#im not even kidding she did a whole “i have fever and ur going to leave me like this and go play?” on me one time bcz i was adamant abt goi

[definitelynotnia]

im sorry i have to rant im so fucking pissed

my exams end on 19th and I have to get rid of some books and buy some books which are quite pricy online so I had planned on going to college street on 20th and selling my books and buying the new ones at a cheap price and i was frankly really excited about it because all I get is a one day break to relax bcz i have to start studying for entrances from 21st so all I have is 20th and i wanted to spend it at college street and then get some food and basically have like a solo date kind of thing.

and i was so so excited about it i told my boyfriend about it like 500 times bcz i kept forgetting i've already mentioned it and it was literally on my mind a lott so i kept bringing it up and ik it seems like not a big deal cz i can just sit at home and chill too but i literally do not get to go outside my house. like- the last time i went out was new years eve and after that the only time i've gone out is to school or to give my boards that is it. my mother has some weird like problem wiht me going out like even if i tell her that i just want to go to our terrace for 5 minutes just to get some fresh air she won't even allow that she'll be all suspicious and like sTaNd In ThE bAlCOnY aNd TaKe FrEsH aIr like she herself doesnt leave the house (and blames it on me and my brother ???? when have we ever stopped you bro, she said I HaVe To Be HeRe To KeEp An EyE like im 18 i dont need to be watched 24/7 stop blaming me for choices you put upon yourself) and i just feel so suffocated ALL THE TIME i feel so overstimulated and im so sick of rotting on my bed and i dont want to wait for some birthday party or friends meet up to be able to leave my goddamn house i just wanted to go and have a fun day and get me some books thats it.

anyway so initially the plan was that my mom would go along but something came up so she wanted to postpone it to 21st and i didn't want to bcz i'd already be missing 3 days bcz of my boyfriends birthday, holi and my brothers birthday (all of which are important and i dont want to miss which makes me the villain apparently bcz i should "adjust" and cancel my "parties" instead of trying to stick to my plan bcz that makes me too demanding and selfish apparently) so i suggested that ukw why dont u go do ur thing which came up and i'll go to college street by myself...which is when the solo date idea came which i had really wanted all along but didnt bring up bcz i knew she'd say no but now there's a valid reason for me to go alone so like, its a pretty easy fix i can just go alone but noooo. First of all,

I've been to college street multiple times before so its not like its an unknown area to me

im going by metro which is quite safe

im going when there is stark daylight and i will return home much much before it gets dark and im literally 18

she never lets me go anywhere alone, not even take ubers alone if i want to get back from somewhere my bf has to come drop me everytime and then go backwards to his house which is so so so stupid and i never get to go out alone unless accompanied by family or by a male friend, so obv when i said i'll go to college street alone she refused to let that happen and started screaming about how 'if its so important to go on 20th bcz u dont want to miss a day of studying then cancel ur 'parties' and study then' and i was like no its not about missing a day its just that there's a very easy and logical fix to this problem which is i go alone and its not inconveniencing anyone so why cant i just do that but she will not listen to that bcz im 'adamant' and 'everything has to be according to me' bcz i found a viable solution to the problem. so instead of letting me just go she was literally ready to pay much more money and buy the books online, like.....why cant i just go bro??? (and she keeps telling me im a waste of her money bcz i will amount to nothing in life and my education was a failed investment or wtv so like now why are u wasting more money??? im literally trying to save the money that u 'waste' on me so just let me ???)

anyway i called my dad last night and told him and he was super ok with the idea he said its a good idea that i go alone and that he would speak to her but then today when i asked her if dad spoke to her she said yes, we'll go on 20th and i was like .....we? so apparently she CANCELLED her previously immovable thing for which she wanted me to cancel my 'parties', she cancelled that and agreed to go with me on 20th just so that i dont get to go alone- like ???????????????? what is ur problemmmm

so obv i was super annoyed and i went on a whole ass rant about how i literally struggle to even cross roads bcz i dont know shit about basic travelling bcz all my life ive been in a car and its a running joke with all my guy friends that i 'cannot navigate' and 'dont know any places' and obv??? if im never allowed to go anywhere then how tf will i know the places- the only places i know is bcz recently i've been paying a lot of attention and asking my dad stuff about what roads to take to reach certain places and when i go out with my friends i kind of try and learn a bit but thats it i've only ever gone alone completely alone to two places which is my beauty parlour thats 5 minutes away from my house and one bazaar one time that was 2 bus stops away, thats it. thats my extent of public travelling alone. and now im supposed to go to a whole new STATE for college and i cant even call myself an auto without struggling. and like- is this not a basic life skill??? like ok yeah its not rocket science and i will probably figure it out even if i start later in life but why not now? most of my guy friends literally go everywhere alone, why not me? and my dad agreed with all of this but my mom was just like "you'll be in the hostel only, no need to go out of the campus" like ARE YOU FOR REAL????????? and she's like "if u want to learn skills learn how to cook" like ok yes i will also learn how to cook for sure but i wont have a fucking kitchen in the hostel but somehow cooking is an urgent skill i should learn but going places by myself is unimportant bcz i should just never? leave? the? hostel?

anyway after much screaming and shouting my dad gave up and just cut the call bcz he doesnt want to get into an argument with my mother and my mother was being all suspicious like why do u hAvE tO gO aLoNe AlL oF a SuDdEn even though i literally explained why i want to do this alone but she doesnt think thats valid. so she refuses to let me go and i asked her for one reason why i shouldnt cz usuallt its always "no u have exam what if smthn happens" but now i literally dont even have exam so whats ur excuse now? streets will always be unsafe forever so "what if smthn happens" is not a reason to never let me go out without a man so just gimme one reason and she couldnt give me a single reason she just said "i said no, thats it".

and now she's gone off about how im useless and blah blah and "high maintainance" bcz i want books and "everyone else (some pishi's son) just studies online" and so the whole option of college street is apparently now cancelled and she's trying to set up a whole ass kindle account (half the books i need arent even available as ebooks) just because i wanted to go by myself.

#in our house kids dont stay outside past 6:30pm'' but now all of a sudden its fine for my brother to play #till 10:30 at night #she literally stopped me permanently from going down in the evenings since i was in class 7-8 #this is why ive never had any friends outside of school bcz she wouldnt let me leave ths fucking house #and now that my brother is in class 7 #he's allowed to be out playing with his friends till 10 freaking 30 #he comes home an hour late sometimes...45 minutes and almost always at least 30 minutes late at NIGHT and she says nothing except like #one sentence #yeah im only the villain i only keep u locke #up in the house its all my fault #this is just so damn unfair #like literally insulting #im not a child what is her problem #what sort of fucking solution is 'never leave the hostel' like ok even if i do that what happens then??? after i graduate? #i'll be a 24 year old who doesnt know shit about going from one place to another without a man present] #and then this woman preaches how she 'always raises her son and daughter equally' like srsly shut the fuck up #my whole life i've been told abar late?'' #and for me bcz i would come home 5-10 minutes late nd i did it maybe once or twice she made me completely stop going down to play #5-10 minutes late from 6:30 wherein he comes an hour late from 9 fucking 30 #and this sounds so stupid bcz im an 18 year old now and i dont give a fuck abt how long i got to play but its just unfair dude #with me it was always smthn or the other either exams or she gets miraculously sick every time i want to go out to play #im not even kidding she did a whole “i have fever and ur going to leave me like this and go play?” on me one time bcz i was adamant abt goi #after months of not being able to go bcz of exam or smthn or the other #she did not have any fever it was fucking bullshit #and how am i supposed to help with ur imaginary fever anyway im literally 12 #its so fucking annoying man and then if i say anything at all she'll go on a tirade about how #like YOU DO THOUGH??????? im sorry ur feelings are hurt bcz i said you do smthn that u LITERALLY DO #istg not even 2 days ago she was having a fight with my dad abt how he should teach my brother to learn how to cycle so that he can go buy #groceries #i can cycle

[bokutobaes]

inarizaki boys when you have a bad day

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。. .・。.・゜✭ .・.

☆-with: atsumu, suna, kita

☆-!warnings!: swearing, parental issues, parents fighting, (there’s nothing physically violent), illness like the flu

☆-a/n: yall these are longgg LOL sorry

☆- author: lu <3

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。. .・。.・゜✭ .・.

☆ atsumu:

-his baby had a bad day :((

-just kidding he didn’t notice at first I’m so sorry nzjsjjsj

-your lockers are nearby so he’s usually waiting for you there first thing in the morning

-you woke up today with a headache and you were just really tired from studying last night :/

-you wanted to suck it up because it was your own fault for leaving the studying until the night before the test you had

-anyways, you were walking up to your locker lowkey trying to avoid eye contact with him

-“hi tsumu :)” u fricken liar with that fake smile

-“morning babe!” atsumu pulled u in for a back hug “i have to get to class kinda early for a test review so i’ll see you at lunch”

-and with that he was pecking your cheek and leaving

-“okay.. kind of good” you thought.. you didn’t wanna worry him or anything so you headed to you first class, math

-hell literally broke loose.. you forgot your pencil case and had to ask like 4 people until you got one which was embarrassing

-AND THEN the teacher called on you for an answer that you didn’t know like the universe

was against you or something

-“uhh... ummm i don’t know..” headass😩

-the class after that was slightly less dehumanizing but it was also japanese class.. the class you had a test in that you just barely studied for

-you did the test and lost braincells, blood sweat and tears LOL

-“okay class these will be graded by lunchtime so please come by to collect your scores before your next class”

-ogey :/ anyways u went to ur next class and before u knew it, it was lunch time.

-a text from atsumu made your phone vibrate while on your way to get your test scores

-“hey babe im actually gonna eat lunch with samu we’re practicing a bit at lunch”

-oh :) ok :) that’s fine :) not like u :) desperately:) need a hug :) right now :)

-“oh okay babe” you text back

-whatever u don’t need him independent queen

-that’s your mindset.. until you get those test scores

-it’s a literal fail .. did not pass the test.. ok..

-“y/n san, these test scores were not your usual best. I’m slightly disappointed, if there’s anything going on please let me know”

-“thank you sensei. i’ll do better next time.

-at this point you were just tying not to cry so you took your test and shouldered your bag and walked to a bench outside for some fresh air.

-right.. you didn’t bring lunch today

-so now you were hungry, tired, defeated, disappointed and lonely :,(

-the last class of your day went by quickly probably because you were zoned out the whole time

-the end of the day came and you were at your locker when your guardian texted you

-“Y/n, you had that test today right? I’m expecting to see the grade when your back home. Didn’t have time to make food tonight so find something to eat on your way home.”

-oh that test ? lol hahaha the one that you failed?! yeah that one haha lol lollll

-so with that, you started your walk home

-“y/n!!”

-fuck. atsumu.

-if you saw him now you knew you wouldn’t be able to hold in your tears and you really didn’t want to cry

-so your solution? pretend you didn’t hear him and walk faster lmfaokdhdh

-but atsumu, being.. well atsumu, decided to just full speed sprint towards you to put his shoulder around you

-“i literally know you heard me. i missed you today sorry about lun- why are you crying ?!!?”

-“bad day” you choked out before a shuddering gasp wracked your chest

-atsumu didn’t say anything he just wrapped you in a tight hug, petting you hair while you cried into his chest

-“its okay babe.. “ :(

-“you wanna come over? we can get food and cuddle”

-you nodded your head taking a shaky breath

-his hand reached out and wiped your tears, brushed your hair behind your ear and kissed your forehead like it was natural to him.

-and so you walked together hand in hand to atsumu’s house where you ate samu’s leftover onigiri and vented to atsumu about the day while you cuddled

-he also gave you a hoodie :,)

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。. .・。.・゜✭ .・.

☆ suna:

-“living is a chore :|” you thought as the alarm rang through your room ruining your peaceful sleep

-it was raining outside and your mind went back to last night, the screaming match your parents had

-normally you’d be used to it but it felt like they were starting to take the anger they had for each other out on you now

-you tried not to but you started thinking about all the things your mom had yelled to you through the closed door of your bedroom

-“your just like your father. you’re selfish, lazy and all you do is run around with that little boyfriend of yours! what about your family?! you think your better then us? why don’t you move out then since your so good at being independent?!”

-everything she said was always completely blown out of proportion, she lied all the time. it’s exhausting for you

-you started getting ready for school, you wanted to see suna and your friends and laugh and just forget last night even happened

-when you got to school suna was there at your locker scrolling lazily through his phone

-you smiled, genuinely as he looked up and greeted you with a smirk

-“nice hair.”

-“wha-“ you started and then smacked his arm when you realized that your baby hairs were out of sorts “shutup” you scowled

-“good morning” suna hugged you

-“good morning”

-now you were off to class, it always went by too fast, you thought. school was always done in the blink of an eye

-“what’re you doing at lunch?” your friend tapped your shoulder and whispered to you

-“mmm nothing probably why?”

-“let’s eat on the roof today! yui told me there’s gonna be a rainbow cuz it stopped raining.”

-“okay” you smiled

-now at lunch with your friends you ate the bento you had packed before. the rainbow was there and it was beautiful

-you were having fun just laughing with your friends and texting suna while he sent terrible photos of atsumu. things were good, you had forgotten about your mom

-until the end of the day came and you had to go back home

-as usual suna was at his locker waiting so that you could walk home together

-after crossing the street you and suna were at a bike path, trees surrounding the fences

-it was a comfortable silence until...

-“what’s wrong?”

-suna asking took you by surprise, you didn’t think you were acting any different. were you?

-“what are you talking about”

-“you look sad, you did this morning too but then you were fine the rest of the day so I didn’t say anything. but, you look sad again now”

-“oh..”

-so suna just saw right through you

-“ um.. i’m okay.. it’s just ..” you laughed dryly “i don’t really want to go home”

-“did something happen?”

-“yeah.. my parents were fighting, it turned into this whole thing.” you felt a lump in your throat start to form “i don’t really wanna talk about it”

-“okay. you should just come over then, right?”

-“can i?”

-“you literally don’t even have to ask me anymore y/n” suna grabbed your hand and led the way

-when you got there suna hopped on his couch and started putting on something from netflix

-“my parents aren’t home, my sister has a dance thing today” he grabbed a blanket and you sat down, putting your head in his lap

-suna put on a comedy show, of course he would

-he played with your hair while you watched and after an episode or two, he asked

-“do you want to talk about it now?”

-and so you did, you told him what happened last night and what your mom said. your plan was to not cry but that failed miserably

-suna listened intently, he told you the truth, he said that what she said wasn’t true, he told you you could sleepover whenever you needed to.

-kissed you and wrapped you back in the blanket

-“i love you, you know that right? always.”

-he always knew what to say and you loved him for that

-“i love you too, suna”

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。. .・。.・゜✭ .・.

☆ kita:

-kita knew, first thing he noticed when he saw you that you weren’t okay

-you woke up with a terrible headache, aching body and stomachache

-so this is it? this is hell? ok.

-but the test.. you had a test today. fortunately you had actually studied for weeks because you knew it was important

-mentally? you were ready for that test. physically? you had the spanish influenza

-so you weighed the options and decided you would go to school, take the test and then come back home after.

-the problem with that was that kita would in fact lecture you on all the reasons you should not have come to school

-he was right of course, but you still decided that you would need to avoid him for today

-spoiler alert it did not work

-your test was your third class of the day so you only had to get through 2 classes and you’d leave at lunch perfectly avoiding kita

-this was what you thought while you were at your locker until you closed it and walked directly into kitas chest

-“wow”

-“good morning y/n-chan”

-“morning kita! i have to go or I’ll be late!”

-you ran😭 and you almost got away too but kita grabbed your arm and pulled you to one side of the hallway

-he felt your forehead and both cheeks

-“you have a fever y/n”

-“no I don’t I’m just hot from walking to school”

-he said 😐

-you signed and rested your head on his chest letting your arms dangle

-“why did you come? you look sick”

-“thanks. I have a test.”

-“how do you feel?”

-you told him your symptoms but also that you were leaving right after the test and you could pull through

-he really didn’t want you to overwork yourself but he knew you were set on taking the test

-so he let you go and he made you promise to text him between classes and let him know if you felt any worse

-and off you went

-honestly, you were fine up until halfway through your second class.. then you started feeling really cold and tired even kind of nauseous

-then in the third class your test was put onto your desk and before you knew it your teacher was saying “begin”

-okay. you can do this you thought to yourself. the test was easy enough with how much you studied, you thought about every answer and you tried to finish quick

-but then it was like time cut itself in half and the bell for lunch was ringing

-you weren’t even done the test yet

-“y/n you can stay in here until your done but i expect you to have it finished soon”

-one question left

-you don’t even remember what you ended up putting before you were up and giving the paper to your teacher

-kita was right there when you left the classroom

-“hey ..hey.. y/n”

-you could barely hear him you just flopped into his arms

-“okay I’m taking you home.. “

-“but..”

-“shh let’s go”

-you don’t remember getting there but then you were in your bed smothered in pillows and blankets

-kita came in

-“what time is it?”

-he looked at his phone “half past 4”

-“4?!” you jolted up “did you even go back to school?” “kita?!”

-he smiled at you “no but it’s okay y/n it was only one day. i wanted to take care of you

-you noticed he had a steaming cup of something in his hands

-“what’s that” you asked

-“its tea, but it’s special tea :)”

-“what do you mean” you laughed

-“my grandma showed me how to make it, it’s gonna make you feel a lot better”

-he’s so cute...

-“kita... you didn’t have to do all this”

-“i wanted to” he sits beside you and hands you the tea

-literally tasted like heaven

-“mmmmm oh my god”

-kita laughed and kissed you on the cheek before joining you in the bed

-you cuddled and watched movies on your laptop until you fell asleep, comfortable in your boyfriends arms

#atsumu x reader #atsumu x y/n #atsumu x you #suna x reader #suna x y/n #suna x you #kita x reader #kita x y/n #kita x you #miya atsumu #suna rintarou #kita shinsuke #haikyuu x reader #haikyuu hcs #hq hcs #haikyuu #haikyuu!! #lu!writes #bokubae!hcs #bokubae!drabbles

[bibiana112]

u said i could jump in ur inbox with all my semi coherent thoughts so heres what i have at the moment bc my mind has literally been racing for the past.. idek anymore ive been just staring at the menu screen for a while and time feels fake

was Seven actually lying about what he saw way back when or is that no more than an implication,, bc him Not lying would make for an interesting explanation for June' random fevers and allow for one hell of a good angsty scene to be real, would explain why no one else contradicts him (Snake/Light doesnt say anything about Akane not actually dying when the story is told, Aoi says she died, Clover says a girl died, and i swear there was a seperate instance where they say only 8 kids are saved) plus Akane's body disappears somehow during the safe ending, which would make sense since in that end he wouldve failed to save her past self. but that in and of itself could just be another timeline hopping kinda thing

But. Seven and the others couldve just been lying to get Junpei to do what he did and end up saving her, if that makes sense, making sure the timeline Doesnt change (keeping Akane alive). but theyd all have to be in on it for that to work and i have no idea how likely that is - especially for Clover bc i cant see her lying abt that sort of thing so easily, given how Light purposefully kept info from her to keep her from spreading it. n that brings me to smth else,

Akane in the past could obviously transmit to Junpei in the future, which is trippy as hell but cool. and theres the implication that she could do it to Aoi in the future as well (plus he knew abt the whole thing anyway), so was she able to transmit to everyone else or just those two?? Aoi is her sibling and Junpei was close to her and gave her a literal voodoo doll, so those make sense, but idk abt the others. and like. what the hell was going on w future Akane during all this. she doesnt say anything nor react in an identifiable way when Aoi says she dead, or does Junpei just not notice?? or is that from past Akane's influence?? are the two sibs just really fucking good actors?? and how did Akane pull off most of the Zero stuff anyway when shes physically there already. was it a transmitting/possession kinda thing??

im gonna stop here before this gets way too long but i have So Many Questions (and also wish we could see the kurashiki sibs in the ending. why didnt they show them i miss them)

LOVE THIS

OK OK Okay, the thing with Seven is that it's left kind of ambiguous even when looking up stuff like the creator Q and A and shit. The dude kind of had it between him being in on it to an extent and Akane messing with which version of his memories he's got access to through the field because she's just built different and can do that apparently, either way I'm pretty sure the amnesia itself was totally real and the fevers definetly were as well. Tbh Seven is the character here they gave less thought to in general unfortunately? Years and years later and we never even got a name for the poor guy (Lotus's first name is Hazuki tho!) It is also implied that Light might have been a little in on it as well or that he at the very least recognized their voices from the get go, but again, ambiguous, open to interpretation, Clover was a hundred percent clueless though, thus her going apeshit that one time and the importance of getting Junpei the bookmark so he could win her trust.

Idk about there being implication that she could transmit to Aoi honestly? Like I always figured she just tells him everything the good old fashioned way after she's successfully rescued, but there's still memory of her dying there anyway because it's a paradox. Aj, dear friend, buddie, pal have you ever heard of Schrodinger's cat? Aksjs it's kind of what she has going on, the incinerator's the box and it can only be opened nine years from when she's first trapped in it, until then she's as much dead as she is alive. ALSO LIKE YES BTW THAT'S IT, THEY'RE REALLY FUCKING GOOD ACTORS WITH NINE YEARS OR SO FOR REHEARSALS BEFOREHAND I LOVE THAT MOTIF FOR THEM VERY MUCH Which part of the Zero stuff are we talking about here that she couldn't have pulled off if she's physically there? Like I know a lot of the stuff are implied to be recordings, I think the only exception would be the Safe ending bit which was Aoi behind the mic.

Oh I can imagine you still have a ton of questions lol omg this is so cool though it is quite the experience and Idk what your take away from it is gonna be but I'm glad it seems to be Something (yeah I get that miss them too :') I did find a post somewhere saying how important it is for the themes of the game though for June to just exit stage left and not re-enter tho, no goodbye or reunion because at that point is where Junpei realizes the little girl he knew wasn't going to be anywhere anymore but he still had to help her however he could)

#Feel free to spam my 999 tags btw seeing some fan stuff always helps me digest what the hell the ending of the new thing™ was #wanna read my angsty fic about Akane telling Aoi about all the possible bad endings btw? #You're friend I can give you a link of the one I wrote about them after the ending too that I didn't publish because #well it's supposed to slap canon in the face that one lol #I saw a pretty picture one day and it made me think man if I pretend 999 is the only game this could be them so yeah #Higly recommend doing this btw especially if it hit that hard. U can ask for more details on that too tho #They mean a lot to me so I made them a little epilogue that's... nice. it's still sad tho I mean c'mon. it's me #a tag for asks

[tendoki]

pulling up with a baby with tendou bc of the quarantine and how the team would react pls 🥺 i feel like coach washijo would be happy and would try to convince yall to let the bby go to shiratorizawa 🤣

anon ive been having the worst day but this request made me lose my shit thank u so much GOOD LORD LMFAOO

I did my best to do this request JUSTICE lol. it turned into general baby havin hcs but I hope you like it regardless!! its rlly long so my bad 🥺

Shiratorizawa reacting to Tendou + his s/o leaving lockdown w a mfin BABY

OK. so he was prob at your apartment when the lockdown was announced

so since all his shit was already there, he had clothes and a toothbrush n it was just generally more convenient for him to stay at your place

he did! he messaged his mom to let her know where hed be, she Didnt Mind lol (we dont know much ab tendous family so?? aah)

now. not saying yall spent all ur time fucking. but u 100% did

and since u ran out of birth control and condoms pretty soon into quarentine......... 👀

both of u sorta just went

FUCK IT

both of you were pretty in love anyway, and even if things didnt work out, you guys figured that youd always work together to be the best parents for the kid you could possibly be

which led to were ur at now. a measly week out of quarantine. n ur being rushed to the labour ward.

tendou is RUNNING AFTER U W HIS LONG ASS LEGS

shiratorizawa closed for the rest of the academic year, which meant that as a 3rd year, you guys and a lot of the team wouldnt see eachother in uniform again

but not to worry!! to make up for the missed celebrations theyve organised a prom and a couple days where 3rd years can come in and give proper goodbyes to everyone, including the coaches!!

everyone on the team showed up, because they wanted to say bye to their senpais 🥺🥺

but. that's like 3 months from ur labour

so when u n tendou pull up to the school, with a 3month old CHILD they r. astounded.

they know its u guys' tho

literally theres not even the possibility for a JOKE that u cheated on tendou because the kid has the same fucking hair.

it's only a little tuft (u know what anime babies look like lol) but that nose n that hair? TENDOU SATORIS GENES CAME THRU

the baby has ur eyes. and compared to the rest of its tiny little face?? they're fucking HUGE

you guys let ushijima hold him (I feel like youd have a son?) and ngl ushi cries.

it's a single tear but tendou will INSIST that waka was SOBBING years afterward

everyone is so attached to the kid sorry

USHIJIMA IS THE GODFATHER LMAO DID U EXPECT ANYTHING ELSE???

the baby is so attached to semi tho!!! the second semi reaches forward to hold the kid and poke at its fat lil cheeks, hes giggling and blubbering up at his uncle semi 🥺

JWJDJD GOSHIKI FREEZES WHEN YOU OFFER HIM TO HOLD THE KID. HE JUST GOES PALE AND FREEZES UP

REON IS SO GOOD WITH THE BABY

he offers to help you guys go shopping for more baby stuff 🥺🥺 and when his mom finds out ab the kid (team sleepovers were at reons house n u were ALWAYS invited so she LOVES U sorry I make the rules)

she gives u some of reons old baby clothes!!! n ur LOSING ur mind because WDYM THIS TALL MFER WAS ONCE LIKE A FOOT TALL AND WEARING A BLUE BEAR ONESIE???

she doesnt judge u for being a young mother!! I imagine she was too?? Reon is real respectful n I'll be damned if she isnt just as sweet

the coaches are already on your ass about toddler volleyball. they call up a couple friends and have already organized a group for teaching young Young YOUNG kids how to play despite ur son being. 3 months old.

the whole team is Maybe in love with your son

sorry. it's our son now. shiratorizawa owns ur kid :/

when shirabu is holding your boy. the whole team watches as semi get jealous????? over a kid that's NOT his???

hes petty and tells him that hes holding him wrong (hes not)

washijo is obsessed with ur baby. hes so proud of tendou. insisting that ur son being 'the size of a FAT volleyball' is a great sign for his skills in the court

the whole team. is offering money. they know u 2 are JUST out of highschool and with quarentine, are probably pretty low on cash??

BUT !! I 100% hc that tendou draws!! nd hes been doing a shit load of commissions for like. years LOL

n hes always saved that money!! he only spent it on shounen jump, which dont make too much of a dent in the money pile lol

besides he took emergency comms the second you guys found out ab the pregnancy

if you draw/write/do any work from home that's gets you money, then you do that too!!

he forces u to do less work than him tho because hes WORRIED AB U N THE BABY 🥺

but you guys appreciate the offers from your friends!!! Reon and Ushi's mom both volunteer to baby sit when you guys want a date night, thus ur child creating one hell of a friendship between the ex-captain and his vice's mothers 🥺

I'm not gonna go thru ALL the team members reactions

but they're all really happy!! ofc they scold tendou for not using protection and are MAJORLY GROSSED OUT KNOWING THAT THE TWO OF U HAVE INDEED HAD SEX

even tho the fact that satori is a Horny boy should be universal knowledge by now

the team is there for you guys while the baby grows up!! the second the kid can walk ushi is kneeling down and teaching him to spike

tendou is just as bad and insists that his son is a prodigy and should be a pro volleyball player already

LISTEN

TENDOUS SHIRATORIZAWA NUMBER??? HIS JERSEY

U GUYS GET A TINY VERSION OF THAT MADE

EVEN OF HE ISNT DOING VOLLEYBALL ANYMORE THIS MAN IS SO PROUD TO SEE HIS NUMBER ON HIS BOY 🥺🥺🥺👉🏻👈🏻

ur son is a mamas boy n it breaks tendous heart ngl

u make up for it by having a daughter a year or two down the line 😳 n shes OBSESSED with her dad it's cute but also BABY ur 4 please stop sleeping in mommy n daddies bed 🥺🥺🥺

also ur sons first words

oh boy

u can tell that the whole fuckin team has been teaching ur son volleyball stuff

u came home n ur son is sat in the living room SURROUNDED by ur (other) boys

ur (main) boy starts blubbing and bouncing at the sight of his mama 🥺 (or dada/other parent if ur an afab trans person!!!)

you tell off the team for tryna get ur baby into vball when hes barely 6months at this point

but before the boys all leave 🥺🥺 ur son grabs his favourite uncle semi and just goes

'sehtah!!!' (setter)

SEMI BREAKS DOWN CRYIBG LMAOOO

ngl tendou n u r kinda pissed that ur babies first words werent mama or dada. but then u see how happy semi is n u both just 🥺

semi is soft for your son and as the kid grows up hes still attached to him

he cant get away with being a brat though, boys got a whole mfing TEAM of dads/uncles PLUS grampy Washijo are ready to scold this boy

your son (and future daughter) are both SO loved though

theyve always got SOMEONE they know they can depend on

the team loves tendou and they love u, so OFC they ADORE any kids u guys have EVER.

they stay in contact with both of you even if you split up later on, they care enough about you guys that the y/n tendou powercouple is something every new generation of shiratorizawa volleyboys are taught about and introduced to

and YES ANON. WASHIJO DOES INSIST ON YOUR KID(S) GOIN SHIRATORIZAWA

they're guaranteed a spot!! they dont even have to work for it lmfaooo

mostly because coach threatens to leave the school and work with karasuno if they dont confirm them a place

it's an empty threat but it WORKS

the worldwide lockdown of 2020 is something you and tendou remember fondly forever 🥺

even if it was in bad circumstances the two of you made something so positive

this turned into general baby hcs with tendou MY BAD LOL IM IN LOVE WITH THIS MAN AND ALSO CONSTANTLY GOING THRU BABY FEVER

#tendou satori #tendou satori x reader #tendou satori fluff #hq x reader #haikyuu x reader #yeah i love kids so much #long post

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First Reactions To Logan’s Playlist

K first song let’s do this

White and Nerdy-Weird Al Yankovic

Wtf this song was definitely Joan’s idea I mean who else would think of ‘White and Nerdy’ for Logan

Is this like canon he listens to this stuff or like songs about him???

Not Perfect-Tim Minchin

TIM MINCHIN

Bo Burnham better be on Logan's playlist

#deep

Is this about the mindpalace/inside of Thomas’ head??? Cause like???? Ouch???? I think????

Lol nvm it’s not sad lmao

I take back my take back it is sad

So this could be literally “in his mind” or it could be figurative and it’s really messing with my funky flow

Streaks-ANIMA!

Cool instrumental

Love the voice sounds a little like MARINA and Regina Spektor

Oh no I’m two lines in and I can tell it’s gonna be sad

OH NO CONFORMITY RELATED ANGST AHHHHH

Wow Logan is just out here being relatable isn’t he smh 😔👊

"Cause you're a smart kid, but you're still a kid" LOGAN REALLY BE OUT HERE BEING RELATABLE ON MAIN

The Elements-Tom Lehrer

Sounds like what piano class would sound like if I took piano class

Something you would listen to in science class

Bop

Medicine-STRFCKR

A Fever You Can't Sweat Out vibes

Lmao nvm

Gonna go look up the lyrics rn brb

A sad bop

Philosophy cool

Human-Tank And The Bangas

Logan playing this to comfort himself because this singer is the only person who has ever told him this

WHO HURT LOGAN WITH THEIR WORDS

LOGAN THE HEART SKIPPING COMMENT ARE YOU OKAY IM GIVING YOU A HUG

GUYS LOGAN IS TRYING TO CONVINCE HIMSELF THAT HE MATTERS IM NOT OKAY

Last???? Relationship???

Okay I'm not a shipper BUT my theorist analysis obsessed brain is just SCREAMING about Roman and Patton

Observation: Logan is probably atheistic and this song covers God a lot. I don't have a conclusion or anything just pointing that out

This woman do be calming tho like yes I'm beautiful yes I'm special thank you

Okay so I already knew Logan wasn't okay but he 100% isn't okay

Fittet Happier-Radiohead

K two words in and I can tell this is gonna be sad here we go

Employees? Or maybe…other sides?

Minor key ok

SELF HARM ISNT OKAY

"WILL NOT CRY IN PUBLIC" NONONONO

So I heard of a good therapist just downtown-

The Watchtower-The Dø

I paused it cause I need a second after the last one

Guys as someone who dissosiates a lot I think Logan might be dissosiating

Dissosiating to protect himself from his emotions

Y'all just trust me in this one

Coming for the TØP brand I see

K ready to start again here we go

Fire beat I'm vibing with it

Is he trying to distance himself from his emotions to try and perform his tasks better like watching from a Watchtower???

This is the first character I've seen that might dissosiate which only means one thing

I'm gonna be projecting an unholy amount in my fanfiction

"No one in particular" hon who hurt you

City Lights=Emotions (which he considers distractions)??? Maybe??

I'm a William Finn fan come on this isn't my first rodeo

Art Is Dead-Bo Burnham

BO BURNHAM I WAS RIGHT

We all love some good Imposter Syndrome (tm)! :D

This gives Learning New Things About Ourselves' a whole new meaning

Ngl this is the first time I heard the degrading of the piano at the end and I'm here for it

In My Mind-Amanda Palmer

Oop we LOVE setting up impossible expectations for yourself to the point you have a cripplingly horrid self esteem! :D

Logan I've done this before and trust me it isn't worth it the mental breakdowns are too taxing

I'll do it when I'm older=I'm never gonna get around to it

I don't wanna be the person I wanna be either

Why do I perfectly understand every lyric am I ok

Live!!! While you!!!! Can!!!!

At least there's a happy ending

Okay so I've decided that once I'm done I'm gonna make a list of songs I think would fit in the playlist

Algorythym-Childish Gambino

K its spelled incorrectly get ready for some metaphors my dudes

Intro is cool definitely very very Logan WOAH OKAY CHAIN SMOKER

Gonna go look up lyrics I don't understand shit

The chorus sounds like Thanksgiving at my Aunt's house where like 100+ African American relatives blast house music and dance until their feet falls off

Nvm no it doesn't

GO OFF

ELPHABA BETTER WATCH OUT CHILDISH GAMBINO IS COMING FOR YOUR BELT

Adlibs are everything

Letter C-Zach Sherwin

This gives off the same vibes as that one pickle video by Charlie Puth

Roman vs Logan rap battle but it's this

I don't really see why this is related but sure

Time Adventure-The Marcus Hedgehog

Nostalgiaaaaaa

Okay Logan has too many songs talking about one (1) person who is it

I have a gut feeling that it's about Thomas and how Logan used to be enough "back then" but now he thinks he's not cause like let's be honest when was the last time someone gave Logan a strong sincere thank you for all that he does????Excluding DWIT (which doesn't really count in my opinion cause they said he was cool, not like an integral and arguably the most important and powerful side) nobody really appreciates Logan???? Hugs???

Anyway plz ignore this is just how my brain works

K next song

The Breach-clipping.

OKAY SLOW DOWN IM GONNA LOOK UP LYRICS

Is this Daveed Diggs???? I haven't listened to Hamilton in like forever is this Daveed Diggs???

LITERALLY PERFECY PARRALLEL TO LOGAN AND THE SIDES

Sound effects

Really just gonna fry my eardrums like that huh

What I Do For U-Ra Ra Riot

Okay scrap anything and everything I said about it being the sides Logan is 100% talking about Character!Thomas

Erase Me-Ben Folds Five

Ooh this intro reminds me of this one particular musical songs but I don't remember which one

Wait have I listened to this before????

I've listened to this before!

Okay I need to stop being distracted

NOOOOOO don't Erase Yourself!!!!

Logan really just do be having no Self Esteem don't he

Okay so theory: Logan didn't pop up in person in the last video because his eyes were too red from crying

I have 0 evidence so it's not a very good theory but…

Just throwing it out there

One More Time with Feeling-Regina Spektor

Oh no it's Regina Spektor

Oh no I'm gonna cry

Okay so Logan doesnt wanna block of all emotion, only permit some to show???? But most of the time block everything????

Did I get that???

Nobody!!!! Thanks!!!! Logan!!!!

Awww he just wants love and recognition

Tbh this sounds a lot like Roman they have so much in common despite their constant arguing

Galaxy Song-Monty Python

Ooh Monty Python

I haven't listened to Monty Python so I sadly don't know the context

Really just dissing all of the other sides aren't we

Can't really blame him tho

Very scientific

"Yeau~"

Sweet with dark undertones. Love it.

Equation-Hans Zimmer

Later I'm gonna check the equations if they're correct XD

Sunrise-In The Heights

!!!!!!

WHO???!!!!!

K to this is one of my favorite love songs ever it's just so sweet and as someone who's bilingual the concept is just amazingly wonderful so yeah I may be freaking out

Also because WHO??!!

Okay I said I wasn't a shipper but let's be honest this is probably about Roman not romantically but like

OR MAYBE JANUS???

IM SO CONFUSED

But Logan is definitely Nina in this situation it just fits so well with her character for the same reasons I really wanna play her (but never will cause I'm exactly 0% Latin American smh) yeah the pressures to be the smartest and then it backfiring horribly and oh God what if Inùtil is also in the playlist ahhhh

Okay moving on

Lifeboat-Heathers

WHAT

NO

NO

CONFORMITY RELATED ANGST LOGAN STOP BEING RELATABLE AHHHH

IS THIS CAPTAIN THOMAS??? THE OTHER SIDES AS A WHOLE??? AN ABSTRACT CONCEPT???

IM NOT OKAY

Bohemian Groove-Will Connolly

Okay I'm still not recovered from the last song but I need to continue or else I'm never gonna finish this playlist

Eeecccchhhhhoooo

Your friends haven't surpassed you Logan you belong with them okay????

Emptiness despite success??? Millennial who???

Vibing with it but also are you okay

Nvm I know the answer already

Hug All Ur Friends-Cavetown

Okay so Logan is a Cavetown gay noted

Self validation??? Who's she???

Lies. You care so much about what other people *sides* think about you

Maybe Logan listens to this song to remind himself to not care too much

But it doesn't work and it's getting to him more and more

Oh

That took a turn

Breathin'-Thomas Sanders

Good move

Don't really have much to say on this

The Bidding

Spoopy

Alchoholic!Logan

New idea for us fan writers

The pronunciation of beurgoise

Okay I'm like pretty certain at this point that all of the songs that mention a someone else is about Character!Thomas

A Better Version

OHMYGOD I LOVE THIS MUSICAL ITS SO UNDERRATED I HAVE LISTENED TO THE SOUNDTRACK AND UNGODLY AMOUNT OF TIMES YESSSSS

But also since I know the song in terrified cause the feels are gonna come in I just know it

Wait so is Jayce supposed to be Thomas???

I am suddenly feeling much more uncertain about my certainty

Okay let me unpause and just listen to it (even though I already know all of the lyrics)

Okay so I'm a dumbass and apparently this song isn't even part of the playlist

Okay so I'm an idiot and the last few songs have all been "related to playlist" and not in the actual playlist I'm big dumb.

Anyway here's my list of songs I think would fit. (BTW, I only went off of lyrics for these ones. I realize that there’s a general sound and vibe for the playlist, but I decided not to follow it.)

Oh No! ~ MARINA

Hug All Ur Friends ~ Cavetown

Bohemian Groove ~ Will Connolly

Guiltless ~ Dodie Clark

Lifeboat ~ Laurens O’Keefe

The Bidding ~ *idk who*

I Am Not A Robot ~ MARINA

Inútil - Lin Manuel Miranda

Through The Eyes Of A Child ~ AURORA

Community Gardens ~ The Scary Jokes

Let me know if I should do this with the other playlists as well! :)

#sander sides #ts sanders sides #sanders sides #thomas sanders #tss #logan sander angst #logan sanders #ts logan #logan’s playlist #first reaction #self harm mention #tw self harm

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Home is Someone Who Cares

A work based on @directium​‘s Teenage Dadvid AU.

Read also on AO3

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Summary: Max is a difficult child, and everyone knows it. Gwen can't imagine how much worse he'll be when he's sick. Still, there's no way she's leaving David to take care of him alone.

Word Count: 4448

Gwen didn't notice anything wrong when she sat down at her desk for her second-period math class. Well, she did notice that David wasn't there yet, but she didn't really think anything of it. David usually got there before her, but she wasn't worried that he hadn't this time. If anything, she was looking forward to teasing him about it.

The worry didn't start until the class did. The teacher started going through attendance, and David still wasn't there.

Gwen frowned at David's empty desk. It wasn't like him to be late. Pulling out her phone—making sure to keep it hidden under the desk—she tried to remember if David had been in school at all today. She hadn't seen him by his locker that morning, or in the library, or even once in the halls.

hey where r u, she texted, determined to find out what was going on. ur never late what gives?

It took a few minutes before David got back to her. I stayed home today.

Gwen's eyebrows drew together as she read his text. David hadn't missed a day of school in the year she had known him; she didn't think he'd ever missed a day of school in his life. everything ok?

Max is sick.

Well shit. That wasn't good at all. She'd seen David the last time Max was sick; the poor guy had looked worse than the kid. is it bad?

Just a cold, but he is running a bit of a fever.

Gwen bit her lip. do u need anything? She could run to the store for him once school let out.

No, I think we're good. Then, a few seconds later, Thanks, though.

u sure?

Yeah, don't worry about it, quickly followed by, Shouldn't you be in class right now?

Gwen rolled her eyes; apparently David's parental instincts weren't limited to just Max. who says im not?

Gwen! Stop texting me and pay attention!

make me, she sent with a mischievous smirk. She looked up at the board, which she found covered in problems and formulas that made no sense. Then again, they never taught anything in this class that made sense to her. The teacher's back was to the class, though; she wouldn't have to worry about getting caught with her phone out.

I'm not replying anymore.

you say, replying

…. shut up.

Gwen bit back a laugh, glancing up to make sure she still hadn't been noticed. fine fine i'm turning my phone off. happy? She had no intention of actually doing that, but what David didn't know wouldn't hurt him.

Yes.

Gwen slid her phone back into her pocket, turning her eyes—but not her attention—to the incomprehensible jumble of numbers on the board. No matter what David said, she knew he could use all the help he could get taking care of Max. The kid was difficult in the best of times, she could only imagine how much trouble he'd be when he was sick.  

She'd go over there, she decided, once school was done; there was no way she was leaving David to face the horrors of a sick Max alone. He'd probably refuse anything she bought him, but there was no way he could say no to her company.

***

Gwen rang the bell, quickly stuffing her hand back in her pocket as an icy wind battered against her. She tapped her foot as she waited in an attempt to get some feeling back into her toes. As the seconds ticked into minutes, she began to wonder why it was taking him so long to answer his damn door. Just as she was contemplating ringing again, she hear footsteps approaching from inside.

“Gwen!” David exclaimed, surprised, as he opened the door.

“Hey,” she greeted with a small smile. It was a little weird to see David still in his pajamas at three o'clock in the afternoon on a school day. Then again, if she were the one who had to deal with a sick Max all day, she wouldn't want to get dressed either.

“What are you doing here?”

“I came to help out, obviously,” she said, brushing past David into the house. It was a relief to get in out of the cold, and she wasted no time in slipping out of her heavy winter gear. “Max getting to you yet?”

“He could be worse,” David said hesitantly, which was David-speak for “he's being an absolute terror but I love him too much to admit it.”

Gwen smirked, toeing off her shoes. “That's what I thought. So where is the little asshole?”

David started moving down the hall, nodding for Gwen to follow.

Max was curled up in the middle of the couch in the family room, completely buried under a mound of blankets. From what she could tell, he was wearing one of David's old hoodies, cuddling the bear David had gotten him for his last birthday. He squinted up at them as they entered the room, clearly annoyed about something and sniffling pathetically.

“Hey, li'l monster,” David called softly, “look who came to visit.”

“Hey, Max,” Gwen said, meeting Max's pout with a smile. “How're you feeling?”

“Icky,” Max whined. David sat down next to him on the couch, and the little boy immediately climbed into his lap. David pulled him close, wrapping him up a little tighter in the blanket. Gwen sat down on the other end of the couch. Some kids' show she couldn't identify was playing on the TV, not that Max seemed to be watching it; he was content to just sit around and do nothing as long as his dad was paying attention to him.

Gwen smiled as she watched David fuss over his kid. It was always cute to see him in dad-mode. It seemed to come so naturally to him, sometimes she wondered how he did it—he was always quick to assure her that she was great with Max, but really, she was nowhere near as good as him. It was like he was born to be a father.

“Yeah,” she said sympathetically. “Dad says your not feeling too good today.”

Max shook his head, cuddling up as close to David as he could.

“Poor thing,” she cooed, reaching over to rub his back. To David, she said, “How's he doing?”

“Still not great, but he is getting better.” He put his hand on Max's forehead, checking his temperature with a slight frown. “Last I checked, his fever was down to about 99, which is an improvement at least.”

“Did he fight you on the medicine?”

“Only a little.” Gwen shot him a skeptical look, and he relented, “Okay. Maybe a little more than a little. But he took it in the end.”

“Of course he did; you wouldn't let him get away with not.” The few times she had ever seen David be actually strict with Max were when it was a matter of the child's well-being. Whether it was finishing all of the veggies on his plate or actually going to bed at bedtime, David booked no room for argument.

David shrugged somewhat sheepishly. “He needs it.”

Gwen smiled softly and shook her head, resting her eyes on the small boy curled up in David's lap. He still looked pretty sick, but it felt good to know that he was being taken care of—not that she'd ever doubted it. While it was true that David's paternal instincts ran as deep as a canyon, she'd be lying if she said she didn't feel just as protective of the kid.

“Did I miss anything important in pre-calc?” David asked, interrupting her musings.

Gwen laughed incredulously. “How should I know? You know I have no idea what's going on in that class.

David opened his mouth to reply but was cut off. “Dad,” Max whimpered, thumping his head against David's chest.

“What's up, monster?” he asked, giving Max's hair a ruffle. “Need something?”

Max twitched his head out from under David's hand with a pout. “'m hungry.”

“Okay, we can get you a snack. We have some popsicles in the freezer, you want one?”

Max nodded, looking up at David with big pleading eyes.

“Alright,” David said, moving to slide Max off his lap so he could stand up.

“No,” he whined, clutching David's shirt to stop him from moving away. He cuddled up closer and flattened himself against David, tucking his head under his dad's chin.

David sighed. This was the fourth time today Max had done this, and he knew that no matter what he did, the kid would be unhappy—if he stayed, Max would be mad that he didn't get what he wanted; if he got up, Max would be mad that he left. “Max, if you want a popsicle, you gotta let me up,” he tried to reason. He had to stop himself from rolling his eyes at himself. Yeah, reason with a three year old, that'll turn out well.

Max whined again in frustration, tightening his grip. David pinched the bridge of his nose, preparing himself for Max's inevitable mini-tantrum when he got up.

On the other end of the couch, Gwen chuckled. “I'll get it,” she said as she stood up. After all, she was here to help.

“You're an actual saint,” David said to her as she left the room.

“I know, I know,” she called back from the kitchen, “I'm awesome.”

Gwen pulled open the freezer door, scanning the shelves until she found the right box. “What flavor does he want?”

David glanced down at Max, who didn't look like he had been listening. “What kind of popsicle do you want?”

“Red,” he mumbled into David's chest.

“Cherry, if you can find one,” David relayed to Gwen.

Sifting through the box, Gwen found one that looked red through the wrapper, though it was hard to be certain. She brought it back into the family room and handed it to Max. “I think this one's cherry,” she told him as he took it.

He had a bit of a hard time holding onto it with his sleeves drooping over his hands, so David rolled them back for him, to make it a little easier. Max struggled to get the wrapper open for a moment before Gwen reached out to help him.

“What to you say, Max?” David nudged.

“Thanks, Gwen,” he mumbled around the popsicle in his mouth.

“No problem, kiddo,” she said, sitting back down.

To David's relief, Max didn't make the slightest mess while he ate. When he was finished, rather than asking Gwen to get up again, David dripped the trash on the end table to throw away later.

“Did I miss anything interesting today?”

“Eh, not really. A couple of freshmen thought they were cool and tried to start a food fight at lunch, and I'm sure you can guess how well that turned out.”

“Oh, geez.”

Gwen laughed. “It was actually kinda funny. When they came in, they were giving each other all these weird looks and nods and shit, like—”

“Gwen!” David broke in. “Language.”

“Oh, uh, right. Sorry. Max, don't repeat that. Anyway, they were acting like hey had this super cool, top-secret plan or something, and they were being so obvious about it. So about halfway through lunch, this one kid gets up and is like, 'FOOD FIGHT!' y'know, like in all those bad movies and stuff? And then all of his friends start, just, flinging food all over the place, and you can tell they built it up in their heads that the second they did this everyone would just go ape-shi—” a glare from David froze her tongue. “...well, you know. So we're just sitting there, like, are these guys serious? And they're just throwing food all over the place. And when they realized no one else was going for it, it was soooo awkward! It got super quiet, and everyone was staring at them, and they were just kinda... standing there.”

David chuckled. “Sounds like a train wreck.”

“Daddy never lets me play with my food,” Max said, sounding almost annoyed.

“Yeah, well, these kids weren't allowed to play with theirs, either,” Gwen told him. “They all got in big trouble.”

“How big?”

“Real big.” Gwen glanced at her phone, surprised to find that it was almost 4:30. She looked up at David. “You're not going to put him down for his nap?”

“He's been napping on and off all day,” David said with a shrug. “I figure I'll just let him do his own thing for today.”

“You sure that's not going to blow up in your face?”

“Oh, he'll be asleep soon enough—right, bud? Feeling a little sleepy?”

Max gave David a half-hearted glare, shaking his head, but a father knows his son. About an hour later, Max was dozing lightly.

David, the huge nerd, picked up a book from the end table. Gwen was thoroughly absorbed in her phone, actively participating in a gossip chain with some of her classmates and the two of them were content to sit in silence for a while.

It was some time before David spoke up. “Are you going to stay for dinner?”

“That depends.”

“On?”

“What you're making.” David was a really good cook. They had a standing date for Friday nights at his house, where they would get together and get experimental in the kitchen. They weren't always successful, but it was always fun.

David laughed. “Nothing that impressive, I assure you.”

“Ugh, you're killing me here, David,” she joked. “Fine. For you, I'll stay.”

David seemed almost relieved to hear that. “Awesome. I'm going to go get started cooking; can you take him?”

Gwen raised an eyebrow. “He's asleep, David. What does he need to be held for?”

David was hesitant. “It's just... what if he wakes up?” he asked, running his hand over Max's unruly curls. “He's clingy when he's sick.”

Gwen snickered. “He's clingy all the time, you idiot.” But, to ease his mind, she grabbed the kid and pulled him onto her lap.

“Thanks,” he said before disappearing into the kitchen. There was a muted clatter as he searched through his fridge for ingredients. “How do you feel about chicken? I think I have some Cajun seasonings somewhere,” he called back to her.

“Sounds good to me,” she answered, stretching over to grab the remote on the other end of the couch. As long as Max was sleeping, there was no need to leave the kids' shows on. David would definitely disapprove of her exposing his kid to MTV, even if he wasn't awake, so she lowered the volume until it was quiet enough he wouldn't be able to hear it from the kitchen and let herself get lost in reality TV drama.

***

The first thing Max was aware of when he woke up was that something felt off. He kept his eyes closed for a moment trying to figure out what it was, but it got him nowhere. He squinted his eyes open and stared at the couch for a few seconds before it clicked: it wasn't David's chest he was leaning on.

He turned his head and blinked blearily up at Gwen, face twisting into a pout. Gwen was usually fine, he liked her well enough, but who he wanted right now was David. Gwen smiled at him, but he was already looking away, scanning the room for his dad. When he didn't seem him, he started to panic. “Dad?” he cried. “Dad?!”

“He's in the kitchen,” Gwen told him, but Max wasn't listening. He was thrashing in her arms, so she tightened her hold, worried he might fall off the couch and hurt himself. His breath was starting to hitch, and tears were pooling in the corners of his eyes. Gwen bit her lip, not sure what she should do. She'd dealt with quite a few of Max's tantrums—while David was an expert at calming his kid down, Gwen usually just let him scream himself out—but this didn't seem like a typical tantrum. And she had no idea how to handle it.

David heard him yelling in the kitchen; it would have been impossible not to. “Max?” he called. “What's wrong?”

“Dad!” he whined, still struggling to get out of Gwen's hold.

“It's okay, Max. I'm right here,” he tried to soothe. It did nothing to calm Max down.

David quickly shoved the chicken into the oven so he could hurry back into the family room. Max was properly crying, tears streaming down his cheeks as stretched his arms out towards David. He sighed, walking over to Gwen and hoisting the kid up into his arms. Max immediately latched onto him, burying his face in his shoulder.

“Sorry,” Gwen said, “he just started freaking out.”

“It's alright,” he told her, rubbing Max's back to try to calm him down. He actually wasn't that surprised that Max had gotten scared when he'd woken up without him. Gwen had been right when she said he was always clingy; when he was just a baby, he'd cry every time David left his sight. Even now, he tended to follow him around the house, and even though he'd been going to the same daycare for years, he still clung onto David's leg every time he had to leave him there. David wondered if maybe there was some memory Max had of being left in that dumpster, if maybe he was still scared it would happen again.

He glanced up at Gwen, who had gotten up from the couch. She was hovering a few steps away, looking worried. “Is he okay?” she asked quietly.

David nodded. “Happens all the time.” After a few minutes, the kid started to calm down. David let his hand still on Max's back. “You okay now, monster? All better?”

Max sniffled and nodded, turning his head to tuck it under David's chin.

“Can I put you down?”

Max furiously shook his head, balling his hands into David's shirt.

“Max, I have to cook dinner. You know I can't hold you when I'm cooking.” It was an argument they had nearly every night—Max thrived on David's attention, and he was usually more than happy to provide it; the one place he drew the line, however, was Max hanging onto him in the kitchen. Max, predictably, hated this and fought it with all his might.

Max whined, a high-pitched sound that Gwen had come to associate with the beginning of a tantrum. “What if I hold you?” she suggested, reaching out to take him. David easily handed him over, despite him still clutching at his shirt. “Just until Dad's all done cooking.”

“No!” Max whined, fighting to get back to David. He was leaning so far forward in Gwen's arms that she had to readjust her grip just so he wouldn't fall.

“Please, Max?” David asked softly, resting his hand against the side of Max's head. He ran his thumb along his cheek, swiping away some of the remaining tear tracks. “For me?”

Max shook his head, grabbing hold of David's arm as if he had enough strength to hold him there. It broke David's heart to see him like this, especially when he wasn't in the position to be able to comfort him. He took a step closer, letting Max tip forward and lean against his chest.

Gwen wracked her brain for a solution, anything she could do to help. “We can all go sit in the kitchen together. That'd be okay, right?” She figured that David would probably prefer that Max stay bundled up on the couch, but there was no was he was going to cooperate with that. They needed to find some kind of compromise.

Max sniffled, but didn't reject the idea. David sighed softly, relieved that the crisis had been averted. He gave Max a quick kiss on the top of his head before looking back up at Gwen. Thank you, he mouthed.

Gwen gave him a small smile and nodded in acknowledgment. She leaned back to grab one of the smaller blankets still heaped on the couch and wrapped it around Max as best she could. He squirmed uncomfortably, letting out tiny grunts of frustration as Gwen carried him into the kitchen. He didn't settle down until Gwen sat down, letting him get comfortable on her lap.  

David returned to his spot at the stove, peeking into the cabinet next to him to find something for his son. “How about I make you some chicken soup?” he asked Max, already grabbing a can. Max let out a noise somewhere between a hum and a whine, leaning back against Gwen's chest. David chuckled quietly as he put a pot on the stove and set about heating up the soup for Max.

“Are you feeling any better?” Gwen asked, giving Max's back a quick rub.

“I guess,” he muttered, eyes on David.

“That's good.”

“That's great!” David cut in, smiling at him over his shoulder. “At this rate, you'll be all better by tomorrow!”

Max coughed quietly and burrowed further into the blanket, pouting as Gwen started to play with his hair. It didn't take long for the food to finish cooking, and soon David was plating everything and piling the dirty pots and pans in the sink to deal with later.

As David brought the plates over to the table, Gwen shifted Max over to his own chair so she could get up and grab the utensils. He didn't look particularly happy about it—he gave her a weak glare before being distracted by the bowl of soup David set down in front of him.

He picked up his spoon and poked at a chunk of celery floating in the broth. David watched him for a minute, but he never even tasted a spoonful. “What's wrong, Max?” he asked with a touch of concern. “Aren't you going to eat?”

“I'm not hungry,” he mumbled, turning his brilliant green eyes up to David. “Can I sit with you?”

David pressed his lips together. He'd eaten with Max on his lap before, though he'd really rather not. When he was looking at him with those big puppy-dog eyes, though, it was hard to resist. “Okay,” he said, and immediately Max was scrambling onto his lap. David reached across the table, pulling Max's bowl over and settling it next to his own plate. “But hungry or not, you have to eat something, okay?”

Max heaved a tiny sigh, but grabbed his spoon anyway. He spent most of his time at the table stirring the soup rather than eating it, but listened to his dad. He had eaten about half of the bowl by the time David and Gwen finished their dinner, and despite all of David's prodding and pleading, refused to eat any more.

“Well, it's something at least,” David muttered to Gwen, pouring the leftover soup into a tupperware. Max was curled up on the armchair in the family room, none too happy about being left alone but too sleepy to fight anyone about it.

“He did say he was feeling better.”

“And I don't doubt it; I just wish he'd eaten more.”

Gwen hummed quietly, peeking into the family room to look at Max. He was such a small boy—he seemed so vulnerable. So young, yet he'd already been through so much. She shook her head and moved back to the table to help David clean up.

Once the kitchen was all clean, she and David joined Max in the family room. David put on an old Disney movie, something to entertain both the little kid and the big kids. About halfway through, Max's eyelids started to droop. Minutes later, he was asleep.

As the credits rolled, Gwen picked her phone up off the cushion next to her and checked the time; it was a little past eight. She hummed quietly in thought, swiveling her head to the side to look out the window. The darkness outside seemed near impenetrable, and Gwen sighed. She had to go now before she was tempted to stay the night.

She shoved her phone into her pocket and stood up, stretching her arms above her head. “I should probably get going,” she said reluctantly.

David twisted around to look at the clock in the kitchen. “Oh, yeah, I didn't realize it was getting so late.” He glanced over to where Max was curled up on the armchair, sound asleep, and debated whether or not he should bring him up to bed. Of course he wasn't going to let him sleep on the armchair all night, but if he took him up now, he might wake up, and if he woke up now he'd be cranky. Better to wait a few minutes; he'd bring him up once Gwen left.

He stood up as well and started heading towards the front hall. “Thanks for coming over today, Gwen,” he said as he walked her to the door. “You really didn't have to.”

Gwen smirked. “Don't thank me just yet,” she said, reaching into her bag and pulling out a small stack of papers. She held them out to him. “Homework.”

“Joy,” David deadpanned. He took the papers from her and quickly flipped through them to see what was there.

“Do you think you'll be back tomorrow?”

“I don't know,” he said with a small sigh. “His fever's gone, but he's still being so difficult. He might not let me leave him at daycare.” If Max was still as clingy in the morning as he was that night, trying to bring him to daycare would no doubt result in a tantrum of epic proportions.

Gwen hummed in understanding as she knelt down to pull on her boots. “Well, I'll grab your work for you if you need to stay home.”

He huffed out a short laugh. “Thanks.”

When she stood back up, David had grabbed her coat off the rack for her. He held it out for her and she took it, slipping it on and shaking her hair out over the hood. She pulled her hat and scarf out of the pockets, bracing herself for the freezing walk home she was facing.

She stepped out onto the front step, the light from the doorway making the inside of the house look so warm and friendly she was loath to leave. “See you Monday for sure?”

David shivered in the cold that was leeching in from the outside but kept the door open with a smile anyway. “Yeah,” he said, “see you Monday.”

#camp camp #cc max #cc david #cc gwen #cc fanfic #dadvid au #teenage dadvid #cc rooster teeth

[shyloft]

u should answer the rest of the 21p questions

god…..damn it this is why you guys should just send me these questions bc u KNOW avia is gonna come in my ask and make me drop this big ass post. learn from this

what are your top five favorite songs by them at this moment?holding on to you, fall away, forest, trapdoor, we don’t believe what’s on tv

have you ever introduced them to a friend or family member, and they ended up being a fan as a result?yes omg!! i’ve turned a few of my like….occasional listener friends into actual fans and i introduced my roommate to them and she really likes them?? she drew me josh for my bday like a few weeks after i love her

have you met any amazing friends because of twenty one pilots? tag them!@chalupacabras @slampoety @stalk-softly @vesselbf I HAVE MORE TREASURED MUTUALS!! I DO AND I LOVE YOU ALL BUT these ppl are the ones i talk to like….a lot. and i also have some AMAZING friends irl who i became much better friends with once we started bonding over 21pwhat other musical artists have you found because of twenty one pilots?FINISH TICKET BITCH OHHHH MY GOD i didnt get to see them live but all my friends did and my best friend played them in the car all the time so? thanks josh and tyler for bringing me finish ticketreese’s puff or waffle crisps?ive never had waffle crisps in my life but josh did get them rush delivered from amazon to my venue for my first show and made tyler put it in the trees speech and ruined my and courtney’s crying partywhat’s your favorite tattoo of tyler’s?i was going to say the cross and hourglass on his chest but when i googled them just now i found out that his roman numerals on his arm were his first tattoo and i almost cried because MY FIRST TATTOO WAS MY ROMAN NUMERALS? I DIDNT EVEN KNOW wow

what’s your favorite tattoo of josh’s?MOM

do you have any of their merch?yes unfortunately i spent a lot of fucking money on the uglyass ers 2016 shirt, the cute ers clique tank with the skull, the tdc hoodie, and the poster for the tdc nationwide show

which of their songs make you feel happy or “pumped”?ride, holding on to you, tear in my heart!! this list was longer until i thought about their lyrics i hate them

which of their songs calm you down?dude none of them what i’m either going hard or crying if it calms me down its only bc its like. the act of listening to the band in general was used to calm me down all of their songs can make me cry if they try hard enough

which of their songs make you feel sad, if any?all of them bitch. but goner especially. goner from blurryface gives me a special sad but goner from no phun intended should be illegal to play anywhere ever its the most upsetting thing tyler has ever made in his entire life i cant believe he put those fucking sound effects in it god i cant even think about it

what’s your favorite song off of no phun intended?not goner or tb saga they can both fuck offwould you ever consider being tyler or josh for halloween? what would the costume be like?no. i want to do a fever you cant sweat out panic! at the disco with friends that is my dream halloween costumewhat do you order at chipotle?corn in hand

any theories or hopes for the new album?MORE JOSH BACKUP VOCALS

who’s the tyler to your josh (or josh to your tyler)? tag them!im just a tyler looking for her josh and once i find them we’re getting married. but if ur asking who my best friends are they’re courtney @qodcomplex who never uses this site ever and savannah @sirrupybuzzard who lives here. we’re all friends we arent collectively best friends but. both of them are my best friends i dont think i ever told savannah that so guess whatwould you rather be attacked by 100 chicken-sized horses, or 1 horse-sized chicken?100 chicken sized horses but like why did they pick this question over the nipple-sized penis or penis-sized nipples oneHave you ever seen donnie darko? what about fight club? what did you think?no i havent seen either because im a fake film fan but i love jake gyllenhaal and i know fight club is gay so i pick fight clubwhich album era best describes your “aesthetic”?UHHHH NONE OF THEM if we’re talking about them collectively as an era like the whole thing none of them all are bad

what’s your favorite music video and why?holding on to you is their absolute best video because 1.) theres no concert footage 2.) the dancers 3.) the visuals of the hands clawing at tyler’s face 3.) the theatrics 4.) the black and white 5.) the noose to leash thing 6.) the transistions from being skeletons to real live people i just. every single thing in that video is perfect even if josh has the bad hair. its still not the worst josh music video hair. we all know what hair i mean. why didnt his family tell him

have you seen them live before? do you have plans to in the future?yes i’ve seen them 3 times (ers16 stl, ers17 little rock, tdc nationwide) and i plan on going to another hometown show if the date falls during my summer/winter break and i AM going to get ga for the next show in my city. im not fucking around. i’ve never been in the pit and i’m doing it im getting pit tickets and im camping out this IS happening i cant die without that experience im not kidding

are you a redbull person or a starbucks coffee person?red bull as of like a week ago fuck you tyler that shit is so good

favorite quote of tyler’s?“yeah my best friend is actually the Lord so yeah.”

favorite quote of josh’s?“I can’t believe how great this photo is my crops are flourishing my skin is clear the worlds order is restored i have 20/20 vision my grades are up I’m sleeping soundly at night i am sh00k”

[vegils]

im... a sucker 4 surveys hey!!!

1: What is your name and does it mean anything?

marinella, someone told me it means “traveller” but i highly doubt that i like the break down of my name more marina, meaning “of the sea” and ella for “guiding light”

2: How long have you known your best friend? 

my best friend sweetlana!!! been my good friend!!! for 7 DANG YEARS!!! 

3: What position do you normally sleep in? 

i sleep in fetal/yearning position and i think the description of the personalities that sleep in fetal/yearning position is very accurate

4: Were you a part of any “clique” in high school?

mmm i hung out with a lot of different people in high school i went through several cliques in the span of my four years i hung out with “popular” people, artsy groups, anime nerds, and drama people

5: Who was your favorite teacher in high school and why? 

my biggest inspiration was my speech and drama teacher!! i love u miss macuha!!! one time i was crying about her leaving and she grabbed me by the shoulders and told me to never back down and keep doing what i’m doing and that some day i’ll be a great performer and i bawled on her lap she’s an angel and to this day her words still haunt me!! i never felt the reward a teacher reaped from seeing a student reach their full potential

6: Do you wish to travel a lot?

because im so young i do think about travelling a lot but it makes me sad to think about never being able to travel and i have gone to places but i wish i could see other grander countries i never had the opportunity to see

7: Did you participate in any sports while in school?

um...... i played badminton lmao 

8: Show a sample of your handwriting:

how tho

9: Have you ever given blood?

apparently if ur anemic or have history of anemia then u can’t donate blood which makes me sad if i could i would!!!

10: Do you like the way that you grew up?

besides all the fun i had i wish i grew up more confident i am a very doubtful person and i grew up in a pretty hostile home and it felt very scattered and broken to me and i just wish those situations were different, other than that i think i am lucky to grow up ok

11: Do you like your siblings? Why or why not?

i like all of my sisters but they can get very frustrating at times i think we stand better now than we did as kids

12: How did you meet your best friend and why did you become friends?

i met sweetlana on the strokes tumblr tinychat back when they had a roaring fandom and we discovered that we’re both from chicago and we’d talk about silly things and we lost touch for a while but then we reconnected and she’s so darling!!! she would show me her paintings of the blues brothers and we’d talk about our hopes and wishes and now i realize we’ve been doing that for 7 years!!! all we do is exchange selfies and drawings and fantasize about crushes !!!i love her! i can’t imagine not knowing her and never meeting her!

13: Name one movie that made you cry.

my girl.......... shit dude

14: Do you prefer to read poetry, write poetry, or neither?

i’m not poetic but i like to HEAR poetry i love hearing the delivery 

15: Things about someone that you find attractive?

i love people who are kind and thoughtful which is rly generic i also love the funny it doesn’t even have to be calculated jokes it can just be the way you said something or a facial expression i like people who manage to share a language with me that can’t be figured out by other people i think having a connection to a person where you can read each others minds can b creepy but also cool cuz u hang out w them so often that you can basically understand each other without much effort 

16: What song are you currently listening to now?

year of the rabbit by eskimeaux

17: Have you ever broken a bone? If so, how?

nope 

18: A random memory from you childhood:

going to chinatown and racing to the chinese zodiac signs and climbing up the stairs with my sisters, getting sponge cake and walking around the old sanrio store pointing out what i want

19: Where did you grow up? chicago 

20: What was the last thing you watched on tv?

lmao we’re watching 13RW and its not for everyone but i read the book and im v invested

21: Do you think you’d make a good parent?

really!! hope id be! i mean i am cool with or without having kids but i want to be a good parent

22: Would you like to meet any of your Tumblr friends in person?

i already met some of my tumblr friends!! i met sweetlana and coney!!! i would like to meet @iamonmy-way when will i meet u!!! 

22: What was the last dream you remember having?

my phone was hacked and it looked like internet explorer on my iphone and my cousin tried to retrieve back to normal by playing against my hacker on a boss battle level of mario

23: When is your birthday?

june 2 :---)

24: How many pillows do you sleep with? 

2 and 1 reading pillow ^_^

25: Do you wear glasses? If so, how long have you been wearing glasses?

i’ve been wearing eye glasses since i was 6 and i’m 21 now so u do the math bud

26: What color is your hair?

black/brown

27: Name 5 facts about your appearance:

ive been told i have a nice complexion, small mouth, chubby cheeks, small hands and long torso

28: What is your favorite soda?

cream.. soda... i need to go to Hell

29: What is a strange talent that you have?

reading peoples moods online lmao 

30: How’s the weather right now?

a cool and calming evening 

31: Why did one of your friendships end?

this question makes me sad lmao

32: Who do you miss right now?

oops i can’t reveal who or what or when but i am missing someone

33: Why did your last relationship end?

because i realized i don’t like them that much and that i don’t understand dating I AM A VERY CONFUSED PERSON when i reflect on dating i realize i hate it so much but also crave it but when i have it i’m very repulsed

34: Are you still figuring out who you are? 

yes!!! i am frustrated at myself because i don’t know who i am or what i want and i feel like it has set me back so much that i’m stagnant 

35: Have you ever been admitted to a hospital? Why? 

ya i had dengue fever and it was probably the most concerned i’ve seen my parents with me

36: What is your favorite restaurant?

pastaria!!! in st louis!! it’s so good!

37: What is word that you always seem to spell wrong?

privilege 

38: Would ever adopt kids?

not against the idea of adopting children!!! 

39: What is your favorite kind of pizza?

i like spinach on my pizza

40: What was your first thought when you woke up this morning?

why is it so dreadful to find yourself in bed with a whole day ahead of you

41: When was the last time you got really really happy and why? 

um!!! my crush!!! k*rt !!! when we played the game!! and they were teasing and attacking me during the game! ah!!! 

42: What’s the strangest thing you’ve ever eaten?

defo dinuguan (pigs blood stew)!! i dont recommend!! i just dip my puto in the sauce and call it a day! not a laman fan! 

43: How do you start a conversation?

i tell them something embarrassing that’s also relateable and revealing and hope they find me somebody to be comfortable around!!!

44: What’s a band you’ve been obsessed with lately?

i hate answering this....... but joji........

45: Do you come from a family “of money?”

nah dude

46: Do you have a bucket list?

i think that’s what my life was missing tbh

47: What is your favorite series of books?

i don’t know i haven’t read a series of books in quite a long time i think i pretended to like percy jackson in high school lmao and i was such a nerd for hunger games but i don’t think anything could replace my deepest love for series of unfortunate events, the boxcar children, judy moody, and horrible harry! ooh! and amelia bedelia!!!

48: When was the last time you laughed so hard your stomach hurt?

i laughed rly hard last night cause patrick was so invested in 13 reasons why and my sister n i kept asking 4 justice 4 zach dempsey and patrick threw a pillow at me for saying that what zach did was severe in hannah’s eyes

49: Where do you go when you’re sad?

i slip into bed and silently cry or if i don’t need that i cry in the shower ahhh how pathetic

50: 5 random facts about yourself:

i actually am rly good at acting and i don’t think anybody but high school and college ppl know this, i’m painfully shy, i don’t like mayo!! all of my goldfish in the past have all been named variations of “Freddy” and !!! i am rly good at stitch (from disney’s lilo and stitch) impressions

[mingishoe]

hey shawty 😫 i just read ur kingdom round 3 stage opinions and i could not agree more (i hope you dont mind me sharing my thoughts) kingdom spoilers‼️

Ikon- Not saying that their performance was bad but it was their style and I don’t really think their style of performance suits kingdom, as a group ikon just likes to go with the flow and have fun on stage, even if you look at their choreography its pretty chill compared to other groups and thats totally fine but this time I feel like the whole performance was just super random like it didn’t have a nice flow but i really like the way they remade pretty savage

Stray Kids- OH MY FUCKING LORD. their performance was truly OUTSTANDING like they got Ryan Reynolds to shout them out 😃 EVERYTHING about that performance was amazing from the remix of gods menu and ddu du ddu du, to the choreo, to the stage set up, it was so well planned and im so proud of them

Btob- i lOVEEEEE blue moon like that song has been my go to study song since i first heard it and the remix of it did not disappoint, the whole set up of recreating la la land through that song was truly a spark of genius. one thing i wish i saw was miyeon singing coz she rly has an angelic voice like ikon let lisa rap but i understand that it was btobs performance so im not too bothered abt that and plus ikon performed a bp song so it’s understandable that they would have lisa rap

Ateez- THE EMOTIONS I HAVE WITH THIS PERFORMANCE LIKE FIRST OFF they didnt even perform answer to win but they performed it for atinys AND LET ME TELL YOU I WAS SOBBING IDK WHY BUT I WAS SOBBING BUT EVERYTHING ABOUT THE PERFORMANCE WAS SO 😫😫😫😫AND THE JUDGES WERE STUPID ENOUGH TO PUT THEM IN LAST PLACE???? THEY HAVE CONTINUED THE STORYLINE THAT THEYVE HAD SINCE DEBUT, THROUGH KINGDOM AND THE JUDGES COULDNT UNDERSTAND THAT 🙄😤 sorry im just rly mad like it wasn’t ateez’s fault they did aMAZING but im just :/

SF9- HOLY WOW IVE BEEN A STAN OF SF9 SINCE 2018 AND IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS ONE, CHANIS SOLO DANCE, DAWONS ABS (AGAIN‼️) AND THEM PERFORMING MOVE JUST FEELS SO RIGHT THEY RLY DID DESERVE FIRST PLACE

The Boyz- Ok please dont hate me for saying this bc their performance was rly good but i feel like this was just a cover of Monster, they did an amazing job with the choreo, the rap, and even the presentation but for some reason it still felt like just a cover, i swear i love them but idk 😭

overall i had rly mixed feeling abt this episode and when i tell you i literally cried abt ateez coming in last especially since their performance had so much depth and meaning behind it :/ sorry for the rant 😭

-🪐

No yeah I 100% agree with like everything on here,, like the whole stray kids ryan Reynolds thing is literally a fever dream.. like what the fuck STDKGSJS and yEAH LIKE i was waiting and waiting for her to start singing and then I waited more and then she skipped off stage with pineal and I was like rIgHt😭 but yeah idk I feel like Ateez sticking with their storyline even in a competition shows how they’re really doing all of this for atiny yk and that’s so🥲🥲🥲 but yeah I also feel like that’s why they got last place bc the judges didn’t really understand what was happening bc of the background they didn’t know from the previous MVs BUT LITERALLY SAME LIKE AS SOON AS THE MUSIC CHANGED I WAS LIKE 🥲 AND THEN ONCE LA POEM STARTED I LIKE STARTED CRYING BUT LIKE IDK THEY DID IT SO WELL LIKE ANSWER MEANS SO MUCH TO ME BUT I LITERALLY COULDNT TELL YOU WHY AKDHSJHS but yeah with tbz I agree,, I think I said it too I don’t remember,, but I felt like it was just a normal performance cover yk like it was really good and pLEASE that snake was the highlight but that was really it idk but still the cover was really really good

#anon #🪐 anon #🪐 #ask reply

[choujiro]

ph

so i spent 3 weeks at ph and oh gosh

week one: 

the flight wasnt bad at all tbh i got to watch my kdrama & listen to my favorite music

scratch that was kinda annoying because my brother took a xan & instantly knocked out once we were seated, my mom and a flight attendant got extremely worried because he wasn’t really opening his eyes

i told them he was just really tired

he fuckgin drooled and it smelled

i couldnt sleep for like an hour or two because we saved his dinner but on my tray and it bothered me

incheon airport is so nice omfg !!!!! bought a macaron at a starbucks there & i wish we had that here at u.s

my uncles picked us up from the airport and our younger uncle (20 yrs old) got chubbier and said he got really fat so we were like no ur jst thicc

while we were waiting for my mom to fix her phone he was talking to me about kdramas because he saw the iu photocard on my phone LOL but its really interesting because guys arent really into stuff like that

found out his girlfriend makes him watch kdramas lol

found out the portions at jollibee were wayyy smaller so my uncle told me to buy two of the same food yah huge shock to me

the wifi was incredibly slow; we had to buy this portable wifi in which we bought 1gb of connection for idk 300 pesos??? wow first world problems for sure

my mom, brother & i slept on the same bed & it was just so hot i honestly could not sleep (we couldnt really sleep anywhere else)

the next day my cousins and i walked to our other cousins house & the aircon in her home was just fucgkin AMAZING 

we could not stand the heat tbh it ruined us

we went to the next town over to buy stuff at the market because we found out my uncle had fake gucci slippers

i bought fake nike slippers and some of us got the same along with gucci ones lol

went deeper in the market and found hella fake stuff like fake vans and addidas (i was planning to come back to buy them and when i came back to the market we didnt have time to get them so im really bummed esp since they’re cheap like 200 or 300 pesos only)

went to the local mall the following day & found this really cute shop that resembled h&m, i ended up buying this overall dress & used up 800 pesos out of 1000 & didnt have enough to buy anything else lol

went to the supermarket the following day inside another mall & ended up buying a bunch of snacks in BULK (my cousins bought wine & alcohol, ended up tasting really weird)

bought a LARGE ASS bulky bag of corn chips called bawang na bawang & when my auntie found out i called it “bah-wang” instead of “buh-wang” she kept laughing & told everyone else because apparently im saying town instead of garlic

met my other cousins’ family (they live in the same town, a 2 minute drive basically) and ate good food, talked to their uncle about palawan since we were going there soon

attended our parent’s high school reunion and watched them perform this dance line lol

we werent really interested in their reunion, i mean it wasn’t really for us anyways??

i actually got really sick the day before new years, i had a bad fever & had cold sweat. i told my cousins to move the fan away from me despite the weather being 80+ degrees :-(

i took antibiotics & got better several minutes before the new years hit lol

week two:

got sick to the point where i lost my voice 

went to pagasinan and ate rly good sisig & etc

went to the same supermarket from the one back in my family’s hometown and ended up buying more snacks in bulk

my skin got super worse & im just like fuck it dammit

on jan2 we were supposed to go to palawan but our flight was delayed, we were transferred to a super nice hotel nearby, free of charge of course

got a massage with two of my other cousins for the first time, the lady thought i was korean so they were like “oh !!! korean!!”

i couldnt speak so my manang talked for me lol

gosh the massage was both relaxing and hurtful LOL

i understood the lady speaking to her coworkers as she was massaging me as she said she felt sorry for me because my skin has alot of scars

i didnt mind at all, i felt bad that she had to see it tbh

she told me to turn my body facing the ceiling so i did and omfg she pulled the towel and massaged my ..... armpits and boobs (im so ashamed because i shaved before i left the airport and it grew fast oh my god)

my cousins and i were talking about how our butts hella hurt after they massaged that part because FUK it hella hurt oh my god i have never clenched my buttcheeks so hard in my life

my kuya said he was ticklish there so he let out a giggle

we boarded our flight to palawan the next day and went island hopping right away. i felt really bad because my skin got even worse so it made me uncomfortable & i couldnt talk to anyone so yeah bad time lol

island hopping was nice nevertheless, we couldnt explore the cave because the tides were high

my cousins, brother and mom got a massage at the hotel we were staying after finding out we got one in the other hotel

the masseurs come to the room instead of having a separate room

so i couldnt go to sleep right away since the bed was being occupied smh

we went to a place called bakers hill the next day & it was really nice idk how to say it, it was much of a hill tho. lots of places to take pictures there i guess??? theres only one bakery there and its small, the families bought alot of pastillias and hopia to bring back home, basically we left the store with a box full of sweets

went to bagiuo the day we returned back to our town and went to a place called mines view where we had an amazing view of the hills/mountains

its realllly nice and green and man !!!!! gr8 view

went shopping for gifts at the local market and bought a jacket & two wooden keychains shaped as a small ..... dicc

my brother bought a wooden flute and he really used it throughout the whole trip like he played in the house AND during car rides. i think the good part was that it wasnt annoying at all, he actually knew how to play and did some covered a bunch of songs that made all of us laugh (my cousin recorded it and has the videos on her phone so i cant show everyone here)

we went driving at pengbenga park, but not literally driving. we got to drive these plastic race car things and it was sososo fun!!!! i overtook some kids & adults but mostly kids on the driveway & i crashed like only twice

we were given the choice to use a bike/multi-seater bike, race car, & other stuff but yeah race car boi

ate really bomb waffles and pancakes at this pancake house and LORD !! GOOD AMAZING AAAHH OOOOO

went to a small mall the following day and bought 50 peso facemasks and i spent like 15 dollars worth of them??? idk i just bought hella without counting my money lol

drove to manila few days later and went to a place called greenhills (famous for fake brands like nike and gucci) and my cousins and aunties bought alot of gucci, ray bans, louis vuitton (wallet, belts and bags lmao). went to a store called miniso and it was so packed i wasnt able to look around as much, & i really wanted to go here ;___; it was okay tho

so there are basically two malls in one, one small one with a food court and market with the fake items and a REAL mall; they’re connected by a yard which is partially a church lol (there was a tv outside so we assumed it was a concert of some sort, found out there was a priest praying inside the building along with so many others)

next morning, instead of going to another pancake house we were accidentally taken to a coffee house but honestly, it was the best choice ever

it was so fuckgin AESTHETIC I LOVED IT they decorated the place with flowers and it wasnt like overwhelming full of flowers it was just right and the iced latte?? AMAZING and ugh man i loved ittttttt

we went to a museum after and learned so much about jose rizal and the history of philippines before and during spanish colonization and it was super interesting

darn u white ppl go away

it was really ironic to see white people check out the museum too like.. first u colonize us then u wanna check our museum hm

went to eat after at a place similar to pepper lunch, so basically hot sizzling food

i ordered a sizzling tapa and it was so fuckgin AMAZINg gattdamn ugh i love sisig

we went to the mall after hoping to check out another museum inside the place (an ice cream one) but we found out that it was opened until feb 

anyways we checked out the whole mall and ate some aesthetic looking ice cream which was amazing also

dropped off two of our cousins at the airport since they were only here for two weeks (the rest of us dreaded over the fact that we had one more week left when our trip here was originally 2 weeks)

went back to my familys town at la union and didnt do much

spent two days at baguio, day 1: found a kbbq and ate lunch there, it was only 300 pesos per person so we werent complaining

we went to the mall after and i checked out this store that had really amusing shirts, bags and pouches. i ended up buying a shirt with a bunny that said “bunnies like carrots but not this one. this one chose the jacuzzi” it was so amusing omfg

i bought a pouch that said “lechon is my lifeforce” aka pig and my friends were like “thats really amazing”

we left the mall to buy tea and i didnt have enough because i bought the bunny shirt so my uncle bought a drink for me LOL (i felt so bad tho)

watched netflix the whole time till it was time to sleep

the next day my other cousin was dropped at the house and we went to go out for a different kbbq place, it was much better (500 pesos per person too!)

went to the mall again and watched jumanji

watched black mirror when we came back

left the next day & went back to the mall since it connected to the other large buses to go back to town

week three:

next morning i met a faith healer who looked for the cause of my eczema, she cured my mom the day before because someone had cursed her food (she had stomach cancer several months back but she’s better, she occasionally has stomach problems tho)

one of the amazing things i have heard from her was that when she was cleaning my moms body with a white towel, she squeezed out the remaining water & black sand came out. she says the curse has been removed & that she’ll feel better soon

she looked at my skin and proceeded to put a special oil everywhere and said it mightve been the burning of a dwende outside the house when i was kid (when he was hurt, he probably hurt me too)

the next day she came by again and lathered a special oil again and came to the conclusion that when i visited the house when i was about 4-5 years old, the dwendes decided to play with me (which actually hurt me so)

she said to only have faith and keep praying, virgin mary will come by to heal you in the form of a sudden breeze with a nice scent

i know that alot of people might think this is crazy and all, but since i come from a spiritual family and had actual experience with something like this, its really easy to believe 

it seems like the dwendes dont like modern medicine so everytime i put on my creams or ointments, the healing effect didnt last long

the next and final day, she put on oil once more and concluded that the dwendes have been playing with me since i was a kid so it was the root of my eczema. she had personally asked them to stop yesterday so she said they wont play with me anymore

as she was lathering oil on my skin, she said that i had nice legs and hands, the dwendes had played with me because i was “pintas” or pretty

so that kinda shocked me like me? pretty?? lol

but after that she said i will get better, i need to have faith and pray all the time. once you believe, it will happen (i have great faith in both the faith healer and myself healing, my wounds are slowly closing so im really determined to recover from eczema)

the thing about faith healers is that they DONT ask for money. you could donate, but they dont ask for anything at all. i believe that they heal people in the form of good will

my mom & i gave money and clothes, and soap as a payment for her time and faith healing and im sososo thankful for her

she also did this thing where she could figure out things by putting oil and water in a plate and picking out rice grains and letting them either sink or float in another bowl

3 rice grains had floated while the others sank and she concluded that there was something wrong with me, both spiritually and physically?? i couldnt understand quite well since they were speaking in ilocano

but something along the lines of that, she had called me soul in order to protect me so i can heal. and that kinda boggled me like soul? is that always with you? is my soul somewhere else? why was it that my soul had to be called? so yeah interesting

she also found out that my grandpa had visited (he visited last week too, along with my grandma) and he’s just watching the family in the living room

also odd thing but last week a white butterfly came inside the house while my cousins and i were just doing whatever and it landed on the couch my manang and i were sitting on

my kuya said there was a butterfly behind me and i was like fuk imma move couches cuz i just dont like bugs in general (my cousin had entered the back door the other night and felt something crawling on his head so he slapped it away, turns out it was a HUGE spider so yeah FUK that lol i wanted to throw up when i saw it)

so i switched couches and the butterfly followed me and went on my head so i shoo’ed it away

the next day after it had happened a lady who had a third eye/some sort of spiritual power said my grandparents visited last night and i guess i shoo’ed my grandpa away lol

anyways, going back to the rice grain thing, the faith healer knew i couldnt sleep well because my body has been burning for the longest time, so she put those 3 rice grains in a cotton ball and safety pinned it to my shirt

my mom said that her mom would often do the same thing to her sisters back when they were kids, it was really effective in to protecting yourself

i think its really crazy how theres so many spirits and the like in philippines, and also in vietnam and other asian countries as well. i thought it was because it was 3rd world countries or countries that had been colonized

i searched it up and 1) when PH was colonized, the conquestors often scared them with stories about spirits and 2) when the angels had fought lucifer and his army out of heaven, alot of them fell on earth, landing on the islands of PH

we all packed our stuff last minute and my mom was having a hard time since everything could not fit in the luggage, i told her just to put everything in our large balikbayan box and she refused, she eventually gave up (even the stuff barely fit inside the box). we left at 1am that day for the airport at manila and man, i guess i’ll miss ph

our stopover was at incheon again and this time we had more time to buy stuff at the airport. my mom bought her starbucks mug in which she was excited about. i bought another macaron and planned eating it on the airplane but my mom misplaced it & once we came back i found out it was smashed lmfao

i went to the duty free store and looked around for some snacks, the ladies were rly kind in helping me, i tried speaking in korean but had no luck at all lol all i said was kamsamnida after they had helped me

while waiting for our flight, my mom and aunties were telling us about stories about our other auntie since she’s really mean and all lol we were all curious to why she had treated everyone so unkindly basically the their whole lives

my cousins dont like this specific aunt and i dont have a good judgement of her either but my other aunt told us to always be kind despite that. 

i had planned to watch the rest of my kdrama on the plane but i knocked out for 9 out of 11 hours of the flight

the men at the airports where they check our passport were so handsome omfg. the ones both at manila and san francisco like... so... handsome. i told my mom that they’re really good looking and she assumed it was because they were light skinned but even if they werent light, they were SO handsome like i dont discriminate against color man if youre handsome you are HANDSOME

arrived back at SF at 2pm and my manang welcomed us by making us cajun shrimp and it was literally the best meal ever ugh i miss american food

i had school the NEXT day, and i had barely realized that i signed up for a class at UC DAVIS instead of sacramento and oh my god i was truly fucked up lol (ended up fixing it tho)

i checked up on my character on maplesaga and found out that literally everyone had outleveled me like ok fuk 

to summarize the 3 weeks there, my skin did not get better at all lol. although we were originally going to stay for 2 weeks, my mom couldnt fix our flight time and ended up staying there longer. despite it being dreadful at times, im really lucky that i had met a faith healer the 3rd week for my eczema. if i had left the 2nd week, i would not have been healed (the doctors here in u.s were completely useless so...) i was sick 80% of the time of the trip which made me feel bad lol but its my immune systems fault :-/// im really prone to extreme changes in weather, so coming from a 50 degree city to a 80 degree country took a toll on my body. it was the same back at home, during the summer the weather was often bipolar so that also took a toll on my body

anyways its so good to be back home except for the piles of homework stacking up ;__;

#i hope i can look back at my post and wonder oh wow i remember this happening #im quite forgetful #super long post but lots of stuff happened #the photos are on my ig if anyone wants to check them out