tf is speaking thru his future self #but i actually hate how the game pushes you to keep pulling for newer units oh my god like i dont wanna do dot damage stop making your boss #bosses able to be oneshotted by black swan acheron kafka and nobody else #pov person who hasnt progressed through aven boss fight because it's taking way too damn long. prolly a skill issue but just let me play #my fav characters i dont need this fucking powercreep stuff T_T #ramblings! #also aven is growing on me but also idc his design is too dripless and so is boothill's im like -_- #the only pretty people are robin and siobhan the bartender and im so sick of physical.............. #also i tghink this is just a side effect of being way more invested in genshin bc i cannot fully pay attention to the lore tm #they be revealing things left and right and i just dont care so it flies over my head #at least they properly gave everything needed to understand avens backstory before we have to fight him

[ferronickel]

I am begging artists to charge more for their commissions. Pleading. If you are charging anything less than $20/hour you are undercutting the market and making it harder for working artists to earn a livable wage. (And really, truly, you should be aiming at something like $50/hour). Why would anyone want to pay artists what they're worth when there are artists out there asking for pennies for the same thing?

I understand that it's difficult finding commissioners willing to pay higher prices (because they've seen artists charging nothing for art, that's why), but that's something we can fix together if we normalize charging what our work is actually worth!

#i just saw an artist doing emergency commissions trying to get $200 #and their prices maxed out at $50 for fully rendered paintings #and their art is incredible!! #they should be charging at least $200 for something like that! #and then they could do one single commission and not (at least) four #it makes me lose my mind #i get that it's an incredibly tough market #i get wanting to make art affordable #but low prices are so damaging to the community as a whole #every working artist I know is just barely scraping by #and until we can convince people that unique custom-made art is worth more than a cup of coffee #this will always be a problem #please charge more for your commissions please please please #if youre a commissioner: #please tip your artist a lot #pay them way more than theyre asking for #nickel for my thoughts

[papermonkeyism]

Don't know that one. What's it about? What genre? Is it fun?

#I'm not gonna pay for international shipping for a book blindly again #Last time I bought a book based on someone praising how gay it was and how good it's representation was #It turned out the main couple had been a thing briefly in the past but wasn't in the book's present #And while it had many flashbacks to the past timeline it was less about seeing them be together and more like #Character A saying something and the story stopped happening so character B could explain the thing at character A #Like 'oh you're experiencing periods. This is what that means what causes it and how to treat the symptoms.' #And 'oh you're bisexual. This is the dictionary definition of the word this is the etymology of the word' #Like one of the characters was alledgedly street smart thief but for some reason she had never heard of periods before #I was told they had great chemistry but all I got shown was a person shaped dictionary and a blank wall that got things explained to #I was clearly not the target audience for that one (I know what bisexual means! Stop lecturing like I'm an idiot and let me see the story!) #Though at least that book treated animals like actual animals and knew how logistics worked #Unlike this OTHER book I once bought on internet recommendation #That had me continuously go 'that's not how falcons work. That's not how horses work. That's not how weather works. #'that's not how winter works. Have you ever even seen snow? For fuck's sake stop rubbing frostbites! You're gonna cause tissue damage!' #...... #Sorry did not mean to tag a wall of text #I've just spent too much money on books I bought on anonymous recommendation and ended up not having good time

[shima-draws]

I’ve been having really bad toothaches the past couple days so I went to the dentist to see what was going on and. I have to get a crown. Not even a FUN crown. The tooth type of crown that is really expensive and has a time consuming procedure and I

#THIS FUCKIN SUCKS BRO!!!!!! #Shima speaks #I mean this has been an ongoing problem with this specific tooth #My filling came out like months ago and they fixed it as best as they could #But my tooth was already like. Chipped. There's a big gap where the filling is #And try as she might! That filling isn't enough to support my tooth #Bc it started falling apart and that's why I've been in so much pain #So they're like yeah. You need a crown #Thankfully there's no infection or cavity or nerve damage so. #That's what I initially thought I thought I had a cavity or there was smth wrong with the nerves there #But nope my mouth is perfectly healthy.....besides this failing filling....... #I'm just upset bc I KNOW this is gonna cost me a fortune #And I'm already broke as it is uhghhhh #I gotta open up shop soon. Help me pay my dental bills. Lmao #The thing that sucks about this the most is that this is a baby tooth. I STILL HAVE SOME BABY TEETH #But there's no adult tooth under this one! So it's not like I can ask them to pull it out #Sighs #At the very least I got my dentist to prescribe me stronger painkillers bc advil is NOT doing it for me #Pwease I need the drugs. My mouth hurts like a BITCH

[suncaptor]

I am a bitch (just accused my apartment complex of being predatory and unethical for denying me several kinds of renter's rights and charging me hundreds of dollars unfairly while I'm still living there)

#i have 0 self preservation instinct istg🙏🙏 #but they tried to charged me 300 dollars for no reason after i spent 2 weeks explaining that what they were charging me for was bullshit #they let strangers in without any warning #AND theyre now charging me several hundred dollars for damages i did not do with incorrect paperwork and pictures of damage i didnt do #and they wont even give me receipts for why theyre charging me as such 🙏🙏 #I have reached out to my uni for help but their law help works FOR my apartment complex so ill have to pay it but on GOD #they are AT LEAST GOING TO CHARGE ME WITH THE CORRECT PAPERWORK #does it make a difference? probably not. i don't care theyre charging me hundreds of dollars and denying me renters rights #also they made me waive my rights to class action ♥️♥️ #so they need to at least not have mistakes on their paperwork. even though they did in what theyre charging me #since my desk was fine and theyre charging me 230 for damage that was not present when I moved out♥️♥️ #but theyre also charging me another couple hundred for painting and carpet cleaning for regular wear without proving it cost that much so #yknow #anyways!!!!!!!!!!!! #theyre evil #and I AM making my own life more anxiety inducing by saying so but come on. they need to know I'm aware of what theyre doing

[monsterhugger]

I may not be good at repair/handyman stuff but I hate spending money and I refuse to replace things until they are literally unusable so I convince myself I can fix things. that’s my one toxic male trait

#I’ve sewed up holes in a sock until there was literally not enough sock left to sew together. multiple times #I held onto an iPhone 6 for years. it had less than 2hrs of battery life by the time my mom bought me a new phone without me knowing #I replaced the wifi card in my computer not at all knowing what I was doing. it was a 3rd party part and required masking tape to work #i will fix it with tape and craft glue and thread or it is staying broken #I do not trust a single repair person any more than I trust myself. this is also why I cut my own hair #i know it’s going to be fucked up and if I do it myself at least I won’t have paid for it #also if smthn has cosmetic damage but still works I’m not fixing it??? #like my proudest moment is still convincing a body shop not to paint my replacement bumper #bc why would I pay $300 just for my car to be all one color #’it has a crack in it’ ‘it has stains’ ‘it’s faded’ but it still works?? it doesn’t need to look perfect to work??

[nereb-and-dungalef]

wish i had money so i could give it all to yaroslav bayarunas

#finally synced some yarik covers to my mp3 player and am listening to them on repeat #commission bitch should at least pay for the emotional damages. at least give me some cash to thank yarik with #for existing. the man is a gift

[pepprs]

also (this is it i promise) this is why i am so INSANELY excited to have my own room soon. like omg. it is definitely not perfect bc it’s at home and there’s a breaker box in it and you can hear footsteps really loud through the ceiling and also again *it’s at home* when i really need to not be living at home. but the quality of life improvement i am about to have is actually INSANE. i will be able to have a space far away from everyone else where i can sing without bothering anyone and play piano and decorate it (mostly) to my liking and have a desk and draw and paint and do whatever. finally!!!!!!!! that is going to fix me!!!!!

#purrs #i just wish it was permanent or that i had more years to spend in it. like i actually just want to find the place where i will live forever #and just stay there bc oh my GOD am i tired of living in places temporarily. i have so many issues w that bc so many spaces that were #formative for me have been destroyed (e.g. the van 😍😍😍😍 and my grandparents house 😍😍😍😍 and my favorite hs teachers classroom 😍😍😍😍) or are #going to be destroyed (e.g. the office where i work rn 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍) or ive had to leave them and move out bc they’re inherently temporary (e.g. #my on campus room 😍😍😍😍 and my room in brighton 😍😍😍😍😍😍). and ive had attachment issues w space / location : whatever my whole life like i wou #would have huge meltdowns whenever we were transitioning from like elementary school to middle school middle school to high school etc etc.. #so i really just um. would like permanence and stability please. im 24. im done w school for now and maybe forever. i want to find a place w #where i can just like.. stay. so if im paying rent like something that would allow me to renew it indefinitely and not fear bei ng kicked #out randomly or at the end of a determined period. i just want a home lol i want a homeeeee and i want to decorate it with all my things and #never be afraid that i will lose it and get to stay there forever and ever or at least as long as i want. bc my parents already have plans f #for my new room after i move out and i won’t get to decorate it as much as i want bc my mom doesn’t want me to damage the paint. but like if #i have a place of my own then i get to decide a little ding in the paint is worth it to put up my lanterns. you know? idk. the mortifying #ordeal of experiencing freedom like thisfor the first time in my mid-late twenties probably 😍😍😍😍😍😍 but still its gonna be good and i hope it #happens soon and i have to MAKE that happen. so yeah. #wishlist #delete later #ok now im done for real THJS time lol. my mom is gonna be so pissed at me ive barely lifted a finger here. but im enjoying the quiet what ca #can i say!!!!!!!! like OMG ok last thi ng…. like she’s always saying i have to love myself first before i get into a relationship and it’s l #like.. maybe my living conditions do not predispose me to be able to spend time w myself in ways that allow me to love myself!!!!!! #maybe always being on the defense and needing to find quiet spaces all the time and being shamed for that is not a very good way to experien #experience myself in the place im supposed to feel most grounded and comfortable!!! so yeah. #like maybe i stopped doing all the things i loved bc you got alexa and loud speakers and started blasting music all the time and dominating #space and becoming more and more high maintenance… 😳 (and obviously i changed as a person / played a role in it too but again my point / re #realization is… maybe it was in RESPONSE to stimuli that were not good for me and not just bc i suck as a person / am losing myself / etc.) #like theeeee sonic warfare of it all. also my brother is a key player in it too bc he raps and sings at the top of his lungs and it’s like 🤨

[hell-heron]

I don't think I've had a single night I didn't have a dream about being at the summer camp and generally fucking up some aspect of the organisative machine since I left it

#tonight i had a combo of summer camp stress dream + 'i have prepared to play some moderately important part in a play i have lots of opinion #on the character and the costume ready #(but no lines memorised) yet the dream never fucking gets to me bsing #onstage one unexpecred hassle after the other' stress dream + 'damaging object stress dream + i react to being treated injustly with 0 r #restraint screaming insults and breaking things and then i have to live with the aftermath' stress dream #it was not fun! #i did get to see some of my kids in my dresm at least bc the damaging object drama happened in my absence while i was away with a group that #didn't want to stay in the theatre and needed supervising and then there was a scene where i went to say goodnight so ❤️❤️ #the damaging object was like. some kid broke a property of the cameraman (stupidly expensivs book) while i was out snd it was decided i was #the one who should have been supervising him so i have to pay. hence the breakdown #op #whining tw #usually the dream is more like 'after the end of the first camp you now need to readapt to another ' so i dont often see the kids

[pinnithin]

honestly working in a shit job was way easier when i was suicidal because i was always like well if things get too unbearable i can always just kill myself

now that i have a shred of self worth its like, it shouldn’t be this way. i shouldnt have to put up with this. things should be better. and being upset about that instead of just like, numbly accepting it

#i want to live but i dont want to live like this #pin talks #im going to carry what the air force did to me for the rest of my life #at least theyre paying me for the damages

[samwisefamgee]

The funny thing about constantly telling yourself that things could be worse is that sometimes. They are :)

#youd think the moldy trailer was gonna be rock bottom #but apparently its staying in a basement covered in the dust of a thousand thousand catshits #with the same people who traumatized me over 22 years until I moved into the moldy box in the first place :) #because im STILL dumb enough to believe their promises after decades of betrayal! or more accurately i dont get the choice lol #either way if i dont get outta here fast it is game the fuck over. been too much mental and physical pain for this shit to be worth it #fucked anyway given how much debt and permanent degenerative damage has been done but at least I can live whatever shit years I get left #in relative peace #I mean fuck I used all my fucking energy yesterday doing shit for them instead of taking care of my own stuff and WHY #all I got was get asked over and over to work even fucking harder like what the fuck did I expect #years pass and nothing changes for the better with these people what the fuck #and even if I DO manage to find somwhere to stay with folks who WONT lie to me for years to abuse my labor and psyche #I'll be broken in body and mind and spirit and ill need a job within the week to not fall behind #i still havent gotten on my feet and every attempt to rely on family. no matter who. #was just an excuse for them to use me for all I had for nothing in return #cant exactly find roommates with no money no credit no will to live and 20 problems on top of that that mean I cant pay rent yet #and without any family who wont try to kill me slowly or any friends who arent so fucked themselves they cant help its lookin like #im fucked once again gang #to think i was so fucking close to escaping all of this before the pandemic happened lol. even what I had then just isnt possible anymore #if I hear one more baseless 'things get better with time :)))' I WILL vomit until I choke to death like buddy that just isnt true sometimes #straight up some people are born to eat shit and die. babies get cancer. its been 24 consecutive years of eating it and I aint whistful fam #not anymore at least #keep sayin 'well it could be worse' when its about the worst its been and youre just asking fate to prove you right #only reason Im not completely homeless instead of technically homeless is that folks actually on the streets are much tougher sort than I #gonna jinx this whole fuckin rant but it really is a fuckin joke. i cant live like this but most folk Ive met on the street #would jump the moon just to live in the moldy trailer I got kicked out of let alone a filthy basement. #this COULD be a home I could work and live out of. fellas is it picky to prefer despair over living with people who traumatize you #does that answer change depending on circumstance and time or is there truly no justification in not making your life worth it #or am I really just the pathetic stoner burnout dropout that my folks see me as? I mean categorically yes. #is there any justification redemption or even just comfort to be found in that state considering the Weight that induced it #does it even matter if no other person knows what that Weight has been or for how long its built. if no one ever will know? whats the point

[bennitastisch]

i wish i could fuck my parents up in the same way they fucked me up

#i wanna tell my dad that my mom cheated on him soooooooooo bad #but i also wanna see for how long my mom will continue to pay my phone bill #so i wont #but i really wanna hurt them #cause every day since they kicked me out im scared that the same thing will happen here living with the bf and his parents and im also like #100 times more scared the bf will break up with me since my parents kicked me out bc i always thoight well i know my parents dont really #support my life choices and they don’t particularly like me that much but at least they know im their child and they try to love me #and i dont know i think they still do love me but not in a way that is good for either of us #and it is only speculation by now bc we havent talked in a year #they prolly expect me to come back home like my brother did when they kicked him out #but i will never talk to them again #and i know i shouldnt care what they r up to now or how they are doing but i really really really want them to be miserable #and i know its no healthy but they hurt me so much #they did so much damage to my mental health that will take so much time amd effort and energy to buff out again that i just want them to hur #i once asked them if they kicked my brother out if they could promise me to never do that to me #and they said of course no one is going to kick me out #and then they did #and i know its stupid and im naive to have trusted them but knowing this #knowing they promised me they wouldnt kick me out and then doing it anyways #because i wasnt willing to be their little pet or doll or whatever the hell anymore it just hurts #they always wanted me to be who they wanted me to be #and as soon as i broke out of that mold they didnt like me anymore #they didnt like their own child anymore cause they couldn’t control it and i hate that i knwo that they r fucked up ppl for it and still wan #them to come crawling to my door and apologize and tell me they still love me #just so i can tell them to fuck off and close the door in their faces #i want to hurt them like they hurt me #i hate that they have that power over me #bc im not a malicious person #but i also want revenge #ben vents

[103grandprixwinnerlewishamilton]

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#there was some pretty intense rainstorm when I was driving home today with trees falling onto the street #and cars sliding of because of the wind and the rain. and i was nearly hit by two trees but luckily nothing happened #but then there was a truck coming my way in a curve and was sliding a bit. so I tried to avoid any collision #and accidently damaged the rim of my father's car and he just came home and i told him about it and also said i would pay for it #and he was angry and only said that the next time i should let the truck hit me because then at least he wouldn't need to pay for it #and i told him that the truck would probably have it the drivers door. so me. and he said well he still would have to pay for it #and hes just so angry and i obviously didnt do it on purpose and now I'm just sitting at home crying while my mom said she would handle him #edit: and its not even a big damage. its just a bit roughened at a like max 2 cm place. which you dont even see if you arent looking for it

[general-george-washington]

chicken run was damaged when that tree fell but now I have it In My Head that I could have a 200ft chicken run rather than 100 which

#my moms like. maybe we can get your uncle to build one #which. id pay him but maybe! insurance should pay us for some of the damage #10x20 dog runs that arent 5k are difficult to find. btw #that would be 40sqft per bird. rn its 20 which the standard is at least ten but i want them to have More without me having to watch them

[gallusrostromegalus]

Basically. I got screwed.

I am very sorry for how relatively quiet this blog has been but I've been dealing with a very unpleasant situation the last few months, and now I need help.

Essentially, I tried to help someone out, and she took advantage of me, and I have no way to recoup my losses.

Earlier this year, I moved into a new house. Before we sold the old house, a Now-Former friend ran into some trouble and was about to become homeless with pets and a small child. Not wanting them to be on the street, we offered to hold off selling the old house so she could stay there for a little while, if she could pay the cost of the mortgage on that house (because I could afford one mortgage but not two) while we helped her find somewhere more permanent.

I was not making money from this- since I was still paying the utilities and property taxes, I was actually losing money, but willing to soak that in order to help her save up and get her on her feet.

Instead, she:

Never Paid a Dime towards covering the mortgage costs like she agreed ($12,000 for the nine months she was there)

Trashed the house ($500 dump fees for the trash alone)

Let her pets piss and shit all over the house ($1,500 bio hazard cleanup, $4000 to replace the carpet and other damaged flooring)

Caused an electrical issue in the garage ($900 to repair)

Broke the washer, dryer and refrigerator ($2500 to replace)

Broke the fence ($1000 to repair)

When I told her I could no longer financially support her and that I needed to sell the old house, she illegally squatted there for a solid three months and I had to hire a lawyer and actually take her to court to get her to leave ($2,500)

The resulting stress has been, as you can imagine, stressful.

So stressful, in fact, that it aggravated a the medical conditions my husband had and made him extremely sick. He had to go to the hospital and take time off work to recover. Now the health insurance is trying to weasel out of paying his short-term disability claim.

So net, this woman has managed to cost me around $25,000 and that's not taking into account the missed paychecks and medical expenses. I do not have $25,000, and until at least $13,000 of that is spent to repair the damage she did, I legally cannot sell the house to even begin to recoup my losses.

Theoretically, I could sue this woman, but she doesn't have any money and it would be me paying even more money I don't have to get... Nothing. So I'm asking for help to cover the costs of getting the old house ready to sell, my husband's medical expenses, and other expenses incurred by this debacle:

If you can help out in any way-share, donate spare change, anything- I'd be extremely grateful.

Thank you.

#signal Boost #fundraiser #original post edited for clarity