beautifulballoonface

[beautifulballoonface]

Someone said that

When someone abandons you

It teaches you

How to be on your own

But it doesn't make much sense to me

because I don't understand

How many times does one needs to be abandoned

To be on their own

#words #alone with my thoughts #poeticstories #poets on tumblr #spilled ink #spilled poetry #spilled words #self compassion #bookworm #poetry #poem #original poem #writers and poets

[beautifulballoonface]

fireflies lighting up a rural Pennsylvania field at dusk

[beautifulballoonface]

Even the best of people have the capacity to hurt us,

And if you aren't careful with your own heart,

They won't be either.

#alone with my thoughts #poeticstories #poets on tumblr #spilled ink #spilled poetry #spilled words #bookworm #words #self compassion #self care

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———

C. A. Singh • I’m Not Gonna Hurt You

2-17-24

[beautifulballoonface]

I'll always have this tender spot in my heart for you

It will ache to see someone having that future what I once thought was mine

It will hurt and it will hurt for a long time

But over this tender spot, a layer coagulates

Enough to keep you out

Enough to say no, if you come back

Enough for me to realise

That even with all this tenderness

I couldn't possibly fall in love with you now

After what I know

That you are not only capable of hurting me

But you'll do so without a flinching thought.

#poeticstories #spilled poetry #broke my heart #alone with my thoughts #poets on tumblr #poetr #words #wordofthehour

[beautifulballoonface]

"here lie those who loved life and could not find a way to live it" x

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“She wasn’t so much afraid of dying as she was of forgetting to live her life.”

Laurie Gilmore, The Pumpkin Spice Café

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I hate that I can't see my faults, that everyone around me knows the little annoying things about me, the one they would talk about after I've left the room but I'll never know it. I'll keep going on as if I'm perfect passing on judgements on to others. I hate that I can never see myself thoroughly and I hate how I can't work on those specific little things because I'll never see them. So I'll keep going on as a monster to some without even getting a chance to be something else.

#world #monster #mirror #need a tag #why am i like this #why do i do this to myself

[beautifulballoonface]

[beautifulballoonface]

Because I'm done performing and starting showing up for myself 🌼

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{Marya Hornbacher from Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia//stay away but come closer via Altusboy on Tumblr}

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Somedays like today I feel like a failure or more like a fraud. As if I've fooled everyone and I'm just really bad at everything even being just a human. And on those days I don't try to convince myself otherwise because it just doesn't work so I tell myself that it's okay because this day is gonna pass soon and for now I don't have to believe what my mind says.

#depressing shit #tw depressing stuff #mental health #mental illness #tw depressing thoughts #self compassion #self love #tough day

[beautifulballoonface]

When all I want is to be just creative but all my energy is spent surviving

[beautifulballoonface]

I say, I miss you

With no single person in my mind

It's about all and everyone

And at the same time it's no one

#poetry #writing #shortpoem #blank