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Love Just Happens

Roxy's Perspective - Additional Chapter

Description: Roxy has been Aurora Lou's best friend since they were teenagers but when Bill becomes a big part of Aurora's life their friendship changes.

Characters: The future's Bill Skarsgård and others close to him. The rest is my own characters.

Setting: This story is set in the future but because it's hard to say how the world is then (and it isn't that important for the story) the future is similar to our time now, even with fashion and so on.

Warnings: 18+, age difference, smut, alcohol, ageism, talk about sex, talk about weight and looks, plastic surgery, cheating, jealousy, bullying, toxic relationships, mentions of abuse.

Notes: this is additional "scenes" to the original stories so scenes from the original story aren't a part of this story.

“A plain but ambitious girl”

That was probably how Roxy would have explained Aurora Lou, before the nose job.

They met at their ballet class when they were fifteen. They were the most ambitious girls in the class and of course they became friends, the other didn't seem to understand how serious the dancing was. They tipped on their toes next to each other with squared postures. The sweat ran down their backs because of their teachers' hard drill but the two of them never whined.

Their teacher, Mrs. Cassidy, looked at them proudly but gave Aurora an extra long look. She had many times said out loud, in front of the whole class that Aurora had the perfect body for the dance. The teacher probably thought the girls would be jealous, trying to lose weight to look more like Aurora but none of them wanted to look like her. She looked like a child compared to them, petite, with a flat chest and no other curves. No guy looked at her, with her messy curls and childlike futures. Roxy thought she was cute and kind though, even if she had understood both the girls in the dance class and at her school thought she was a pain in the ass. She sang all the time. She heard from people that she walked through the corridors singing, sat alone outside, singing and that even the librarian was forced to hush her because she suddenly wanted to try the acoustics in the school's library. Roxy wanted to give her a chance though, even if the time and activities with Aurora were limited. She had an insane curriculum with singing lessons, dance lessons and piano lessons. She didn't drink and seemed to be afraid of guys.

One day they laid in the May sun by Aurora's parents' pool. They had been friends for a year and big things had happened that year. Roxy met her first boyfriend, Aurora won a singing contest but she also finally got her period. Roxy talked about her summer plans with her boyfriend while Aurora listened and gave her her full attention. Roxy wondered if she was jealous of her, if she understood that not many guys were interested in her but would never ask. It felt like a subject you didn't talk with Aurora about, everything was about her music career for her.

Roxy looked at Aurora's mom Melinda fascinated where she sat on the opposite side of the pool. She was so beautiful and young. Her own mom said she was a trophy wife, a young wife to a rich plastic surgeon. Roxy thought she was wrong, Aurora's dad was funny and kind and the two grown ups kissed a lot, she had even seen them make out in a way other grown ups didn't. Her father, Paolo, came out to them and sat down by Melinda's side.

“Have you told Roxy the news, honey?” He shouted to Aurora over the big pool. Roxy gave her a curious look with a small smile. Has she met a guy?

Aurora laughed embarrassed and played with a knot on her bikini bottom.

“I have been offered a record deal…” she smiled big but blushed heavily.

Roxy made an excited scream and hit Aurora playfully on her arm.

“Oh my god! That's awesome!

“But… They think I must be a bit older and they want to see how I ‘evolve’...” Aurora looked down and shrugged her shoulders.

“Oh… Is it like… an appearance thing?” Said Roxy carefully. Aurora was such a talented singer and dancer and she could also see Aurora didn't really look like a popstar, even if she slowly had gotten more curves and learned to master her curls.

Aurora didn't say anything, so the answer was obvious. Roxy wondered what they wanted her to change. Or would they wait for puberty to hit?

Roxy continued to talk about her boyfriend again when Aurora had been silent a bit too long. Aurora smiled and laughed at the stories. It was hard to read Aurora but Roxy forgot about her news while talking about her boyfriend.

×××

Aurora had said she had a lot to do over summer but then she continued to be as hard to reach the first part of autumn. Roxy thought she tried to dump her as a friend and got annoyed at her but when she even missed ballet practice she got a feeling something was wrong.

“Mrs. Cassidy,” she asked after a lesson and walked up to her teacher who wiped off the bar they had been standing by with a wet rag. She looked up at Roxy with a small smile.

“Eh… Have you heard anything from Aurora? She hasn't been here for so long.”

Mrs. Cassidy looked down at the wet rag with pursed lips.

“That girl had so much potential… She called, dropped out. Because of weight gain.”

Roxy looked uncomfortable with her teacher. It didn't feel okay that she told her that but she didn't say anything.

“It's always how it starts… Probably a boy. Don't make the same mistake, Roxanne.”

Roxy wondered what had actually happened. Had she gained so much weight she was at fat camp or something? It sounded weird when Aurora had probably weighed under 100 pounds.

She didn't have any other option than to visit her even if it felt weird to do so when she didn't answer any of her messages.

It was Melinda who opened the door, dressed in leggings and a sports bra. She looked so good that it was hard to understand why her daughter had become so plain.

“Oh! Roxy! Nice to see you,” she said kindly but didn't let her in. Roxy smiled and played with her light brown hair.

“Is Aurora okay? I haven't heard from her for a very long time.”

Melinda smiled a little and looked towards the stairs.

“She's okay, wait a moment so I can see if she's home.”

Melinda walked into the house while Roxy stood in the doorway looking into the big hallway. She understood Melinda walked to see if Aurora wanted to talk to her and prepared herself for a no. She was surprised for several reasons when she saw Aurora, mostly because of the tape on her nose and bruises under her eyes. It was obvious she had gotten a nose job but it wasn't the only thing that was different with her. Instead of a petite, childish figure she now had hips and curvy thighs and when she walked by the mirror Roxy could also see she had a really nice ass. Even with the tape on her nose Roxy saw her differently, she was hot. It was probably not that much that was different with her in reality but the smaller nose made her big brown eyes become doll-like and her lips inviting. She was beautiful. Roxy looked at her with big eyes and didn't know what to say. This was the same Aurora, but in six months she had become a young woman. She didn't know why she felt pain in her stomach.

“Hey… Can you come in? I hate to show myself like this…” said Aurora embarrassed and pointed to her nose. Roxy smiled a little uncomfortably and walked into the house. Aurora was dressed as her mother while Roxy came from school, in jeans and a hoodie.

“Did your dad…?” She asked carefully and nodded to the nose.

“Yeah… Instead of having his real one, he has given me a new one,” she joked and looked at Roxy take off her shoes. Together they walked into the house. It was as modern and clean as it had always been, only that school books were spread over the dining room table.

“I'm trying to study from home… I have so many things to do now, I haven't had time to go to school…” said Aurora embarrassed and walked to the kitchen. She gave them each a coke while they sat down next to her books by the table.

“Oh? The nose job and..?”

Aurora still looked just as embarrassed.

“I'm recording now… I've written some of the songs myself…”

Roxy nodded a little but felt the jealousy creep up. She didn't think anything would actually happen with the record deal.

“Mrs. Cassidy said you had gained weight?”

Aurora laughed, she didn't seem to care that their teacher talked about her behind her back.

“Yeah I did… Over the summer. I quit the ballet diet and then it was just like, boom! I gained 20 pounds or something. For me that's a lot, because of my height. But I've lost some of it now but it was quite funny telling Cassidy that…”

Roxy looked at her carefully with a doubtful smile. If she had been more confident she would have told Aurora how good she looked but she couldn't. Aurora had a record deal, a new nose and rich parents, she didn't need to hear that she looked good also.

“I’m sorry I haven't answered you… Em… Because you will hate me…” said Aurora and looked down at her hands. Roxy gave her a confused look but understood Aurora was ashamed of something.

“You know your boyfriend's police report? I was the one filing it…”

Roxy's boyfriend had been accused of stealing from people on the beach with his friends. They weren't together anymore but she had never believed the accusations.

“They stole my shoes, weirdly enough. I didn't have anything else to steal but I saw them carry my shoes and also go through some other people's pants pockets…” continued Aurora. “I understand if you don't want to believe me.”

Roxy nodded slowly. She didn't know what to believe and instead waved it away. She wasn't with him anymore.

“We're not together any longer and… And I need a new, better boyfriend!”

***

Being sixteen was exciting in many different ways. New experiences, new friends, a new sort of freedom. But there were also many negative things about being sixteen. Such a thing was insecurity and the four ballet girls that had made fun of Aurora's body earlier, all felt it when she stood in the hallway together with them at a big New Years Eve party. Aurora had been so plain, boring even but there she stood in high strappy heels and a pink sequin dress. She looked like the pop princess she was about to be and the teenage boys dropped their jaws when they looked at her. The other girls pretended not to notice how much attention she got and that made Aurora believe she had just imagined things. Roxy looked at her friend and felt a bit stupid in her black short dress. She looked not at all as hot as Aurora but tried to tell herself Aurora was more “girl pretty”, guys wouldn't see her as that hot.

“There’s so many people here,” said Aurora with a giggle. Roxy nodded a little and looked at three guys looking towards them, she stretched her back and pouted with her lips but when they walked closer it was obvious all three of them looked at Aurora. Aurora seemed oblivious to what was happening. This was her first real party and both she and Roxy had probably never believed she would be the girl everyone talked about. Two of the guys suddenly took Aurora's hands and pulled her close to them.

“Where have you been all my life?” Said one of the guys and looked her up and down.

“That dress is amazing,” said another. Aurora giggled uncomfortably and looked down at her dress.

“What's your name?”

“Aurora Lou,” she said embarrassed.

“Aurora Lou!” Exclaimed the boys in choir.

Roxy and two of her friends looked at them unamused. She probably needed to get used to this now. Aurora wasn't plain anymore, she was the most beautiful girl there and the next Friday her song with a famous DJ would be released. She had the boys and the world in her hands.

Roxy continued to watch Aurora mingle around. The big eyed boys, the jealous girls but also the ones that just wanted to be close to her light. She didn't feel that jealous until midnight when she saw Aurora get her first kiss from Chase McCarthy. He had graduated last year and was the hottest guy in Roxy's school then. He was the guy every girl wanted. He made out with Aurora Lou, the girl who sang in the corridors and had a folder where she planned her first tour. He probably didn't know that Aurora hadn't been that hot a year ago, and that she didn't have Los Angeles' cutest nose then. When he a month later became Aurora's boyfriend she got used to the thought but wondered if he knew Aurora's nose was fake.

×××

There is a point where all teenage girls learn there is a girl everything seems easier for, a girl who has looks, money and the best sort of life. Roxy learned to accept that Aurora was that girl and also saw that it was probably always the plan. It was easy making fun of a girl like Aurora in their teens, who prepared for her career down to the smallest details and laid all her waking time to just get better at her craft but it was also the kind of person that would succeed. Aurora had already decided she would succeed.

Roxy learned to stand behind her both figuratively and literally as her background dancer. If she was honest she knew she would never have the energy to do all the hard work Aurora did and that she probably wouldn't have worked as a dancer if it wasn't for Aurora but she was a bit too proud to confess that.

Roxy put all the time Aurora put on her career to party and find the perfect guy, or so she thought he was. She met him when she was 18 and he was 23. He was tall and handsome and studying to become a surgeon. He was her Dr. Dreamy and only hers. He wasn't interested in Aurora at all and often called her a diva even if she wasn't. He had never wanted to be around her so he didn't know Aurora was the kind of girl who gave up her seat to a stranger just to suddenly be without a seat herself. Roxy loved Aurora and saw her goodness but was glad her boyfriend didn't.

While her own relationship with her boyfriend evolved smoothly to a grown up relationship she saw her friend struggle. Aurora got together with another young artist, Timmy Laurent and nothing went the way she wanted with him. Roxy hated to see her struggle like that and wished that she would meet a good guy soon but when she finally did… Roxy didn't react as she had thought…

×××

“He's much older than you!” She said, shaking her head. Aurora, her and three other friends sat around a table in an Italian night club. Aurora had walked by some guy in the line she recognized and now wanted to talk to. An older guy she admired and also thought was sexy, he wasn't at all so stereotypical pretty as Timmy.

“Who cares about that! He just has experience!” said their friend Erica with a pointed look towards Aurora. Aurora smiled with a blush. Roxy could be a bit annoyed at Erica, it was Aurora's friend from the start and she thought she could be too loud and vulgar. Roxy believed Aurora hadn't dared to tell Erica about her story with guys, how they all had broken her heart and left her in crumbles. It started with Chase thinking she was a workaholic and left her for a girl at his gym. Then it was Timmy who was a serial cheater and when they had a break she was with Philip that abused her mentally, so much her father had forbidden him to contact her anymore.

Roxy believed Aurora wouldn't talk with anyone else than her about it and was irritated that Erica made everything sound so easy. Aurora's lovelife wasn't easy.

Roxy really believed Aurora would listen to her and let the guy be but when she had walked off from the dance floor she saw Aurora sit on a low couch together with a tall guy dressed in black. He had his hand on her thigh and Aurora looked at him with big eyes, an attribute she and the guy shared. While Aurora had big chestnut eyes framed by long lashes, he had big green eyes that instead were framed by shadows from his prominent eyebrow bone. They had a similar expression on their faces; big curious eyes and a small almost blushing smile. Roxy looked at him intensely. He wasn't her type but she could see he had something and he was probably as tall as her ex, the surgeon, who she had left when she realized he had failed his studies and moved home to his parents.

“I think they look cute together and I get a good feeling looking at him. His jeans actually fit, his smile is kind and he has good arms…” said Erica with a smirk. She suddenly stood next to Roxy and sipped on a gin & tonic. Roxy looked at her a bit annoyed.

“Aurora is fragile… She should keep away from men for a while…”

Erica made an amused exhalation.

“She has never even been with a man! Come on, this is good for her!”

Roxy didn't say anything, just moved to the bar to order something. She looked at Aurora when she left the guy and felt pleased seeing her leave him behind but she got a bad feeling when he stood up and also walked out from the same door. He was taller than her ex and had a swagger in his steps. The people who knew the guy would have understood it was something temporary from a confidence boost by getting attention from Aurora but she saw his confident, laid back steps as a sign on how bad news he was.

×××

Roxy sat in the limo home with the other girls, all of them except Aurora. She had texted Erica and told them she had already gone home with “company”. Roxy felt negative emotions in her chest while looking out from the window of the limo. She couldn't put a finger on if she was just worried for her or if it was something else. It felt weird Aurora had texted Erica instead of her but also that Aurora hadn't taken her advice to let the guy be. Now he was at their (Aurora's) house and she had no idea what they were doing. Aurora wasn't the girl to sleep with a guy the first time she met him and she wondered if he would take a no graciously. She had seen how guys looked at Aurora since they were sixteen and knew it wouldn't be a good idea for her to take a guy home that she didn't know.

In the house the girls could see some signs of a man being in there but it was quiet and dark so they guessed he was behind Aurora's closed bedroom door. Roxy looked at the whiskey on the coffee table and shook her head. It was typical Aurora to get a bit too comfortable with a guy fast, she was naive and had high thoughts about people. She stopped outside of Aurora's bedroom and listened if she could hear something but it was completely silent.

“What are you doing?” Whispered one of the other girls that was on her way to her bedroom. Roxy licked her lips and shook her head.

“I'm just worried…”

The girl nodded. They knew that Roxy was Aurora's oldest friend and most often seemed to know better than Aurora about what she needed. The girl let Roxy listen outside of Aurora's door but as soon as Roxy was alone her curiosity took over and carefully she pushed down the door handle.

The scene behind the door was sweet, even if she didn't really want to see it that way. The man laid on his back on the right side of the bed, facing the door. Half way on top of him laid Aurora under the silky cover, her cheek pressed against his chest while both of his big hands laid on her bum over the cover. It looked like they were used to sleeping together. Roxy looked at Aurora's face. She slept relaxed and heavy, even snoring lightly. Roxy then looked at the man. He had several attributes that were similar to Aurora, even if they weren't anything alike. His nose was upturned and his lips full. He had model high cheekbones that the little light in the room reflected on. He was beautiful. Roxy had always liked classic handsome men and this guy was that in some ways but had also attributes that she otherwise would see as unattractive; the deep set eyes, the high forehead, but it just made this man interesting to look at. She looked at him a few seconds too long and maybe he felt it because he moved suddenly, scratching his cheek but then laid his hand on Aurora's bum again. Aurora followed in his motions, like she already knew his moving pattern and rubbed her nose against his chest and smiled a bit in her sleep.

Roxy closed the door with a beating heart. She stood a moment outside of the door, processing what she had seen. They looked like a couple in love but they had just met that night. Roxy felt the bad feeling in her stomach and interpreted it as a sign that this guy was bad, this guy was nothing for Aurora.

×××

Bill. Bill Skarsgård. Bill Istvan Günther Skarsgård.

Roxy knew his whole name now. It wasn't hard to find out. As soon as she found out he was an actor named Bill his name and biography was just a google search away. Aurora had told them he was 40, separated and a father to three girls, she found the same thing online. There wasn't anything of importance answering why he had separated with his kids’ mother, the only thing she could find was that she was a few years older than him and the break up didn't seem to surprise his fans.

She looked at him while he laid on a sun bed by the pool with them. They were still in Italy together and he had been over almost every day since two weeks back. Aurora had invited him in and changed the dynamic in the group. She was always close to him and acted in ways Roxy hadn't seen before. She had always seemed unsure and eager to please with other guys but with him she dared to be herself with a constant smile on her lips. She laid more or less on top of him in the sun bed while he was reading out of a thick book. It looked like Aurora slept with her nose pressed against the side of his neck but he just continued to read, like it was a small kitten lying on him instead of a woman.

Roxy stood up and walked towards him. Just like all of them she wore swimwear. Bill looked up at her and smiled a little questioning, he didn't give her that from head to toe look Aurora's exes seemed to give every girl they met.

“Is she awake?” Roxy asked and pointed to Aurora. Bill laid his book on the ground and looked down at Aurora.

“I think the light is off completely,” he said with a smirk then looked up at Roxy. Roxy looked at his face for a few seconds but looked away. She wanted to ask him what he wanted with Aurora, if she could trust him but while she stood there it felt silly and if she had understood him correctly he wouldn't want to talk with her about Aurora when Aurora wasn't present in the conversation. Roxy wondered if he was just smarter and better at manipulation than Aurora's exes or if he was a good guy. While looking at him she became more and more sure it was the first option, he made her feel strange.

“Roxy? Was it something?” He asked kindly while carefully moving Aurora's leg from his hip. Roxy looked at him again. He gave her a friendly smile but not at all as big as the one he always gave Aurora.

“Ehm… I just wondered if Aurora is okay…” she said and he nodded a little. “Yeah, I will wake her soon. I just want to finish this chapter,” said he with a smirk, like she was his baby. Roxy smiled unsure. For the people around she looked like a worried friend but she had also another worry in her body she pushed away.

A few minutes later Bill woke Aurora up and she straddled his hips. They didn't notice that Roxy watched them. His big hands dragged down Aurora's back, down to her hips. Aurora teasingly moved her hips and you could instantly see its effect by Bill's expression. He laughed and bit his lip. His face was so different when he looked at Aurora compared to when he looked at her. His eyes were hooded and almost sleepy and when Aurora moved her hips again he looked at her body greedily. His eyes were dark and his expression sexy. For a few seconds Roxy's mind got as dark as Bill's gaze. Perfect Aurora had of course found the perfect guy now…

×××

Roxy laid wall to wall with Aurora's bedroom in the house's second floor. She and the other girls had been out dancing while Aurora got the house alone for dinner with Bill. It was obvious what Aurora's idea with the night was but Roxy had also overheard her speak with Erica and how a bottle of lube had shifted hands.

It had been quiet when they came home but after just an hour of sleep a sound woke Roxy up. First she thought it was a cat crying after attention but the cat started to sound more and more like Aurora. It sounded a bit pained but then she giggled and a man chuckled almost mockingly. In the same beat as Aurora's moaning Roxy heard the sound of skin slapping against skin. It sounded gross but Aurora's moaning was also alarming. She had heard her before, with Timmy and it didn't sound anything like this, this was much higher in pitch and some times it was dragged out like she had stepped on a piece of lego while trying to stop herself from cursing.

Roxy laid her pillow over her head to try to shut the sounds out but then another sound increased. Bill's sounds. First his moans sounded just like a rumble through the wall, so deep it mostly just felt like a vibration but as it got louder, it also became higher in pitch. It sounded sensual and soft, like an ocean breeze. Roxy wanted to pretend as if she didn't want to hear but she really just wanted to listen to those soft moans and his low chuckle. When Aurora's sounds got higher again, together with the hammering from the headboard against the wall Roxy swallowed dryly. She had a pain in her chest that got worse from the beat from the headboard against the wall. She needed to speak with Aurora tomorrow. This was so unlike her, this wasn't the Aurora she knew.

×××

Kisses and hugs. Sweet smiles and laughter. Him explaining politics and philosophy for her. She was trying to teach him how to play the piano. Everything was so sugar sweet but then it was also the sexual tension, the sneaky hands and the loud moaning. It was just too much.

Roxy didn't really know why she continued to be close to them. It was painful, especially when she wanted to be close to her best friend's boyfriend while his behavior towards her grew colder every time they met. He was an actor but he was bad at concealing his irritation with her, or he didn't care to hide it anymore.

He was 40, had three childrens and sometimes was on the line to being rude to her. It wasn't a guy she would fall for in normal cases and not a guy she would think her best friend to be around. She was just worried for her friend, that was what it all was about. Nothing else.

“No, I think he's weird. And the whole situation… I mean she has been with two rappers and now she's with him. Sure, he's handsome and all that but it will never work. She will get bored of him and then he probably will show his true colors,” said Roxy with a shrug. She had left Aurora's house at the same time as Michelle, Aurora's assistant and they walked to the neighborhood’s gate together. They had talked openly with each other many times, most often about Aurora, that they could be quite annoyed with.

“Weird?” Asked Michelle carefully and looked down at the ground.

“You know, one moment he is so silent, the next he's so loud. It's totally psychopath behavior.”

Michelle laughed a little and looked up at the younger woman.

“Bill is far from a psychopath, he might play it well but he is really grounded.”

Roxy furrowed her brows and gave Michelle an examining look.

“How do you know?”

Michelle smirked and shook her head to herself.

“We dated for a while. I actually thought it would become something serious but then he met Aurora… But he hasn't told her. He isn't a psychopath but obviously an asshole.”

Roxy looked at her with big eyes. She couldn't believe it, that the world could be that small.

“I have photos,” Michelle stressed, she could see Roxy didn't believe her.

“Let me see.”

“I don't have them on this phone…”

Roxy gave her a look, showing clearly she didn't believe her.

“I do have them! I can send you them!”

When Roxy was home in her own home she got a message from Michelle. She hadn't lied because there the picture was, the picture of her and Bill in an intimate kiss. She sat down on the couch in shock. He really was an asshole. Aurora must have the worst luck to find the worst guys. Cheater, abusers and liars. This was also the thing that could break Aurora free from the guy, if it was used the right way. If Roxy just showed it to her she knew she must explain how she had gotten the picture and then Aurora would find out Bill just had lied, not been cheating. She needed to use it so it seemed like he was also a cheater, that would make Aurora break up with him, nothing else would, Aurora was too forgiving. She looked at the picture and tried to come up with a plan and at the same time justify what she would do. She just wanted the best for her best friend. Bill wasn't the guy for her.

×××

Andrew sat with a hand over his mouth with the picture of Bill and Michelle in front of him. He was in his office with Roxy, Aurora's best friend, in front of him.

“I don't know what to do… He's clearly a cheater but Aurora will never do anything about it…” said Roxy. Andrew stretched in his chair and made a doubtful face.

“I felt he was bad news as soon as I met him. He is the sort of guy that could just wife her up and then it's over for her.” He was silent a while before adding: “and she doesn't want that.”

Roxy nodded and waited for him to say something more.

“There are already rumors about her being pregnant… I can use this too… If she doesn't listen. It feels a bit mean but what should we do? Clearly she doesn't know what’s for her own good. I miss her time with Timmy, he really made her a better artist.”

Roxy swallowed hard because she didn't think that all. Maybe this was on the line of being a great friend and a bad friend but she wanted her to be happy and she wasn't happy with Timmy, far from it. Roxy just wanted her to be with someone else. Not Bill. He could go back to Sweden and become forgotten, both by Aurora and herself.

“I’ll fix this Roxy, otherwise we will come up with something else to get that guy out. She doesn't listen anymore. She seems to believe she knows best now. I don't know what she believes, she's still 24 even if her boyfriend is a man.”

Roxy nodded a little, even if she also was 24. She just agreed so he would do the work and make Bill disappear and make her and Aurora's friendship easy again.

Andrew used the rumors about pregnancy and cheating as a fuel to make Aurora leave Bill but he didn't even hear that made any difference. Instead she pushed him even further away and it started to feel like she would fire him soon. He really needed to do something.

Roxy heard from Aurora about the picture and how Aurora spoke like she never believed Bill would cheat. They were too in love. She started to feel powerless and at the same time it got harder and harder to even see Bill, but at the same time she didn't want anything else. Seeing him was the only thing that felt like it mattered.

One July day she visited Aurora with the excuse she needed help with a guy she was seeing, even if in reality she wasn't dating. She knew it was Bill's birthday in just a bit more than a week and the couple would go to Italy in just a few days. She had the thought of giving him something, something small and thoughtful to make him understand she cared but couldn't come up with anything. She realized she didn't even know what he liked and felt awfully stupid.

Aurora had no idea she would come, especially because they hadn't had as much contact for a time. As Aurora's best friend she had gained the trust to go into her house with her fingerprint and used that trust that day to let herself in. It was empty in the house and she looked around the big house but didn't meet anyone other than Aurora's dogs, until she looked out towards the pool. Bill laid alone on a sun bed with closed eyes. He had just bathing shorts on, a pair much shorter and tighter she had seen him in before. He was still wet after a swim and his hair was pushed back. He was probably unaware someone else was in the house because he stuffed a hand down the shorts to correct his member. Roxy didn't know what to do or look. She stood there and just stared at him even if all alarms rang in her head. It wasn't okay at all. Suddenly his phone rang on the table next to him and he answered with a bright smile. It was obvious with that smile who was calling. Roxy hid behind a counter so Bill wouldn't accidentally see her.

“Babe, babe.” He laughed and hummed. “You know that's just bullshit. You're really clever even if you don't have high school grades… No, not as smart as me but that doesn't prove anything.” He laughed and then made a low chuckle, an in love chuckle. “Hit him then. It's okay for me. You know how to do it… And you're really sexy when you fight.”

Roxy closed off. The conversation was intimate, nothing she should hear. It was proof they were just as in love when they believed no one saw or heard them.

She snuck out of the house. She should just let them be but instead she fantasized about him talking that sweetly to her. No more weird side eyes and irritated sighs, he should just give her all that love.

×××

The lie had been the worst thing she had done her whole life. Aurora had been her friend for almost ten years and she had done everything in her power to steal her boyfriend. A boyfriend that had never even liked her and was crazy in love with her friend. It was idiotic, evil and desperate.

Roxy talked to the press and told a gossip journalist she was sleeping with Bill Skarsgård, Aurora Lou's boyfriend and after that she had tried to kiss him. She was a desperate mess who lost her job, her best friend and many other friends at the same time.

She retracted the confession and it never became an article but she didn't succeed in saving herself from the fall. After Aurora's new manager had fired her she became an aerobic instructor and lost all the luxury that being a friend to Aurora, had come with.

She would always regret the things she did but it wasn't Aurora she thought about the most. It was Bill. The day she found out they had gotten married was a day of sorrow.

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heartsleevemag · 7 months

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Indie supergroup boygenius releases cyclical new EP, "the rest"

by Cassidy Byrnes

The boys are yet again back in town. Last Friday, indie trio boygenius released a new EP, the rest, after their astounding, widely accredited full-length album, the record. With their 2018 debut EP, boygenius, many of us assumed it would be their first and last outing as a group. But now, in 2023, we are all swimming in the sorrowful rock sounds of both the record, released March 31st, and the newly released EP, the rest.

I want to mention the significance, to me and to other fans, of releasing an EP rather than an extended or deluxe version of the LP. While I assume that the rest is composed of songs that were meant for the record, I think it’s wonderful to acknowledge, as an artist, that that album is complete. After listening to the rest an extraordinary amount of times, I can tell boygenius also believed that it was deserving of its own independent release because, like the record, it tells its own stories with its own conclusions. That’s not to say that I’m not a sucker for an extended or deluxe album (Taylor Swift, for example, can have all of my money), but understanding when a project is finished is something really special and noteworthy.

“Black Hole” starts off this EP with a staccato piano and an entrance of vocals from Julien Baker, where she is describing a night spent on a porch smoking cigarettes. Then a rhythm line comes in along with a more chaotic piano beginning to drown her out. Then enters Lucy Dacus with a smattering of nouns and adjectives that seemingly have no connection to Baker – but I’d like to imagine they are sharing a phone call where they are discussing these things, “Sometimes, I need to hear your voice,” Dacus concludes.

Dacus also brings us into the next track “Afraid of Heights.” This track has a very light acoustic feel with some steel guitar, until the final 40 seconds where a steady bass line joins and increases the gravity, making you really take in the story that Dacus weaves. Throughout the track, she describes a relationship with someone who pushed her to her limits: “I know I was a disappointment / Know you wanted me to take a risk / Not everybody gets the chance to live / A life that isn’t dangerous.” She has this amazing ability to make the listener believe everything she’s telling them, almost like they lived it themselves. The chaotic nature of the relationship and the slow, explanatory narrative by Dacus gives the song extreme emotional depth. They even snuck in the word “entropy," which seems to be the perfect encapsulation for this relationship.

We haven't heard a lot from Phoebe Bridgers yet, the third member of boygenius who is known for her wispy vocals and brutal lyrics, but the third track definitely showcases both. Opening with a humming harmony from the boys, “Voyager” pushes the audience into a story led by Bridgers; “It’s a hundred and three in the Valley / Blacktop is meltin’ on our shoes.” She tells us about a relationship that has ended, that was seemingly romantic but toxic all at the same time, and Bridgers still feels some sort of possession over them. This groundless notion is what drives the track – one moment she is reminiscing about spending the day in bed with this person, and the next she’s telling us that they “stepped on the gas” and asked her if she’s ready to die. While I hope that’s figurative, it gets the toxicity of the relationship across without it slapping the audience in the face. The production of the track is very minimal, with a plucky guitar line and the harmonies of Baker and Dacus.

“Powers” ends the EP and lets us hear from Baker one last time, where she is questioning her origins. Baker discusses her “powers” and where they came from with a sort of disdain, even relating her existence to a cockroach. This track’s lyrical allegories are great and the harmonies from the other boys offer a nice place to land, but the majority of the production, to me, was a little lackluster. But, again, the final minute of the track offers an undemanding trumpet solo accompanied by some strings which is a delicate way to lay the EP to rest (haha).

The entirety of this EP seems to be a conclusion of sorts. Each song is discussing the end of something and the acceptance that often accompanies endings, giving the title, the rest, a whole new meaning. The exceptional thing is that all of these tracks blend perfectly into the next; even the closing track blends right into the opener. Listening to it the first time, I was questioning where one song ended and the next began. I can only hope that this cyclical feeling was purposeful and that the boys, like this EP, will likely end but will begin again.

#music #heartsleeve magazine #boygenius #the rest #phoebe bridgers #lucy dacus #julien baker #the record #new release #music publication #new music friday #new releases #new music #music review #review #release #by cassidy byrnes #Spotify

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miyakuli · 17 days

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Flowers - Le volume sur printemps

Amour et les fleurs ne durent qu'un printemps

Flowers is a series of visual novels immersing us in the daily lives of young female students at a Catholic school where friendship and love collide. We follow the shy Suoh, freshly arrived in this new school, whose objective is to make friends and try to detach herself from her traumatic childhood. This springtime introduction is full of sweetness and poetry, but I still felt that certain aspects were still a bit in the bud state.

❤ The aesthetic of the game is really well done, whether for the menu, the illustrations, the sprites or even the text window. It's flowery, soft and cute, and totally in tune with the calm and romantic atmosphere of the story. ❤ Beneath its air of innocence and purity, the game tackles some fairly sensitive subjects, such as psychological abuse, post-traumatic stress disorder and neglect… but remains very modest in its approach. Also, in terms of its girl's love theme, I liked the fact that the character asked herself questions about her sexuality and that it wasn't something she immediately assumed. Her reflections on the fine line that can exist between love between friends or a deeper love were, in my opinion, very relatable subjects, especially for a character of that age. ❤ I think the development of the main character is very well carried out. She gradually opens up to the world around her, her dialogues become less indecisive and we gradually feel her more relaxed in her relationships with others. We don't get rid of her shyness, which is an integral part of her personality, but we do see Suoh gain in confidence and self-assurance. I've seen far too many media where the shy side of a character's character was quickly erased in favor of their development, as if it were something to be ‘’fixed‘’, so I was reassured that this wasn't the case here. ❤ The secondary characters are all very engaging (more so than the love interests, which is a bit of a shame) and add a lot of dynamism to the life of this school. A special mention goes to Erika (who's supposed to be the focus of another episode, bless), who has the best affinity with the heroine, and who clearly should have been a love interest (or at least earned the status of best friend, because frankly, she's the best).

+/- The music played by the strings and piano is perfect for accompanying the scenes, but there isn't much of it. One particular piece of music takes up 80% of the sound space and although it is long and beautiful to the ear, the musical redundancy is often felt. I also think there's a problem with the sound balance, as I had to turn the volume of the soundtrack down as low as possible to get the best out of the voices of the dubbing actresses, who interpret their roles very well, and it would have been a shame not to appreciate them more. +/- The story is easy to follow and plays out like a slice of life, with little episodes from the daily lives of these teenagers. Personally, I liked this approach, but some might criticise the lack of more intimate moments with the LIs. On the other hand, I found the last 2 chapters almost inconsistent; relationships suddenly rush in, and the attitude of one of the main characters changes drastically to the point of becoming toxic, with no real transition and no consequences at the end. It's quite confusing, and I was even put off playing this character's route after those events (because, on top of that, the route only unlocks after you've finished the ‘true end’, something that's never made clear). You should also bear in mind that the ‘true end’ is not really a happy ending either which leaves a bitter taste in the mouth once you've finished the whole game. It's a daring decision but one I didn't really like.

✖ At times, Suoh lends herself to games of deduction in which you have to pay attention to small details to solve enigmatic situations (otherwise, it's game over). The problem is that these ‘investigations’ are extremely difficult, as they either involve word games based on kanji that are not translated, or require highly specialized knowledge that is never mentioned in the story. So it's almost essential to take a guide with you… ✖ I don't usually pay too much attention to the cliché of femininity in Japanese games (which doesn't necessarily bother me) but here, it was over-emphasized at times with some rather embarrassing remarks; girls outside the norm of gentleness/politeness are called tomboys, the emphasis is often on the heroine's larger breasts, which make her seem more ‘feminine’ than the others, and too many categories are put on what it means to be a ‘real girl’. The game isn't that old (2014), but it feels that way :/ ✖ There's a lot of typo in the English translation, with mixed-up letters and repeated lines of dialogue. I was even given white text on a white background - genius!

It's a pretty good first part, in my opinion, although it's a bit frustrating in terms of its conclusion, which I think will encourage us to get on with the sequel. I've also heard that the following games are much better and focus more on the secondary characters, which makes me all the more intrigued. In any case, if you like your romances flourishing against a backdrop of slices of life, your spring will surely be more radiant.

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#flowers le volume sur printemps #I'm so disappointed about Rikka....I liked her but now...gnn #personal #Lola plays games #Youtube

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*Spoilers for anyone else reading also a slight language warning*

I FINALLY FUCKING DID ITTTTTTT!!!!!!!! I FINISHED BOOK 3!!!!!

Oh man, that was fun but annoying, especially Azul's boss battle he took forever! I really like Azul, Jade, and Floyd. I'm not quite sure who my favorite of the three is! I love them all so much! I couldn't stop giggling like an idiot when everyone was looking at the picture after the boss battle. The overblot voices are so cool, and Azul was no exception. I kinda feel bad for the poor guy. No one deserves to be bullied. (He's still a lovable little shit though lol)

I really like their suits when they are working in the lounge! I also really like their underwater forms! Not to mention just how cool Azul looks in overblot form!

But why was Micky Mouse in my mirror lmao (rhetorical question)?

Now, for the real question since I always ask something: you obviously really like Azul, so who is your second favorite?

OMg!!!! WHWQHAHWHWHWH!!!!!!!!! IM SO EXCITED OMG IM BUCKLING UP RN WHEHHWHEWHEHWH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

overblot azul took me so long to beat too but isn't he just GORGEOUS??? i wish we got to see his merform without the near death experience :((( i would really like a coral sea event but even though i know azul wouldn't be inclined to show that side of him regardless. but yes, the leech twins are beautiful in their merforms. i'm so curious about how their fins and skin feels, with the mucus. it might not be a good idea to touch though since moray eels can be toxic.

azul's been through some tough shit but he came out the other end stronger and smarter, for better or for worse. on one hand, he's a powerful & influential person, which is everything he wanted to be when he was younger. he proved his bullies wrong. he stomped on them with foot and said "HAHA BITCHES WHO'S LAUGHING NOW!!!!" but that's also really bad sometimes because all of that drove him to overblot. he spends all of his time working and working and working because thats all he is. if he doesn't have power he's nobody. of course this isn't true by a long shot. azul is the dork that likes collecting coins. he's the boy that's so close with his family and greatly treasures them. he's the boy that played piano in the band he had with his childhood friends. he's the boy that can sing really well and has an amazing eye for business opportunities. azul ashengrotto is a person without his power, but he feels that's all he has to lean on.

ANYWAYS.....MICKEY MOUSE. i may be stupid but i have no idea why he's showing up. i just kinda rolled with it.

I LOVE AZUL I WOULD GIVE HIM MY SOUL IF HE SANG ONE PRETTY NOTE FOR ME I WOULD THROW MYSELF AT HIS FEET IF HE NEEDED HIS SHOES SHINED I WOULD LAY MY JACKET IN A PUDDLE IF IT MEANT HE WOULDN'T HAVE TO CHANGE HIS COURSE OR GET HIS SHOES WET!!!!! second fav though would be jade, he's also a dork and i think he's really silly. the leech twins never really scared me that much? i think the most intimidating thing about them is their height tbh.

jade single handedly dragged me into researching edible plants (for the harveston event) and got me into watching mushroom documentaries, which eventually got me into the science of mycorrhiza (a symbiotic relationship between orchids, one of my favorite flowers, and mushrooms) so he's taught me like half a bio degree i think /J

also jade's one of those characters that is just gorgeous. there's no explanation for it, he's so just so ethereal. its unhinged. hes so weird. he also played the contrabass when in that band w azul and in the harveston event he talks about having a knack for woodwinds which i FREAKED OUT upon hearing because i play the FLUTE and i was SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am so sorry i talked your ear off HELP ME

#🐚! cole #asks <3 #twst spoilers #auburn's rambles <3

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Audrey Rose Headcanons;

Summary; my disney descendants Princess Audrey Rose headcanons.

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Audrey's full name Is Audrea "Audrey" Fae Rose.

I got the idea for her middle name from @askauradonprep on their middle name headcanon thing where they said her middle name is Fae to honor the fairies that raised her mother.

Her birthday is August 3rd.

The above would make her a Leo.

She was raised primarily by her grandmother alongside her older cousin, Ariana.

She's scared of alot of things-- not being perfect, messing up, rejection, disappointing everyone, being abandoned, etc.

She hates spiders, which is one of fhe few physical things she is scared of.

She's very insecure despite what most people think.

Ariana is two years older than Audrey and becomes Leah's golden child after Audrey and Ben's breakup. Mainly because she's dating a prince-- Artie Pendragon.

Both Audrey and Ariana can be pretty nasty towards one due to their jealousy and upbringing.

The two of them use to be close when they were younger but grew apart over the years.

Audrey has two pets-- a bunny named 'Zinnia' and a horse named 'Solomon.'

She's younger than Chad by a month.

Her first word was 'Grammy'.

She plays multiple instruments, including but not limited to the flute and the piano.

Ariana plays the violin too but she's much better at it than Audrey is.

Her favorite colors are pink, white, and pastel blue.

She has a whole collection of cutesy shoes and sunglasses. Not to mention make up.

The reason why her hair is blonde in d3 was because she had it dyed on her spa trip so she looked more like Mal did at the time to appease her grandmother and as an attempt to win Ben back.

She ended up regretting it because she missed her natural hair almost immediately after she did it but it was too late to go back by then.

She is made to do community service (mainly just cleaning up the mess that was made during the queen of mean thing) and to go to therapy after d3.

She ends up going to both family and singular therapy and even has a couple of therapy sessions with Chad.

And eventually, she ends up apologizing for not clarifying exactly what their relationship was to Chad before going on to apologize to Ben for not listening to him enough and to the others for her various transgressions against them.

And they end up apologizing to her as well for their own transgressions against her.

Like in royal wedding, she offers to plan Bal's wedding but Jane helps her a bit and for once, Audrey allows her to.

Her and Chad continue going to therapy, slowing sorting out their issues and learn how to form non toxic relationships with each other and others.

After d3, Audrey's parents get more involved with her life and begin to put their foot down more often with Leah when it comes to Audrey and Ariana.

This makes things go alot smoother down the line and helps both girls become functioning adults.

And it definitely shows, especially when it waters down their somewhat bratty and competitive attitudes as they grow.

Audrey's favorite song is Killer Queen by Mad Tsai, ironically.

Audrey is great at drawing, as seen in d3, but she's not too good at painting.

She's a great swimmer and she and the others use to hang out at the enchanted lake and the beach alot before life got too hectic.

She's been raised since birth to be the perfect queen and wife, which explains alot of her issues when you think about it.

In the friend group of the main aks (Doug, Jane, Ben, Lonnie, her, and Chad), she's always been closest to Chad. Even before their group started to drift apart.

Audrey's a good actor which can be seen when she pretended not to care that Ben had dumped her for Mal after 'did I mention ' in d1.

She's great at ice skating, skating, and gymnastics. Oh and public speaking.

She's a fast texter.

Audrey loves cute things-- especially animals.

She is a beauty queen who's good at cutting hair and doing make up, and planning out outfits. Unsurprisingly.

She has a large following on all of her social medias and loves traveling. Though she unfortunately doesn't get the opportunity to travel very often due to her responsibilities.

She has a thing for bad boys though that doesn't outweigh the affection she held for Ben.

Oh and she's not allergic to anything.

And the older she gets, the more she regrets how she acted towards the vks and others around her.

She feels extremely guilty for how she treated Chad during d3 and ends up avoiding him for awhile afterwards.

And unfortunately that's all the headcanons I have for her for now. Enjoy everyone.

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How do I feel about the Danganronpa V3 characters

(Girls edition)

Kaede Akamatsu

I love her

A great (female) Protagonist. She feels much more realistic in my opinion in the sense that she has confidence but it actually comes from those around her, so if they get angry at her and call her out for her bull crap she feels absolute remorse and is willing to apologize compared to some other characters. While she does tend to dabble and toxic positivity it's not on purpose she doesn't mean to be toxic she just wants to protect her friends which is kind of like real life relationships.

A very supportive and cheerful girl, and I like the fact that she's not only a main character but also I love interest.

I see myself in her in the sense of when she's determined to do something she puts her mind to it and not much can really stop her.

It's obvious she has a crush on Shuichi so the fact that she was able to have sex with him was fantastic. (Cuz that's what she wanted)

Can be shipped with a few people but they feel awkward in comparison to her ship Shuichi

Seems to be bisexual but also sapiosexual

It's thanks to her, Shuichi was able to become the next protagonist and thanks to her Kibo was able to follow and Shuichi footsteps

As the Ultimate Pianist, The way she can bring hope with piano playing is incredible. Like how Clair de lune (a beautiful piano song that) in my opinion brings Shuichi out of despair is amazing. Plus her talent allows her to hear people much better than when you play as Shuichi

Maki Harukawa

I love her (fav)

An awesome love interest and a fantastic choice for a survivor if I'm being honest, because she's able to lead on Kaito legacy alongside Shuichi, she's not alone and she helps Shuichi to remember that he's not alone either

Well she might be cold and standoffish it makes sense considering her tragic backstory. I mean a girl who already lost somebody she cares about and it's basically forced to hurt other people, while being around people that she wants to protect, who wouldn't really be distant from other people

This girl screams bisexual but she also seems to be Morosexual (people who are attracted to stupid people) but she also seems to like protecting others as well

It's a little difficult for me to connect with her in the sense of her assassination abilities, but her being a caregiver is something you can actually see in the game. You see her constantly worried about people like Shuichi, Kaito and sometimes even Kibo and the fact that Himiko, is a survivor is another indication of her need to protect others as Himiko is physically weaker than everyone else, to mention she's never afraid to speak her mind

She's s a part of the training trio which I love I mean those three are just the perfect combo

In my opinion she deserves the two talents that she has, as their polar opposites of one another, and yet they work so well with her kind of character. She's an Ultimate Assassin yes but she is also an Ultimate Caregiver as well (maybe not a child caregiver) but she does care a lot (she shows that side more to Shuichi than she ever does to Kaito)

Training trio roll: the Powerhouse

Himiko Yumeno

She meh

A decent character I don't like the fact she doesn't get much character development until after Tenko dies. To be honest she's kind of annoying before chapter 3 and even as the game goes on she's still not my favorite she gets better just not that much

Not the best choice for a survivor. (if anything Rantaro should have been a survivor, and if we're going for another female have it be Kirumi)

I get the whole point of the survivor is to basically have them continue on the legacy of a lover they lost, but outside of that Himiko really doesn't do much outside of being the staple holder for Tenko and Angie's memory which no that shouldn't be all she has to offer as a survivor

Outside of some of the things that annoy me about her character she would have been a great rival for Kibo if he was the main character like magic vs science that would have been awesome

The love triangle between her Tenko and Angie is adorable though because it shows three characters who are all female can be in love too

Her talent and introduction is rather cute if I'm being honest being the Ultimate Mage/magician is adorable but the problem I have is the fact that she can't seem to differentiate fantasy from reality something I can do pretty often as a fantasist

Some of her quotes like 'what a pain' or 'this is a pain' while annoying or actually kind of funny in the right circumstances

I do like the fact that she definitely had some of the cutest beta designs I think I've ever seen that definitely highlighted more of her magician side than this because it just looks like a school uniform with a witch's hat but overall she is quite adorable

She is such a tsundere and she's totally pansexual, she also thinks very highly of herself and has a bit of an ego for someone so small

Kirumi Tojo

She great

I just love her overall but she definitely has a few issues with her story line that I wish were a bit more flushed out, and the fact that she doesn't know how to cut cognac is just absolutely adorable (don't worry I don't even know how to spell it you're not alone Kirumi)

My biggest issue with her is the reason why she decided to kill. It was for her people, but if her people found out she killed somebody her age just to get back to them and protect them, they wouldn't want her as their prime minister. (Like what we saw in her execution they wanted her to quit). Why it wasn't because they were upset at her abandoning them during their time of need, it was the fact that she was willing to kill someone just to get out of the bad situation she was in. What kind of prime minister does that, she's a good person so the fact that she would do something so low would probably be the biggest reason why they wouldn't want her in office. I mean how can they trust someone to protect their children if she's so quick to kill them

I love her talent as the Ultimate Maid but I don't understand why they call her mom, big sister (Onie- Chan) makes more sense

The fact that she's very respectable of everyone's opinions and she treats them all with kindness and respect and just like an awesome older sister, really compliments her charm and beauty (considering beauty appears in her name if you look up the kanji that makes up her name) and that also explains the gifts you give her during your free time events with her

The way she treats characters like Kibo a robot boy who's always being picked on and Shuichi definitely symbolizes an older sister vibe, which is why it makes me sad that she started treating Shuichi badly during the second trial just to save her own skin

Well yes she doesn't live that long in the main game but I think what makes her such a lovable character is the impact she has on the group before she betrays them. She can cook any type of food and is very willing to listen to them no matter what and doesn't judge them for their choices she's even willing to help them improve their lives that is just the emotional support they needed for all that nonsense a much better choice for survivor in my opinion

Overall I love her character I just wish we had more time with her which is why she's not a bit higher in my opinion when it comes to favorite characters and opinions but I do like the symbol that use for her it looks like a rose

Miu Iruma

Yikes (she needs help)

Where do I even begin with her. Well she's a very insane vulgar character that's a start, and while she's funny (and kind of insane how she always gets the killer right) there's just something about her vulgaris that really makes my eye roll

One thing I do find funny is her insults to everyone like: Calling Shuichi Sherlock homo (very accurate might I add) or calling Kokichi an abortion now that's funny, but also kind of messed up (I guess that's what makes it funny)

I really enjoy her talent I just wish she put it to better use than just sex object type things (like come on girl pull yourself together)

A pansexual girl who obviously has abandonment issues which is probably the reason why she offers her body up so much. If you think about it (minus the trauma) she's a lot like Mikan

When it comes to her character, I don't quite see the context behind some of the shipping with her like with Kaede.

It's also implied that if Kaede had stayed the main character she would have been her Rival the whole game. (Which would have been awesome not just because we would have had a female protagonist, but then we would have had our first female rival)

Angie Yonaga

Scary

I think her talent is pretty cool. I mean artist implies she can do all different types of art which is awesome considering she's a foreigner

Scares me about her character is the fact that it's implies she grew up in a cult

And the fact that she tried to indoctrinate so many members of her classmates into this cult (including trying to marry Shuichi doesn't really help)

In terms of her character when it comes to her love life she screams bisexual in my opinion but she also seems like the type of person who doesn't care about that so totally pan or maybe she doesn't know it's anyone's guess

She definitely seems like the type of person who would be nice to Kibō but she's nice to anybody so I guess that's a plus

Her importance to the story was kind of there but not really she was easily forgetable in my opinion and she wasn't really my favorite

To be honest I didn't like her as much as some of the other characters

Her being in a love triangle with Tenko and Himiko didn't help

Overall not a great character but not the worst

Tenko Chabashira

I don't hate her but I don't like her (she's got issues)

Yikes, this girl I have plenty of issues with but I will start off with this her talent is pretty cool. I mean martial arts specifically Aikido that's definitely different (I'm glad it wasn't something generic like Kung Fu Master)

There are times where even though she claims to hate men, but she does defend people like Shuichi and it is kind of nice to Kibō but that's about it

Personally I have a head Cannon where she doesn't know much about transgender or other types of gender people and the reason why she's in the middle with characters like Kibō is because she wants to learn more about them (or because they're just scared of her)

As amazing as it is to have her be a lesbian based character, the problem I have with her is that she acts like a stereotypical feminist

And her being lesbian is me putting it lightly I'm still on the fence about that because the game gives us hints that it could be possible for her to be Bi she seems to lean more towards girls, or someone she admires (watch her love hotel seeing when she and you'll know what I'm talking about)

I don't like the fact that she calls them degenerate males she has no good reason to since they haven't done anything to her

And the reason they give her for not liking dudes isn't really a good one in my opinion she wasn't molested or raped by them no it was because her master was teasing her and she just took it too seriously

Other than that there isn't really much to say about her not really my favorite (but I do find her flustered sprites quite funny)

One thing I will admit is that I do like how open she is with her feelings, and how protective she is with Himiko

I do think her behavior is a bit better than Miu's but that's just me

Tsumugi Shirogane

I hate her guts

Where do I begin I'm just going to make her section really quick and short because if I were to go over everything that I don't like about this girl this would be way too long

She gives Cosplay a bad name

In the game she says fiction can't change reality that is a bullshit lie, not just because fiction has changed the lives of so many people in the real world but also because of the context of the final chapter

In the game she says fiction can't change the real world, but at the same time she's trying to use Kibō (a fictional character) to change the audience's opinion about Hope in the quote unquote real world

To quote her words not mine "if the audience surrogate falls into despair then the audience should fall into despair" that's literally using fiction to change the real world

And following on that the fact that she constantly calls them fictional characters is basically devaluing their lives

She lied about the Cos Pox thing too

She's a worst liar than kokichi (and that's saying a lot)

I get why they had to make her design super plain so that way she'd be easily forgettable, but I just don't see what people like about her. she's willing to frame, hurt and kill people and then devalue their lives just because she doesn't see them as real

The games confirmed this themselves. If she never framed Kaede we wouldn't have lost an awesome protagonist, and we wouldn't have lost the Ultimate survivor / adventure in Rantaro, and Shuichi would have never fallen into such a depressive state (not to mention we could have had three protagonist or four)

The sad part is that many people believe that she was a part of the previous killing game with Rantaro which means her personality would have been different

If that's the case man I feel bad for that past version of her

#danganronpa v3 #kaede akamatsu #maki harukawa #tenko chabashira #kirumi tojo #himiko yumeno #angie yonaga #miu iruma #tsumugi shirogane #my opinion

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use-your-telescope · 1 year

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It’s only fair that I ask for your top five music albums! Go!

Ahahahaha FACK I should have known that was coming... picking ONLY FIVE is gonna be a struggle. All of these will have songs featured in the Trickster (I haven't even finalized my list and I already know that's true). I'm going to stick to one album per artist to help narrow this ish down. Okay, let's give this a whirl: (These are in no order)

Everything in Transit - Jack's Mannequin This album - holy shit. It's iconic. This was one of the very first albums I ever fell in LOVE with, and the story behind it is fucking incredible. Andrew McMahon wrote the whole damn thing about his (now) wife that he was on a break with, right as he was leaving his band Something Corporate and (unbeknownst to him) about to be diagnosed with cancer (which he ultimately beat!). Rescued is my most played song of all time (between itunes plays and Spotify plays), and that was before I choreographed my senior year of college dance piece to it, nine years ago. The entire album is the personification of TSwift's "yeah, we're happy, free, confused, and lonely at the same time - it's miserable and magical" - brilliant piano pop that you want to scream aloud in a bar next ot strangers and bond over. Honorable mentions to Andrew McMahon in the Wilderness (Andrew McMahon in the Wilderness, aka Self-titled album) and The Glass Passenger (Jack's Mannequin)

Red (Taylor's Version) - Taylor Swift Okay, no secret, I love me some Tay. This was already my top album of Taylor's before she released the re-recorded version, because I think this hits the ultimate sweet spot for Taylor - balancing folk-style songwriting and pop sensibilities, with just enough country to keep it fresh - and it's so fucking relatable. And then when Taylor's version came along? I was even more in love. Nothing New still makes my chest ache (and I love Phoebe Bridgers), and don't get me started on the ten minute version of All Too Well. This is *the* breakup album, which hit at just the right moment of my college years and it STILL fucking SLAPS. (Low-key heartbroken I couldn't get Eras tour tickets, tbh) Honorable mentions (in order) are evermore and folklore (tolerate it. gets a spotlight in the trickster! fun fact. Because fiction is cool and I can retcon history, the creation of both albums are in The Trickster.)

American Candy - The Maine Okay, this was the HARDEST artist to narrow down just ONE album - I have seen the Maine FIFTEEN TIMES since I started listening to them in 2011. Pioneer, Forever Halloween, American Candy, Lovely Little Lonely, You Are Okay, and Love & Anxiety in Real Time all have distinctly special places in my heart for different stages in my life. Lovely Little Lonely has the song that was the first dance at my wedding. Pioneer was when I fell in love with the Maine. Forever Halloween was when I processed recovering from a toxic relationship and struggled with my own happiness. You Are Okay was when the world felt unsteady and COVID hit and I needed that reassurance, and Love & Anxiety in Real Time was grappling with the ability to find happiness while allowing inner demons to co-exist. Fun Fact: my original foray into fanfic was connected to this band (now I wouldn't do RPF for the life of me because I have a different understanding of things, but I was 20 and creating fictional characters based on idealized verisons of celebrity crushes in my mind). But, I chose American Candy because I think it has this balance of fun, upbeat music, heartfelt storytelling, candid moments, and delightful irreverence that is absolutely worth a listen. The last track (Another Night on Mars) was the last song of the night at our wedding and the memory of all my friends in a huddle chanting out "this one goes out to my closest friends, the ones who make me feel less alien, I do not think I would be here if not for them" still makes me warm and fuzzy five years later.

Ever After - Marianas Trench Trying to pick one Marianas Trench album is also a challenge - Josh Ramsay is a fucking lyrical GENIUS (with fucking INSANE vocals) and he really embraces creating albums; the most recent album (Phantoms) takes heavy influence from the work of Edgar Allen Poe, the album before that (Astoria) drew inspo from 80's movies like the Goonies, but the one that has my heart is Ever After, which has so many delightful references to fairytales and toys and childhood - it's full of absolute pop BANGERS and you CANNOT help but dance to the whole damn thing. Fun fact: Josh Ramsay is Grammy nominated for co-writing Call Me Maybe!

PEP - Lights This was a post-pandemic album that addresses cynicism, feminism, and girl-power in a fucking ICONIC manner. Salt and Vinegar is a fucking MOOD, and Jaws is my new theme song. Easy Money is my low-key Lo & Theo ship song. Beside Myself is so soft and vulnerable, and Okay Okay is an absolute delight. Lights just released 'ded', which is a slowed down/if synth could be called acoustic version of PEP, and the ded versions of Grip and Beside Myself have made me feel my feels. Lights does acoustic versions of every album she has released; I was so close to putting Skin & Earth Acoustic or Midnight Machines (the acoustic version of Little Machines) because they are so emotive and delightful! Other than Taylor Swift, I tried to stick to lesser-known artists; honorable mentions go to Florence + the Machine, PVRIS, the Midnight, Lydia, Hozier, The Wonder Years, Paramore/Hayley Williams, The Civil Wars, Queen, Annika Bennett, Neck Deep, Lorde, and James Taylor...

#ask game #top five asks #music recommendations

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lif3byjason · 2 years

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Musical theme

Neveda (Rap) - YoungBoy Never Broke Again https://soundcloud.com/nba-youngboy/nevada?si=c3a694a318a14216896a71429828f0ee&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

Letter From Houston (Rap) - Rod Wave https://soundcloud.com/rodwave/letter-from-houston?si=0ecbb4b476934071b0820518b2aeb88d&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

Fck You Btch (Country) - Wheeler Walker https://youtu.be/myJDBos5Vyw

Usher - Confessions, Pt. II (R&B) https://youtu.be/5Sy19X0xxrM

Right My Wrongs (Trap Soul) - Bryson Tiller https://soundcloud.com/brysontiller/right-my-wrongs?si=70ea4cb5fff847b684f98fbea3c3689f&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

Dreams (Rock) - Fleetwood Mac https://youtu.be/5oWyMakvQew

The overall theme I selected when selecting music to create this themed playlist was the theme of heartbreak, despair, and honesty. The message of all songs remained the same throughout each piece throughout each genre of music. The first two songs on the list exemplify the feelings of despair, being that both artists are in desperate states expressing their emotions. In today's day and age, emotions and the expression of said emotions are challenging topics to digest. The guitar and piano heavily influence the sounds in both the songs mentioned. The piano is an instrument that can express the feeling each piece conveys: sadness, the sadness of being without their significant other. Both artists are vulnerable in expressing their thoughts to their audience through the slow, sad rifts of the guitar. Towards the middle of the playlist, the sounds begin to change as I transition into country and R&B. The theme of honesty is prevalent in both artists' works as they express the time spent in their failed relationships. As both tones are still slow and sad, they are significantly different the overall messages expressed in both songs remain similar. Conveyed by both artists, honesty is the focal point of both pieces as one artist. Usher is, confessing the infidelity, which ultimately severed the connection he once had with his partner. As for Wheeler Walker, his honesty is conveyed by his feeling of hate towards his partner. As for the last two songs, the theme of honesty and despair is prevalent throughout the lyrics. As one artist, Bryson Tiller repeatedly demonstrates the same toxic behavior to try and win love and gain the attention of the girl whose heart he has broken numerous times. The song's tone is slow and melodic, and the intensity of the song progress through the lyrics. Lastly, the last song drastically differs from the first song, but the structure is similar to the first four songs due to the melodic tones, memorable slow guitar rifts, and inclusion of the raw, honest message. The song written is not for anyone but a general group. The song advises its audience to remain vigilant and open to the idea of heartbreak and to transition from it and blossom.

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extremelyblackandwhite · 2 years

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last kiss | rockstar!bucky

pairing: rockstar!bucky x popstar!reader

warnings: enemies to lovers, sexual themes, toxic behaviour, swearing, mentions of miscarriage

masterlist (false god)

the words that you whispered for just us to know. you told me you loved me so why did you go away

6 YEARS AGO

Bucky woke up with the piano keys being softly hit. The melody was slow, almost melancholic in nature yet appeared to linger on this sense of calmness. Moving from the bedroom and opening the door there she was, his jumper sliding off her shoulder as she held a pencil in the middle of her lips, looking at a small piece of yellow note paper sellotaped to the piano wall. Mindlessly, he smiled, leaning down to kiss the top of her head before sitting next to her, his head leaning on her shoulder.

- What are you playing, princess? - he said in a low voice, still laced with sleep.

- Just something silly. - her hands rested on her lap as she turned to face him. - Good morning.

- Good morning, princess. - he leaned in to kiss her, the taste of the white chocolate spread she put on her pancakes still present on her lips. - It sounded good, what are you playing?

- It's just something silly, Jamie.

- C'mon, tell me.

- Alright. Put your hands on the piano. - the corner of her lip raised. Bucky looked at her curiously before placing his hands on top of the yellowing keys.

Her warm hands slide on top of his, her eyes softly focused on the keys as she moved his hands and fingers through the keys. Y/N had a certain thing about everything that she wrote; she didn't write like a regular musician, she had loads of books in the shelves from her favourite composers and her style had mashed into the melody telling what was going inside of her mind. She moved his fingers and hands, going through a line which almost always remained lower, having highs but quickly going to low notes.

- The very first piece my teacher taught me to play was Something's Coming from West Side Story. - she said, continuing to manipulate his hands. - They wrote the whole thing with three notes and then they toy around with them to create a coherent fabric.

- Are you gonna teach me to play West Side Story?

- No, you're a terrible student. - she laughed. - You can't bang the piano keys like you do your drums.

- I can bang you. - he kissed under her jaw. - It's a pretty song, baby. What's it about?

- It's about you.

- You wrote a sad song about me?

- It's not a sad song. - she moved his hands over her thighs. - I just like soft melodies while you like bang pots and pans.

- You mean to tell me you're not gonna be the Stevie Nicks to my Lindsey Buckingham?

- They had an abusive relationship, James.

- Cher and Sonny?

- Messy divorce.

- A groupie to my future band?

- I'm no groupie. You live in my apartment, you're my groupie.

- Hey, I agreed with you moving to my apartment.

- With your 5 roommates, the former striper and her snake Wayne?

Bucky rolled his eyes playfully. It was safe to say that Y/N was not a roommate sort of person, she liked her space, liked being able to keep everything organised and cleaned like she preferred. He had suggested she move in with him a few years ago, but he had to admit the 5 roommates quickly had her saying no. Not only those but one of his roommates girlfriend, a former stripper, had a snake which Y/N wasn't particularly found of. Better to move with her instead.

She closed down the piano turning to stare at him before he lifted her up, twirling her in the air and filling her face with kisses. The living room became filled with her giggles and the sound of air being cut through as he spun her around.

- Let me tell you one thing. - he laid her on the couch, standing over her. - One day we'll have a massive town house and you'll have a very big piano to write your sad songs.

- I don't need that, Jamie. - her fingers laced onto his growing hair, putting it behind his ears.

- We will have a good life. I promise, princess.

- Jamie ... - he let himself softly fall flush against her, his arms wrapped around her. Turning around, her back against his, he kissed the back of her head. - We have a good life. We don't need more money, we don't need fame. You're enough for me.

PRESENT

Turns out waking up after making a huge mistake is worse than waking up with a pounding headache. Although, she did have a pounding headache from drinking and the lingering feel of his face between her legs. Looking to her left, she saw the black bag Val had given her. Perhaps she was right, maybe she needed something else so she wouldn't go find Bucky.

Shifting around in her fleece blanket, she came face to face with the brown teddy bear which stared at her almost as if it was judging her. Bucky, Bucky, Bucky, everywhere. Part of her had believed she was over him, she'd gone on other dates after he left. Sure she hadn't dated anyone to the extent she dated him, but she'd been busy with her career. Oh why bother? Bucky was always gonna be running through her mind. The one that got away.

She turned away from the bed, her hair pushing it off her bed to stare at the window, a fantastic view of the Upper East Side bought from her merchandised pain. It was beautiful but it felt as if something was missing.

A knock on her door had her grumpily jumping off her bed. Perhaps it was Anna, ready to complain to her about going to club; however as she opened the door, she instead saw the mailman, Larry.

- Morning, Miss. There's a parcel for you. - he offered her a clipboard. She signed on the dotted line and was given a box from Venus Et Fleur.

Thanking the postman, she closed the door, walking up to her couch and placing the box in her lap. She'd gotten them before from her label when she first put out her single and then her album. Maybe she'd broke something on the Billboard or maybe from the Vanity Fair photoshoot. Opening the box, her second guess appeared to be right as on top of a bed of pale pink roses was one of the photos from Vanity Fair.

She put the box with the roses on her side table, grabbing the photo printed in glossed paper with a smile which faded as she turned it around to see a familiar handwriting. Nice teddy bear, princess. She sighed, looking at his signature in the bottom before throwing the photo to the side but before she could even complain to her friends, her phone rang.

- Hello?

- I see you got my flowers, princess. - his voice came from her phone.

- Are you stalking me?

- No, princess. The tracking just said you received them. Did you like them?

- I don't like roses.

- You also said you didn't like me but kept the teddy I gave you. Clearly, you changed your mind.

- How did you even get my phone number?

- I got my ways, princess. - she rolled her eyes. - Do you want to go grab lunch with me, maybe?

- No, I'd rather choke.

- If you come to lunch with me, I promise I will stop bothering you and if you don't like it I'll choke you myself.

- You're obsessed.

- I've always been obsessed with you, princess. Why are you surprised?

- Goodbye, Bucky.

6 YEARS AGO

Y/N ran after the small toddler who giggled as his tiny legs made tracks over the fresh cut grass of the kindergarten backyard. She caught up to him, lifting him up in the air and bringing him back to the playroom where all the other kids were. She passed on to start organising the small tables, putting out fresh paper and new coloured pencils. Her head was slightly on the clouds as she thought on the end of the Friday, going back home and eating pizza on the couch with Bucky. This week had been tiring, Bucky had been tired, she had been tired and all she wanted right now was to go home and not think about work for two days, to rest with her boyfriend.

As she crotched down to place the last pencil case by the clear paper, she felt cramping in her lower abdomen. Dropping the pencil case by the paper, she put her hand over it, breathing in and hoping it was just a muscle spasm however the cramping only intensified.

- Are you alright? - the head teacher asked, putting her hand on her shoulder.

- Yeah, I'm just ... cramping.

- Are you on your period?

- No. - she bit on the inside of her lip. - Not the time.

- Maybe we should take you to the hospital, in case its appendicitis or something.

- No, it's fine, I'm o ... - her phrase was cut short as she held onto her lower abdomen, slightly bending over.

- Alright, honey. I'm calling the nurse.

The school nurse had her sent straight to the hospital. Then everything went too fast, she was surrounded by doctors and nurses, doing tests she'd never heard of. Her mind was running laps over itself, as she was once again rushed to a doctor's office. The nurses were whispering to each other and the doctor entered the office, holding a clipboard with an expression which could only be described as heavy, pulling onto his expression. He took a seat in front of her, laying down the clipboard.

- I am so very sorry, but your baby has not survived.

- But ... I'm not pregnant. - she let out a nervous laughter. - I had my period just last week.

- Some women experience light vaginal bleeding during early pregnancy. I am so very sorry but you are young, you will most likely easily be able to get pregnant after a recommended pause.

The words echoed in her brain as she appeared to shut from everything that was being said to her. She couldn't really hear to anything he was saying. She wasn't pregnant, she couldn't be pregnant, she was careful. She hadn't been pregnant, she hadn't miscarriaged. It couldn't be, it can't be, the results must be wrong.

- Miss, do you have someone who can come pick you up?

- Uhm ... my boyfriend should be home now.

- I'll sign off your release. You should avoid any sexual contact from 4 to 8 weeks and the nurse at the front should be able to provide you with some pamphlets on support we can offer you during this time. Once again, I am so sorry for your loss.

Everything was quiet yet all echoed. The sound of the door opening to the nurse giving her the pamphlets, everything was echoing yet not registered even as she pulled her phone to call Bucky. Her hand crumpled the papers in her hand as she attempted to call him once more to no avail. He should be home now, he said he'd be home, had he gotten caught up at work?

Whatever reason it was, she didn't wanna be here. She wanted to be away from her, she wanted a reason to put this away from her mind and so she did. She got a taxi back home and climbed all the stair flights up to her apartment. At the sight of her apartment's door, she sighed, comfort was behind that door. However, as she opened the door, the flat was quiet.

- Jamie? - she weakly called to no response. Looking to her right, his jacket was hanging from the hook. Maybe he was sleeping.

She made her way to their bedroom yet when she opened the door, she wished the hadn't. Some drawers were opened and others were half closed with some of her clothes hanging from them. Running to them, she noticed all his drawers were empty. No.

She ran over to the wardrobe, opening it to see that none of this clothes were there. The places were his shirts and jeans laid were now empty, the hangers void of any fabric. No, no, no, no, no.

- James?! - she rushed once again to the kitchen, hoping that this was just a big nightmare but no. All of him was gone, all that was his was nowhere to be found except for that jacket.

She dragged herself to the hook, grabbing the jacket before sliding down the wall. Her fingers pressed his name on her contact list for what felt like 30 times but no response came, all she heard were the end messages, not even his voice. Her voice bubbled into sobs, her hand gripping the leather jacket as she came to a realisation - he was gone, she was alone.

so i'll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes, all that i know is i don't know how to be something you miss.

taglist: @prettywhenicry4 @bubblespeare @blackwood-bodecker-housewife @silkeiy @rowanthomasknapp @smallestsnarkestgirl @broco8 @eclecticpatrolroadlawyer

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pennylanewrites · 3 years

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Saiko Metori relationship headcanons<3

(gn!afab!reader)

I believe in Saiko Metori supremacy and I also had a dream where I was dating him so here you go <3

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→ we all know what he was like when he first transferred to P.K.

→ let’s pretend he didn’t transfer for Kokomi

→ you were seated behind him and you were pretty much the only person that talked to him normally

→ would never admit it but felt grateful to you for being so nice to him

→ before you knew it the both of you were hanging out at the school’s rooftop, eating his very fancy sushi

→ he’s actually really sweet and caring, you just have to help him let his guard down

→ he likes you so much, like he’s down astronomically bad but he would not admit it

→ you ask Aiura to find your soulmate and she says it’s metori and that’s when it hits you

→ everything made so much sense, the arm around your shoulders when passing a group of guys, the little kisses on your cheek as he greeted you

→ you tell him to meet up at the rooftop when school’s over

→ he shows up worried, thinking he did something wrong, though he played it cool

→ you basically admit your feelings, thinking he would leave but all he does is cup your cheeks with his hands and peck the tip of your nose

→ you make it official after two or three dates

→ first kiss is definitely not his first in general, but it was so innocent and sweet and eeeeek

→ happened while you were nervous about a test, he just leans down like ‘stop worrying so much’ and just kisses you

→ after that you two can’t keep your hands or lips off each other

→ he needs to have a hand on the back of your neck or around your waist and you have to kiss his cheek every five minutes (as a reassurance that you’re there for each other)

→ really fun dates! amusement parks, zoos, aquariums, strolls around town with a coffee in hand

→ you truly make him another man and he realises there’s other good in life than money

→ you bring him home during holiday season and he’s SO formal and polite and shy that you don’t recognize him anymore

→ your friends(probably toritsuka) make an innuendo about seggsy time and something dies inside him bc ‘oh my god I haven’t even thought about that’ ‘what if they don’t want to have sex?’ ‘wait, what if they do?! I’m not ready yet!’

→ you make him admit he actually likes Nendou and thinks of him as a good friend bc ‘babe, you need friends’ ‘I have you’ ‘I’m your partner’ ‘a friendly partner!’ ‘Metori!’

→ you call him Tori or Tori-chan and he blushes hard every single time he hears his nickname come out of your lips

→ he would call you love or darling or sweetpea

→ thinks anything you wear looks hot and doesn’t care if half your ass is out

→ ‘wear what you want I can fight’ mentality

→ POSSESIVE!! IN A GOOD WAY!!

→ huge on pda, but not in a disgusting, makes your friends uncomfortable way

→ will kiss your lips if someone stares at you intensely

→ will also walk behind you at school corridors

→ ‘why is your skirt so short?:(’ ‘he was looking at your butt’ ‘pull your socks down’ ‘thigh-highs are only for me to see’

→ doesn’t do it in a toxic way though, he says most of it as a joke!!

→ very self-conscious bc most people used him for money in the past:(

→ please reassure him constantly with lots of hugs and words of affirmation

→ you make him noodles every once in a while and he calls it pleb food but he loves it (this is also canon I think)

→ you go to his house everyday after school

→ hanging out in his HUGE room, trying on his fancy suits and making fun of him

→ he just sits on his bed and looks at you lovingly, chin propped up on his palm

→ kinda jealous bc his suits look so good on you

→ daily naps in the most intimate positions

→ he’s the little spoon!!!! most of the time!!!

→ or he’d just lay on top of you to hear your heartbeat

→ when he’s the big spoon he nuzzles his head in the crook of your neck and hums a song until you fall asleep

→ not in a sexual way at all, but he likes when you wear his shirts and just underwear

→ you just look so fucking cute okay?

→ he plays you the piano:):):)

→ even teaches you his favorite melodies (if you don’t already know how to play)

→ on bad days you’ll sit on his lap, facing him, and you’ll hide your head in his neck so he can play something on the piano for you

→ big fan of the Harry Potter movies idk why

→ you two have a marathon sleepover twice a month at his home cinema

→ the first ‘i love you’ came from you when he tied your shoes so you wouldn’t have to bend down

→ he says it back IMMEDIATELY with a HUGE blush on his pretty face

→ after that he says it ALL the damn time and even texts you little I love yous and paragraphs, especially when he knows you’re sleeping

→ you know that hair colour? He gets it professionally done

→ when you say you’re pretty good at dying and cutting hair, you’re his hairdresser once a month

→ he even suggested you dye a strand of your own hair the same colour as his

→ and you do!!!and it’s the cutest thing ever!!!

→ everyone teases the shit out of you both for being so cringe but you LOVE IT

uhhh the next ones are suggestive? just some intense snogging and one mention of future seggs

→ heated! makeout! sessions!!!! on his king-sized bed!!!!

→ he leaves hickeys everywhere! bc he says they look pretty on you

→ would buy you the best and most expensive concealer though so you can hide them for school

→ thigh man! squeezes your thighs, kisses them, marks them, sleeps on them later!

→ ‘they’re just so squishy and cute, love’

→ loves to play with your hair or have a hand in them, massaging your scalp

→ might pull on your ponytail bc you let out the hottest gasp ever

→ wants to have his hands up your shirt at all times, even while you’re studying or watching a movie

→ ‘your boobs make my cold heart feel warm’

→ how can you resist if he says shit like that?

→ wants you to unbutton his shirt while making out and trail your fingers up and down his abs

→ he has ONE pierced nipple and you can not change my mind

→ you kiss down his chest and peck his pierced nipple while making out and he’s FERAL

→ gets so hard when around you in general

→ but if you wear his shirt and your thigh-highs?

→ BUCKLE UP AND GET READY

→ talks and jokes about sex a lot and pretend-fucks you when you’re bent down but he’s SO SCARED OF DOING IT

→ neither of you mind it

→ you can wait until you’re 30 for all you care

end of suggestive headcanons;)

→ you both love to talk about your future together

→ like moving in together right after high school

→ he’s already renting the apartment of your dreams, just to have it ready

→ just know you’re set for life with this man

→ he won’t ever let you go, even after the worst fights

→ idek if I could bring myself to fight with this man BUT-

→ if you did fight it would end in tears from both sides and instant regret

→ you drown each other in apologies and hugs and kisses and promises for a life together

→ your birthday gift for your 18th birthday is a promise ring HEHEHEHE

→ ‘babe’ ‘I told you I’ll marry you one day, this just makes my promise official’ ‘it’s beautiful’ ‘that means it’s perfect for you’

excuse me while I go DIE in a corner in hopes of reincarnating as his partner

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#tdlosk #anime fluff #saiki fluff #saiki k headcanons #saiko metori #saiko x reader #saiko metori x reader #saiki kusuo no ψ nan #saiki imagines #tdlosk x reader #the disastrous life of saiki k.#the disastrous life of saiki k x reader

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jjuzoir · 3 years

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Dating Suna Rintarou HCS

Word Count: 1388

A/N: i’m sick of the suna slander 😔 i wanted some soft sunrin hc’s because it’s always drug lord rin this or toxic suna that :’) i’m too soft for that i need me some 17 y/o meme nerd who’s socially awkward and still asks himself how he got a s/o. if no one else will i will 👺

- He may be good at reading volleyball moves but he’s definitely a little dense when it comes to emotions.

- He doesn’t really talk much about them with you, it’s not that he doesn’t feel anything - he just struggles expressing himself properly with words, so in turn he tends to express himself with actions.

- He’ll struggle a lot at the beginning, afraid to upset you or overstep some boundaries that haven’t been explained, but with time he’ll grow comfortable telling you things as they are.

- The type to walk over to you when he sees you’re not feeling too good and wrap his arms around you, he doesn’t say much as you slowly return the hug and sob. He won’t say anything, he’d let you pour it out now and later have a talk with you.

- He’d have a few snacks you like on his bag too just in case you get hungry or whatever, he says they’re for him but you know he doesn’t like that brand of chips but you do.

- Once you’re done, he takes your hand and leads you to a more private area and encourages you to talk. He may not be able to solve the issue but sometimes talking about how you feel… makes things better, even if it’s just slightly.

- He’s the type to remember anything you tell him even in passing, mention something like your parent’s birthday or an appointment and he’ll just store the information in his brain and spit it out at random times.

- That includes things such as food orders and allergies, what you like and don’t, the things that make you uncomfortable or that make you feel icky; he could write a book on you. Just text him over for some food and he’ll know what to order you even if it’s a place you’ve never been to together.

- He really likes having pictures and videos of you on his camera roll, he'll have super cute pictures of you on a date one moment and then a video of you falling on your ass after you went to pick up a pencil.

- Once you start being more serious about your relationship, he’ll dedicate every game and point he scores to you. If you’re there he’ll look over to your seat and nod, his eyes naturally gravitate towards yours, he’ll always smile at you whenever he scores a point.

- Won’t say it at first but he loves it when you wear his jacket, seeing you in the stands cheering for him with the rest of his classmates pumps him up. After he notices he does better when you do, he’d probably get an extra one for you with his number on it (when Atsumu heard him asking Kita for it he broke lung laughing).

- He hesitated a lot before asking you out, he’s the type of guy to watch over his crush for a while. Not in the creepy way more in the “wow this person is so cool I want to approach them but I’m too embarrassed”-way.

- He loves it when you wear his clothes, especially his hoodies. He isn’t subtle about it at all either, Suna will straight up throw you the hoodie and be like “wow it’s so cute you’re so cute too imagine you wearing that how cute that’d be lmao” while his ears are blushing red.

- Finds everything you do cute, you could be walking towards him in the corridor and he’d be blushing and smiling to himself. Atsumu and Osamu tease the fuck out of him once you’re gone.

- Will send you random posts that remind him of you, they can go from cute pictures of cats snuggling to a deep fried image of a chicken nugget.

- “Heh, look… it’s you.” He showed you a picture, he was lying down on your lap - his hair messy from deep sleep - with his cheeks squished in your thighs.

- “Babe that’s Patrick star.” You look at the screen in confusion and continue playing with your boyfriend’s hair, slightly concerned for his well being.

- “Same energy though.” He mumbles after saving the post, he’d make it your contact picture later.

- He loves falling asleep on your lap, it’s annoying. You know once he lays his head on your thighs he’s not moving until the next hour or so. Kind of like a cat in that regard because Suna will find the worst time to cuddle you like that and he’d refuse to leave unless you move, which you normally don’t because when you do he looks extremely betrayed much to your dismay.

- He’s so soft for you, you wouldn’t realize it unless you heard him ramble about how cute you are in the dressing room but oh my god is he ready to move the world around for you.

- When he messes around during practice, Aran will threaten to call you and it’s so embarrassing. Rintarou was so sure he wouldn’t, like that’s so petty you’re actually going to call my S/O? And then Aran did it and he had not only Aran and Kita scolding him (and the Miya twins) but you were there too looking so disappointed in him. He rarely gets out of line afterwards, the face you gave him haunts him in his dreams sometimes.

- You’re his home screen! It’s not even a cute picture of you, it’s probably one he took of you while you slept in class - you’re drooling and your uniform is all messed up - and he’s just standing there holding a peace sign up and white-boy-smiling.

- He has you saved under “Suna [Name]” and he got made fun of, he swears it was a joke but when he goes to call you his cheeks get all pretty and pink.

- He doesn’t say much, his love language is more of a “whenever you need me I’ll be there”. If there’s someone who you can count on to listen to your problems and help you it’s probably Rin. He jokes around and all but when it comes to you he’s surprisingly serious.

- He’ll also let you play with his hair. His favorite is when you put butterfly clips on them and make two uneven ponytails on the side of his head, he said he was Shrek and you were his Lord Farquaad (you asked him if you saw the same movie afterwards).

- When he’s really bored, he’ll edit pictures of you into memes and send them to you at 4AM.

- Sometimes when you cuddle, you can hear him mumble about how much he loves you and whenever you bring it up he gets so mad and shy and says he was probably thinking about chicken wings or Dolly Parton.

- He sees you as his best friend and s/o, he really values the input you have but that doesn’t mean he won’t tease the fuck out of you. He’s soft but he will absolutely obliterate you, he loves joking around with you and saying the dumbest shit for fun and seeing you go blank as you hear him talk about fucking Mort from Madagascar being a evil universe colonizer.

- His favorite dates with you would be the ones where you go somewhere very pretty and try taking the ugliest pictures of each other, it always ends up with you two laughing loudly as you show each other what you took.

- Rin can play the piano and he sometimes will serenade you, it can either be a very emotional song or Megalovania.

- Sometimes, Atsumu and Osamu will ruin your dates by bumping into you guys and not leaving either of you alone. It’s embarrassing because they will not stop teasing the two of you for being in love and shit, you always end up blushing when they start talking about how much Rin loves you and how he talks about you during practice.

- Overall, Sunrin is surprisingly a soft, caring boyfriend who’s way too whipped for his well-being and is absolutely getting bullied by the team because of it.

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What I would've done for S2 & S3 of hsmtmts if I was the writer/director:

Nini

I would've probably changed Nini to not getting into YAC in the first season. She would've stayed the second semester at East High. She would spend the season working on her acting to get ready for an audition for YAC for senior year (so the audience could feel like she actually deserved it- instead of just bc she's the MC). -

She would have to reckon with the fact that her going off-script was probably why she wasn't accepted. -

I would've also given Nini more personality, maybe explore her interests outside of school, or her relationship with her moms. Make her have more flaws and have her learn to work through them. -

Nini lands the understudy for a main/secondary role and gets casted as the rose. She ends up helping backstage and works with Ashlyn as a songwriter/composer for the show. -

I'm thinking throughout the season she'll deal with a lot of school pressure, along with relationship problems, and her own stress of trying to make it into YAC and she'll eventually break down from the stress (Gina, Kourtney, and her parents would be there for her) -

her audition could've been in the last episode (making the "second chance" song more meaningful) -

I think Nini being low-key iced out by her friend group for going to YAC was messed up. That was her ambition. -

ALTERNATE IDEA: She could've also transferred to North High instead, making their menkies competition more relavent. Then tranferred back after a while and have to deal with going against her friends. [Idk just most of her personality in the two seasons, even after Ricky and Nini broke up, revolved around Ricky and she didn't get to have a life or personality beyond 1) the musical and 2) the boys in her life]

Ricky

Ricky's arc would be similar to the original. Him having Nini as his lifeline was pretty toxic for the both of them anyway. This time with him having some character development. Maybe having a scene where Nini says something like "I care about you Ricky, I really do. But I can't handle my own problems along with yours. I'm always here if you need to talk, but...maybe you should get some help first. You should talk to your parents." then after a bunch of stuff, Ricky learns to ask for help, and his parents send him to therapy. He apologizes to Nini. [Btw this arc wouldn't be to bash Ricky, but more of have him learn healthy ways of venting and finding help]

He finally talks and works things through with his mom and she and his dad finally realize the emotional toll their problems have caused Ricky

I was thinking about a flashback to Ricky seeing his parents fight all the time but that might be too dark for a Disney show

Ricky wasn't interested in musicals before, so therefore he should, realistically, have to learn to play the piano or guitar (Nini could've taught him)

if the writers wanted him to have acting/singing as his actual passion and not just as something he joined to get Nini back- then we should've had him practicing singing or acting (not for Nini this time) while also doing his old hobbies.

Nini and Ricky

I feel like they missed a really good opportunity to teach the audience how to open up and work through problems when they just decided to make Rini break up over miscommunication.

For a relationship that mentions them as childhood best friends, i wasn't feeling the best friends thing when they were together

If the writers were intending for us to root for Rini, then they should've made Ricky have more redeeming qualities, him doing stuff on Nini's phone was EJ-like which they established in S1 was bad

Consider this as some dialogue Nini and Ricky could've had about their relationship in the treehouse scene: Nini: "I don't even know how I got from loving you so much to not even wanting to fight for this" instead of just stating the obvious of "we've been miss-communicating all year" Ricky could've said something like: Ricky: "I wasn't honest with you. I tried to hide things from you. It feels like we're not even friends anymore." Nini: "We were friends...what happened?" Ricky: "I don't know, what's been going on with my parents has-" Nini: "No, this isn't their fault. It's ours." *a long pause* Nini: "Since we're admitting things we've done wrong. I've got one. I wasn't intending on sharing the rose song with you. I don't know i think i was just- scared it would cause more problems and i...hid a lot of the things i was feeling...about us." Ricky: "Can I ask...what are you feeling... about us? Like... was the song really all about us?"

you get the point- Rini would actually work through their problems instead of constantly having miscommunication problems that were unrealistic given that they were friends since kindergarten

Kourtney

Kourtney should've been given an arc and I would probably cut Howie (i like him but not every girl needs a love interest- if not then Howie shouldn’t have been the only depth she has).

Kourtney could have a fashion internship and we could explore her personality.

Make her more than the bff of Nini- have Nini be the one to reassure and be there for her

healthy feminism that's not just there for tokenism (and not whatever S1 Kourtney was)

Make people be there for her and don't just leave her alone because she's "strong" and "independent" People need help sometimes. Being independent is different to having no one there for you.

Gina

Jack appeared and disappeared- would've probably made him show up once more. And Gina and him wouldn't meet like that- maybe they knew each other from another school (bc normal ppl don't randomly talk to strangers at airports lol) -

I liked Gina's arc overall and would've kept it.

Introduced or at least hinted at Gina's brother more (him calling her but her refusing to answer because it's been so long)

Even if her main plot will revolve around love, Gina would have...well... a life.

Explore her relationship with her mom

explore how traveling all the time has affected her

things like not wanting to get attached bc even tho she has a place to stay, things can change at any moment and she knows that

showing her adapting to new situations really quickly

Her relationship with her brother could've been explored more