#pursuing my dreams (kind of)

[ink-the-artist]

Video game I saw in a dream. It was in this low poly style like an older video game. You play as this character I think was meant to be a lamb, or maybe a weird mix of a lamb a mouse and a rabbit, (while not really looking like any of those things) and you’re running away from a wolf. Your objective is to last as long as possible before the wolf catches and eats you.

The house you’re running in is endless and bizarrely put together like most building interiors in dreams are (like the infinite toilet dream dimension on Reddit lol) the layout of the house is pretty detailed, you can stop and hide in places like closets or bins while the wolf looks for you, you can go up and down stairs and into rooms etc.

You never actually know where the wolf is or how close it is to you until it appears in your line of sight, it makes no noise and the game gives you no way of knowing where it is, and it’s pretty unpredictable it doesnt move at a consistent pace. When the wolf catches you there’s an animation showing it eating your character

#the actual animation of the wolf eating your character wasnt scary he kind of just cartoonishly swallows the character whole lol #the scary part is being pursued by him and never knowing how close he is #i remember being surprised when i first saw the game bc it was presented to me as #a fun addictive sort of game kinda like a mobile app game #and then i see it and its a horror game and the creators are just completely oblivious to it lmao #dream art #<- thats my tag for all my dream-inspired art #art #gif #photomanipulation #digital art #liminal #weirdcore #used a mix of ai photos and regular photos for this one #the ai stuff is sooooo good for recreating what a dream looks and feels like #but i didnt use it too much bc i wasnt able to get the specific photos i wanted :/ #hmmmm this is vore isn’t it

[cloudburst-ink]

🌈 Free the gays from weird heteronormative top/bottom discourse 2k24!!! 🖤 (And by extension, the dom/sub associations that go with it!! Which are also a completely separate though sometimes overlapping concept!!!)

Write your violent angry murder blorbo getting railed!! Make that sweet shy angel baby a top! Make them both verse and throw the concept out altogether because it’s inherently a bit silly to start with!! ✨ And your personality in the rest of your life often has nothing to do with your bedroom preferences anyway! ✨

Or don’t! Do whatever you want because it’s fanfiction! 🥰✨ Write them with whatever dynamics or lack thereof that you want—that’s the point! And no one can tell you what is and isn’t okay to write in your own fics!! 🎊 They're fictional characters, have fun!!!!!

Happy new year fellow fandom gays!!! Go wild!

#sincerely #a real life gay who has been repeatedly mislabeled #by people who will never be in the bedroom with me to find out anyway 😌 #and who enjoys representing these kinds of internal dichotomies in my own writing #maybe my violent anger blorbo just wants someone to take care of HIM for once #maybe he wants nothing more than to be fragile and soft and never could be before now #maybe he wants someone to pin him down and fuck him silly and fuzz out his constantly over-vigilant brain #MAYBE HE JUST LIKES TAKING IT UP THE ASS #there are any number of wonderful and fun and awesome reasons #to explore unexpected dynamics in smut fics #and i encourage everyone who wants to to pursue those desires without shame!! #and without fear!! #maybe my sweet soft baby boy blorbo just wants to make his partner feel good and relax for once #maybe he loves so deeply that he can only express it through teeth and ropes #maybe he just finds the fantasy of control super sexy in a world where he otherwise has none #embrace your wildest most “ooc” smut dreams!!!! #because your fanfics are first and foremost for YOU #and don't let anyone else's opinions influence you otherwise 🖤

[my-current-obsession]

Me, delusional, foaming at the mouth:

ISH ROUTE??? POTENTIAL ISH ROUTE? PLEASE?

#even if tempest #otome #just saying his love for norna is kind of what made him turn evil #so anastasia SAVING him and redeeming him through love would be A+++ #and the game even implied it would/should happen! she literally told norna to leave ish to her #and then just... ignored him in purgatory to pursue her own happy ending #so we were ROBBED and deserve a proper route with him (and not just a Q&A session) #if nothing else i hope he's got a big role again because i want to see and hear more of him #tetsuya kakihara did GREAT work with him. i'm most familiar with fran from code realize #but holy shit he popped off in this role. there's just an energy to it - sometimes malevolent sometimes playful #and i just WANT MORE. ideally he gets a route but failing that make him a prominent character regardless #for the record i'm ALWAYS greedy for more love interests in any game #(in this game alone i also desperately want routes for maya and hugo for instance) #but he's one of a small handful who truly seems like he SHOULD have been and just. wasn't. #so until the FD comes out and shatters my dreams i'll hold onto hope

[annoyingatfirst]

in the tags game, as a kid what did you want to be when you grew up and what changed your mind once you got older (if anything did) ?

#wanted to be a veterinarian but the math and science required + having to put down animals changed it for me :( #i attempted calculus my freshman year of college with potentially pursuing vet medicine in mind but got weeded out 💔 #also the idea of dissecting animals and surgery in general i don’t always do the best with. and sick animals #this is kind of inspired by the poll i rb’d the other day but i specifically want to know Why people didn’t pursue their childhood dream job #<- or if they did! but i’m assuming most of us did not sadly… i don’t think most people do :(

[dylanconrique]

guys i had the craziest chenford dream last night, i'm gonna turn it into a wip.

#*and this is icarly! #okay so the dream was lucy going uc with noah #but seeing how he was in the beginning of 5x16 when she came to back him up #he seems like the kind of guy to me to let a case completely consume him #like he forgets that he is putting himself and sometimes others in extremely dangerous situations #all because HE wants to catch the bad guy... like he has a hero complex that just takes over him #so in the dream they were uc and at some point ended up in a high speed chase in pursuit of a suspect #but the situation becomes too dangerous and starts getting out of hand #to the point where lucy knows better and knows that they need to get out of there and come up with a new plan #but noah doesn't listen and continues to pursue the suspect anyway cause HE wants the arrest #driving like he's in fast and the furious and causes them to crash #i started to wake up a little bit but there was also this scene in my head of tim berating noah in the hospital #like 'she begged and pleaded for you to stop! and now she has [x/y/z injuries] because of you!' #he even whips out the recordings of lucy begging for him to stop... shows pictures of her bloodied and bruised in the very same hospital #idk this played out so cool in my dreams last night would anybody wanna read it?????? #the rookie #tim bradford #lucy chen #noah foster #chenford #otp: you know me so well #there was even a part in my dream where tim speeds up next to their car #and lucy looks over at him absolutely terrified #idk idk let me know if i should write this #does it sound dumb? would you read it??

[mymarifae]

i was playing with dress up mode the other night and i just like how easy it is to make mafuyu and haruka look like little princes

haruka's even got the princely pose goin' on...the way they are just both so transmasc

#oh my god society when i finish the akitoya arc of my accidental prsk au #i have a longer fic centered around mmj brewing in the back of my head and i'm excited about it... #it'll mostly center around minori having an epiphany about idolhood and realizing that she um. doesn't want to do this anymore lol! #because it's miserable and suffocating and scary and dehumanizing!!!! #so she struggles with that. she doesn't want to crush her friends' dreams especially since she was the one who gave those dreams back #and she doesn't want to lose them as friends either. but she Really doesn't want any of them to pursue idolhood anymore #also the stage SEKAI starts doing some funky stuff because of the way minori's feelings shift. it's a good kind of funky btw #BUT ANYWAY on the side of All That is minoharu relationship development moment. AND haruka transmasc moment #we love a story about coming to terms with yourself and embracing who you are and what you really want from life and

[thebeautifulfantastic]

<3

#been thinking a lot about how whenever i have a dream or an idea marinating in my brain for long enough it then becomes something that i am #determined to pursue. and that no one can really dissuade me from #it simply becomes a permanent part of my creative direction in life #i guess you could say that's kind of the same thing as having a special interest but not QUITE #like for example. what i'm thinking of right now is my desire to start a band #and i come up with a lot of crazy ideas on a day to day basis but a good amount of them end up being simply fleeting or dictated by my mood #the ones that stay though... those are the one that actually HAPPEN #i've wanted to sing in a band for at least a year now #to be honest it's probably been longer but it's been at least a year of me being consciously aware of it #and it just made me realize. this desire has stuck around in my brain for quite a while now #and i think that means it is going to happen someday #i don't know exactly how yet because the way i originally thought it might happen (me going to music college) didn't work out #but it's been a year and i'm still thinking about it and keeping my eyes open in case i meet the right people to make music with #i know from experience that when i put my mind to something i WILL get it done #in the sense that i will surprise myself with how stubborn i can be when it comes to not stopping chasing my dreams #and i've had big goals in the past that i did achieve because of this #i'm also like. surprisingly adaptable??? i only recently learned that about myself but i be pulling Plan B's out of my sleeves #so that's all to say -- i'm choosing to believe that i will start my band someday and it will be better than i can imagine right now #and in general i'm choosing to believe that the things i truly love and truly want in my life will only become more clear over time #even if i'm confused and lost at times NOW... if i keep moving forward in time it will all make sense #and a lot of times situations do work out exactly the way they were meant to but in the most unexpected of ways #i don't know how coherent this all was but yeah #starting a band is only the most recent example #belle speaks

[un-local]

Opened da vinci video editor for the first time in forever. Remaking my first video as a gift to myself

I might share it, I think some of you may like it :3

#What can I say I’m a Jane of all trades #Like it in concept. At least. #TLDR I’m having a bit of a career crisis and this is how I’m keeping the downward spiral at bay #I hate my job but I kind of don’t mind it but I need to be something more but I should have followed my dream of pursuing art but I should— #You get it. #hare posts #harebrained thought

[people-wxtching]

Generation Why is hitting so hard idk why 😭😭 like in not even a millennial

when he said "why why why why why why why why why" that was so real of him

#'talk about how fast we grew and all of the dreams that we won't pursue' this man is spying on my life fr #cAUSE WE ARE THE HELPLESS SELFISH ONE OF A KIND #MILLENIUM KIDS THAT ALL WANNA DIE #WALKING IN THE STREET WITH NO LIGHT INSIDE OUR EYESSS (WHYYYYY) #the chorus is my life honestly #conan gray #sunset season>>>>

[witchwhaat]

so ummm.

what if i signed up for a new ba degree course?😶 it's kind of eating me alive bc i'm not really enjoying my masters and i still have no idea what the fuck am i even doing there and if i'll even finish it. but on the other hand when i think about having to go through recruitment process again and then about having to start completely new with new people again i feel a little sick. there's still no guarantee that i'll even get in but. but what if i do. and today is the last day to sign up. and i don't feel like i've thought it through enough which was my mistake with the masters and i don't want to do the same dumb thing again 🙃

but on the other other hand, 3 years will pass anyway and i might at least try doing smth about this? idk IDK!!!!!

#and just. you know i don't want to try again and then realise AGAIN that it ain't it. #but this ba actually might be fun like yeah my uni is kind of shitty and i am very sick and tired of it #but this degree is very tempting #arrghhh idk!!! #it's not a summer's vacation with me if i don't have at least one existential crisis about what i'm doing with my life huh #why couldn't i have a Dream Job that i want to pursue since childhood. it would make my life sooo much easier #instead here i'm with 1000 interests and no real goal 💀 telling myself i just have to find the right thing 💀 #OKAY ANYWAY enough of this alsjhsjjxhxjskc #i just had to get it off my chest #i might delete this later #agnes talking

[metaphysicae]

let’s play “genuine moment of healing and realization or emerging manic episode”

#DO i want to drop out of college to pursue my childhood dream? #^ i’d have to go back (childhood dream is becoming a cosmologist) #(the space kind not the makeup kind however the makeup kind is still cool)

[tsuchinokoroyale]

if you were in hxh what do you think your nen affinity would be? … what would your hatsu be…

Ooooooo what a fun question!

Based on hisoka’s personality divination, I’m most likely a manipulator: Logic driven, protective of loved ones, stubborn.

I’m bad with directions, but I’m not navigationally incompetent. That is to say, street names are secondary to me because I prefer remembering how one location flows into another over a sequence of street names. I literally couldn’t tell you the names of most of the roads I take to go even grocery shopping but could probably sketch out the trip. My hatsu, which I would call 「Thinking of a Place」 / World Weary Vagabond would reflect that mentality. I would imbue road signs with my aura, allowing me to superimpose myself on every similarly named road sign, letting me choose which intersection I want to step out onto. Instead of moving about the world in physical sequence, I can stitch together my own flow through the world. This is restricted via A) the need to touch the signs to activate and B) the need for roads to share a name, but essentially gives me a global teleportation ability. Like, if I come into contact with a sign for Main St. I can go basically anywhere in the world. By focusing my aura into other people/objects they can come along with me with my side ability 「Carry On」 / I Wanna Be With You Everywhere.

#what a lovely ask really brings me back to my fictionalized version of middle school where anime was cool #and me and my friends could openly ask each other what kind of jutsu/devil fruit powers we would have 😩 #the idea for this hatsu actually came from a dream I had where I was being pursued by some shadowy organization but I had this power #and it was a battle of wits trying not to get checkmated by following a sequence of road names that’ll ultimately put me on a unique road #like they would chase me down increasingly specifically named roads so they could better predict where I’d pop out #I obviously won by virtue of there being more street intersections than organization members but like. it was pretty stressful 🥹 #asked and answered babey!

[the-fifteen]

Just watched the 10 years anniversary video from Game Grumps and maybe am a teeny bit emotional rn

#a number that talks #game grumps #the show has helped me a lot through the years #it my sound topical or whatever but i dont care #gg really fucking just #gave me a reason to not give up entirely #arin has always been a role model on kindness and humility #dan inspired me to keep pursuing music somehow #i just love these two dorks on the internet having fun for a living and pursuing their dream careers #hope one day i can be as proud and fulfilled as they are and inspire people aroumd me the same way

[youremyonlyhope]

Pippin is my favorite musical of all time.

But unfortunately, I seem to fixate on it during times of my life when my brain is especially existential, anxious, depressed, etc.

The last few days, I've been thinking about Pippin a lot, reading analyses of it, listening to the music. Just generally enjoying my comfort musical.

Then I remembered that earlier this week, my therapist heard me describing how I feel unfulfilled while unemployed and doing a lot of stuff for other people or to make other people happy and not doing anything for myself, all while having a completely messed up sleep schedule. And she said "Hmm... honestly... that sounds a little like depression."

And I was like "No. No. Because I am doing things. It's not like when I've been depressed in the past." but now that I'm back to fixating on Pippin, I think she was somewhat onto something since that's usually a bad sign. Yay!

#pippin #it's kind of sad that my comfort musical is pippin. but like. it's comforting for a reason. i need the comfort. #i'm currently being overworked by the theater i volunteer with because i was brought on to sew some pieces #and a couple turned into 6 pieces and then adding trims to other things and repairing a bunch of costumes #and completely deconstructing 2 different dresses to make them into new things #and then further alterations and tailoring and yeah this is not what i had signed up for #and how i need to learn to say no because i now have no time to do what i want to do with my free time #plus the jobs i've applied to have not gotten back to me and blah blah blah i'm doing nothing with my life at the moment #and past pippin obsessions have been senior year of high school when i had no clue what to do with my life #into freshman year of college when i was happier but still feeling strange about having no direction #then junior/senior year of college when i once again had no clue what i was doing with my life but about to graduate. #then one year post-college when i was considering leaving my job in the next year-ish to pursue theater #THEN during the really dark era of the quarantine in April just before May hit aka the lowest i've been in over a decade #literally crying every single day i was so stressed and anxious and depressed #and now. after a year of switching jobs. finally thinking i know what i want to do. and now having to actually do it. #while unemployed because my literal dream job that was supposed to last at least 4 months to a year only lasted 2 months

[c0rpseattack]

ifeel bad but I Need to move out like it's a good idea probablyim going to explode and die

#i feel so bad like what kind of parent wants to hear that but iniust. i don't know man lol!!!! inhave too much trauma abt being poor and #not having my own space and i guess its just too much now lol!!!!! lol. is it bad im like fully ready to not pursue my dream job anymore #and just get aim for a (tolerable) one that makes a lot of money. idk im probably not cut out for it anyways. im just tired i guess #i know its selfise but. iunno . i just dhdjdudurj also im just going to vent it here . i just .maube hate os too strong but i dislike her #partner LOL i never liked him I just dont. thays another reason i dont everr want to live w him again i cant do it. god whatever lol #im completely fine btw this is just my biweekly financial traumadump i have anxiety disorder. thats all the context youre gettingvif this #doesnt get deleted lol #incubus.txt

[mymarifae]

bug fables.

#i like forgot how much i fucking ADOREEEE it but playing it with my gf and watching her experience it really reignited my love for it like #fuck it's SUUUUCH a good game !! it's about the family the bonds of friendship the healing the self-acceptance . #the drive to pursue your dreams no matter what .. the fucking. #the subtle worldbuilding that completely changes your perspective once you have the full picture #but the way that it still kind of doesn't matter that the game is set in ** ********** ***** bc like man these bugs are so small #and they don't see the full scope of their world. they're just hanging out living their lives having fun etc. good for them #the extra context is really well done though and i enjoy the build up #anyway? play this fucking? game?