#please suck even less

[faintedlcve]

END OF 2023

sorry to anyone who didn't want to be tagged xx

hi! most of you will know me as lucy (unless you're @m3ntallyunstable34 and know my real name lol)

so yes, i am lucy. and this is me reflecting on 2023 on tumblr because it seems like a logical thing to do considering this year sucked like 20% less (one of us is lying reference) because of all my amazing online friends. so yes i guess in a way this is a mutual appreciation post 🫶

@berryzxx you wouldn't believe me when i tell you you were the first mutual i didn't have to be all professional and got to be a crazy bitch with lmao so thank you for not judging me and talking to me like we're besties (we totally are btw bc i said so) mwahh

@longlivestv the loml literally owe my life to you bee 🫶🫶 you are one of the main reasons i'm friends with all of the people i will mention after, so tysm and thank you for being so sweet to me and i love flirting with you /hj ilysm 💗 also if im too young to fall in love why do you keep running through my brain? 😍😍

@loserdiaz one of the very few people i get to openly talk to and not feel weird doing it akshdasjhd ilysm april <33 and youre one of the only people i will ever admit has better pick up lines than me (thats a huge honour btw) so thank you for keeping up with me and flirting with me it makes me feel very special mwahhh and ily and we should totally snuggle by the fireplace you know i made those cookies you like (sab reference) 😍🫶

@weeping-in-the-willows thank you for being the absolute SWEETEST person to me <3 ilysm and btw you were my first discord friend and i'm so honoured about that ajshdnjfe you're so nice and ily and i hope you get everything you want

@theladyinwhite13 thank you for appreciating my unhinged comments and you're one of the few people who deserve to be told that they are funnier than me (i rarely ever give anyone this honour btw so its very special) and i think you might appreciate this reference 'so what if i just wanna be a little out of my mind'

@bodybetters and @its-tortle karo and tortle my beloved <3 ilysm you're like two of the BEST mutuals ever and i was so honoured happy excited (any other positive adjective) when i realised you followed ME back?!? i was literally so ajshdnjfe i can't even put it in words you're like my favourite people on this hellsite (affectionate)

@suugarbabe ajdhhgajsgf my pookie <33 you always stand up for me and ilysm for it youre the nicest to me what did i ever do to deserve you 😭❤️

@patrophthia omg the absolute sweetestt!! youre an angel and ilysm and i hope you have the best life every <33 ilysm thank you for being so nice to me and making me feel valued asjdhajksd i love youu

@theautistmwitch omg idk how youre still sane after hearing to my traumatising jokes 😭 ilysm mwahh❤️thank you for being so sweet to meee it makes me so happy <333 can't wait to traumatise- uh i mean make you laugh even more next year!

@kurtcobainsgreencardigan ajkshdad i had the time of my life 'bullying' [insert their name] (i dont wanna get cancelled yk just in case people actually like them) with you <33 [i mean you technically didn't 'bully' them but we bonded over that] you're so funny and sweet and ily<3

@catastrxblues nadine the loml <33 i LOVED chatting with you and ranting to you and reading your answers to my asks akgdskg im so glad to have you as a mutual and i would love to have some more ranting convos with you in the future haha asdhjhajsh ilysm mwahh <3

@nyctophile-me omg you're so sweet to meee 😭😭😭 ily you're like one of my favourite wives too you're one of the only people i will ever share sab with mwah ❤️❤️ id love to talk to you more next year <3

@magicandmaybe @andi-is-bored @alltheliars and @animallover4000 omg you're all so sweet and ily and we didn't really interact a lot this year but i loved chatting with you on discord 💕

@imperpetuallylost omg ilyy you're so unintentionally (or intentionally?) funny ahsjdnfne and i guess it's inevitable sorry sky but it looks like you (lea not sky) deserve to [redacted] goosebot and it's well deserved ajsjdjdne ily and id love to interact more with you next year <33

@london-affairs literally started talking to you like 5 days ago and we were flirting non stop that's CRAZYYYY ily btw pookie 😍

@m3ntallyunstable34 my literal best friend!! i absolutely love you mwah mwah mwah thank you for being my best friend and dealing with me for 12 years llama im shocked you're not insane yet ahsjsj ilyyyy ❤️

these are the mutuals that made me throw my phone across the room and scream in excitement when i realised THEY followed ME

also i will take this moment to thank all of you for making my year amazing and i love you all so much and i hope you have THE BEST 2024. thank you so much for being a part of my crazy blog i would never have imagined 438 people would find this silly little blog 🫶

@cassiopeiasdaughter @faultsline @underthenightskydreamsneverdie @theostrophywife @slytherinslut0 @imperpetuallylost @themidnightarcher @stvrlighhttt @psychedeliccc @prettybaby-grande @nqds @themidnightarcher @i-miss-you-im-sorry @cottoncandywhispers @svnflowermoon @finalgirllx @fallingforfictionalcharacterss @ashisgreedy @moonffe @suugarbabe @wordsarelife and @xobridgertonblues (i might've tagged some people twice sorryyyy)

#moots <3 #end of 2023 #goodbye 2023 #here i come 2024 #please suck even less #luce posts 💌

[moki-dokie]

how to make 19 year old boy who came of age during the pandemic and never had a real real job before now realize he needs to Chill The Fuck Out and be Less eagar about working for free holy shit he is impossible to wrangle

#moki talks #hi i got dumped with a shitload of new responsibilities at work #one of which includes trying to teach a Virgin Employee how work life.. works #today i got asked a mindfuckery question that made me go #oh oh no he doesn't even know basic labor laws must get him sat down with hr like yesterday #do you wanna know what the question was #'so if you work more than 8 hours are you like required to take a lunch??' #CHILD PLEASE #i have told him no less than SIX times now to STOP. WORKING. OFF. THE. CLOCK. jesus christ #it is a CHALLENGE when this is all in a remote environment #sigh. i am not cut out for teaching kids #lawd i am trying tho #i guess in his defense there aren't labor law posters plastered everywhere to read during breaks/downtime #as there are in the typical workplace environment #idk man he's a good kid very smart tons of initiative but i have a feeling this aint the job for him #which really sucks cause its basically his dream job but #bruh i need you to get like 3-6 months minimum of real people customer service job skills #smh i am flabbergasted he asked me about the break policy he has 0 concept of the severity of labor laws #like no wonder states are pushing for child labor again NO ONE IS EDUCATING THESE KIDS ABOUT THEIR RIGHTS. FUCK.

[jimalim]

what really sucks about the news of Renee Rapp leaving TSLOCG is how in the current media landscape where every show with wlw representation gets axed too soon, one of the few remaining shows that actually did manage to get renewed sees their only wlw character leaving. even when we get the renewal, we aren't safe...

#slocg #the sex lives of college girls #renee rapp #I'm happy her music career is doing well and I'm sure this is a good move for her #but it sucks that we're left with even less representation in the wake #its time for showrunners to start having more that one token queer character on your show please #like will Alicia even be around anymore? #tslocg

[layalu]

did u know that i spend. way too much time on inventory management </3

#can u also tell that i am. a compulsive looter #thing is that inventory management SUCKS in this game and it drives me nuts & i have to sort them bc else i wont find shit #i do also love making lists and sorting things. so . #lay rambles #bg3 #one thing that really annoys me it that sorting by type doesnt even fucking work properly #like game PLEASE im begging you just. put the same item type (or even just the same item) next to each other. ble as e #and. sometimes the same item wont even stack???? crying over here #(theyre still chillin in the camp supplies) #also i havent sorted the drinks in a while so there are way less variants in there than i have collected lol #i like having one of each kind of things ok........ #its fun to collect them

[onedirecton]

Been having the most rotten sleep for the past few days

#please I would like to sleep through the night again instead of waking up several times 😭 #last night sucked because I could hear my neighbors walking around in their unit and I need to bite someone why are the walls so damn thin #and then I had nightmares about them 💀 great ! #ear plugs don’t even help sksjsjsjs I can still hear them go up and down their stairs #so I’m going to try white noise and less screen time before bed

[soldier-poet-king]

Expericing the Horrors this morning in SO many different ways.

Like. Having to acknowledge my compulsive people pleasing and the way it fuels my martyr complex, even tho mostly I simply Do Not See It and pretend it's a virtue or doesn't exist. My notions of Duty and Obligation, which are good and my only reason to keep going sometimes, are also morphing into a genuine obsession and fueling said inability to say no or even thinking I'm allowed to say no. Wrestling with the fact that sm of this is an attempt to remain in control of the situation, to keep people placated bc they can't get mad at me then, but also still living with my parents who made me like this in the first place, because that's the best financial decision for me rn. Guilt or anxiety or whatever about the fact that my coping mechanisms/thoughts could be worse but also could definitely be uh..better. ongoing frustration with work and my workplace. [Redacted] happening suddenly at work this morning, which while not impacting me directly, has definitely made all of these emotions Worse.

#franposting #u can ignore this i just needed to write it out so it wouldnt be in my brain #or would be like. less in my brain #unfortunately i have to go actually so my job #probably just gonna put on tmg and try not to freak out #its uh. oh. realizing i am not doing as well as i thought i had been. or im backsliding a lot #its like yes i am better and autonomous and independent #and yet i am 27 and people pleasing and afraid and still a desperate child wanting everyone to get along and stop being cranky #terrified of the unpredictability of it and the passive aggression #so ofc my job is to rake myself over hot coals for everyone elses comfort. bc if i do that they wont be mad and wont be mean to anyone else #if I just suck up all the badness in myself itll spare everyone else yknow #and besides. what else am i good for? yknow? like. im just me. i have to make up for my existence somehow #the rational part of myself is very small and realizes this is absolutely fucked #but yknow. what else is there. what other evidence is there that life can be different. for me at least #there is nothing new under the sun. everything stays the same. etcetcetc #ah well. theres little joys i can find in the meantime. stay sane. stay kind and good even if im turning myself into a non person

[dancedance-resolution]

my hot take for the day is that large print should be the default text size. normal size font will be renamed “pocket size” or smth and THAT will be the special section of the library rather than the other way around

#i don’t Need large print books but i am so much more likely to read them than normal print bc normal print hurty my eyes half the time even #if i have enough light and everything and also large print feels more readable to me like the letters blend less idk #but it SUCKS bc it’s like all the library has in large print is james patterson and the bridgerton books. give me my sapphic rom coms in lar #ge text PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #LARGE TEXT SUPREMACY

[rooolt]

Happy pride month to some of the worst gay men ever, also known as about 50% of Brian Murphy’s actual play PCs

#To those of you who haven’t listened to trinyvale or Mavrus chronicles #PLEASE #theyre so good #and yes this is in reference to #Jens Lyndelle #(canonically gay wrongs) #Mac son of Mumford #(He sucks so bad and clearly likes Karl I’m obsessed with him) #And what the heck #Cody Walsh #That one is a little less canon but COME ON #anyways the only Murph pcs that are believably heterosexual in my opinion are Barry and kugrash #But even kug had something with perry so who even knows #Naddpod #not another dnd podcast #trinyvale #the mavrus chronicles #the unsleeping city #tuc2

[dabidagoose]

I think one of the biggest tragedies of glassheart losing popularity (judging based off I haven't seen a post in months) is just that it was the sickest ship name I've seen in years. So many other ships in fandom are just slapping names together. Sometimes they're not even creative. Like ok farcille you replaced the first letter. Like I can barely distinguish that as separate from marcille. Glassheart ship name was really too good to be true

#labru also fucking sucks as a ship name so fucking hard #please. i want fun creative ship names. #even if they are names put together they can still be cool! lumity is a great example where it is just mixed names but it still makes s #sick ass ship name! playing with words. can we have some. please. #should i tag this worlds beyond number it's kinda less about the podcast and more about my own personal gripes

[zemnarihah]

my best friend has been very distant w me lately and i asked today if she wanted to hang out and she said she probably couldn't bc it's her brothers birthday but she would let me know if she could and i have her location and i just looked and she's at her boyfriends house rn....

#we have it bc we're roomates so we started sharing locations when we first moved in like in case someone doesn't come home at night or smth #she recently told me that she wants to move out bc she has always wanted to live alone and she can finally afford it. and i asked her #directly like is there an issue because she is so non confrontational so she has never ever mentioned me doing anything that bothers her #and i said please tell me if there's something wrong because it would really suck if there was and i never got a chance to fix it because #you never told me. and she said no it has nothing to do with that i really just feel like it's time for me to live on my own. and a couple #days ago she was like okay i'm next in line for my apartment i'll probably move out in april. and i try to get her to hang out still and #she always has something else going on and i swear every night this week she's been at her boyfriends. #and if i see her around our apartment and try to make conversation at all she's so like short about it and barely responds like will only #give one word answers. i feel like it kind of started when i started dating e but i realized that i was spending less time with her and i #didn't want to be the girl that loses all my friends bc of a boyfriend so i started specifically reaching out to hang out with her and she #says no most of the time and never asks me. like i don't know what else i can do. #i'm like maybe it's bc of her boyfriend? bc they've been on again off again for a long time and previously when they were together it was #really distant with her like i barely saw her EVER. and they were mostly broken up for the past couple years and have been together i think #for a while again... but she knows i don't approve of that relationship and so she would like not say when they were talking again. so maybe #since lately they've been hanging out or dating or WHATEVER she doesn't fucking tell me what's going on with him. maybe that's why. #i literally like try to think of ways it could be my fault and maybe i'm being crazy but i cannot even think to blame myself for more than a #fleeting second bc i'm like. i have ASKED HER directly if there is an issue or something i do that bothers her and she says no. so even if #i'm somehow pissing her off would i ever know to change anything?? i just feel so frustrated bc it's like she's an entirely different person #to me. like this is not the person i know. and i don't know what else i could possibly do like i feel like we need to sit down and have a #conversation about it but what good does that do if she just acts like nothing is wrong. but i don't want to lose my friend i have such a #hard time making friends. i've known her since i was 14 like i can't imagine my life without her. we were the only two in our whole friend #group in high school to get out of the church i still love those other girls but we have so little in common now.

[shima-draws]

The pain is real bad tonight boys 😔

#I am. Dying #Shima speaks #I already took painkillers otherwise I’d just take more #AGHH. AGHHFHHH AGONY #Idk why I’m hurting so bad today?? My moving day was Saturday and I hurt less yesterday than I do now. #Also I’m upset bc I got X-rays Friday and I was supposed to hear back from my doctor today #And I never got a call 😔 #Ma’am PLEASE I need to know if my bones are Normal #And if they are I’ll probably have to get an MRI #Hurtsss. It sucks bc I still have stuff to unpack but I don’t even want to get out of bed

[kyouka-supremacy]

I don't get it, is the first season 5 episode going to premiere today at the Anime Expo?

#That... Kind of sucks. I had so much fun when season 4 was airing by watching the episodes unspoilered #And I was so excited and it made me so happy when I got to firsthand learn they were adapting untold origins #Going into the first episode completely blind was so much fun #But now it's going to premiere today and I had no idea????? And I didn't even have time to prepare mentally??????? #This seriously kind of sucks #And it looks like eps 1-3 will all be screened on the 8th. C'mon. #Idk I just feel like I had so much fun when season 4 dropped and we got to experience it all together more or less at the same time #And I would rush after uni to grab something to eat just before the episode dropped #And now half the people will watch it separately? And I realistically won't be able to avoid spoilers? It's just :/// #The fact that wether they are adapting a novel or not and which novel they're adapting is going to be ruined for everyone- #who can't partecipate at the anime expo is pissing me off so much #Well. I guess there's no helping it. Sorry for the rant #Mmh please correct me if I'm understanding the news wrong #random rambles

[luc606]

the ssum’s user interface is really depressing to me as someone who unfortunately took harry’s route very seriously

there are mysme calls that i still listen to sometimes even though i first played them six years ago. that archive is functional enough to allow that.

if i want to revisit ssum content in a few years, am i going to have to scroll through months and months of empty milky way calendars in order to do so?

#606.txt #cheritz please fix this i’m already insane enough #the ssum is even less replayable than mysme imo #so i don’t think that i’ll be restarting the route or part of it besides maybe the last ten days #like even now (a week after my save ended) it’s so sad to see the sky empty of stars when i scroll back to replay calls #am i too attached to a man who is pixels and lines? yeah #but that is… i would argue that is the intended experience of the game #idk it annoys me that there are 10000 stupid side quests in the game that add nothing but took time and thought and resources away from #designing the MAIN user interface #that sucks by the way #in every capacity #i hope they fix this in the next couple of years at least idk #i wish the ui was um #anything like mysmes #it’s so easy to find things in the history #vs the ssum you have to basically. remember the exact day it was

[intertexts]

hm.

#how do i tell my sister that while i appreciate the thought it is in fact not nicer if she takes the couch occasionally and lets me have my #room sometimes. first of all i HATE disruptions like this it's kind of even more distressing 2 be able 2 sleep in #my own room for one night and then i can't again!!! that sucks net zero!!! second of all She Has My Quilt.... trying very hard 2 be normal #and chill about this and not like it's one of the few things i really really really hate other people using & causes me distress etc. #also like i explicitly said 'hey haha don't do this please' & then she did anyway. which she does!!! i forgot about that!!! #also like man i dont fucking want to sleep on someone's used sheets & blankets that's gross. so im arguably less cosy than i would be. gggh #this all seems like.... very minor and stupid im sure however man im like constantly in a state of middling to severe distress over this #shit. because i in fact also hate people going through my shit or being in my room and also having no privacy however #im very good with suppressing and or masking how much i hate it usually!!!!! but dude she fucking hung her laundry & underclothes #to dry or air on top of my fucking books on my shelves. like. ghghhh hate it hate it cant SAY i hate it because of the everything!!! #ok. sorry. minor pressure cooker escape valve complaining over now im gonna go sleep awkwardly on top of the blankets on my own bed with #some throw blankets. leaving my door open for the beafts if she closes it in the morning bc she thinks she knows what i want ill scream. #txt #neg #this is like private kvetching btw ok i love her dearly it's just unbelievably frustrating.

[hells1nfern0]

you're worthless

man i got the bare minimum of anon hate this is so sad.... according to my besties they are saying u sound like kingdom hearts riku battle LOSER!!!! also my friend also said they could buy me for 42 cents so wrong!! 💖💖💖🙏📿😇👼

#idk what u were going for idk try harder man if you wanna like hate on me dude #like genuinely this is bottom of barrel shit did you even try??? #glitch #like PLEASE give me like actually something this is like nothing #hit me where it hurts cmon like say i look like someone who read through all of homestuck in less than a month #like #cmon this sucks

[daz4i]

tumblr what the FUCK is that new image thing on mobile. if i click on a picture i want to zoom on it not start acrolling through unrelated pictures. what

#this is so bad it looks like tiktok but for images...? #there is literally no upside to this I'm sorry it just makes the app less usable lol #does anyone else have it?? #oh apparently to zoom in you have to go to the post on someone's blog. the tiktok thing is only on your dash #this is not a solution. it sucks #also the scrolling thing i mentioned doesn't even work for some posts but they're still presented this way #so what did we even gain from this. @staff. please.