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Chapters: 5/? Fandom: Stray Kids (Band) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Han Jisung | Han/Lee Minho | Lee Know Characters: Lee Minho | Lee Know, Han Jisung | Han, Kim Seungmin, Bang Chan, lee minho | lee know's grandma, Lee Felix (Stray Kids), Seo Changbin, Hwang Hyunjin, Yang Jeongin | I.N Additional Tags: Lee Minho | Lee Know-centric, Best Friends, Friends to Lovers, Growing Up, Coming of Age, Stargazing, Asexual Character, Deaf Character, MinSung are Astronomy Enthusiats, Asexual Relationship, The Author is an Amateur Astronomer, amateur astronomy, Best Boi Lee Minho, Grief/Mourning, Slow Burn, Found Family, Slice of Life, Slow Build, Angst, Because what's life without Angst, Lee Minho is Jeongin's Mother FUCKING MAKE ME CHANGE MY MIND!, Character Driven Plot Series: Part 8 of Fluffy Kids Summary:

“But if you leave, what happens to the stars?” “The stars will always be here, Jisung,” Minho reminds him. He never looks away from the glittering, shimmering sky that seems to twinkle for him alone. Jisung scoffs, turning to look at the side of Minho’s face. A lone, traitorous tear defies his nonchalance and Jisung brings up his thumb to wipe away at it. “What’s the point of looking at the stars without you by my side? I’d rather never look at them at all.”

Or: Minho falls in love with the stars, the village, and Han Jisung. In that order.

#minsung #fanfic #minsung fanfic #we were written in the stars #childhood bestfriends to lovers #childhood lovers #village vibes

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Real Talk tho:

I hate the narrative that we, as humans, need to serve some higher purpose.

I hate the narrative that we, as humans, need to serve some higher purpose. I hate the idea that our choices are meant to represent more than just our current state of mind. That our choices are supposed to represent our “vision for a better future” or some other sappy, crap-shit along those lines. And I hate how society expects us to either aim to become motherfucking Jeff Bezos or to graduate…

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#Dunyazatde’s Diary #existential crisis #i am bitter again and i will make it your problem #present and future

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hi i just wanted to ask if there's any way i can find the letters and the diary (monsta x version) on ao3 again

Hello,

Sorry to tell this but I took that story down last year. I was getting some unwanted hate for it for no reason and just needed to get rid of it.

I still have the HTML file of it, but the amount of cleaning that'll take is so much I'm not sure if I'll ever put it up again.

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a lot of ppl love bad buddy episode 1-4 but we have short memories so everyone is forgetting that episodes 1-4 were introduced as the "cliche" episodes, the tropes. everything in them is incredibly rote, they're just given a new magic for two reasons:

1) ohm and nanon's acting elevating even the most tired trope (shove against a wall/gay engineers/over the top bickering/childhood connection/rivals to friends/over the top flirting about being boyfriends/jealousy over female character/tsundere x himbo dynamic/cute pacifist sister/Classic One Braincell Friend Group™/i can go on) so that even as a trope, it is enjoyable to watch

2) every trope zips by smoothly, every tired misunderstanding cleared up by the end of the episode, we wave at them as they pass by and they don't overstay their welcome

what happens is that although these episodes are pretty much just overplayed dynamics, in each episode there is a hint of something deeper at play, usually at the end of every episode (in episode 1, the way they don't want to be the first to add the other's chat ID, in episode 2, pran's face under the bed when pat's dad comes in, in episode 3 pran's face when pat gives him the guitar, in episode 4 pran holding back tears in bed). you'll notice these are all pran's moments, because in the first four episodes it seems like pat is the driving force of giving cliche after cliche, trope after trope, oblivious charming male lead.

so for episodes 1-4, the depth of bad buddy is mostly driven by pran and nanon's performance. that although he exists in this silly, cliché world he is fully realized and he's the reason these tropes don't leave an aftertaste.

and then episode 5 happens.

basically episode 5 is still and will always be magical, because it does two things. one, it stops giving us pran's perspective. pran has been the grounding presence of the first four episodes. deciding to show us pat suddenly gives this show a new dimension, like the rest of the moon is no longer in shadow. everything becomes rounder, clearer, fully realized.

the second thing episode five does is it lets the tropes come to a sudden, screeching halt when pran tells him "you have got to stop doing this to me." because pran calls him out on what he's been doing for four episodes, and that's also something that is in itself unprecedented. in a lesser show, character would never address this because the writers don't want to address it. the fact that it's unspoken is usually the tension the writers rely on. but in bad buddy, pran says it, because he's a person, and he reacts like one, and their relationship is more than unspoken tension, it's communication and love.

episode five is the bad buddy turning point for a reason. from episode five onwards, the show never leans into tropes for plot again, only for the occasional laugh or to call them out. every single trope that is laid out from episodes 1-4 is subverted (ink and pa end up together, pat's friend group turns out to be thoughtful and supportive, they stop doing the "hands covering mouth freeze frame" thing, all their physical affection is reciprocal, everyone communicates, and so on and so forth.)

but the biggest trope episode 5 subverts is pat. pat's character is so layered that episode 5 does something very wonderful: when you revisit episodes 1-4 again, you see that pat was there all along, just being slowly drawn out (through coming back to himself as he meets pran, and through the narrative itself only showing us glimpses of his sunshine self.) pat isn't a himbo, pran isn't a tsundere. and the best part is they never actually claimed to be, it was just how the show was originally framed that led for them to be categorised into archetypes (if you don't believe me, check how the earlier fanfic for this show portrays patpran vs the latest fanfic) and then swiftly pulls the curtain to show you that they were there all along, looking at the audience as the audience looked at them.

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Chapter 4 is finally up!!!

Chapters: 4/? Fandom: Stray Kids (Band) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Han Jisung | Han/Lee Minho | Lee Know Characters: Lee Minho | Lee Know, Han Jisung | Han, Kim Seungmin, Bang Chan, lee minho | lee know’s grandma, Lee Felix (Stray Kids), Seo Changbin, Hwang Hyunjin, Yang Jeongin | I.N Additional Tags: Lee Minho | Lee Know-centric, Best Friends, Friends to Lovers, Growing Up, Coming of Age, Stargazing, Asexual Character, Deaf Character, MinSung are Astronomy Enthusiats, Asexual Relationship, The Author is an Amateur Astronomer, amateur astronomy, Best Boi Lee Minho, Grief/Mourning, Slow Burn, Found Family, Slice of Life, Slow Build, Angst, Because what’s life without Angst, Lee Minho is Jeongin’s Mother FUCKING MAKE ME CHANGE MY MIND!, Character Driven Plot Series: Part 8 of Fluffy Kids Summary:

“But if you leave, what happens to the stars?” “The stars will always be here, Jisung,” Minho reminds him. He never looks away from the glittering, shimmering sky that seems to twinkle for him alone. Jisung scoffs, turning to look at the side of Minho’s face. A lone, traitorous tear defies his nonchalance and Jisung brings up his thumb to wipe away at it. “What’s the point of looking at the stars without you by my side? I’d rather never look at them at all.”

Or: Minho falls in love with the stars, the village, and Han Jisung. In that order.

#minsung #skz #fanfic #dunyazatde #betelgeuse #skz fanfic #minsung fanfic #fanfictions #ao3 #fanfic rec #fanfic recommendation

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Chapters: 4/? Fandom: Stray Kids (Band) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Han Jisung | Han/Lee Minho | Lee Know Characters: Lee Minho | Lee Know, Han Jisung | Han, Kim Seungmin, Bang Chan, lee minho | lee know's grandma, Lee Felix (Stray Kids), Seo Changbin, Hwang Hyunjin, Yang Jeongin | I.N Additional Tags: Lee Minho | Lee Know-centric, Best Friends, Friends to Lovers, Growing Up, Coming of Age, Stargazing, Asexual Character, Deaf Character, MinSung are Astronomy Enthusiats, Asexual Relationship, The Author is an Amateur Astronomer, amateur astronomy, Best Boi Lee Minho, Grief/Mourning, Slow Burn, Found Family, Slice of Life, Slow Build, Angst, Because what's life without Angst, Lee Minho is Jeongin's Mother FUCKING MAKE ME CHANGE MY MIND!, Character Driven Plot Series: Part 8 of Fluffy Kids Summary:

“But if you leave, what happens to the stars?” “The stars will always be here, Jisung,” Minho reminds him. He never looks away from the glittering, shimmering sky that seems to twinkle for him alone. Jisung scoffs, turning to look at the side of Minho’s face. A lone, traitorous tear defies his nonchalance and Jisung brings up his thumb to wipe away at it. “What’s the point of looking at the stars without you by my side? I’d rather never look at them at all.”

Or: Minho falls in love with the stars, the village, and Han Jisung. In that order.

#minsung #skz #fanfic

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Blue Perennials

Blue Perennials It was during my weekly visits to the Lakeview Assisted Living Home in 2015 when I picked up the habit of stitching up holes in my T-shirts. One of the gentlemen I visited, Mr. Danish Rahmani, a D-Day veteran, living out his final days at a senior home in Phoenix, Arizona with no family to fall back on, had taught me how to sew. He was always very particular about proper…

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We've just moved to a new house of our own (Alhumdulillah). And despite the excitement of exploring a new neighborhood and the overall elation of having a home of our own, the saudade for one I left behind is somewhat similar to the grief of losing a loved one. Maybe I just get attached too easily but the fact remains that the feeling of a losing a home forever is something I've been dealing with for the past three days. Writing about it does help though. And it will get better (it always does) but the feeling of loss will always remain. It has never stopped hurting and I guess that's what moving away or moving on is all about. A bittersweet ending to a story. A bittersweet beginning to another. #dunyazatde #dunyazatdewrites #hiraeth #saudade #newhome #grief #randomvent #blog #writerscommunity #writersofinstagram #writing #writer #depressionawareness #exploringgrief #explore #feelings #bittersweet #bittersweetending #ending #farewell #goodbye https://www.instagram.com/p/CVfvTOCLvvw/?utm_medium=tumblr

#dunyazatde #dunyazatdewrites #hiraeth #saudade #newhome #grief #randomvent #blog #writerscommunity #writersofinstagram #writing #writer #depressionawareness #exploringgrief #explore #feelings #bittersweet #bittersweetending #ending #farewell #goodbye

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New Home

I bid goodbye to a piece of my soul today. It wasn’t even a big part of me—barely enough to warrant a tear, in fact. Just ten or eleven months old but it hurt all the same.  I moved into a new house today. And I know I should be elated, excited, eager to explore. But, I’m thinking of my old apartment as I sit in bed looking out my bedroom window. I can’t see the sky, the moon, the stars from my…

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#4:04 musings #4AM musings #anxiety #bittersweet #blogpost #depression #despair #dunyazatde #dunyazatde writes #Dunyazatde’s Diary #goodbyes #grief #hiraeth #internalized demons #introspection #Literary #longing #maladaptive daydreaming #memories #metaphor #night sky #nostalgia #random #reasons to live for #stars

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Letter from an Anti-Fan

Letter from an Anti-Fan

Dear Ex Celebrity Crush, There was once a time in my life where I liked you a little too much for it to be considered just liking. I am fearful of the word, Love, however, so we shall call it just liking. There was once a time when I liked you a little too much. I related to you the way an orphan relates to another. It was bizarre, really, how much my sanity depended upon the fact that there…

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#anti fan #celebrity crush #confession letter #dunyazatde #dunyazatde writes #Dunyazatde’s Diary #Excerpt #heartbreak

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Chapters: 3/4 Fandom: Stray Kids (Band) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Relationships: Han Jisung | Han/Lee Minho | Lee Know Additional Tags: Lee Minho | Lee Know-centric, Best Friends, Friends to Lovers, Growing Up, Coming of Age, Stargazing, Asexual Character, Deaf Character, MinSung are Astronomy Enthusiasts, Asexual Relationship, The Author is an Amateur Astronomer, amateur astronomy, Best Boi Lee Minho, Grief/Mourning, Slow Burn, Found Family, Slice of Life, Slow Build Summary:

“But if you leave, what happens to the stars?” “The stars will always be here, Jisung,” Minho reminds him. He never looks away from the glittering, shimmering sky that seems to twinkle for him alone. Jisung scoffs, turning to look at the side of Minho’s face. A lone, traitorous tear defies his nonchalance and Jisung brings up his thumb to wipe away at it. “What’s the point of looking at the stars without you by my side? I’d rather never look at them at all.”

Or: Minho falls in love with the stars, the village, and Han Jisung. In that order.

#skz #stray kids #fanfic #skz fanfic #stray kids fanfiction #skz au #minsung

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Dunyazatde's Podcasts — The Rants #1

Dunyazatde’s Podcasts — The Rants #1

I was feeling sad and then angry and then I saw a Harry Potter post and this happened. (PS: This is my first Podcast using an actual microphone and I have a lisp so… please be gentle if you do give it a listen) The Meaning of all the Deaths in Harry Potter — A Rant – Dunyazatde‘s Podcast A gentle, not-at-all-angsty, purely kind, and genuine rant about all the supposed "meaning" of all the…

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#attempted humor #dunyazatde #Dunyazatde&039;s Podcasts #Dunyazatde’s Diary #Harry Potter #hp fandom #podcast #rants

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When I die...

When I die…

When I die, bury me in an open field of wildflowers, under the clouds, close to a river with not a soul around. In one of those abandoned places that have no houses nearby, with just the sound of nature, and birds, and just the clouds to keep me company. Someplace so far away it’ll take aeons to even think about visiting me. When I die… When I die, bury me in an open field of wildflowers, under…

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#concept of death #death #exploring death #grief

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Micro Fiction: A Solipsist's World

Micro Fiction: A Solipsist’s World

A Solipsist’s World Theme: Reflection “Life is only a reflection of what we allow ourselves to see.” —Trudy Vesotsky This week’s challenge is to use the theme of ‘reflection’ in your story. It should appear in some way within the story. You can use the quote as additional inspiration. You may include the theme words if you wish, but it is not necessary. The bonus constraint is not required.…

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#creative writing #dunyazatde #dunyazatde writes #Dunyazatde’s Diary #Excerpt #excerpt from a book I will never write #excerpt from a book that doesn’t exist #excerpts from a story i’ll never finish #Literary #literature #reflection #solipsism #solipsist

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Chapters: 2/4 Fandom: Stray Kids (Band) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Han Jisung | Han/Lee Minho | Lee Know Additional Tags: Lee Minho | Lee Know-centric, Best Friends, Friends to Lovers, Growing Up, Coming of Age, Stargazing, Asexual Character, Deaf Character, MinSung are Astronomy Enthusiats, Asexual Relationship, The Author is an Amateur Astronomer, amateur astronomy, Best Boi Lee Minho, Grief/Mourning, Slow Burn

Summary:

“But if you leave, what happens to the stars?” “The stars will always be here, Jisung,” Minho reminds him. He never looks away from the glittering, shimmering sky that seems to twinkle for him alone. Jisung scoffs, turning to look at the side of Minho’s face. A lone, traitorous tear defies his nonchalance and Jisung brings up his thumb to wipe away at it. “What’s the point of looking at the stars without you by my side? I’d rather never look at them at all.”

Or: Minho falls in love with the stars, the village, and Han Jisung. In that order.

#stray kids #stray kids fanfic #stray kids minsung #minsung #minsung fanfic #minsung fanfiction #stray kids fanfiction #2minsung #found family

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Chapters: 2/4 Fandom: Stray Kids (Band) Relationships: Han Jisung | Han/Lee Minho | Lee Know Characters: Lee Minho | Lee Know, Han Jisung | Han, Kim Seungmin, Bang Chan, lee minho | lee know's grandma Additional Tags: Lee Minho | Lee Know-centric, Best Friends, Friends to Lovers, Growing Up, Coming of Age, Stargazing, Asexual Character, Deaf Character, MinSung are Astronomy Enthusiats, Asexual Relationship, The Author is an Amateur Astronomer, amateur astronomy, Best Boi Lee Minho, Grief/Mourning, Slow Burn Summary:

“But if you leave, what happens to the stars?” “The stars will always be here, Jisung,” Minho reminds him. He never looks away from the glittering, shimmering sky that seems to twinkle for him alone. Jisung scoffs, turning to look at the side of Minho’s face. A lone, traitorous tear defies his nonchalance and Jisung brings up his thumb to wipe away at it. “What’s the point of looking at the stars without you by my side? I’d rather never look at them at all.”

Or: Minho falls in love with the stars, the village, and Han Jisung. In that order.

#skz #skz fanfic #stray kids #stray kids fanfic #minsung #minsung fanfic #fanfic #fluff #village vibes #au