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wanna-b-skinny · 10 months

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I just want to be her

Credits: _katieeliza_ on TikTok

#female ana #ed relapse #th1gh gap #tw ed diet #ed di3t #ed disorder #meanspp #th1nspi

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wanna-b-skinny · 2 years

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It’s my birthday. I love/hate my birthday. I love the attention but I hate it that I have to eat cake and my parents are cooking for me. It’s not necessary for them to stuff me like a pig. Also I hate gifts that are food. I usually share them until there’s none for me left but I don’t want to eat it. I’ve been drinking so much water to keep my stomach full that every hour I have to pee. I live on white monster. It’s the only thing with calories except gum that I drank/ate today. Hopefully next birthday I will be so skinny everyone begs me to eat.

#ana ed #4na #an0rex1a #4na blog #female ana #4ana #not pr0 mia #not pr0 just for me #not pr0 m1a #mi4 #meanspp #th1n$po #th1nn #i want to be weightless #i wish i was thinner #i want to be a skeleton

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wanna-b-skinny · 2 years

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Just know that everyday you keep on restricting you’ll get lighter. Until one day you’ll be so light u start to levitate above the grond. You’ll feel eyes staring at you. That’s when you know you’ve made it.

#ana ed #4na #an0rex1a #4na blog #female ana #4ana #not pr0 mia #not pr0 just for me #not pr0 m1a #mi4 #meanspp

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wanna-b-skinny · 2 years

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Do you guys feel the struggle or is it just me. I want to be healthy and skinny and fit and eat normally but my body and mind just don’t let me eat…

#ana ed #4na #an0rex1a #4na blog #female ana #4ana #th1nn #th1n$po

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wanna-b-skinny · 2 years

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Perfection

Credits: @by.isabelyvonne on Instagram

#ana ed #4na #an0rex1a #4na blog #female ana #4ana #not pr0 mia #mi4 #4na diary #4na vent #th1n$po #th1nn

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wanna-b-skinny · 2 years

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Just soms th1n$p0 for y’all to stay motivated.

Credits: @nxshaya on Instagram

#th1nn #th1n$po #ana ed #4na #an0rex1a #4na blog #female ana #4ana #not ed sheeran #not pr0 mia #not pr0 just for me #m1a #bonespr0 #not pr0 4na #not pr0 m1a #ed restriction #low cal ed #ed diet

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wanna-b-skinny · 2 years

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23.06.2022

My parents had a BBQ. They were eating outside and making sure I ate enough. I made my pants dirty on purpose and said I was going to change them. I purged and made sure they didn’t hear me. My grandma said I was beautifully slim. That made me happy. I just don’t think I’m skinny enough though. I don’t like purging at all but I wasn’t going to let all that food turn into fat. I don’t know if eating and purging counts as fasting but I guess not. Here’s todays data: - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - ♡ Breakfast: Tea - 2 kcal ♡ Lunch: Fanta zero sugar (my new fave) - 250ml - 8 kcal Cola zero - 500 ml - 6 kcal Tea - 4 kcal ♡ Dinner: ?? Lets just say 70 because I threw up until i couldn’t throw up anymore

♡ Snacks: Fanta zero sugar - 500 ml - 16 kcal ♡ Exercise: Cycling - 34 minutes - -105 kcal Walking - 58 minutes - -122 kcal Extra steps taken - -51 kcal Intake: 108 Exercise: -277 Net.: -169

#an0rex1a #bonespr0 #female ana #getting skiny #meanspp #4na blog #i will be skiny #skinnnny #4ana #i want to be a skeleton

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wanna-b-skinny · 2 years

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22.06.2022

This was a f*cking bad day. Even tho I got my puppy, I ate too much. My parents cooked dinner and they make sure I eat enough. Let’s just get it on with: - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - ♡ Breakfast: Skipped ♡ Lunch: Small banana - 1 piece - 90 kcal Pink Lady apple - 1 piece - 107 kcal ♡ Dinner: Jambalaya - 1 serving/516 grams - 605 kcal ♡ Snacks: None ♡ Exercise: Walking Intake: 802 kcal Excercise: -150 kcal Net.: 652 kcal

#an0rex1a #bonespr0 #female ana #getting skiny #meanspp #4na blog #i will be skiny #skinnnny #4ana #i want to be a skeleton #4na vent #4n4mi4 #4namia #4na diary #i wish i was thinner #th1n$po #th1nn

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wanna-b-skinny · 2 years

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21.06.2022

I’m sorry for being so inactive lately. I’ve been really busy with school and other stuff. My parents bought a puppy and he is coming home tomorrow. I’m so excited. Anyways here’s my data from the last few days: - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - ♥ Wednesday 15 June: Food: 391 Net.: 215 ♥ Thursday 16 June: Food: 855 Net.: 699 ♥ Friday 17 June: Food: 464 Net.: 184 ♥ Saturday 18 June: Did not count ♥ Sunday 19 June: Food: 432 Net.: 432 ♥ Monday 20 June: Food: 188 Net.: -478 - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Today was a good day. I woke up and got some Greek yoghurt. I went to school and walked a lot. After school I watched a movie called “radeloos” It’s a Dutch movie and there’s a girl that’s literally th1nsp0. She has an ED in the movie. I walked about 7 km/4.3 miles with my mom. We also went grocery shopping. My mom wanted to eat really unhealthy and i convinced her to eat something more healthy. I’m so glad she doesn’t see right trough me. The whole day I’ve been wanting to binge but i’m so so glad I didn’t. In the end I ate 1 candy piece. I think it was neccesary to stop me from bingeing. Here’s todays calorie intake: - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - ♥ Breakfast: Greek yoghurt 0.2% fat - 150 grams - 91 kcal ♥ Lunch: Sweet cherries - 75 grams - 52 kcal Cucumber slice - 1 slice - 1 kcal ♥ Dinner: Bami noodles with vegetables - 215 grams - 345 kcal ♥ Snacks: “Boterwafeltjes” Candy - 1 piece/4 grams - 16 kcal ♥ Excercise: Steps taken -232 kcal Walking - 103 minutes - -319 kcal Intake: 505 Exercise: -551 Net.: -46

#an0rex1a #bonespr0 #female ana #getting skiny #meanspp #NOT ED SHEERAN #not pr0 just for me #not pr0 4n4 #not pr0 mia #4na #4na blog #4na diary #4na vent #4n4m1a #4n4mi4

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wanna-b-skinny · 2 years

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15.06.2022

I hate my body so f*cking much. Last time I weighed myself I was 68 kg/150 lbs at 1,7m / 5′7 ft. I never let my weight get this high. I was shocked and knew it was time for change. That’s why I'm back. For real this time. This is already my 6th day of a low calorie diet. Here’s my data from the past 5 days: - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - ♥ Friday 10 June: Food: 625 Net.: 625 (I left my Apple Watch at home) ♥ Saturday 11 June: Food: 463 Net.: 362 ♥ Sunday 12 June: Food: 464 Net.: 227 ♥ Monday 13 June: Food: 1275 Net.: 852 (I feel so guilty) ♥ Tuesday 14 June: Food: 518 Net.: 313 - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Since Tuesday evening I’ve been fasting until now. That’s almost 24 hours. Today is the anniversary of my father and my step mom so they decided to order Indian food online. I searched a random dish its calories up and it was only 380 calories per serving. I chose that one. I hope it tastes good as well.

Stay strong everybody and remember your goals!

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wanna-b-skinny · 2 years

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Credits @leahh.dunne on Instagram

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Starving season has started.

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wanna-b-skinny · 2 years

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She’s the definition of ⏳

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wanna-b-skinny · 2 years

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The struggle between wanting a great ass and boobs or wanting to be as thin as a twig…

Why can’t I have both…

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wanna-b-skinny · 2 years

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hello, friend. i can tell by the type of account you run that you are struggling right now and probably have been for a while. i just want to pop in and say i’m proud of you. i see your pain. it’s not going unnoticed and you are not worthless. i encourage you to leave this toxic cycle and start recovery, but i know that is WAY easier said than done. even i haven’t fully done that yet. but if you’re not ready for that, that’s okay too. i hope you find peace in your existence. you deserve more than what life gave you and what caused this disorder to develop. i hope you reach a time where you don’t have moments where you physically want to rip off skin. i hope we all reach that. we all deserve it. especially you. please stay safe and look after yourself. i’m rooting for you <3

Thank you for your kind words. I’ve been struggling since I was a kid. Everyone made fun of my body even my family and friends. I’ve gone through some tough things like the divorce of my parents and I’ve been r*ped. To me my life is already pretty much ruined. The only thing I can hold onto is my ED. I know it’s not healthy but I actually don’t care anymore. It’s an obsession I can’t get over and do not want to get over. Please do not worry about me since I will always keep myself alive because I have people around me I care about. I’m smart and I have a dream job that I want to achieve. Eventually I’ll hope to someday recover but not right now. Hopefully you’ll understand.

Lots of love to all of you who read this<3

#an0rex1a #bonespr0 #female ana #getting skiny #meanspp #4na #4na blog #ana ed #i will be skiny #skinnnny #not ed sheeran #not pr0 mia #not pr0 just for me

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wanna-b-skinny · 2 years

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24.2.2022

I went too fast. I started bingeing and eating unhealthy again. I dropped my calorie intake way too fast. I’m starting again tomorrow. In the Netherlands it’s vacation after tomorrow so I hope I’ll have time to work out more. Today I ate 918 calories. I feel guilty. I have an headache and I’m trying to learn for my exam tomorrow. Stay strong everyone💕

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wanna-b-skinny · 2 years

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11.02.2022

The moment you’ve all been waiting for... Did i finish my 24h fast or not.. Well. I DID! It was actually 26 hours :) Yesterday 19:00 - today 21:00. Today i ate 90 calories or -346 net

Breakfast: 2x Black tea peach mango - 16 cal

Lunch: 2x glass of Coke zero - 2 cal

Dinner: Apple - 55 cal 2x Lemonade 0% added sugar - 17 cal

Skipping dinner was way harder than i thought. I didn’t have to cook for my babysitting children but their father said they could takeaway fast food. I was CRAVING for some food. Im glad i didn’t eat it.

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wanna-b-skinny · 2 years

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OMG

Oh my god you guys this might be my first 24h+ food fast! I had some tea and some coke zero but i am so proud of myself for fasting!! Yesterday I was about to give up and binge but I am so so glad that I didn’t. I babysit and I have to cook for the kids so I said to my mom that I will eat with them. It’s so easy to skip dinner today. I also lost 2.2KG/4.85 lbs over the last 4 days. I’m still 59,9 KG/132 lbs but we’ll get there!

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