#pers.

[wellntruly]

Photo my mom sent me of their dog with a new friend / Simon & Garfunkel, Bridge Over Troubled Water

#my mom didn't even care #dogs #Simon & Garfunkel #pers.

[creamkisses]

i have a very prominent mon pubis so it’s kinda like having a bulge. it would be so crazy if i grinded it against you, right, haha. …anyways .i’m wet asf do u wanna do something about that

#if i ever say no to dry humping/non penetration my identity has been stolen for sure #pers. #crmksses #.txt #bd/sm kink #ftm bottom #ftm nsft #ftm sub #ftm t4t #t4t kink #t4t nsft #trans nsft

[impervioustotheworldssoftdecay]

finished reading Pride and Prejudice and I get it now. I get why this this has had the lasting cultural impact it had. If I were straight I would also go insane over Darcy. I've been sitting on the train daydreaming about it all evening.

#jane austen #pride and prejudice #pers.

[rruffian]

I HELD HANDS

WITH AN ASIAN SMALL CLAWED OTTER 😩

LIKE IN THAT VID 😩

they are trained to stick their little otter paws through the holes in the glass and you get to hold them, sob

there were actually two otters and their names were Thor and Loki ✨

I was hanging out with Loki and I said to the trainer I was surprised his paws were so warm and they said to try holding Thor’s and his were cold 😩

AND THEY HAVE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL LITTLE FACES ✨

and they are so awk too, their little paws are too short for their long bodies, almost raptor proportions, but they try their absolute otter best with them 🥺

I’m sooooo 🥹 ✨✨✨✨✨✨

#pers.

[thalassarche]

This is kind of long and it's me getting things out. Scroll past if you don't want to read about medical stuff, or declining health of aging parents, or failures of the medical system, or the feeling of personal failures in the face of all of this.

My mom isn't doing well.

I've been living with her for three years now, after losing my job during the pandemic. She had recently been diagnosed with end stage renal failure and needed dialysis three days a week, which really tired her out, so she needed help, and I didn't have a job. So I've been her caregiver for that time. Helping with shopping and meals and appointments and so on. August 1st, she had a stroke, primarily affecting the language centers of her brain, and making speech difficult. She seemed okay when I got up that day but by the time I did my morning routine (teeth brushing etc) she wasn't talking properly and we went to the nearest ER. Since then she's been in neuro ICU, post-stroke rehab, and a short-term care center, for therapy and recovery. Except she was fighting some terrible lower back pain that was making it very difficult for her to do her PT, then getting to the point she was bedridden.

Myself, and her brother and sister-in-law (who are our neighbors), agitated for diagnostics of what was going on with her back pain. They did an xray with "no significant findings" and prescribed oxycodone for pain management. We tried to get a CT scan or MRI or something like that for her and nothing happened, as she was transferred from rehabilitation to short-term care, and short-term care just kept up the narcotics. Well. Now she's in ICU again. CT scan, MRI, and bloodwork revealed that she has osteomyelitis of the lumbar vertebrae -- an infection in the bone/bone marrow of her lower back. There's actually an abcess there in her spine. That's what was causing the hideous pain. Osteomyelitis in the spine has a roughly 20% mortality rate. And Mom just isn't very healthy to begin with. She's a breast cancer survivor with osteoporosis as a result of her treatment. She has diabetes, with that effect on wound healing. She has the aforementioned end stage renal failure, so her kidneys don't work and her blood has to be filtered artificially three times a week. She has atherosclerosis (which may have caused the stroke) and has a stent in her heart, plus an artificial heart valve.

The doctors have said they don't like the look of the infection, and they don't feel she's a candidate for surgery to remove it, so it's going to be treated via antibiotics delivered via PICC for the next 6 weeks. But, it's sort of hanging there, that there's a solid chance she doesn't make it through this. And I just can't stop feeling as if I failed her, by not following through with the additional diagnostics, by not making myself such a pain in the ass that they did it to get me to shut up, and maybe found it sooner. Or that maybe I didn't even catch the stroke soon enough. Or who knows, maybe insurance denied the CT scan, or something like that. Just, that I'm supposed to be her caregiver, and yet, look. I don't know what I'm saying here other than just getting all of this out somewhere. But it sucks. The healthcare system sucks, insurance sucks, all of this sucks, and I just want my Mom.

#pers. #just a mess here I guess #nothing feels right #nothing really prepares

[palimpsexting]

ordered 22kg of pasta ✌️

#pers.

[cornpotato]

miyo and kiyoka!!!!!!!!

#pers. #my happy marriage #i love them so much #i feel so bad for miyo i cry everytime she’s hard on herself 😭 #i hope the saimori family get what they deserve

[pinky-promised]

I got the sickness again and bought a new bike.

1950 Cleveland Welding Co.

Second to taking your best lady out for pasta and jazz.

I'm really looking forward to spending more time outside. Going to New parks. Exploring. Pictures. I needed this. For me.

Friendly reminder, I do online consultations to help repair bikes. I want folks to get out and enjoy the day if they're able and get good exercise doing it. Show me the issue with your bike, photos, video.. and let's talk! I'd like to help with ANY Bicycle. If I don't know the answer, I'll find it. I have a Lot of experience in Bicycle mechanics.

#me #mine #pers. #fyi #diy #restoration #repair #collecting #bicycle #bicycles #vintage #classic

[wellntruly]

An instant classic in my dad's film canon

#dads #sheep #alpacas #pers.

[creamkisses]

yes i am a twinky alt transguy yes i cis-pass yes we exist

#i rlly am a pretty boy #its the dead eyes that help a lot i think #just imagine if patrick bateman was emo and took d!ck. that's me #pers. #.txt #ftm nsft #bd/sm kink #bd/sm brat #ftm bottom #ftm sub #ftm t4t #t4t kink #t4t nsft #trans nsft

[impervioustotheworldssoftdecay]

one thing I like about "Tender is the Flesh" is how it's not a perfect dystopia. The systems has cracks showing, people are sometimes more, sometimes less aware of the inhumanity of this. Not everyone is 100% on board, 100% brainwashed, no matter what the media tries to instill in people. Think of the job applicant getting sick when seeing the slaughtering process for example.

That's what draws you in though, that's the terrifying aspect of it. This world seems so realistic and natural, it's not comfortingly distant from our own reality. And even "good" people, normal people who sort of recognize the atrocity of it, participate in the system because they need to.

#pers. #tender is the flesh #agustina bazterrica

[520cafe]

WELCOME HOME FREMI 💔💔 (and tokishun <3)

#♡☁️ ━━ YU’s rambles #MWAH MWAH MWAH #PERS.

[apophenia]

i just think having dumb lil things in my desk make working more bearable

#pers.

[palimpsexting]

drag show look!!

#pers. #I can't wait aaaa