#weird shit my friends and family say

[puppyeared]

Ouhhhh friendship I love friendship……..

#I’m reading volumes 14-16 of the ouran manga OOUGHHH MY HEART #I love this weird little friend group so much its unreal #like u have this charming sweeps you off your feet prince but he’s actually a huge lovable idiot with a kind heart and his friends #who are all misfits that he reached out to and drew in because of his kindness and own weirdness like that shits TIGHT BRO #and the trauma part where he has some deep seated issues with love bc he thinks that itll break a family apart like with his mom #how his family isnt allowed to be together because his mom and dad fell in love and how he says he wants to build a big house #so that way one day everyone will get along as a family like. all he wants is not to lose everyone and the only way to do that is #by maintaining a certain order.. he both wants a complete family so bad and doesnt want anything to sour between anyone #so he assigns each of his friends a family role based on how he sees them and YEAH its mostly played for giggles and tamakis #already weird so its his way of showing theyre close to him but. god damn this boy has LAYERS #it also feels kinda meta towards how found family tends to get thrown around to assign characters as 'siblings' or family roles instead of #using it to describe characters who are close enough to be each others family. cuz tamakis doing that EXACT THING in a way tht #ties in with his character and i have to say its fascinating using that within the story itself and its completely plausible #theres a lot of things i can say about ouran that are good bad and questionable but. god i love it when characters are niceys to each other #i remember i really liked the kyoya episode bc him and haruhi got to spend time together and their relationship isnt very close #but it was really nice to see their personalities bounce off each other. i think i also wouldve liked to see haruhi alone with kaoru #i also firmly believe all of the hosts are at least a little in love with haruhi and this can be anything like endearing romantic cuz like #who DOESNT love haruhi. kyoya i think would want to study her under a microscope like his fascination with her draws him in #but im fucking obsessed with whatever haruhi and tamaki have going on because YES hes obsessed with her YES he jumps at the chance to #put her in a cute costume but haruhi? she just fucking goes with it because she knows hes fun to be around even if hes a little wacky abt i #theyre all so. NNGGHHHH #ouran #ohshc #yapping

[toastysol]

I don't get why everyone's surprised that the brotherhood use the correct pronouns with Dane. I think people have forgotten a major aspect of the fallout environment. The bombs falling destroyed conventional societal norms. This includes any political agenda to erase trans people from history and the future. Also this is fiction. The brotherhood of steel are not a conservative christian political party. They care about what they dub "abuse of technology", this includes the biproducts thereof. The only people who fit that category are synths and mutants who they view as abominations that need to be exterminated. If trans people even counted as abuse of technology (which they don't and shouldn't, as the technology used for transition is helpful and not hurtful), they would be so far down the list the brotherhood wouldn't care. Why would they care. It's really not a big deal imo. It's a big deal in OUR world, but not theirs. Not by a long shot.

#fallout tv show #it's just weird to me as a trans person that this made such a huge fuss #really shows that people think it's radical to support non-binary people by simply using their pronouns #everyone's acting like it's out of character for them but it really isn't that wild #they still treat Dane like shit #like the rest of the squires #why would they care what pronoun someone goes by when the wasteland is so harsh #they have way bigger problems than someone going by they/them #and it's not like they're campaigning to protect trans people specifically #they just referred to someone correctly #we really need to raise the bar for trans support #cause if using nb pronouns is radical than oooh boy we're fucked #and I know most people prolly mean it as a joke #but it really rubs me the wrong way when people say its weird or doesn't make any sense #trans support doesn't begin and end with pronouns ok #the wasteland is not like this world. who the fuck cares what gender someone is when you could get killed by a cockroach the next day #besides it's not really the brotherhood that's respecting their pronouns it's the show writers and that matters more #anyway hope you enjoyed my rant #please raise your standards for trans support all your trans friends and family will thank you for it

[skitskatdacat63]

I forget how comfortable my life is living w just my parents, in terms of being comfortably out, then have to listen to my brother go on a homophobic rant, that I can't tell if its a joke or not, but was really hurtful :)

#twas very uncomfortable to sit thru #the words 'what if i told you i was gay' on my tongue 'am i disgusting?' #i dont understand straight white boys #you do all this gay chicken w your friends. say all this weird stuff that makes me 🤨 #(<- ex. joking abt sucking dick bcs theyre eating a 12 inch hot dog. circa cota gp lol) #but then say these horribly homophobic things #i dont understand men #i can never tell if hes joking when he says things like this #bcs he likes to be argumentative and inflammatory. and knows we'll get pissed at him for this #so its like. are you saying this bcs you truly believe it or are you just being irritating. or both #he randomly said smth abt how the romans and greeks did gross gay things #and im like. should this not make you think 'wow homosexuality has existed for centuries. ig its pretty natural!!' #<- thats always my takeaway. theres been records of it since basically the beginning of recorded history #and i look at it and feel comforted :] this has always been a thing and always will be thing #and then people like him basterdize it completely misinterpret it ;;;; #i like him but when hes back living w us I remember how horrible his views and opinions are #ugh i live w my parents and theyre so accepting abt it and willing to learn more and change #and then i remember how fucking shit the rest of my family is #well ah dw i got back at him by calling him gay sjkfkglg #catie.rambling.txt

[anaalnathrakhs]

btw my mom said it. she said it to me looking me in the eyes. i told her about how difficult it was for me to get through those family reunions, and she admitted it was very important to her, important enough that she was just going to do it anyway.

#i know there are compromises out there #and i'm not going to live w them my whole life so i'll be out fairly soon all things considered #and i'm trying to be understanding when people's priorities aren't the same as mine #but i uh. would be lying if i said it doesn't hurt a little wittle bit. #i'm gonna keep handling it because i've been an asshole to my parents for long enough #i largely owe them that. cooperating and spending time with them and engaging in what matters to them. #but then she's says things like ''but whenever you move out you'll still be part of the family and invited if you want uwu'' #it's just ?????? okay thanks ???? perhaps you could also try seeing things from my point of view perhaps???? #it's all circling back to that. they have a very weird way to ''help'' me #throwback to them trying to cure my depression with amusement parks #when i would have liked a little less of that and a little more help and understanding #it feels like they're trying to put bandaids on a cancer #''you don't ask for help'' okay no help is coming. i am not being helped. #the system can't help me cause there's no damn beds no damn professionals no damn time to help everyone #the people around me can't help me because it's not their job or within their wheelhouse to help me #and they've got their own shit to deal with #on that note #i was discussing stuff with my mom #and i mentionned it was indeed pretty difficult to manage your time when you had to deal with school and friends and your parents #and she was like ''deal with your parents???? what do you have to deal with????'' #oh i don't KNOW maybe that i'm officially an associate of my dad and i have to help out w events and some accounting #or maybe i have to pay back the fucking years i spent being an ungrateful child now i do everything you expect me to and it's exhausting #maybe that you constantly remind me i am living in YOUR house by touching my shit instead of letting me deal with shit at my own pace #maybe the fact that despite everything i care about you and i want us to have a good relationship and that takes WORK and i'm exhausted #maybe the fact that you keep giving me advice that is unproductive misguided misunderstanding etc etc #and cold comfort after you did something you knew to be difficult for me #how you keep encouraging shit that i don't want and am unhappy with because it's the ''normal'' way #how you raised me from childhood to be an empty shell in a family of empty shells #broadcasting my misery #vent

[lottalove01]

rant <3

#so i told my friend im thinking abt engaging more in my christian community again starting w going to church more and visiti g exchanges etc #she kniws abt basically all my other friends being more than less religious and active in their respective communities #+ my family being religious even during soviet times and she even kniws abt the orthodox side of my family #so this shouldnt surprise her this much #why is she trying to talk me out of it saying christianity is evil and she cant agree to creationism like ok bitch me too #she acting as if im gonna become some republican american blonde woman or an primitive medieval peasant wthhh #and like i get it she and her family have always been agnostic and she doesnt have any personal experience with believe and faith #but that is even more reason to shut the hell up?? especially bc i just told her as like a life update i didnt want to start a discussion #w an agnostic no less #ppl like that make me so uncomfortable and then she kept saying things like this person is godless as a joke like stfu??? #and kept bringing up she csnt believe in god at random times it made me so umcomfortable #especially bc now i feel hesitant to invite her to hangouts w my more 'strict' friends like idk what she thinks abt them and i dont want to #expose my friends who have to listen to enough shit to someone like that like i want my home to be a safe space for my friends #anyways thats the same girl who keeps telling me she doesnt think im white and when i tell her her saying this makes me uncomfortable #shes argues its ok bc she is not white herself ok wth im literally german/slavic how is that not white im crying #cant really articulate what exactly makes me uncomfy abt this but feels like she wants to enable me its really weird #also with tge christian stuff like ive always been religious she kniws abt me reading religious texts its so weird to me #why are you my friend if you disagree with a foundamental part of my life #maybe she thoight i was an ok one bc me and my familys approach to believe and faith is very relaxed but wth man

[bread-that-draws]

I grew up with exclusively country music and only knew of other songs via them appearing in kids movies. But I only know them by the kids movie and not by name. So I’ve just started referring to them by the movie. So yesterday I overheard that song from Megamind coming through my classmates speakers. And I was like hey man is that that song from Megamind it’s a real banger. And he looked at me like this

#back in black #ALSO SUPERMASSIVE BLACK HOLE my astronomy professor last yr played it in class when learning about black holes and I went #oh it’s that song from the megamind soundtrack #and my friend went WHAT #I do this because it’s funny btw I’m not just a dumbass it gets rly good reactions #I said ‘isn’t that the song from stranger things’ once about Master of Puppets #and a guy looked like he wanted to kill me with a hammer #(I am a Metallica fan courtesy of my father) #I’m also a big megamind fan courtesy of me #myself #and I #my family wasn’t weird about other music btw my mom just had a rly big country fixation so it was the only shit on in the car #and now she’s super into Taylor swift so it’s the only thing on in the house #I’m a huge mitski fan and I still like saying oh it’s that song from TikTok #idk #I can be a troll about one thing and this is the hill I choose to die on #music

[peapod20001]

In my...✨ depression bed ✨ phase <3

#vent #oho five hours babeeee hungry AND hot AND depressed?? what is this?? my birthday? #hahaha yeaap. it’s cool it’s cool I’m chillin #just vibin. head feels. weird. but I don’t entirely know what up with that it could be a few things if I’m being honest lol #hmmgf when was the last time I just. laid here this often? #laid? layd? layed?? whatever lol #hmm I found a fuckin uhh. vent diagram thing that showed BPD ASHD and Autism and their specific traits and overlaps #is uh. uhm. too close!! like sir!! who gave you!! permission!!!! #oofy anyways uhmmmmmm. realized that I!! don’t interact with people!! as much as I did when I was younger!! #like I had my classmates. my friends. my family. the ppl on tumblr and stuff. yknow #I was talking to someone and shit like!! every day!! for multiple hours!! a day!!!! #now it’s like. wow boy howdy. what are the chances I y’all for more than an hour with LITERALLY ANYONE today :) #uhhghgh gross ew ew nasty. I totally. don’t care that I’m not getting my enrichment #I’ll jus read tags on my art and look through old messages in place of actually. talking to anyone #mmm. conversations hard. hate talking about myself. don’t know anything besides myself. hate certain topics (but won’t say anything bout it) #anndd yeaa!! I don’t understand ppl and their motives and why they like me specifically. I put on my best personality for youu #I’m playing off of you and mirroring how you act so you’ll be ok with me <3 but that’s ok I suppose. I don’t think anyone here is out for my #guys so I’m doing good at least somewhat lol. ahmm. you ever not care about being something special to someone else. and then they kindaa. #squash that idea? and in theory you shouldn’t care since you didn’t want it in the first place but. them saying it hits? different? like oou #oh and question I don’t expect anyone to answer. you ever cried cus. someone aid you were their friend? best friend specifically? idk man #2 ppl have said I’m their best friend an I had to literally force myself not to get emotional at the first one and then I legitimately cried #with the second one LMAO like. how ridiculous is that yea? yeah #it’s. yeah. I’ve called ppl my bffs or whatever before but. it’s different when someone says it to you first ig. before I think they only #gave me the label out of convenience. not that we weren’t actually friends (at least I hope we were DHHDV) but. idk!! I literally yearned #for like!! basic shiittt!! I got put in time out like beginning of kindergarten cus I cried over my 1st best friend partnering with a new #girl instead of me!!! 😭 woof. that was the ONLY time I ever cried in public EVER. didn’t matter how many time I got hurt physically or #emotionally or how stressed I got or how confused or embarrassed and humiliated I was!! I’m NEVER letting people look at me like I’m stupid #for caring EVER. AGAIN. woof ok getting off the rails here I was like at least sort of ok when I started writing this but now I’m very much #NOT lololol so uhhhhhhhhhhh. anyways. let you get back to scrolling or swiping or whatever. I’ll be finnee totally. just. here

[kingfakey]

yo............... weirdo behavior. get well soon and by get well soon i do mean eat glass

#i was talking to my therapist abt the ways antisemetism functions #and one of them is the way we're always being graded on our jewish-ness #its very telling that ive got friends that were raised in the tradition that dont think they're Jewish Enough #ive got friends that don't think they're Enough because they were adopted and don't have the lineage #and ppl like me whose family made the choice not to practice but you can't opt out of the generational trauama #whether we talk about it too much or not enough it's very weird that we're always graded on a curve #and then told antisemetism isn't real by people that wanna play the antisemetism magic simulator #like i cant tell u the number of times i've been in rooms with people i THOUGHT i could be comfortable with-- #only to have them say the most vile shit you've heard because they didn't know there was a jew present #/b #& no it doesn't affect me as directly because i don't practice but don't ask me to sit here and pretend it doesn't #like when you're cultivating a space that is hostile towards jews maybe it's not any wonder they aren't more vocal

[francis-mulcahys-angels]

My cousins and brother are lowkey drunk and they came over to the room that I’m staying in and ugh I’m so uncomfortable :/

#their all underage(drinking age wise and legal age wise) #and their acting weird and off putting in a bad way:/ #their drunk behavior reminds me of my father which is always great🥲 #and my mom didn’t even reprimand my brother :: #she said she didn’t see anything so she can’t do anything and ugh #she always tells me that I’m not able to drink until I’m 21 and she frequently belittles me #and part of me understand why(as my fathers part of my family has an alcohol problem but it’s just ugh #I’m 19 and like ?????! #and the way my brother can make mistakes and fuck up and shit and not be reprimanded that much or not even but I fuck up a little or shit #and I get in trouble and it’s my fault and god she makes me feel so guilty #like the pressure of being the oldest daughter fucks me up and god #but my mom did say sorry that i didn’t drink a buzz ball because maybe I would of been happy atm and ugh #I’m 19 and I have no life no friends and god #my aunt telling me earlier that her and my mom would not survive without me or her oldest daughter and god #oldest daughters are victims ffr #now their being racist??? homophobic?!?and anti abortion?!?! #*deadnames* a good little girl because she didn’t drink- no bitch #I’m so tired of everything #I want friends i want a life #I just want to get out the house and live a little #this is probably coming off a bit whiny and childish but it’s just I wish I would be taken seriously as a young adult #my choices are not taken seriously or their always wrong #I’m so young but my life has is already going so wrong #when I’m back in Illinois I’m going to enroll in college and try my hardest to befriend people because jesus I can’t give up so early #my Texas trip is an up and down mess #the yesterday trip to the beach fucked me up #it didn’t make it easy that my mom got mad at me for being a bit annoyed because of my headache and she belittled my comfort food #sorry I didn’t want to eat subway #I didn’t want to eat it:/ #and sushi was not enough of a comfort food

[robotpussy]

i may have the odd crush on a white person (its only happened once) but idk if i could go as far as to date a white person it sounds like too much work 😭

#white people dni #like i cannot be jumping into bed w u sucking and fucking and i wake up tomorrow and u do some racist shit #and i have to sit u down and explain why wat u did was racist and all u say is 'ok im sorry im listening and learning' like. #you have to give me ur entire wallet. everything u will inherit in whatever will ur family has for you you will let me #walk on your back so my feet never touch the ground you will fight every white person that gives me a weird look #and ik it wont happen cause even my very progressive white friends are too afraid to confront racists how am i supposed to #do that with someone who supposedly loves me naur its too much

[inkats]

Ahem. Realization that I’m reverting back to sixth grade -> thinking about the state of sixth grade. Hm. I might not be doing too well right now. Or maybe I am doing well and getting better I am just comfortable in the misery?

#My parents were separating (they got back together. Unfortunately.) and I wasn’t. I didn’t feel bad about it I think. I was very okay? Idc #But it was all aphmau mysme anime (fairy tail i love you~) #(side note you see how aphmau caused me to be like this? I got into mysme from that time she introduced katlyn to it in my street. #and fairy tail from the gray stuff she had going on. It was the beginning.) #Which some might say. Not amazing a lot of escapism #and it was like. A lot of change and stuff. And my parents being weird keep it in the family types meaning for a good while I was like this #is illegal to talk about with my friends. So. #I was stressed a bit I would imagine. #and now I’m all holy shit I’m almost done highschool i have to start applying to unis in less than a year I’m going to die. #and guess what? Aggressively back into that escapism. #hm. Hm. Well. #idk I don’t got a thesis. #should I tag this with #vent #? #maybe. just in case #K gn also pls recommend memoirs I really do love them they give hope and love. I need stories about real ppl who made it <3 thank you.