#so im going to test it and hope it works

[mllenugget]

Hey remember when Baghera adopted Dapper like 8 months ago or did I make that up ? ────────────────────────────────────────── Support all the admins that spoke out (& do your daily click) ──────────────────────────────────────────

#idk why on earth i gave baghera knuckles- when i say i turn my brain off when I draw i mean it #i only noticed it after i was done with the shading and it jumpscared me #got me stuttering in confusion i have never drawn anthro arms/wings this way these dont even look like feathers wtf me ?? #..... sooo looks like ive got a new wa-cats type of fandom on my hands #as in i am still very emotionally attached to the memories i have from this no matter what i do itll keep coming back #but i havent read the books in several years nor do i plan to anymore and looking back i am so angry and disgusted #but also im still blown away by the creativity and the passion the fandom builds on its own #i wanted to go ahead and finish any art that ive been working on for the past almost year and decided this one would be the most fitting #i learnt last week that only the first 20 tags on an original post will show up in tumblr searches #and I think im going to take advantage of that #because i dont want to hype the server anymore and i have decided i will no longer be adding my watermark on top of my work #and i was going to refrain from tagging it because i dont want my related posts to show up #before remembering that some of my mutuals who ive been chatting to for years now #have these fandoms blacklisted #so im going to test it and hope it works #im still going to tag the characters i love though because i wanna show support to the actors and i wish them nothing but the best #baghera fanart #pomme fanart #dapper fanart #dappleduo #my art #mcyt #qsmp #fandom neg #tag this however you want #yap yap yap yap tlddr

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#its crazy how much easier it is to do things when youre not completely miserable lol #this past week has been weird bc ive felt really really good and like normal in a way thats kinds unfathomable #im hoping its the medication but my mood was already on an upward tilt and i was told it would take like 6 weeks for the meds to work #property but like ive been sleeping way more than usual. and by that i literally just mean 8hrs a night lol which is weird for me #like that never ever ever happens multiple days in a row. so idk. when i feel better it makes the 0cd way easier to manage as well #and im just generally not as anxious. on the more worrisome side i kinda just give less of a fuck so like i have an exam im not ready for #Tuesday and im just kinda like hm fuck that lol. ill go thru lil fluctuations of having a lot of energy too #like: i could run around in circles rn. i dont have to but i could. like yesterday i was out with friends and i was like bouncing up and #down while standing and rocking from side to side while sitting. which i kinda do anyway while in crowds but it was more to expend energy #last night i also got like 5hrs of sleep. so like maaaaybe ive been on the bleeding edge of mood elevation but for the most part it just #feels good and not destructive. like if i felt like this all the time that would b fantastic. its like oh so this is y ppl dont long to b #put out of their misery lol. depression? who? i dont kno her. sounds fake. but as soon as i fucking say that ill b fucking slapped back #down to earth. ugh. annoying. no emotional object permanence. i hope its the meds. if this is the person i am under layers of misery then #that is fucking so insane. we shall see. im curious to hear what the psychiatrist thinks of my brain when i follow up with her #i gave her my full dys1exia assessment which gives a pretty good picture of how my head functions. oh fuck i bet i would do waaaayyy better #on thise test if i took it in this state of mind. but anyway she has that on top of like 3 assessment sheets i filled out #dispite everything i still want someone to categorize me into a discreet box. tell me doc. am i really bip0lar? really really? #ur sure??? like 1000% sure bc my brain wont let me accept that unless its beyond a reasonable doubt. i just doesn't seem that serious. #i mean. it is but like ya kno. its not that bad. ay. this glob of mush behind my eyes runs me in circles #but for now thats ok bc i feel like i could run up a mountain or punch someone in the face lol #unrelated

[bibleofficial]

got the stupid fucking goddamn replacement case for these airpods and guess what ???? THEY DONT EVEN FUCKING WORK STILL. I HATE APPLE SO MUCH MY BROTHER GETS THIS CASE & IM ORDERING A MALE USBC TO FEMALE LIGHTENING ADAPTER FROM WALMART

#stream #i hope everyone that works for apple croaks #and SUFFERS #APPLE KILL YOURSELF #I WILL NEVER BE GETTING AIRPODS AGAIN #I MEAN ITS NOT LIKE I EVEN BOUGHT THEM IN THE FIRST PLACE IT WAS A CHRISTMAS PRESENT FROM MY PARENTS IN 2020 #SO I WOULD NEVER SPEND THIS MUCH FUCKING MONEY ON A PIECE OF SHIT PRODUCT #next time im forced to go to apple im testing an ar15 in their fucking store

[jingerhead]

Happy tease Tuesday! I'm starved for buddy daddies content therefore I have to write it myself sjjsjs I've plotted out a whole series of stuff 😭 I love them sm

#jinger's works #its kinds weird to write and post for a different fandom #so i hope yall enjoy what i have coming up in the future jsjsjs #im finally almost free of school forever and i plan on writing in all my new freetime #therefore im testing out posting new fandom stuff #and im going to drag all of my followers into being obsessed with buddy daddies with me #even all the 400 new bots that have spam followed me

[artheresy]

Was having a good day after that HCQ stream but I’m :’D

#having a really bad flare up today #the pain is so bad #it scares me #it scares me so much #i just hope i can walk fine on my own tomorrow #if i cant #i dunno how ill be able to go to work #i probably will bc i have my meds when i get like this i can still end up walking #but it scares me so much still #bc what if its just one of those random times that i get it that suddenly i have to go back to the doctor #i hate thiss #im glad to be getting treatment but it takes forever to get it and its so goddamn expensive #i dont even have a proper diagnosis yet #just some bloodwork and imaging as i wait for an appointment #and i still need to see if i can be tested for eds too if theres a genetic clinic somewhere #sorry to vent here a bit just having a very hard time #i hate my body sometimes #for many reasons but partially for the pain #i just turned 19 last month #i shouldnt be stuck in my bed unable to sleep bc of pain so unbearable #when i havent even injured myself its just the way my body is #chronic pain is a bitch

[autisticlee]

having some sort of chronic pain and tiredness issue and joint problems and whatnot but not knowing exactly what the problem is is really good at leading you feeling like you're faking it or making a big deal out of nothing or making it up. especially if there's a good day where it's not as bad and you can walk straight without limping for the first time in a year. but then you can wake up the next day and can barely walk and wonder why you can't just walk normal. it's hard to not guilt trip yourself into dealing with pain by trying to ignore it and force yourself to walk "normal" all the time

#chronic pain #chronic exhaustion #idk what else to tag #another day of why was lee walking normal and barely pain at work yesterday but then today so much pain and exhausted #wish i knew what was exactly the problem. was diagnosed with “generalized hypermobility” but doesnt do much #not a real diagnosis. basically just a thing to tell me “theres nothing wrong. exercise more” but how???? i keep trying but hurt myself #my job is physical labor and therefore exercise. it hurts. is exhausting. no energy to do more. walking is exhausting #have to focus so much energy on not popping hips out of place and twisting knees and ankles and falling. never hurts less #still think about how failed the heds test by 1 point but had several people with heds or who have close friends/family with it who told me #they think i have it and should go het diagnosed or just ask me if i have it because they recognize the symptoms #and every time i tell them the doctor i saw about my joint issues and stuff denied it they get super confused and tell me to try #another doctor. unfortunately i have to go through my designated health system and they dont have multiple doctors of each specialty #and i in general have no clue how to navigate health stuff or how to advocate for myself and have no help or support system at all so 🤷 #anyway. it makes me wonder if i *do* have that or if my floppy bendy joints are just similarly bad and exercise will cure me #and im just bad at it because i have no clue what is right and wrong movement unless someone watches me and corrects me the whole time #and no i wont learn or get better. im so disconnected from this body that i will never learn what feels right and wrong. #still cant even tell when im hungry until i almost pass out!!!!!!! of thirsty!! or even have to pee until its emergency level piss!!!!!! #so no way to tell when hypermobiling joints when exercising or when form is slipping and not correct anymore. #been trying things to get better at that but still hasnt improved at all #what was i talking about......right. dont think ill ever get heds diagnosis since cant pass the test for that. so cant get much support/help #am on my own with youtube tutorials and hoping i dont keep hurting myself wishing exercise will cure me and “good days” become permanent #also why are video tutorials SO HARD TO FOLLOW AND LEARN FROM. im sk bad at it yet everyone tells me its the best and only way to learn but #its SO HARD FOR ME 😭😭😭😭😭 MAKES ME SO FRUSTRATED AND UPSET

[arnold-layne]

feeling a really strong desire to become a full time streamer today lads

#i know it wont work for the first couple years AT LEAST #but im so tired of the office. i dont wanna go there #there are so many people and you cant lie down when your back starts to hurt #not to tell you have to always be vigilant while fucking around instead of working #i want to work from home is that too much to ask???? #sent off one test task for the translation agency btw. did my best #so hope somethinf will come out of it #arnold’s laments

[sampilled]

im going to get my hair dyed blonde!!!!!!!

#im going to the hairdressers tomorrow to get a tester done #and then probably like next week before i can actually get it done #but i am so scared of going to the hairdressers so this feels huge for me <3 #i havent had anything that takes long like this since i was 14 #cuz thats probably right when my anxiety for REALLY bad but im going for it #even if i dont like the end result it will still be an accomplishment #everyone just pray and hope that no one i went to school with works there cuz i wont go back after this test strip is that happens

[wraenata]

Hey! BEAUTIFUL PERSON AWARD! Once you are given this award you’re supposed to paste it in the asks of 8 people who deserve it. If you break the chain nothing happens, but it's sweet to know someone thinks you’re beautiful inside and out.

Aw thank you so much! You are just the sweetest! This is so nice to receive today because I definitely don't feel beautiful right now.

Thank you again love you! /platonic <3

Hope you are having a lovely day! You deserve it!

#wren askbox #thank you so much #❤️💙💜🧡💚 #i had to go get a paper bag just for all these kleenex oof #i tried to schedule a pcr test with my doctor #but they want me to drive at least 30 miles away in a big city heck no im not doing that #thats way too much anxiety and i already dont feel good #so i scheduled through walgreens #its going to be $164 bucks yayyyyy #i wonder if my insurance will reimburse me somehow #my work did have a policy where if you got covid #they gave you five days so i dont need to burn my limited pto on this #i actually have no idea if that policy is still in place #they never overtly canceled it #i hope so #thankfully i have all my shots and boosters so im not dying #just pretty sick #considering brides mom tested positive and i was around her a lot i think this is probably what it is #well i made it 3+ years #this is what i get for taking my mask off in may #cause i was wearing masks daily until then #sorry i got sidetracked im just bummed over this sickness #thank you again so much mighty anxiety you are a true gem <3

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

“hey so there’s been a bunch of exposures recently but we’re gonna have the volunteer party this week bc it’s outdoors so we’ll be fine. yeah it’s a bunch of people all talking maskless face to face in relatively close proximity but we’re outside so any transmission would of course be impossible” be so fucking for real

#i love this place i love volunteering there. they have air purifiers around the center and tell people in no other words that if they’re #feeling unwell in the slightest they shouldn’t come in. they’re offering free tests to anyone exposed. they’re doing so much more than so #many other places and a lot of times it’s a place im able to relax a bit #but im just. exhausted. a week from tomorrow will be the three year anniversary of my dad dying from covid so im already in a bad place #plus covid in general is a trigger for me because. yknow. i watched it slowly strangle the life from my father until he was a grey #breathless husk who couldn’t walk three steps or say three words without panting. and that was when we made him go to the hospital #and then the next time he came home it was just his ashes in a bag #but it’s been four years. five if you count the early cases that popped up in 2019. and we’re still dealing with this shit #im just tired of it. im too exhausted to have a full sobbing shaking breakdown so ive gone to the other end of the spectrum and just feel #heavy and hollow. i should probably have a big cry but i don’t have the tears or energy #vent tw #im just hoping my n95 and the air purifiers were enough to keep me from contracting it at all. the worry is the n95 could’ve been loose and #sometimes the metal on the nose loosens slightly but the mask was pretty new overall so im hoping it worked to its full capacity and kept #out any covid molecules so that i didn’t contract any #only time will tell i suppose. in the mean time #im just praying a lot bc that’s the only control i have. i will be saying the shema whenever i get too stressed about it

[lesbiten]

school got cancelled and i only have one zoom class to make up for it :D

i have to go to work today D:

#THERES LIKE AN INCH OF ICE ON THE ROADS #my roommate is also going to work and she refuses to call out ever to an unhealthy degree so shes gonna be my litmus test #if she dies in a fiery car accident i will probably call out #but im hoping that the roads will be salted by 4 #simon says

[dlnqnt]

can we manifest i do not get this project actually like i think i fucked up the test pages and the wave of relief that washed over me after realizing that... yeah i actually don't want to do it i would rather kms

#god i hope they see how i fucked up and either say no or give me an out #im running on less than 3hrs of sleep and worked for 8hrs straight #just to look over the style guide and go i didnt do ANY of that in the eight hours i was repainting #and i assure u it was repainting bcus webtoons r all fucking color for some reason #idk why i was even offered this my test and work examples don't have ANY of this and 8hrs is not enough time for me to learn how #AND produce a quality result #so anyway im begging pls help me manifest true failure this was not meant for me oh my god pleeeaaassssee #maybe i'll just message back later in the day and decline

[fagoutboy]

sorry. still thinking

#its just been on my mind a lot more especially since talking about it with my mom in california she told me a lot i didnt know about #bc i was like 13 when it all initially happened i barely knew/was told what was going on. we just all saw him nearly dead on his floor #and then suddenly there was an ambulance and he was gone #and then he went to one of the city hospitals hours away and my mom was gone most of the time for months to be with him #and i knew he nearly died and was told later it was bc he got hiv but like that was basically it? and i knew it was from drug usage #but she told me basically everything this time. and it was just a lot #apparently i have a group of students from a texan medical college to thank for him being alive. bc they did an experimental thing on him #after his original doctor had given up hope and told my mom he was just going to die #we're not sure exactly what they did i guess it was some kind of medicine of course but like. anyway whatever it was it worked #and the thing i remember most. was my mom saying 'at least that makes it so he can help as many people as he's hurt.' #bc my brother just...has a complicated past and the things leading up to his near-death were especially #and apparently the test is gonna be in some medical journal probably. im guessing its what helped them confirm their experiment works #anyways. im just glad hes alive. but its a lot to think about

[lunarhoneybunny]

sighs. okay tmi posting sorry guys

#lunar bunny chatter #my horniness has been fluctuating the last day or so and it's definitely because of my period. this morning was crazy #i went to some DMs to listen to an audio message i got and i just died again and thought about some stuff which led me back onto tumblr #and i just went to look at some text posts and now that i look back. dude i have such an atrocious daddy/mommy kink it's actually funny #i mean. i really like the idea of being an appealing figure and my criteria for who i call daddy is so specific. there's just two people #that fall into that category but i don't like the other person as much as the other one. hi sorry for being gay i need this off of my chest #also hanging out with some friends and im so bad at comebacks and all that. how the fuck am i gonna top without stuttering and fumbling #and forgetting words.... that's my biggest worry. it doesn't help that i get super chatty when nervous but maybe i can work it in my favor #i wanna try out the title stuff just to test the waters before going absolutely ham. maybe as a cute joke i'll go “oh sure w/e u say daddy” #“lol haha” but it just seems real fun. i think it's hot too but. yeah it's a lot to unpack ahaha. #i still have a lot of guilt for talking dirty and being more brave when talking but that's just because i always felt like i didn't have... #the right to explore that especially when a lot of people i knew back then thought of me as “pure and innocent girl” and like. yeah fuck no #this was a really meandering ramble but my point: “daddy hot mommy hot i wanna explore that and im also nervous about stuff” #i do genuinely enjoy when i get in the mood though especially with someone i trust and like. click with? i hope that isn't too much to say #but it feels very natural and i don't have to force or hide anything. i just need a bit more confidence ahaha #that's all the rambling i got in me im gonna listen to some classic music from latin artists because im silly and mildly sentimental rn.

[sm0kebreaks]

my stepdad may have given me covid....

#im going to be so mad #like thats not fair i work so hard being safe and sanitary at work all the time #and then i get it from just going home??? #i still have an hour and a half until i can go home and take a test #and im hoping my throat hurting and my grogginess is just from uhh #my weird sleep last night

[astrxealis]

i am so exhausted i barely have anything to do for the rest of the school year as in. just a few more projects. and then done. but i'm already Finished af. anyway i hope you all are okay, take care okay <3

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #RAGHHHHhhhhhh ..... i have napped an abnormal amount (personally) the last few days #the exhaustion of. everything ig is getting to me. sobs #uh... i'll finish this one hw and then my parts for this group task and then the test is. ?? #notes to myself sorry but i won't even look back to this ik but yeah. #so. message group mates tomorrow for those two tasks. one in the morning b4 class one during free period #i have to deal w the thesis presentation stuff too wtvr the fuck's going on i hope everything will be alright #after this one hw and then my parts for that ... recheck them ofc but afterwards. #nah i should sleep after that... at T__T anyway my goal is to finish basically everything that i can do by tomorrow. which is doable i think #should fix my sleep sched esp b4 june... review for june... follow daily routine everyday properly... #okay. finish this one task finish parts for that one other task. and recheck both. #sleep and message groupmates in the morning. present. message and discuss with other groupmates during free period. #by then i only have... two tasks left for the whole school year + one quiz later. but i gotta fix up thesis stuff w group #alr. okay. i got that. #and i'll work on as much as i can tomorrow (and if i need to. lay off a bit/rest. until sunday) #hopefully hang out with friend on monday. concert on thursday. last day friday #i won't think about reviewing just yet until i finish my #priorities but i need to make sure im at my fucking best then and in advance #anyway hi ... i dont think anyone will read this which idm at all bcs why would you #but if u did uhm hi. hello. have a good day LMFAO i hope everyone has a good day or night or whatever aaa i go now..... sobs #i am very exhausted i think esp since i dont think ive had a proper rest in Ages. and by ages i really mean ages #i dont like napping i dont like wasting time i try to wake at a certain time but often fail but still distrupt sleep #uh i let myself rest on sundays only when going out but it's Going Out and not. just relaxing and doing literally nothing. never #negative thoughts begone!! i refuse to entertain them for now lmfao #there's a lot i want to get to and a lot i need to do but i'll focus on what i need to