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cycle-verse · 8 months

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After leaving the room, Dream headed downstairs, and the first thing he heard was a voice.

“Uncle dream? How’s dad?” Gradient asked, his phone in his hand but his hands shaking.

"He'll be ok... no need to worry..."

“I’m just… if dad is hurt then papa and Stain hurt too and… PJ is driving me mad and I just want to call him but I can’t,” he didn’t say who he wanted to call but it was obvious that this person was a comfort to him.

"What makes you think you can't...? I'm here to help you guys, make sure everything stays in order..."

“Because my phone isn’t track proof and I’ve already been seen by one of HIS lackeys, entering outertale,” he frowned, “I’ve been texting him since Stain isn’t here to help me and I just… it’s getting late and Stain will probably stay with dad and…” he was rambling, panicking, but it was common knowledge how he was nearly codependent on his brother.

He sighed softly before moving to take gently Gradient's face in his hands, "Hey, hey... it's ok... do you want to go up and see Ink and Stain...? Leave me to take care of everyone...?"

“But I’m supposed to take care of them too… I’m the only one PJ listens to when they’re being mean… I…” he’d always been like this, trying to be the caretaker, and with growing suspicion of memories it would at least help it make more sense as neither parents ever put that weight on him.

"Gradient, please... it's ok to take a break... just take a deep breath, ok...?"

“I can’t take a break! I thought I could and then Dad got hurt! I need to protect my family, I can’t lose anyone else,” and that confirmed it, that he remembered the girls because he hadn’t lost anyone else. “I can’t fail again,” and may it be mentioned he was literally a baby then. “I’m the one who helps Print with their homework because they can’t read, I’m the one who Bluescreen hangs off of while they need to run around, I’m the one that stops PJ from being mean… I’m the one that helps Stain with his nightmares when he’s scared to wake up our parents… I can’t just… stop,” so much on his shoulders that his parents likely didn’t even know he did.

"And I'm right here... I can help Print, and Screen, and I can handle PJ... you need to go be with your parents and brother... know they're ok... because you deserve that pleasure..."

“I…” he hid his face against Dream. Just about then, Moku wrapped his arm around Gradient. “Don’t cry…” the kid whispered

Dream carefully hugged Gradient, "You heard the kid... don't cry... go see your parents..."

“I… okay…” he wiped at his tears before turning to find Inks room. “Why was he sad?” Moku asked once he was gone, tilting his head.

"Because he's stressed... he just needs a small break and he'll feel better..."

“Okay… I don’t like seeing them sad…”

"I know, sad is never fun..."

“Sad is yucky… Pops was always sad,” he whispered

"I know... but we just have to try our hardest to make them feel better..." He moved to scoop Moku up. "How does food sound...?

“Food sounds good!” He smiled brightly.

He nodded, walking over to the kitchen, "Good, 'cause I'm gonna finish up what Error was making."

“Yay! Papa was making good stuff!” The good stuff happened to be a taco salad with the meat already finished but left to the side half-hazardly.

He nodded, moving to start finishing it, "I might not be as good a cook as Error, but I'll try me hardest, just for you." He paused a moment to boop Moku's nose.

Moku giggled madly.

“Pops had a picture of you,” he said softly. He’s a kid with no filter, but he said it so calmly as if it was meant to be a comfort. “He said you were always so nice,”

"Ah, I... I imagine he still has it... but I try my hardest to be nice because then mean people will realize it's better than being mean."

“He talked about you a lot… I’m glad I’m here with you at least,” he continued to smile, leaning against Dream.

He nodded, "I'm glad you're here too, that way I can help take care of you."

He smiled more at him before reaching to try and grab some food while Dream worked on food

Dream jokingly pulled it away from him.

“Fooooooooood,” the kid laughed

"I know, I know, I'm almost done."

He giggled more.

"Just gimme a few more seconds."

“Okay!” He smiled brightly

He smiled a little, soon handing him a completed taco salad before calling the others

Moku squealed and moved to try and carry it into the dining room. He tripped and almost spilled it before running to the dining room and sitting down

Dream made sure it didn't before moving to carefully bring the rest to the dining table for the kids to eat.

PJ thanked him with a grumble while the blues both smiled at him, Screen trying to get Pic into a high chair.

Dream moved to assist, carefully putting him into the high chair before moving to feed him, "There we go."

“There we go!” Screen echoed before moving to sit as well. “Thank you Uncle Dreaaaaaam,”

"Of course, Screen."

Screen giggled and began to eat. Moku ate quietly as well while Print began to complain about homework again to his siblings, a common topic to the kid who struggled severely to read but they hadn’t gotten a test to get him tested for dyslexia yet.

"I can help you with your schoolwork after dinner if you like."

“Thank you, Uncle Dream,” Print smiled. Everyone seemed happy except PJ who was trying to hide a glare. It could simply be from being taken away from their time with their friend, but there was more to that.

Dream finished feeding Pic and stepped over to PJ, "Hey."

PJ looked down immediately, their fists balling.

"You're upset..."

“Why would I ever have a reason to be upset?” They snapped but their eyes softened a bit and they looked away. “They were calling Pal weird again all day before you got here,” Screen called out to Dream, “they don’t always mean it but Gradient kept telling them to stop so they didn’t make Pal sad,”

Dream didn't really pay attention to what Bluescreen said, "It's ok to be upset..."

“Upset over what? The fact that everyone else has someone who wants them if something happens? That Pal gets a parent worth it while I spent over a year in a void and I have no clue what would happen to me if my parents died!?” They snapped before looking down, “I’m a construct of magic, what happens when that magic is gone?” The whispered

"You *are* the magic... it won't just... disappear... and if anything happened... you all would stay with me... you'll never be alone again, PJ..."

“You don’t get it… I’m nothing without them and just… why does Pic get to have a childhood but I had to spend almost two years in a void? Why?” They whispered.

Dream moved to carefully kneel by them, "Sometimes the world is worse than we want it to be... but you are your own person... you can make sure of that... it may feel like it... but you don't need to depend on anyone or have anyone depend on you, to be you...:

“I just… it hurts… pal has you and that’s so strange, he’s the only one and just… why does he get three parents when I couldn’t even get two at first? And I love Dad and Papa now but just…”

"I know... I really understand how you feel... and you have them now... they won't just... up and leave... and they've also got a long time before either of them would pass..."

PJ hiccuped but they didn’t cry, crying was hard for their body to do because, you know, being made of ink

"I know... it's ok... it feels bad but I promise it'll get better..."

They reached to hug him, hiding their face against him.

He gently wrapped his arms around them, "There you go... it's ok..."

PJ continued to cry against him, even if it was just dry sobs. This day was hard on the three eldest kids but at least the littler ones were oblivious

Dream rubbed their back, trying his best to comfort them and tell them it would be alright.

After a while, they calmed down and looked at him. “Thank you…”

"Of course... I'm here if you need it..."

They nodded and hugged him again. “Seriously… I hope you know you’re really important to my family… you’re a big part of it,”

"I know... I'm not perfect... but I'm trying..."

“You don’t need to be perfect… obviously my parents don’t care,”

"Doesn't matter... no one's perfect..."

“Exactly…” PJ sighed deeply before looking at their phone. “I like the think Omni is perfect, Omni is the friend I was with,”

"That's usually how people feel in situations like this, and that's ok..."

They smiled a bit. “I think a lot of people are at least close to perfect… even my siblings.”

"Ya, and people can definitely get close... but, you know... we all try to act perfect... and it might never work because we're just not meant for that... but as long as you're trying your hardest... that's what really gets you places..."

“I know… I know…” PJ sighed and looked down at their phone. “Omni is calling me…” they whispered

"You can answer it..."

“You sure?” They asked, holding their phone to their chest.

"I'm sure... I'll take care of your siblings..."

“Okay…” they smiled a bit and picked it up.

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aquamoonchaii · 3 years

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•• genre: fluff, angst

•• warning: mentions of alcohol

•• pairing: xiaojun x fem! reader

•• wc: 1.4k

•• collab: Resonance Beach by @amorajae

•• charlie's notes: enjoy this cheesy piece <3

•• summary: you two choose the worst time to argue and separate each other for a while so xiaojun is now a party pooper and he is a sappy drunk asshole. did he even understand what you said that night?

“He is the luckiest asshole in the whole resort.”

“Not as lucky as me, remember I won the tickets to get here in the first place.” YangYang brags and a couple of mocking “thank you sir” echo the room.

“But really, who the fuck brings this alcoholic to his room?” Hendery questions and the man in question scoffs, sitting up just to find all the idiots gathered around him.

"Are you really talking about me….around me?" SiCheng, without a word, grabs his face like searching for something then proceeds to grab his hands and puts them up as he is shirtless. "He is complete, no organs removed or bruises. This guy right here is indeed lucky." Xiaojun furrows his eyebrows as SiCheng gives him a slap on the back, stands up and leaves as everyone follows him talking about what they should have for breakfast but the only rational one stays.

Kun rolls his eyes at his hungover friend when handing him a glass of water with pills he got there. "You know this resort masters at wild parties and strong liquor so why are you drinking so much? The blackout thing and being lightheaded are not sexy nor a good combination."

"I'm a grown man, it's fine."

" I know, that's why no one follows you."

"Don't lie, I heard the bartender calling you."

"...maybe. But that's not the point, how do you even get here?" XiaoJun groans because it's too early for this and he is hungry, thinking how he wants to go home and be at peace. "Whatever, just don't die DeJun. Do you have any news?"

He lowers his head and shakes it, no one really mentions it as they promised to shut up about it hoping he shuts up and enjoy.

Xiaojun indeed has been quiet but drinks one beer and he is sobbing about Y/N once again. Goddamnit. It's been a week of him drowning in his tears and three days of him drowning in alcohol, his friend is really heartbroken and he secretly wonders if this type of codependency is actually good for him.

Kun bites his hand to not call you and ask what happened because XiaoJun won't talk about the whole stuff. You two were basically glued to each other since you started dating and it was a bit awkward but XiaoJun looked happier and you were really nice to everyone.

He wonders if his probably now single friend is going to be alright. For now, he just listens to him talk for a bit and forces him to swallow a lot of healthy snacks so his liver doesn't collapse.

……….

It's been two long days at the resort and everyone is having fun except XiaoJun. He has been basically brought here as another suitcase anyways, one night he has been slurring words about Y/N and how the guys would have to kill him to make him accept the invitation to the resort and the next day he woke up at lunch time with a huge hangover at a king sized bed... at the Resort.

Fuck them all.

Until Kun made some sense because well, they didn't do it to mess with him. Actually, yes but also because XiaoJun was one of the most excited when Yangyang played a stupid lottery and won tickets to a luxury resort for a week. He helped Kun to organize everything for the other chaotic asshats, it was gonna be an unforgettable summer vacation.

Yangyang and the guys approved Y/N so they invited her but no one asked anything, maybe it was because he arrived late at the dorms looking like garbage after meeting you. He remembers reaching them and opening his hand to show them both of your rings, how embarrassing but at least that stopped the questions.

After Kun leaves, he slurs a thank you because he knows he is making this trip a nightmare for him. But a question keeps running through his head, does he actually reach his own dorm by himself?

DeJun can't even stand on his feet when frick an he acts wild almost screaming what he feels because the alcohol softs his vocal chords and makes him rant about his feelings he prefers no to talk about sober.

He doesn't stand up but leans to the little table at his left to search for his wallet and grab a lot of cash, he'll search the person and tip him extra because it's probably one of the service people that looks the worst side of him.

Let's give us some time. It would be good for both of us, DeJun.

Honestly, fuck you.

How is this good?

It was a silly argument that turned into something big as stress and miscommunication clashed, you both hurt each other with harsh words and stormed out in opposite directions. The next day he met you to talk things out and you forgave each other but it had turned awfully when you returned the promise ring to him.

You are not coming back, he can feel it.

Honestly, he wants to run to you and do something for you to get him back. But what if you end things right away? You said something about giving him a week to enjoy himself as the most repetitive thing of him at the argument was you being everywhere and he couldn't breathe.

He sighs, how stupid of him.

Basically, DeJun is the clingy one so that didn't make sense. He was the one expecting for you to come and cuddle him as you bicker with Yangyang as he tried to roast him, you caressing his hair as he played the guitar and sing for you, the little kisses on his cheek when he felts sad, how you didn't leave his hand even when you were paying for the snacks. He loved it, he was the one to search for your hand so you can hold him a bit more.

If you are taking your revenge now, it's working and he wishes once again being at the dorm so the wondering and the waiting eats him alive.

You are not coming back but he is hoping you do somehow.

…….

"DeJun! Are you drunk?" He shakes his head as he arrives at the fun stuff to do, maybe doing something would make him stop thinking about you for a bit. Everyone pats their back as he probably looks like crap and make him go to beach and learn surf.

...it doesn't work but he feels less miserable at least.

No headaches are cool too as night arrives and they are invited to a party. SiCheng bet him 100 dollars he couldn't pass the night without a single shot and he raises an eyebrow.

"I'll be the one who takes you to the dorm, I won't clean anything tho."

"Deal."

The variety of cocktails makes everyone drunk as hell and XiaoJun actually has fun watching Kun dancing on the table as everyone cheers for him. Hendery breaks empty glasses as he tries to do a house of cards with them, he is the one in charge of apologies tonight. SiCheng literally passes out on his lap and he can't move.

Luckily, the staff helps him and takes each asshat to their room and he gets the chance to ask who is the person who takes him to his own room.

"No staff was needed, sir. A lady came the first night and handed me her number so I could call her when you were passed out."

"Uh, what?"

"We allowed it as he addressed herself as your girlfriend. The friend who slept over you confirmed to us she made you arrive safely."

WHAT.

"Can you call her please?"

And there you are coming hurriedly from another side of the resort, waving at the bartender. "Where is he?"

He lifts his hand and nervously waves, you approach him awkwardly and waved too. "So you caught me."

"Why didn't you tell me you were here?"

"Well, you weren't in conditions for it."

"And what's the best condition?" He doesn't know how to feel, but being embarrassed is the first thing that gets the best of him as you saw it all.

"Maybe sober?" You shrugged your shoulders and sat down in front of him, his cheeks heated because he remembers talking to someone about how sorry he feels for the woman he loves. "You really don't know how to listen to me, huh?" He looks at you utterly confused but his heart flutters when you extend your hand to him. DeJun carefully grabs yours and lets out a shaky sigh like he has been holding his breath since you left.

"Y/N…"

"There's no need to explain further, I heard it all with hiccups and everything." You chuckle and caress his hand. "It was too extreme for me to return the ring, I'm so sorry for that. But I really thought a week alone would make us think if this relationship was going well and… I felt awful. I literally made you cookies twice and kept forgetting we were on a break. I am not sure how to ask this but, how did your week go?"

"I literally can't see because of how swollen my eyes are. Never do this again please I'm so annoyed I'm going to cry again."

"I won't I promise, I also can't see." You laugh and he looks at you, your sweet eyes lighten up as he stands up and kisses them both over the table as he mutters apologies again.

"Can you keep it as a secret what I did hen drunk?"

"You screamed my name but I loved it." XiaoJun groans and covers his ears as you laugh, he searches his pocket and give shou the ring.

He is never going to drink again but he makes you write on a napkin a promise to wear the ring everywhere.

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