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@poeticphoenix​ Kadaj and Gen thread

Burn out... He supposed that was something to be concerned about. He highly doubted he’d reach such any time soon, but he would keep wary of it. But he didn’t see harm in his commitment. Besides, Sephiroth...was as committed as he was, was he not...? He couldn’t think of a single thing the greatest pride of SOLDIER held interest in beyond acting and serving and honing his skills and himself.

He crossed his arms over his chest, thinking and considering. 

“You use books to ease your mind... Then what do your friends use to ease theirs, Commander?” he questioned. Attitude in his tone as always, but his line of questioning made it clear that he was at least aiming to understand, whether he was going to do anything with the information or not.

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@fenrir-limitbreak​ || Cloud and Kadaj Thread from Here

His words were so cruel, and so wrong, and despite Kadaj’s desperate desire to gain Cloud’s support, to finally have him accept who he is and join him, his rage overtook such wishes and feelings and he stepped up on Cloud with a shaky growl in his voice. “Don’t SPEAK of her that way!!”

He made a grunted noise of frustration, stomping to pace around him, like a predator debating if he should eat his meal or tear it apart out of spite.

“She is no threat, she is salvation and transformation this pitiful planet has needed, and you know it!! You’ve seen the corruption, you’ve fought it! ShinRa! Fools! Humanity just keeps choosing new festering sores to tear into...moving from Mako, but what do your allies find now...? Oil? It is the unstable toxicity at this planets core...but Mother..” he gasped his name, as if she were the breath surging into his chest, a smile spreading across his lips. “...Oh, Mother, she’ll change it all..!”

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~ Pride Headcanons ~

A couple for this. Firstly, gender identity. For my Kadaj, it’s not something he has any intense emotions linked to and has explored much beyond feeling and some self expression. But though he is comfortable with the pronouns he/him, they/them are suitable for him as well. He does not entirely feel gender applies to him in a completely normal sense, and would simply fall into a non-binary spectrum. He doesn’t often feel the need to define it, though he knows he doesn’t feel wholly female in any way, and doesn’t feel solely male despite projecting that way. This also applies more heavily for his main verse, IE where he was forged solely by Sephiroth’s will, but in the verses where he exited before it applies there as well most of the time. A small add on to this is that he’s very free in self expression when it comes to style of any sort that could feel as if it represented him. He doesn’t often spend time exploring such, but when he does, he’s not one to limit himself by what clothes are meant for who.

Sexual and Romantic feelings; has not been thoroughly explored, granted, but generally he would fall into a demi-sexual and likely demi-romantic spectrum. He’s not incapable of either attraction or connection, but it suits him better to find connection, deep connection, first. He’s capable of expressing himself in sensual ways at times, but it’s never true or earnest unless he has that connection. And he’s not one to come to love someone easily--it takes time and experience.

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Random Asks (Headcanons) | Always Open

@roleplay-abiogenesis2​ asked:  Does Kadaj always try to look their best around their partner, or are they comfortable wearing anything around them?

For Kadaj, it generally might depend on his experiences thus far before acquiring a partner but in general, he’s not really the type to feel the need to dress in any sort of way except for his own self and self expression. He’d likely be pleased if his partner liked how he looked, but it’s not usually something he aims for.

He’s had few people that he’s ever felt the need to impress, and if he finds himself with a partner, I like to imagine he felt he could stop ‘acting’ to impress, and could simply be himself. So he would likely be the type to generally dress comfortably around a partner--unless the partner was less than healthy in their relationship, and if he looked to them like he looked to authority/parental figures he sought to satisfy, then he might aim to dress to specifically please. But in a balanced situation, he would not be seeking approval to such a degree and would value his self expression and self preference and comfort over expectations.

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character ask game!! kadaj :)

My feral son

I just love him so much? I can't explain it. i mean i could, but it would be 50% nonsense. i just love this angry, tormented brat. and we all know 'things happened', and i cry every time i watch that thing in ACC.

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Loud and Deafening Silence Meme | Open

@azure-steel​ asked:  For the Loud and Deafening Silence meme. Patch - for Kadaj~

He hadn’t expected this. What he expected was....a reality unable to be perceived. There was nothing for him too expect, but even in the nothing, this seemed....so absolutely impossible, beyond sense or reason...he couldn’t understand why.

Why he was back...why he was living, still....why he would even return, after the true being of purpose, Sephiroth, had returned--he’d only been the lifeline, had he not? Why was he back...? Why was he here...?

And why....why, WHY...was Cloud Strife patching up and carefully healing the very wounds he reaped upon them, in their battle and in the battle Kadaj had given his body and existence to allow to happen. His top-jacket had been half removed, by demand of the blond who needed to access how severe the damage was, and Kadaj had defied him, questioned him, even tried to fight, his body burning, his face burning, the rain burning, his eyes burning....but in the end, weakness overcame him, and he fell into Cloud, and and the man made careful but firm work of freeing Kadaj enough to take in his wounds and begin caring for them.

Cloud’s hands were rough in texture, but careful in effort, and despite the gentleness he tried to offer and mostly succeeded with apart from a moment of focus and too firm grip, every touch left Kadaj’s skin aching. He wanted to turn, to run, to fight, to scream...and then he wondered again, why?

None of this made sense.... Nothing in his existence, now that it was returned, made sense. Had he not wanted to exist, before? Had he not ached to be the one allowed to live, while Sephiroth was the one to fade? Was that what he was given? For if it was, it was a gift Kadaj wasn’t sure how to handle.

He glanced to Cloud, now and again, daring to open his mouth, to question, to wonder, to challenge or taunt....to beg to understand. But despite the opening and closing, opening and closing....nothing even came out.

Instead, finally, he shut his eyes, and let the final burn slip from his eyes. Tears spilled, and he sat in silence, and just let the care continue.... It was just all, too much...and he wondered, was this really how it was meant to be...?

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@ghostofnibelheim​

Continued from Here

He looked rather miffed, but also as if he couldn’t exactly care beyond that. He didn’t like being forced into things like this by any of the AVALANCHE squad, no matter the positive or strange motives behind it (and he’d never admit how he appreciates some of the efforts). But Yuffie had insisted, to the point of actually trying to force him to change clothing.

But he shrugged. “I only had a choice in color... The purple zigging zagging seemed the least...extreme...from the choices the wutai girl offered.” he explained, but something in Sephiroth’s tone finally made him look at him. He expected humor, he expected teasing. But Sephiroth seemed...unnerved, and restricted. Curious.

“...What’s wrong with you?” he questions, noting his gaze, and looking over himself. “What, is it really that ridiculous? Why not just say that, huh?!”

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Kadaj || Open Starter

He had had the plan set. He was so sure of how, this time, he would succeed. It would take time, but he was determined, and committed. He wouldn’t disappoint Mother. Not a second time...

But, even so, his mind began to stray. Certain unforeseen events had led him to sit back and observe for a better understanding of his targets, and what he believed they could provide. He would need to make his presence known eventually, and ensure Mother’s legacy echo in the minds and hearts of this planet once more, the strike fear in them to their unworthy cores, and to collect his chosen brothers and sisters.

But...not just yet. Instead, he managed to summon an extended hood and half cloak to keep his features mostly hidden from passerbys that can’t be bothered to pay attention to anything but their own lives. The selfishness of the current world made it easy.

Too easy, it would’ve seemed, if the remnant hadn’t gotten so confident that he failed to notice. Just as he failed to notice, at least one person, aware of his potential connections or not, had taken notice of him.

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He hissed a sigh, shaking his head at that return of a question instead of an answer. As he thought, this chosen one had nothing to offer him. This man, whose memories were wrapped up in his own mind, twisted, stabbing, and pounding in his head as seemingly foreign memories were slowly coming to his mind since his own return from Gaia.

He didn’t know what brought him back here, nor why, nor why he could not feel Mother anymore. Those first few weeks since his return were difficult and lonely, he ached inside feeling so alone, and his body ached anew in a way he thought he’d never experienced, and yet it was distantly familiar. Perhaps it was just from what few memories he’d help from Sephiroth. That’s all that had made sense.

And then he found that the other had returned just the same as him, and these foreign memories began slipping into his mind. Seeing Sephiroth from afar, being within labs with what looked like his own body, his own reflection in tubes as he walked through escorted by scientists. He remembered training halls.

But why? What was this? There was a sort of confused denial of the truth in his mind, that he had yet to let set in.

Because Sephiroth was the source, was he not? He was the favored one. He was the one chosen. He was the one from which everything Kadaj was, came from, and what he was supposed to be tied to. So where else were these memories from, if not somewhere tied to Sepiroth?

Emotions were overwhelming one moment, and stunted the next, but bitterness gripped his chest in this moment, as he took a step towards the older man.

“...More than you must be capable of, it would seem.” he muttered in thick-voiced snarl, his hands balling into fists. “For the life of me, I cannot fathom what was so special about you--you don’t feel, you didn’t fight your way out, you had to use me. You failed, against Cloud, again. And yet you are meant to be greater...more than me..! So tell me, Sephiroth! What am I supposed to feel? What is it in your heart, in your being, that makes you Mothers chosen one...?”

His grip upon his loyalty and love for the Mother he believed he felt, yet never truly saw and connected two, was rapidly slipping, and so now he was gripping harder than ever. And to his understanding, Mother loved Sephiroth most, so surely, he must know. She must of made things clearer, to him...mustn’t she?

How could he be the chosen one, and yet there is no evidence as to why?

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Soulless Sentence Starters Meme | Open

@roleplay-abiogenesis2​ asked: “You’ve never felt loved, have you?” Nanaki @ Kadaj~

He had been succeeding in ignoring the beasts like the simple creature he believed him to be, or tried to, but that smooth and sure voice, and the gently spoken yet sharply worded question had him snapping his head in the red ones direction.

“Tch!” was his only answer at first. This creature, he didn’t deserve an answer, not in the least, and he did not intend to give him one. But the question did cause his mind to swim for an answer anyways.

Because, truthfully...he didn’t entirely understand what love felt like. Unless love was...the devotion, the commitment, the sacrifice he gave, all of it, to Mother.

Was that love? If it was....was it not supposed to feel like...more? His gaze narrowed on the red one once more, slit pupils like thing lines between his eyelids.

“And just what do you, a beast within his kin by his side, expect to tell me about love, whether I’ve felt it or not? Forgive me if I can’t imagine you have much to offer.” he scoffed, the harsh response and the cruel laugh to finish hiding his own conflicted head and heart and the state the red creatures question had left him in.

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@krvla​ Starter || Closed RP

Loz had been sent far on a task necessary for their mission, while Kadaj worked with Yazoo on tracking their other sources and targets. They had visits to pay, to that remaining Shinra heir, and his loyal dogs. But just as important, they must reach out to Big Brother... It was a necessary part of all of this, to ensure Cloud would know, and would see....

Even so, it seemed their efforts were slowing. Currently, Kadaj was settled against the metal, barren top of a computer panel, where he expected Yazoo to work to use said computer to track information in their targets, as well as other news they’d had yet to cross of that new little city and the whereabouts of the fools who stood in Mothers way before.

But Kadaj was getting just a bit impatient with his brother at his side, eyes flitting over him and what, to him, seemed to be slow efforts. He tsk’d at the other, leaning back on his hands. “Really, Yazoo.... Is entail so hard to find right now? We ensured this was a computer with enough clearance before we took down these workers, did we not?”

He glanced at the men who were still unconscious, one of them perhaps severely wounded, but even as he looked down at his labored breathing, he couldn’t find it in himself to care. His emerald gaze raised back to the other.

“Are you getting distracted?”

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FMK - Phone Edition Meme | Open

@oflockharted​ asked: Fuck, marry, kill | Johnny, Rufus, Emerald Weapon ( For Kadaj 😂 )

// I say this....with absolute, adoring affection, but.,..what the actual fuck Garnie XDDD I love you //

How Kadaj got the phone he acquired, you don’t need to know. However, the only contacts he found, before implimenting a few of his own, were that of someone named Johnny that was always sending him texts involving too many utterances of the word ‘bro’, and one titled EMERALD WEAPON. What texts did he get from that contact?

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He’d added in numbers like that of Cloud, and a few of his valuable people to ensure he could reach them for whatever plan he may have. But there was one number he had to hunt down, for some time.

Rufus Shinra’s. But he’d managed to gather it.

Johnny, really, he ended up leaving on read. It just wasn’t worth the headache. The weapon, however, he could almost tolerate. None of it’s garbled text made perfect enough sense, but it’s chaos was calming, and he found himself gifting the name in the contact with various different emojis. Sometimes he’d send the emoji’s in response to the garble, earning back even greater garble.

But Rufus. Oh, dear, cruel, ruthless, bastard Rufus.

Well, he only received one message, over and over and over again.

A picture of the remnant Kadaj’s perky ass in full view. He had been blocked many times. Kadaj always finds a way, though. He would not be stopped. Not this time.

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Kadaj || Before the Dawn AU ~ Nymph || Open Starter

The night’s in the Forgotten City were always the most beautiful the young water nymph had ever seen, though he had not traveled very far to see many more. Even so, as he strolled through the glowing trees, looking above to the stars and almost noting the way the light emanating from the very trees seemed to stretch near imperceptibly up towards those stars. He wondered what it was like, to be that light, reach up towards the sky.

He drifted from pond to pond, lake to lake, river to river in the great, sacred land, watering the neglected plants, hunting scurrying creatures, and looking for new subjects of interest. Though he adored his home, the solitude of the beautiful land was beginning to wear on him, and few new faces seemed to drift into his path now. He was becoming restless, and restless waters did not to well.

It was as he finally made his rounds back to one of the ancient ruins of varied alters that he noted...the energy here felt different. He could almost smell a change...no, perhaps not a change, but something...more. Something else.

He wandered through into the winding buildings of stairs and halls, lingering in the pool under one of the alters and taking a moment with a sigh to enjoy the energizing depths. He dipped under with a giggle, feeling the echoes of prayers of the past, of those that would tend to this water, take from it and replenish it. He surfaced once more, and that’s when he heard the footsteps.

They were not that of his older brother, who was off on another hunt for crystal, nor any of the former inhabitants descendants wandering about. No...this was a stranger.

He looked up to see the shadowed figure wandering about the platform above his head, and grinned to himself. How fun...!

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Just needed to make a post to credit my lovely Teefs @oflockharted​ who came to the aid to a somewhat style inept Tumblr RPer and made me some banners for ask replies!

They’re amazing, LOOK AT EM!! Credit fulling to oflockharted ~~

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Sneak and Scare Meme | Open

@oflockharted​ asked: “👻“ — Although more like an accidental scare; She wasnt aware anyone was about to enter the hallway the same time she was about to exit. ( For Dajie c’: )

He’d found himself waking from an accidental nap on the couch downstairs. One of a few accidents that evening, apparently. He yawned, still feeling so tired--he didn’t like being this tired. He’d been...so used to just, enduring, and continue to move and work and fight, when he had formed originally and the second time with his brothers. But now, his body weakened, ached, lost energy, went stiff if he let it. And he himself just felt like a weight was put on him that made his eyes warm and the lids heavy, and his head foggy.

It was absolutely annoying.

So he wasn’t the most his aware as he made his way for the hallway, rubbing at his stinging eyes and yawning again--the intake of break, causing his chest to rise to suddenly, before falling.

He was just lowering his hand, when he saw a suddenly form coming right for him.

“Wh-aah!!”

He stumbled back against the wall, eyes wide as he stared, and stared, fight or flight fluttering in his chest. But the blurry darkly patched form soon came into focus....to be only Tifa. And he sighed, feeling shame welling up his spine and painting him with a faint blush.

“W-watch where you’re going...!” he retorts to cover himself, rubbing his other eye and storming off to his room, so much like a pouting child despite never being one to admit to it.

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