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Unfortunately i am still alive. hopefully that will end soon.

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Want 2 cut so bad

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do they care? did they ever?

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Gods I want to fucking die

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Sitting my own vigil

I have eight (8) candles burning

gonna try to kill myself tonight.

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Listen up!

You see a post like this? Where OP might hurt/kill themselves? You hit that button that I circled

Hit that.

Click Suicide or Self-harm Concern

Yes.

Fill in the rest of it, and hit submit. The "content you reported" will fill itself in

Tumblr will follow up and help them.

Warning: this is only for mobile. If anyone knows how to do this for desktop, please add it!

This could SAVE SOMEONE'S LIFE.

YOU HAVE NO EXCUSE NOT TO REBLOG THIS.

I DON'T GIVE A FUCK IF IT DOESN'T GO WITH YOUR BLOG'S THEME.

And yes, REBLOG. Liking does no shit at all. This isn't ig.

You reblog, people see it. You don't, people don't see it. This shit's that simple.

This could save someone's life. It's not a joke.

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The thing about being a self-aware borderline is that you're a living contradiction.

It's like, "so, I'm completely aware of how irrational and clingy and stupid I sound and I know you don't actually hate me, bUT DO YOU HATE ME???"

Or, "yes this was a very minor issue and I shouldn't really be angry about it but I'm gonna punch a wall bc RAGE"

And I think, in a way, being self-aware makes it very hard to talk about because you know how irrational you sound and you know how other people will think you're weird or wrong or unstable and it sucks.

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Is our fatigue enough to be considered disabling? I dont know.. we can keep our grades up so maybe it's not? but we sleep in 1st period.. it was even worse last year (sleeping through 2 or 3 periods) so maybe it is? And we sleep all weekend and for 9+ hours a night. But we get up and have a tiny bit of energy at 6:20 in the morning?? So maybe it's not..

idk

it does impact our life but I don't know if that's enough.

#niklaus #chronic fatigue #fatigue #disability #sorry for tagging #just. want this to be seen #need advice

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when u realize that part of ur ed comes from "the less food i eat the less money it costs whoever is feeding me therefore i should eat less and be as easy and cheap to take care of as possible" and ur having a hard time unlearning that still

#ed tw #ask to tag #if im being honest that's where most of it came from.

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s sorry

sorrry

sory

sry

'll shut up

sry

m sry

#sorry #vent

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ahahahahaa

Having a silent breakdown rn

Not even visibly upset.. but im doubting literally everything-

hhhh

Am I even a system? Am I a therian? Did I ever have a relationship with the gods? If I ever did i sure don't now..

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Tired of scrolling through tumblr but its the only thing keeping me from spiraling..

#help

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What am I if not a suffering dog

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what if im just a bad person.. what if thats why they all left ?

it would make sense.. i mean they did tell me to stop playing the victim... i just.. im tired. too tired to think about this rn..

#sorry

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Ahahahahaa I just woke up from some very distressing s*x dreams I hate this So much

#nsft

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God we are being such a baby right now

#vagueposting

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Hahahahhahahaha exotrauma/neg

#definitely not jaxx