#yes just give me doors!

[naturecalls111]

I think I love Sanji so extra much because he’d acknowledge my ‘girl-ness’ in a way that I feel like has not ever been acknowledged in a way I wanted it to be wails

The chivalry intended not with hopeful reciprocation but with admiration. WAILS.

#nc111 talks #like growing up the whole concept of ‘being one of the boys’ was so stupid to me #mostly because I had so many guy friends and I was not appreciative of their treatment of me at all #there were definitely times where I wanted to tell them like. hm. I wish you would respect my girlhood a bit more #I love being a woman. I really do #my girlhood is something I keep very close to me. I was very jealous of other girls in my school who exuded that type of femininity #speaking purely from personal experience - just to make that clear #but I like being and being associated with traits that are quite literally stereotypically aligned with Girl-ness #so hard to explain!! but at its core I just love chivalry though lol #one of my friends was like ugh no I’d never want a guy to hold a door open for me just because I’m a girl #‘I’d want them to hold it open because it’s just a kind thing to do’ #and like. yes. core sentiment I totally agree with #but also I Do want to be acknowledged as a girl I spent all of my childhood and teen years having my Girl-ness barely recognised and #it sucked seing the disparity in the treatment #but it also sucked seeing the intent with which these guys treated women chivalrously #which is why Sanji appeals to me. his chivalry is not ill intended or manipulative. ever. and it acknowledges womanhood all the same #OK RAMBLINGGGG #lost the plot. point is I love Sanji because I see him do his little dance while giving Robin a dessert she never had to ask for and I sigh #WISH THAT WERE ME. #edit: none of this matters mostly because I don’t care to date men #but I suppose it’s like. even in my friendships with other girls I feel like there was an inherent establishment that ok so I act as the Guy #And She acts as the girl #when we go out their arms would wrap around mine #and mine never wrapped around theirs. does that make sense #hold their hand as they walked down the stairs in heels. helped them out of cars. you get the image #SANJI WOULD HOLD MY HAND OUT OF A CAR EVERY TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love him #I’d never have to ask! ah. love chivalry.

[storge]

Love Me, Love My Voice (2023) 1.12

#love me love my voice #很想很想你 #cdramaedit #userdramas #cdrama #asiandramanet #cdramasource #dailyasiandramas #asiancentral #asiandramasource #tan jianci #zhou ye #tuserjade #mymymy #ep 12 #they are just so cuteeeeeeeeee and they cute to each otherrr #who is gonna give me a ride home and then walk me the rest of the way to my door.. WHOOOO?? #i wish she wasnt trying to hide it from her family so much #I get it I do cause his whole secret identity thing and girlieee does have like 7 male cousins/bros so olol i dont blame her but STILL #he is perfect girliee and your fam will love himmmm

[moiraineswife]

Lan and Moiraine: "Door"

1x06 / 2x01 / 2x01

#wheel of time spoilers #wheel of time #moiraine damodred #moiraine sedai #lan mandragoran #molan #the SADNESS #the ANGST #the P A I N #why yes of course i did decide to do my first character study of the decline of moiraine and lan's bond via that AGE OLD TROPE #the door #really tho. she's very particular abt her door. even bayle closes it for her after she just screwed him over #and got him hunted/followed by fades/possibly dead. man knows what he's about. #lan deliberately leaving it wide open feels very...well deliberate #are they being passive aggressive children about this whole thing in many ways? #yes. yes they are. is that HURTING ME TO ME VERY CORE!? #yes. yes it is. #the difference tho between them both going to a meeting together - Mo glancing at the door #and knowing; instinctively; that Lan will close it for her. which he does. before they BOTH take this meeting #vs her having to give him that order “door” in a deliberately cold and dismissive way #and him closing said door but now on the wrong side of it #vs him finally just having enough and telling her to go fuck herself (politely) #and just leaving it wide open while she stares out after him - oddly exposed #well that did done just GOT TO ME OKAY!? #anyway. i hope u understand this gifset. and i hope it causes u the pain it caused me #thank u and have a good night #molan gifset #wot s2 #wot spoilers #wot show spoilers

[worstloki]

Love your post about Loki not having many friends (even though it’s sad).

Who do you think he spent his time with? Or what did he spend his time doing instead?

I tend to agree that Loki must have spent most of his time with Thor on the basis of being raised/studying/training together. As far as canon goes Loki's 'friends' appear to be the ones shared with Thor, though the impression the group gives off is Loki sighing and trying to micromanage the group (to dubious rates of success).

I know the friendships that are written in as OCs typically stem either from the concept of sleeping around (lazy, often comes with promiscuity tropes and a non-OC male love interest) or from studying in magic class (overdone, but the closer to canon option). Both these reasons explain why it's usually women. Both these reasons also explain the choice in characters being borrowed from other media, as fellow mages, love interests, and friends Loki seems to have in the comics also tend to be women.

Considering the general lack of friends and that magic takes work (or being good at it wouldn't be much of a characterisation trait), and that he's shown to overthink and ask more questions than Thor, my guess for what he does in his free time is: spends it alone.

Whether it's for reading or because he spends the time he's not free already with Thor and Thor's friends, that's the image canon creates for me. Which sounds sad but I don't think Loki was sad about it, in Thor 1 he seemed annoyed that Thor dismissed him a lot but the no friends situation doesn't seem to especially grate him.

That he had no one to turn to when family didn't work out was also sad but I don't think he cared about it till the plot of Thor 1 happened and Thor's friends blatantly went against his reasoning to visit Thor on Midgard.

#Loki in his room alone doing handstands and attempting new jump kicks #someone bangs on his door real loud and he jolts and falls badly #''yes?'' #''LOKI I'M FREE NOW DO YOU WANT TO GO TO THAT SWORD SHOP'' #''uhm. i was reading... give me a minute and i'll be out'' #etc. #I don't think he WAS lonely #I think he was happy with Thor and accepted that his position meant he'd have to be careful with friends anyway #hence vibing with Thor's friends but not enough that they especially LIKE him #Loki has books and magic I think he'd learn to be fine with just that #the lies sure was a blow tho

[ramayantika]

Okay but the life of the legendary Shovana Narayan altered my brain chemistry, a superb academic record hold, a maestro in kathak and then also a civil services officer with a long distance marriage and motherhood

If she could do this in the 50s and 60s, wtf is stopping me from doing so, when I have never wanted just one thing to define me

#samridhi speaks #also to my ex who told me things likw your relationship will never work out with him because of different life goals #lol this woman married a diplomat and they managed a long distance marriage too #her husband paved doors foe collabs with the West with Indian dance back then #this is the kind of love I want sure physical intimacy is needed and what not but God I am never giving up all of this to marry #and I still remember him saying you give those soft mothet vibes who is a part time mother and dancer #bye I will girlboss all my life and be all right in front of guys like some of my cousins who think we girls his sisters will just marry #and settle down amd to my ex too for thinking I will be easy and live out a simplw life #fuck everything the only understanding men in my life have been my father brother and my boyfriend at this point #weird that he never grew up around sisters but still is so aware and understanding of women and our desire for dreams #lol I am ranting but yes I have an exam in 6 hours my sleep got over by 2.30 #and then I was googling gpat niper prep #yeah it's first sem but I keep wanting to updatw on the info #and God knows what struck me to google dancers randomly who were into civil service academia and still being legends in the arts #then shovana narayan came up

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i love haircuts. i cant stop petting the back of my skull

#ITS SO FUZZY!!!! #ITS BEEN SO LONG SINCE IVE BUZZED THE BACK!!! #im so smooth and streamlined... like a Seal... #Yes my head is cold. oh but i feel so so free #and! AND! it will make wearing hairnets so much easier & more comfortable #it was very funny tho #the stylist gave me the rundown on what she did #and added that she kept it kinda soft looking to give it a more Feminine feel while still being a masc haircut #as i stood there. in my pin-covered vest. Not Giving A Shit lmaooo #like thank you??? i am going to make it look masc as fuck anyway #i Do appreciate her attention to detail tho! she was very thorough! #it should grow out nicely until i trim it again #absolutely unprompted #tho i miss my lil' sideburns... i let her buzz the sides/back a bit too short... #when will they return from the war... #man i love getting my hair cut tho #i usually Hate it when anyone is in my space bubble but... sigh. its nice #i can just sit and space out while my hair gets cleaned up <3 #its odd. i dont like being touched Except for when its my hair - which i am extremely particular about. i contain multitudes #SIDE NOTE TONIGHT I HAVE HEARD MY FIRST FROG SYMPHONY #opened the back door and!!! Frogs!!! whoa! there's Creatures out there!

[cienie-isengardu]

#mortal kombat #sub zero #bi han #kuai liang #scorpion #liu kang #i totally know how johnny cage felt in that scene :D #look the mk1 did not give me the ice bros brotherhood i needed #but it for sure give me ammo for my weird humour and ideas #so bear with me #also sorry to everyone i promised to write something i'm working on those stuff just MK is right now like those three bastards that came #uninvited to my head saying it is matter of grave importance and then did not leave yet #if you are close to write something down and complete the task #DO NOT OPEN THE DOOR on 99.99% you will be distracted by other ideas trying to sneak in #also yes bi han is the angry WIP that would kick me on first occassion (but then who wouldn't after waiting literally years to be finish)

[bending-sickle]

hello internet tell me i’m my hair is pretty

#because i asked mom and all she could say was #i can see the tip of the pin #and #that pin looks better in black hair #when i do not Dear Readers have black hair #and when i said wtf mom??? she just turned the tv volume up #and her utter inability to give a compliment #and in fact to do the exact opposite #has made me cry #and now i think my hair looks like crap #but i have spent over half an hour on it so i am going out in public like this #or rather to a family lunch #randomness #it's a me #also yes yes the new shade matches the door in this light #i still don’t know if i like it #and it STILL bleeds in the shower

[ozcarma]

Trying to watch 999 let’s plays is such hell to me - NO ONE PLAYS THE GAME RIGHT just shutupshutupshutupshutup and play the game!! Stop trying to make jokes!!!!

I’m too autistic for this, I cannot bear hearing let’s players doing their own voice acting when I adore the game’s VAs too much. Everyone always fucks up Santa’s and Lotus’s voices especially.

I understand the draw of Let’s Plays are largely the people playing them who have gained their own following, but as someone who just loves the game I don’t wanna hear ur stupid banter 💥💥💥 play the game and be intrigued but not TOO intrigued because give it a fuckin minute it’ll explain what’s going on 🙄‼️

#zero escape #999 #my opinion is that the let’s plays that are alright are half-blind play thrus where one person is knowledgeable about everything #and can keep the blind one on track and properly guide their curiousity #I also lose my MIND when people get stuck on the puzzles on this ridiculously easy game #(<- says the person who has played it numerous times and knows all the solutions by heart) #like you IDIOT just do THIS #(<- also the person who still has to look up the answer to the box puzzle behind door 6) #and don’t get me started on when the LPers hate Lotus #don’t get me wrong - disliking her especially when u get to the hospital room is Good and Correct as it’s what the writing is leading you to #but some LPers get so misogynistic about it I have to immediately tap out cuz its too much #also another reason why I don’t like when they don’t use the in-game voice acting #is cuz so many people play Junpei as Basic Anime Protag when Evan Smith’s voice acting gives him SO much character #and Junpei is my favorite >:( #I have many more gripes but that’s enough for now #I just want everyone to experience how great this game is but ONLY in the way I LIKE #I know I sound so whiny and entitled but please tell me someone else relates #the urge I get to just make a whole channel dedicated to 999 play thrus where I just play the game again and again with a different friend #would they all be identical to each other because I would be directing them all the same? #yes. but what greater autistic joy is that (for me) #I never thought the Joseph Anderson streams would be my favorite playthrus cuz I hated them too at first #but his dynamic with chat and consistent amusement and enjoyment of the game is very nice and soothing

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

HIII WIFI nightly thoughts anon here, I hope you're doing good ! No brainrot this time but I'd very much like to know more about your oc and Arlecchino, like how did they met and ended up married ? Does Marine also work with the Fatui and the House of hearth ?? You can answer in character if you want I'm just so curious and love learning about ocs!!

*giggles and swings legs* you're humoring meeeee thank youuuuu :] gonna answer normally since this it got rambly (also this is full of headcanons just fyi, and this got LONG)

Marine and Arlecchino met at a masquerade ball! i personally think that Furina hosted one for her birthday every year, since it was the perfect dramatic event that she thought an archon would have for their birthday. as Furina's attendant, Marine is required to go (mostly to quell any trouble that might occur), but she usually just stands to the side since she doesn't really love huge social gatherings. Arlecchino was attending a few years back as a representative of the Harbingers (and since she's from Fontaine, she is invited to attend anyways since all citizens of Fontaine are allowed to come) and Marine struck up a conversation since she was curious and standing nearby. both of them dislike social events and started bonding, they both think it's very funny that they both happen to have relatively high standings in their respective government systems :]

a few other things about that specific evening: - Arlecchino ended up finding out Marine's position when Furina called her over for something. Marine made her own educated guess that Arlecchino was a Harbinger due to her voice and her veiled disdain for the event - they both snuck outside after a few hours and met up again to chat. Arlecchino found out that Marine loves rainbow roses for their scent -since they were both wearing masks, Arlecchino asked to see Marine's face. Marine agreed, but only if Arlecchino also took off her own mask. they still laugh about it to this day, since Marine can't see Arlecchino's face to begin with

the next time Arlecchino visited Fontaine, she spotted Marine and tapped her shoulder to ask if she remembered her, and Marine just gasped in delight and went "I could never forget such a beautiful voice!" and things just blossomed from there!

Marine does NOT work with the Fatui! she is Furina's attendant, but the people of Fontaine put a lot of trust in her like they do with Neuvillette, so in a way she's third in the hierarchy of Fontaine's government and as such is sometimes sent to meet with foreign ambassadors and things like that. she does visit the House of the Hearth often once she and Arlecchino become a couple and the children are quick to start calling her "Mother", which she doesn't mind at all (Furina and the Melusine already think of her as a mother figure) and in general she makes the children's lives a little brighter with her presence

also Arlecchino and Marine are the type to not get married for YEARS just because they're so busy and already married in their heads. at the current point of the story (after the Fontaine Archon Quests) they've been together for a bit and won't get married for a few more years. it actually takes some of the children asking Arlecchino when she'll marry Marine for her to actually propose. but they do eventually become wives and are very happy together :] Furina almost screams when she finds out because on one hand her mother figure is getting married yay!!! but on the other hand THAT'S A HARBINGER AND SHE'S SCARY

here's a few more fun facts i think YOU should know!!! - since Marine can't see, she often asks to touch Arlecchino's face to map out her features- also because she can feel Arlecchino's cheeks heat up a little and thinks it's cute - Marine calls Arlecchino either "mon cœur" (my heart) or "Arle", and Arlecchino calls Marine either "ma chérie" (my darling) or "Mari" (forgive me if the french is incorrect) - Marine is taller than Arlecchino if she stands on her toes, but shorter if she doesn't - they become the source of inspiration for a Fontainain fairy tale a few decades in the future called "The Oceanid and the Firebird" - opera :] dates :] - Arlecchino is secretly a little pleased that Marine's skin is artificial because then her nails won't accidentally scratch her - they hold hands SOOOOO MUCH. Marine even takes her gloves off which she rarely does because she's like a ball-jointed doll - Arlecchino had a braille printing machine ordered specifically so she can send Marine letters while she's in Snezhnaya - good lord there is soooooo much quiet yearning when they're apart - Marine is trying to get better at expressing herself since she sort of just calmly smiled through the 500 years and Arlecchino loves seeing her wife get excited about tiny things - they dance in the rain together - definitely a case of opposites attract appearance and aesthetic-wise - Marine opens her eyes a lot more around Arlecchino and she loves it, she adores getting to see Marine's eyes framed by her lashes. in contrast Marine loves Arlecchino's voice and will often ask her to talk about anything - FOREHEAD KISSES - the Melusine have started calling Arlecchino their second father. she can't get them to stop and Marine won't tell her how because she thinks it's hilarious

sorry i just love them so much augh

#genshin talk #genshin oc #wifi's ocs #marine is definitely a 'MY WIFE IS HOME MY WIFE' type person #arlecchino always knocks on the door before she enters even if it's open just to alert marine that she's here #marine also freaking LOVES tea so they have tea parties together a lot #god i love them im hghfngdnm #today has been such a good genshin content day for me #first a ton of arlecchino leaks and then enjou and baizhu white day art #like YES give me my yearly baizhu crumb and also enjou i miss you #i need to kick myself into gear and muster up the courage to draw marine #her fit is sort of similar to navia's but with a longer skirt and covered from neck to toe #lots of pearls and a veil on her hat and a playing card motif #i could talk about my ocs for hoursssss but i'll spare you all from that

[aropride]

every day i leave my room and i go to the dining hall or the lobby or whatever and i’m being so brave and like yeah it’s for me so i don’t go fucking crazy in my room alone again but it’s also bc i hope every time they see me it reminds them what they did. i hope they feel like a tenth of the shame i live with constantly when they see me. like. fucking look at me. i’m still here. you can’t hide from what you did any more than you can hide from the dining hall. and i hope someday they’re more ashamed than i am

#text #yes it is self discipline & healing fueling my attempts to keep my life together. it's also spite #like well whatever! i'll just stay here til my body gives out i suppose #they wouldnt look me in the eyes that one time they tried to talk to me and my friends they looked them in the eyes but not me. #bc they KNOW what they did was fucked up. they knew from the second they started freaking out in my messages #bc why would someone who didn't do anything wrong act like that. they know it was fucked up they know it was wrong #and by god i have made it my life's mission to remind them. #and if reminding them means focusing all my energy into calming my central nervous system while i finish my mountain dew #or nearly passing out in the building lobby when they hold the door open for me (JUST USE THE FUCKING BUTTON LIKE A NORMAL PERSON) #then i guess i'll do that. until my body gives out i suppose. #sa tw #&Well i meant for this to go on another blog but i saved it as a draft on here and i cant change it and im too lazy to copy paste #so here's a glimpse into my brain. as a treat.

[baezdylan]

imagine your grandmother sending you to give a large amount of money to an older man you don't know all on your own in the late afternoon and on top of it all she's been asking you to give her large amounts of money whole week long, all she ended up spending on stupid things and now it turns out she is basically rich, but not when it comes to me. and she hasn't been cooking properly for days now.

#i refused to go do this and i kept saying it but she wouldn't hear me and i somehow made her tell that man to climb up to our place #so i could just give it and close the door #yes this is an actual situation from my life. #jo in the tardis* #it's a good thing i get a decent amount from my scholarship and i do have enough to get by in the bank #but i just... i hate money so much

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#love that when ur stressed and having a bad time it makes ur menstrual pain worse so you feel even more awful #like. yes. id love to get things done but unfortunately i need to go home immediately at 2pm bc i feel physically ill. vibes wretched. #im considering sleep here at 6pm but 2 b fair i think i only slept 4hrs last night. woof. tomorrow is gonna b interesting #i think the allergic reacting is abt over now tho. like im not really itchy anymore. the rash is still visible but i think its just dry now #bc of the cold. so was i ever reacting to the tatto0? or was it all the medication? im so interesting in what happened #would i not have had a reaction if i hadn't got a bunch of holes poked in my skin? or was it just a coincidence #that the rash started on that arm? ugh. so frustrating. and i think the psychiatrist forgot to actually book my appointment from when we #last talked so idk. maybe if i watch t4skmaster over and over it will heal my soul #ay. its all very frustrating. and i still dont have fucking autoclave access. fuck off. just give me the fucking key code #i just wanna pour plates 🫗 lol that actually looks a lot like pouring solid media. i dont wanna have to steal someone else's card to open #the door. who even locks up an autoclave??? they didnt at my old school and u could wheel a body into that thing. im pretty sure it was #bigger than this one. also there's another unlocked on on campus. why?! i ask ppl and fucking no one knows. that's just how it is #ugh. i should go to sleep. my tummy hurt #unrelated

[weepylucifer]

Remind me to at some point do something about that ficlet i have knocking around in my head where ulixes surprise-visits steban at his mom's place during semester break and steban gets extremely flustered about it

#posts by me #this would be early in their friendship #they met each other in the last semester and instantly clicked but it's all still new. uli hasn't even realized he has a crush yet #he's staying with his parents and they're distant and disinterested and he misses talking to his new friend #and hey steban did give him his family's address ''for emergencies'' and urgently needing to talk theory is an emergency!! #so he heads to villalobos. has the door opened by steban's mom. all very yes hello can my friend come out to play #he's led out back to a little community garden that some people in the apartment block manage together #steban's there helping out bc he's on break. he's in his oldest shittiest gardening clothes. there's dirt on his hands #and mud on his bare feet. uli looks at him in the sunlight and thinks ooohh. i am IN LOVE with you #then steban sees him and is like OH NO. he's not supposed to see me without my nice academic getup #now he'll think [mesque stereotype] [mesque stereotype] [mesque stereotype] #and meanwhile uli's thinking wow he is the most beautiful being to ever exist i want to be communist lovers with him #cue uli sitting in the kitchen with lemonade while steban has a whispered argument with his mom outside #all ''muuuums why did you just let him IN HERE i'm not even properly DRESSED'' and his mom is all oh you want to impress the boy huh? #you want to look nice for the boy? 😏 #and steban (blushing) is like i want the boy to take me SERIOUSLY as an ACADEMIC #like... this is firstie steban. he's still grappling with the whole 'poor kid in a college environment' thing #he hasn't yet learned to simply own it. he's probably trying to suppress his accent when he's on campus. and uli might even be middle class #(!!!) #and like he's not Ashamed of where he's from. his family's great. he... doesn't Hate being mesque. he's not sure yet how it all squares w #his brand-new communist beliefs. where he belongs and what he defines himself as #but he knows this: he does kinda want to impress ulixes. it just feels right to have him around #so he's just very very flustered and confused and trying to act nonchalant about it #steban's mom after fighting tooth and nail for it eventually gets uli to call her by her first name

[raedear]

.

#chewing glass #my neighbour just chapped my door #on the one hand‚ glad to know he's alive #on the other my hands went numb with fright because it's fucking twenty past nine #and actually that whole experience on Friday was quite traumatic for me‚ shockingly #and yes one day i will let him say what he needs to say to me about it #but not today! #i only managed to eat again last night at 10pm! this has fucked me up quite a bit! #so i did not open the door. i looked out of the window above the door because I'm not the first to die in a horror film #and did not give any further indication i am in the house. #(you can't tell from my front door and i leave lights on when I'm out at night so you can never tell when my house is empty) #i know that's not necessarily the kind response but i did the kind response on Friday and i made sure he was safe #that's all i have to give rn #fuck me this is awful #also i can't bear to talk to him if he's drunk again i can't do it

[divinekangaroo]

I do really like the idea that Alfie and Tommy fucked and had their deep and meaningful connection in a world where Tommy also has all his on-screen deep and meaningful connections. And that they're happening at the same time, not as serial-monogamy. It's satisfyingly messy.

Tommy's intense mental comparmentation of his experiences as well as his transactional framing would certainly lend itself to him getting one thing from Alfie and another thing from Grace or Lizzie, as he does with Jessie, with sex workers, seeing no issue or conflict with how he feels for any of them at any point in time. Because they are not the same and do not intersect and won't even encounter each other in any way.

#it's not that i don't like the other 'grace didn't come back' type fics #or the ones where lizzie is practically a beard / front / lavender marriage 'for ruby only' #i just *like* complicated #one reason why i really like my charlie POV fic where alfie is gonna keep interrupting that realm #tommy most uncomfortable with this #'why are you sending my child birthday presents' #'does he like them better than the ones you give him?' #'...yes' #'wait til you see what i send your wife' #alfie happening at the same time as grace in particular really sings at me but alas i haven't the capacity to explore it #there's a certain time based thing in tommy's thinking as well as in: #he loves X 'at that point in time' and it's true and deep and then he has to walk out the door and kill someone and that's not a man who- #-can love someone right then so he switches it off #something else happens with diana but that's another story