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hee0soo · 7 months

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Summary: Wooyoung finds something out you didn´t want him to know yet...

Jung Wooyoung x afab!Reader

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"You look so good with a baby in your arms y/n! When are you and Wooyoung going to have some?”

Horrified you looked up from where you had admired your boyfriends newly born niece. The little girl was calmly slumbering while suckling gently on her pacifier. A stark contrast to the inner turmoil going on inside of you!

Originally you and Wooyoung had planned to drop by his parent’s house to visit them while he and the boys had gotten 2 weeks to do whatever they wanted before preparations for their next comeback started. Neither of you had anticipated that 1 week before your little vacation started, the oldest Jung brother’s first baby would be born!

She was a bit early but Wooyoungs sister in law and the little girl were in perfectly good health so they too came for a visit to introduce the baby to their family.

You were more than excited seeing as your boyfriend had shown you hundreds of picture since the baby was born and you had to admit, she was definitely cute.

But now you were frozen to your place on the couch, starring at Eunkyung in shock at being addressed like that all of a sudden.

The older woman beamed brightly at you, not having intended to startle you so bad but also being genuinely interested if she would get any more grandchildren any time soon.

Not able to utter more than a few awkward stammers, you looked at your boyfriend for help. Wooyoung, sensing that you weren´t sure what to say, scratched at the back of his neck.

“Eomma I promise you´ll be the first to find out when we are expecting,”

He smiled at his mother and pressed a kiss to her cheek before sauntering over to where you were sitting and took his place next to you. Gazing down at the baby still sleeping.

His words were echoing in your head.

When… not If…

It wasn´t that you had never thought about having children of your own, just that you couldn´t possibly see yourself as a mother.

The thought alone, scared the shit out of you. Sometimes the Tiktok algorithm would show you videos talking about the things nobody talked about during a pregnancy or about birth and you were sure, that you didn´t want any of that. Paired with the things you witnessed in public, how some kids were behaving like the most obnoxious brats, your decision not to have children only manifested further.

Of course you knew that not every child was like that but it wasn´t enough to change your opinion on the matter. Not even the baby fever you would get from time to time when a coworker showed you pictures of her baby at work, or the happy feelings you had had up until now changed anything for you.

And the words Wooyoung´s mother had uttered were a painful reminder of that. They were like an ice cold shower that reminded you of the harsh reality that you didn´t want children!

Seeing Wooyoung admire his niece and hearing his reply broke your heart.

Because while you didn´t want to be a mother, he, without a doubt wanted to be a father! And you couldn´t bare the fact that you didn´t couldn´t give him that, or more precisely, didn´t want to give him that…

Time flew as the day slowly came to an end. Between trying to hide that your emotions from the Jung family and the cooing about the little sunshine now sleeping in her mother’s arms, you had barely noticed the sun slowly setting as it became dark outside.

Nobody had mentioned the topic again but you felt like a dark cloud hung right above your head, following you where ever you went even when dinner was getting served.

Not feeling like eating, you pushed the rice around with your chopsticks.

“Aren´t you hungry?”

Wooyoung asked worried, voice hushed as to not alert his parents, knowing that the last time you ate was breakfast this morning.

You shook your head with a reassuring smile, praying that it would come across as believable. It seemed to work as your boyfriend nodded and instead transfer some of your food into his bowl before placing his free hand on your thigh, running his thumb gently over the fabric of your jeans and squeezing ever so slightly.

Wooyoung wasn´t a fool however. And he knew you, probably better than you thought which made it easy for him to see through your little lie. You might be able to fool his parents, but him? Absolutely not!

And that´s why he waited until his parents went to bed and you and him retired to his old bedroom. None of you planned to go to sleep yet, him being used to late nights at the company and you being an overall night owl, so you both got comfortable in his bed with your laptop playing a drama neither of you acknowledged.

Instead, you laid back into the warmth Wooyoung was radiating while he had his arms wrapped tightly around you, kissing the side of your face every on and then.

That went on for 2 more episodes where none of you mentioned the incident of this morning, but Wooyoung wouldn´t be Wooyoung if he wasn´t the tiniest bit to curious and impatient to hold himself back any longer.

He felt your body going stiff at the question of what was going on, a definite sign that something was indeed going on.

“I´m okay, don´t worry.” You stated, trying to relax yourself.

Wooyoung hummed.

“Jagi-ya…please be honest with me…”

You turned your head a little, eyebrow raised.

“I am honest with you Woo.”

“No you´re not. You know that just as much as I do.”

His voice was eerily calm and it set something of inside you.

Guilt was gnawing at your consciousness, knowing that you had been caught in your lie. Your eyes felt wet all of a sudden.

“Can we please just drop it?”

The waver of your voice only caused the man behind you to worry even more. He felt bad for urging you to talk but if he had learned one thing since being in Ateez, it was communication! And whatever was bothering you was obviously an issue…

“I´m sorry but we can´t. This isn´t like you and I want to help you but I can´t do that if we don´t talk about it…”

You shook your head, desperate to hold the tears back and not let them drop, knowing that you most likely would be reduced to a sobbing mess if you let them go.

“Y/n please…”

“Wooyoung drop it!”

Hearing his full name mad him stop in his tracks. It was always Woo or Youngie or some other form of endearment but never his full name.

It was quiet for a few minutes, the dancer thinking hard about what could have set this off until he remembered his mothers question from earlier that day.

“You know if this is about what eomma said today-“

“Wooyoung-“

You freed yourself from his hold, sitting up and looking at him.

“there´s nothing rushing us, we´re-“

“Drop. It!” you pressed out, desperate for him to stop talking.

“We don´t need to think about it now but maybe one day we´ll have-“

“I DON`T WANT CHILDREN!!!”

Immediately you regretted your words. Sitting there in his bed, starring at him leaning against the headboard while starring right back at you.

Fear held onto your heart tightly, scared of how he would react.

Wooyoung sat there like he had been frozen in time. Entirely still and not able to move he felt like the wind got knocked out of his lungs as he starred at you with wide eyes.

The silence was suffocating and you didn´t dare to say anything, not wanting to lose him further. You felt the hand he had grabbed yours with during his little rant let go and for the first time in your entire relationship it felt like you were miles apart from each other.

“What?”

Listening to his voice break hurt you more than you could describe.

“Woo I-“

You didn´t know what to say. It was the truth and nothing you said could make it better.

Resigned you let out a shuddering breath.

“Why- What- Why did you never-“

Wooyoung wasn´t able to form a proper sentence, too many things racing through his mind all at once at the revelation.

He had thought that after all these years in your relationship; he would someday have a family with you. But that dream had burst like a bubble just as easily as breathing.

Something that became increasingly harder to do the longer he looked at you.

Pain was etched onto your face and logically he knew that getting up and leaving was not a good idea at all but he couldn’t bear to look at your face at the moment. The tears streaming down your face were enough indication that this wasn´t something you took lightly and the chocked outcry you tried to stop from escaping as you reached for his hand, not wanting to let him go was something he was sure would burn itself into his brain.

It didn´t stop him from forcefully closing the door after he walked out of his room, leaving you alone in your misery.

You wanted to follow him so badly, but you couldn´t find the strength in yourself to get up and actually walk after him.

At this point, the drama was completely forgotten as you hugged yourself, trying to comfort yourself. It wasn´t working.

Sobs ripped through you and shook your body.

This was exactly what you were scared of in the first place. The Wooyoung would hate you! Why else would he walk out on you?

You knew that not having kids was for most people considered a deal breaker and it seemed that Wooyoung also considered it one. You could respect that but it didn´t mean that it didn´t hurt…

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Meanwhile Wooyoung was trying to get his nerves to calm down while taking a walk through the neighborhood.

The cold air of the October night was biting at his nose and he regretted not taking a jacket with him, surprised that he even remembered to grab hi phone before leaving the house.

Dialing an all too familiar number, the man waited until the call was picked up.

“Woo? I thought you were visiting your parents with y/n? Why are you calling me?”

Yeosang asked, wondering why his best friend wasn´t spending his free time with you.

And Wooyoung started to rant. Spilling everything that troubled him in that moment.

When he was done, all the older boy could say was, “Wow,”

“Yeah, wow. You can say that out loud, I mean, I always thought that I would have kids someday and now I just… I don´t know what to feel Sangie…”

At home, Yeosang listened to his fellow 99-liner, thinking about what to say.

“To be honest, I think that you don´t really have a say in the matter. It´s y/n body you know… If she doesn´t want that you might have reevaluate what you want more. A child or y/n…”

“I love her, that doesn´t change! But I also want a family with her…”

Wooyoung ran his hand trough his unkempt hair. A motion he had been doing more than once in the past hour.

“But not having children, doesn´t mean no family Woo.”

It was silent for a while. So much so that Yeosang had to check if he was still on the call with the other.

“I don´t want to lose her!” Wooyoung whispered.

“And you won´t but you have to talk to her!”

The slightly older boy sighed, feeling bad for his group member and you.

“And you really just walked out on her?”

Forgetting, that the other couldn´t see him through the fun, Wooyoung nodded before answering.

“You should have seen her face when I did Yeo, it was like she thought I was leaving her-“

“Well you kind of did my friend and judging by what you just told me, she´s probably hurting more than you are right now…”

Realizing that his friend was right, the younger wanted to kick himself. How could he have just left you sitting on the bed? Reaching out for HIM to come back to you?

Honestly he would be surprised if you would stay with him after that stunt!

“Go back to her okay? I know it hurts but it´s the only way!”

Famous last words before the other hung up.

Wooyoung looked at the clock on his phone. It was 1:21 am. Which meant that he had been walking for almost 3 hours!

He hadn´t even noticed that it had been that long!

His heart dropped at the realization that you had been alone for that long without any comforting words like he had just received!

Racing back the street he had come from he hurriedly ran back home.

The house was dead silent when he entered. It was the middle of the night after all!

Wooyoung came to stand in front of his own room, not daring to open the door. Hesitating to walk into what might be the end of your relationship!

What he found instead was you, curled up on the bed, holding onto the comforter like your life depended on it. Your face was still wet and puffy, telling him that you were indeed crying until very recently and he thought he could see a lonely tear still falling from your closed eyes.

It seemed that you had cried yourself to sleep after he left.

Stepping closer, you saw the goose bumps littering your arms from the fresh air inside his room.

He grabbed the blanket from your grasp, wanting to cover your body with it and promptly got startled when your body shot up abruptly, eyes wide open.

“Hey it´s just me!”

Holding up his hands to show he wasn´t a danger Wooyoung let go of the fabric.

“Woo?!”

“Yeah, it´s me I-“

Not able to finish his sentence and not prepared by the force of you throwing yourself at him, he nearly toppled over before catching himself and accidently hurting yourself and him in the process.

“I´m so sorry Woo!” you whimpered not sure he had heard you.

“No don´t be. We can figure this out okay… Together!”

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