#preach my brother

[mswyrr]

more on michelin stars

I genuinely think it's going to be an important plot point in s3 re: why exactly Sydney wants a star and why *one* specifically. I went and researched and discovered something I used in my fic, which is that one Michelin star restaurants are excellent cuisine that normal people can still afford. And that connected, for me, to what Sydney had told Marcus about how going out was so special when she was a kid and she wanted to share that kind of amazing thing with people:

We didn't really like eat out a lot growing up, so when we did, it felt special even if it wasn't.... I wanna cook for people and make them happy and give them the best bacon on Earth (1x08)

I'm so hopeful/convinced that the research they have with, like, Matty (the chef who plays Fak) right there on set, means the writers know that about what one star places can be like. And that it's meant to be part of this - more humane vision of excellence for Sydney, where their spot is AMAZING, but it's not a cruel kitchen culture, it's not only for the rich.

For her, it’s *part* of her vision, where she says: 

“I think this place could be so different from all the other places we've been at. But, in order for that to be true, we need to run things different.“ (1x03)

But Carmy sees a star and all it means (all he’s ever known it to mean) as a repudiation of that kind of humanity. You say the word "star" and immediately Carmy goes "fuck stars" (2x01) as pure self-defense - because stars are just pain and suffering to him. They're NYC chef and everything that mess became.

He's so traumatized by the whole thing he doesn't think to ask the right questions: why do you want one? What is your vision for it? Why do you specifically want *one* instead of two or three? What timeline do you have in mind for getting there and how can we strategize on this together?

Instead, because he wants so desperately to please her, despite that instinctive, self-defensive "fuck stars" he relents and asks - okay, are you sure? Are you positive this is what you want? Really?? It's terrible. It's just dread and fear and throwing up every day before work. You really want me to give you this?

(I’ll give you anything you want)

He never asks the right questions. Just assuming the level of pain which is his only experience of this is what the thing IS--playing into that theme about how people only know what they're taught, only know what they are given, and if we are given pain and patterns of it it is so hard to even imagine things can be different and, when you can imagine it, still so hard to actually get there.

(It’s not a coincidence that the ASL sign is one of the few positive, healthy examples of kitchen culture Carmy witnessed - we only know what we’re taught, and it can be hard work to even figure out what “not shitty” IS let alone doing it)

So he's assuming all of that and it's like - if she's his CDC, does she want him to push her as hard as he was pushed? Push himself that hard again? He doesn't want to do either of those things. But that's all he knows. And she keeps saying this is what she wants. And he wants to give her everything she wants.

(In the same conversation she kept saying yes, this is what I want, she expressed admiration for the designer chef outfit he later buys her as a gift - he wants to give her everything she wants, even when it seems like a terrible idea he’s torn about)

I think this misunderstanding is intentional and it’s going to come out in S3. A one star restaurant fits so perfectly with what we know of Sydney’s goals and love for her work! And Carmy not able to even conceive of something better because of the patterns he’s stuck in and finding his way to her vision makes sense for him.

I think Carmy figuring out how this work can be joyful and humane is going to be a huge part of S3. Sydney not becoming lost in the high stress environment, not following in younger!Carmy's footsteps living a life of pure drive and dread, and Carmy finding that for the first time.

I do think that, given where they both end in 2x10, there’s going to be a period of conflict and a real bunch of issues for both of them - but with themes and ideas like this seeded into the story there’s so many ways to make s3 start out in a bad way and then really end in joy in a beautiful way?

#the bear #sydney adamu #carmen berzatto #sydcarmy #carmen x sydney #the bear meta #my meta #annnnd i'm back to my point that #this show would be utterly miserable and not enjoyable for me personally to watch #without sydney #because like.... she keeps having vision in ways #that this partnership needs #on his own he can't see the way to climb out of the dark hole he's lived his whole life in #and (Sorry i am quoting this verse in a strictly literary sense not preaching LOL) 'where there is no vision the people perish' #the show without sydney (as some reddit assholes seem to want...) is a short season about one guy's awful breakdown that time he tried to #bury his grief in fixing up the family restaurant #and had a breakdown after max 6 months #and then nat sold the place for them both #for both their wellbeing #to like - keep ONE brother alive #looking at it in fairy tale terms #(not my expertise but lemme try for a sec) #the restaurant is also the family #and they're under a kind of curse? #curse of the past #the awful patterns #carmy is under a curse #and sydney is the person #who is able to walk in #and break that

[fiddler-sticks]

So it looks like I was one of 5 people who was fully expecting them to apologize and change for the better?

#i'm probably exaggerating on the number BUT STILL #it seems like y'all expected them to go full capitalist villain mode #after all they've preached about eat the rich? #saying nothing or doubling down didn't seem like a thing they would do #if they didn't do anything i'd have to have a talk with my brother on whether or not we wanted to pay for the streamer #but now i'm glad we don't have to do that #i still might pay for a few months when ghost files s3 comes out #but i'm glad once those months run out i'll still be able to watch the episodes on youtube #berry's babble #watcher

[katabay]

new desktop theme! mostly because tumblr only does super tiny icons right now RIP, so I made the sidebar image a close up of my new icon: it's the roman emperor valens from subleyra's the mass of saint basil :)

#mostly because i think the posing of his body is super hot #like do not worry i am not about to start preaching catholicism to you unless it's spectacularly horny. this is abt valens #i have more to say about confessionals and communion #but oooooooh a neck exposed at a vulnerable angle like that. fun! love it! #also very obsessed with valens from a vague point of 'oh you had a (redacted) dynamic with your brother huh.' #nothing changes in the roman empire for real and also you cannot escape the visuals of the late republic motherfucker! #like what century armor are you WEARING and also absolutely banging decision to make valens of all people wear that #in a painting. love it! #anyway don't let people on my other blog know that im secretly a little obsessed with a later roman emperor #i have a reputation to maintain as not caring about anything past caligula #(redacted for no particular reason it'd just take too long to explain house hold structures and large scale politics #and also the sforza family of all people. etc.)

[oceanwithouthermoon]

chiyo x imu dynamic where kusuo and imu start calling each other their siblings so when chiyo and imu start dating he calls chiyo his sister in law

i have a big soft spot for imu kusuo friendship AND chiyo kusuo friendship and i just think imu and kusuo couldve bonded over their terribly unrequited gay crushes (teruhashi, satou) and then continued to be friends once they got over them

then imu got into another relationship first and now makes fun of him for being single 😒 but her girlfriend is now also really close with kusuo and tries to set him up with people

#i know it sounds like it's ooc but the way i was thinking about it #its like #i think kusuo would sooner call someone his sister than his friend #like he'll literally use it as an excuse to be like 'no we ARENT friends i hang out with her because shes my sister' #'saiki you only call her your sister because youre such close friends that you see that as your dynamic' #'... nuh uh' #preaching my big brother saiki agenda #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #saiki kusuo #yumehara chiyo #rifuta imu #meows post

[definitelynotnia]

im sorry i have to rant im so fucking pissed

my exams end on 19th and I have to get rid of some books and buy some books which are quite pricy online so I had planned on going to college street on 20th and selling my books and buying the new ones at a cheap price and i was frankly really excited about it because all I get is a one day break to relax bcz i have to start studying for entrances from 21st so all I have is 20th and i wanted to spend it at college street and then get some food and basically have like a solo date kind of thing.

and i was so so excited about it i told my boyfriend about it like 500 times bcz i kept forgetting i've already mentioned it and it was literally on my mind a lott so i kept bringing it up and ik it seems like not a big deal cz i can just sit at home and chill too but i literally do not get to go outside my house. like- the last time i went out was new years eve and after that the only time i've gone out is to school or to give my boards that is it. my mother has some weird like problem wiht me going out like even if i tell her that i just want to go to our terrace for 5 minutes just to get some fresh air she won't even allow that she'll be all suspicious and like sTaNd In ThE bAlCOnY aNd TaKe FrEsH aIr like she herself doesnt leave the house (and blames it on me and my brother ???? when have we ever stopped you bro, she said I HaVe To Be HeRe To KeEp An EyE like im 18 i dont need to be watched 24/7 stop blaming me for choices you put upon yourself) and i just feel so suffocated ALL THE TIME i feel so overstimulated and im so sick of rotting on my bed and i dont want to wait for some birthday party or friends meet up to be able to leave my goddamn house i just wanted to go and have a fun day and get me some books thats it.

anyway so initially the plan was that my mom would go along but something came up so she wanted to postpone it to 21st and i didn't want to bcz i'd already be missing 3 days bcz of my boyfriends birthday, holi and my brothers birthday (all of which are important and i dont want to miss which makes me the villain apparently bcz i should "adjust" and cancel my "parties" instead of trying to stick to my plan bcz that makes me too demanding and selfish apparently) so i suggested that ukw why dont u go do ur thing which came up and i'll go to college street by myself...which is when the solo date idea came which i had really wanted all along but didnt bring up bcz i knew she'd say no but now there's a valid reason for me to go alone so like, its a pretty easy fix i can just go alone but noooo. First of all,

I've been to college street multiple times before so its not like its an unknown area to me

im going by metro which is quite safe

im going when there is stark daylight and i will return home much much before it gets dark and im literally 18

she never lets me go anywhere alone, not even take ubers alone if i want to get back from somewhere my bf has to come drop me everytime and then go backwards to his house which is so so so stupid and i never get to go out alone unless accompanied by family or by a male friend, so obv when i said i'll go to college street alone she refused to let that happen and started screaming about how 'if its so important to go on 20th bcz u dont want to miss a day of studying then cancel ur 'parties' and study then' and i was like no its not about missing a day its just that there's a very easy and logical fix to this problem which is i go alone and its not inconveniencing anyone so why cant i just do that but she will not listen to that bcz im 'adamant' and 'everything has to be according to me' bcz i found a viable solution to the problem. so instead of letting me just go she was literally ready to pay much more money and buy the books online, like.....why cant i just go bro??? (and she keeps telling me im a waste of her money bcz i will amount to nothing in life and my education was a failed investment or wtv so like now why are u wasting more money??? im literally trying to save the money that u 'waste' on me so just let me ???)

anyway i called my dad last night and told him and he was super ok with the idea he said its a good idea that i go alone and that he would speak to her but then today when i asked her if dad spoke to her she said yes, we'll go on 20th and i was like .....we? so apparently she CANCELLED her previously immovable thing for which she wanted me to cancel my 'parties', she cancelled that and agreed to go with me on 20th just so that i dont get to go alone- like ???????????????? what is ur problemmmm

so obv i was super annoyed and i went on a whole ass rant about how i literally struggle to even cross roads bcz i dont know shit about basic travelling bcz all my life ive been in a car and its a running joke with all my guy friends that i 'cannot navigate' and 'dont know any places' and obv??? if im never allowed to go anywhere then how tf will i know the places- the only places i know is bcz recently i've been paying a lot of attention and asking my dad stuff about what roads to take to reach certain places and when i go out with my friends i kind of try and learn a bit but thats it i've only ever gone alone completely alone to two places which is my beauty parlour thats 5 minutes away from my house and one bazaar one time that was 2 bus stops away, thats it. thats my extent of public travelling alone. and now im supposed to go to a whole new STATE for college and i cant even call myself an auto without struggling. and like- is this not a basic life skill??? like ok yeah its not rocket science and i will probably figure it out even if i start later in life but why not now? most of my guy friends literally go everywhere alone, why not me? and my dad agreed with all of this but my mom was just like "you'll be in the hostel only, no need to go out of the campus" like ARE YOU FOR REAL????????? and she's like "if u want to learn skills learn how to cook" like ok yes i will also learn how to cook for sure but i wont have a fucking kitchen in the hostel but somehow cooking is an urgent skill i should learn but going places by myself is unimportant bcz i should just never? leave? the? hostel?

anyway after much screaming and shouting my dad gave up and just cut the call bcz he doesnt want to get into an argument with my mother and my mother was being all suspicious like why do u hAvE tO gO aLoNe AlL oF a SuDdEn even though i literally explained why i want to do this alone but she doesnt think thats valid. so she refuses to let me go and i asked her for one reason why i shouldnt cz usuallt its always "no u have exam what if smthn happens" but now i literally dont even have exam so whats ur excuse now? streets will always be unsafe forever so "what if smthn happens" is not a reason to never let me go out without a man so just gimme one reason and she couldnt give me a single reason she just said "i said no, thats it".

and now she's gone off about how im useless and blah blah and "high maintainance" bcz i want books and "everyone else (some pishi's son) just studies online" and so the whole option of college street is apparently now cancelled and she's trying to set up a whole ass kindle account (half the books i need arent even available as ebooks) just because i wanted to go by myself.

#in our house kids dont stay outside past 6:30pm'' but now all of a sudden its fine for my brother to play #till 10:30 at night #she literally stopped me permanently from going down in the evenings since i was in class 7-8 #this is why ive never had any friends outside of school bcz she wouldnt let me leave ths fucking house #and now that my brother is in class 7 #he's allowed to be out playing with his friends till 10 freaking 30 #he comes home an hour late sometimes...45 minutes and almost always at least 30 minutes late at NIGHT and she says nothing except like #one sentence #yeah im only the villain i only keep u locke #up in the house its all my fault #this is just so damn unfair #like literally insulting #im not a child what is her problem #what sort of fucking solution is 'never leave the hostel' like ok even if i do that what happens then??? after i graduate? #i'll be a 24 year old who doesnt know shit about going from one place to another without a man present] #and then this woman preaches how she 'always raises her son and daughter equally' like srsly shut the fuck up #my whole life i've been told abar late?'' #and for me bcz i would come home 5-10 minutes late nd i did it maybe once or twice she made me completely stop going down to play #5-10 minutes late from 6:30 wherein he comes an hour late from 9 fucking 30 #and this sounds so stupid bcz im an 18 year old now and i dont give a fuck abt how long i got to play but its just unfair dude #with me it was always smthn or the other either exams or she gets miraculously sick every time i want to go out to play #im not even kidding she did a whole “i have fever and ur going to leave me like this and go play?” on me one time bcz i was adamant abt goi #after months of not being able to go bcz of exam or smthn or the other #she did not have any fever it was fucking bullshit #and how am i supposed to help with ur imaginary fever anyway im literally 12 #its so fucking annoying man and then if i say anything at all she'll go on a tirade about how #like YOU DO THOUGH??????? im sorry ur feelings are hurt bcz i said you do smthn that u LITERALLY DO #istg not even 2 days ago she was having a fight with my dad abt how he should teach my brother to learn how to cycle so that he can go buy #groceries #i can cycle

[deathdxnces]

i can't find it to save my life so i am indeed here once again to point out why kai (varus') should be kai (irelia's brother) because it fits beyond the name ✨

1. irelia never saw kai dead. when she got home, her family had already been killed and buried. he could very well have been somewhere else entirely without her knowing, considering she had been in the placidium for some time.

2. kai is from navori, as is irelia's family.

3. dark hair and blue eyes

4. she was raised to follow karma's teachings. her family believed in harmony and balance and taught her and her brothers that, which is in line with kai's lines who, even as a slayer, says he serves the great balance

5. and admittedly i'm just going on with my bullshit now but i also just appreciate the idea that at the same time they were raised to put ionia first and care for the balance, they were also raised to protect what's important to them and with a strong sense of doing what's right and that kai immediately leaped to the temple's defense when noxus attacked with irelia in parallel having such a central role in fighting back (and it'd also be aligned with what's said about the rest of the family and how her father and her brothers protested when the noxians got to their village)

i just think val and kai exist so isolated when this would be such an easy connection to make (and!! the heartlight comic has all 3 of them being 'in control' of their body at different points; val talks to his mom to say they're leaving and looking for a way to be free again and i think it'd be fun to have that explored more let kai be her brother and let irelia talk to him thanks)

#» out of character — ⌜main sup irl.⌟ #out of all the things on league of legends i could preach for #this IS the one i choose to keep being annoying about #that and kat being the faceless #but that's for a different blog #i wish i could find the old posts.. #kai tag tbd. #they're apparently already husbands when kai meets val's family #probably bc pallas seems to be so isolated? #either way. the thought of kai bringing valmar to meet his family and little irelia meeting her brother's future husband #fills me with joy #ajadnfjn #it's canon in my heart

[pudgy-planets]

Also.

I’m playing FF7 on my Xbox. I’m in the mines currently. Died to the snake, lesson learned.

Aaaand Elena, actually not a bad person. She takes her job seriously, but I honestly don’t really believe she’s that bad a person.

Except Tseng. Tseng can actually perish.

Rude is cool, I like him. Reno, he’s a dumbass and I love him.

Rufus, has drip. He’s in the same ballpark as Cyrus from Pokémon, he’s just dripped out of his fucking mind, and I have to respect it.

…also Scarlett.

LORD.

She’s despicable, unbothered by the atrocities committed by the company, self-centered and conceited, and is fascinated with weapons of mass destruction.

However, she’s despicable, self-centered and conceited, and is fascinated with weapons of mass destruction.

#apparently one the soldiers fantasized about Scarlett stepping on them with her high heeels and preach my brother- #mun gaming rambles

[pigeonwit]

the delanceys do not need to be secret good guys for you to find them three-dimensional. you do not need to ignore the terrible things they do to find them interesting. you do not need to pretend that all the things they uphold and believe are just... a facade that they went along with because they had no choice. disney prequels might have us believe that its better to pretend like all the cruelties a character commits werent actually that characters choice and that theyre secretly a misunderstood angel who didnt mean to do any wrong - but sometimes people become bad people. that doesnt mean the delanceys cant still be interesting characters to you, but (in my personal opinion) if you ignore the things that make the delanceys who they are, youre doing them and any potential intrigue their character and backstory holds a disservice. maybe im cold, but i'd always prefer a character be INTERESTING rather than sympathetic.

#the delanceys do not interest me at all. their purpose in the show is to be antagonists who inflict pain and conflict for the protagonists #but the background newsies 'purpose' in the show is to just be that. Background Newsies. and people still love to scrutinize them so #im not angry that people want to analyse them and im certainly not saying you cant do that. some of these posts just irritate me. #look im not saying you HAVE to interpret the delanceys a certain way. again; media belongs to the consumer. you can do what you want with i #it just irritates me when delancey apologists preach 'critical thought' and 'media literacy' #only to disregard the entirety of the delanceys characters #anyways thats my two cents. #my tags on that one post didnt come out the way i wanted them to but. editing tags is a nightmare so. #here we goes #newsies #uksies #livesies #west endsies #the delancey brothers #morris delancey #oscar delancey

[doodlboy]

I should really just stop giving a shit and stop trying to explain decent human behavior to my family

#ive been trying to explain the shit going on in palestine being a genocide to my mom and brother #and they continously called me stupid and said i was going against “gods country” 4 not supporting israel #and then “disproving” every piece of evidence i provide by saying “w-well Israel existed in the bible so!!!1!” #then i got preached at saying god loves everyone and this shit going on is in revelations and whatever the fuck #so yk I'm done #its like talking to a fucking brick wall #i tried telling them abt project 2025 and they said “lol thats just fear mongering its not gonna happen” #despite me telling them repeatedly that trans rights are being taken away everywhere #im tired #like completely emotionally exhausted #and with the day i had yesterday im just..done #my head hurts. #elliot rambles

[tony-andonuts]

No Im actually gonna say more

I am so fucking Upset and Confused and Unsure of what to do and Im losing sleep over this and have to wake up in 4.5 hours for a 14 hour shift and Im just Over Everything.

And not even mentioning the fact that I suddenly learned that a resident who was like a close friend to me unexpectedly died

I am just So Fucking Fried and NO ONE UNDERSTANDS THAT!!!

#man i wanna go home #loke back with my mom and brother #i cant fucking take this #but i hate how i always come back every time i move out #but fuckkkk i cant do this i actually cant im alone and at my limit and I need to be held and told that none of this is my fauly #i cant be the only one fighting for myself bc im dying out here #im intentionally preaching to the choir here but holy fuck someone *please* help me #tony vents #this post is rat proof

[astro-inthestars]

HEY WHATS UP GUYS IM ALIVE HOLY FUCKING SHIT IM BACK JESUS CHRIST YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HAPPY I AM TO BE BACK OH MY GOD I CAN SWEAR AGAIN

MY NOTIFS ARE FUCKING CRAZY HOLY SHIT

#rennikorambles #HOLY MOTHERFUKCING PIECE OF SHIT JESUS CHRIST ON A FUCKING STICK #IM BACK IM BACK I HAVE WIFI AND A SIGNAL AND TIMBLR AND DISCORD OHHHHH #thank GOD im back no pun intended because that was a church trip #but to be fair though. it wasnt as bad as i put it up to be #ignoring all the holy lessons and shit? i.. actually had a lot of fun #we were thrown into groups that were part of companies of numbers 1-14 #so i was in company 3 group 3A because there's groups 3A 3B and 3C and every company has these three groups #and there were 14 companies overall and we were a smaller number because of the age group #our age group was 14-15 and the people were older the higher the company number #and your groups shared a room together so my group had 8 people in it and we roomed together for the five days #we were also given companions (thats also a missionary thing) but i thought of it like we were a duo or maybe soulmates like in double life #(cuz im so normal) #and I had a lot of fun with those losers. they were solid. pretty cool #I still did the ''No Friend Challenge'' and for the record I still WON it #i made no new friends those guys are just my 'teammates' #each group had a counselor and each company had an assistant coordinator its pretty cool! #and it was fun ignoring all the preach the god bs! there were pretty good general lessons too and the activites were fun as heck! #i got to sneak my phone in and my group and i enjoyed just playing music and using it as an alarm #overall it wasn't that bad. i didnt get as attached as my brother (he cried several times to my surprise) but i might miss their chaos #but i wont miss those dumbasses for long theyre already spamming my facebook

[nedsseveredhead]

man all the shit coming out about RT sucks

#obligatory bad faith reading disclaimer: im glad it is! #also i dont follow content creators closely anymore #i havnt engaged in any rt / ah content in literal years #but i have a lot of fond memories of friday nights sitting with my brother to watch lets plays and eat chicken fingers he brought from work #and it sucks to know people working on these things were treated so poorly #by content creators i admired #etc etc idk im the last person having their childhood youtubers turn out to be a bit shitty so #preaching to the choir here lol

[crowfeathers]

cant experience the full spectrum of emotions that is my 60s-70s escapism bc my shitty victrola vinyl player doesn’t work anymore >:(

I’m using the right cord and the power won’t turn on so I know it’s a hardware issue and I’ll have to send it in for repairs

#also guy at best buy rambled to my bf and i about better vinyl players to invest in #and also preached abt 50s music having the Bigger Better artists and how old music is so unappreciated n im like #amen brother i get that but im still pissed about my vinyl player breaking when i haven’t used it in literal years #also wait did he cite.. elvis… as one of the greats? hey wait who did he get his inspo from again? 🤔

[sharkieboi]

also hey with this Neverafter season begging you all to learn about Tale Types.

will again reiterate that the Grimms Brothers are not the “original tales” of literally anything in their collections, the oral AND written traditions of every single one their tales existed before they made, and then revised FIVE TIMES OVER, their collections.

and many of these tales have existed in various forms across multiple cultures for across multiple centuries.

“dark” fairy tales do not begin or end with the Grimms Brothers and they are in fact horrible Catholic revisionist storytellers who stole from the women in their lives

#shhh sharkie #I will send resources if wanted at a time that is not 11pm as it is when i post this but #this is my soapbox and i will preach about it for fucking ever #don’t credit the Grimms Brothers for stories that they stole from people and cultures who had already been telling them #for hundreds of years. and specifically from women who had been telling them. #and they also revised their collection five fucking times literally in order to pander to a #catholic audience. they added God to so many stories and actually took out a lot of the violence! #they kept some specific ones but they actually took out a lot of weirdly specific types of violence #they left in a lot of the incest and kept out a lot of the straight up murder tldr #and also a lot of mothers were changed to stepmothers #but also a lot more praying for babies was added #fuck the grimms

[look-at-the-stars-tonight]

I ran this morning AND wrote some AND made art and I’m so proud of me

#didn’t get any of my actual office work done oopsies #but in my defense it’s a Friday and also I did allot time for it I just ended up not doing it #anyways still proud of me!!! guys art is so so important and I know that and I preach that but I haven’t been doing it #and I just picked up a blank sheet of paper and did it #and is it good or anatomically correct? no but it was so FUN #and I’ve been working thought Tim Clare’s writing stuff and it’s been GOOD #I like this new series of exercises a lot better than the couch to 80k #they’re. the same honestly and I don’t actually care about his commentary all that much #maybe I’m just more present or more invested in them #I only ran for 15. min and then I had to call my brother to pick me up because the heat was gonna make me pass out :/ #but also I TRIED #I fucking tried today #also did u know running is utterly miserable. #runners high is def a thing #felt amazing afterward #but holy shit it’s awful in the moment #my roommate ran a 25k recently and I talked to her about it and she said it never gets better #which is. not very encouraging #but also I Want To run as much of this 5k as I can #maybe I’ll be dead after but it’s fine I have a couple days to recuperate before the eclipse #WHICH IM ALSO EXCITED SBOIT. I’ve never seen a total eclipse before #goddamit my brain jumped to too many places #delete later #anyways. if u didn’t u should acknowledge ur accomplishments today #even if they didn’t feel like much #now I’m gonna go read a 115k fanfic that’s gonna wreck me #that’s my treat to me #I HAVE ACTUAL BOOKS TO FINISH. but NO. THIS is how I’m spending my time. and it’s fine I’m valid #I’ve been talking to all the lesbians about running too #and they’ve been so encouraging too!! I love my coworkers and very distantly related coworkers sm

[lesbiancocksucker]

at this point I'm about to hate christianity on fucking principle

#my brother wont fucking shut up #he keeps preaching being virtueous in the eyes of god #and then ignoring like the most important ones #like being nice to people #and sharing