#the actual quote works just as well for them

[drivestraight]

good morning val drivestraight I have a question for you... can you sell me on lestappen. I follow you for general attitude swag and don't really follow many max blogs (I actually found your blog after that omega George fic lol) but I feel like you of all people could make the greatest ship primer. mostly I'm not very into it bc I feel like the shared history part of it gets overblown by fandom compared to other ships, and they're friendly enough these days that I can't get hatesex vibes form it + Max comes across as really well adjusted and kind of an homeboy. so I'm like what's the hook? what do you like? what's YOUR platonic perfect idea of lestappen? I want to follow u down this road 

omg what an honor...

this isn't much of a ship primer but mostly about me talking about why i like them if that's okay <3

i agree that we overplay their shared history, but it also provides a really nice backdrop for everything they are now. they've always been in each other's lives but in a peripheral sense. and it's that sort of distanced familiarity that is compelling to me. also the potential for intense physicality despite their inability to communicate like normal people. that's the hook to me: they are in each other's orbit but they never have been close. but then you get to the racing: and when it comes to the racing, they've really given some great battles. and that alone isn't enough. it's like - combined with who they are off the track: childhood rivals turned awkward work friends, the fact that they can race that hard and that they respect one another so much is just. so good. sometimes it feels like they can predict each other's moves. like silverstone/austria 19 (yes, mentioned to hell) and bahrain/saudi 22, the w2w there went crazy. and once again, this with everything else: that they have this one place and this one medium for them to communicate at such a high level, and are just so awkward everything else is very good. lewis and seb who have said in the past that max goes over the limit too much, while charles has always said with max, it's always on the limit and never above. obviously things might change if they ever get into a real title fight against one another, but i think they have such great foundations that it will be compelling no matter what. also they've lowkey like stood the test of time: look at how people characterized them in 2019 and how they characterize them today. they've changed so much and their relationship has changed so much but still, both of them are at two top teams, they have found each other again in f1.

also aesthetically, the red/blue of it all is really nice. and just like. They look good together. yknow

they also like. say crazy things about each other sometimes. "i will remember it all my life" / "i know max very very well" / etc. etc.

my perfect platonic idea of lestappen Is Not one where they're best friends and where max is his number 1 defender - because he is not, as many people would have you believe (everyone clipping moments from cooldown rooms and quotes from interviews are putting it out of context and putting words in max's mouth and twisting things weirdly), and because that's frankly so uncompelling and kind of pathetic to think that charles needs max to praise him/defend him for him to have any worth as a racer etc. etc. i could go on about this for ages but i won't. tldr max doesn't care enough to do that.

IN FIC my favorite lestappen is basically: an awkward lestappen who like each other so much and can't actually communicate it properly in any way that isn't physical. but maybe the physicality and the shared history and the racing can be enough.

#asks #lestapen asks #lestappen

[zipperrants]

yeaah I am bored and have a headache from crying for like 5 hours last night so my mutuals as incorrect quotes

Ness: What are you planning to do? Zipper: Hey, now. "Planning"?! Do you KNOW who you're talking to?!

Nia: What the fuck? People actually tell their crushes they like them?? Maddie: What the hell do you do? Nia: I die? What kinda question...

Nia: *visiting the squad* Hello, I just came to- Nia: *sees Zipper shoving Daniel into the washing machine while Ness records and Moony watches* Nia: *retreating* Something suddenly came up.

Summer, to the Squad: If you’re happy and you know it, clap your hands! *silence* Summer: Damn, y’all depressed as fuck! Maddie: You didn’t clap either- Summer: SHUT UP!

Mars: I'll offer you some friendly advice- Zipper: I don't want your advice. Mars: Well, then consider it unfriendly advice.

Mars: *finds half a watermelon at Whole Foods* Mars, holding it up for everyone to see: LIES!

Daniel: Maddie, please calm down. Maddie: I asked for two large fries! Maddie: *dumps fries onto table* Maddie: But all they did was give me a MILLION FUCKING LITTLE ONES!

Daniel: I sort of did something and I need some advice, but I don't want a lot of judgment and criticism. Zipper: And you came to me?

Zipper: Can I ask you for a favor? Ness: I would literally die for you, but continue. Zipper: We need to talk about you starting sentences that way.

Maddie: I am the left brain, I am the left brain. "I work really hard until my inevitable death" brain. You've got a job to do, you better do it right and the right way is with the left brain's might. Zipper: I LIKE OREOS AND PUSSY-

Ness: Any questions? Daniel: Uh, yeah, WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT? Ness: Uh, a plan, duh... Mars: Daniel, chill, I know it’s weird, but Ness has a point. Daniel: Daniel: THAT WAS LITERALLY A PONY DOODLE WITH A HAT!!

Ness: *out cold on the ground* Summer: Oh my god, do you think they’re okay?! Kitty, holding a bucket of ice water: Who cares?! *dumps all of the water on Ness’s face*

Kitty: I’m sorry, I really flew off the handle back there. It was like the handle was a bald guy going really fast, and I was his toupée.

Kitty: :) Mars: >:( Kitty: Turn that frown upside down! Mars: ):< Kitty: Not sure what I was expecting...

Staring

@vyliie as Summer

@shift-dreamr as Kitty

@shiftingwithmars as Mars

@maddies-chronicles as Maddie

@realitycanbewhateveridesire as Ness

@moonyshifter as Moony

@romanoffshifting as Daniel

@theshifterbear as Nia

and

Me as Zipper

[iwanthermidnightz]

*excerpts below — but I highly recommend reading the full article in link above*

Hit Me Hard and Soft dunks us headfirst back into that universe, from the deepest wallows of depression to the exhaustion that comes with the world speculating about her every move. There are no arachnids where they shouldn’t be, but getting in touch with her darker side has Eilish finally feeling like herself again. “I feel like this album is me,” she says. “It’s not a character. It feels like the When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go? version of me. It feels like my youth and who I was as a kid.”

Although 2019 felt like a whirlwind of madness at the time, she has found herself missing it. “It was the best time of my life,” she says. “This whole process has felt like I’m coming back to the girl that I was. I’ve been grieving her. I’ve been looking for her in everything, and it’s almost like she got drowned by the world and the media. I don’t remember when she went away.”

The title Hit Me Hard and Soft derives from a conversation she had with Finneas, when she mistakenly thought the name of a synth in Logic Pro was called Hit Me Hard and Soft. “I thought it was such a perfect encapsulation of what this album does,” she explains. “It’s an impossible request: You can’t be hit hard and soft. You can’t do anything hard and soft at the same time. I’m a pretty extremist person, and I really like when things are really intense physically, but I also love when things are very tender and sweet. I want two things at once. So I thought that was a really good way to describe me, and I love that it’s not possible.”

Eilish and Finneas call Hit Me Hard and Soft “an album-ass album.” It’s not a concept record, but it is a self-consciously cohesive set of songs, inspired by auteurist works from the past 15 years or so, like Coldplay’s Viva La Vida, Lana Del Rey’s Born to Die, Tyler, the Creator’s Goblin, Marina and the Diamonds’ Electra Heart, and Vince Staples’ Big Fish Theory.

“Lunch,” a complete 180 in both sound and subject content. It’s a sexy, bass-heavy banger where Eilish is crushing on a girl so hard she likens sex with her to devouring a meal. Finneas remembers playing this moment for Interscope and witnessing the team shift in their seats. “What’s funny about starting the album with [the opener] is that it is a total false promise,” he says. “If you’re remembering ‘What Was I Made For?’ and then you hear [it], you go, ‘Oh, OK. I understand this world.’ Then the drums come in [on “Lunch”], and it really is the kill-the-main-character-type beat. It’s like Drew Barrymore being in the first five minutes of Scream and then they kill her. You’re like, ‘They can’t kill Drew. Oh, my God, they killed Drew!’”

Eilish and I spend a lot of time talking about the new era she is about to kick off, and how she’ll promote Hit Me Hard and Soft while prioritizing her mental health, privacy, and well-being. With all of that in mind, I wonder if she’s ready for journalists to pepper her with questions about the album’s subject matter, particularly the sexual nature of “Lunch.” “That song was actually part of what helped me become who I am, to be real,” Eilish says. “I wrote some of it before even doing anything with a girl, and then wrote the rest after. I’ve been in love with girls for my whole life, but I just didn’t understand — until, last year, I realized I wanted my face in a vagina. I was never planning on talking about my sexuality ever, in a million years. It’s really frustrating to me that it came up.”

Eilish is referring to her interview with Variety last fall, in which she mentioned she was attracted to women. The quote — “I’m attracted to them for real” — became a national headline. The following month, Eilish attended Variety’s Hitmakers event in L.A. While on the red carpet, she was asked if she intentionally came out in the story. “No, I didn’t,” she told them. “But I kind of thought, ‘Wasn’t it obvious?’” Eilish then posted about it on Instagram, with a caption that read, “Thanks Variety for my award and for also outing me on a red carpet at 11 a.m. instead of talking about anything else that matters. I like boys and girls leave me alone about it please literally who cares.”

Looking back, Eilish admits she overreacted with the Instagram post. “Who fucking cares?” she says. “The whole world suddenly decided who I was, and I didn’t get to say anything or control any of it. Nobody should be pressured into being one thing or the other, and I think that there’s a lot of wanting labels all over the place. Dude, I’ve known people that don’t know their sexuality, or feel comfortable with it, until they’re in their forties, fifties, sixties. It takes a while to find yourself, and I think it’s really unfair, the way that the internet bullies you into talking about who you are and what you are.”

As for that red-carpet quote that made all the headlines, Eilish says she tried to think of a response that would be entertaining for her fans and the internet. “I went into Billie Eilish interview mode, [like], ‘Oh, I don’t care. Yeah, I’ll say whatever. Wasn’t it obvious?’” she says. “And then afterwards I was like, ‘Wait. It wasn’t obvious to me.’”

Thinking about it now, she draws a bigger lesson from that moment. “I know everybody’s been thinking this about me for years and years, but I’m only figuring out myself now,” she says. “And honestly, what I said was funny, because I really was just saying what they’ve all been saying.” She adds that she liked the journalist she was talking to and didn’t want to be rude. But she still felt exploited. “Bro, I have asthma out here,” she says. “I fucking can’t take a breath.”

If Eilish had the opportunity to do it over again on the red carpet, she says, she wouldn’t have answered the question. But she acknowledges it could have been worse. “I’m lucky enough to be in a time when I’m able to say something like that and things go OK for me,” she says. “And that’s not how a lot of people’s experience is.”

Eilish has officially decided to make some changes to the way she presents herself to the world. “This album, to me, feels like a way to restart, in terms of my sharing,” she says. So let’s take a second to reintroduce Billie Eilish, the home-schooled bohemian who captured our attention as a teenager. She’s 22 now, yet she’s more self-aware than people twice her age. She would like some space to grow, to figure out exactly who she is — no label required. She is not the poster child for anything. And she is not, she’d like to note, a TED Talk speaker. So where does that leave us? Eilish sums things up with four simple words that point to her desire for normalcy and acceptance.

“I’m just a girl.”

#please read the whole article from this link #she really went there #billie eilish

[crossbackpoke-check]

Why I Am Not Coming In To Work Today [abridged], Jess Zimmerman

part one | part two

#me when everybody is posting the maple leafs sad narratives and i am furiously generating this like HOLD ONNNN HOLD ONNNNNNN #honestly i could've been SOOOO MEAN about this because i saw this poem & alexandra got the preview on the poetry blog #where i just reblogged the first half of this poem point blank with the tags #kyle dubas #toronto maple leafs #& got yelled at aksdaksf & it literally only didn't go on this blog bc i usually write more & then it was percolating & i looked up the poe #& it was only the FIRST PART i'd reblogged i didn't know there was more & then brain immediately went brrrrr ok time for an edit. #this is a long one lol & i also have no idea if it makes sense to anybody but me but because y'all know me i will always overexplain so!! #my reasoning for the reasons obvi kyle. that's a given i hope he's doing well i hope he & his family r good but man is not coming in to wor #the second edit took me a stupid amount of time bc i am nitpicky but also i learned how to do the layers & transparency from the claude edi #that actually y'all don't know about lmao but i lost my mind when i saw how perfectly those pictures align i was scrolling getty & was like #ok december i'm gonna do a headline one (in my brain with the november/june quote about choosing to die again) w/ maple leafs playoff odds #how they say at winter break you know who's gonna be in the playoffs & who'll win & they thought they had a shot but it's mitchie overlaid #the 2003-04 team who'd last won a playoff round with the atlantic division stats from dec for 22-23 & how long it's been & dec headlines #i wanted breakup/recent/never loved to be a recent trade acquisition somebody who bounced around & somebody else so i almost had simmer #brodie & zar but then i wanted to make murray for breakup at any time &i forgot zar & him were on the pens together &it hit me like a truc #bc there's a photo of the two of them EXACTLY the same so close it's scary of this one but them as pens so they had to be it & i did always #know never loved again was mitchie. sorry. also mitchie in the penalty box the last game but i couldn't find footage of it & this one works #no i could not find a photo of tyler bertuzzi fighting a leaf for a dog looked at me yes i tried. #i almost made the bunting photo jt but instead it's 'bunting a rat etc' anyway the one i really feel unhinged about is dead pets bc at firs #i was gonna make it the handshake line & look to see if the leafs had drafted anybody on the panthers (dead pet former draft pick) #& they had & it was carter verhaeghe & i couldn't get a good pic of matthews & verhaeghe but it's fine bc i thought about the mo/luke schen #narrative (in which they are a perfect d pair long lost) & schenn was drafted by the leafs & that line fits jut trust me. also how i feel #about the kniesy luminous line that one possessed me it had to be kniesy idk why. i almost put gussy as girls are too pretty though ALSO #did u like my joke. daylight SAVINGS time on the goalie. thank u. also my photo magic on the jt (me very poorly editing in him as an isle) #OK ALSO HOLD ONNNNN there is a part two but i have to wait for the Content i want it will come out as soon as [redacted] or sooner #if i get bad at waiting &everyone will pretend like it is always the way it will be once i have the photos i want. speaking of did the leaf #simply not take a team photo this year?? it Does Not Exist for me i have tried very hard to look for it also i'm excited for part 2 #one of them is named oh you're so unhinged for this one & the finished product is you're unhinged in ways you didn't even know u were sorry #liv in the replies

[mortellanarts]

It has come to my attention that this show never aired in the US so not sure how many people here can be nostalgic with me lol

#princesas do mar #sea princesses #2000s childhood #old cartoons #momento latam #mermay #“Okay so this is Bia! she's from an old cartoon I watched where each character was a prince/princess of a different type of marine animal” #“Bia here was from the abyssal zone and well two seconds on the wiki tell me there was a whole plot to overthrow her family” #“and that she had to wipe herself from all her friends memories to have a chance of coming back home” #“but I don't know about any of that! baby me just thought she looked cool and also really loved anglerfish!” #“I didn't remember there was actually royal plots all I remember is each talking to their respective type of fish and taking care of them” #“as a kid with a marine biology fixation it was one of my favorite preschool shows :3” #OH QUOTES ACTUALLY WORK NOW #“what” #I'm SO used to just doing this to bump up my tags while they're on drafts well okay #my art #deep sea #anglerfish

[catastrxblues]

so glad i decided to go to my school library when i started feeling sick during class this morning because otherwise i would never have found a rare copy of a room of one’s own by virginia woolf and borrowed it and have it at home with me right now ready to be continued oh my god

#i love libraries #they also have like a gajillion copies of the percy jackson books so cool of that for them #(they also have a copy of lockwood and co and i want to read it but they only have the translated version #and i just always find them very odd to read :/ #translators are awesome and they make so many works of fiction from all over the world so accessible in so many different places #but i always prefer to read a book in its original language if i can understand it well enough to be honest) #AND they also have a copy of the picture of dorian gray #this is great #i’ve always wanted to read a room of one’s own #and i actually had once started a digital copy of it and abused the highlights/comment features at 2 am in the morning #but NOW i can actually read it from a physical copy and read the annotations the previous owner had written #AND take photos of my favorite quotes to have them rejoiced and remembered in my full storage phone gallery #anyways #this is a silver lining #a room of one's own #virginia woolf #booklr #library #nadirants

[dorkicon]

bitching abt my job again

tags contain frank mentions of transphobia and homophobia

#this happened like. i dont know. a month ago or something but i still keep playing it in my mind #for those unawares: theres been a fucking community outrage over the pride display at the library i work at #and have been working/volunteering at for 5 years #only it never went up. it never went up. bc the mayor came in as a quote unquote private citizen and demanded it taken down #despite the fact that patrons are required to fill out complaint sheets and even then it isnt ensured a display will be taken down #so obviously its a misuse of power that hes spinning into him being a concerned citizen #and i made a whole post bitching abt it and im doing so again (hi) bc i didnt like how our director responded to it #and yeah. so there was a board meeting after that right. well i set up for them as i usually do and let me tell you. that was the first #--time more than like 6 people came to spectate. it was insane. #and i guarantee that this months meeting wont have half as many people that fucking crammed themselves in there to complain abt gay ppl #bc of course they dont give a shit about the library #they just care about how scary the queers are #and yeah it was a shit show. i learned we have a far right organization in our town #and i was sat right in front of her husband the whole time #(standing actually. i was standing between him and my moms chair and he was sighing and grumbling the whole time bc he couldnt muster the #--balls to ask the 5 foot 2 fag in front of him to please move lol. small victories right) #when i say her i mean the leader of the freaks. idk. chairman? anyway she had a whole speech about how like queers are bad and cutting #the penises off little babies or whatever and she pulled up this passage from a book that was part of the display #its some book by the youtuber rowan ellis-- here and queer i think was the title. it was cataloged in our ya section and contained passages #talking about like having safe sex and what dildoes are and all that kind of shit. just really clinical descriptions imo. im not familiar w #--the youtuber really but im assuming they wrote it as informational bc shocker: teens be having sex. unsafe sex. especially queer teens #sourse: i was one of tgose #and...think for a moment. remember when you were a teen. youd rather fucking DIE than listen to your parents give you the sex talk #and chances are if youre gay your parents arent even going to know WHAT gay sex is (hugging without shirts on) so youre going to look #--elsewhere #bc if youre a hormonal fucking teen youre going to figure it out one way or another! especially if youre from (cough) a podunk shitwater #--town like mine that ran on abstinence by way of sex education #i think teens deserve to have access to that sort of information through trusted means. and i do mean het teens too #but no these fucking morons put on airs like everyones waiting till marriage--no! not my becky sue! as if they werent fucking around in #--holy shit i reached taglimit. i didnt ecen know there was one. hold on

[mokeonn]

I'll make a post about it later but I swear the WORST advice I see being passed around in art circles is that art is a popularity contest and the only possible way to make money off of art, especially online, is to get popular first. Like that is BLATANTLY false.

The art community CONSTANTLY has to remind artists how damaging the numbers game is, and I think a huge reason why is because of how common a misconception it is that you have to be popular to make a living. It feels like the second I leave my specifically curated tumblr art community, I am bombarded with this idea.

#simon says #rant #delete later maybe #i made this bc I was watching a youtube video about how harmful fast fasion is for artists #and in the comments someone was talking about how they gave up on commissions bc no one ever bought them even though their prices were low #and someone responded by saying that the artist had to do youtube bc making a living was a popularity context #and I quote: 70% popularity 30% talent #and the first person said they were fucked because they had autism and social anxiety and couldn't do youtube #i instantly jumped in and made a long ass comment correcting this #giving advice on how to get more commissions and build an audience for themselves #while telling them that the person telling them it's about popularity is SUPER wrong #I now understand why there's ALWAYS a post about ignoring the numbers game getting popular #I totally fell into the same pitfall where I thought I had to get famous first before making a living #working with an artist as a studio assistant and deleting twitter has helped me stomp that mindset out #it's just not true yall. you don't need popularity you need passion #anyways I wanted to rant about this because I never realized that people were like... ACTUALLY telling young artists this #I thought that it was a mindset folks naturally fell into (like me) but it turns out people are just... blatently saying it #you're actively discouraging artists if you say shit like that btw #that's kinda why I decided to rant it just made me so mad like bro you are being a dick rn and preventing someone from creating #like the numbers game totally stops a lot of artists from creating what they like bc it won't do well #when you spread that idea that popularity is what makes an art career you are hurting so many artists #like I understand HOW the misconception starts and I understand where it comes from (once again been there done that still unlearning) #but don't spread that idea yall. it's just so shitty #anyways rant over uwu

[anotherpapercut]

people acting like there isn't still very much an active stigma against cannibas and cannibas users is going to be my joker origin story

when i go to the doctor they still put cannibas use under the tab "substance abuse". not even just substance use. it is fully assumed that people who use cannabis, even as a prescription medication, are abusing it. just because you're friends with a couple of dumbass stoners doesn't mean that we've abandoned the idea as a culture that weed is a bad and scary and dangerous and highly addictive drug that will ruin your life if you use it once

#idk what its like in other countries but in the us and especially in red states fear mongering about weed is alive and well #'it ruins lives' -direct quote from a library board member making it so we can be fired for testing positive even w a prescription #i just take umbrage with posts about addiction that go out of their way to mention weed which we all learned in 6th grade is addictive #but dont also mention that this true of all prescription drugs and that a person can be dependant on a drug for health reasons??? #yeah i get anxious and cant go a day without weed. because i use it to treat my anxiety and pain. i also get anxious without my wellbutrin #but people arent lining up to make posts about it?? and like you CAN obviously become addicted to prescription drugs its super common! #so i kind of feel like it would be far more useful to say 'this is true of ALL drugs. including weed caffeine and prescriptions' #you should always research ANY drug you take. prescription or not. find out about addictiveness + side effects + other drug interactions #and you should talk to someone if you feel anxious about your relationship to drugs. prescription or not #there have been many times where i was prescribed way too many drugs at once and it made me feel anxious and uncomfortable #so i talked to my doctors and consolidated several and it actually made them work a lot better #locked reblogs because i KNOW people are going to read this is 'so you should never ever talk about negative consequences of weed' #and im pretty sure the people who follow me will be able to understand thats obviously not what im saying #but as soon as it leaves my blog whos to say. but anyway like. I think we should talk more about addiction to all substances #and not just the ones that were already covered in DARE #I feel like at this point everybody has heard all of the negative possibilities with weed use at least once #and that's not necessarily true of caffeine and even like. benadryl lmfao #I might delete this in 10 minutes if I psych myself out akbdjznsjf

[thecomet-and-themeteor]

I don't know how much sense this makes but I need a Langelique Cinderella AU, I think it'd work pretty well

#brought to you by: #my last post about angelique's fuck-ass sneakers #& juliet #and juliet #&j #okay but genuinely I think it would work really well #like Angelique is working for lady and daddy cap right #ignore how I called him daddy cap we did Romeo and Juliet for the school play this year and that's what we all called him #and like May and Juliet are the quote unquote evil stepsters #but you know they're not evil they're just like way nicer in comparison to their parents #and like you know the prince holds a ball to find a wife and it's this like whole thing #because lady and daddy cap want Juliet and may to go to like end up with the prince #and like the prince is still Frankie here because maycois is goated let's be real #and like this is kind of where you could either make it centric to a specific ship or you could just do like the whole thing as an au #you could say that like Frankie likes May but when they approach the capulets they're like oh Juliet you want Juliet and it's a whole thing #and you could do jumeo because I don't know maybe Romeo is like you know what Paris was like in the actual Romeo and Juliet play Romeo is #like Paris and the capulets hate him because Lance has kind of like pushing Frankie to be with Romeo but Romeo wants to be with Juliet #and Juliet wants to be with Romeo and blah blah blah but Lance and Angelique specifically comes in where it's like okay but what if Lance i #also looking for a new partner at these balls because you know his wife like died and he needs someone else to share the throne with and #that's why both may and Juliet end up going because their parents don't care about the age difference because their parents suck and they'r #just like you're going to end up with royalty one way or another and you know Angelique is like be safe and actually parenting them and #and warning them and making sure they're prepared to like actually go out to this ball because royalty or not it's still dangerous and #they're both like why don't you just come with us and it's a bit where like maybe April and William play the role of fairy godparents #and you know Angelique is able to go and she meets Lance and they have their little shoe thing and they have the Cinderella ark meanwhile #there's the whole love square with May Frankie Juliet and Romeo and Juliet gets to have a moment where it's like how are you so controlling #that you're pushing May to get with a man like 30 years their senior yet you cant deal with me getting with the wrong rich guy and may is #like screw y'all Juliet was The Golden child anyway okay I get what I want now and it's all happily ever after #and angelique gets Lance a magical girl transformation and some CLEAN FUCKING SNEAKERS EVEN MINE ARENT THAT DIRTY N I DONT CLEAN EM FOR SHI #anyways

[shopcat]

i think perhaps saying dnis don't work is a bit silly because well they do as the function of them By and large "work" by showing what you will and won't tolerate or stand for as a person and what you will be posting about in that regard and anyone who willingly follows you will know this and if they didn't read it and would be upset by the criteria on it for whatever reason it's their own fault. it's like a built in contingency as well as a statement more so for others than a big sign saying "keep out racists!!!" that the racists will sadly walk away from your blog with. so. you can't reasonably say do not interact x y and z especially for systemic bigotry that anyone including ourselves are capable of enacting but you can reasonably say i don't agree with or tolerate this shit and will kill you if you are near me, which i think is better than people just assuming so personally, esp bc a lot of things AREN'T just like, something you can assume. mostly i think it's just quicker to say a 3 letter abbreviation than anything else.

#🐾 #like yeah ppl will do whatever they want anyway but i'd say most ppl esp the kind in my dni for example #are very insecure and hateful individuals who consider themselves the victims and do not want to be quote unquote ''discriminated'' against #WHICH is why anyone saying something like pr*shippers dni works anyway bc they're so entitled that they wouldn't be ABLE #to follow someone who hated them they would rather pitch the mother of all tantrums than do that lol #and if they did follow or heavily interact despite it they have to put up with people being hostile towards them so well it's lose-lose #for them.. lol #dni's as a function anyway came from im pretty sure just normal etiquette culture in certain communities #like those banners and stuff ... ppl integrating them into their blogs themselves is a pretty natural progression but does come with other #issues that i guess other people are critical of but i don't really see the point in being so bc like well everyone KNOWS so who cares #like yeah you can't actually control who sees ur blog or posts / no one checks people bios before interacting w something #but it's expanded to just mean a plain ''don't follow me/talk to me or i'll block you'' #you can't necessarily be mad perpetually at the idea of someone you dislike as a person touching your stuff but you can control ur own like #space... #other stuff that's like sounds obvious/could be interpreted as pandering/is ''the bare minimum'' is like well okayyy but it's not FOR THAT #it's for saying you don't tolerate that type of harmful bigoted shit

[agayconcept]

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#wow ok so the new nurse practitioner im connected with is uh. The Worst Person #extremely discriminatory #doesnt give a fuck about her patients well being or health #wont do her job properly even when its fucking over said patients #is lazy as shit and tries to get out of doing any work whatsoever even just checking a fax #and has now screwed my healthcare over bc she's going on vacation for 2 weeks and DIDNT INFORM ME even tho i have tests scheduled #and am supposed to start meds that r extremely time sensitive #but now i just. Cannot access them bc she wont prescribe them before she leaves #so uh. ok. we're fuckin Done w this #gonna talk to my support worker tomorrow and explain and ask for a referral outside the program #which suuuucks bc that means said NP would have to do it and im sure she'll put up a fight but uh #ya no sweetie we r done w this #u hate disabled ppl and think my life and health is a joke #u have spent 3 weeks sabotaging any attempts i have made at getting adequate care and access to resources #genuinely and actually Fuck Off And Die #this is. truly infuriating i rly dont have words #like hooo boy if i had to quote some of the shit she's said and done y'all would be shocked #which is rly saying something considering the abysmal state of healthcare in most countries rn #aiyaiyai #Fuck This #i am. so so so done

[dogcollarpunk]

//through gritted teeth// I'm being so Self-Organized and Time-Managing Right Now

#beef trimmings #quoting the warnings for our 80 credit 2nd module #“ self organization and time management is key” #since I was fucking. not that last module im like wow look at me #//angrily prepping a presentation outline so I can update it as we work the next couple of months// #//starts doing tasks the day we get them// #//actually finished todays assigned task instead of procrastinating// #//actually took notes last wednesdays lecture// #my entire body brain and soul is SEETHING right now #idk why its making me so angry but im fucking doing it!! #I should open up a pressy for our research journal as well #I know this is what I signed up for but literally just shoot me I dont wanna do essays #gods weakest little soldier being assigned a writing task #//dies// #on the other HAND IF I KEEP ON TOP OF MY WORK #I CAN ASSIGN MYSELF MY OWN BRIEF FOR THE FINAL PART OF THE MODULE #that is three whole weeks to work on my own thing!!!! #more maybe even bc of the easter holiday!!!!!

[jvzebel-x]

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#LMAO I FUCKING CANT. #so missionaries came to my doorstep-- which is literally just hilarious. even more hilarious? one of them was from hawaii. #they ask about my religion&i tell them bc i dont see any point not to&the yt man speaking to me tells me #he was a surfer back in the day so--&this is a literal quote-- 'i went to hawaii&heard it all as a haole on the beach' #remember this is literally entirely unprompted from a missionary who knocked on my door in response to my answering a question #about my religion. so why did this come up? probably the same reason that he then went to on to ask me what would happen if HE wanted #to join my religion&when i answer 'you would probably have to handle that yourself as religion is entirely personal' #he literally stands there w no answer before going 'well our church accepts EVERYONE no matter what theyve done' #&--again this is a direct quote-- 'we have ppl who have done blood sacrifices to their ancestors who have found the REAL god' LMAO. #he then started talking about how the neighboring apartment complex has a primarily east european community? #like with actual statistics bc appartently he just knows that the next apartment complex over is 80% yt immigrants? #not entirely sure how they had anything at all to do w anything so thats around when i stopped laughing openly at him #&told him my neighbors were coming up the stairs&i found taking up the entire staircase to be incredibly rude #so they needed to get the fuck out lmao&the missionary from hawaii-- who had said almost nothing the whole time lmao-- #wouldnt look me in the eye while telling me thank you for my time probably bc he now had to continue doing missionary work #w a man who spent a solid five minutes trying to prove im racist&exclusionay as a default #literally ONLY bc im hawaiian v traditional about it&proud as FUCK about all those facts #whiiiiich only made him look&sound. fucking TERRIBE lmao. #anyway its good to know that several hundreds of years later&a move away from my colonized home where yt missionaries destroyed my culture #i STILL cant fucking get away from yt missionaries&their ABHORRENT behaviour lmao. #i need to start checking who the fuck is at my door before opening it. #or at the v least start letting roxy just fucking tear ppl like this to shreds like she wants bc their vibes are so rank #my dog can't stand at my side w/o her ridge going so far up she doesnt NEED to growl to get the point across lmao.

[computerpeople]

my mom got very very drunk yesterday and she's an aggressive drunk, not physically but it amplifies her anger and irritation by like 6, and she's already a very very explosive and volatile woman. she got in a fight with her boyfriend and was screaming and drove off to the middle of nowhere and that's why my sister called and im so proud of her for reaching out and asking me to call, and i think she is too, she said she wants to call me more for sure and wants to ask more, and that she felt a lot better after we called. that feels good for me, even if im worrying about it now, at her age i didn't have anyone to turn to or call, so im glad i get to be that for her. i fucking hate my parents man

#my mom is so. #shes just not well man. she isn't healthy #neither is my dad. #working on myself away from them has gotten so scary because. holy shit. holy shit they are. like. broken people. not in the sad way but #like in a 'how how the fuck did you get this far in life without dying. how. how did you fucking do that' #my dad aparently hates his job and wants to quit because and i quote 'the teenage workers wont clean up after themselves' #and now he 'has to' deal with that at home AND at work #and i swear hes makingf it up in his head because literally he is a hoarder and insane and expected all of us to keep the house with him in #it cleaned without him actually putting in any effort. so i assume thats what happening at his job too but thats so baffling because its li #llike how are you a grown man fucking acting like this at your minimum wage job #how . #youre fucking inane #anyways everyones scared he might kill himself too so now ive gotta worry abotu BOTH parents killing themself #and even when i moved he was lkike we need to talk about where my moneys going if i die before youre twenty four #and of course i was like. huh!? i dont think youre going to...? #and he was like yeah we just gotta make sure though #HUH?! #but i assumed thats bexcause fucking everyone has us brainwashed that hes going to die of a heart attack #i brought that up with my sister too i was like. i swear its not even a real threat but everyones always freaking out about it but hes #literally never had heart problems and has fantastic blood tests other than slightly high cholestoral. its literally just because my step #moms dad died of a heart attack and she proojected it onto him and said i was going to give him one #and now my entire family is convinced thats how hes going to die #but my sister said my mom took her to my dads house at one point and he didnt answer the doorbell for HOURS #he was asleep but while drivbing away my mom was like 'phew i thought we were going to walk in on him dead' #BROOO WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT TO YOUR 16 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER WITH OCD AND PTSD FUCK OFFFFFF #I HATE YOU #txt

[mokeonn]

Man I gotta get started on that dnd comic idea I've had for a while because if yall like Poetry yall are REALLY gonna like Mystery

#simon says #I might actually make Mystery and Poetry 'sisters' #it's in quotes because Poetry is an Asmodeus tiefling and Mystery is a reborn #to be more specific #Mystery is a Reborn made of 3 Zariel tieflings an Asmodeus tiefling a white dragonborn and a gnome #they're both tieflings but Poetry is also a bard and they're different kinds of tieflings. one fae one infernal #but I think they'd get along well #but yeah I realized 'oh boy if yall like this little pink ball of sunshine get ready for a little yellow ball of sunshine!' #I'll have to draw art tomorrow after work but I do like the idea of Mystery and Poetry being found family of some sort #mainly because I think they would get along #they're both silly little warlocks #but yeah I really need to get that dnd comic idea started #i had this idea for a while and im really attached to it #i wanna get back into making comics and I wanna use these dnd characters while not getting rid of their dnd-ness #I'll probably post about it more this year #i got like two projects im working on out of passion and my love of the crafts (video games and comics) #but I'm also working on making an income from my art or just finding a job i enjoy that suits me #whatever comes first #but yeah I am absolutely gonna talk about my characters more soon because I love them so much and I just KNOW yall will love them too #they're very loveable little guys #a group of the fantasy equivalent of 20-something adventurers #specifically 4 of them #i HAVE been debating on adding one more but that might just be a later addition to the cast or not at all #I'll absolutely post about them more as I work on the comic #I'm worried about posting about it now since like #the designs could change?? #like the characters themselves are set in stone but i am STRUGGLING with outfit design #gonna have to figure out some comfy camp outfits or something so I can draw and post them here before I decide on their main outfits #except Cardamon he's perfect just the way he is #I got his wizardly swag down perfectly on the second try