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Are you someone who closes your ears when distressed or are you normal?

#it took me such a long time to realize most people can’t close their ears #and then I was just like #ok but how do y’all survive ????? #not fandom #shutup aub

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Something something, Anthy as the apple represents temptation of the flesh but she’s also the knowledge of good and evil, something something the Akio/Dios split is the counterpart to Anthy’s Princess/Witch (Madonna/Whore) dichotomy, but also in abusive relationships - especially those that originate during childhood - it’s not uncommon for the victim to retain a paranoid schizoid position where they view the abuser as two different people: the good version of themselves (the Prince) and the bad version (End Of The World)... a big part of healing and growing up is learning to view the object as one whole, and letting go of black and white dichotomous thinking.

Something something the Prince is an unhelpful ideal because it comes hand in hand with eternal anguish since it is predicated upon the notion of the perpetual damsel in distress being saved by the white knight who acts out of a selfish savior complex; it also masks the grim reality of End Of The World and so perpetuates that darkness. Therefore it is critically important that Utena is unable to become the Prince because, if she had, she and Anthy could never attain an equal relationship and they would never be able to crack the world’s shell by breaking free of the patriarchy and heteronormative gender roles, in this essay I will

#utena spoilers #utena #anthy #akio #dios #rgu #revolutionary girl utena #sku #shutup aub

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I would totally pay to have someone make me an Anthy-centric Utena amv to Body by Mother Mother lol

#I can see that scene where anthy disappears out of the dress especially #someday I’ll get around to figuring out the best way to make amvs #what’s a good software to download yt videos that isn’t yt red or whatever tf it’s called #shutup aub #utena #anthy #rgu #revolutionary girl utena

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Sometimes I wish I had someone at which to throw my incredibly dark but also very satisfying 631 line epic poem which I wrote (in my notes app lol) a few years ago over the course of about 2-3 days, mostly while driving (highly unsafe, do not recommend)

It’s called ‘The Queen of Goblin Marketplace’ and for any literary nerds out there it’s inspired in large part by Christina Rossetti’s ‘Goblin Market’

#but like #most normal people have neither the time nor the desire to read a big ass epic poem #it’s will probably remain one of my greatest literary achievements ever #it was one of those things where the words just poured out of me like blood #not fandom #shutup aub

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Sometimes I like to draw with my left hand just for the fun of it... pretty sure I could have been ambidextrous if I wasn’t raised in a right-handed society

#not fandom #shutup aub

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Well I actually did work today, and while I’m not satisfied with what I’ve achieved, I’ve hit another roadblock in my streamlining/automating task process, so fuck it, imma work on my anthy art for the rest of the day 😬

#hello I am a #bad employee #🙃 #shutup aub

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Holy fuck, my gf ordered us a bigger tv for our new house since we’ll be sitting much further away and our old one would have been kind of hard to see at that distance, and we had discussed getting a 50’ but she got a 55’ and it just arrived and this bitch is g a r g a n t u a n

Like the fucking package is so tall it comes up to my nose, I am deceased

#im sure its gonna be very nice #but it also feels a lil absurd lol #its so extra! #not that im complaining #i just need to get used to it #lol #😅 #not fandom #shutup aub

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Oooohhhhhh my comic is ALMOST my most popular post... I hope it hurries up and gets there soon, I’m super tired of my most popular post being a repost of someone else’s Twitter content -_-

#not that they didn’t make a great point about the she ra utena reference #but it’s kind of depressing that my most popular post isnt even my own original content lol #shutup aub

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Tryna decide if I should make a separate art acct... but like, would any of y’all actually follow me on there?

#I’ve been thinking about it for a while #but I’ve just been too lazy lol #also I feel like no one would actually give a fuck and I’d just have 4 followers like on my side blog and it would be depressing lol #idk #not fandom #shutup aub

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I definitely am NOT taking artsy selfies in my desk drawer knob when I am supposed to be working, how dare you suggest such a thing

#not fandom #it me #shutup aub

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Did a shit ton of housework today! My gf and I were very domestic, we put up our new curtains and put together new shelves and shit and cleared all the boxes out of the front room and organized the living room and I fixed the broken shelf in the bathroom and changed out a fixture on the kitchen sink and we hung a picture and shit. This is my first time living with my partner and starting to make a home together, it’s fun! :D

#our apartment is too shitty to consider painting the walls #but we talked about it and both independently had the same ideas for what we would do if we were gonna paint #which i consider to be a good sign #in other news #the interview i was supposed to have did not occur #idk what thats about #i emailed her and shit like um hello? #didnt hear back #but whatever #not fandom #shutup aub

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Nice, I’m glad my top posts are back to being all art again

#I hate when there are text posts up there #ruins the aesthetic lol #shutup aub

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Ah to be a boomer in the workplace, casually sending important emails with garbled grammar and no capitalization

#and never actually answering your damn question #seriously tho #millennials tend to be rather formal and professional in our email style #with the occasional smiley face and excessive exclamation point #but boomers are balls to the wall give no fucks #I honestly kind of respect it lol #not fandom #shutup aub

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There are so many people I add to the directory at work who have names that sound like they’re out of a fantasy novel... I think Catrien Drinkwater is my favorite thus far, but I just got a Dilcina Dragon and that definitely comes pretty close

#not fandom #shutup aub

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Omg these bitches who I work with need to fix their work-life balance. And I say bitches with all the love, I work with like 99% women and it’s absolutely fantastic and everyone is very sweet and chill and it’s amazing, but omg these hoes be sending out emails at 10 or 11 pm and I’m like y’all, I understand that you’re passionate about AIDS and covid research but pls take care of yourselves, k? o-o

#not fandom #shutup aub

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I voted in the most anticlimactic way possible last night... I live in the city now but I still vote in the county bc I haven’t changed my address bc I was afraid they would try to use that change to throw out my ballot, so I needed to bring my ballot to the county to drop it off but I kept forgetting... so last night my mother brought their cat over bc we’re watching him while they’re on vacation and she offered to just drop it off for me on her way home. So I said yes.

So like, cognitively I know I voted, but I didn’t get the satisfaction of dropping it off myself so it feels reeeeeaaaaaallyyyyy weird

#I know she definitely dropped it off for me #bc we both voted biden and she HATES trump #so I’m not worried about that or anything #but it’s weird #not fandom #shutup aub