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#shes upset over her dad and low key taking it out on me and ik we're both stressed to the max
triggeringtommy · 29 days
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gggrrrrrr i feel ,,, like i can't make a big post abt what's bothering me bc i swear she doesn't follow me but she lurks on here from time 2 time so I'm ranting in the tags here side note I wish I could shut the fuck up but im struggling with that!!!!! >:(
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love4kpopstars · 7 years
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Wicked Game- Namjoon
AN: Sooo Im back with one shot with Namjoon and I hope you’ll enjoy it. 
Genere: Romance, Angst, 
WC: 2547 (thought it was longer heh, but enjoy)
Summary:  
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You were just a ordinary girl with not so oridanry boyfriend.  True, you treated him like you would everybody else but you were one of the few that did. You knew him and beahaved with him as Kim Namjoon. And it wouldn’t be any different when he turned  into Rap Monster from  BTS, yes that famous BTS and that famous Rap Monster, but  unfortunately it is different . Why?
 Not becaue of you or the way ou are with him. The probem is him. You and Namjoon were dating for 3 years now. And everything was perfectly fine until lately. BTS was a big thing, they were already super popular in South Korea and they were starting ti get extremely popular worldwide. They even won Billboard Music Award. You were really proud and happy because of this. 
 And for some time now he’s been acting like two different people. When he was with you he was you sweet, loving and cute boyfirend Nmjoon, but when his friends were around…he changed into Rap Monster, sexy,charismatic leader of Bangtan Boys. And of course let’s not forget…a ladies’ man. He acted like you weren’t his girlfriend. He was cold and he ignored you. He didn’t even care how you were feeling when he was flirting with all the girls. But once you were alone with him he was again Namjoon- your sweet boyfriend.
You tried to not take it seriously. You explained it to yourself that he needs to keep your realationship a secret for boys, your and his own good. But it was getting worse everyday. At first he would just igonre you and acted like he didn't know you. He was cold towards and was begin crabby. Then he would start flirting with girls, and it wasn't just him begin nice, he would put his arm around them and his hand on their thighs and sometimes his hand would go a little bit too low. You tried to ignore it but every time it happened you felt really hurt, but you really loved him. 
-Namjoon!- You called him as you were getting ready in the bathroom.
-Yes babe?- He asked and stood by the door.
-Why do I have to go too?- You looked at him with sulky face.
-Because I wan you to be there with me.- He kissed your forehead
.-Yea like it makes any difference to you.- You whispered under your breath.
-You said something?- He looked at you.
-No no, I'll go put my shoes on and we can go.- You were already annoyed because you knew that the minute you step out of the dorm he will turn into Rap Monster and you'll be just a friend.
-Come on sunshine, what's wrong with you?- Namjoon asked as you finised tying your shoes.
-There's nothing wrong with me. I should be asking you this question.-You looked at him with angry eyes.
-Oh boy here we go again. Y/N I already told you that I need to act like that to keep my image and to protect you.- He looked annoyed.
-Protect me from what excatly?- You asked.
-From all of this. You kniow that living as idol isn't easy and if fans would find out that I'm dating you they wouldn't leave you alone.- He said as he grabbed the keys and opened the door.
-Oh yeah but when they see you flirting and putting your hands all over some girls they won't react.- You were already angry and just wanted this night to end.
-Babe, please you know I love you.- Namjoon kissed you and you two went to meet with the boys.
Those three words were enough for you. Everytime he said he loves you, you just let go of this and pretend like it's not gonna happen again, but it will. After you went downstairs you met with the rest of the members. You drove to the the bar where their friend were waiting. When you were around them Namjoon was still your loving boyfriend but it didn’t matter. Seokjin wa sthe only one that noticed how Nmajoon chaged. Jin was there to help you deal with when Namjoon would hurt you. He would comfort you, even when you were around their friends. He wasn’t like Joon. He wasn’t ashamed, he didn’t worry about his image. Seokjin was you bestfriend.
When you got the bar Namjoon, now Rap Monster, already started ignoring you. You knew this is going to be a long night. As the time passed by everything was as usally. Rap Monster was ignoring you, not paying any attention until you saw the girl that was staring at him. And the worst part...he was staring back at her too. Giving her little simles. This was the begining of the disaster. After 5 minutes of exchanging eye contacts and smiles she was going in our dirction. 
-Hi guys.- She said in her annoying high voice.
-Well hello there.- Of course Rap Monster was the one to say it back.
-Mind if I join you?- She said while putting her hand on Rap Mon shoulder.
-Not at all.- He smiled back at her.
-Y/N, are you alright?- You heard Seokjin’s voice as you looked at the girl that was getting too comfortable with your boyfriend.
You just looked at Jin and he already knew your answer.
-Wanna get out of here- He asked?
-No, it’s okay, you came here to spend time with your friends. I’m gonna be fine.- You assured Jin.
-Come on, I don’t care about them now. I hate seeing you like that.-He grabbed your hand and you two went out of there silently.
-It’s not like Namjoon will notice anyway.- You joked witha little pain in your voice.
-Wanna go get some ice cream?- Seokjin smiled at you.
-Sure.- You smiled back at him.
You two went to the nerbay convenience store and bought some ice cream. You loved spending time with Jin. He always cheered you up, And made you laugh at his dad jokes. After that you two went for a walk.
-Y/N I know that Namjoon is begin a dick and I know him for so long but I really have no idea why he’s like that. What;s weird to me is that when he’s around us he is normal.- Jin sounded confused.
-I know. That’s exctaly what I’m thinking. But he is doing this to protect me and you guys, and his image, at least that’s how he explains it.- You were upset just by thinking about it.
-We should probably go back, it’s been already an hour since we left.- Jin changed the subject when he saw how upset you were.
As you came back first thing you saw was Namjoon ans this girl. They were so close to each other. He had his arm around her and she was whispering something to him. At that moment he looked at you. And he just stared, while this girl was all over him. And then he just looked away.Just like this, ike it was nothing to him. That’s when it hurt the most. 
-Okay guys it’s getting late, we are going back home.- Jin annouced as he saw what just happend.
-Awww come on hyung, let’s stay jus a little bit more.- V ans Jimin looked at him with puppy eyes.
-No, we’ve got some thing to do tomorrow and we need to get some sleep too.- Jin sais as he opened the door of the van.
Whole ride everyone was quiet. Namjoon, now your sweet boyfriend tried to talk to you but you told him that you are tired. As you got home, first thing you did was go the the bathroom and stay there until you calmed yourself. 
-Y/N?- You heard Namjoon’s voice and knocking on the door.
-I was just leaving so don’t worry you can use the bathroom.- You said as you opened the door and went to the bedroom.
-I want to talk no use the bathroom- He followed you.
-I’m tired, we’ll talk tomorrow.- you told him as you layed in bed.
-Okay, I love you.- He kissed your forehead and went to sleep.
It was 3 am and you couldn’t fall asleep, you looked at Namjoon who was sleeping like a baby. You went to the kitchen and sat at the table with cup of water in your hand.
-You okay?- You heard Jin’s voice.
-Yeah, I’m fine.- You lied.
-Don’t lie short stuff.- He sat next to you.
-Look Y/N I know you love Namjoon, I can see it. And i’m glad that he has someone like you in his life. but if he keeps on behaving like this then I don’t think he’s worthy you or your love. I think that it will be better if you..broke up with him, for your own good.- Jin said with serious voice.
-No. I will show him that two can play that game.- You answered with smirk.
-As you wish.- Jin said as he stood up and went to his room.
You’ve decided to show Namjoon that you can be like that too. You’re gonna show him how it feels.
Next day you decided to start your plan. You haven’t seen Namjoon since morning. He and boys had some stuff to do and you decided to go shopping. You bought sexiest dresses you could and heels. You were going out with him and the boys to meet with their friends again tonight. But this time the roles are gonna change. 
-Y/N are you ready?- You heard Hoseok.
-Yes, I’m ready.- You said as you went you of the room. You made all of them wait, including Namjoon, you wanted him to see you looking so different today.
You wore red thight dress and black heels. You put on strong make up and the face that Namjoon made was priceless. 
-Wow.- Was all he said. 
In the car Namjoon couldn’t stop looking at you.
-Babe, you look amazing. Do you have something planned for us later?- He asled as his hand was on your thigh.
-No- You brushed his hand off.
When you got the bar you sat next to one of his friends on purpose. Again he was now Rap Monster not your boyfriend Namjoon.
- Well hi there.- His friend, Jun started conversation.
-Hi.- You smiled in the sexiest way you could.
-How come we haven’t talked before?- You could sense that he was flirting and you decided to play along.
-I have no idea, but i’m glad we can talk now aren’t you.- You put your hand on his shoulder.
You could already see that Namjoon was disturbed by this. You mtalk with his friend for the whole time, you didn’t even look at Namjoon. You laughr at Jun’s jokes and were sitting really close to him. He put his arm around you and started whispering something to you. And you laughed. When you saw Namjoon...he was angry, but you didn’t care. When the night was over and you two were alone at home he stared acting like Namjoon again.
-What was that all about Y/N?
-What do you mean?- You pretended like you didn’t know what he was talking about.
-You were all over Jun. What the hell? He was flirting with you and you didn’t really seem to care about that.- You could see that he was so jealous.
-What? No I was just trying to be nice and polite to you friends. I wanted to get to know them.- You answered with smile.
-But Jun wasn’t the only one there.- Namjoon was mad at you.
-Just stop it babe, you know i love you.- You used the same thing that the does ever time you are mad at him.
For the next couple of weeks you were flirting with guys at the bar and Namjoon was doing the same thing. It turned into some sick game between you two. And when you came home both of you acted like nothing happened.
Tonight wasn’t any different. You flirted with one of his friends Shin and he did the same with some girl at the bar. But this time he couldn’t stand it and so did you. Shin was getting way to handsy and Namjoon clearly didn’t like it. When Shin out his hand on you thing and started going up Namjoon just exploded. He grabbed you and took you outside.
-What the fuck Y/N?!- He yealled at you.
-Stop making a scene Rap Monster.- You called him that on purpose.
-Stop? Shin was almost in your pants and you want me to stop?! The hell is wrong with you?- Namjoon looked mad as hell.
-Yeah what is wrong with me. I just realised that I turned into you.- You two were just yelling at each other.
-What do you mean?- He looked confused.
-Stop acting Rap Monster.
-Stop calling me that!
-That’s who you are. Every time we go out you turn into ignorant Rap monster, you ignore me, flirt with other girls and you don’t even care how i feel and then when we get home you act like nothing happened- At that point you were done with everything.
-Y/N...- He stopped.
-Don’t you see Namjoon that this turned into some fucking wicked game between us. It’s not even a relationship anymore. We are competing with each other and then we act like nothing happened. That’s not normal.- You just wanted to get over it so you told him how you feel.
-I...I had no idea you felt that way.- He looked  embarrassed.
-Yeah because you never asked.You always said that you want to protect me.- You could feel tears in your eyes.
-Baby...I’m so so sorry. I just thought...I don’t know what I thought.- He looked at you.
-Namjoon I don’t care anymore. I can’t do this any longer. It’s too much for me. It’s over.- You just walked away.
-Y/N!!!- He yelled but you were too hurt to do this now.
You decided to stay at your friend’s place tonight and think about everything. You ended up staying there for a week. One morning you woke up to someone’s loud voice. It was Namjoon.
-Y/N let’s talk...please.- he begged.
-Fine.- You wanted to hear what he has to say.
-Y/N I’m so sorry I don’t know how to apologize to you. I didn’t realize how much I have hurt you by behaving like this. I can’t believe that I did that to you. To the love of my life. You’ve put up with that for so long and i can’t be grateful enough for your love and I can’t live without you. I love you. Please give me another chance.- He looked broken.
-Joonie, I love you too, but how am I supposed to know it’s not gonna happen again.-You weren’t sure if you were ready for this.
-Because from today we are official.
-What?- You were surprised.
-Y/N I love you and I don’t want to hide our love or you.- He looked into your eyes.
-Namjoon...I love you too.- You looked at him and you two kissed.
-But babe promise me one thing...
-Yes?
-Don’t go near Jun or Shin okay? - he smiled and you two laughed.
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