#orthorexia King

[suncaptor]

Sam also wants to have perceived strength and power he just channels it into dominion over his body instead and obsesses over what he can do.

#orthorexia King #spn #incoherents #sammy #supernatural #sam winchester #sam being degraded and forced to submit himself and not trying to fight to maintain control and instead directing it inward #because it's a lost cause he's already been made into what he is and he never wanted to embody toxic masculinity he never wanted power over #others and when he actually did feel powerful he was high and being manipulated and tricked and abused into starting the Apocalypse :):)

[ekwalker]

this is what i looked like when i first got zr (really awful picture because i deleted most of my photos from around this time in my life), i feel like gary king gripping the clone of my childhood self by the chin “i’m so cute!”

i make myself SAD because i was so beautiful and i really believed that i wasn’t but when you tell children things they believe them!!

i downloaded the app roughly 5 years ago in a weird era of my life: 12, vegetarian, encyclopaedic knowledge of twenty one pilots’ music (that’s endured i can still recite most of their songs. i saw them live in 2019 it was cool as fuck i’ll admit). looking back, orthorexia feels like an appropriate name for what i was going through, eating my salads with no dressing and going for runs like i had any business trying to change my body.

long story short, i love my body now. i think it’s cool as fuck. i have a running app on my phone because i care about the story which feels like coming full circle. GROWTH.

also me this year at the same festival. wept when paul heston played caravan of love 👍

#HAHA CRINGE #SELF LOVE #LOOOOSER #this is a load of waffle without a doubt but it feels therapeutic #ed #orthorexia #zombies run fandom #zombies run #talk to me about twenty one pilots i love those guys TO THIS DAY #sai was mid tho #twenty one pilots #controversially i’m a trench fan tho

[crssfre]

TW: EATING DISORDER, growing up, juliette had struggled with anorexia that slowly developed into orthorexia that she's slowly tried to heal. anorexia was very much due to being a ballerina and the pressure of having a social media presence, it started around the age of 13, around the age of 16 her mother noticed some issues and had her begin therapy. from there she seemed as if she were better, and did a good job at making her family think that she was eating more, but truly she was becoming obsessed with eating healthy. around 19 when she was starting to look into her father and started curating the idea of becoming crossfire, she knew she wouldn't be able to do it with the amount and style she was eating. behind her mother's back, she started going back to therapy until she graduated college. she still struggles with body image, especially as she's started developing more muscle and gaining weight. now that she's in her mid twenties, and starting to dissociate from the identity that is juliette king: she's starting to get better with her body image.

#* ic / ( headcanon ) #eating disorders / #ed / #body image / #anorexia / #ask to tag /

[tthael]

Chapters: 24/? Fandom: IT - Stephen King, IT (Movies - Muschietti) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Eddie Kaspbrak/Richie Tozier, Patricia Blum Uris/Stanley Uris, Ben Hanscom/Beverly Marsh Characters: Eddie Kaspbrak, Richie Tozier, Stanley Uris, Myra Kaspbrak, Patricia Blum Uris, Beverly Marsh, Bill Denbrough, Ben Hanscom, Mike Hanlon, Will Hanlon Additional Tags: Fix-It, Eddie Kaspbrak Lives, Stanley Uris Lives, Getting Together, Medical Inaccuracies, Coming Out, Eddie Kaspbrak Gets Divorced, Size Kink, eddie kaspbrak explores his sexuality in teeny-tiny steps, Painkillers, Injury Recovery, richie tozier's all-dead rock show, Explicit Sexual Content, Bodily Fluids, Emetophobia, scalp massage, Lots of conversations, Past Drug Use, Bodily Functions, mix of book and film canon, mike's book backstory, stephen we need to talk about leprosy, the persistent sexual threat of eddie's childhood phobias, Body Horror, Frozen Yogurt, acts of service, Eating Disorders, Disordered Eating, orthorexia, Making Out, canon-typical leprosy stigma, canon-typical HIV/AIDS stigma, Internalized Homophobia, Canon-Typical Racism, Canon-Typical Homophobia, eroticized asphyxiation imagery, Asphyxiation, Erotic Nightmares, Masturbation in Shower, Fantasizing Summary:

Eddie Kaspbrak has lived his whole life being told that he's delicate, and he's not. And nearly bleeding out in an alien fear demon's lair has helped him realize that--as well as what he can live through. It puts his priorities in some perspective.

What he is, is injured. And married. To like, a woman. And gay. And stupidly, stupidly in love with Richie Tozier, after all these years. And he'd like to use his new lease on life to act on many of these things, if only Richie would cooperate.

#my fic #chapter update #now what i'm gonna say may sound indelicate #nwigsmsi #indelicate

[aftgficrec]

Any fics that go into Kevin's food issues? That he built up from his time in the nest?

Here’s what we found. - A

Trust Me by A_Minyard [Rated G, 1899 Words, Complete, AFTG Exchange 2018]

Instead of developing alcoholism at PSU, Andrew discovers Kevin is struggling with an eating disorder. He intervenes and holds Kevin up because that's what Andrew does for his family. (Kevin POV)

tw: eating disorder, tw: vomit

'Til My Heart Stops by RosebudBasilton [Rated G, 24682 Words, Complete, 2018]

Kevin Day was not invincible. He was more than a face and a voice and a critic. Built on broken foundations like every other Fox, Kevin Day was destined to crack under his own pressure. How far can you push a boundary before it breaks?

tw: implied/referenced abuse, tw: anorexia, tw: eating disorder, tw: gun violence, tw: major character injury, tw: blood

the gospel truth i swear by A_Nobelmonster [Rated T, 842 Words, Incomplete, Updated 2017]

5 times Kevin needed help but couldn’t ask + 1 time he helped himself.

tw: eating disorder, tw: orthorexia, tw: vomit, tw: anxiety disorder

The King Is Dead by minyard03 [Rated G (we say T) 3369 Words, Complete, 2018]

Kevin finds out Riko is dead, and his whole world comes crashing down around him.

tw: alcohol, tw: panic attacks, tw: implied/referenced drug use, tw: bulimia mention, tw: eating disorder, tw: implied/referenced abuse, tw: vomit, tw: implied/referenced suicide, tw: implied/referenced abuse, tw: mental breakdown

#fic #kevin day & andrew minyard #kevin day/thea muldani #kevin day & david wymack #universe: canon divergent #universe: post canon #universe: pre canon #theme: raven!kevin #theme: eating disorders #theme: mental health issues #theme: friendship #theme: emotional hurt/comfort #theme: hurt/comfort #theme: exy #theme: recovery #theme: grief/mourning #theme: hospitals #theme: angst with a happy ending #theme: angst #aftg exchange #tw: orthorexia #tw: anxiety disorder #tw: implied/referenced abuse #tw: anorexia #tw: eating disoder #tw: bulimia mention #tw: gun violence #tw: major character injury #tw: blood #tw: vomit

[chrisabraham]

My dirty adapted sustainable one-meal-a-day (OMAD) diet

tl;dr: my intermittent fasting golden ticket is a one-meal-a-day framework that doesn’t chase calories or macros. My daily calories could be anywhere between 800 and 2,000, and that’s OK.

It’s Working Both my cardiologist and my primary are pleased with my progress. My most recent labs clear me on diabetes and the values of my other tests are normal. ​ I will tell you what I have been doing and how I achieved it. I will also admit all of my foibles, trying to be as honest as possible. Three-In-One I only eat one meal a day, whether it meets either my macros or my calorie count. It’s never perfect—I fail and fall back, and overeat all the time. But, I force myself to track all my mistakes on MyFitnessPal and I always rejigger my Zero IF app to reflect my adapted eating and fasting windows. If I am going to cheat, I want to cheat transparently! I sometimes feel like I am three distinct people: my id, who binges and suffers from extreme gluttony; my ego, who generally stays pretty silent; and my superego, who is incessantly trying to steer this bi-articulated bus that is me. So, while my id is being a dick and insisting on eating whole bags of chips and dip, my superego is desperately looking for ways to minimize damage. It would enforce accountability by disallowing my ego to hide behind partial data, which the latter might try to achieve through averting a strict tracking and maintaining of the calorie and fasting logs. One Meal, That’s It My single meal of the day can be a large and stuffy one, and it may be rich in salads or otherwise. Sometimes, it’s just reasonable stuff from a restaurant, at others, it’s a carefully prepared nutrition-dense and macros-perfect bespoke meal I would make at home. One eating, period, that’s it. Never Be Chasing Calories I will never chase calories. Today’s one-meal was probably 900 calories. So, today will be a calorie-restricted day. Not intentionally, but it’s OK to under-eat one whole day. Tomorrow, it might be 1,500-2,000 calories. Earlier, I had been a little obsessed with making sure I get up to 1,500 calories a day, but it’s not worth it, especially since everyone generally underestimates rather than overestimates calories. So, who knows? And, as I said before in another post, science and medicine, and even hallowed pseudoscience clearly show that it’s way healthier, over the course of your life, to miss a few meals than it is to overeat. If quality longevity is what I risk, I am in! To repeat, most people develop a sort of limiter after eating high protein, low carb for a while, but I don’t seem to have a quality seity setting. I don’t have a working fullness gauge. So, I need to do it in emulation. That’s why I have such short eating windows. I am allowing time to replace fullness. My Crazy Best Friends All of my best friends eat like birds. If you’re not familiar with this idiom, here’s a definition from Weightless Chronicles:

“Usually, eating like a bird means you hunt and peck, but don't actually consume much food. This couldn't be farther from the truth. Birds actually eat A LOT of food given their weight. However, their stomachs are too small to eat like gluttons.”

It makes sense when my extremely body-conscious friend Mark barely eats, but at least when he does eat (he’s that friend who gets terrible headaches because he’ll forget to eat for days), he feasts. My other friend, Keith, loves to talk of his ribald feasting. He loves to act like an over-indulged King, always suggesting a night of debauchery at Baltimore crab shacks; however, when we get there, he eats like a granny. He doesn’t glom, he picks carefully through the food, taking dainty bites and often times not even getting through a normal American portion. Maybe only half. I mean, it’s another thing when it comes to drinking, but his natural appetite is a work of art and his body comes to a very natural, a very beneficial, point of seity. His dad, George, is like that too. Extremely spartan, extremely self-disciplined. I need to ask him if it’s intentional—a sort of self-restraint as a bulwark against gluttony—or if it’s just a natural thing that he’s always enjoyed just as a part of being him. I don’t think that it’s any type of anorexia or even orthorexia—an unhealthy focus on eating in a healthy way—but it’s maybe a sort of an esprit de corps or a spirit of personal pride and self-discipline. Get in My Belly! I, on the other hand, don’t suffer from alcoholism (I checked! I had two Jamesons a couple of weeks ago and then some rum punch and a glass of Pinot Noir the night after, and none since. Before then, I hadn’t had a drink since March 11, 2020) but I do suffer from serious gluttony.

“Come here I'm going to eat you. I'm bigger than you I'm higher on the food chain. Get in my belly!” — Fat Bastard, Austin Powers: The Spy Who Shagged Me

Put anything in front of me and I will feel that I need to pack it away. Waste not, want not, whatever that means (it actually means exactly the opposite of what I had thought it meant. Instead of “eat everything on your plate,” it means, try to use as little as possible so that you have plenty down the road when you really need it. I blame my parents for not making this clear to me). Likely Story with Plan Bs, Cs, Ds, and Es But I am very bad at that, which is why I have a lot of fallback positions, which is easy to track with my combination of MyFitnessPal and Zero, my Intermittent Fasting (IF) app of choice. One rule, however, that I need to follow, no matter how much I do or don’t eat during my OMAD eating window is not to chase calories. The only reason why diets like Atkins, Carnivore, and even Keto is that the dieter is supposed to want to naturally eat less after they initially gorge themselves on steak, burgers, cheese, and seafood.

Their body is supposed to naturally start to push back and let them know, through what you probably perceive as full but I experience as nausea or repugnance. But, I don’t think I have that switch, so I need to be a little more careful. So, I build in as many guard rails as I can, as many safety features, as possible. 32, 28, 24, 23:1, 22:2, 21:3, 20:4, 18:6, 16:8 I’ll let you know what goes on in my head until now: I initially always want to do a 36-hour fast. But I always have fallback positions. Traditionally, they’re 32, 28, 24 (OMAD), 23:1, 22:2, 21:3, 20:4, 18:6, then 16:8. So, every day, I aim at 32 but I do not allow myself to fall below 16:8. How far back do I generally fall back, routinely? 80% of the time, I can keep to a 20:4, but I routinely do fall back to 18:6 or 16:8. But, every day, I do fast. Once every two weeks, I blow it all and resort to what’s called a Circadian rhythm fast, which is just 12:12. So, stop eating at 18:00 and start eating again at 06:00. So, the way old people eat. Idido's Coffee and Social House For example, I just finished a steak sandwich from my favorite café in the world, Idido’s Social House and Café, and I would say is pro Fresh Arugula, seasoned steak, capicola, tomatoes, scallions on ciabatta (~525kcal) and chips on a side (~230kcal). All told? Around 755-800 calories for today, which is much lower than the 1,500 I budget myself. However, yesterday, I binged on a bunch of junk, so it all balances, out.

Today, on the way home, I plan to buy a big roast and loads of veggies and throw it all into a slow cooker. So, tomorrow, I will feast on beef, greens, onions, garlic, spinach, broccoli, turnips, and all of the rest of that. And, I really enjoyed the steak sandwich and chips. I don’t want to get a steak sandwich with chips every day, but I also think that grazing all day is much more deleterious to my health, longevity, and fitness than indulging in what I want a couple of times a week and then eating healthy, focusing on intensely nutrition-dense food the rest of the day. So, who knows? Maybe tomorrow, I will eat ~1,500 calories or more when I feast on beef and veggies, and maybe even a salad tomorrow at lunchtime. Maybe I will have a giant salad the next day. Or, more likely, I will have the same beef and greens and vegetable medley until I finish off the slow-cooked, crock-potted extravaganza.

When I am on a roll, I sometimes revert to One Burrito-a-Day (OMAD) because, to me, a full burrito, which puts a very balanced—though not low-carb—1,200-1,500 calories into a meal bomb that I never become tired of. Sometimes from Chipotle and sometimes from Burrito Bros. I am working from home much more nowadays so I am cooking at home, and when I cook at home, I can really ratchet up the nutritional density and the low-carb part of the diet. So, I prefer that, but I also don’t want to be too much of a homebound homebody. So, whatever works—and it’s working. It’s working for me. They always tell you to tell them what you're going to say, say it, and then tell them what you said, so: I plan to eat one solid meal a day, at one sitting, and to track it but to not care whether it meets my daily goal, which is 1,500 calories a day, or even over that, if that’s even easily possible in one sitting without gorging myself, which is possible, but to not care if my MyFitnessPal tells me that I have not logged enough calories. That’s my goal. But, I will be extremely kind to myself when I make any errors, though my backup position is to keep my per-day eating window as small as possible and my fasting window as big as possible. Please let me know what you think about it and if this is a good idea. It seems to be working. When I started all this, I was pre-diabetic and 350 pounds (158.76kgs, 25 stone) and now I am 316lbs (22.5 stone, 143.34kgs) with an ultimate goal of 100kgs (220.5lbs, 15.75 stone). Wish me luck!

[eldritchsurveys]

1109.

1 - What’s your thoughts on breeding different species together (eg. tigers and lions to create Tigons or Ligers) when these could never occur naturally? >> I... I don’t know, honestly. My first reaction is always “w...why, though...” and then my second reaction is “well, I guess this is just how science works *shrug emoji*” because... really, what good reason is there to do this except “let’s see if we can”?? I just flat-out don’t understand it. I’m hoping there’s a benefit to it, like learning more about how DNA works or something, but I can’t help but believe it’s just scientists “fucking around and finding out”. :/

2 - What are you favourite things to watch on YouTube? >> A variety of things, idk.

3 - Would you ever want to go swimming with sharks? >> I can’t swim, so.

4 - Can you pick out any constellations in the sky without looking them up online? >> Nope, the only one I can see without a guide is Orion (and the Big Dipper, I suppose, if I look carefully enough).

5 - Do you prefer wearing you hair curly or straight? >> ---

6 - Are you religious? If so, what influenced you to start believing God? If you’re not religious, what convinces you there is no God? >> I’m not religious, but this line of questioning is a little disorienting because being religious is only partially related to one’s relationship with divinity. I do seek to cultivate divine relationships, just not in the context of following a specific religion.

7 - Is there any animal out there that genuinely terrifies you? Is this an animal you’re worried about coming across in daily life? >> Not outside of a specific situation where that animal is reasonably threatening me. Like, I’d be terrified as shit if I was being confronted by a grizzly bear or something. But I’m not afraid of bears in general, for no reason.

8 - How many times a year do you visit the dentist or hygienist? >> I was there twice this year, and apparently you’re supposed to go to the dentist every six months?? No, thanks. I’ll try to go yearly but that’s all I can promise. (I legitimately hate and fear dentist visits.)

9 - When was the last time you wore make-up? >> Halloween, I think.

10 - If you could have any type of cake made for your birthday, what kind of cake would you pick? >> I’m not into birthday cakes. Birthday dinners, on the other hand... :)

11 - Have you ever worn coloured contacts? >> Yes, many times.

12 - Have you seen any of the Disney re-makes (eg. Aladdin or Lion King)? What do you think of them? >> Nope, not interested.

13 - How long did it take you to pass your driving test once you started learing how to drive? >> ---

14 - Do you own a pair of rainboots or snowboots? >> Both.

15 - When was the last time you went out for a formal occasion or event? Do you remember what you wore? >> I think the last formal event I went to was Elle’s wedding, and I wore suit slacks and a shirt (it was Texas, even in January it’s warm lol).

16 - How often do you have the TV on? is it more background noise or are you actually watching things? >> We only use the TV to play console games or watch Youtube videos together on occasion.

17 - What’s one really bad habit you know you have, but you just can’t change? >> ---

18 - Have you heard of orthorexia (where people are unhealthily obsessed with being healthy)? Do you know anyone who has it (or might have it)? >> Yes, I’ve heard of it, and I’m always cautious about it because I’ve felt its siren call and I do not want to fall prey to it. I don’t think I know anyone who has it.

19 - Have you ever dated someone with the same name as one of your parents? Would this ever bother you? >> No. This would be an extremely unlikely occurrence even if I did date, because my father doesn’t have a common name.

20 - What’s the most interesting fact you know? >> *shrug*

21 - Do you like any songs by Elvis Presley? >> Yeah, a couple.

22 - Do you ever answer the phone to unknown numbers? >> I never answer my phone, period.

23 - Do you eat anything special for breakfast on Christmas Day? >> No, but that sounds like a great idea, since I love fancy breakfasts. Maybe we’ll do it this year.

24 - When you go to theme parks, what’s your favourite type of ride? >> ---

25 - What’s your least favourite colour? Do you own any items of clothing in that colour? >> I’m not sure. Maybe this particular shade of orange that always makes me feel vaguely ill. Obviously I would not have any clothing items in a shade that makes me feel that way...

26 - What time do you consider to be a late bedtime for you? What time do you normally go to bed anyway? >> Any time after midnight. Eleven is the average.

27 - What’s your most valued possession? Is it something that’s replaceable should it be lost/stolen/broken? >> I don’t know.

28 - Have you ever had plastic surgery? If not, is this something you’d consider further down the line? >> No and probably not.

29 - Do you believe that we’ve ever landed on the moon/ If not, why not? >> Sure.

30 - Are there any conspiracy theories that you DO believe in? What is it that makes you believe in those things? >> No.

#surveys #survey #random survey #not for reblogging *glare*

[communicatiestudentehsleide-blog]

The ugly truth behind fit girls

Eating has become a complicated matter, not only for adults, but also for the youths. On the social media platforms like Instagram, thousands or maybe even millions of beautiful ‘fit girls’ are showing their lives by sharing photos of themselves sporting and eating. They give advices about the best workouts and about healthy eating, often without having any certified expertise. They do not count their calories, but they do ‘clean eating’: fresh and unprocessed foods. They do not eat pasta or other carbohydrate products. Also they eliminate sugar, because that causes Alzheimer’s disease, cardiovascular disease and diabetes. This is where things get complicated, because sugar is in everything. Tomato’s for example, are we not allowed to eat tomato’s anymore? Did you ever think about what exactly motivates these fit girls to share their photos of themselves living an extremely healthy life every single day? I did.

Source: https://www.instagram.com/explore/tags/fitgirl/

Eating a pizza

Once you have a lot of followers on social media, there are companies that find you interesting. These brands see a popular fit girl as a perfect, cheap marketing tool. The fit girls can reach the target group the brands desire for a significant lower price than a magazine or a commercial on television. The brands send these fit girls their products and sometimes they will even pay them to promote these products in their posts. That actually sounds quite interesting, getting paid for getting stuff for free! Anyway, when this happens, you have to make sure you keep showing the same image of yourself. For example, a company that sells a new kind of diet tea would not see you as a great role model if one day you post a picture of yourself doing a heavy workout and the following days you post pictures of yourself eating a Big Mac or a King Whopper. But do you really believe that these people never ever eat something unhealthy in their lives? I do not. Once Karlijn was a fit girl herself, but now she is completely over it: ‘On social media you see heavy workouts, healthy meals, the six-packs early in the morning with just the right lighting. What you do not see are the days when we are too lazy to get up and when we are hungry devouring a pizza.’ In the end, the only thing we see is the healthy side of their lives, so that is what we believe and that is what we think we have to do to become like them.

Source: http://www.gabdig.com/order-now-knowing-health-benefits-of-pizza/

Sneaky advertising

The following thing that I find remarkable and want to share with you is that we all completely fall for this kind of surreptitious advertising. The so-called ‘social influencers’ get paid to show products of brands in their posts and they will tell it is the best product they have ever used. For a lot of big social influencers promoting these products is a big part of their income. Also I found myself guilty believing in these kind of advertising. A girl on Youtube once showed how she easily lost some weight with this diet tea I already mentioned earlier. It worked amazing on her and the only thought I had was: this tea is what I need! The same day I ordered the tea online. You probably already understand that this tea did not work at all. I believed this tea would work, because I trusted this Youtuber. This is exactly how social influencers and therefore fit girls work and how they can keep doing what they do. We buy the products and the companies keep investing in them. This is not the only way fit girls make money.

Source: http://www.blogilates.com/blog/2016/02/27/the-problem-with-fit-teas-skinny-teas/

Getting out of hand

Now the problem is that we in our teens or twenties  see all these fit girls and women on social media platforms showing their perfect bodies. We see their bodies and we see their way of eating extremely healthy. We want what they have and we will think it is normal to live a life like that. It is difficult to estimate how far the fit girls really go when they will not share the moments when they do eat something less healthy. This is when it gets dangerous. Young girls will try to copy this fit girl lifestyle. As a result, these girls might develop an obsession with eating extremely healthy or with doing sports every single day. They will carry on too far, until they will develop an eating disorder. An eating disorder we do not often hear about is ‘orthorexia nervosa’. In contrast to anorexic people, orthorexic people do eat. The thing is that orthorexic people leave out certain food groups. Eventually food choices can become so restrictive, in both variety and calories, health will suffer.  Eventually, the obsession with healthy eating can crowd out other activities and interests, impair relationships, and become physically dangerous.

More realistic

Luckily, more and more people like Karlijn create awareness for this issue and the additional consequences. One of those people is Anna Victoria. Anna Victoria is a fit girl herself, with 1.3 million followers on Instagram. She wanted to show how misleading social media can be. Recently she posted a picture of herself in a standing pose next to a picture of herself sitting.

Source: https://www.instagram.com/p/BPV9-cUA09D/?taken-by=annavictoria

Anna says that only 1% of the time she looks like on the left picture and 99% she looks like on the right picture.  I am convinced that our society has to be more confronted with posts like Anna’s, to show that the perfect lives are not as perfect as they appear. I hope other fit girls will follow Anna’s example and also post more realistic pictures.

Maybe you feel like I am exaggerating about all this. Of course it is possible that some of these fit girls just love to live a healthy lifestyle and they honestly want to motivate other girls. Creating awareness to live healthy is a good initiative, but this trend is definitely running completely out of hand! I hope that next time when you see a picture of a fit girl on social media, you will think about all this. Fit girls get paid for what they do and also they are human and eat some fries now and then. Now I am not telling you that you have to eat junk food every day, but know that one meal will not make you fat. Make sure you eat variated, just like the generations before us did. I think an appropriate quote to finish this story is: ‘Life is so much more then eating healthy food and doing heavy workouts’, according to Jenny Alvares, awareness creator for orthorexia.

[tthael]

Chapters: 20/? Fandom: IT - Stephen King, IT (Movies - Muschietti) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Eddie Kaspbrak/Richie Tozier, Patricia Blum Uris/Stanley Uris, Ben Hanscom/Beverly Marsh Characters: Eddie Kaspbrak, Richie Tozier, Stanley Uris, Myra Kaspbrak, Patricia Blum Uris, Beverly Marsh, Bill Denbrough, Ben Hanscom, Mike Hanlon, Will Hanlon Additional Tags: Fix-It, Eddie Kaspbrak Lives, Stanley Uris Lives, Getting Together, Medical Inaccuracies, Coming Out, Eddie Kaspbrak Gets Divorced, Size Kink, eddie kaspbrak explores his sexuality in teeny-tiny steps, Painkillers, Injury Recovery, richie tozier's all-dead rock show, Explicit Sexual Content, Bodily Fluids, Emetophobia, scalp massage, Lots of conversations, Past Drug Use, Bodily Functions, mix of book and film canon, mike's book backstory, stephen we need to talk about leprosy, the persistent sexual threat of eddie's childhood phobias, Body Horror, Frozen Yogurt, acts of service, Eating Disorders, Disordered Eating, orthorexia, Making Out, canon-typical leprosy stigma, canon-typical HIV/AIDS stigma, Internalized Homophobia, Canon-Typical Racism, Canon-Typical Homophobia Summary:

Eddie Kaspbrak has lived his whole life being told that he's delicate, and he's not. And nearly bleeding out in an alien fear demon's lair has helped him realize that--as well as what he can live through. It puts his priorities in some perspective.

What he is, is injured. And married. To like, a woman. And gay. And stupidly, stupidly in love with Richie Tozier, after all these years. And he'd like to use his new lease on life to act on many of these things, if only Richie would cooperate.

#my fic #new chapter update #indelicate #now what i'm gonna say may sound indelicate #nwigsmsi

[tthael]

Chapters: 21/? Fandom: IT - Stephen King, IT (Movies - Muschietti) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Eddie Kaspbrak/Richie Tozier, Patricia Blum Uris/Stanley Uris, Ben Hanscom/Beverly Marsh Characters: Eddie Kaspbrak, Richie Tozier, Stanley Uris, Myra Kaspbrak, Patricia Blum Uris, Beverly Marsh, Bill Denbrough, Ben Hanscom, Mike Hanlon, Will Hanlon Additional Tags: Fix-It, Eddie Kaspbrak Lives, Stanley Uris Lives, Getting Together, Medical Inaccuracies, Coming Out, Eddie Kaspbrak Gets Divorced, Size Kink, eddie kaspbrak explores his sexuality in teeny-tiny steps, Painkillers, Injury Recovery, richie tozier's all-dead rock show, Explicit Sexual Content, Bodily Fluids, Emetophobia, scalp massage, Lots of conversations, Past Drug Use, Bodily Functions, mix of book and film canon, mike's book backstory, stephen we need to talk about leprosy, the persistent sexual threat of eddie's childhood phobias, Body Horror, Frozen Yogurt, acts of service, Eating Disorders, Disordered Eating, orthorexia, Making Out, canon-typical leprosy stigma, canon-typical HIV/AIDS stigma, Internalized Homophobia, Canon-Typical Racism, Canon-Typical Homophobia, eroticized asphyxiation imagery, Asphyxiation, Erotic Nightmares Summary:

Eddie Kaspbrak has lived his whole life being told that he's delicate, and he's not. And nearly bleeding out in an alien fear demon's lair has helped him realize that--as well as what he can live through. It puts his priorities in some perspective.

What he is, is injured. And married. To like, a woman. And gay. And stupidly, stupidly in love with Richie Tozier, after all these years. And he'd like to use his new lease on life to act on many of these things, if only Richie would cooperate.

20 OCTOBER 2020: INDELICATE HAS NOT BEEN ABANDONED, IS MERELY ON TEMPORARY HIATUS WHILE THE CREATOR UNDERGOES PERSONAL DIFFICULTIES. PLEASE BE PATIENT.

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Chapters: 18/? Fandom: IT - Stephen King, IT (Movies - Muschietti) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Eddie Kaspbrak/Richie Tozier, Patricia Blum Uris/Stanley Uris, Ben Hanscom/Beverly Marsh Characters: Eddie Kaspbrak, Richie Tozier, Stanley Uris, Myra Kaspbrak, Patricia Blum Uris, Beverly Marsh, Bill Denbrough, Ben Hanscom, Mike Hanlon, Will Hanlon Additional Tags: Fix-It, Eddie Kaspbrak Lives, Stanley Uris Lives, Getting Together, Medical Inaccuracies, Coming Out, Eddie Kaspbrak Gets Divorced, Size Kink, eddie kaspbrak explores his sexuality in teeny-tiny steps, Painkillers, Injury Recovery, richie tozier's all-dead rock show, Explicit Sexual Content, Bodily Fluids, Emetophobia, scalp massage, Lots of conversations, Past Drug Use, Bodily Functions, mix of book and film canon, mike's book backstory, stephen we need to talk about leprosy, the persistent sexual threat of eddie's childhood phobias, Body Horror, Frozen Yogurt, acts of service, Eating Disorders, Disordered Eating, orthorexia, Making Out, canon-typical leprosy stigma, canon-typical HIV/AIDS stigma, Internalized Homophobia, Canon-Typical Racism, Canon-Typical Homophobia Summary:

Eddie Kaspbrak has lived his whole life being told that he's delicate, and he's not. And nearly bleeding out in an alien fear demon's lair has helped him realize that--as well as what he can live through. It puts his priorities in some perspective.

What he is, is injured. And married. To like, a woman. And gay. And stupidly, stupidly in love with Richie Tozier, after all these years. And he'd like to use his new lease on life to act on many of these things, if only Richie would cooperate.

#my fic #new chapter update #indelicate #now what i'm gonna say may sound indelicate #nwigsmsi

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Chapters: 22/? Fandom: IT - Stephen King, IT (Movies - Muschietti) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Eddie Kaspbrak/Richie Tozier, Patricia Blum Uris/Stanley Uris, Ben Hanscom/Beverly Marsh Characters: Eddie Kaspbrak, Richie Tozier, Stanley Uris, Myra Kaspbrak, Patricia Blum Uris, Beverly Marsh, Bill Denbrough, Ben Hanscom, Mike Hanlon, Will Hanlon Additional Tags: Fix-It, Eddie Kaspbrak Lives, Stanley Uris Lives, Getting Together, Medical Inaccuracies, Coming Out, Eddie Kaspbrak Gets Divorced, Size Kink, eddie kaspbrak explores his sexuality in teeny-tiny steps, Painkillers, Injury Recovery, richie tozier's all-dead rock show, Explicit Sexual Content, Bodily Fluids, Emetophobia, scalp massage, Lots of conversations, Past Drug Use, Bodily Functions, mix of book and film canon, mike's book backstory, stephen we need to talk about leprosy, the persistent sexual threat of eddie's childhood phobias, Body Horror, Frozen Yogurt, acts of service, Eating Disorders, Disordered Eating, orthorexia, Making Out, canon-typical leprosy stigma, canon-typical HIV/AIDS stigma, Internalized Homophobia, Canon-Typical Racism, Canon-Typical Homophobia, eroticized asphyxiation imagery, Asphyxiation, Erotic Nightmares Summary:

Eddie Kaspbrak has lived his whole life being told that he's delicate, and he's not. And nearly bleeding out in an alien fear demon's lair has helped him realize that--as well as what he can live through. It puts his priorities in some perspective.

What he is, is injured. And married. To like, a woman. And gay. And stupidly, stupidly in love with Richie Tozier, after all these years. And he'd like to use his new lease on life to act on many of these things, if only Richie would cooperate.

#my fic #new chapter update #indelicate #now what i'm gonna say may sound indelicate #nwigsmsi

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Chapters: 19/? Fandom: IT - Stephen King, IT (Movies - Muschietti) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Eddie Kaspbrak/Richie Tozier, Patricia Blum Uris/Stanley Uris, Ben Hanscom/Beverly Marsh Characters: Eddie Kaspbrak, Richie Tozier, Stanley Uris, Myra Kaspbrak, Patricia Blum Uris, Beverly Marsh, Bill Denbrough, Ben Hanscom, Mike Hanlon, Will Hanlon Additional Tags: Fix-It, Eddie Kaspbrak Lives, Stanley Uris Lives, Getting Together, Medical Inaccuracies, Coming Out, Eddie Kaspbrak Gets Divorced, Size Kink, eddie kaspbrak explores his sexuality in teeny-tiny steps, Painkillers, Injury Recovery, richie tozier's all-dead rock show, Explicit Sexual Content, Bodily Fluids, Emetophobia, scalp massage, Lots of conversations, Past Drug Use, Bodily Functions, mix of book and film canon, mike's book backstory, stephen we need to talk about leprosy, the persistent sexual threat of eddie's childhood phobias, Body Horror, Frozen Yogurt, acts of service, Eating Disorders, Disordered Eating, orthorexia, Making Out, canon-typical leprosy stigma, canon-typical HIV/AIDS stigma, Internalized Homophobia, Canon-Typical Racism, Canon-Typical Homophobia Summary:

Eddie Kaspbrak has lived his whole life being told that he's delicate, and he's not. And nearly bleeding out in an alien fear demon's lair has helped him realize that--as well as what he can live through. It puts his priorities in some perspective.

What he is, is injured. And married. To like, a woman. And gay. And stupidly, stupidly in love with Richie Tozier, after all these years. And he'd like to use his new lease on life to act on many of these things, if only Richie would cooperate.

#my fic #new chapter update #indelicate #now what i'm gonna say may sound indelicate #nwigsmsi

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Chapters: 17/? Fandom: IT - Stephen King, IT (Movies - Muschietti) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Eddie Kaspbrak/Richie Tozier, Patricia Blum Uris/Stanley Uris, Ben Hanscom/Beverly Marsh Characters: Eddie Kaspbrak, Richie Tozier, Stanley Uris, Myra Kaspbrak, Patricia Blum Uris, Beverly Marsh, Bill Denbrough, Ben Hanscom, Mike Hanlon, Will Hanlon Additional Tags: Fix-It, Eddie Kaspbrak Lives, Stanley Uris Lives, Getting Together, Medical Inaccuracies, Coming Out, Eddie Kaspbrak Gets Divorced, Size Kink, eddie kaspbrak explores his sexuality in teeny-tiny steps, Painkillers, Injury Recovery, richie tozier's all-dead rock show, Explicit Sexual Content, Bodily Fluids, Emetophobia, scalp massage, Lots of conversations, Past Drug Use, Bodily Functions, mix of book and film canon, mike's book backstory, stephen we need to talk about leprosy, the persistent sexual threat of eddie's childhood phobias, Body Horror, Frozen Yogurt, acts of service, Eating Disorders, Disordered Eating, orthorexia, Making Out, canon-typical leprosy stigma, canon-typical HIV/AIDS stigma, Internalized Homophobia, Canon-Typical Racism, Canon-Typical Homophobia Summary:

Eddie Kaspbrak has lived his whole life being told that he's delicate, and he's not. And nearly bleeding out in an alien fear demon's lair has helped him realize that--as well as what he can live through. It puts his priorities in some perspective.

What he is, is injured. And married. To like, a woman. And gay. And stupidly, stupidly in love with Richie Tozier, after all these years. And he'd like to use his new lease on life to act on many of these things, if only Richie would cooperate.

#my fic #new chapter update #indelicate #now what i'm gonna say may sound indelicate #nwigsmsi

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Chapters: 16/? Fandom: IT - Stephen King, IT (Movies - Muschietti) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Eddie Kaspbrak/Richie Tozier, Patricia Blum Uris/Stanley Uris, Ben Hanscom/Beverly Marsh Characters: Eddie Kaspbrak, Richie Tozier, Stanley Uris, Myra Kaspbrak, Patricia Blum Uris, Beverly Marsh, Bill Denbrough, Ben Hanscom, Mike Hanlon, Will Hanlon Additional Tags: Fix-It, Eddie Kaspbrak Lives, Stanley Uris Lives, Getting Together, Medical Inaccuracies, Coming Out, Eddie Kaspbrak Gets Divorced, Size Kink, eddie kaspbrak explores his sexuality in teeny-tiny steps, Painkillers, Injury Recovery, richie tozier's all-dead rock show, Explicit Sexual Content, Bodily Fluids, Emetophobia, scalp massage, Lots of conversations, Past Drug Use, Bodily Functions, mix of book and film canon, mike's book backstory, stephen we need to talk about leprosy, the persistent sexual threat of eddie's childhood phobias, Body Horror, Frozen Yogurt, acts of service, Eating Disorders, Disordered Eating, orthorexia, Making Out Summary:

Eddie Kaspbrak has lived his whole life being told that he's delicate, and he's not. And nearly bleeding out in an alien fear demon's lair has helped him realize that--as well as what he can live through. It puts his priorities in some perspective.

What he is, is injured. And married. To like, a woman. And gay. And stupidly, stupidly in love with Richie Tozier, after all these years. And he'd like to use his new lease on life to act on many of these things, if only Richie would cooperate.

#my fic #new chapter update #indelicate #now what i'm gonna say may sound indelicate #nwigsmsi

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Chapters: 10/? Fandom: IT - Stephen King, IT (Movies - Muschietti) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Eddie Kaspbrak/Richie Tozier, Patricia Blum Uris/Stanley Uris, Ben Hanscom/Beverly Marsh Characters: Eddie Kaspbrak, Richie Tozier, Stanley Uris, Myra Kaspbrak, Patricia Blum Uris, Beverly Marsh, Bill Denbrough, Ben Hanscom, Mike Hanlon, Will Hanlon Additional Tags: Fix-It, Eddie Kaspbrak Lives, Stanley Uris Lives, Getting Together, Medical Inaccuracies, Coming Out, Eddie Kaspbrak Gets Divorced, Size Kink, eddie kaspbrak explores his sexuality in teeny-tiny steps, Painkillers, Injury Recovery, richie tozier's all-dead rock show, Explicit Sexual Content, Bodily Fluids, Emetophobia, scalp massage, Lots of conversations, Past Drug Use, Bodily Functions, mix of book and film canon, mike's book backstory, stephen we need to talk about leprosy, the persistent sexual threat of eddie's childhood phobias, Body Horror, Frozen Yogurt, acts of service, Eating Disorders, Disordered Eating, orthorexia Summary:

Eddie Kaspbrak has lived his whole life being told that he's delicate, and he's not. And nearly bleeding out in an alien fear demon's lair has helped him realize that--as well as what he can live through. It puts his priorities in some perspective.

What he is, is injured. And married. To like, a woman. And gay. And stupidly, stupidly in love with Richie Tozier, after all these years. And he'd like to use his new lease on life to act on many of these things, if only Richie would cooperate.

#my fic #indelicate #now what i'm gonna say may sound indelicate #nwigsmsi #new chapter update #chapter update