#these six months worth of mental instability condensed into words :) just for you guys!

[anabetel35]

A little something for WIP Wednesday :)

I've been working on this fic since the beginning of the summer and now, four months, a few mental breakdowns, the end of my year and a half long hyperfixation and two visits to the hospital later, it's got something over 52 thousand words :) plus, I'm almost at the end of this chapter, so, yay!

Fandom: Six of Crow, Shadow and Bone

Pairings: Wywei, Wesper, Kuwesper

Main tag: Alternative universe - hanahaki disease

I still find myself looking over my shoulder in public, looking for him, trying to see if he approves of what i’m doing. I still wait for him to come back from work – not like I think that he’ll just waltz through the door to my dorm room (he pretty much couldn’t dance. Never bothered to learn, I think), but sometimes I catch myself pulling out my phone to text him if he’ll be home for dinner or if I should start heating up my dinner.

I think I’ve moved past not knowing how to be without his name and title above my head. I just haven’t entirely outgrown that boy who went to private schools and lived in a nearly empty apartment.

When did you learn how to be Wylan? Not a Van Eck, just Wylan.

No. I don’t think you did. I think you’ve always been Wylan.

Does it get easier, then? Does being able to be you ever feel like you were always meant to be that? Or are we going to be lonely forever?

Link to the fic on AO3 <3

(or, if the link isn't working, it's called 'the worst thing about burnt flower petals (is that, darling, they are yours) )

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