#saying some stuff quietly

[ohblushblushblush]

Currently obsessed with the fact, that in “Exodus” it is confirmed that minicons can feel when Soundwave is thinking and they are really annoyed about it each time it happens

BONUS:

So basically here Megs is pressing Sounds about the data on the energon transportation. And while it is all seems scary to any other mech, Soundwave is not intimidated by Megatron. Instead, he gets exited (???)

Eheh

#transformers prime #megatron #soundwave #transformers #exile #minicon #minicons #guys are annoyed at boss thinking too much #they want to jump into some action instead #ahaha #I am going to tag it as megasound anyway #megasound #cause you know #Megs coming close #saying some stuff quietly #and Soundwave being exited at the end a little #ehehehe #ok now I am back to work #transformers aligned #tf aligned #aligned #well #now that is all

[noirandchocolate]

Thermostat broke less than three years after it was installed. Just found out the warranty is only TWO years and it costs $850 to replace. :)

Recently I joked to people that somehow I managed to get through November-December without a major appliance or body part getting fucked up, for once.

Guess the universe was just running a little behind schedule!

#kidk says stuff #it is some bs that the unit costs that fucking much #it’s a ‘smart’ thing with an app and I did not ask for that when it was installed #it was just installed and I was told that’s what I got #so like. now im on the hook for all this $$$ to replace it?? #if this happens again conveniently just outside the warranty period imma…well idk!! #I am not crying though! very good at being only QUIETLY upset! I’m so good!

[gottagobuycheese]

Hugtober Day 8/? - Traumatized Trio Finally Get to Hug It Out, More at Midnight

A brief pause from the ORV onslaught to bring you yet another trio that knocks me dead if I think about them too hard  there are plenty of ORV vibes here though let’s be real

[ID: A greyscale piece of digital fanart depicting Yoon Hwa-pyung, Kang Gil-young, and Choi Yoon from OCN’s The Guest. The three of them stand in the middle of the drawing, hugging each other tightly. Gil-young wears a long coat and has her back to the viewer as her arms clutch Hwa-pyung’s and Yoon’s backs, holding them close as she buries her head between them. Hwa-pyung is dressed in a light flannel overshirt and dark slacks and places one arm along Gil-young’s shoulders, with his other hand barely visible around Yoon’s waist. His face is hidden from view as he presses his forehead against Gil-young. Yoon is dressed in his priest garb and wraps his arms around the other two, turning his face away from the viewer as he rests his head against Gil-young’s. /end ID]

#ocn the guest #kang gil-young #yoon hwa-pyung #choi yoon #not me obsessively thinking about both of these at the same time and trying to smash them together in a way that makes sense #I've said it before and I'll say it again #MASSIVE kdj vibes from yoon hwa-pyung #partly for the obvious reasons but also in the ways he interacts with other people #choi yoon somehow reminds me of yjh but whether that's solely from the ‘tall solemn dressed-in-all-black-and-angsting-quietly’ vibe #or some other underlying significance I could not tell you #kang gil-young (at the risk of repeating myself) strikes me much more as a jhw-esque character than hsy-ish #she's even got the same hairstyle I mean come O N #but yeah in my head if I ever had to imagine what they'd look like live action these come to mind #anyway anyway enough about non-guest stuff in the tags jeez #(lol last thing: I think there's a pretty big part of the venn diagram that would contain people who like the guest and people who like orv) #my attempts at art #hugtober 2022 #hugtober day 8 #these three. these three #THEY LOVE EACH OTHER SO MUCH AND WOULD GIVE UP ANYTHING FOR THEM BUT REFUSE TO ACCEPT THAT OF EACH OTHER #...apparently this is a tag that already exists. I have a feeling I used it for the same reason #because it's TRUE #that's their family!!! #LET THEM HUG IT OUT #also this was clearly referenced from that one behind the scenes photo which I can only imagine was taken after the end of the last shot #it was SO WEIRD to see choi yoon's actor smiling like that after a whole season of grumpy gills lol #yoon hwa-pyung's actor was making the exact face I'd expect yoon hwa-pyung to make when taking a photo with his friends #pretty pleased with how this one came out actually #perfect three-person hug pose

[dirtbra1n]

minds in half a dozen places or so I need to be able to do more than one thing at a time. hanzashiro is calling to me like at least two different videogames are calling to me library book that could be used as a murder weapon is calling to me. Hanzashiro Is Calling To Me.

#back hurts went to the art museum #need to finish sorting basically the entirety of tbhk in my photo album #because it’s siphoning all of my storage space and i need to redownload my music.. #that said. i think. with some novel related revelations. i could do some more fun stuff in the river #what’s better than two weird guys Three of them. <- shaking slightly #also. SASAKI HIRANO ASK IN MY ASKBOX. #also how about that art huh. Ha Ha #like sure ooookay we’ll give kagi and hirano SWORDS and hirano’s sword is sheathed still but kagi’s ISN’T and ichinose in the foreground has #a pistol out and is staringinto the camera instead of looking at what nearly everyone else is looking at and niibashi is on the phone with #GOD KNOWS WHO and yeah of course sasaki is sat on the steps there apathetically reloading HIS pistol ALSO looking at the camera rather than #offscreen which is FINE. and MASATO HAS A GUN. AND HE LOOKS READY TO START FIRING AT ANY MOMENT. #AND YOU’LL NOTICE THAT IT’S NOT A REGULAR PLAAAAIIIIIN PISTOL FOR SOME REASON. IT’S ORNATE. LOOKS TO HAVE SOME ENGRAVING. #i’m just supposed to. what. accept this quietly? i’m sick in the head. Sorry #anyway just wanna say plainly that evidently kagi and masato are the ones most ready to go. do violence. #or whatever the weaponry is a metaphor for Looks at you okay i’m done

[phantoids]

head in hands at this point i'm just fucking logging off. my dash is just all of this holy shit.

#void echos #there is only so much one man can take #i will say one thing: ccs not speaking up about stuff really is unsurprising. even personally and before any came to light publically. #i've been in this fucking situation on both sides. it felt like i couldn't say anything because i would put both myself and the victim in #harm's way. even after things came to light it felt like i couldn't say shit cause it was going to get me hurt too. and i was scared! #and then shit happened to me too and i realised and. well. sure i spoke up but at least for me? it was less scary than speaking up when it #wasn't happening to me. which is paradoxical but #oh well. either way i honestly would understand if some said nothing and quietly distanced. it's a horrible thing to go through esp if you #were harmed too and didn't realise until after the fact.

[abyssalpriest]

unrelated to that lmfao

i love being not (insert religions based on the kings and their people as ''demons'') but being adjacent to the communities while knowing the kings on a personal level because oh boy

#like i wont get into the Chrxstian God And The Kings' ''Fall'' rumour i did the other day but things like that and like #posts being like ''oh they love everyone all of us each of us'' and talking about The Lore of down there thats like. so clearly #twisted to be pro-(kings) propaganda and im like oh my god. if you worship them BECAUSE of these details you think are right then #im so fucking sorry they are way more complex and grey-moral than this #- i have to be clear. i do not know anything anyone says is false if its their worldview. Im not sitting here laughing because i think othe #s are Dumbdumb and cant get across the kings as Flawlessly as me uwu or some shit im explicitly talking about people saying #definitively that the chrxstian god did xyz thing and the kings are poor little meow meows and love everyone while also saying they #dont love everyone bc they vehemently disagree with chrxstians and stuff like. ''('demons') are actually the Pure sacred race theyre all #old gods theyre all pro-human and would never hurt a practitioner'' that type of stuff im like. ahhhhhhhh. so youve heard the propaganda #bc lets be real here i do NOT doubt any of these people's abilities its not my place so i dont even do it quietly to myself. very rarely #yes but like 1% of the time and its only when a bunch of red flags pop up but like. there are so many people on the kings' plane that #are telling humans these things bc......... well look at the goetic demons. royalty and people in power. who do people mainly go #to for demonolatry? The people in their society we understand to be kings. princes. dukes and duchesses. are they all these things? no #like Duke Vepar isnt a Duke lmfao i know her personally like she'll present like that but. imagine if that race wanted to talk to people of #our plane but only spoke to the english king/queen and dukes and duchesses and marquis and war generals and stuff to ask about #their civilisations. do you think that theyd get an unbiased view of the monarchy and the english religion and whatnot........ #edit: so like we're really clear. its like seeing people brainwashed by fucked up politics bc. it is that. #sometimes you just have to laugh bc like god youre in deep and im so sorry #insert my ex (a spirit) lying to me and convincing me he was a video game character for five years like what else can you do but laugh #ramblings //

[pepprs]

i wish i’d kept pushing the point (<- vagueposting). im so tired i’m hitting a wall. but why is the answer to feeling bottomlessly lonely just to love myself and be loved by myself? isn’t that only more loneliness?

#purrs #i know being by myself is not aloneness. but like seriously are you actually serious that there is no one coming to save me? that I have to #walk around with this giant gaping wound forever and no one will be able yo close it? i need total nurturance and comfort badly and to have #any less than total is.. well i don’t want to say it’s as bad as having none at all because obviously it’s not true. but it’s still bad. it #makes it harder to ask for more when you already have some and have reached the limit of what you can ask for. i just feel bottomlessly #lonely. i know things will get better. but what i really need is a long hug and a good cry in someone’s arms. not isolating myself in a #cabin for a week (though i know i desperately need that too). like we’re human beings and we can do that for each other so why don’t we? why #can’t we fix each other? why can’t we be nurturing like that and fill the voids for people who have them. and i know it’s rich coming from m #me bc iam skittish like a horse around emotions and also that it’s pitifully expected from me bc i am reading too much into normal experien #nces most people have. but how am i supposed to just accept that i didn’t get the love i needed (even if im romanticizing m*therlove lmao) a #and then move on as if that’s fine? how can i just snap my fingers and be an autonomous adult when ive spent years accruing psychological #damage with the most limited kind of cushioning? when every second brings with it a potential jab to my River of Pain nerve? idk. #i was deeply violently depressed abt this stuff earlier this week but tonight im just quietly sad. i want the stability and certainty of #(unconditional) love. i want my whole future safe and warm and now or at least the ability to trust it will exist which is also called hope. #i don’t want to be alone and wretched anymore.

[magentagalaxies]

giggling and kicking my feet while i'm lying on my bed like a cliche teenage girl bc bruce's assistant just sent me high-quality recordings of both shows where bruce announced the buddy cole documentary at the rivoli

#first one has paul bellini and kevin mcdonald on stage with him! doesn't mention me by name but i'm just out here like KEVIN!!!! #second one is basically the same as what i already posted but better quality bc that one was just my friend in the audience #and in addition to the higher video quality you can hear scott quietly say some stuff on this version #and it's ridiculous how even tho i'd be confident saying scott and i are friends at this point #(we've talked to each other many times. he clearly likes me. i'm even going to email him later today) #i still watch stuff like this and go oh my god scott thompson knows i exist??? #like you think i'd be over it bc i can turn off the part of me that's starstruck and just be a nice mix of casual and professional #but in my heart i'm still like oh my god this time last year i was sitting in this exact same spot in my room #listening to the exact same song (me on my off hours by mouth congress) #and one year ago i would've been like ''ugh i wish these guys could be my queer comedy mentors but that'll never happen'' #vs this year i'm like ok gotta go be a nerd on tumblr then send some emails to coordinate my next trip to toronto to work on the buddy doc #and next year? who knows! #i'll have done a bunch of work on the buddy doc by then (idk if it'll be fully done but it'll probably be close) #and i'll be preparing for my final semester of college before i can permanently move to toronto in spring 2025

[goldensunset]

‘enjoyer’ to me has two meanings. it either means you’re a “fake fan” who hasn’t actually properly read/watched/played the media for yourself and you don’t know that much about it but you like it on a surface level and that’s enough for you, or it means you have done the above but you refuse to participate in fandom culture online for it lest discourse and negativity end up ruining you and so you just enjoy it peacefully by yourself. i think this is an excellent term btw

#there are lots of things i consider myself an enjoyer of that i’ll post about occasionally #like ace attorney and persona 5 for some examples #even though i only really know some stuff i enjoy seeing it on my dash #there are a few things i like and i am a ‘true fan’ of but i won’t show those colors on here #like miraculous ladybug. i’m media literate enough by now to recognize nitpicks and handle them with grace by myself #so i don’t even wanna touch whatever is probably going on on here #bc i know it’s silly and wild but listen the very specific type of shenanigan that mlb is? you either love it or you hate it. and i love it #and there are too many fans who fall into that ‘hate’ category and don’t realize that the show is never gonna be for them #this is all to say i’m not certain yet what i’ll do about pokémon legends arceus #like do i add it to my pinned post do i start following blogs and browsing tags etc #or do i just quietly enjoy it alone on my blog and reblog stuff that floats my way but never go out looking for stuff #bc yknow it’s actually quite relaxing not participating in fandom sometimes yanno #and i don’t want anything to kill my hype #when something has either a large fandom or regular releases you can always be satisfied by the content that’s there #aka there’s no pressure on you to entertain yourself and make the stuff you want to see #i love kh but that’s how it is for me sometimes and i guess that’s the kicker of not having played the games myself #is that my entire experience with it is through youtube vids and fandom online which is probably not great #i’m probably exhausting myself more than i should over it #i have played twewy myself obv so i can entertain myself but also the fandom is tiny and chill anyway #i like creating my own twewy posts tho lol #most of the time #i do get tired sometimes of feeling like i have to provide content for others #or really tbh it’s not even others fault most of the time it’s self inflicted #bc i do genuinely love analyzing media and writing down my thoughts and sharing #when i write a huge block of text that’s the real me. when i do meme edits that’s me trying to people please #art is..: somewhere in between #peach rambles

[ghost-proofbaby]

(Not trying to encourage you to drop out of college- that’s 100% up to you, but) you definitely have the talent to be a published writer, if you chose to pursue that option

It’s been such a long time since someone’s writing (fanfic, or published) has wowed me like yours has!

Just in case you need a reminder 🥰

in all fairness, i wouldn’t have brought up that if it wasn’t already on my mind!!

i appreciate the reminder very very much nonnie 🥺🖤 it’s an honor to know my writing affects anyone online, and the thought of going into like… making that a profession? or reaching even wider audiences? wild. v v wild.

#thank u ily #for all the rants it’s important for everyone to know i did arrange some things #just dipping in my toes to see how it’ll feel #not like full blown publishing lol like that dipping of my toes has been posting online and stuff #but yeah #money moves being made? not really #BUT moves ARE being made #very quietly because i’d feel like an idiot to once again look my friends and family in the eyes and say ‘change of plans! again!’

[laudofthedeep]

what college class had you reading *The Time Travelers Wife*? I really thought it was just passing moment popularity chicklit that would pass into obscurity soon enough. (although i guess people are still talking about it occsionally so maybe not)

if memory serves, it was a particularly fun modern lit class with my favorite professor. we had to read Anne Rice too. there was a real breadth of material and it was a very discussion-based class. it also had the absolute highest word count (sum total of books we had to read) of any class i took so i don’t remember a dang thing about any of the actual books, but i do remember that class discussion was particularly fun after the Anne Rice novel

#loved that professor #we did some pretty wild stuff in classes #that same class we had a graphic novel assigned #i convinced them to do a course on graphic novels in the next year but then they quietly quit over differences with school administration #which i was pissed about #(also i say i convinced them but really i mean i convinced them to ask the English department about it) #anyway they were very good at leading discussions and exceptionally good at keeping their students mentally healthy #which i sorely needed

[munamania]

ok. so she stayed over until like. 6am. and this is so hard because well i do like her sooo much and we hung out for like. 9 hours. and obviously i can be so normal about that but it’s like. i feel like. i know im meant to know her. but dear god why did it have to be in this capacity. im gonna go insane

#like i am grateful to just have her here and to have met her and we just hit it off so insanely #but why does she have to be straight. and i dont want to be one of the bitches that assumed she was queer but like obv i was. #why does she have to have a boring ass bf that i dont even hate but that. truly based on any time ive interacted with them it's been sooo #weird. but she's saying yesterday she's had thoughts of MARRYING him. i mean this is first real relationship for her ig maybe #i used to think abt that too? idk. but like. ugh #it still feels so special to just have this bond this person that so easily like gets me and clicks with me and we just work #and appreciate each other quietly until given the opportunity (like last night) to just say a bunch of shit #how am i supposed to be normal!!!!!!! ugh #like i need to try to move on. at least temporarily. at least in some capacity. but how the fuck am i supposed to do that #when even on a friend level we're like. absurdly close and stuff #she's telling me about when she met her bf and they both sensed smth between them and everyone else did and so it just worked and #whatever. bestie. do you know how many people have asked me um. about you about us #cause we're just so WEIRD!!!! but she's straight. like i can't sit here and disrespect the fact that she's said that outright like twice #yk. what am i supposed to do. #grrrrrrrrrrrrr UGH!!!! like. yk???? i don't WANT to not have her in my life i know the easiest solution would be #stop talking to her. but u dont get it. like we just on some fucking strange level Get each other. we just do #and i dont want to give that up just because i have feelings that she might never be able to reciprocate #even if it would feel right. #film girl saga

[vanibear]

we have now reached the stage of family vacation where i have a meltdown

#mmmmmmm they were just straight up playing an antivax youtube video on tv . it took every ounce of my composure to not burst into tears on #The spot .Ive now gone to bed early so i can go cry very quietly upstairs in my bathroom #its just. it makes me insane my family is so fun and awesome until it comes to their politics !!!!!!!!!! #i try not to think about it very often .but sometimes im just hit fully with the fact that if they knew who I truly am . #there is a scary scary chance they would just never accept me. #its so easy for ppl to say oh if they wont accept you just walk out and leave they never really loved you anyway #but it’s so complicated in real life i cant just leave my family i love them !!!! they love me !!!!!they are all I have #and the thing is I never talk to them about this stuff .i have no idea how they would react and it is Scary #i ache with my whole being sometimes to just share everything with them. im so tired of secrets .it hurts I just wish i could just live #openly with them like some people do #but the possibilities and consequences are just far too grand for me for now #so I just live in this limbo. and I do a good job most of time ignoring the fact that I do #but sometimes (like tonight) it just hits me all once .the weight and burden of all that I hide from everyone. #pride month especially. it can be a very hard time for me #oh I think I hear ppl coming upstairs now gotta make it look like I haven’t been crying bc i do Not want anyone to ask .i will not be able #to answer without sobbing and I cant explain slash excuse my way out of this one without talking abt what’s really going on #And I don’t want to have that conversation for a Long time #ok byebye #kat post

[beej-hunnicutt]

H*rry J*mes & Fr*nk S*natra's version of 'My Buddy' C'MON— NEED I SAY MORE???????????????????????

#yes i am absolutely saying John would like this #a song hed keep to himself..... #(m.iii) #j.d. #also dont laugh at me tagging this with #l/j #sksksksksk its my side blog where i get to be mushy #and i mean technically this makes sense for them in the main sense of the song and but also ♡ #okay cause i dont think ppl will be seeing this again allow me to continue rambling #this version came out in '39!! (john would only have been 6!!) (i think hes born '33) so he definitely could have stumbled into this #while in high school or whatever and as i think he would be quite a fan of fs he would definitely pick up the record #and just him laying in his bed maybe one day; skipping his church responsibilities and just quietly listening #its from a ww song but of course this resonates with john in such a different degree #hes a kid hearing this intimidate moment sung by another man for anothet man; even if he knows its not suppose to be romantic #hes just in shock...in awe...as he keeps listening and listening in some ways he feels guilty #hes been raised a religious boy....this isnt right especially hes taking a WAR song and making it abt this #b4 anyone comes home he tucked it away safely away from prying eyes #getting ready to explain to his mom why hes home; swim ran late; he decided to help out; yada yada #also i think this would have happened when stuff has already came up before making it that much more scary but that much more fulfilling #and special #i think john is a very interesting character and i truly appreciate how emotional he is and i think you can just do a lot with him #idk i rlly hold close to me this hc bc i rlly like it & see it for john and so much comes with it especially growing up in this time period #so yeah a lot of him in his head i feel as home wasnt too good hed have his mother but not with stuff like this #as i feel shed be far too religious #ummmmm okay i think i got this out of my system #oh one thing like yes hes over emotional but also my god would he still have been a little asshole while growing up and have that #like snarkiness to him but ohmygod thsts still so painfully john /affectionate

[spnshameblog]

.ok let me be petty in the tags for a sec. I just fucking hate it when ppl happily dish out but cant take it in return.

#HOW has it never come up that 4*lw included the fetishisation of asian people #in all the months people were talking about it. #idk i just find it weird that some people will be incredibly forceful and SHOWY #about calling people out for problematic behaviour or for consuming problematic media #but yall never noticed this? #and im not talking about ppl who quietly stopped talking about the fic after ppl started talking about #how truly harmful the b*sty asian b*auties thing was a few months back #im talking about ppl who usually jump at the opportunity to rip someones head off when you finally have a reason to call them out #and like. i know some of them have DEFINITELY read it. and they cannot have missed how harmful bab shit is #its like 'accountability but only for the things and people i already didnt like methinks' #maybe some of that. again. very SHOWY energy that goes into calling people out #after theyve already been called out btw. yall never actually add anything new yall just pile on. #maybe some of that energy can be spent on examining the stuff you didnt already kind of hate #and were just looking for a reason to like. be able to hate 'legally' #but introspection is a lot harder than public shaming i guess lol #(im not saying ppl should stop calling each other out. but maybe sometimes the callouts are just for the sheer pleasure #of being allowed to point fingers. absolutely still call ppl out on bs. but maybe dont take such sick glee in it. its very obvious. #especially when its a topic that doesnt actually affect you and youre 'just' an ally) #idk if someone feels attacked now. if you cant see the hypocrisy #in ignoring harmful stuff that you have LITERALLY send other ppl 'haha kys delete your blog' for? #🤷🏻‍♀️ #hot take but sometimes self reflection is more helpful than callouts #m

[miragemage]

let me be blunt and perfectly absolutely resolutely clear here. i hate the management and store owner of the cafe i work for. but i love my coworkers, even the ones who don't like me, and i appreciate every single kind, patient, and sincere customer who comes through that door. if you have ever been kind to a barista we remember you and we love you. quite honestly the customers make it worth it sometimes. and other times they just make me want to walk into traffic but that's not what i'm talking about here.

#also just being a barista is fun. #i've had people come through our drive through and tell me i've made their day just by smiling #one very sweet regular is an older woman who is just. absolutely so kind #she always tips me $10 or more. none of the other baristas have had that much in tips from her #and she leaned out of her car to tell me very quietly for some reason #that my smile was beautiful and that she loves coming to our cafe because of me #do you have any idea. just how sweet and kind that is. how much that makes doing this worth it. #and seeing regulars and saying hello to them is so important to me like hello. let me make a special yummy drink for you today friend #TODAY i made a blended hot chocolate for a little girl who was having a horrible day #and i added cream instead of milk and extra chocolate and some chocolate chips. sprinkles and whip cream. the works #AND HER LITTLE FACE... absolutely lit up when i handed it out to her i know it made her bad day more tolerable #I LOVE THAT I CHERISH THAT it's such a good day when stuff like that happens