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simpsoup · 3 years

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moon song (sirius black x reader)

TW: angst, angst, and more angst. so cheating, lowkey a toxic relationship, falling out of love, sad ending? if there’s anything else i missed tell me!

a/n: this was so fun to write, im like obsessed with phoebe bridgers rn and the mauraders. we all know that my moony and pad foot would never actually do this but. also my writing skills are so bad so just deal with it 😙

word count- 709 (which is the biggest thing i’ve wrote)

you asked to walk me home, but i had to carry you, and you pushed me in, and now my feet can’t touch the bottom of you

you knew that your relationship with sirius was falling apart. he didn’t look at you with the same sirius sparkle anymore. the communication was falling apart too. no more pet names that made james wanna throw up in his mouth, no more lovey dovey things in the hallway. the relationship was becoming a chore.

you couldn’t have, you couldn’t have, stuck your tongue, down the throat, of somebody who loves you more

he did it. you knew he would. he would always pick remus over you. it was a bond that couldn’t be broken. but you broke it, and in return remus broke your relationship. it wasn’t his fault completely. but when lily told you what had happened the only thing in your mind was remus. and how he ruined everything

so i’ll wait for the next time you want me again, like a dog with a bird at your door

he would want you again. you know he would. he had to. you would take him back in a heartbeat. you swore you loved him, even when you hated him, and even when he hurt you. the love you had for this man was insane. he was broken. and beautiful. and the best person for you. and the love of your life. there was no one else, and there will never be anyone else.

we hate tears in heaven, buts it’s sad that his baby died

let’s face it, sirius never meant to hurt you. he never meant to loose feelings for you. and he never meant to stop loving you. it happened with time. spring turned into fall, and sirius’ love for you rusted like old metal. it was bound to happen. and he tried to make it stop, or to slow it down, but it was too fast. and in the mits of all the chaos, remus was the only thing that could hold him down. and while remus was holding him down, you were letting him fly away.

and we fought about john lennon, until i cried, and then went to bed upset

the first signs were the obvious ones, he was easily irritated by you, and seemed to always be picking fights. like when you said you didn’t like queen and he blew up on you, or when you stole one of his jumpers and he got really pissed because that was his favorite one and you didn’t ask for it. and whenever you got pissed off he rode away and went to find moony and prongs. of course, you went with lily and eventually lily went with james and they both knew that heartache was the only thing in store for the teo of you. so, if it was destined, why did it hurt so bad.

but now i’m dreaming, and your singing at my birthday party, and i’ve never seen you smile so big, it’s nautical themed

the memories came back in flashbacks and echoes. good memories, bad ones. all of them. over and over and over in your head until you finally fell asleep. classes were hard and boring , food had no taste, and it became increasingly difficult to take care of yourself. if it wasn’t for lily, marlene, and dorcas, you would be an absolute wreck, well. just a little worse than you are now. you avoided all of the mauraders, for “healing” and to try and forget about remus and sirius.

and there’s something i’m supposed to say, but can’t for the life of me, remember what it is

when you finally got the urge to go out again, to party again, to see sirius again your mouth went dry the second you saw them. remus and sirius loving up on eachother and the worst part was that sirius looked happy. so, you ignored them, found james and lily, and acted like a third wheel the whole entire night. it was hard to be in the same room with him, but you needed to make things right.

and if i could give you the moon, i would give you the moon.

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bobbiehoney · 4 years

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⌞ʾ⁎ ⊰ phoebe tonkin, cisfemale, she/her ⊱ i think i just saw BOBBIE LANGDON walk across trafalgar square, singing to SHE* ( HARRY STYLES ). you know, the TWENTY NINE year old MARKETING EXECUTIVE? people claim that they are just like BOBBIE from COMPANY**. it must be because they are CHARISMATIC and INDECISIVE as well… though i could be wrong. all i know for sure is that they live at BALTIMORE*** apartment. { violet, 23, est, she/her }⌝

yaaaaa’ll ! hi!! i’m violet! I admined the first little version of this group with fie and i’m so excited to join this community of musical theatre nerds, my fave people. i’m 23, I use she/her pronouns, and i live in the est time zone. i’m a (struggling lol) actress and writer. i’m a slut for any and all sondheim, and i first saw company when i was 16 and I didn’t really *get it* but I loved it. since then i’ve seen a lot productions (except the current broadway cast) and i always find something new in it. I was in a really cool gender-swap-y production of the show earlier this year (seriously it was so queer and inclusive and great) and while I didn’t play bobbie we spent a week just talking about the show and the dynamics of all of the characters and I have many ideas of how I would play bobbie....and muse.....SO ANYWAYS - ya’ll ready for a character study?

bobbie. bobbie, the very best wingman. bobbie, the perpetual third wheel. bobbie, the reliable. bobbie, the undependable. bobbie, the warmest. bobbie, aloof and mysterious. bobbie, the very best listener. bobbie, the cluelessly insensitive. bobbie, the romantic. bobbie, the heartbreaker. bobbie, the sentimental. bobbie, one of the guys. bobbie, the tease. bobbie, the magnetic. bobbie, the zombie.

background

bobbie’s name is actually elizabeth, after her grandmother (her fathers mother), and her grandmother’s mother. but most folks, her many dear friends included, don’t know that. her family never really called her anything but bobbie, and when asked if bobbie is short for something she’s always taken aback for a moment because she kind of forgets that it is.

she’s a born and bred new yorker and while she fits very easily into the london lifestyle, she’s still grouchy about how the bagels aren’t “right”, and things like that. she’s been living in london for about five years now, but she also travels a fair amount for work and visits nyc often.

she was definitely born into wealth, but bobbie isn’t materialistic, really. she lives a very “comfortable” lifestyle, but doesn’t hoard her wealth and donates a large amount of her income to charity. she isn’t financially dependent on her family, and hasn’t been since she graduated college, which she’s a little proud of. is she a yuppie though? a bit.

she works for a large corporation and kind of dislikes that, but she’s very very good at her job. she’s always had a natural ability to know what attracts people, and that translates perfectly into marketing.

I think bobbie had a normal childhood, not a perfect one, but nothing traumatic I don’t think. I do imagine that her parents were pretty distant from each other and that they got a (somewhat expected) divorce when bobbie was in college. she’s definitely an only child, and her parents are proud of her...but, like everyone else, they don’t understand why she won’t settle down.

personality

the thing about bobbie that kind of defines her whole personality is that she is just super magnetic. she’s personable, witty, and people are just very drawn to her. she doesn’t really understand that, though, if that makes sense? bobbie is definitely confident, but she doesn’t really see herself as much different than anyone else. people just love being around her, and she loves being around people.

bobbie is the biggest extrovert, a complete social butterfly and the life of the party. can make friends with anyone. she...really hates being alone, in truth. and has a penchant for hanging out with couples, she’s basically an eternal third wheel, but she enjoys that.

in denial. just always in denial. large capacity for denial.

important: bobbie is an observer. she’s always watching, listening (not just hearing), judging, and taking stock of people. (“she always looks like she’s keeping score. who’s winning, bobbie?”) that’s why she and joanne are the closest relationship that bobbie has in the show, among both friends and lovers. they’re both watchers, they’re like cats. (”sometimes i catch her looking and looking - i just look right back.”) the emotional climax of the show happens because of joanne.

the wild thing about company is that you’re mostly told and not shown what bobbie’s personality is like, because the scenes are focused on the couples/dates and the songs are introspective thoughts. the couples describe bobbie as being dependable, helpful, loving, and basically the glue that keeps their lives together. the three characters that bobbie has romantic relationships with describe her as withholding, cold, and undependable. that’s because that’s the two sides of the bobbie coin, if you will.

bobbie is an incredible friend. the four couples in the show are definitely her best friends in the world, and she would go anything for any of them. but they are definitely the only people the bobbie is dependable with, aside from her family. she also loves them dearly but sometimes she is this meme after hanging out with them or their kids lol. she says yes to them way too much and sometimes she is....incredibly burnt out and overwhelmed.

she’s an amazing friend, but one things change from platonic to romantic, she’s usually pretty quick to flee. she doesn’t know why. she tells herself that they just weren’t the one, that it just wasn’t meant to be because if it was she wouldn’t run so hot and cold. she’s very affectionate and charming with her lovers, she almost always seems to share a connection with them, and then she disappears. no one ever really knows why. she feels bad ghosting people, but she always says it’s for everyone’s best interest.

in all honesty bobbie could have settled down, she did find someone who could have been her “one” in pj/kathy. they both wanted to marry each other, but neither made the move, and bobbie feels deep regret for that. so the problem is her, not anyone else. she just can’t commit.

bobbie probably drinks too much, but she says it’s okay because she’s a fun drunk and she rarely gets sloppy. but she drinks too much.

bobbie definitely has bad impulse control, and often doesn’t really think things through, especially when she’s hit with a big emotional shift. i.e. when she proposes to amy/jamie in the show.

she’s lowkey kind of a square.....like she definitely smokes weed (canon!) and drinks but she also refuses to smoke a cigarette when joanne pressures her to (which, i get is an emotional thing and not really about the cigarette but stick with me here) and she’s very put off by peter and susan’s polyamy so AND she’s super taken aback by how *radical* and *wild* marta/theo is (which...isn’t much these days, it’s all just kind of aged material lol)......bobbie is not *as* cool as she thinks.

a line I always keep in mind about bobbie, which paul says - “a person like bobbie doesn’t have the good things, and she doesn’t have the bad things. but she doesn’t have the good things.”

notes on company (mostly for anyone who might consider playing a character from the show)

i’m playing bobbie at 29 about to turn 30, rather than 34 about to be 35. honestly i just had trouble finding the perfect fc, and so i aged her down. (why doesn’t aubrey plaza have more resources? ugh!)

she’ll turn 30 eventually, but whooo i just wanna have fun being dumb bobbie before she becomes slightly more evolved bobbie.

my bobbie is VERY bisexual. I would really enjoy a mix of the original genders of bobbie’s lovers and the revival’s. so april/andy, pj/kathy, and marta/theo are all welcome! as is jamie/amy. (though honestly I would prefer an amy) and i would like to keep the romantic/sexual undertones with joanne, if possible, unlike the revival. (& her lil flirtation with jenny because idk if they change that to david in the revival or not?) my version of bobbie would basically sing about all of her pals in “someone is waiting”, she sees things that she loves about all of them and would want in a partner.

connection ideas (I am very bad at these but i’ll try to think of more)

bobbie would have a million acquaintances. from work, from the grocery store, from the tube. she talks to strangers, she flirts with everyone she encounters, even if she is silently judging them at times. but she’s nice, I promise.

friends! of course, all of the friends. let’s see how they could know eachother!

bobbie is definitely besties with her neighbors, or tries to be.

look...bobbie dates casually, multiple people at a time, always. i’m open to all sorts of different relationship dynamics! bobbie may or may not break their heart a little bit though, i’ll warn ya’ll lol.

and of course!!! SPURNED LOVERS or exes of any type and on any terms!

#this only took 200 years i'm so sorry i just have a lot of THOUGHTS

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