#this is a little off brand for me lol

[weirdwonderfulworld]

one more thought. watcher isn't entirely comparable to netflix or other streaming services. unlike netflix, watcher tv exclusively hosts content that they've made. watcher isn't limiting any access to content that isn't their own. the closest thing to what watcher is doing is when streaming services have content exclusive to their platform, like netflix originals, tubi original movies, disney+ aninated shorts... it can be frustrating to not be able to access content because it only exists on one paywalled platform, but when it's literally created, owned, and funded by the platform itself, it doesn't really make sense to expect that content in any other way. you can want the content to be free or hosted on another platform. but the creator has the final say.

(and yeah at that point, maybe it's expected for things to get pirated. but unlike other media where sometimes the creators don't exactly discourage piracy bc their hands are tied and otherwise there's no way to access their work except through this larger entity, watcher is both creating the content and providing the means to access it. they have control over their own work. they can choose to do with it as they please.)

again i think it's normal to feel shocked, overwhelmed, upset, sad, disappointed, frustrated, etc. but if you specifically view this move as a betrayal against you, i'm personally inclined to think that you thought you were entitled to watcher's creations all along. you weren't. you aren't. you're not entitled to anybody's art, creations, or passions. and if you want to combat all of that by saying watcher doesn't make art in your opinion and thus shouldn't be allowed to treat it as such.... you and i have drastically different viewpoints and i don't think we can have productive conversation here lmao

#watcher #thoughts #ppl keep reading between the lines on my posts it's sort of wild #my subjective thoughts are that watcher fucked up on the execution of all this; #$6/mo is probably a little too steep for what this is; #and a move like this feels sort of off-brand for how watcher has been running itself up until this point #but again that's all subjective #i feel like the thoughts i've been posting lately are more objective analyses of things #and i keep posting more than i ought to bc i find it personally disheartening how ppl want to discredit watcher as non-creatives #or that they're part of some wider conglomerate of content making machines #i interpret it as ppl misunderstanding the value in art and wanting to enjoy a creation in a way that goes against the creators' intentions #which again you're free to do. but some ppl aren't even acknowledging the disconnect there #like you can make it a prerogative to watch content made solely by watcher while badmouthing watcher but like. why #i personally do not seek out/fight for access to content from people i loathe but that's just me lol #discourse

[gncrezan]

“I like to think I’m just good enough. Come on, peach. Those muffins we made earlier are calling our names.”

NICKMANCERS WE ARE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER...!!!! from @mrs-theirin and her nick/sabrina fic, something i’ve been meaning to draw a little something for since it dropped and i’ve only just really been able to get around to it

#nick wiseman brand domesticity and kindness and understanding. the way that fic made me nearly die. #my art #partially thank u very much quill for sending in that valentines ask cause i'd just been exhausted for so long and it just made me smile!!!! #i know it wasnt much but it rly did make my day LOL #nick wiseman #sabrina cadogan #mind blind #if only technically.... into the tag it goes #hope this pose and whatever makes sense . to me nick is dropping the worst pick up line of all time #and sabrina is exasperatedly (lovingly) wiping the flour off his face that is making him look even goofier (cuter) #and yes have i been a bit obsessed with pink and yellow . yes. i think its pretty and also fitting bc of the nickname #how am i supposed to resist meaningful little colors like that. i CANT

[daily-whistlepaw]

daily whistlepaw until ah becomes PoV day 1167

I think I finally understand how people feel when around a crush, can't say I enjoy it

#warrior cats #whistlepaw #windclan #medicine cat apprentice #this isn't my first crush lol but this one has had me feel the strongest of feelings (and might be my first genuine crush lol) #the fact I have been building up A Lot of stress for the entire week probably didn't help. #and the fact my stomach hurt is also probably at least partially to explain by the fact I barely ate last night #but MAN seeing my (latest) crush in such a pretty dress and then go on stage and play (a goddess!!!!!!! she's a goddess) #(I already bought tickets to go see the full thing; I will die but I will die happy (I hope)) #but yeah I struggled for a good 2 hours to fall asleep and also had stomach weirdness happening the next morning #man it was not fun #(and then she came to sit next to me during class and I had to play it cool (I was too deranged on sleep deprivation to really care about #being my typical brand of weird but I do sometimes feel like an idiot around her and feel guilty because then I fear that she finds me #annoying and will hate me and I will fail this again (losing a friendship over a crush once was not that fun lol) and Traumas don't help #either at all so uh I'm just trying to spend time with her I just always feel a bit worried that I'm annoying her and it's consuming my bra #I do also still feel a little guilty about having this crush; internalized homophobia/issues around sexuality are hard to shake off #and while it's very normal and stuff I never dare to go the entire way when my brain conjures fantasies that are a little too risqué #I just feel guilty man I know I shouldn't but still it fucking sucks in my brain #and god talking about this in therapy would be a mess #I might have to eventually but I don't wanna #anyways; wild vent in the tags aside; yay a whis!

[pixelatedraindrops]

Consider This Scenario:

Makoto Kagutsuchi getting sick with a bad cold for the first time ever in his life.

He'd totally be the type of lunatic that would drink cold medicine or cough syrup directly from the bottle like it was an energy drink. And there would be multiple bottles.

It WAS medicine right? It would make this stuffy and yucky feeling go away so he could go back to work??

(Spoilers) TW// vomit mention

He was immortal, what could possibly go wrong?

...

Only for him to suffer the HEAVY consequences of intense hallucinating, a higher fever and a lot of vomiting later.

Then he’d have a seizure and die.

…

And then when he comes back,

He would never do that again.

...

well maybe just one bottle next time.

(makoto no)

#rain code #rain code spoilers #makoto kagutsuchi #whumpcode #tw substance abuse #tagging just in case tho idk if this counts #I thought of this scenario in the shower then I looked up side effects of drinking cold/cough medicine #and all the side effects listed were RIDICULOUS #idk why this is so funny to me??? x’D #him getting high off cold medicine only to get worse later and perish? #why is that so on brand for him #I feel like his first time dealing w illness would be absolutely chaotic #for a regular person this can be dangerous #but for him?? just a little oopsie x’D #lol dumbass #the whumping possibilities for this man are absurd and I love him for that

[persephoneflouwers]

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#I’m always so blown away by the drama circa Harry’s team #‘​the photographer is not talented or said stupid shit’ #the stylist this #the manager that #the stage director and bla bla #as if it’s not literally his entire image #to be where you are and get what you get by chance or luck #as it it takes no effort and every little thing happens with a flabbergasted gasp like nobody is expecting it #‘we didn’t think about the numbers of the single’ said the headmaster of numbers for a single #it’s literally his job lol #‘things like this don’t happen to people like me’ did I have to mention this double lol #the entire ‘we met and we just get along thing that literally happens with anyone around H #and now this photographer guy who is actually having a blust #saying he is not a tour photographer and it just ✨just✨ happened #because good!! things!! only!! hapens!! if !! u are a good person in your heart!!! #and not cause u sweat your pants off lol #it’s just so silly that it hasn’t clicked yet #it’s the brand: effortless charismatic effortless beautiful effortless talented effortless successful #effortless is literally his brand and his team’s motto

[muirneach]

have to say my wrapping for 32 words for my aunt is really good. seeing as the book is about irish language and how it intertwines with the landscape.

#however the aforementioned rick mercer and doug ford of prev post are on the back of this page so the mood is slightly dampered by that #lol u can see the book of kells notebook she got me last year in the bg #we really have a theme the two of us #anyways i finished the book this morning. just in time lol #i feel a little bad about reading it and then pawning it off to her but like well that book is impossible to find #and i want to read it #so! i will! #and i took the dust jacket off before i read it so when i put it back on its brand new #i was very gentle with it #am a lil sad about giving it away cause i really loved it but i still have tree dogs so not all is lost

[burningthegallows]

role reversal au where buyi’s aunt dies in the battle at gu, and he’s the one raised without family. shaoshang isn’t left behind and becomes the youngest female officer or whatever. (im imagining her as a stickler for the rules getting a job at the ministry of justice just to piss off her general mom. maybe her first engagement is to shanjian for the same reason)

she’s been investigating gu city slowly (she still loves problem solving) and that’s when she finds him.

(shanjian is like 😱 how dare. totally inapprops for you to solve that massacre mystery without me)

the only thing she and buyi do is fight about telling the emperor. he’s convinced wendi is involved and she’s convinced he’s not. season 1 ends with the ot3 crying over their missing foster son and css literally smirking and saying told you so, asshole.

#love like the galaxy #lltg #fic I’d like to read 🦤 #yang yang and lian fang are her qiuqi and qiufei #she and qiqi become friends through mutual intimidation #I like to think they’d be a little in awe of one another #but they become ride or die friends when they both interrupt wassherrname when she’s being a bitch #probs to yang yang because that seems on brand #lol don’t ask me to write this I would not do it justice #I can do 80000 words of wandering through the desert #and existentialism #but I cannot write a suave mf to save my life #shanjian calls off the engagement because css swears at him once and he blues screens #just real quick note about this emoji: 👼 #I will be having nightmares later but also #I appreciate the adherence to the art historical form #in that one. wtf is happening with this seal 🦭 #why is seal posed like a reclined nude??! #giorgione and I are feeling very uncomfortable #balthus and gaugain are arguing over who’s gonna hold the beer

[autoneurotic]

i called michael’s to be like what uh should i not wear and my boss was like mm you know, no open toed shoes, no belly shirts or crop tops and i’m just looking at my clothing rack and it’s fucked up ratio of specifically crop top tank tops vs Regular People Shirts like :/ ok

#they have to be ok with every single pair of hole covered and oil paint covered pants #i have ONE good pair of trousers #i can make shirts work tho. if i can get a long sleeved under shirt i can do my crop t shirts with that #sorry tankies you’ll have to be weekdays only for the next few months ): #My Brand……… #anyway i’m getting a job and feeling nothing about it! i’m not excited duh but i don’t feel like i’m headed to the firing range #my first shift. get this. first shift is 1130a-4p. girl #blessed and cursed w manager experience. used to 10+ hour days 40+ hours a week doing Too Muvh for Too Little #and i’m going to be making jack shit at michael’s but like. i’m going to be working 20-25hours max on weekends only #so ig that’s fair. ans they did bump my pay up a full dollar for my managerial experience #so like. being put thru indescribable hell at the hands of higher ups sort of. pays off ? #im jus going to be the mysterious weekend guy. no one knows anything about me. i show up do my thing leave #it is not an ordeal. thank you therapy for ummmmmm. everything lol

[supercantaloupe]

it's very funny and strange to get asked by a professional oboist probably 15-20 years my senior if i'd be willing to sell him some reeds

#sasha speaks #oboeposting #ik part of it is he is literally Brand New at making american reeds #which i at this point at least have a few years' experience in #but he's complained about not being good at making even european reeds too #(not that i'd be Any help with those whatsoever lol but he seems like he wants to transition to playing american reeds while he's here) #honestly i would love to sell some reeds and make some cash on the side from that but i can barely make enough decent reeds for myself rn #so alas no side hustle for me just yet #also i need new staples the cork on some of mine is getting brittle and threatening to break off at this point lol #my scraping technique is good. i know ehat i'm doing. my tying could use a little work still and my intuition for finishing details too #plus i'd love to have a Fucking Gouger and be able to process my own tube cane already. #but it would be nice at some point to sell some reeds i think. nice indeed

[loverboybitch]

𓆩♡𓆪 crazy that there are infinities inside me for real.//.

#imjustsittinghere #my friend texted me from berlin right now just like #he said all the outfits hes seen so far are crazy and that id love it there #he said its montreal if montreal was serious lol #literally how i was like maybe ill move tomontreal or berlin like. if that isnt serendipitous #gonna make my way there one day i swear #maybe ill actually make a plan for next year #think i might try to spend some time in malta maybe meet up with some friends in berlin? would be kind of cool for like a week or something #spend a month in malta if i can maybe? #ideally if i could get someone to sublet my room in toronto that would be perfect so i wouldnt waste all my rent money #but if i hold onto my job i can bring my laptop there and work a couple shifts so its not like a complete write off u know? #maybe next fall...thatd be the fun time to go i think anyway n gives me a lot of time to save up #if i can stop myself from spending money on clothes i could fr do it lol #jus gotta focus on making my own #n i just got a brand new dope ass hoodie so im satiated for now #extremly jealous tho my friends are in berlin rn and going to paris for a couple days #going montreal at least tho next weekend with some other friends n going skiing n probably to a cool skate bar #at least thats hype <3 #on my evil villain arc which really just means im trying to be less scared and follow my dreams a little #hope it works : ) #really do love the whole my boss said i look like a villain thing tho im latching onto that heavy #kind of been playing with this creative space/idea of embracing the lil demon imp that lives in me so it just seems very timely and fitting #jsut really identifying with the word imp idk more on that later

[mrs-kelly]

Job update: I realized the reason I wanted to leave my current job was mental illness™ and not because I actually wanted to work somewhere else, so I called Starbucks up and told them I changed my mind

#my job is not ideal but I’m not gonna find another one that gives me so much freedom #I basically work as much or as little as I want as long as I keep everyone supplied with work #and while I’m working I’m allowed to play solitaire and browse tumblr and write fanfic; like my boss doesn’t care #it does get hot during the summer but I’ve been getting off before it gets hot anyway #I just talked with my husband and realized that the reason I wanted to leave was because #I’m too hard on myself. and this job is so easy that it makes me feel like I’m not working hard enough. not doing enough #so I just beat myself up about how ‘little’ I do when I do enough every day #and then it translated into me feeling bad that I have so much free time. I feel bad that I have time to sit around and play stardew and #nap and stuff. I feel like everyone I live with must think I’m lazy and be tired of me doing nothing all day #but I talked to my husband and he was like??? I don’t want you to have to work harder #I love you and you do more than enough and it makes me happy that I can take care of you #and that you don’t have to work so hard. that you can come home early and have time to relax #so I need to just accept the gift he wants to give me and stop holding myself to such a high standard #our goal with saving money to share a house with our roommates was that I could work less so #we’ve achieved that goal and I just gotta chill lol #ren speaks #off brand ren cereal

[widevibratobitch]

.

#look away everyone this is gonna be embarrassing #nothing new really same old shit that's been going on every day for almost 20 years with me but uhh #at this point i dont even wish i were fucking skinny (<-lying). id give anything to just go back to my lowest ed weight #which was by no means skinny. not even thin. but it was thinnER than now. #anyway. nothing makes you hate your own body quite like trying to buy clothes lol #being a huge hypocrite rn cause yes yes fuck fast fashion we know #but being able to go shopping for clothes with your friends to a mainstream brand shop and only feeling *a little* inferior in all aspects #but not ENTIRELY worthless as a woman and a human being in general. my god. it only happened once in my entire life #and i had so much fun that day. and i felt so good and happy and even a little attractive. we love internalised mysogyny <333 #but i miss experiencing the first stirrings of this stupid ass shy little hope that i could actually be considered hot and pretty #for the first time in my fucking life. like hot and pretty RIGHT NOW. not in some undefined future of ✨...if you lost some weight✨ #idk it just feels like it was all for nothing. i ruined every part of my life i fucked up my teeth and my skin and my hair and my metabolism #and my relationship with food. forever lol and it was for nothing because at the end of the day im basically back to the weight i started w/ #its a goddamn joke. like yeah maybe im not losing fistfuls of hair on a daily basis anymore but id honestly rather just go fully bald #if i was allowed to keep the weight off #god i only hope i die in a way that will completely obliterate my body. it is kind of a comfort #no matter what - at least ill always have the train tracks i used to play on as a kid <33 one of my most beloved places in the world fr

[therevengeoffrankenstein]

tried a swatch of alien g-ddess by mugler on my hand recently and it stuck to my mask all day and like. initially it didn't wow but the longevity of two spurts transferred from my hand to my face mask and the way the scent dried down as you say. really put it over the edge for me. may have to look into potentially buying it/a sample or something......

#myevilposts #fragrances #it runs a little expensive is the problem. #like i know mugler is one of THE fragrance brands but the bottle is smaller than my palm and it's over 100 bucks? yikes. #i know that's typical but until my band takes off it's a bit too expensive. may ask for it as a gift or something lol. #recently i bought a like 80 dollar fragrance that i didn't love and it physically hurt me. like it was money i've been saving #for a long long long time so like. ouchie. #anyway. alien g-ddess lingered on my mask for sooo many hours longer than the 80 dollar fragrance i actively put #multiple spurts of on today 😭😭😭

[zeramorphosis]

I've been questioning whether I'm demisexual thanks to new knowledge brought to my attention that's forced me to seriously consider it, and at first I've taken to it like I take to any questioning of my identity-- like a feral cat to water. But I have started pointing at Gale and saying, "autistic and demisexual nerd loser," so I think I'm warming up to the idea

#seeing him while i play makes me feel warm and i just like all the little ways i relate to him #so how naturally im able to make that connection is also making me feel better about potentially being demisexual lol #i have the funny brand of autism where no labels feel right and i hate thinking about my sexuality and gender for more than 3 seconds #makes my head hurt :') #but the bonus with demisexuality is i can stop stressing about what genders i might be attracted to bc now i can say not applicable! #that does make me happy #ive never thought of it that way before so ive always brushed off the label in my Researching

[noahlivingston]

I think I need to get off the Internet lol

#not even bc anything has happened lol ive just been getting irrationally angry about too many consecutive Posts lately #theres this certain brand if like. peppy uwu advice posts that are REALLY pissing me off lately for very little rational reason #they just come across as so patronizing and annoying #and i KNOW that isnt the intention and i KNOW there is no reasonable explanation for this other than like. im just too contrary #but its so annoyyyyiiiiiing fuck offfff don't tell me what to do #getting mad online is the mind killer etc etc etc

[notthestarwar]

i'm trying to use my laptop more as i keep messing up my wrist trying to type on my phone all the time (why do they keep making them bigger??? my hands are not big enough! my thumb does not reach that way without bending my hand all weird)

but like. first of all i have to actually get the laptop out and turn it on. (i could just connnect my keyboard to my phone but like. i still have to get it out. and also. hard to get screen at right angle, may as well use laptop.)

and most importantly. my laptop badly needs a new wireless card which i've known for ages but i hate doing work on hardware cause the screws are so tiny and its such a horrible job and baaaad. which means that when i do remember to get off my phone and on my laptop, i've gotta sit in the most ridiculous places to get closer to the router. i'm like. leaning forward in the chair with the laptop held in front of me lol its the worst

#suggestion: tech companies actually make hardware that works once its older than 5 years #you're killing me lenovo. killing me. i just want something that i can buy second hand and then treat really badly for ten years #without always having to do repairs. is that too much to ask????? #i mean like in comparision to the expensive brand new shit they'd have us use at work. this is a fucking dream but like #i think we can do better! i think that we should be reaching a little higher than the bar set by microsoft and apple #it looks durable! so why isnt it as durable as it looks. thats my question #you could throw the old thinkpads out a window. this one? this one does not want to be thrown out a window #this one is broken with 0 windows. and its only a decade old. fucking outrageous #everyones standards are so low when it comes to tech and planned obselence that i cant even complain about it either! #yeah i know your laptop is far worse but like. i use these ones cause they are durable and can be repaired/upgraded #i expect far more of them than i would from fucking apple. it is not the same #someone paid good money for this at some point. before i bought it off them for much less than that lol. #i feel that they are being ripped off somewhat with it not living up to its name. ten years later. now that they no longer own it.