#turns out im not that dumb lol

[reineyday]

alex is so real for not realizing he was bi despite the amount of times he was clearly checking out and appreciating other men. it really do be like that.

#rwrb #rwrb spoilers #rei rambles #red white and royal blue #red white and royal blue spoilers #alex claremont diaz #bi tag #it's totally not gay if we both say it's not gay! okay but luna is *objectively* hot everyone says so. #ive been strangely drawn to the tern mag photo of henry throughout my formative years but like. totally in an envy sort of way. #same vibe as that time my cousin said she had a 'girl crush' on amber from fx and i was like 'oh so it IS normal #like. no rei. no it's not. #i feel like a lot of bi awakenings hapoen after hs cuz it's so easy to acknowledge ur straight crushes & explain away ur not-straight ones #but i love how it makes liam make perfect sense lol #alex is like 'liam used to be my best friend but we havent talked in a year' and ur like ??? drama??? #turns out he's an ex-not-ex and alex was an extremely dumb boy about what they were doing lmao #poor liam man. unrequited crush on his best friend who thought it was totally straight to canoodle. smh. 😔😔 #im glad he has a boyfriend now

[minamaybe]

anyone else feel all consuming dread the day before something they've been looking forward to is happening or is that just me?

#in other news - I'm getting my first tattoo tomorrow and im this 👌 close to losing my mind lol #like ive wanted a tattoo for YEARS #i always knew this motive would be the one i wanna get #and now im second guessing everything bc i fundamentally distrust myself with my decisions #like what if it turns out not how i imagined #or what if it does and turns out the way i imagined it was always dumb and wrong #whenever i change my appearance in any way im gripped with terror bc i imagine people going “this is what she thinks looks good? okaayyy...” #and this is such a permanent change so im really freaking out lol #i know its very irrational #and that i have one wild and precious life and should use it to do what makes me happy #but sometimes my life long anxieties really come through strongly lol #anyway done ranting into The Void now #if anyone relates to these feelings and has some calming words that would be amazing #at the same time i really hope no one can relate bc this is so silly and annoying :( #mina mumbles

[liquidstar]

I'm glad the "Satire requires a clarity of purpose and target lest it be mistaken for and contribute to that which it intends to criticize" meme is getting critiqued in its usage because... While the sentiment itself is absolutely true... I feel like sometimes, perhaps, it's not a work of fiction's fault that you're personally bad at picking up on satire

#im thinking about how i saw a person say futurama is bad because bad things still exist in the future #and its like. thats the point though? #the joke is literally the idea that if we never learn and grow from these problems as a society these are the hyperbolic extremes #that they would come to etc etc #do i think it was all well handled? probably not. it had a 14 year run im sure it fumbled lots of stuff and has shit that doesnt hold up #but i feel like dismissing it entirely based on just- #''but bad stuff happens. and i want the future to be better so this bums me out'' is just dumb LOL like thats literally the point #theyre taking the problems of today and making them into crazy hyperbolic extremes to mock them THATS WHAT SATIRE IS #there is a clarity of purpose youre just bad at picking up on it. NIXON WAS THE FUCKING PRESIDENT IN THAT SHOW FOR CHRIST SAKE #WHAT ELSE DO YOU THINK ''AMERICA'S FAVORITE SUICIDE BOOTH SINCE ****2008****'' COULD MEAN? #idk. this site is bad media literacy r us why take it seriously. but i am. bc its frustrating #bc that quote on its own is sooooo good at explaining why some ''satire'' is bad and doesnt work #but ppl who dont know how to engage w media beyond a surface level have taken it and turned it into like #''this is bad bc i didnt get it'' ok. sounds like a you problem. #but posting this is scary bc im afraid itll be used for the other extreme .-.

[no1ryomafan]

My brain has gone back and forth on between which anime if arma or new is my favorite. Cause even with all its issues Arma means a lot to me, it’s the reason I got into getter and helped me through one of the worst times of my life- But then new is objectively better written and it drives me nuts compared to arma it’s not talked about ENOUGH despite all the stuff you can poke at from it’s plot and I’m trying to pinpoint that reason since the general consensus is “no one hates new and it gets a lot of fanart in the Japanese community yet it’s never deeply acknowledged so it feels unpopular”

So my standpoint is “do I keep investing into the popular iteration despite its issues or do I invested into the less flawed unpopular iteration when it comes to introducing getter to new people?” cause man as much as I’m a critical person of media I still can forgive some messy writing if I have a good time with it and can clearly tell the staff had fun making it, which is definitely armas case. (Though they absolutely had fun with new too)

#meg text #getter robo #this general philosophy I have is why im not harshly critical on SVN next to “I think it fulfills it’s purpose” #and a few other mechas I’ve seen but not gonna tag because I don’t wanna put them in their tag when this is just getter #I was tempted to make a post asking about what people don’t find appealing about new but it be on twit and blegh #I’d ask it here and if anyone has input feel FREE to put but my following is way to small to generate the feedback I want #but on Twitter people are dumb and I’m not taking the “new has bad animation” take any longer bc it’s cherry picked #next to “we all know this is better animation then arc LOL” even if that whole debate as stupid #but past that point I’m trying to understand what people don’t like to find new unappealing when it’s flaws aren’t turn offs #like Musashibo not having a proper character arc and the villains not being consistent is a big one but doesn’t make the show bad #especially because there’s still good from those issues being Musashibo still a fun character and the villains don’t ruin the pacing #you could maybe make the argument new starts off slow but also all of the introduction episodes are engaging?? #there’s not a single thing about new-let alone getter when it’s paced right-that feels sluggish #Also for a 13 ep show picking up in the middle makes the MOST sense in comparison to a longer ep series #the middle is when shit hits the fan tbh #im gonna be at war until I hear someone’s in depth opinion but I just WANNA figure out what turns off people from new #cause when I also watched it in a group I had irls drop out of it midway through but I could chalk it up to they weren’t huge on mecha #Even if I argue new is the PERFECT mecha show to recommend to someone who’s skeptical of the genre but I digress

[t-ierrahumeda]

i approved the technical exam for one company O_o! I need to pass a technical interview, and if they like me, I'm getting a new job!

I also had another interview yesterday (from an even better company) so fingers crossed they like me enough to have a technical interview next week O_O

#I was reaaaally nervous when i got the message bc i was super sure i failed the exam bc i was sooo nervous #and like i havent made an exam in so long I just was sure i failed it lol #im excited now aaa #turns out I'm not a total failure and a dumb incompetent bitch as my current employers made me think for 3 years!

[kewwie-pie]

I'm going through some absolutely TERRIBLE art block rn, so I made a pair of lazy reverse omens edits for crowley and Aziraphale! (Can you tell which one I put more effort into💀)

Here are some fun facts about my reverse omens crowley/Raphael and Aziraphale/Ezra! :

Raphael drives a 1970s beetle! It's nearly the same color as his suit but a little lighter.

Ezra's "full name" is Azirafell C. Phore (pronounced like the explosive).

Ezra's animal companion is a swan!

When Raphael and Ezra first met on the wall, Ezra admitted to stealing Raphaels sword and giving it to Adam and Eve. When asked why, Ezra said, "If I didn't, things wouldn't be nearly as interesting now, would they?"

If you asked this question after the non-apocalypse, they'd simply reply with "out of guilt, I suppose. The poor things."

Raphaels style got stuck in between the 1950s and 1960s while Ezra's got stuck in the 1970s and 1980s as he got completely sucked into goth culture.

Everywhere Ezra goes trails of black feathers follow

Raphael owns a small home in central London. He mostly owns it so that all his plants have a home. Ezra, on the other hand, owns a recordstore/music related pawnshop.

Raphael is very proud of his mustache.

Animals have a tendency to crowd the angel when he steps foot inside st. James park

Ezra's has a whole list of nicknames for Raphael:

Darling

Love

Sweetheart

Pookie

Red

Feathers

Booboo (ironically)

Stud

Kittenwiskers ( Ezra saw that one fucking scene in sherk 3 and decided to start calling Raphael that ironically just to annoy him)

The list goes on for much longer because Ezra invents something new every day

Raphael has one nickname for Ezra, and it's birdie

Ezra invented Ikea while they were drunk

#good omens fandom #good omens #good omens edit #reverse omens #reversed omens #good omens au #aziraphale good omens #crowley good omens #uhhh i might draw them if i get over my artblock?? #im actually kinda proud of the way the edits turned out? #reverse omens crowley is still a gigsntic simp for aziraphale lol #I LOVE DUMB NERD X EQUALLY DUMB GOTH DYNAMIC!!!

[toytulini]

act annoying on this post and ill block you ♡

everyone accusing black sails fans of Being Rude In The Notes owes me $10 for making me look in the notes (like. What. WHERE) and $10 more for subsequently making me witness the Stede fans also being unhinged petty assholes but it doesnt count when they do it, i guess?

at this point im saltier about Black Sails fans being repeatedly being called assholes but ofmd fans Not being called out for probably the same behavior or worse? and with what feels like very little. evidence? god damn

#toy txt post #pirate poll #if you reply to this post you are in danger of being blocked and ignored #note: after having looked in the notes at what yall are calling mean and cunty amd asshole behavior from flint stans #i would like to add a disclaimer that none of you literally owe me $10 its a silly fucking thing im saying online that means nothing #lest ppl decide to add exortion to the list of crimes we're accusing flint stans of out of ? little to no basis #ftr im a flint voter but i also like stede and ofmd bc im starved for gay pirate shows. these shows are holding hands. these #shows are having a conversation and all of your being dumb in the notes about either one of them owe me and the #poll runner $10 each. again. not a literal statement unless u like. really want to i guess? lmao #i have issue w all yall. those of u voting flint cos stede took a pardon and irl stede bonnet was a slaveowner #are voting for the correct choice for entirely wrong reasons #its not irl stede on the vote its ofmd stede. flint has said his crew has sold more slaves than theyve freed #and the pardon........ill get into that tomorrow #the ppl hating stede for abandoning mary are hilarious to me sorry. he abandoned her and then she was like. finally thriving #the ppl hating flint for being edgy.....specifically that person admitting they didnt even watch past the first episode... #im glad u are not in the fandom i dont think we'd get along lol #u think flints bad for being edgy........whew #to the person who hasnt seen either show but voted flint bc he seemed more chill: you are the funniest person on this earth and i love you #that man is the least chill a man has ever been #and only finally seems chill by comparison when its Silver's turn to go off the rails and then its like not even for very long #hes the least chill there is and hes valid #anyway. one fear: thousands of salty ofmd fans hatevoting flint into oblivion into the next round #if you do that or are planning to do that. i hate you and you are extremely annoying #god he really is vriska. god forbid gay pirate women do anything 🙄 #they h8te to see a 8ad 8itch winning

[whumpypepsigal]

i don’t know if anyone else has this but i hate this conflicting feeling i get where im hesitant to start a new series because im afraid im gonna be obsessed with it and move on from the current (multiple) hyperfixations, you know what i mean.…

anyhow, wake up my darlings! a new series just dropped that starts off with whump— gets whumpy in its first two episodes. a fun sci-fi/spy thriller that has it’s main character, a spy, wake up in a hospital with no memory of who or what he is and his body riddled with scars. ooouuu good (jason bourne) trope right there.

oh, main character played by richard madden aka robb stark aka david budd aka ikaris… hubba hubba!

#plus from the trailer there might be more whump incoming #yes please and thank you! #citadel #richard madden #you can watch it on prime video #the show is dumb fun lol #i like it! #and it’s already renewed for a second season !!!! #i guess it’s the year for spy thriller shows and im enjoying them all very much #citadel spoilers #my gifs #my posts #p/s: #im off my gifmaking game these past few days so my recent gifs aren’t turning out great lol #oh well

[cinnamon-notes]

remembering things through associations is hard, that's why god carefully chose to bless their bravest soldier with it (me)

#like i spotted some good yarn today but i was out of money and i just memorized the brand/label #(i know i could've taken a picture but you know me- im just too dumb) #and i didnt memorize it as a normal person would: read the name. repeat it til you have it stuck in your head. like- NO! #so once i got home i was left with this concept “someone is throwing a tantrum over rice” and i was like WTF??? #WHY DID I THINK I WOULD'VE REMEMBERED IT??? #turns out the brand was a mix of the word rice and the word tantrum in my native language LOL #cinnamon struggles #cinnamon being cinnamon

[reineyday]

i was looking up the comic pages of the titans tower attack where jason rips off his shirt to reveal the robin costime underneath, and i didnt manage to read it in full but something i found interesting is that tim says, "you're the red hood. you've been cleaning up gotham the easy way."

i dont have the full context for it, but i love that at least standing alone, there's an implication there that tim thinks killing criminals is effective, and he just doesnt find it challenging enough haha. like, there's a lot of other moral judgements you can make about jason's choice to murder, but instead of any of that, tim just decides to point out it's the easy way. 😂

(okay maybe tim said it in an effort to goad by saying jason's taking the easy way out, but i think it's funnier if tim said it 'cuz he doesnt actually disagree with killing and just doesnt do it cuz he follows the bat lol.)

#rei rambles #tim drake #jason: you think it's EASY?? #tim: obviously! show me your systemic reformation plans first and then we'll talk #jason: well ACTUALLY #and then jay pulls out his phone to show tim a hundred page pdf on his plans to revamp the businesses and areas surroundibg the east end #starting with clearing out the mob fronts and turning them into local business and sanctuaries and non-profits #and a budget for a new road that provides opportunity to revamp and reopen the abandobed warehouse all in an effort to create more jobs. #tim: this IS the hard way but... i think we can do it. #and then they shake hands and become business partners. #< this is my titans tower au #btw i was looking up the pages cuz i want to draw a dumb comic that makes fun of him lol. #jason's made some really cringe decisions huh. love him. you gotta be able to laugh at your blorbos 🥲 #anyways the vibes im trying to explain in this post are basically #jason: ive been killing criminals so theyll never hurt anyone again! #tim (an intellectual): so youre cleaning up gotham the EASY way huh #lmao and then #jason (a theatre kid): *dramatically rips off his shirt to reveal the robin costume* WHAT DID U SAY REPLACEMENT???

[vilelittlecritter]

Me: "I don't like people, I prefer being on my own and not talking"

People: "oh okay we'll leave you be then"

Me: "wait no PLEASE COME BACK I WANT LOVE-"

#its not that i dont like people. its just that i have resorted to avoiding people out of habit and a sense that i make things worse #like its not that i DON'T want to message my friend. its just that I cant bring myself to since i usually dont #ha ha ha. god i am desperate to just speak to people but I want to be left alone and im scared of people turning out to be mean #i kinda feel like crying when i see people say how they love their friends and cuddle up with them and have fun #lol one of my old best friends caused me to have awful anxiety about myself because he judged and made fun of ke constantly #oh yeah and that other time after i broke up with a friend because we stupidly decided to try and date and it didnt go well #the bastard asked the person out that night. they said no because they aren't an ass or dumb. god i should have left him when he said that #oh yeah he also made fun of my sunny cosplay i did and then left me alone in the comic con crowd for half an hour #as someone with anxiety that fucked me up just a little #so yeah bad past friendships and terrible social skills have left me to just go lol cant get hurt if i dont have friends! #ha ha. this is agony. #i have like one actaul friend i talk to and she's going through some stuff and wants to be left alone #which is understandable but now I'm talking to absolutely no one #also even if i were to talk to people i just feel i make things worse #i feel like im obnoxious and weird constantly and I'm sobscsred that people are going to think I'm creepy #its not that im doing anything super weird its just that with my autism I can get overly excited and start rambling and not thinking #yet another reason why I've chosen to stop speaking as much #im also just really snappy sometimes #I remember a while ago someone i was kinda friends with asked me if i was okay and i said i was fine #they kept pushing because they were concerned and no ones ever really done that so i kind of panicked and raised my voice at them #i wasn't angry i just never had someone try and actually pry that deep before other than maybe my parents #they seem like a lovely person but i still feel so horrible for doing that to them #sure i apologises later and they understood but i felt like it was one of the most awful things ive done to someone #i hate even the thought of being cruel or mean and all they were trying to do was help and i snapped at them for it #sorry for being ranty but I'm starting to think im really not okay #I've pondered the idea of possibly having deppression but thats a conversation for my counselor #again sorry for sumoing and ill probably delete this soon #if anyone has read all of this im honestly impressed #personal rambles #vent tag

[wp100]

people always ask me if im going to do something with my art money-wise and it's like... not every hobby artist is destined to make money off it.

it's a huge task to get noticed online, let alone make money. it's like having another job. you have to promote and push yourself and your image. it's like running a business. and there is no way in hell i'm ever going to do that. im tired enough from working full time already. and even when i take time off... i still dont feel like i have enough time to sit down, relax, and work on my art.

and sometimes... people just want to do art as a hobby. not everyone wants to make money off it. and that's okay.

#id rather not have one of the few hobbies i really enjoy turn into something i hate #i already struggle with my art mentally... like thinking im not good enough some days #dont wanna make it even worse trying to make it a job #delete later #also you kinda have to network and have artist friends if you wanna make it big #i dont have artist friends let alone... any friends to help me with my art #and having a following helps... and if people share #and if people are interested in buying your art #i dont even know how to do commissions. i dont know how that stuff works lol im Dumb. #in the decade ive spent posting art online ive only ever had one person ask if i take comms... i dont sadly. probably will never #and that's not a bad thing #but some people make out like it is. like no maybe i dont want to?

[luckyemo]

i always forget naegi/togami is like... a popular ship i guess so theres ppl who think like Deeply about togami and i just wha

#just saw a post that was like 'is byakuya smart? absolutely' and i cant stop laughing and being like ?????????? what #bc 1. whos thinking about togami enough to be like Oh Yea Hes Smart 2. hes Not????????????/ he has like financial knowledge but how is that #a measure of intelligence esp in the context of danganronpa universe (+ esp in the context of like dr1 killing game) #like how do u finish the second chapter of dr1 being like Yes This Guy Is A Thinker HOW #and 3. really out of all the characters in dr who the fuck is thinking abt togami #-> and the answer is just idk basic main male character x 2nd most relevant male character shipping I GUESS #also the post this was in was criticizing the black+white view ppl have with 'smart' vs 'dumb' characters so no ill will there or anything #will queue it in a bit #just funny bc like I Do Not think abt togami much let alone think of him as the Smart One of anything #like tbh naegi is probably 'smarter' but i have a feeling his optimism makes him have like the stupid label between them w.e #(which in turn makes togami the smart one i guess?) #so yea just a moment of someone being like 'heres an issue in the fandom' and me being like 'mhm agree' but that example being like what #bc its something i dont really see/never seek out/not how i think of the character/dont interact w fanon for this character etc #lol anyways time to fill my queue up sorry it ran out on the weekend but i only like to reblog stuff when im at work lmao #time theft my beloved <3

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#thats me in the corner. thats me in thr spotlight. rocking from side to side and not contributing to the conversation #which is to say. i made it to thr lab get together with an old lab mate. i really truely did not think i would #i was like 20min late bc of the crying and hyperventilating over a 6min drive down the road #i sorta freaked out while driving too. and almost turned around. its just that i kno i havent been sleeping enough and got overwhelmed #but i made it there. and i dont think i looked like id been crying but i probably looked a bit blank faced and miserable #as i rocked from side to side for like 2hrs listening to ppl talk. i enjoyed it exactly as much as i expected. it was good to see the guy #again but i just dont connect in group gatherings idk. im glad its done. also fucking we were sitting there and a group comes in and whos #in that group?? someone i have avoided seeing for like a loooong time. the guy who tried to be in a relationship with me back when i 1st #started as a grad student. i say relationship. i was explaining to him why i couldnt do any sort of romantic e tanglement and he was very #firm abt not wanting a relationship. and im like bro im explaining u why no romanticly adjacent thing is gonna work. u literally asked me #to physically hold ur hand thru this. u r somehow more emotionally invested in this than me and also are telling me that u just wanna fuck #me. so like u r not slick. whatever. it was so fucking stressful at the time. which i feel bad abt bc it wasn't really his fault #i was just less self aware so i didnt kno i have bad awareness in the moment. like i dont kno a lines been crossed until a week later when #im laying on thr floor falling apart. so like i wish him the best. didnt kno he was still around. hopefully this doesnt trigger stress #dreams. all this to say i was very fucking tense. and when i got back in my car i was like shaky and panting lol #idk looking back its just such a weird situation with that dude. if i was anyone else it woudlnt have been a big deal but #my brain just doesn't process physical touch right. so now ive got these horrible touch memories that like on paper r literally nothing #but for me they were so unfathomablly awful when i 1st aquired them. i literally could not deal with any romantic stuff for like a month #bc it would like trigger me. now thst its been like 3 years its not bad tho. just like gives me thr ick but i dont get #stuck in the memories too much. its so dumb. whatever. point is im all sore now from sitting all tense haha #unrelated

[knizuu]

Just..silly thoughts

I swear, whenever I join a fandom: A] I like how there’s always popular things for me to learn QUICKLY and B] usually people like my art so fast awawa it gives me confidence ^ ^

Ok this is not related at all but the books I read NOWADAYS are just so different from years ago…like I AVOIDED DogMan in my younger days. I AVOIDED Sonic, like wha??? I bet younger me would go: Wait, why do we like that now? I thought it was so…weird?

Ok ok only based on the books, the fact I get a usually long, serious, history book is fine. But then I bring a Dog Man book, thinking my librarian is gonna judge me-I’m not too nervous about it, it just makes me go: Ooh you’re gonna be a lil confused aren’t you.

Ok now similar to the first point, gosh I make friends nicely. Irl I probably would avoid talking to new people but when it’s online and we all hyper fixate I socialize A LOT better XD

#This does not need fandom tags its just silly me #This #knizuu is well…knizuu #Silly #XD #My lord I remember when my brother showed me his Dog Man book I went: :| Oh wait I remember that- #Turns out I thought it was a book series about DogMan…then all about Cat Kid?? IDK I was dumb- #And then when I talk about sonic to my friends they go: :0 #Like “HOW DO YOU KNOW THAT MANY CHARACTERS…IN LESS THAN A YEAR” #Girly Im just obsessed with sonic it ain’t a phase #AND ALSO [lol i love to ramble] its still crazy how I idoled friends past tumblr #I get scared and then they act nice and im like: Omg I used to IMAGINE meeting you #Mutuals there’s a 99% chance thats I felt #Only 1% are the accounts post tumblr ^ ^ #But either way I love em all ty friends :>

[comradecowplant]

A youtuber has made a video about a place very close to my hometown and I tell u what so far he is not being very factual and the latent small town instinct to rip disrespectful outsiders apart in defense of Our Town has activated >:(

#theres an old airbase with abandoned housing units #BUT THE TOWNSHIP OF FINLAND IS VERY MUCH NOT ABANDONED which isnt as good oOoOo sPoOky content for your dumb channel but its actually hones #and also the people who live there are very much cranky about strangers fucking about (almost like they're used to annoying kids bothering #them while urban exploring. which is so fucking valid) #even i didnt go fuck around up there out of respect (and fear lol) of the folks up there who are just making the most of a $ depressed area #anyway im only 2 minutes into the video and this is what im already annoyed at #he's going ohmyGoDdD cRaZy i BeT its HAUNTED over the most milquetoast decay like its his first time exploring #the military activity poisoned the primary well and thats why people left seemingly overnight. it was just before the crash of 08 #so the people who were invested in turning parts of the old base housing into low income housing pulled out #WHICH YOU WOULD KNOW IF YOU DID ANY RESEARCH BEFORW GOING TO A PLACE MR OOO AND AHH #it's the fake sensationalism that gets my gears so ground #its very poor and many folks struggled with addiction and when they had to leave a bunch of stuff behind it wasnt for fun #oh ive got whopper of a comment in composition for when through this 40 minute peice of rudeness #as an urban exploring enthusiast myself im not bemoaning that part. it's the Contentification and Chills voice commentary that has me riled