9/16 - unsolicited memories
There’s a blank bit of space
between what I know
and what I remember.
Everything happened
in that blank bit of space.
Sometimes
I think I can recall
the feeling of shockwaves
rippling through my bones,
but it’s always in
the most inconvenient moment,
when I’m the one behind the wheel
and the rest of the road
is full of nothing
but my unsolicited memories.
I take a shaky breath
and push them back.
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i was in a car accident back when i was 15, & sometimes (almost exactly 3 years later) when i’m driving i still get cute lil *trauma flashbacks*
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09/15 - a snapshot of the daily grind
My toes crunch under the comforter.
I heave a dry cough from bleary lungs
until there’s nothing left to expel.
Hardwood floor and
the smell of once-fresh coffee
permeate my soul, like
they were meant to be there.
Radio announcers blabber
from an out-of-earshot kitchen.
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09/14 - the letter ‘p’; use a thesaurus, encyclopedia or dictionary!
i stand,
arms out, poised,
dead staring
in the empty pasture.
i may be alone,
but i’m not free,
the pressure of space
screaming down my neck.
she pierces my mind with
her shrill precision,
and i wince at
the sting.
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09/13 - rhymes with spines
i would ask you to bend over backwards,
snap in half like a twig
when i step on your spine,
and i know you’d contort gladly
just to see my smile.
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it took me a while but i finally got out of my rut and back on my writing “grind” ew i hate that word :)
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09/12 - sickly sweet and sour citrus
sour guilt fills my tongue
not too different from
the burning tang of bile
and i claw at my mouth
desperate to taste that sweet
acidic fire i get with orange
when it’s covered in chocolate
and pulls me deep
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been havin a sexuality crisis for the last couple of days & i wrote this poem ab feeling like a fraud :/ newly coming out to u all as a lesbian!! (i prev identified as pan, then queer.) these last six months have been very self reflective & i’m so happy to say it feels like i have a huge weight off my chest :)
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09/11 - your surrealist blur
there is familiarity in knowing what’s coming and still knowing nothing. the silence of stuff without words pierces my heart; not in a bad way, but it reminds me of a time when i could sit at a table for a whole day and not think about next week. i’ve decided i don’t miss those hours and still i ache for something simpler and more complex than this beige sheet that covers my head and muffles my gentle screams. the voice in my head is no voice of mine when i don’t hear voices in my ears. she isn’t real and doesn’t tell me what to say. the rumble of my fingers refills the tension in my spine and i grip it with both hands, and i wring it out like our kitchen cloth after i wipe down the counters. water seeps between my fingers, not water, but water; it isn’t blood, but it’s not-water water, the stuff between the bones, between the muscle and fat and skin, it’s there and it fills the space and now it leaks. i feel it dripping down my tailbone and my legs and my feet and i’m standing in it. the silence of energy and sound is softly gripping my shoulders with its tiny hands.
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i’ve never written anything like this before and i have to be honest. i LOVE it. i went into a trance and just typed words as i thought them; this took the absolute least amount of thought i’ve ever put into anything i’ve written. it was so much fun, and surprisingly cathartic. not my standard poetry format, considering it’s just a paragraph, but i think anything can be poetry if that’s what it is to the author, and i’m excited to be trying new styles! :)
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09/10 - “Winter is an etching; spring a watercolour; summer an oil painting and autumn a mosaic of them all” - Stanley Horowitz, on seasons
Mother keeps her pen poised.
She sketches out each day with
painful precision.
Her repetition can be excused;
Mother doesn’t have an endless mind.
And if it was mentioned,
she would giggle
and draw up a sprout
in midwinter.
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09/09 - sensible profanities
the worst you could call me is a fraud.
that’s not to say it would be a lie
but damn would it hurt.
you know i have no mastery
of the words i spew.
i fumble my way through the muck
and hold on too tightly to
whatever i can grasp
in a desperate attempt to convince you
otherwise.
you are my best friend
and my worst fucking enemy.
i was lost before you, but
now that i’ve found you,
i can’t seem to let you go.
forget this.
i’m ready to fight.
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i had a whole idea for this poem like three days before i wrote it and of course i didn’t write it down, so this isn’t what it was supposed to be. either way, i’m glad i wrote it. and yes, this is a poem about how i hate the stagnancy of my recent poems
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09/08 - something broken, something blue
if you tell me i’m not selfish
then maybe this stupid pit in my stomach
will drown itself in my intestines
don’t hold my hand
but whisper your soul into my ear
just to remind me that
i’m trying
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09/07 - a list for the lost
close your eyes, baby.
let me braid your hair.
i’ll tell you about the fairies i’ve met
and the adventures i’ve had,
dancing through the tree roots
and the weed stalks.
my love, take a breath.
when you hold it,
let a sprinkle of that magic
settle in your lungs.
they have found you.
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as you can see, i’m interpreting these prompts very loosely lol
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09/06 - parentheses
i’m quite positive i’ve never loved anyone,
but god do i feel something for you.
i think i always have
and always will,
even when i tell her
(and, by extension, myself),
“no, i’m definitely over it.”
something about you is special.
i know we aren’t meant to be
and i know you will never look at me
and think the thoughts i think of you.
but you smile at me with
a glow in your eyes that i can never place
and i realize i still want to kiss your
stupid lips.
(who let me write that sestina anyway?)
everything i’ll continue to dream about you
will always be an aside.
i got my moment, and it’s passed,
and we’re carrying on like
it was nothing. (although,
to be fair,
i probably never had a real chance.)
maybe i’m too content
to live my life dreaming after you.
but i’d rather be yearning and alone
than ever let you know
what i never stopped feeling.
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this is the third poem i’ve written about this straight girl i’ve been not-in-love with for like four years! yikes! but she’s provided me with a lot of poetic inspiration and i do love her as she’s one of my closest friends. :) <3
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09/05 - wunderkammer
I sit on a stool in the dining room
and eat my scrambled eggs and toast
while Mom unloads box after box
of miscellaneous kitchenware.
This house, empty for no more than
a few days between dwellers,
is gently filled with things
I have known as ours
for my whole life.
Still, I can’t help the feeling
that I am an insider-outsider
in this not-yet-home.
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this feels incomplete. oh well. it’s what i wrote that day and it’s what i’m posting. no editing until next month!
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09/04 - a kingdom for a coin
look at you:
you’ve got the whole world
in the palm of your
coppernickelzinc hand
(toss it, just for kicks;
i call heads),
but you stay stuck
so tragically
in the deep, dark depths of
my lonely jeans pocket,
clinging to the frayed inner-denim
and kissing down my thigh.
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09/03 - a poem of 100 words exactly
you and i became distant long ago.
i know this because i was comfortable enough
to say goodbye to you
just recently.
before we started to drift apart,
there was a time when you held my hand
and whispered words of encouragement in my ear
and told me i was strong enough.
i could feel you leaving before i was ready to let you go.
even after we parted,
i felt indebted to you.
now that i’ve seen your true colors,
now that you’ve bared yourself to the world,
i can’t help but be so disgusted.
consider my debt paid.
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wrote this shitty lil thing about tyler joseph and his stupid platform tweet! :)))
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09/02 - a poem based on page 50 of the closest book
of course,
the first of anything is quite crude.
oh, how you labor day and night,
fighting for your vision,
for the outcome to be such
an uninspiring, simple creature.
but when you wake up tomorrow,
furious with yourself at
your embarrassing performance,
you have already vowed
to be greater
than that mess.
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the book was “the great bridge” by david mccullough if anyone actually cares lol
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09/01 - fragile bonds
i’m clinging onto you so
desperately, and i cannot seem
to grasp the nature
of your soul.
my heart
(how it yearns)
is finely fragmented, so that
it fits into the palm
of your hand,
and you have plucked it apart
into shreds
and left them dangling
from a spiderweb.
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this september i am attempting to write poetry every day (but we know how that usually goes don’t we) and i’m surprised to say i’m a week in and it’s already going well! i’ve been easy on myself but i’m glad to say i don’t hate the majority of what i’ve already written. i wasn’t going to post these b/c when i have in the past i get really worried about people thinking i’m a bad poet, but nobody reads these anyways so now that it’s been a whole week i figure fuck it! i’m gonna post them! b/c otherwise i feel like i’m writing into a void and that’s just no fun.
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Mount Holyoke students, circa 1887
A studio shot of Kitty Ely class of 1887 (left) and Helen Emory class of 1889.
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