#peeling my skin off i want this so much :)

[kavaleyre]

seems like all I’m worth is what I’m able to withstand

#vash the stampede #trigun #trigun fanart #my art #i just want to wrap him up in the worlds most gentle hug #i just keep thinking about him changing his shirt #carefully peeling it off so he doesn’t tear at his skin #he must be in constant pain #and yet he endures because he wants to help protect people #this hurt to draw #i just love him so much

[willowser]

every single day i think about the influence touya would have had on shouto as an older brother.

he has to take him everywhere he goes, so they're always jamming to the same hardcore music in touya's shitty car. shouto, obviously, develops a taste for the same bands, same songs. shouto is also in the ride-along to buy cigarettes and beer at midnight, and touya threatens his whole entire life if he tells rei, but shouto would never because he likes going too much.

shouto 100% would attempt to kick the ass of anyone that talked shit to his brother. little string bean, doesn't matter, this little boy is throwing HANDS for touya, and touya very much has the attitude of "no one can fuck with my little brother but me". whenever shouto gets in trouble for doing something he shouldn't be doing, touya is always taking the fall for him, no questions asked. shouto lies for touya like it's second nature.

shouto wants an earring because of touya, and touya probably GIVES the piercing to him, which makes enji blow a gasket. touya learns to play the drums and then shouto wants to, too — though he ends up being better than touya and touya promptly quits after that. touya teaches him to drive. shouto gets drunk for the first time with touya BECAUSE touya wants to be there to take care of him. they hate each other, they get into fist fights all the time, rolling around the house as fuyumi screams at both of them. they're best friends. they understand each other more than anyone else ever could.

#they're partners in crime #they fight CONSTANTLY especially at home #shouto makes a face at touya and flips him off and it's SO TOUYA. like SUCH ATTITUDE #touya will sit next to rei at dinner all 'mom what the fuck is wrong with your shitty kid' and — he's scolded for cussing — but #rei is like. are you serious rn. he's exactly like you #which they both VEHEMENTLY DISAGREE WITH #touya pretends to throw up violently at the accusation and shouto twists his little face up like that's the worst thing he's ever heard #and then later they're both playing a video game together ajfbduskak #like they are such BROTHERS #natsuo is there too but i think he's so inbetween them both that he wants to be his own person #shouto is young enough to be influenced by EVERYTHING touya does #and touya is like 😒😒😒 you're so goddamn annoying 😒😒😒😒 are you coming with me to the store or what 😒😒😒😒 #peeling my skin off i want this so much :) #screaming with my mouth closed :) #i dont even know what to tag this skgbsiakqk #✿ willow writes #✿ thoughts: dabi/touya

[iwasbored777]

I’m actually not normal nor do I plan on ever being normal about Miles mentioning Gwen at the end of the short because it just reinforces how thinking about her brings him comfort. Like he knows she would understand what he’s going through, but she’s not around so talking about her, drawing her, and all that is how he keeps her close 😭 poor Miles he needs the biggest hug. He needs his dad 😭 he needs his inter-dimensional crush 😭 he needs a BREAK

I know! That's what I'm always saying - he's a CHILD carrying responsibilities of an adult.

As if the scary dream wasn't relatable enough, it was even more relatable when he started talking about his crush right after having the wildest nightmare cuz when I wake up from the worst nightmares ever I too am just grateful that it wasn't real. I think of something that makes me feel better and so did he he was like "wow that was the craziest thing ever and life is hard but I'm in love so let's think about that for a while".

#gwen did the same in atsv she hit the rock bottom but was so grateful for that one day she got to spend with miles #and let me again say this i fucking want to die whenever i remember that he doesn't know she loves him #i just hate that so much i want to peel my own skin off #ignore me #i chose to watch this i chose to suffer so it's all on me #the spider within #spider man across the spider verse #spider man into the spider verse #across the spiderverse #into the spiderverse #Miles morales #gwen stacy #gwiles #Ghostflower #ask and answer

[shmiki]

#life with leo(h) #life with leoh #fanart #vikis art #character design #atypical artists #as much as i like this show it #can make me cringe so hard i want to peel my skin off with a fork

[girlscience]

I have remembered why I don't like fanfic

#WHY IS THERE SO MUCH PHYSICAL CONTACT #i don't mean smut. i mean hugs and cuddling and poking and head patting and holding each other through tears #and bed sharing and sitting on laps and hand holding and on and on and on #STOP TOUCHING EACH OTHER #no one touches each other that much in real life #no one wants to be touched that much in real life. RIGHT?????? #or am I just way off base with that #do people actually like fluff fic levels of human contact????? #that has to be a joke. you can't like it that much. can you? #I kept wanting to write a whole rant about this (including some other fic dynamic complaints I have) #but I felt rude cause maybe people do like that #I mean it wouldn't make up sooooo much of fic if people didn't like it #but also I feel like it has to be a lie #I would actually peel my skin off if anyone touched me as much as they touch each other in fanfic

[maggot-monger]

i wish "casual" didn't mean what it means in a dating context. there needs to be a word for "commitment is the goal but in the most low-key way imaginable." i mean you can say you want a qpr i guess but most people don't really get that

#i keep being like 'maybe i'm not really aro' but then the slightest hint of the possibility of passionate romance comes up #and i want to peel my skin off and run away #i just want a forever roommate is that so much to ask?? it's literally not asking very much but people are not on board :(((

[volfoss]

sincerely i think the worst part of having bjds of different sizes and styles is you will get a guy bc u think he looks nice and then you realize his head is massive and doesnt mesh with ANY of your other guys...

#twist rambles #^guy that finally reached out to doa members to be like hi. HELP PLEASE. bc like... i dont normally have realistic sculpts so its really #scary for me. but its something where i think id like to umm. do a slightly different faceup than what i tried w him last time. bc hes a #robot to me. so i want to have the circuit boards and stuff showing. initially i wanted half his face to look like that but now im like... #small sections would look rly good of like. tiny bits of the skin peeling off to reveal circuitry. if that makes sense. but also its so so #hard for me as a guy w shaky handsssss augh #like. hes 70 cm tall and JACKED. and my other biggest doll is 68cm and pretty sldner so its so scary. this also reminds me i need to keep #wiping the old faceup/body paint off my other doll so i can like. well. make a silly b.lack jac.k doll ok :3 but i gotta get references too #hmm. much to do. but anyways. its so scary idk his eyes are a lot smaller bc his features are more realistic so like. im very scared about #it bc i just. yeah. its very different to my other guys bc like... i prefer a slightly less realistic doll. so its so scary. but i fell in #love w his face and his body ohhhh god yall dont even KNOW how bad and how much work thats gonna be. beautiful jacked so.nic the hed.gehog #body <- due to the fact he is blue. only partially tho. which is why im doing circuitry. bc i then dont have to um... wipe the 5 billion #spots of paint off. sorry thsi is so rambly in the tags but. its so scary for me #bjdposting

[mishkakagehishka]

I wanna write poetry but i can't write poetry so i shall simply write purple prose

#read my 700 words about the intimacy of touching someone's waist boy #i want to write a whole little collection On Body Parts #you guys just don't get it. intimacy and affection can be shown through so much. so Much. #and also Body Horror is so important to me i need to write more about the whole. beauty standards / body horror. idk how to call it #summarised otherwise. body horror as a symbol for beauty standards or rather how beauty standards impact the psyche #because every summer i get the loving urge to saw my legs off and every week i get the urge to stick my nails into my hairline and drag down #until my skin is peeled off. 🥰

[macroglossus]

if i ever actually am able to move out and don’t just stay precisely as/more insane than i already am (screaming rending at the walls)/housing crisis doesnt stay precisely as/more insane than it already is i already know that i will be begging shrieking on my knees grasping the hem of the realtors cloak and kissing their shoes for hardwood floors propertywise. i hate you carpet i hate you i loathe you die forever and ever and ever and i cast burn you and torch you and set you aflame

#they’re just so gross. some people might be able to keep nongross carpets but that is not my family. thinking about it makes me want to #peel my skin off #hardwood is so. so much easier to clean. sweep mop bleach please i swearrrrrr ill do it I HATE YOU CARPET

[caterpillarinacave]

my brain is a wild place

#Ngl to wild for me #I want out of here #So many thoughts it’s insane #In the span or 24 hours I’ve almost completed two full art pieces that I will never post #Four characters several hours agony and why did I do it? Idk man where else will I find content #Not the internet :(:(:( #Also I’m like bleeding #So much #my lips are bleeding my hands are bleeding I just got a nose bleed #The skin on my neck is literally peeling off lol #My backs of my hands have reached so-dry-they’re-polka-dotted-like-a-seal levels of dry #Ironically the skin on my face is very clear #So I take that as a win #My brain needs to chill #I should go to bed #I’ll respond to things in awhile

[deepspaceclawstation]

It's been roughly a month (or maybe a few months?) since I've been in a depressive mood and life has lost all shine. I can't decide if this is because of the August-end events, festive season, seasonal depression, increased workload, or a mix of all of these. I'm going to go touch grass for a while and try for some vacation time in December, so I'll not be here here for a while. Sorry if I left any conversations hanging I'll catch up later!

(The tags get weird. Fair warning)

#I'm sick on top of that and people are being such. can I say cunts they are being cunts #I hate swearing (except for all the fucks I suppose) but these people are really something #I have also been so irritable and rude lately it's really messing me up a bit #Everything feels gross nowadays #If I ever get diagnosed (ocd for sure. anxiety maybe?) it's going to be so funny I have so much going on in my brain #When I was a teenager I lost my shit when I couldn't properly sort an image into one of my numerous albums or folders #and the...the term for picking skin. I don't want to know don't tell me but you know the one #and my whole thing with 'cleaning' (load bearing quotes there) #and yet I KNOW people are going to be so surprised if I claim to have ocd irl #Like. what do YOU think is going on then hmmm?? #(*****Weird (disturbing?) stuff up ahead*****) #Remember when I burned my hand (twice)? when that healed I peeled off the dead skin and. ate it #and I used to collect dried skin scabs #This is not normal behaviour I don't think #I don't think I've ever passed as NT in my life but I don't really talk about these things because I find it gross myself #This post was supposed to be a see you soon message but now it's this I guess #Bye bye

[runninguplenorahills]

There’s nothing quite like people headcanoning Will to be overconfident, into sports and popular amongst his peers.

Way to miss the point 👏

#‘people can headcanon whatever they want’ yeah cool #but if you hate canon will byers so much that you have to turn him into the complete opposite of who he is #then what’s the use? #this makes me So unbelievably angry #my skin is peeling off my bones every fucking time people want to erase that will is an outsider #(this is btw not a post about anyone i just wanted to say it because it generally makes my flesh peel off my bones)

[bunnyb34r]

There's been a crusty dry patch of skin in the crease where my nose folds and I keep picking at it with hopes that it either gets better and goes back to normal instantly, or that it's a perpetual skin flaking machine bc it's VERY satisfying to scratch off

#i picked at it earlier and was like looking in a mirror as i folded my nose to the side to get better access and i picked this big patch of #dead skin off and ive been chasing that high all day agsgdgsgsg #i have a tiny paper cut (cardboard cut) on my finger that's trying to heal and i keep wanting to peel it soooo badly but it hurts #the other day i had a popped blister somehow and i was able to peel it clean AND then sanded it down gently with a nail file to #get rid of the excess crusties agdgdggd it felt so fucking good #when i have a cold and am feeling better but have those nose crusties from blowing my nose so much i looooove to peel #the dead skin off agdgdggd when i was in like middle school i figured out exfoliation and scraped it with a clean emery board and was #sooo proud of myself at how sooft and smoooth my nose was. and then it fucking was raw for three days agsgsgsggssgs #i was like wow someone should like patent a nail file for the skin on your nose for this. and then learned that thats just manual #exfoliation and that i wasnt creating something new FSFSFSFFD #body focused repetitive stims my beloved (jokingly... kinda) #been having a field day today digging at ingrown hairs. pulling hairs. picking dead skin. just living 🥰 sysgdggdgdg #i should use the exfoliator blades (whatever those eyebrow scraper razors are) on my legs and face but 1.) i need SOME hair to pick #otherwise i go for my brows and 2.) don't wanna deal with the inevitable rug rash from overdoing it bc im a freak #marquilla

[thedreadvampy]

continues to be a lovely warm December

#red said #OK HERE'S THE THING #i am extremely aware that we're in the middle of a fuel crisis and this run of subzero temps is full on killing people #so do not mistake me here #BUT #on an entirely personal level i LOVE when the weather is like this i LOVE full weeks below zero #i love when it's cold enough that everything's white even though it hasn't snowed #i love how crisp and biting it feels #i love the DRY cold which we don't get much in the uk bc we're usually above freezing so it seeps into your bones #this is full on my favourite kind of weather even though i can't feel my toes #it makes me giddy with glee #also like yes it's climate crisis yes it's fatal weather #but so are heatwaves. and you're allowed to get hype about the sun anyway. #this is beautiful AND doesn't make you want to peel your skin off #Hhhhhhh I LOVE COLD #I LOVE THE SKY #I LOVE ICE #I HAVEN'T FELT MY TOES ALL DAY BUT THAT'S OK

[milo-is-rambling]

Was high and sleepy but remembered I hadn’t taken my pill yet so I got out of bed and ate even tho I didn’t want to and then took my meds and also remembered that my sheets were in the drier and then put them on my bed everyone be proud of me

#forgot a couple days ago now my streak is like three days but its been pretty much two weeks #also putting a fitted sheet on ur bed when u have two peeling itchy tattoos on the backs of ur legs. hell on earth. but moisturizing ur legs #and knowing ur set up for ur period to start in a few days without worrying about the sheets u like getting ick on them. heaven. #except all the grease spots from the moisturizer my tattoo artist gave me for the first few days #but my legs are peeling and itchy and I am just staring so hard at my legs at every moment I remember I have tattoos bc I want to pick so #bad but I can’t and I WONT. but like oughhhhh skin flakes except they’re colored now and it’s a perfect shape all peeling and I just want it #even and flat and oughhh but I won’t pick I’m not going to pick they were expensive and I don’t want to ruin them I want to love them foreve #it’s like a month of healing time vs the whole time I’m alive and a corpse I will have cool ink like hello of course I can’t pick but fuck #I want to peel it all off so bad #okay anyways. going to sleep now. going to get high as fuck again and pass out before my mom gets home

[scoreplings]

beep boop

#i have been thinking abt self harm a LOT lately because ive been wanting to do it #but i am happy because now i am at the point where the thoughts are less #‘oh my god i need to hurt i need to hurt i need to hurt wheres my lighter wheres my knife im clawing all my skin off help’ #and more ‘… why do i want to do that? because it would make me less stressed? so does a coloring page sheeeesh let me get my markers’ #this specific weekend has been rough because there are sooo many people around and i have little access to my better coping strategies #and peeling your skin off is surprisingly easy to do in front of people without them noticing #but ive just been telling myself to wait until lights out then played minecraft and listened to a podcast instead lol #coping is sooo fun #also we did a journaling exercise and in part of it we had to basically say nice things about ourselves that are true #not just ‘i am good i am pretty’ #but un-opinionated (as much as possible) stuff #and that made me feel nice. i think i will make a habit of it #anyway im five minutes late to breakfast right now i just had to sit down and chill for awhile because i have had pretty much 0 time alone #in the past three days #seven people in a tiny room with child sized bunk beds is Rough #but i am oki now. #mwah goodbye i love you im gonna go try and snag some hot chocolate yayy