#thats all though folks!

[professionalchaoticdumbass]

in the past week or so ive seen a lot of people posting about how there's this oversexualization of trans girls on the site, and I gotta agree, there are way too many people (including other trans women!) who act like we're all dtf 24/7 or always super kinky and horny. I've been tired of that stereotype for ages and i am saying this as a rather sexual trans girl myself...

...but I think people are overcorrecting a bit now, and are starting to veer into "trans women shouldnt be talked about sexually / need to be shielded from it" territory. and, to me, that's really dangerous, because outside of some queer spaces - and even within them- the sexuality of trans girls is heavily scrutinized, as is attraction to us. as much as I dislike certain aspects of the memes and jokes that kickstarted the stereotypes, I'm kinda grateful for them as well. girldick jokes helped with my bottom dysphoria, voice kink shit helped me like my voice, and the whole "tgirl tummy tuesday" thing gave me a lot of confidence in my body where I hated it before. I think this open appreciation of trans sexiness has done a lot for both me and others on tumblr.

again, obviously its got its problems - people end up assuming every trans girl is horny, or only spread positivity if its related to sex with us, and of course the people who do have dysphoria from the things that are being sexualized are left out (like those the "girls without dicks are like angels without wings" memes, ugh, feels icky every time). and on the note of comparing tgirls to angels, we also started getting treated like we're ethereal fertility goddesses and that t4t sex was some inherently sacred ritual. spoiler alert, trans girls are normal-ass people and t4t sex can be holy for the participants but its generally a pretty normal thing to do as well

coming back to the "don't sexualize trans girls" posts now, I think they were initially going in the right direction, but at this point I'm starting to raise an eyebrow at more than a few of them. I'm not gonna whip out the "youre a sex hating puritan if you post about it" accusation because that is obviously wrong but again, I think people are definitely overcorrecting and starting to turn this into a (false) dichotomy when it's not. its a complex topic and each individual trans woman will feel differently about it.

(I feel like the internet just erases any nuance in favor of a two-sided, highly polarized flamewar with unrealistic views on both sides. actually i wouldn't even say this is a super-nuanced discussion because its really not that hard to say "fetishization is bad, but so is suppression of sexuality". will this post just end up being a void scream and people will continue drawing lines between one side and the other? probably. but I am a stubborn bitch and I have hope that we can be reasonable.)

anyways I'll close this off by saying that I wrote this between around 1:30 and 2 AM on terrible sleep the night before, that I hope what I said is coherent enough, and that I will keep being a trans girl who is openly sexual, gets horny over other trans women, and is proud to be transsexy as fuck. I will keep being critical of jokes and trends and memes that stereotype us, even from our own community. I will keep being angry at how poorly us trans folks are treated with regards to our sex lives, bodies, and relationships between the two. I will keep loving and lusting over trans women without fetishizing them. And I will keep doing all of these til the day I die.

#taking a break from the late night funnies to get serious for a change #this is... sorta a vent post? idk. #please dont tag this with 'transmisogyny' i do not like that term #feel free to reblog though. if enough people are shitheads ill turn reblogs off but again i have hope we can be nice. #transmasculine folks please feel free to add anything else you feel is relevant! im writing from the perspective of a transfemme #who mostly spends time in transfem spaces and i obviously dont have the experiences of a transmasc so. yknow. add on if you have something #alright thats all for now back to your regularly scheduled sleepy/funny posting

[diathadevil]

There's something charming about being on tumblr and seeing people abroad be fans of our local balkan Eurovision artists from this year (Luke Black, Joker Out, Let 3, etc.)

I'm glad y'all like their songs! It really makes me happy when others like our popsynth and altrock bands as well. I'll recommend some artists/bands in the tags if y'all want some other balkan pop/rock/synth bands to listen to.

#Aight so off the top of my head from the newer pop n synth pop bands there is #Fantom. Bojana Vunturišević. Nipplepeople. Palma Pocket. Nina Turković. #For Synth Rock/Alternative there is - Svemirko. Sijenke. Fantom as well oops they also blend in that genre. #now for the OLDER synthwave n pop bands there is Denis i Denis. Videosex. Zana. Novi Fosili. Bebidol. Dino Dvornik. #as for rock bands the older ones I mainly recommend going for any Ex-Yu playlist you can find but from the older ones my favs are #Plavi Orkestar. Bijelo Dugme. Zabranjeno Pušenje. Idoli. Kerber. #Now for the Newer rock bands there's Artan Lili. Gift. Dubioza Kolektiv (technically new since they're began the band in 2003). #Kultur Shock I also recommend if you want some alternative folk rock (though I haven't checked the band in a while myself) #OH ALSO recommend Who-See as well! They're Techno Rap but are really fun to listen to! They were in ESC back in 2013 #okay thats all I can remember for now #I REALLY need to make a Spotify playlist for this genre someday lmaooo #dia talks #luke black #joker out #let 3

[skeletalheartattack]

WATCH MS. PAC-MAN DANCE

WATCH MS. PAC-MAN DANCE

#this is from the instruction manual for Namco Museum vol. 3 #got it today with a bunch of 360 games while i was yard sale shopping today #im honestly surprised to have found a house that was selling games. usually i figure folks would just sell them online for good money #but no each game ranged from 3-6 dollars #so i got: Dead Island 1. Mirrors Edge. Borderlands 1. and Namco Museum. #i also got Banjo Nuts & Bolts elsewhere. i had it a long time ago but i think i gave it away/sold it #so now i can see how far i got into the game now that i have another copy #that yard sale w/ the 4 games i got. they also had borderlands 2. some COD games. halo 3. and kinect adventures #they did have some PS2 games. only two worth mentioning is an eyetoy game. and Kingdom Hearts 2 #i'm always on the lookout for PS2 games but. i didnt grab KH2. theres a lot of pretty dudes in that game (from org 13) but im not a KH-head #though theres always a part of me that regrets not buying literally everything #but given that those 4 games costed me 15 dollars..... listen thats a good deal but i didnt have a lot of money on me #or not a lot i could risk spending all in one place #anyway. im playing dead island atm :) i picked sam b

[caffeinatedopossum]

That sad realization that not only did the undiagnosed autism lead to me not realizing my "friends" were actually bullying me the whole time I knew them but I was also unintentionally doing something similar to neurotypical friends because I didn't understand how we thought differently

#i just want yall to know that when i first wrote undiagnosed my phone autocortected that to undigested so. yeah #you heard it hear folks. autism is undigestable. thats why we all got tummy problems #anyway this is why is struggling with communication and maintaining relationships is a symptom #although my relationships always seem fine to *me* because im oblivious as fuck #and this is why autism questionnaires need to be phrased differently #alsp yeah. thinking about that one time i went to a summer camp and i joked about a girl in mine and my friends dorm #who was sleep talking that night. and one of the counselors immediately shamed me for bullying #like we were all there and awake. everyone already knew and laughed so i assumrd it was funny #but then suddenly *I* was being mean...? i understand more now but i wish someone explained it to me more gently #why did everyone laugh it was mean? i thought they laughed because it was funny #still dont understand why people laugh if something is hurtful. i didnt want to insult the girl either #i considered us friends and i was just trying to include her in the conversation #it was still not ok though... #theres another time that comes to mind when i said matter of factly that my sister was a liar #in front of her boyfriend who then very aggressively silenced me #i didnt understand why you would lie if you cant accept being a liar #it wasnt meant as an insult it was meant as the truth #but maybe if it was insulting she should stop lying #idk it was really weird #maybe this is why i didnt realize people where insulting me #because to them they were picking on me #but to me they were either stating a fact or falsely accusing me #i get embarrassed too of course but only because its whats expected of me #that makes me feel scared and inferior and alone. and thats what embarrassment feels like for me #it feels like everyone is unforgivingly looking at me with a magnifying glass

[savage-rhi]

✨️Magenta✨️

#I've been really sad lately #its logical I've had a lot happen and a lot going on #and I've been mostly bedridden the past week cause of fibro flares #my brain can see the logic of why my body feels burnt out and why i feel anxious #but i also have this profound sense of loneliness that's been weighing on my chest #I feel the need to isolate and get away from people because it feels like it doesn't matter how much i try to blend in someone #will catch onto me being an “alien” or not quite fitting their mold or having a difference of opinion and i get bullied or ostracized #out of participating with folks or doing activities #and i get so overwhelmed by people and their literal energy/vibes that it feels as though I'm caught in a sneaker wave and being pulled #from shore and this is compounded on top of that feeling of being surrounded by people like tons of them who may even enjoy your company #but still feel very much isolated and alone the whole time #it could be winter triggering trauma responses in me due to childhood abuse related to the holidays #and then there's me trying to brainstorm how i can make money with my creativity when i have little to no help with anyone #and no one will give me a chance to bounce ideas and get a third persons opinion #its felt like this since i can remember: people value that i listen and reflect all the while show compassion #and then when i really need it myself and attempt to reach out i get the door shut in my face #it feels like the only people that have truly listened to me are therapists lmao and it hurts cause its like i gotta pay someone #just to listen to me go off on this idea i have for a side hustle a creative pursuit something i love #and i can't really share that with anyone irl because I'm supposed to be everyones therapist #and its shitty i dont get paid for it if thats the case lol #i feel like tumblr is the only spot I really have where i can share a lot of myself and make things that make others and myself happy #i don't know what id do without it #magenta is my safe word for venting #thanks for coming to my tedtalk as i write into the void #getting shit off my chest at 4am #i aint gettin no sleep cause of yall yall not gon get no sleep cause of meeee

[dirtytransmasc]

just got an influx of straight up wild asks in my inbox and like... they're giving me a run for my money, not cause they hold any substance but cause they're just so out there I don't even know what I'm supposed to say.

send help.

#house of the dragon #hotd #they're all about alicent and how the war was her fault #how viserys should of killed her #thats something #I don't even know #its a major TB fan though #I know that #wanting Alicent to kiss rhaenyra's feet #i'm flabbergasted #they sent there spiel in 3 different asks #at least I'm 90% its all the same person #all I know is I'm tired and I've just barely read them #they make my head hurt #alicent hightower #pro team green #pro alicent hightower #anti team black #get ready folks #yall have quite the show coming

[ssreeder]

H I

for the word game: answer / my / ask

I’m feeling ABANDONED sreedie >:(

jkjk my Real word game words are uhhhhhh head / shoulders / knees / toes

toodles :)

AHHHHH IM SORRY I WILL ANSWER IT TODAY PLEASE FORGIVE ME!! *hides lightbulbs*

Don’t do anything CRAZY!

Head:

“Someone seems to be in a good mood.” She yawned with both her arms stretched over her head.

Shoulders:

“No, that’s not what I meant!” He said urgently, “I meant -“ Sokka’s shoulders slumped and he exhaled loudly. “There is no way to save this interaction is there?”

Knees:

She was on her knees with her hand reaching for him.

Toes:

Like… what exactly was she picking out of her toes!?

HOLY CRAPOLA I HAD ALL OF THEM HAHAHA THATS SO FUNNY! THERE YA GO LEEKIE!

#ok this was the last one #thank you soooooo much to everyone who sent words #but im all done :) #chapter will be out soon #yell at thotty #it’s her fault it’s taking so long #IM KIDDING HAHA I just wanna harass her haha #<3 #love you leekie #i can’t believe your silly words were in there #(there was a really raunchy sentence for knees but I think it breaks tumbles rules ;)) #OK SO THATS ALL FOLKS #i swear I’ll answer your ask today #I love you #even though we’re divorced #*locks door* #stay outta my house with your light bulb smashing self #mwah #leekiiiieeeeee #leekie tag #LEEKS #LIAB #ITF #ASK #liab word game

[rinofwater]

So was anyone gonna tell me that too much caffeine can worsen depression or was I supposed to figure that out for myself after sipping too much 'self-loathing bastard' juice?

#personal #ive been deep in my feels the last few days #and ive been sitting here like where the fuck is this even coming from i cut out all the stressors hello #am i just predisposed to hate myself forever??? #no #ive been having too much cold brew #and i know this because i wake up today with an obnoxious ass headache as if im having caffeine withdrawals #even though i had a latte yesterday just not the cold brew #the cold brew thats got waaaaaaaay more caffeine per serving than the latte (and i usually end up having about two servings in one go) #and you know what? the self-loathing bastard energy just aint slapping today somehow #just the damn headache and some vague queasiness #(and annoyance at how my new curtains for my room are doing a piss poor job of staving off the evil hate orb but that's a different thing) #and its like okay i know caffeine can worsen anxiety and it can have the opposite expected effect for folks with adhd #is there a link with depression too? #studies say...yeah there might be a link especially if youre already predisposed to it #so uh #yeah today i learned i guess #i need to take that snide self-deprecating remark off my sideblog too...whoops

[bisonofyesterday]

I've been reading a lot of conspiracy theories lately for fun and it's wild, sure, a glimpse into the mind of an insane person, but honestly it does kinda get boring after a while once you recognize all of the tropes

It's a real thing that happens and it was a fear for me at first but now? I genuinely don't get how "conspiracy reading for fun" could act as a pipeline to being a conspiracy theorist, like are you stupid?? Were you already susceptible to this brand of thought??? Literally all of these are either odd interpretations of economics, wishful thinking, reboots of antisemitism, or just plain regular bullshit, and like it's really easy to see that, like all of this is dumb, people who believe this are dumb, it's absurd

Fantastic fiction though, these could be good books or games or movies, and like that's what they are and that's their primary audience, people who want to pretend they're the protagonist of a movie, of a grand plot, every bad thing doesn't just happen or are perpetrated some random disturbed people! It's an organized movement at the top of everything responsible for every bad thing ever to keep us in line! It can be a kind of anti-religion in that sense, malevolent gods are better than none

There HAS to be gods at the top of it all, who put ridiculous references to themselves in everything and monolithically control the entire world, because if no one is in control, then that'd be terrifying

#paraphrasing Captain Disillusion and Lemon Demon Spirit Phone here lol #Qanon is definitely the most recent and the most movie of these #especially in its ridiculousness. if there's a deep state. why would the fucking PRESIDENT be our number one bulwark against them??? #it's all insane bullshit lol #i also wanted to talk about how the Moon Landing can act as a gateway drug conspiracy theory but I didn't know how to bring it up 😔 #it's because literally the only way it could work is if everyone involved agreed to keep it a secret #and one of those parties was the Soviet Union who would've had EVERYTHING TO GAIN by leaking that the US had faked the Moon Landing #also its a GOOD THING to recognize tropes actually!! thats how you can recognize bullshit when someone tries to sell it to you #which is becoming more common in the US now than ever for some reason #also also this isn't to say that conspiracies in all forms don't exist. they absolutely can (COINTELPRO comes to mind) #it's very easy for a group of evil people to exist and do secret evil things. this includes everything from the government to the mafia #but those are small scale though. and you're trying to tell me that folks can do that GLOBALLY??? for HUNDREDS of YEARS????????? #the US government can't even agree with itself all the time. and you mean to tell me that there's a united global cabal in control of all??? #have you even SEEN the UN???? lmaooooooo #insert pearl steven universe quote here (you know the one) #bisonspeaks #conspiracy

[aftonenterprise-moved]

i want to care about the new arcs of fnaf so bad especially while being a vanessa stan but oh my goodness i cannot get into it and i want to say its because michael isn't there but honestly michael wasnt there before. but i hadn't had it broken down to me exactly HOW intertwined security breach was to the novels until very recently with the explanation of where glitchtrap came from and its sooooo ohhhh my goddddd oh my goddddddd (plugging my ears) LAAALALALALALLALA

#the issue is its not even inherently BAD its just so different that it doesnt even feel like five nights at freddys and again i kknow thats #like a huge criticism about the games but i mostly think its just an issue of. different strokes for different folks #theyre so vastly different in story tone vibe feel aesthetic artistic intent that its like well i dont even think they SHOULD be compared #but man. oh my god. i cant help but resent the novels so much. #and the fact that security breach is a NOVEL story and not a mainline story is just kind of. blegh #like i feel like i was tricked into liking vanessa because they didnt tell me she was a NOVEL CHARACTER? #not that sshes IN the novels but shes inherently intertwined with edwin murray which is a novel only charaacter #and its like oh my god. oh my god GET ME OUTA HERE #WHERES MY AUTISTIC ASS TIME MANAGEMENT PUZZLE GAME WITH SHITTY CGI AND WEIRD AUTISTIC SCIFI BITS ABOUT CYCLICAL ABUSE #i might be reacting too soon though!!! i might like the dlc #but boy. im very sad to find that out. i really thought i was going to be able to weeve vanessa into the afton family #but she isnt even connected?! at all!?!?!?!?!? #she doesnt know william afton!?!?!??!?!?!!?!?!?

[freebooter4ever]

awww basketball again

#malkin #tanger where is your penguin hat #oh wait dallas is a few days ago this must be old #i do appreciate how even though geno wears expensive sweaters and shit #his favorite hat is still just a 50$ trucker cap from a historically high quality but relatively affordable hat shop #its just cute: rich famous hockey celebrity but still just geno #When i bought my first go*orin hat i must have gone into the shop at least twice if not three times trying to decide which one i wanted #I had just gotten my first job in LA and Old Town pas is one of those Fancy shopping districts so i felt very awkward and out of place #and jenn had to go with me to drag me into the shop i was so nervous #And she tried on a bunch of the hats with me cause shes nice like that #Anyway yeah the folks in go*orin were real nice to us which if you have ever been into botique shops in LA you will know thats unusual #Most of the time they are rude assholes especially if you dont look like you are going to spend any money #I did buy a hat it was a little directors cap like the one walt wore in the 20s before he went into his porkpie phase #I do not like porkpie hats i will never wear one of those LOL #But i was determined to have a directors cap because if i was here in LA living the dream i was gonna look the part #I was still optimistic about things back then #Weirdly enough when i got my second job a month later the hat became a thing because it turned out everyone at the studio wore hats lol #I fit right in #And then the pandemic happened and suddenly nobody was going into the office at all for a very long time :(

[allylikethecat]

gonna be real noah kahan doesnt appeal much to me because all of a sudden he was everywhere and inescapable but i think i get why people like him? just not for me 😔

Oh noooo I get it though. He did kind of explode and then end up absolutely everywhere. I grew up in New England, so not only has he been on my radar for while, but for me personally, his songs are extremely relatable - there is a certain trauma associated with growing up in that area haha (I also think his song Maine is so stupidly clever because there are the lines:

"If only, baby "There were cameras in the traffic lights They'd make me a star"

AND IN MAINE IT IS ILLEGAL TO HAVE CAMERAS IN THE TRAFFIC LIGHTS like there aren't red light cameras OR speed camera in the traffic lights which I am aware is a very weird niche thing but it was a very important part of my summer driving up to beach when I was a teenager in my very red car lol)

Thank you for sending in this ask! I hope you had a wonderful Sunday and that you have a great rest of your week!

❤️Ally

#allylikethecat #ask ally #keep it kind #the fob to 75 pipeline #does not involve noah as much as i thought it would rip #noah is still my boy though #im mean because i grew up in new england is also something i find extremely relatable #he really just... captured the entire feeling of growing up where i did #and the weird expectations of that #so like im a huge fan #BUT i get why people aren't into him #and i am also a little surprised hes suddenly everywhere #im like sir thats my lil folk singer who overshares about how bowel movements on the internet #and nearly burnt down my fav taco place lol #im going to see him at fenway this summer and i am going to be insufferable seeing him with the squad #i cried when i saw him in my current place of residence #but seeing him at FENWAY #my bitter little new englander heart is going to burst #its like seeing fall out boy in chicago lol #or not that i ever have #but seeing the 1975 in manchester #gosh music is just so good #and there is so much out there #and its so cool how there is something for everyone #also i just really love maine #i wanna go to maine basically at all times #sometimes i dream of being old and moving there #because i just maine

[puppytoast]

To be fair weren't they just stealing/bot crawling our blog content through google/other search results before anyway? At least we have a way to say no now

#puppy poops #we fearmongering again folks? another day on the hellsite? #we are at the stage of this entire situation of working with the evil to try to protect ourselves while we wait for any legal anything #at least thats how I am seeing it #am glad to listen to polite properly sourced info if I am wrong though #also have no intent of defending decisions here I trust owner mc sabatticleboy as much as anyone else and I dont trust companies either #but it feels like the whole situation is being framed as bad faith as possible by the community like all other hot button topics like this

[oflgtfol]

did you know long island is shaped like a fish. now you do :)

#brot posts #lawng island babey #the ‘fins’ are actually called The Forks #theres the north fork and the south fork #the only true rural areas on LI and even then theyre more suburban rural. but still. #north fork has a lot of farms and is fairly ritzy thats where all the rich folks with their huge properties and vineyards are #south fork is mostly just protected forests rather than farms #though thats where the hamptons are so theyre actually richer than the north fork #like rich people and even Celebrities have multimillion dollar summer homes there #and by the hamptons i mean westhampton southampton etc #a few towns with the word hampton in their names so they become The Hamptons collectively #and then you go past the hamptons and it becomes more and more just like forests and marshes with a few spots of actual towns #montauk is the furthest eastward point on the south fork and on all of long island #probably one of our only tourist spots because of it #george washington built a lighthouse there or what the fuck ever #montauk the town is really cute though its fun to take a daytrip there #then the furthest eastward point on the north fork is orient point #nowhere near as renowned as montauk point #ive only ever been to orient point bc its a major ferry launching point to go across the LI sound and reach connecticut lmfao #theres another ferry point in uhm. port jefferson i believe but ive never used that one personally

[eyes-eyes-eyes-eyes-eyes-eyes]

i have officially been invited to interview for the radio program!! LETS FUCKING GO

#I NEED SHOW IDEAS THOUGH and it sucks because like. every corner of alt and indie is already spoken for #plus these DJs know way more about those genres than i do i basically only listen to mainstream if im being honest). So like. What Do I Do #i could do 2000s. pretty likely it will be that #because 90s grunge is already being done and alt has four shows but!! thats all NEW alt #im talking the classics .. #ooh. you know what. folk mix indie isnt spoken for at all #so like a bright eyes type of station #hrmmm!!! maybe

[elegyofthemoon]

HI HAZE I hope ur having a better day today!! ;w; i love you! /pl

hey nick! days just starting while im answering this. truthfully things still kinda feel like a dream - yesterday at least felt like it, but trying very hard to manage between responsibilities and trying to reconnect with myself/doing things i like

though today there are some stuff i need to get done bc i dont think ill have time to focus on them this weekend. so just gotta push a little harder 👍🏼

#ilyyy #answered #idk. do you know how weird transitional periods kinda feel? its sort of that feeling #being shifted between two things and being uncertain which to focus on #like yeah i could just keep working hard on all this and put in effort but like lol wheres all that gonna go? nowhere #folks are still giving me a hard time about it unfortunately so i think mentally. im really checked out from reality :V #so not a super super fun time but. i just need some laughs thats pretty much it lol laughs can fix me :) #i had a good dream last night though #though ive aged in the dream it was nice going to a family bakery in winter. warm pastries :) #nick tag