#so i gotta get it done asap

[wymgreenteam]

feeling: unhinged. happy wip wmonday

warning: this is long-ish for a wip post (~900 words). it’s nearly half a scene of this stupid fic (fbofw, as i refer to it w/ my beta) and it’s absolutely atrociously unedited. the fic itself is about 24k and like 3/4 of the way done.

for context: jack/nico, arranged marriage au, their wedding was six months ago and they’re just figuring out how to communicate because they’re stupid (affectionate)

continue reading at your own peril but it feels good to just toss this out for rn.

Jack throws on an old university T-shirt and sweatpants and lies down on the bed in the dark, hands folded on his stomach. He thinks about Trevor’s words, about baby steps, about taking things slow and letting it unfold at its own pace.

And then he thinks, fuck that.

Before he can even think about stopping himself, he traipses out of his room and down the hall to knock at Nico’s door. In the silence following it, Jack almost lets himself regret it, almost lets himself back out and retreat back into his own room again. Then Nico responds.

“Come in,” he calls, muffled. Jack takes a deep breath and slips inside to see Nico sitting in bed—shirtless, because he’s a psychopath who doesn’t get cold in the middle of Swiss winters—the sheets pooled at his waist as he puts a book down on the bedside table. “Jack, hey, what’s up?” He sounds surprised, which is valid.

“So, I’m not going to lie,” Jack starts, conversational. He leans against the doorframe and crosses his arms to keep from fidgeting. “I tuned into one of your press conferences.”

Approximately fifteen different emotions flick over Nico’s face in real time before he settles on mildly mortified. “Oh, no,” he groans, scrubbing a hand over his face. “Was this the bedroom one?”

Jack grins at the reaction. “Didn’t take you to be one to air out our marital problems at an international political convention, but I suppose you learn something new every day.”

Nico peeks at him through his fingers. “Sorry if anything I said upset you.”

“No, no, that’s not— I’m not mad or anything,” Jack assures. Nico seems to relax at that, hands falling back to his sides as he awaits the rest of Jack’s reply curiously. “I just— You got something wrong, when you were talking about that.”

“Oh?” Nico scratches his chin, thoughtful. “What is it?”

“I don’t—” Jack clears his throat, shooing away the uncertainty creeping into his voice that he didn’t appreciate. “I don’t like space.”

Nico stares at him. “What?”

“I actually do really terrible when I’m alone and all my friends used to make fun of me for how clingy I am—hell my brothers still make fun of me for that, and I’ve just been having a maybe not-so-great time recently? Because I haven’t been able to—”

“Jack,” Nico says, patient but firm.

“Yes?” Jack breaths, thankful to have been cut off before he digs himself into a hole he can’t climb out of. 

“Are you asking to sleep with me?”

Jack smiles, sly at the implication. “Well, I mean if you’re offering…”

“Jack…” Nico draws out his name this time, but there’s so much fondness under the irritation that Jack isn’t worried. “Just get over here.”

Jack barely resists the urge to pump his fist in delight as he closes the door behind him. If he’s being honest, he didn’t think this would be the outcome. He figured maybe Nico would agree to Jack being more touchy, even away from the cameras. Maybe a hug here, a hand hold there. Just more physical contact in their daily lives. But Nico seems to entirely miss this memo and skips straight to the part where he holds up the duvet as an invitation, and Jack’s not masochistic enough to decline.

He pads over to the right side of the bed—Jack’s usual side, the side that Nico’s left open and untouched, even the bedside table is empty there—and slips under the covers. Without waiting, he scoots all the way over and tucks himself into Nico’s side, hand on Nico’s chest and leg slung over his thighs. He had the open offer; he’s going to take it as far as Nico will let him.

This doesn’t seem to be pushing the envelope, at least not too much, because Nico just reaches over to flick off the lamp before settling down. Jack forgot that Nico’s like a human space heater, running deliciously warm and making Jack curl into him a little more, trying to forget the frigid weather that seems to permeate the walls of the palace.

Nico tilts his head so they’re facing each other, heads sharing one pillow. There’s no sign of him being at all displeased by Jack’s forwardness. “Doing better?” he asks. Jack can’t see the smile too well in the darkness, but he can hear it in Nico’s voice.

“Tons,” he admits, snuggling in a little more.

“I’m sorry if you felt like you couldn’t ask for this sooner,” Nico says. “I want you to be comfortable and happy and safe.”

“I didn’t want to break any of your boundaries,” Jack replies, suddenly very aware of how he’s stroking the soft skin across Nico’s ribs absently. Nico doesn’t object, so he doesn’t stop.

“Break my— What? By cuddling with you?” Nico snorts, wrapping an arm around Jack’s shoulders to pull him closer. “I think my boundaries can take the hit.”

Jack laughs a little and kisses the inside of Nico’s bicep before he thinks better of it. “Thank you.”

“For what?”

“For this.”

There’s a soft press of lips to his forehead. “Any time. I mean it.”

Jack drifts off like that: smile on his face, husband in his arms, heartbeat steady next to his.

if you made it this far, thanks for reading. you are appreciated and i hope you have a wonderful day <3

#this fic has been setting my brain on fire for a solid two months and i'm in love with every part of it #just gotta actually write it now #which sucks #other things are awaiting the completion of this though #so i gotta get it done asap #lil.snippets

[intertexts]

gmorninnnnnnng

#how r we all. ouhghgghhh. i forgor 2 do my fucking. art history paper (second one) last night bc i was in the tranches. so. i gotta get it #done ASAP. grimace emoji #txt #anyway hiii im so fucking tired. god bless.

[oc-cinematic-universe]

i LOOOVE thinking about fantasy disabilities!!!! i love figuring out what people would have to do to accommodate them! it's literally awesome!

#fun after-comic joe facts time yayyy so joe's soul got a little bit fucked up #its just this small crack. which makes him entirely unresponsive to anything for like 5 minutes max #at seemingly random intervals. it slows down and doesnt last as long as it heals but its still like #not good lol #and its just gonna keep happening the rest of his life because souls fuckin heal weird #its one of many problems disorders he has to deal with this ones just special because doctors have #NO clue what to do with him so he and his friends just gotta figure out how to cope with it themselves #after a while he can kinda tell when its about to happen a few seconds before it does #so because he's rarely left alone anyways because he. cant take care of himself much anymore #he can give them a warning and they will make sure nothing dangerous will come from it and just wait for him to come to #as it heals and becomes less of a problem it kinda becomes more of a problem ironically #he does reach a point where he can mostly handle himself. but he cant do shit when that happens #except try to sit down asap. so while it happens less often it causes More Incidents. alas #i think kiara's way of dealing with it happening in particular is so silly #cause she just. grew up with him like this. this is just normal to her she's never questioned it #like oh ok dad's blanked out again i will just wait so patiently for it to be done so i can keep showing him #my mlp toys and explaining mlp lore to him #it happens and she just stops what she's doing and waits for him then continues as if nothing happened #everyone else gets so fussy about him when it happens but kiaras just #are you done? ok so pinkie pie is the laughter pony #he thinks its awesome he loves her so much

[keeps-ache]

everyday there's somethin goin on. like the day. or somethin like that

#just me hi #[squinting] there's always something going on #but also ?? what's been happening lol ?? i am only like 34% sure things happened recently #not like i forgot things (i did but-) it feels like nothin is happening. but also there's always Something hbsh #//anyway. my software is being funky again lol :) #kind of wanna do stuff but blaaahahahah #blaaaaaaaah #no motivation really. so sads #GASP but wait i wanted to work on Hid's natural form cuz i want it to be a lil less human-looking #trying to figure how i'll do that though. hmm :^ #cuz see he may have wings but he didn't originally. this is due to Fate stuff but that means he won't have bird legs or summin lol #/MAN and i should digitize Fate asap when my puter gets back lol #i think i've mentioned her like twice but Ough. i gotta draw her ehehegh :33 #/but yea i dunno what angle i wanna try for hid lol !! #something........ sooooomething....... #/cannot WAIT til i've finished the little world stuff i was writing !! boop has all my files tho so until then... #condensing information is my passion hdvhs #//speaking of i gotta make new refs for everyone HH #i just made those new ones last year i think and i Do still like them but aoh. they're inaccurate now hfvsh #like oath's hair changed as did kira's and also i'm redesigning hid So :^ :>> #//man. anywhoogh #i'm gonna skedaddle rn n see if i can get somethin done lol :3 #toodles man !! [skitters away]

[flovverworks]

its an eternal wonder i dont have ships here considering akiras my single muse who doesnt mind romance. like i know exactly why (i smash ppl into the friend category faster than lightning) but theres something comedic about it

#stardust speaking ! #mightve been thinking about lenoaki again while plyng games #i was gonna make a joke about ship tier list but then i rmbrd i talk about akira/wizards uhhhhh a decent amount the past months........... #salute emoji. sorry #(is not sorry #but do u all see the comedy. gran has MASSIVE relationship issues. lots of charas ive written do. then theres akira #whomst i havent even brought up the concept of romance with. <3!?!?!?!??!! #when u get older and ur rp ship brain turns off (the only person with this happening) #i say this all the time but i need to write more selfindulgent akira stuff for myself..T_^theres a akifi i wanna write #but first i gotta write my gbf things even rising has me wanting to write stuff its this dire #like im grateful cuz i havent wanted to write selfindulgent stuff this bad in SO long but in my brain it is dire !!!!!!!!! #anyhow i proofread some things and i wanna post asap but imma try n get some more things done...theyre in q..T___^ #now....sleep time (is awake for five hours thinking about fauaki #actually rereading pt1 makes me unwell cuz faust being all no u got the wrong person to leno #but then speaking to him so easily while theyre on the way to the parade/at ghe parade...T_T #as well as neros talks w riquet T___T uuuuuuuuuuu wizards......

[cerbreus]

keep oversleeping and not being able to chat w/ my bf before he goes to bed in the morning

#all it took was a couple days working farrrrr too late to set off the chain of events of sleeping in past 9am #trying to get it back on track esp because i'll need to be up by 6am at the latest for the trip im going on this week #slowly getting there but i keep making the mistake of not sitting up and getting out of bed the first time i wake up at like 6:30 usually #always disappointed when i can't even say good night to my bf... cmon.... i gotta get this shit sorted asap #also i like being up that early i get sooo much done with so much time left yet in the day to do things #AND i get to talk with hyda before he heads to bed x) ♥ #ahh it'll all be fixed before the trip im sure #personal stuff

[occult-roommates]

i have too many ideas for season 2 and idk how to organise them in a way that feel coherent and not me jumping from plot point to plot point without any thoughts behind it and dropping everything in the middle of an “arc” which is why i take forever in between chapter compared to season 1 where i had somehow an idea of what i was doing.

#i act like it's a tv show that's getting canceled soon and so i gotta wrap everything up ASAP #like it's my blog i can make this last as long as i want lmao #i gotta make a plan cause at this point im driving myself crazy #elouan's rambling #no i didn't had any plan for season 1 i kinda had a fuck it we ball attitude #all i knew is it will end when after akva gave birth cause i wanted to be done with that as soon as possible #it's just a sims blog i wasn't taking it that seriously im doing it for fun #but like even if it's for fun i want it to be good you know

[mintjeru]

keeping myself busy by posting wip screenshots

#not counting this as an art post bc i'm gonna start rambling right now: #shaking crying the face album is dropping soon #set me free was already amazing like he did a full 180 and it was so cool! cannot wait for like crazy to premiere #n e ways. this past week has been. a rollercoaster #we had a mini crisis ordering zines but it's solved ish now. there is a plan in place #hmm my project is almost done.. just gotta finish asap so i can get it in for printing #though the organizers didn't email me back on a deadline or whether my specs are fine so i'm :// definitely not annoyed at that #uhh yeah and the mv from last week that dropped! my embarrassing story moment- #i was on the elevator w/ one other person and they saw my b.t21 hand sanitizer cover on my lanyard and pointed it out #and i was like yooo did you see the set me free mv #and they were like yeah the concept was so different from their usual style?? he did amazing #and i was like yeeaaAAHH except the last part kinda got louder?? and we were off the elevator by that point?? #i swear i saw ppl turn to look at me auughghg but listen. i barely talk to a.rmys irl even though they're Everywhere #they seemed cool unfortunately i didn't get their name and idt ima see them again anytime soon LOL #it was a nice interaction in the middle of a busy week though #and 2 days ago i had a call w/ my friend which was really nice!! we ended up talking for 2h #we were talking about haha. spiraling in the abyss and weapon banners that would be worth my rolls among other topics #and then at one point he said smth like 'oh i couldn't talk about xyz with anyone so i went to you' and i was like. oh... #on one hand i was touched and on the other hand it was a reminder that i need to be more aware of my context when i talk lol #that's what my main blog is for! me yelling in the tags to the void #speaking of reining it in i was drawing for hours and had to drag myself away from this wip bc too much screentime!! #working through the ugly emotions by drawing a pretty kvh- exhibit a #spent at least 30min drawing lines that did not look good and now it's one of those wips that feels like i'm not skilled enough to finish #but we're going through with it bc i love the challenge and the image in my head is really nice so!! #this is also me being spiteful and proving myself wrong- that i can draw him well and that i don't need to compare myself to others #tmi of the day is i was looping j.iyuu no tsubasa as i was drawing this. and the song has. the complete opposite vibes hahaha #oh would you look at that the mv dropped as i was typing this up! time to stream the album for the next 48h #i will go focus on that now!! this is all i got chief #note

[dannysboi]

Here pretty soon I'm gonna be going through the part of trauma recovery that I struggle the most with, and the emotional roller coaster of "I can do this no big deal bring it on" and "I'm gonna relapse and get hospitalized" is fucking killing me

#im trying to get it done ASAP so I can jump straight into the processing and recovering #it feels like i cant think of anything else and the anticipation is highriding my mentals and making me into an agressive panicky mess #2023 is my year and goddamn it i WILL get better even if it feels like im dying #gotta get the Really hard shit outta the way at the beginning of the year and make room for better healthier growth

[risingsunresistance]

I hope you feel better soon! Have some tea and some soup and get a lot of rest!

i hate tea but i've had plenty of water. and i dont think i can stomach soup just yet, but i did have half a peanut butter sandwich. i'll keep the tea in mind, maybe i'll just force some down anyways for my health or whatever jdhfjh

#trying to find some mints. might ask my neighbor bc im sure she has some. she has lots of old ppl candy lol #i need to find a tea i like but i've hated everything i've tried #there's gotta be SOMETHING. surely i dont hate an ENTIRE type of drink right??? #oh well water for now. i've had two bottles just this morning... mostly bc i uhh Lost the other one ;-; #im so weak man it took everything in me to stand up in the shower #really hope this doesnt last all week I HAVE THINGS THAT NEED TO GET DONE ASAP #JUST GOT OUT OF COVID AND STARTED GETTING THINGS DONE AND BAM WORST SICKNESS I'VE HAD SINCE MIDDLE SCHOOL #at least i dont have a fever... my fevers tend to run HIGH jhfjjh #asks #anons

[hellotherepaul]

Dear god this adulting stuff is so overwhelming

#got an email last night about a meeting with my cohort at 11 and I should come if I can #also desperately need to go to the dmv my title and registration is SUPER expired and under my moms name #and then I have to figure out my background check status and get my cpr certification done asap so I can start on site #and that’s ignoring the massive amounts of virtual training I need to be doing #gotta stop by my doctors office to clear some stuff up cause I’m nearly out of testosterone #and since all of this is going on I desperately need to get organized #I’m missing something else going on #oh right I need to do laundry #siphisean curse

[gerards-way]

i’m so not ready to start school in two weeks

#i wanna cry and throw up every time i think about it #but at least it’s just this year and then i’m done!!! but i gotta write my thesis ew #also like i’m stressed cause the thesis is one credit right #and my academic advisor was like okay actually you’re gonna need to take two more credits with your thesis advisor #instead of taking another class #okay cool so i email her about that and she’s like let me get back to you #and it’s been almost a week since that and now i’m stressed bc first off i’ll need those credits to graduate #so it’s not like i just can’t have them #and also if she says no then i need to find another class or something to take to fill in the space #cause i have to have a certain amount of credits for the financial aid #so anyway yeah i’m stressed cause it’s two weeks out #ugh and not to mention last week one professor was like hey do y’all wanna change our class time to earlier #and i haven’t heard if that’s confirmed yet #and like besties pls hurry up cause i need to put in to have my work schedule changed like asap #ugh sorry for the five million tags i just really needed to write this down somewhere so it’s out of my head

[baekuras]

Me: and on the weekend I can continue working on enviroment ideas, thumbnails them out and maybe put a mockup together etc, I will finally be rested to have the energy brain wise to do smth lol

Me rn, sunday, aka my other day off: stuffy nose, head feels worse than yesterday and throat is still raw: well then

#txts #i am sweating through shit and i dont think its the 16°C weather necessarily #i also have a dentist appointment which is connected to another one which is connected to 1.6k€s on tuesday #well had bc apparently this cold just started #and tuesday aka my day off we have a whole meeting after 7pm #so if i call in sick i cant wait for the #'they only did that to not be there' #like okay yes thats a positive of this whole thing #but ngl i'd rather have written in overtime AND gotten my dental shit done #than be sick sick #gotta see how this goes tomorrow and if it isnt better at all i gotta cancel #and i WILL call in sick then bc i need to get better asap to get this shit done thx #its not...necessary necessary to be done quickly #but kinda bc i dont need my teeth to go move closer-part of them is missing rn (bridge) #and also i just want to get it out of my brain and planner #so-FUCK

[doodlboy]

I forgot 2 call to get my meds refilled again 🕺

#man these things dont work my memory is still shit skdjdkd #eh its fine it'll prob be done by 2pm tomorrow if i call early enough so I'll just miss the morning dose #i dont think they're doing anything? i don't feel amy different i don't think #man idk what they're even for ive been prescribed like- 4 different ones since february #speaking of which i gotta call 2 get a new therapist still its been a few months w/o 1 and the last 1 said i need 2 get 1 asap #cursing my brain for forgetting all this important biz #anywayyyyy #silly goofy things #elliot rambles #meds mention #medical cw

[astrxealis]

my tita's taste in video game characters is so silly i love it

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #uhh i am more aerith but she is more tifa #and she likes therion and so do i #and. that's mostly it i know. sobs! uhh she's doing black eagles route bcs she knows stuff from online a bit #but i know she likes dimitri. haha. she literally said herself she likes pretty boys... me too..... #raghh i need to do homework asap when i get home. tbh i'm not stressed. i'm good #i just need to do stuff asap is the thing! but break is so soon... happy #really excited for our lil trip vacation early april. + prom. fkbskdbsjd #gay friend of my other tita who is in the U.S. is coming too n apprently uhh he is Nice #a normal guy who happens to be gay. smth like that. but hes the only gay guy adult i really know #thats close to my. family? somewhat? just my tita but my other tita and lola have met him and hes nice #i am excited to meet him bcs as a lgbtq person. JDHSJDNS YEAH..... also american so mhm i am very curious #not in a weird way okay. just really really curious as it is in my nature to be very curious. yeah #im also very nervous tho haha i really am not good with talking to people i do not know!!! too quiet too shy #ive gotten better tho? mostly bcs im a lil energetic usually n jumpy n just myself. so its been a bit easier #idm being the one to speak up for me and lune or whatever now uhh b4 i used to be really annoyed it was usually me #but it is Fine. teehee also RAGHHHHHHHHH YOU KNOW i love going outside tbh every sunday uhh #i do not want to Go Home early but gotta feed stray cats which is >>> to malls. so yeah #sooooooooooooo. idk. bye! #going to finish homework asap. funny i've done a lot of the few left but they're due like. uh. nah nvm actually #havent worked on that one due tmrw lol but ive done the easier ones mostly. oops! i gotta improve with that still #and a lot of stuff. getting there <3

[sanchoyo]

my dog turned 14 the other day!!! 14 years old in human years... I've had him since he was a pubby and hes 14... woaw....🥺

#i thought abt it too hard and im choked up now KJHSDKF MY SPECIAL LITTLE OLDMAN GUY.....MY BABY OLD. BENJBUTTON DOG. precious fuzzy man #he desperately needs a haircut i gotta call the vet tomorrow aaaugh ive been procrastinating abt it but hes SOO shaggy #i hate getting him cut in the winter bc i feel BAD if hes nakey bc its COLD outside. but i dont want him to be so shaggy he gets matted... #and his fur is curly fluffy so i dont wanna hurt him by trying to comb/brush it out yk? #aside from like using my fingers very gently #id say hes doing great for his age tho tbh #hes got mild cataracts and i think hes deaf but hes got 6 teeth which according to my vet is IMPRESSIVE for his age #and like hes healthy otherwise :") he luvs getting the good wet food now bc of the teeth situation #idk i know hes old and it makes me sad to think abt too much but hes doing ok according to the vet who i trust more than my own judgement #there rly isnt anything to be done abt him losing his hearing BUT hes so smart he picks up on hand signals so #he knows what gesture means walkies or food time :) or 'yes u can hop up on the couch with me' hand pat #my cat has started picking up on the hand signals too which is funny #guy whos nonverbal sometimes accidentally teached both their pets animal sign language <- #sanchoyorambles #anyway i wanna ask the vet to do another general checkup even tho he just had one a few months ago bc i am Paranoid JKDFHKJ #top 10 reasons i need to get a job asap . i am trying not to stress abt it but #aaaugh its been difficult and bad job hunting and the idea of calling ppl too late has paraylsed me with fear #i just gotta do it ;__; gun to my own head hollering atmyself to put the phone to my ear and hit call #holding myself hostage at this point bc being gentle is NOT fuckin working SDHFHSKJ #this time of year is always bad brain time tho i need to power thru the anxiety and various Episodes and Attacks #i Bleive in myself....