#the-very-rubiest

[arsonist-chicken]

@the-very-rubiest and here she is scratching and jumping to be let out while I was trying to focus on my online class, so this was in the summer semester 2020. This is also her still being pretty tame about it, if you keep ignoring her, she also starts hammering against the door and jumping up to the door handle to try to open it but always falls just a little bit short; but it's the loudest fucking noise ever for a cat just jumping and scratching at the door.

#you can listen to a glimpse of a russian grammar class if you want to #i certainly didn't want to #stupid goddamn aspects who the fuck invented those #the-very-rubiest #cats #void cat #mine #not transcribed #animal corner

[sparkly-skies]

#someone gif that part so i can send it to my terror twin i'll love you forever

pspsps @the-very-rubiest go bother your bestie

#he really said #oh? free back to jump on? is for me? yeet! #and then stuck there like a Klammeräffchen #*spider monkey #'I am HERE and you're not getting rid of me unless you literally throw me off' #joel hokka #blind channel #id in alt text

[mondscheinprinzessin]

I was tagged by @ao3userxnowimnothing to do a fic author self rec, thank you🥰

rules: list your top 5 favorites of your fics, what they're about, and why you're proud of them, then tag some fic authors to do the same!

1. Paint me the sun, the moon, and the stars It’s funny because I’m not even really into the soulmate trope and I was fairly new to writing poly relationships, but I just feel like that this is one of my best works writing wise and how I portrayed them together and as characters, and the emotions, and how the story progressed. Yeah, I just love everything about it💕

2. Should I sink or swim or simply disappear? This one just means a lot to me personally and I’m proud I finished it mostly because it really helped me understanding myself a bit better and helping me process my own feelings, and be more open open mental health in general. I had the one or other oh moment while writing it.

3. I’m caught beneath with nothing left to give I was always afraid to touch stories of other authors because what if my ideas don’t live up to the original fic? But I was just so inspired by the original series that I tried something new because while I do love to write about hurt/comfort and angst, I never went into this direction, but I think I captured Aleksi’s situation really well, and my writing style was different here too, so that was fun!

4. The feeling of your skin locked in my head I know, I know, I always said I won’t ever write smut, and after every smut fic I say I won’t do it again as quickly, and I always thought I would suck at it, but turns out, no, I can write it. And I’m proud of myself for trying and getting so much better at it, and this fic I like especially because of the feelings in it and having a very soft Joonas, and the relationship with Aleksi is just so sweet🥰

5. More than just Alive Why do I like it? It’s a coffeeshop AU which I absolutely love reading, very insecure main characters (love to make them suffer), and a very sweet love story. It’s also my second finished multichapter, and I was really proud of doing it because I didn’t trust myself fully pulling through. But I did!

Honorary mention because I couldn’t decide between the last one and this one: Please stay away from me, because angst (duh), loved hinting at Aleksi’s backstory and how I incorporated it into the fic.

I am tagging: @paleangels13 @erdfrauchen @the-very-rubiest @poodlejoonas

#feel like when it comes to tagging I forget people's existence #I have read all of these fics way too often (counts for any of my tbh)😅

[ifidiedinadream]

1, 3, 14, 25?

hello friend!!

favorite fic you wrote this year

already answered but i'll give you another answer: favorite record

3. favorite line/scene you wrote this year

from the aforementioned favorite record:

" Aleksi ," Aleksi reads out. It's written with a thick black marker on the CD, in Joel's wonky handwriting and a heart next to it that looks so damn stupid now that Joel's looking at it. "I suppose it's not the demos we've been working on this week?" 

Joel shakes his head no. He wishes he could articulate but words were always Niko's specialty, not his. 

Aleksi tries to help him. "So what is this?" he says softly, a reassuring smile lighting up his face. 

"A - a playlist," Joel says. "Songs that make me think of you." 

Things I wish I could tell you myself, he wants to add, but how embarrassing would that be? 

Aleksi's smile widens, and maybe there's a blush in his cheeks but that could be Joel's wishful thinking or the sunset tinging his skin. 

14. a fic you didn’t expect to write

another one i didn't expect to write: sweet and red. i mean i do like darkfic i just didn't expect it to be like this

25. a fic you read this year you would recommend everyone read

incredibly obsessed with (this is how) we sell our lies by @the-very-rubiest 🤯🤯🤯

#answered #games

[chaoslaura]

Rules: choose one picture from your camera roll without downloading to sum up your personality then tag 5 people.

Thanks @vanilla-hate ✌️

I rarely take pictures and I almost never save any or I instantly delete them, so I barely had any to chose from.

I go with this one because I am a sleepy bitch. I could lay down this second and fall asleep, no kidding.

I am tagging: @drippinlou @itsfandomsgalore @erdfrauchen @theflyingfeeling @the-very-rubiest

#yes this is my old cat #the picture must be from before 2009

[arsonist-chicken]

@the-very-rubiest the little Void knocking on my window at ?? o'clock to be let in. Also I can't post more than one video at once?? so there'll be another post of her demanding to be let out.

#if this video ever finishes uploading #cats #cat void #mine #the-very-rubiest #don't mind my voice and yes i'm allowed to tease her a little after she woke me up #that's still the nice way of her demanding to be let in #if you let her wait too long she gets up on her hind legs and starts knocking at the glass at a volume you'd think a human is knocking #animal corner

[arsonist-chicken]

You want some questions? You're getting some questions. How 'bout 1, 2, 12, 42, 43, 54, 86, and I'll stop myself from asking even more now to leave some for the others 🌺

What do you crave in a psychological sense? Intimacy, passion, purpose, belonging, social interaction, etc.?

I think I either don't understand this question or I don't know myself well enough to know the answer. All of those? Who wouldn't want all of those? I'd love to have a general sense of knowing what I want from life and what I want my life to look like so I can figure out how to get there, like an idea of what my future looks like. I want to live peacefully either by myself with cats or with someone or several someones I care about and am happy to share a living space with, and spend time with friends and for my friends to be happy. I want to not worry about rent or living costs and earn enough to sometimes go to a concert or a fun outing or a restaurant with friends and buy fun stuff that I don't technically need without feeling bad about spending money on it. I want to not be anxious whenever I think about my future. I want to have a peaceful, secure live to spend with people I care about and a cat or two in a nice place with a small garden or balcony, and a sense of purpose for my life and my future.

2. What kind of emotions do the stars evoke for you, if any? The ocean, the sky, the moon?

I'll just copy what I wrote for Laura already: The stars!! The sea!! The sky!! The moon!! So pretty!! Not that I see the sea more than every few years but still. I mean look at that sky!

Emotions? It depends I guess. It can be absolutely wonderful to sit by a sunset or under the stars with friends and talk about anything and everything. It can be really peaceful to hang up the laundry late at night outside and look up and see stars forever and ever. It can also feel incredibly lonely to look out the window and see stars or a sunset and hear your neighbors have friends over and wishing so badly you were with friends right now too. If you're already sad or upset, it can become especially bad to look up at the sky at night all by yourself and be reminded of every bad decision you ever made and wish you could just quit everything and run away, or turn back time.

12. What's your most controversial opinion? Would you state it publicly? What's the most controversial opinion that you would publicly support, if it's different?

Not everyone should become a parent. Having children should be an active choice you make and that you should only make if you're really enthusiastic about it. If you're going to have children because "it's the next step", or you're scared you'll be lonely when you're older, or "well it's just what you do", etc. etc. - save the possible kid the experience of growing up with "well I guess" parents. If you regret not having kids later on, you can still volunteer to watch the neighborhood kids or something, but you can't just un-kid your kid if you already have it.

Having children should be a "hell yes!" decision, not an "sure I guess/why not". If you're not absolutely sure and enthusiastic about it, save everyone the grief.

Related (though not controversial I guess), parents sharing embarrassing baby stories (or photos ffs) of their (grown) kids can go to hell or something. Literally WHAT is the point except to make your kids uncomfortable around your or their friends/new partner/relatives they barely know anyway? Also, pregnancy is not a "miracle", it's a freaky body-altering medical condition that can have little or extreme effects on your body from person to person and should be treated as such.

42. Does affection come easily to you?

I wish 🥲 I know I'm very loud online about holding hands and hugs and cuddles and little forhead/cheek/wrist kisses but then irl I'm so awkward about it and don't know how to behave about it or if I should even do anything about it, rip 🥲☠ also with like.. gifting people something, like a small gift I picked up somewhere, I'm so awkward about then actually giving it to people. Something to work on.

43. How do you express affection? How do you like to receive affection?

I sat and stared at this for so long. Or at all the questions in general.

I sometimes bring my friends little knicknacks I saw that I thought they'd like, and I like bringing them food they like and send them things that reminded me of them or that I think they'd like; that's what the picture of the otter at the bar was for, and the [name] corner tag. Also just.. spending time together and helping them with stuff. I'm going to a furniture store this week with a friend who's moving to help her pick out stuff and get it to her new place.

I guess I like to receive affection in the same way? Just.. idk, if there's something that shows me someone thought about me, that already makes me very happy, and if they like to spend time with me.

54. When were you the happiest in your life? The saddest? Why?

Hmm. I don't know a single happiest time but it'd probably be somewhere around 20 (2017/18) when I finally lived away from my parents and had just started my Translation studies and still loved it before I started to love it less and got frustrated with my brain and mental health. Otherwise, I have a memory book that I write in when I had a good day (you might have seen it in Berlin?) and I flipped through it a while ago and noticed that every single thing I've written down included me doing something with or talking to friends, and a few things like "girl in class said she loved my hair colour". So it looks like I really am happiest when I get to spend time with friends, even if I often think I'm okay with being by myself for a while.

Saddest has to be the last few years - weirdly not 2020 really, but more last year and this year. Between the Bad and Worsening mental health and not too much hope for a therapy spot, all the bs with my delayed studies because of how badly I did with Russian and all the stuff that comes with it next to the worsening relationship to my parents, a feeling of my friends starting the next steps in their lives without me, several many things I messed up, and a general feeling of "what am I doing, what do I want from life, what does my future look like"-sadness, it's not been too great. Then again, there was good stuff in that time too, of course, like living with my friend and meeting certain people.

86. What could you talk about for hours?

Various language and culture stuff! How languages and language groups/families relate to each other, how speaking different languages can influence how we feel about the things we talk about or how comfortable we are talking about them, how the world looks different in different languages, (second) language acquisition, little cultural fun facts, different dialects within the same language and different words for the same stuff, the influence of English as the major language used on the internet between strangers or as a shared work place language, how people express themselves differently when they speak a different language (when they speak multiple ones), ...

If you ask me about any of these, my mind will probably blank and I'll have nothing, but talking about them and then stuff comes up in the conversation and you are reminded of things you've learned before and get to tell each other about different language things you know etc, yes, that can be hour-long conversations I think. Also how women are still often overlooked/left out on purpose in things like medical research/testing new medication or car safety. Also what different lives you live depending on your sex and gender and which different things you think about in everyday life that you wouldn't, or things you never think about but would if you were a different sex and/or gender.

#i guess my interests are language and culture stuff and society stuff? #i'm going back to my uni town next week in 10 days or so and then i'll be back to begging them for a therapy spot #fingers crossed for me #also begging my dean to let me speed up the masters degree #i can't be bothered to go to uni for another two years please god let me speed it up even if it's even more stressful #i'm not proofreading this. you're getting what you're getting #the-very-rubiest #ask game #hope you'll see the notification for that among your 66k notifs for the other post hjhjhj #ruby corner

[arsonist-chicken]

How accurate am I?

(AKA, I saw this template and my first thought was, "How can I meme my favorite raccoon Jess into this?" Sorry not sorry 🤭)

Aww 🥰

The first one very much, but the problem with the second one is that I'd rather avoid conflict if possible and find a non-confrontational solution; but I guess if that's not possible then throwing hands it is 🦝 not that that has happened so far though

#ruby corner #asks #not described #the-very-rubiest

[arsonist-chicken]

Tag game by @genxrocker ! Pick a song for each letter of your URL, and then tag that many people!

I was tagged by @grinsekatze-13 and by @get-the-cheese-to-sickbay who said they were going to "subject you all to my extremely correct music taste (these are all bangers, btw)" which I agree with and am also going to do with my extremely correct music taste ✨ (actually I don't have a V in my url so I'm cheating and telling you all to go listen to Joker Out's song Vse Kar Vem and read the translation and get messed up emotionally the way I am everytime)

A: Alive or Only Burning - Blind Channel

R: Runaway - Lonely Spring Lauras Buam

S: Solovey/Соловей - Go_A

O: Old me - 5 Seconds of Summer

N: Ne Bi Smel - Joker Out

I: If The Sky Came Down - Lost Society

S: Sad Weather Kids - Lonely Spring

T: Tässa on kaikki - Kuumaa

C: Can You Feel My Heart - Bring Me The Horizon

H: heavy metal - Bring Me The Horizon

I: In Corpore Sano - Konstrakta

C: Curtain Call - Robin Packalen

K: Kommst du mit - Liedfett (also Kalyna and Katrina and Kingslayer. Yeah I couldn't choose here)

E: Everytime we touch - Electric Callboy, Tekkno Version (watch the MV for a fun little dance)

N: Nightmare - Halsey

uuuh let me count. 15. I'm a can't do math gay though.

@chaoslaura @paleangels13 @the-very-rubiest @lepakonpaska @thewondrousworldofmarly @morbid-things @reserved-fruit @rosalba-robi @esskuesli @leopardom @conversationaltreestump @smolfangirl @goth-automaton @drippinlou @n3ongold3n @kraeuterhexchen

#the lists of the ones tagged me had excellent stuff in it like bmth and babymetal #and i found a miw song i could actually like #i prevail too #there are so many good songs with certain letters and only so many letters in an url to choose for. i had to cheat at K i just couldn't pic #tag game #mine

[mondscheinprinzessin]

🔁 A fic you’ve re-read several times

😂 A fic that made you laugh out loud

👀 A fic that you love a normal amount

🥰 A fic that gives you warm fuzzy feelings

📚 A fic you wish you could display on your bookshelf

✨ A fic you wish you could read again for the first time

😭 A fic that ripped your heart out (but it hurt so good)

🤔 The first fic you think of when I say [Berlin]

1.     🔁 A fic you’ve re-read several times

I could probably say that about every fic in the BC tag (that fit my likes). But recently it’s Invisible Joel by Milirii/ @milirii. AO3 says I’ve visited it 11 times already and it just gives me great comfort.

2.     😂 A fic that made you laugh out loud

night time struggles by nerdbyheart It’s from a time BC had to tour around in a camper and we wondered how the hell they were able to sleep in there.

3.     👀 A fic that you love a normal amount

Complicated love by poodlejoonas/ @poodlejoonas It’s like soooo good. It’s part of the dad!BC AU but this part focuses more on Aleksi’s abusive relationship and my god you guys need to give it a shot even if you’re not into OC’s because I can assure you Mia did an amazing job with it.

4.     🥰 A fic that gives you warm fuzzy feelings

It’s so hard to only say one, so you’re getting two.

Sincerity is Scary by curious_crocodile, because I love the atmosphere with sick Aleksi and late night talk with Joel

And Finding A Christmas Tree by Rubyleaf/ @the-very-rubiest, because the Christmas spirit sprinkled in there fills me with warmth, and Joel and Aleksi slowly realizing their feelings is so cute.

5.     📚 A fic you wish you could display on your bookshelf

Mine, perhaps?😄 I think at one point I would love to make my multichapters into books, to really display my work.

But I would also pick Two hearts per door by hatehater. A nice High school AU with a lot of angst.

Or The night won’t let me go by LNights/ @lnights, to have something darker up there.

6.     ✨ A fic you wish you could read again for the first time

Probably also all I’ve already read.

Broken English by alanija/ @erdfrauchen, because the hurt/comfort just hits better when it’s the first time, and all the things Joel thinks about Aleksi are so much funnier the first time around😄

7.     😭 A fic that ripped your heart out (but it hurt so good)

Black swan by poodle_noodle. Reading about Aleksi’s conflicts and his struggles and his unhealthy behaviour hurts really damn much😥

8.     🤔 The first fic you think of when I say [Berlin]

God damn that was hard, and I don’t want to do self-advertisement but my thought process was actually my sex room AU because I’ve talked with Lou about it, and she was in that club that hosts a sex club on some days which is in Berlin😅

So How to build a sex room by me

from this fic rec ask meme

#answered #tumblr made it really hard for me to answer this #but here you go #there's so many good fics that I had to think a bit with some questions #itsfandomsgalore #@Mia: I know I'm owing you a comment still and I will write it as soon as my brain's functioning but be assured #that I'm internally screaming about this fic

[mondscheinprinzessin]

Thank you @lnights I love doing picrews and this one is so cute <3

My whole arm isn't covered yet but will be almost after my next tattoo appointment. And I love cookies!

tagging @itsfandomsgalore @the-very-rubiest @another-sun

#those glasses make me 20 years older but whatever😄

[mondscheinprinzessin]

Thanks @jupiter-balls 😊

You can usually tell a lot about a person by the type of music they listen to. Put your favourite playlist on shuffle and list the first 10 songs then tag ten people! No skipping!

I've chosen my Rock/Metal playlist as usual cause apart from my Hollywood Undead playlist that's the only one I listen to really.

Tagging: @itsfandomsgalore @the-very-rubiest @spinef0ryou @tomorrows-unknown

#whenever I do this I get lost in my playlist cause I go oh wow these songs are banger who made this playlist? Ah right me #shuffle putting Limp Bizkit on there aka reveal your age #this playlist has over 700 songs so shuffle presents me with surprises every time #Spotify

[arsonist-chicken]

Opinions (maybe unpopular) on the most popular BC ships

The trope you can't say "no" to and the trope you wouldn't go near?

Also: why did you choose to study Russian? 👀

Alright, I looked at AO3 for the most popular ships and unsurprisingly, Joeleksi is right at the top with uuuh, almost twice as many fics as the next one.

I like Joeleksi! I think they're cute together and their little dances and the hugs with the pat pat are adorable 🥰 That being said, I understand if people get bored with or want to take a break from reading Joeleksi, just because there's so many of them (they make up 19.7 % of BC fics with a relationship right now).

Joonas/Niko does nothing for me, mainly because I'm not really interested in Niko as a fanfic character in general. I don't know why but he just doesn't do anything for me. I don't dislike stories with him as a main love interest but they don't interest me either.

For Joel/Joonas and Olli/Tommi, it really depends on how it's written. I really liked your -- I forgot the title, but the one where Joonas drags Joel to go ice skating and then comes out to him, that was cute! You know, they're close friends, they spend time together, they support and love each other, it's just cute and sweet.

(Unpopular opinion? I don't love it too much when Joel's depicted as some brooding depressed guy and Joonas as his savior who is determined to drag him out of his headspace/befriend him/force him to meet the other band members/... But I get if people want to write that, too, we only see small parts of how the guys actually are and have to build our fanfic chracterisation on that, so of course everyone gets assigned certain character traits.)

I had more thoughts about this but I'm tired and forgot while I was trying to gather the thoughts into a coherent explanation, sorry. So yeah, I really can just say it depends on how they're written if I like them or not.

I do really love Aleksi/Olli. I don't know why but something about them being more reserved (publically) than most of the others and eventually falling in love just gets me 🥺

Can't keep my answers short, can I? On to the next, oops.

Tropes I can't say no to: Love confessions! First kiss! Both of which go with Friends to Lovers! There was only one bed! Characters sitting/walking and talking about their feelings (with their partner/love interest or a trusted friend)! Coming out (esp. as bi or ace)! Idiots in love!

Tropes I won't go near: Major Character Death, miss me with that. Also reader inserts. I don't like anything too dark or violent either.

I also didn't think I liked Soulmate fics OR vampires AND I have trouble following longer fics, especially with a complicated/not straightforward plot, and now look at what you all have me read:

Our circus, our zoo - soulmates! (@lnights)

Paint me the sun, the moon, and the stars - soulmates! (@mondscheinprinzessin)

my bat, my heart - the most cutest most adorablest vampires ever! (@drippinlou)

(This is how) We Sell Our Lies - so long, so thought-through, so smart and clever (@the-very-rubiest)

"Also: why did you choose to study Russian? 👀"

🥲🥲🥲 I looked at which languages you could do for translation and interpreting at my university, and for everything except Russian, you had to be on at least an A-levels level, and I had never had a single lesson in any of the other languages (Spanish, French, Italian), so my only options were English, which I'd had of course, and Russian, which you could study from scratch. I thought hey, I've always been good at languages and they teach you Russian from zero onwards, that's managable, right? So now I'm here with 5 years for a 3-year degree because I kept failing my grammar classes and also just didn't study enough in general and lost all motivation etc. you know how it is.

Anyway, I still have days and bursts of energy and motivation where I am SO motivated and happy to study Russian, in general I do really love learning languags and about culture stuff, but I think I don't want to keep studying it at university - the constant knowledge in the back of my mind that I HAD to study this and that topic at a certain time or else I'd fail (which I DID, mind you) and have to live with all the consequences really took the enjoyment out of it.

I know it will be harder to keep learning Russian by myself and I'll have to revise a LOT first, but I'll also have the freedom to skip topics I don't care about - sorry, sorry, but I can NOT be bothered to learn about another tsar Alexander or Peter the fiftieth and whatever they did or what the highest mountain or the longest river in Russia is. Or maybe I will! Maybe now, those can be little fun facts to know instead of facts to learn by heart so I'll pass an exam!

So yeah. Picked Russian because it was my only option, loved it at first and grew frustrated more and more, somehow finished it still and am now hoping to get new motivation and especially excitement in learning Russian again! Your fics will certainly help, I'm sure ✨

Also sorry, I'm just incapable of keeping my answers short, it seems.

#thanks! #hmmm i'm going to sleep it's 4am regrettably #asks #rosalba-robi #wait let me queue this for tomorrow

[ifidiedinadream]

B, N, U?

hello!!!! thank you 💕💕 i already answered N 😌

B. Any of your stories inspired by personal experience?

almost all of them!! some on a deeper level than others 😅 am i losing it? is the most real life based fic ive ever written (although no i wasn't dating anyone in the psych ward 🙄)

U. Share three of your favorite fic writers and why you like them so much.

@theflyingfeeling @the-very-rubiest @mondscheinprinzessin because they write EXACTLY what i like and they do it in a way that leaves me 😦😦😦 (in a good way) every damn time. top notch stuff if you ask me

but honestly there are so many great writers in this fandom and i feel blessed!!

#answered

[mondscheinprinzessin]

For the first time in ages slept till 11. Thanks to @drippinlou @the-very-rubiest and @itsfandomsgalore for the concert company and city sightseeing that apparently broke my body😄 It was definitely worth it🖤

#If you want to do a berlin city tour then hit us up #we're definitely the worst to do that😂 #my voice is still broken #and Jess wants to sacrifice me to the moshpit on monday to make Joel happy #somebody rescue me

[mondscheinprinzessin]

Thanks for the tag @another-sun 😊

I don’t know who was already tagged either, so: @itsfandomsgalore​ @the-very-rubiest​ @drippinlou​ @kaunisbaby​ @tomorrows-unknown​ (whoever wants to)

#having too think a little too ahrd about the bands I like yes that's me #but those are mostly the bands I listened to the last two years it can change next year again