#worse dealer

[mariemariemaria]

Does anybody else feel like mental health awareness has done very little to help them in material reality

#i was gonna say done nothing to help but that seemed too harsh #like there definitely is more knowledge about it now. maybe more people feel comfortable speaking about it which is good #but personally i don't feel that. like idk. workplaces will post about mental health awareness and then do nothing to help employees #the same w universities. my uni cut back the already meager mental health support #and then the government is doing absolutely fuck all as well #like idk im just back in a place i thought id gotten out of long ago and i still don't feel comfortable talking about it with people #maybe that's a me problem or maybe it's cultural or something idk. but in the 10 years ive been depressed (🫠) i don't think it's gotten a #whole lot better. teenagers are still dealing with the same shit i did and they're still not being taken seriously #women's mental health is not even spoken about.....anxiety depression sh eds etc are still ignored or seen as hysterical behaviour in women #or just normal esp with disordered eating. society hasn't changed people still want women to be stick thin and weak #like i know 10 years is a short time and there has been massive improvements in mh awareness if we look back over the past 50+ years #but idk i just think that it hasn't gotten better for a lot of people #i think specifically of belfast and like god. the amount of trauma there is the amount of homelessness the amount of substance abuse #drug abuse in particular that has gotten visibly worse over the past decade or so* #and i connect the dots n see the 2008 recession + a tory gov defunding the nhs + dehumanisation of homeless people & addicts + the troubles #+ ptsd + generational trauma + a negative peace + classism + paramilitary drug dealers + parties linked to those paramilitaries #and its like hmmmm i think we live in a society. and a mental health approach based on individual actions like journaling and meditation #isn't the way to go. or at least is not the be all and end all which is what a lot of mental health awareness raising seems to promote #*visibly worse on the streets. it was always a problem ofc but even a decade ago my parents never imagined it would be as bad as it is now #and it's become so normalised. i do think there's less individualism here than there seems to be elsewhere which can be good and can be bad #but i think we are becoming more and more individualistic. slowly. there's still a sense of community here but i do think it's changing #and callousness towards homeless people is one of the most obvious examples of this. #love when i put a wee asterisk in the tags of a post. like i have A Lot To Say lol

[craycraybluejay]

Any advice for taking painkillers (ibuprofen/non-nsaid and non-narcotic) when hard to eat?

#advice needed #also how much do you need to eat to protect your health when taking ibuprofen #also considering just finishing off the last of my percocet but idk if its a good idea i mean what if #what if i get some sort of disease and also get shot and stabbed you know #im very paranoid about using limited resources when i dont know if current issues will get worse or new issues will require them more #doctors should give out opiates like candy again and not just to very old people #like ok sure i can become an addict or more likely without i can experience acute pain go into pain shock and die #and even if i dont die i dont think i or anyone else deserves to suffer for no reason #painkillers should be more widely available you should not have to engage with drug dealers just for pain relief #but the unfortunate truth is some people with seriously debilitating and painful problems do have to resort to less than legal means #if they dont want to just suffer into suicidality #being in pain all the time makes living seem super overrated #dealers overcharge and are not always a safe source because they cut their drugs sometimes #doctors and lawmakers should step up and realize its better to risk the creation of an addict than the death of a disabled or sick person #and its better to prescribe more painkillers in a controlled medical environment where patients can be monitored and drugs are pure #than for people in need to have to risk their lives and health #i deserve pain relief goddamnit so do you #anyway tell me what to eat

[boyghcst]

had a convo w my friend abt weed and addictions bc they r sober from alcohol (and yes they’re both diff) but they convinced me to delete / block my dealers numbers and tell my other friends

So I just sent voice messages asking them not to smoke around me bc im tryna detox

#Ngl im anxious and already regretting it lol but also know im doing this for myself and it’s gonna be hard #I just worry im going to be worse without weed and tht my friends aren’t gonna have as much fun or not wanna hang w me as much bc #they wont be able to smoke around me bc im impulsive so I can’t say no #I feel bad asking them not to smoke around me but I just know it’s gonna make me have that craving and wanna smoke #I was also meant to be hanging out w guy on Saturday and we were gonna smoke so im worried abt tht now #like im probs gonna smoke w them but I deleted my dealers number so I defo can’t buy any or ask for a number from my friends #ugh this shit is gonna be so hard idk why im doing this right now but I needed to make this step at some point #journal #edit/ so I ended up deleting the messages I sent them #im just gonna see how this week goes first #I’ll tell them eventually

[muddypolitics]

(via “We All Saw It” - TPM – Talking Points Memo)

The truth is that Donald Trump undermined faith in our elections in his false bid to retain the presidency. He sparked an insurrection intended to overthrow our government and keep himself in power. No president in our history has done worse.

This is not subjective. We all saw it. Plenty of leaders today try to convince the masses we did not see what we saw, but our eyes don’t deceive. (If leaders began a yearslong campaign today to convince us that the Baltimore bridge did not collapse Tuesday morning, would you ever believe them?) Trust your eyes. Trump on Jan. 6 launched the most serious threat to our system of government since the Civil War. You know that. You saw it.

Chris Quinn, editor - The Cleveland Plain Dealer

#Chris Quinn #The Cleveland Plain Dealer #trump sparked an insurrection intended to overthrow our government and keep himself in power #No president in our history has done worse

[anteroom-of-death]

I think I could talk Elon Musk into committing suicide. Just lock us in a room for an hour and my bad vibes would suck his will to live from him.

#personal #elon musk #how do you defeat one dickwad with a bad personality and daddy issues #send in another dickwad with a bad personality and even worse daddy issues #i also just have big teeth and a deeply unsettling stare #thats how we stop him #my bad vibes #i wouldn't even need to goade him on #id just discuss insane shit at his general direction and talk about how he needs to hire a better coke dealer

[arolesbianism]

I've been playing the new cotl update and I generally like it but god do I fucking hate like all of the balance changes just let things be strong man

#rat rambles #like Im ok with the dice relics getting nerfed because they were pretty rediculous before #but making them fragile relics is absolutely terrible and unacceptable #I dont wanna be mean abt it but like time and time again theyve nerfed things way too fucking hard and only some of them get unfucked #like I am not even slightly exaggerating when I say this one change has made all of the dice the worst relics in the game #making them a one time use just completely fucked up the balance of them especially when theres other relics that are also deeply powerful #for getting health And are good damage dealers #it also showcases that they do not understand just how bad most of the fragile relics already are #like genuinely I am baffled by this decision its been making this update so much harder to enjoy #also apparently they massively lowered the level cap which? sucks so fucking bad? #like there's ways to let things be strong without being overpowered #like literally just make it harder to level up followers as they get to the stupid high levels thatd be a much better way to go about it #because lemme tell you its obnoxious to go out of your way to pour that much attention into a follower but rewarding #and for the dice and similarly broken relics just add an extra slow charge speed #you can throw kalamars ear into that pile too along with the bomb one since it's never worth picking up as a fragile relic #like I do genuinely like this new update and what it adds so far its just that the actual yknow gameplay got a smidge bit worse #and since I like the combat in this game any negative changes on it hit much harder than most quality of life stuff #also for the actual new content I do like it but I do hope this is the last big content update at least for a while #I worry abt the game becoming too crowded with mechanics to the point it stops feeling like a coherent game #and to be clear in my personal opinion this update is already bluring the lines of those fronts #again I do genuinely rly like this update it just makes me worry abt the future of this game #I hope if they do make another larger update they focus more on expanding upon already existing mechanics instead of making new ones #like I think sin could rly use more things to do with it #like with how many ways there are to generate it its strange that almost all of the things you do with it are cosmetic #although tbf I havent been dungeoning much today so maybe theres some hidden stuff to use sin for there lol #also one huge thing that Im confused by is the choice to put the sewing building on the first tier of the inspiration tree #cause it uses silk. aka the stuff from the last dungeon most players unlock #I feel like itd be more appropriate to put it as an ofbranch of the housing tree #so basically my review of this update is that its fun and I like the new mechanics but they do feel a bit half baked #and Im not a fan of the balance changes and Im also not a fan of the gun but thats more of a me problem

[feralprancinghomosexual]

My neighbour runs a scam company where he's basically a landlord for landlords (he works from home and takes all his calls in the garden so I get to hear his sale pitch on repeat and it's either a) nonsense or b) just lies) and they've been mildly annoying but like liveable as neighbours. (I mean they haven't fired bb pellets into our garden or thrown constant teen ragers so we can forgive the occasional 1am karaoke party.)

But now the prick has gotten himself a metallic purple lamborghini that he now every single fucking morning revs outside the fucking house at 10am bc he doesn't actually have a real job and then he drives it round the streets for like an hour or so and you can hear it coming back for like a full five minutes bc it's a VERY loud car and we live in a quiet suburb.

Every. Single. Morning.

If they didn't have cameras on their property like the arseholes they are I would very seriously consider pouring sugar in his petrol tank. 🙃🙃🙃

#He also has two fucking huge american suvs that he has to park on the street further up #Bc they fucked their own kerb with all the awful building work they did to the house they're living in #Oh and the house isn't their house #It's a portfolio property that they're living in sometimes bc it's convenient #Fuck knows if they're actually paying rent #Bc of the bizarre hours they keep and bc he's constantly coming and going and actually not always at the property #Everyone kinda thought he was a drug dealer for a bit #Before he got his giant fucking suv custom decalled with his scam company and we realised oh no #He's much worse and contributes much less to society than a drug dealer #It's very hard to listen to him lie badly to investors in his sad little 'garden' (it's a tiny square of astro turf) #When me and jo have had multiple letting agents tell me and jo that landlords aren't accepting ppl on benefits #Which is unlawful #It's been months and we still haven't even got a viewing #Let alone a flat! #We have the funding from the government!! #Nobody wants it though! #I hope his lamborghini tires run over just so many nails or glass #Blog post

[inkykeiji]

tw: drug addiction

i just gotta say, the sound of the phone ringing and the sirens, both so masterfully folded into the beat at the beginning of agnes, is fucking bone chilling. it gives me waves of chills every single time and i don’t think that feeling, the feeling of full-body bouts of chills that course through me from the crown of my head to the tips of my toes until dave’s voice kicks in, will ever go away.

this song captures the trajectory of addiction SO well. i literally cannot even put it into words. but it’s so comforting????? it’s so comforting to hear someone else who has presumably lost a loved one (a close friend, in this situation) to the demon of addiction, outline the full course of its development.

i feel like,,, if you don’t have someone close to you who has struggled with and fought with addiction, it is so difficult for you to truly and fully understand how devastatingly heartbreaking—and excruciatingly painful—it is to watch the ravenous monster that is addiction fucking devour this person from the inside out. slowly. it corrodes their smile, it decays their mind, it dulls every single aspect of life except for when they’re high. they become nothing more than a shell of their former selves; a host for this parasitic sickness, who’s only care in life is that next fix, irregardless of what they have to do or who they have to hurt to get it.

and once that monster has been birthed inside of you, it never fully goes away. you fight it for the rest of your fucking life, irregardless of how much treatment you’ve gone through, irregardless of if you’re in treatment for the rest of your days on this earth. you battle those psychological cravings until you die, especially if your addiction was a coping mechanism or a self-soothing mechanism (which is so often is). it changes you and your life forever. and i dunno, i guess i feel like there’s still so many people who just can’t comprehend this and comprehend how much of a sickness addiction truly is. and i guess it’s really nice to find an artist you admire so much who DOES get it, who HAS experienced it. that’s all, i think.

#like #i can tell you all about how my dad used to sing and dance around the house on the weekends as we cleaned as a family #i can tell you all about how my dad used to take me everywhere i wanted to go even though he had no money #how he’d take me to the movies and to hockey games and how he always *always* got me a lil treat whenever we were at the store #something my mom for example would never do because she’d always tell me we didn’t have the money for even just a bag of candy #i can tell you all about who my father was in the early years of addiction #i can also tell you about his sobbing fits #i can tell you about the screaming matches over money and pills #i can tell you about how he punched a wall and we never fucking fixed that goddamn hole #i can tell you about how he was sick on the couch every single fucking month for YEARS of my life as he tried to quit over and over and over #i can tell you the signs of an opioid withdrawal fucking backwards #i can tell you about how he used to steal money from his children #i can tell you about how i had to give him money from my student loans so we didn’t lose our house #(which we did lose the house eventually; it was inevitable) #i can tell you about his overdoses #i can tell you about the terrifying conversations i’ve heard between him and his dealer #i can tell you all about how as he descended further into addiction he because a bitter shell of himself #a husk that cared about nothing and no one except for this pretty little white pills #i can tell you about how his abuse got INFINITELY worse #but you’ll never truly understand that devolution unless you’ve experienced what it’s like #i can talk your ear off about it and you can feel that sympathy and comprehend how difficult and painful it is #i have a very complex relationship with my father #i still hold a lot of anger towards him for all the things he did to us #all the things he did and still does to my mother #but it still HURT to watch him do this to himself #and impact my entire fucking family in the process #he’s been an addict since i was a fucking toddler #but anyway #these are just my morning thoughts today #do yourself a favour and go listen to agnes by glass animals

[arkhmlcst]

"Pro" AND "Con"

pro : they’ll be all she wants to think about. sketches of their face will be scattered across her notebooks, even if they aren’t quite accurate to her partner’s actual face. she doesn’t want to forget her partner, so expect her to bring a notebook to record conversations they’ve had with her. it’s not meant to be obsessive, she just wants the moments to live on - even if she can’t remember them even happening. it’s kind of sad but cute in a way ? she knows she won’t remember but she’ll do everything she can to preserve her partners words :’)

con : she can sometimes be …neglectful ? she never wants to make her partner feel unloved, but sometimes when she obsesses over a new target of hers, it’s hard to get her to focus. not only on the relationship, but everyone around her - including herself. she won’t eat and go days without taking care of herself or her pet. g*d forbid they make her lose her focus - even if it’s for the better, she’ll have a freak out. it’s not easy for her to do these sorts of things - working around her disability just so she can do her vigilante work. she’d be forever upset at them if they stopped her - she has to punish the bad people, she has to !

#— * headcanons #{{ freak out definition : throwing a tantrum over the fact she’s lost her target and swinging wildly and stomping and #{{ yeaaaaaaaah she can be both docile and crazy. when you’re with her you’re here for ALL of the trauma unpacking #{{ will she intentionally hurt her partner? Absolutely not. #{{ but she will yell and scream and cry irrationally as if they snapped her favorite dollies head #{{ you can fix her ! Or make her worse . dealers choice OENEKNEKEJSKS #{{ will she get over it ? Maybe. if her partner coddles her and makes her feel better and maybe finds ways to redirect her #{{ but she’ll have the nagging feeling in her head. and until the bad man goes away she just can’t rest! #( forgotten memory ) / * archived .

[saintlesbian]

oh and I guess Willow’s borrowed time is finally running out right? Michael entering his widower era or smth idc

#general hospital #pentababbles #probably should NOT have dropped the news about Sonny’s weapons trading on her at a time like this #like Willow just had all the excitement of the wedding to tire her out and then you drop this info on her? sheesh #funny how Willow reacted worse to finding out Michael hired a guy to take down sonny #than she did to finding out sonny works with arms dealers #like surprise! the whole time you thought you were mending the relationship between Michael and sonny #turns out Michael was gonna blow up everything anyways! (pun intended) #priorities! #oh well. drop dead I guess

[incendiaryrequiem]

ideal shining nikki blunt rotation go

#shining nikki #for me personally it goes like #yexiao caprico yeeso loen aeon #but MOST IMPORTANTLY leonid. #he needs to be included #i want to see what he fucking does #it would either fix him or make him 10x worse and im fascinated to see how that could happen #qin yi is BANNED from the blunt rotation. #hes not allowed #i have good reason to believe hes the dealer though

[blackgumball]

i was wondering to myself why im growing tired of all these 'eat the rich' flicks but i enjoy parasite and ready or not and I've decided its because ready or not relied on metaphor and was more concerned with thrills than critiques (it wants to be a fun horror film, thats perfectly okay) and parasite actually had something to say about class.

#she speaks #watching glass onion made me think worse of knives out in hindsight tee bee aych. #and triangle of sadness was the worst #was reading somewhere that these films love to quip about the atrocities committed by the rich people #but the joke doesnt really seem to be at the wealthy arms dealer/ diamond miner/ sweatshop owner's expense #dont really have the vocabulary to elaborate on this further and i havent seen ready or not or parasite in a minute #so my opinion is subject to change #but its been heavy on my mind recently #film

[terriblebicho]

Me: "I think my myopia got worse"

"Lol", said the ophthalmologist as he handed me the exact same glasses prescription as before.

Me: "Like, I have to squint to see shit far away. I have to sit at the front of the class."

"Lmao", said the ophthalmologist, and charged me for the consultation.

#my previous ophthalmologist sucked I used to dread consultations with her. #like. she'd go on conspiracy rants and throw the most classist and racist comments unprompted no shame no self awareness #but god damn if I even suggested I might do better with a new glasses prescription she gave me a new glasses prescription. #she was like a dealer for optical aids. #tho if what they say about lens prescriptions being ''too perfect'' making nearsightedness worse in the long-term is true #then maybe she's the reason my sight is absolute shit rn????

[darthsavior]

I don’t normally say something like this but uhhh Top of the Lake 2.01

This is the single worst any episode of television has ever made me feel??! Not in a good - it moved me - way. Not sadness, despair, anger, etc.

Just utter hatred. For every choice every scene every character. I’m shocked i finished the ep??

All i can think of is Eraser head Eraser head!!

Aaaand we got a little into 2x02 ya know what it’s literally eraser head

#and yall like this season more?? i die #tania shouts in space #like i know we were out here saying nearly every man is disgusting in s1 but it was more subtle #they recast johnno even???? lmfaooo is anything good no!!! #and he’s a drug dealer and a cheater lmfaoooooo oh ok #awful #alternatively just don’t come back #Is this worse than the OA inquiring minds want to know!!!

[wikagirl]

oh man I sure love being a 22 soon to be 23 year old plagued with the physical ailments of a 40 year old because I inherited all the chronic issues from every side of the family.

#so um...my gandma has bone porosity and considering that my stiff fingers problem can also be caused by bone porosity #I now gotta go get checked for that bc I've never been before but my mom had it since she was in her 20s too so I guess that is just #a nother thing that is well known in the family that everyone got checked for at a young age except for me #because I am perfectly normal and just need to get myself to gether a little more I guess #also if I really have bone porosity it is either bye bye to my plan of getting rid of my uterus the second I turn 30 #bc the drop in hormones can make it much much worse #or having to do hormone injections #and I'll be honest with yoh I'll do the hormone injections if i have to #and next thing you know I'm a black market dealer for the E to all my fellow trans girls who have been sitting on a waiting list #for *checks notes* over 6 years with doctos continously trying to talk them out of it because they might change their mind and all that bs #like bro if someone waits six years to get something you better believe they mcfuckin mean it allright

[the-ash-holio]

Time to take my new car BACK to the mechanic for the 5th time since I've had it... hopefully this place actually listens to me instead of pulling the "i'm not even going to look at it cuz i won't find anything".

I know my POS new car. I can feel if somethings wrong 🖕

#anyone looking to sell a car that maybe isn't shitty? #this 2020 drives worse than my 06 #100% guarantee they just duck taped shit to make it run well and get it off the lot #cuz 3 months later I started having every problem in the book #oh yeah..... and it was in a severe accident and they didn't disclose it #How do I know??? well friends..... come to find out the whole fucking bumper and passenger side door was replaced and shittily painted #shitty paint that started peeling off 3 months ago #so yeah.... i'm getting this thing back into drivable shape and then calling the original dealer and if they wont fix the problem... #LAWYERRRR!!! #ash rambles