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this-is-a-nice-show · 6 months

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I adore any and all Supernatural and Good Omen crossovers because On one hand, you have a show comprised of at least 60% male brooding and emotional heart to hearts with jarring, nonsensical, violent plot points almost always with a devastating season finale.

And on the other hand, you have a show featuring an unlikely pairing who constantly bicker but also would die for each other in a heartbeat exclusively in the most stupid, chaotic, and unnecessary way possible.

They both have extremely established lore in their universes that do not line up whatsoever. My favourite part is someone trying to combine the lore or totally disregard the rules of these universes like a prophet who has heard whispers of the word of god/Chuck directly and is communicating their word to us. And they are beautifully creative every time. Every take is completely different on how the lore is combined and I'm still like "You're so damn right. Cheers, I'll drink to that."

But ignoring the biblical themes of both shows they have so many similarities...

A vintage car is kept in pristine condition and is almost exclusively the main method of transportation. "Get in the car, angel! Alpha Centuri!" - Crowley (2019, colourized). Okay, were you planning on driving to Alpha Centuri??? "Hop in the car, Sam. Time to go on our day-long road trip for the second time this week." For fucks sake, you have infinite money. Buy a plane ticket.

We listen to One Song. A Nightingale Sang in Berkley Square. Carry On My Wayward Son.

We will extend our musical selection To A Certain Extent. Queen only. No modern music.

Angst.

Weird Haircuts.

Zombies, Nazis, Witches. Unclear definition of what the capabilities of witches are in both universes. Dean killed Hitler, Crowley killed three nazis.

Female love interest? Ehhh... No, thank you.

Male love interest? Ehhh... No, thank you. I'm rolling with genderless Crowley/Aziraphale. But don't worry because Castiel is happiest when he says he loves Dean. If that doesn't say platonic male friendships, I don't know what does. /s

Dumbass Behaviour. "Yes, I am playing detective searching for Clues for Archangel Gabriel. No, I did not inspect the Clue that he showed up with." "Yes, I have many, many contacts throughout not just Earth but also Heaven and Hell. No, I will not contact anyone for help."

Pornography and Sex Workers.

Risking death and destruction for others. Crowley rescues Aziraphale in France, Aziraphale saves Crowley by getting the photo back from the Nazi zombies. In Supernatural wtf, where to start...

The line between 'good' and 'evil' is virtually nonexistent. However, humans are regarded as 'closer to evil than good' or 'more likely to be evil than good'.

Found Family. "Hey hellspawn, you want two dads? No? Well how about a Nanny and a Brother Francis?" & "Hellspawn #2, tell your dad to fuck off and then bing-bang-boom, adoption complete. Adopted parents are just parents." "Hey hellspawn, you want three dads? No-oh wait, you do? Great."

God/Chuck is treated as a neglectful parent. They still seem hopeful that they'll receive help at some point but understand that they are required to fend for themselves and that can include going up against god/Chuck. It is cannon in Supernatural that all beings project their daddy issues onto Chuck.

They drink an extraordinary amount of alcohol and can sober up quickly. Good Omens is self-explanatory. But I've never met a person who can shotgun four beers back-to-back and shoot dead center. They have to be sobering up in between these activities.

They only own One Outfit. Coat/trench coat, waistcoat (optional), tie/scarf (optional), one or more layered shirts, jeans/slacks, and shoes. And of course, you have the accessories. Dean's necklace and Aziraphale's ring + watch. And it is cannon that in Supernatural, the characters (not the actors playing the characters, but the actual characters) wear a full face of makeup. And you can see Crowley/Aziraphale's makeup. Their lip colour changes pretty frequently. The angels in Heaven wear gold lipstick iirc.

Both of their main 'bases' are filled with books. The bookstore (for obvious reasons) and the Winchester's bunker has their hunter's manuals and the fucking Supernatural books.

The actors that play the characters canonically exist in their universes as well as thier characters. Dr. Who exists in Good Omens -> David Tennent exists in Good Omens along with Crowley. There is an episode of Supernatural where the main 3 exist in the 'real world' -> those 3 actors also exist in Supernatural. (There are multiple episodes where this happens without Castiel, but there is only one where Misha Colins plays himself.)

The most glaring difference between the shows is: one is developed starting with the characters and one is developed starting with the plot. Sam and Dean are inserted into a plot that they had no control in creating. Their father placed them into situations, and they were forced to find a way to survive. Crowley and Aziraphale literally started the story. They should understand the concepts of anything that happens in the plot (to a certain extent). As in, unlike the Winchesters, they don't need to do copious amounts of reading to foil nefarious plans.

Dean, Sam, and Castiel are pessimistic and dismissive of help. Other beings have to prove themselves worthy of their trust and usually not the other way around. Crowley and Aziraphale are optimistic and see the good in humanity. They enjoy the simple everyday joys of being human and they had the trust of Hell/Heaven for 6,000 years, up until Michael found the pictures of the two on Earth.

But would Crowley/Aziraphale drink bargain bin beer? Go to the greasiest diner imaginable? Directly commit murder? Participate in hand-to-hand combat? Would the Winchesters/Castiel drink a fancy, expensive wine? Go to the Ritz? Analyze their thoughts from a different perspective? Read a book for fun?

NO, and that is why I love you fanfiction writers and artists. I appreciate everything you do. <3

Something a little sad under the cut

I think the reason why I haven't been able to see more fun? silly? (idk how to describe it) fan fiction of SPN without crossovers is because Good Omens has never made fun of its audience or belittled how much effort goes into making content. When you know that you're actively being mocked by the show you like, you have to be on your Best Behaviour and Don't Fuck Up.

I remember that they were upset that the show attracted an audience of teenage girls. They made multiple episodes making fun of cosplayers, what I can only describe as an "obsessive fan girl", and destiel.

It feels like the people involved in Good Omens actually care about it and give a shit and that feels like putting lotion on a sunburn. Y'know?

#sorry for bringing up Supernatural in the Satanic Year of 2023 CE #but its my blog and i get to make the questionable posts #cringe culture is dead #and i'm snorting up the ashes from the crematorium like cocaine #good omens #go #crowley #aziraphale #aziracrow #gomens #my post #long post #azicrow #crowley x aziraphale #supernatural #destiel

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raayllum · 6 months

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I know you love The dragon prince and that’s great. I binged the show after season three released. I listened to podcasts about the show . I listened to yours and felt really happy when I found people who also liked the show. Unfortunately I fell of during the hiatus between season three and four. I am patient person but three years was long. Also I watched the show for rallylum and through the moon just kind killed my love for them.Then I found your blog and was really happy. Then I saw how you felt about the owl house and it bothered me. As a neurodivergent person the show made me feel really seen. I know it’s stupid to be upset about an opinion. As a person who wants to be an English major how do find parallels between relationships and characters. You talk about certain ones and I don’t see them at all. Your probably more seasoned as a writer than I am so

Ps : sorry this is long and hope tdp ends well in your opinion

Few things:

1) I'm also neurodivergent (hi!) - specifically Autistic - and I have also largely wanted to be understood my whole life, much like Luz (according to S3). While a show making you feel seen can certainly be wonderful, meaningful, and sometimes even life changing, to me that's not enough to make it a Good (per my subjective tastes) Show. That's not to say TOH is a bad show - far from it - but it's one that didn't appeal to my particular tastes due to 1) too many characters and not enough screentime, 2) a lack of theme (which many kids shows don't have a ton of because they're, y'know, for kids), and 3) all of the characters have very black and white morality, and that's just less interesting to me.

Being upset about opinions is very natural, and it's not stupid, but it is also important to acknowledge that 1) you can't control how anyone else feels or interprets things and 2) no one else can control how you feel or interpret things.

2) I adored Through the Moon. Rayla's tendency to leave (and why) is always a hurdle I expected them to have to tackle at one point, and given that it's her main character flaw, I'm really excited and happy with the way it's been handled so far and how TTM kicked it off. The graphic novel also really resonated with me in Callum's place, as I too have loved many of my loved ones through incredibly difficult periods regarding their mental health, and the graphic novel felt very honest about the toll that can take on both parties in different ways, and how love/support can help, but ultimately isn't enough if the person isn't ready (or willing) to start trying to get better. It's not an easy pill to swallow, but it is a realistic and important one and I've enjoyed how the show has continued that storyline with Rayla (and Callum) into S4 and S5

3) Being an English major is not for everyone! I know many people who love to read and who are very good writers where an English degree would not suit them at all. It's a lot of reading (by my final year, there were some weeks where I was reading an entire 400 page book roughly every week, if not multiple at the same time). It is also a lot of writing (and my professors regularly chewed me out for my grammar). You also tend to kind of double being a history major as depending on what you're reading, you learn a lot of the religious/historical/cultural context in order to understand the language, references, and messaging intended by the author (and then whether or how much to disregard it, lmao). Being able to analyze — to see connections between characters and themes in particular, but other forms of symbolism and messaging — quickly is probably the main thing that saved my ass and let me stay on Honour Roll throughout my undergrad.

I have also been writing pretty seriously for a long time (I 'started' at age 10 but only really count age 12 onwards, cause that's when I first started writing 70k+ drafts every 1-2 years for original WIP stuff). A lot of what makes a good writer is being a good reader, taking your favourite stories (books or otherwise — movies, musicals, tv shows, etc can be gold mines) and figuring out what works in them and why, or why you like them (or don't like them), etc.

For example: The Owl House is a primarily character driven > plot driven story. In book form, it'd likely be Middle Grade to early YA. It's interested in character relationships among the main cast (any of the more villainous characters like Belos are never given the same amount of development or screentime) and some mild worldbuilding. It has some social commentary (mostly on the school systems through Luz and mental health through Eda) and an overall theme of "being different is good," breaking away from abusive systems/dynamics, and the importance of solidarity.

If I compare and contrast this to TDP, The Dragon Prince is far driven in equal parts by the plot (because it's wholly serialized) and by character. It is also very thematically driven — most notably how to break intergenerational cycles of trauma and violence, but also self-destructive tendencies, abuse, responsibility, power, grief, and concepts of justice and punishment. This is also reflected in the fact numerous villainous characters (Viren, Claudia, etc.) share close to equal screentime with the 'good guy' protagonists and heavily explores morality across a decently wide spectrum. It thereby has a more mature tone in its subject matter and would easily be YA in book form.

Which is to say: the best way to get better at analyzing is to break characters down to their basic plot structures (Character A does this, they want that, Character B does this, they want that, etc.) and see what pops up (for example, in Avatar The Last Airbender, Aang and Zuko both cannot go home, and duel Ozai when they're 13 years old, ultimately refusing to be violent against their opponent). You can also look at similar personality traits (curiosity, selflessness, carelessness, etc). Practice looking at the stories you love and figuring out what works and doesn't work for you personally — and then go beyond relatability to look more at subtext and symbols. Some of the best things I've ever read were books that had nothing relatable to my personal experiences in them (like The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini), and that was why I loved them because they got to broaden my horizons.

#thanks for asking #non tdp #forbidden op lore #long post #anonymous #requests

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duhragonball · 16 days

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Christ, I remember trying to watch NGE last year and falling off a few episodes in because nothing was happening and I found other stuff to binge that was more entertaining. I knew most of the infamous stuff happens in the latter half but how is this show 11 episodes in and still ass? At least now I know why Eva is mostly known for it's ending, there's virtually no beginning and thus far very little middle.

It's not a bad show, but yeah, it's kind of a letdown for me. I've been looking forward to this for a long time now, and it just doesn't seem to be measuring up. Maybe my expectations were unrealistic, but Evangelion always seemed to be this really cool, popular thing, and I wanted to know what all the fuss was about.

All that being said, let me dial back some of my negativity towards this show. It has its moments, often quiet, subtle touches that I can't really document with screenshots and a text synopsis. For example, when the kids are making their way through the base during the blackout, Asuka needles Shinji the whole time, then tries to do the same to Rei, and Rei completely no-sells it, just refuses to take the bait. She doesn't dispute Asuka's claims to leadership, but she doesn't recognize her authority either. And yet, when Asuka finally comes up with an actual plan to defeat their enemy, Rei agrees to follow her lead. It's not a question of respect or disrespect. She's just waiting for Asuka to cut out the bluster and be sensible.

This show reminds me of other anime TV series I've watched in the past. Noir. Excel Saga. Cowboy Bebop. Tenchi Universe. Tenchi in Tokyo. The Gonzo Hellsing series. Revolutionary Girl Utena. I feel like I'm forgetting something else, but the point is that they all sort of share a similar story structure, maybe because they're all TV series with similar lengths.

A few years back, I learned about cours, a term for a three month period in Japanese television. It's about thirteen weeks, which is why so many anime TV series are aired in multiples of 12 or 13 episodes. Jojo season 1 was 26 episodes, which was used to cover both Parts 1 and 2, which worked out, because Part 1 was a little too short for its own 3-month run, while Part 2 was a little too long. Part 3 was like forty-eight episodes, so that's four cours. Parts 4, 5, and maybe 6 were three cours apiece.

Of course, Jojo's Bizarre Adventure is based on a serial manga, but I'm pretty sure shows like the ones I mentioned above were wholly original, or only loosely based on a manga or OAV. Those shows, including NGE are designed to be 13, 26, or 39 episodes long, and the story is plotted accordingly. And they kind of operate the same way, spending a certain number of episodes introducing the characters, then doing a bunch of routine adventures, and then towards the last seven or eight episodes things start to get serious and the really plot-driven stuff happens.

I wouldn't quite call it a formula, but it explains why I keep finding NGE's pacing so familiar, even though I really haven't seen another show like it. I think what everyone remembers so fondly is the heavy stuff, where a lot of the secrets and mysteries get revealed, and all of these characters and relationships that have built up over the series get pushed to their limits. But if I'm right, that probably won't get rolling until Episode 18 or 19.

And if it is a formula, then it clearly works, or they wouldn't keep doing it. I guess that's just the difference between Japanese TV and direct-to-video stuff. I've been spoiled by shows like Hellsing Ultimate, where the episodes were variable-length, and organized for maximum effect, because there were no broadcast schedules or logistical issues to get in the way. I suspect a lot of these shows have a few weak episodes where nothing happens just to fill out the cour. They wrote 18 epsiodes' worth of story, but it has to be padded out to 26.

How you experience a show like NGE probably matters too. If I had seen Evangelion back in 2000, on the Toonami lineup, I probably would have only caught bits and pieces of it, eventually getting curious enough to make a deliberate effort to watch it all the way through and figure out just what was going on. That's how I got into Tenchi. I can imagine some small group of anime nerds getting together to watch NGE three episodes at a time, and if they're still somewhat new to this genre, it would blow them away. Sentimental value counts for a lot, but it's not something I can recapture just by watching it myself. But it's the best I can manage, and whether the show is good or not, at least I'll have the satisfaction of finding out.

#neon genesis evangelion #2024ngeliveblog #ask duhragonball

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sirtadcooper · 6 months

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I was tagged by: @matbaynton - thank you! <3

Tag someone you want to know AND/OR some of your besties.

This turned into a monster of a thing so I'm sticking it under a cut!

Favourite colour: I am rubbish at this question. I love various colours in various contexts, but at the moment I am really gravitating towards greens. Green is a colour I haven't paid much attention to before, but for some reason over the last few months I have taken an interest in it. I even bought a solid green jumper!

Last song: When Things Explode by Unkle. It's a song I first heard on an episode of Person of Interest and it's now on one of my YouTube music playlists. Takes me right back!

Last movie: I had to check my Letterboxd for this - that's how often I'm watching films at the moment! It was the 1995 version of Persuasion that I rewatched at the end of August. A film I only discovered recently but has become one of those instant comforting favourites.

Currently watching: Oh heck - I'm struggling to keep track, there are so many! I'm watching The English at the moment. Also Outsiders series 2, Taskmaster series 16, New Girl (on season 2), This Farming Life series 6 with my dad on a Sunday morning, All Creatures Great and Small series 4, Fletchers' Family Farm series 2, Schitt's Creek with @phantomviola (on season 5), The Musketeers (series 2) and Black Books (series 3) with @userdjarin and who could forget Our Flag Means Death season 2 which has taken over my brain! Along with all that I squeezed in a Primeval series 2 rewatch which I finished the other night. [slaps roof of my brain] this bad boy can fit so many narratives in it.

Other stuff I watched this year: HAH! I have an IMDb list of TV shows I've watched this year! It's long as heck! Silk, The IT Crowd, Black Sails, The Last of Us, Lost in Space, Endeavour, The Terror, Arrested Development, Community, Vicious, Prehistoric Planet, Why Didn't They Ask Evans?, Ted Lasso, Miranda, The North Water, His Dark Materials, And Then There Were None, Jonathan Strange & Mister Norrell, The Great British Sewing Bee, The Bear, Blackadder, 30 Rock, Chernobyl and The Expanse. And those are just the ones worth mentioning! And some of these I watched four times! Okay, one thing. Okay, it was The Terror.

As for films, it's a poor show this year - I haven't watched as many (see above for reason why). I have seen the latest Spiderverse film and I've love to see Barbie!

Shows I dropped this year/didn’t finish: The Mandalorian (sob!), Vikings (I think I was maybe an episode or two shy of finishing the first season but... man... I just wasn't having fun), My Crazy Ex-Girlfriend (to be fair this might have been last year, I can't remember, but I know I stopped a few episodes into season 2), Fleabag (I watched one or two episodes... wasn't quite for me).

Currently reading: Darwin by Adrian J. Desmond and James R. Moore (about 100 pages in but I'm taking this one slow because I'm not hyperfixating on him) and Dead Famous by Greg Jenner which I am taking even slower. I've read quite a few books related to the Franklin Expedition this year (thanks, The Terror) and for a while I was reading pretty solidly but I guess that's what hyperfixation does to you!

Currently listening to: I'm not really listening to music much these days thanks to YouTube's annoying ad blocker pop-up so I'm typing this in silence, haha! But podcast-wise I'm doing great. Three Bean Salad is probably my favourite podcast at the moment. The humour is just too good, and I look forward to hearing the lads every week. I'm also binging The Rest is History which is a bit more serious but still has its fun moments. I'm also listening to Off Menu, No Such Thing as a Fish, The Bones Booth, Taskmaster: The Podcast, The Mariner's Mirror Podcast, and odd episodes of RHLSTP if I know the guest. I save podcasts for when I'm doing something like washing the dishes, walking or driving.

Currently working on: Now that the puppy I found at the end of August is vaccinated, she can go out and about, and that has led to me abandon the polymer clay for a while to return to a hobby that I haven't spent much time on since early 2020 at the latest. I wanted to make her some nice collars and leads so she looks smart for our walks which I will inevitably be photographing. I know it's kind of hard to see but I made this collar and lead for her.

I was a bit worried that I'd forgotten how to sew the leather but thankfully not. I have a few more straps of leather lying around that I'd like to make into collars and leads as well. And several rope leads that need whipping (you wrap thinner twine around the thicker rope to finish it and protect the end from fraying) but I'm having to take my time with those because the twine is murder on my soft, delicate, feminine hands. I can whip maybe four leads before my fingers are red. It's worth the pain!

Current obsession: Our Flag Means Death has taken over my life once again. Whatever happens in the finale next week, I know I will be a mess. Heck, I'm already a mess.

I'm tagging: some recent mutuals so we can get to know each other, but no pressure! @tigerballoons, @woofety, @jackharkness, @jddryder, @ajcrowleys and @skatingthinandice! <3

#matbaynton #tagged #i have a lot of stuff going on now that i see it written down haha #anyway that was fun! i'll try to get a few more things done that i've been tagged in

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twwpress · 6 months

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Weekly Press Briefing #70: October 22nd - October 28th

Welcome back to the Weekly Press Briefing, where we bring you highlights from The West Wing fandom each week, including new fics, ongoing challenges, and more! This briefing covers all things posted from October 22 - October 28, 2023! Did we miss something? Let us know; you can find our contact info at the bottom of this briefing!

Challenges/Prompts:

There are no open challenges/prompts that we know of this week. Do you have a challenge or event you’d like us to promote or know of one we’re missing? Be sure to get in touch with us! Contact info is at the bottom of this briefing.

This Week in Canon:

Welcome back to This Week in Canon, where we revisit moments in The West Wing that occurred on these dates during the show’s run.

Season 2, Episode 4: In This White House aired on October 25, 2000.

Season 3, Episode 3: Ways and Means aired on October 24, 2001.

Season 5, Episode 4: Han aired on October 22, 2003.

Season 6, Episode 2: The Birnam Wood aired on October 27, 2004.

Season 7, Episode 5: Here Today aired on October 23, 2005.

Photos/Videos:

Here’s what was posted from October 22 - October 28:

Amy Landecker posted photos of her and Brad’s new puppy, Angie: 1 | 2

Amy Landecker posted photos of her and husband Bradley Whitford with his The Handmaid’s Tale castmades Ever Carradine and Julie Dretzin at the Hudson Theatre, where Julie is appearing in Sea of Terror. Bradley Whitford posted one of these photos too.

Amy Landecker posted a graphic promoting an upcoming Stories from the Front Line event in LA on November 2.

Josh Malina posted a video of himself encouraging his fellow union members to stay SAG-AFTRA strong, as well as a version with captions.

Josh Malina posted photos from a couple’s memorable wedding in celebration of their anniversary: 1 | 2

Marlee Matlin posted photos from Family Weekend at UO, where her youngest daughter is a student.

Marlee Matlin posted a video of Maine Governor Janet Mills hugging the ASL interpreter when speaking on CNN about the tragic mass shooting in Lewiston, Maine, in which multiple victims were members of the Deaf community.

Marlee Matlin posted in memory of Matthew Perry.

Mary McCormack posted a photo of herself walking the SAG-AFTRA picket line with Mac Brandt.

Peter James Smith posted a photo of himself on the SAG-AFTRA picket line with Greg Daniels.

Rob Lowe posted a photo of himself and his son Johnny on the pickleball court.

Miscellaneous:

On October 28th, beloved actor Matthew Perry passed away. In addition to being known around the world for playing Chandler Bing on Friends, TWW and Sorkinverse fans also know and love him for his roles as Joe Quincy, the Associate White House Counsel who replaces Ainsley Hayes, and Matt Albie on Studio 60. We are deeply saddened by this loss and are sending our love to his family, friends, and fans.

Edits/Artwork:

#joshdonnamsr (taylor’s version)! by @hvnleia [VIDEO EDIT] #JOSHDONNA: i broke my own heart ‘cause you were too polite to do it by @JessBakesCakes [VIDEO EDIT]

Editors’ Choice:

Trick or treat! To celebrate spooky season, we rounded up some of our favorite Halloween fics that weren’t in last year’s Halloween round-up. Stay in with these sweet (and mostly not-so scary) treats!

Dead Man's Creek by LadyReisling for RisalSoran | Rated G | No Pairings Listed (Gen Fic) | Complete | No political operative in their right mind would be here four days before the election. But they all lived by the same credo: Let Bartlet be Bartlet. "Who said this is a good idea?" by msmarycrawley | Rated G | No Pairings Listed (Gen Fic) | Complete | The country’s best and brightest decorate the White House for Halloween. life and love are the same by jazzjo | Rated G | Josh Lyman/Donna Moss, C. J. Cregg/Andrea Wyatt/Toby Ziegler (implied) | Complete | As far as Josh knows, his baby girl has it all figured out. If things were different... by Khoshekh42 | Rated G | Josh Lyman/Sam Seaborn | Complete | Josh hands out candy on Halloween. He and Sam talk about their relationship. all dressed up by sam_writes_fics | Rated G | Josh Lyman/Donna Moss, Ainsley Hayes/Sam Seaborn | Complete | Josh and Donna take their kids trick or treating. // Halloween fic set fifteen (ish) years post canon. Stuck in the Middle With You by blueteak for SuburbanSun | Rated G | Josh Lyman/Donna Moss | Complete | fter an hour stuck in the elevator on Halloween, senior staff suspected the reason they were still stuck there had something to do with Leo trying to teach them a lesson. White House elevators couldn't just get stuck like others, could they? tears and fears and feelin’ proud by jeaniecregg | Rated G | C. J. Cregg/Toby Ziegler | Complete | CJ drags Toby to a scary movie.

We will be reblogging this week's fics shortly!

#the west wing #tww #tww fandom #josh lyman #donna moss #tww fic #west wing #cj cregg #sam seaborn #toby ziegler

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theageofsims · 4 months

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Thank you for the tag @memoirsofasim :)

last song: 1000 Miles From Nowhere - Paul Hardcastle

favorite color(s): Several. Really into Maroon and Grays the past few years, but I've been wearing greens for the holiday seasons which is different because I've never really be into green. I'm all over the place though, I was wearing one of my homemade tie dye long sleeves a lot in the past few weeks.

currently watching: I just finished watching Season 1 of Shrinking -- totally binged it. Now I'm just waiting to finish the last four episodes of Yellowstone (1923). I finished Season 4 of Breeders last month. I hardly watch TV Shows anymore, but I do for some of my favorite people. I also watched some of Goosebumps, but I didn't finish it. No shade towards it, but I just put it on for a friend who is so particular in what she watches. She loves horror or serial killer stuff and I don't so I just decided Goosebumps was enough for me to not sleep with the lights on after she went home. LMAO!!!

last movie: Ode to Joy

currently reading: I don't read books, but I read tons of fanfiction and I've got to get back to a Black Panther one -- for damn near six months!

Sweet/Spicy/Savory: It truly depends on my mood -- my hormones, really, lmao. Ah -- the joys of it all. Lately I've been craving salt, but then just for the past two nights I just HAD to have a brownie... and I don't even like chocolate, really -- so yes, hormones, as I've mentioned.

last thing I googled: How to make better Ebay listing titles... really clearing up a lot of stuff I don't have a use for any more (as well as a lot of things my mom has collected for years in her china dresser) -- and I fell asleep while doing that, so I have to get back to it -- this is my reminder. :P

current obsession: Uh... I'll pick food. Sourdough bread with a drizzle of extra virgin olive oil that's been infused with fresh garlic that I've been making (the oil, not the bread). The day I make the bread, too, is the day I open up a bakery HAHAHA.

currently working on: Uh... just about everything? Lmao. Mostly on how I respond to people or situations. I'm one of those people who is surrounded by other people's drama because it stems from my friends and my family -- and I love them, they just drive me nuts? LMAO. So I guess it's putting up boundaries or actually voicing myself because I've never done that. But I also am very much working on my handmade crochet business --it's pretty much on the front of my mind everyday. I'm beginning to focus more on making Amigurumi's and not making things like Hats/Scarves because 1) It gets boring making the same things over and over again just in different colors, and 2) it takes a lot more space to store things on a bigger scale in this tiny ass apartment, and 3) I feel like I can't use my creativity as much outside of making Amigurumi. For those that don't know what Amigurumi's are, they're basically yarn toys/figurines/plush people/animals and what not. Here's a photo of some of my currents:

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I'm tagging anyone who sees this and would like to participate! Don't be shy, but at the same time if you want to be shy, be shy -- I totally get it! Haha. I've been shy my entire life!

#blurb

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slowandsteddie · 8 months

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So, um.

I know I had y’all vote to help me decide what I was going to write.

But a thing happened.

That this is called “I have been binge watching Law and Order: Special Victims Unit for months and now I’m on season nineteen and I cannot help myself.”

A few weeks ago (a month??), I took a break from SVU to binge watch Stranger Things in like 2-3 days before going back to Olivia Benson. (When will Elliott, my love, return from The War??)

But, um. Doing so made my brain come up with a lot of ideas and this SVU!au (crossover? Idk what to call it, it’s four am and I am SLEPY.) kind of just happened. Without my permission, it took over. Which means I ended up writing this one (that had the least votes, my bad friendos!!) instead.

So, to make my brain happy, I will be posting a sneak peak of “No. No. It can’t be you. I trusted you.”

I’m going to write the winner of my poll, “You’re going to make me fall in love with you.” / “Keep it in your pants.” and I’ll post that before I actually post my AU that is nearly ready.

But, uh. Yeah. Sneak peak time.

Steve and Eddie had been dating since about a month after Nancy had dumped him, after a party where she drank so much, called everything bullshit, and confessed that she was just pretending to love him. He had been in a pretty dark place and happened to know someone who sold weed. It turned to friendship almost instantly. Then one night, when they were both pretty high, one of them had leaned in and the other hadn’t moved again.

It was electric.

It was everything.

It was the eighties and they lived in a small town. So, they were stuck having to pretend that they were just friends. Stuck having to express their love in secret because of all the small minded hicks that they couldn’t wait to get away from.

“We’re going to graduate this year, Eddie. And we’re just going to disappear to somewhere no one knows our names.”

It became a countdown.

Nine months.

Eight months.

Seven months.

Six months.

Five months.

Four months.

Three months.

Two months.

One month.

Three weeks.

Two weeks.

One week.

In between each line of the countdown, there is a little snippet of their lives where they are talking about where they should move to. After the one week, it cuts to ten years later when they find each other again (that’s all I’m going to say. It’s all I can say without giving away the plot).

Because this one is an SVU based idea, I hope it goes without saying that y’all need to read the CW before continuing when I do eventually post it.

Okay. I love you and I’m incredibly sleep deprived so I go night night now.

#stranger things #steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #steve stranger things #eddie stranger things #steve x eddie #steddie fanfiction #sneak peek #steddie au #Steddie sneak peak

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severidescigar · 2 years

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Quarantine Blues - Stellaride

Fandom: One Chicago

Pairing: Kelly Severide & Stella Kidd

Note: The original plot was requested this is the slightly remastered version. (Repost)

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As the number of confirmed COVID cases in Chicago were increasing by day, the mayor issued a citywide lockdown effect of immediately. First responders were still going to work, but once Sylvie cane down with flu like symptoms she decided to get tested just incase and to everyone’s surprise it came back positive for COVID, therefore everyone on the second shift at 51 was in mandatory quarantine for 2 weeks.

Four days in, Stella and Kelly were already bored beyond belief. For two people who were barely home most of the time and actually craved some lazy days, they quickly realized it was not as fun as they thought when they were forced upon them.

“I talked to Brett, her fever is going down and she said she’s finally able to eat properly.” Stella said as she cuddled next to Kelly on the couch. “That’s good…everyone else seems to be doing fine.” He informed her skipping restlessly through channels and letting out an irritated scoff as he couldn’t find anything watch worthy. All this down time was pretty hard on him as he found it unusual at this time of the day to just lay on the couch instead of working out or just being out and about.

“Easy tiger you still have at least one more week time to get annoyed.” Stella laughed at him as he got up and started to pace around. She was also getting bored but it was funny to watch Kelly getting all worked up, it was like watching a hyperenergetic 5 year old stuck into an apartment and not being allowed on the playground.

“We need to find something to do, or else we’ll lose our minds…Maybe we can go out for a run and nobody will know.” Kelly was an outdoor person, so he was pretty sure he has never spent this much time inside. “You know the whole point of being on lockdown is to stay inside…right?” Giving her a blank look, Kelly half joked "At this point I'm willing to go for a run in a mask and a full hazmat suit".

In the first four days in quarantine they managed to keep themselves busy enough not to get bored, but there was only so much they could do inside. Binge watched all seasons of Sons of Anarchy, reorganized every single closet or drawer in the apartment, attempted to work out, took naps throughout they day and randomly called each person from 51 just to find out everyone was equally as bored and out of ideas when it came to extracurricular activities.

“We should’ve quarantined at the cabin…at least there we could’ve gone hiking and fishing and not a single person would be in sight.” He continued and Stella watched him amused as an idea ran through her mind.

“Remember when you insisted on teaching me how to properly barbecue like a pro?” Kelly nodded waiting to see where she was going with this “what if we order some groceries and I teach you how to bake?” Giving Stella an unsure look at first he ultimately agreed as there was nothing else to do anyway, making her jump into his arms excitingly.

Later that day once the groceries arrived and everything was set, Stella pulled out of nowhere a baking apron for Kelly. “You have to be kidding me…how long have you been waiting to do this?” He laughed putting it on.

“Been waiting for the perfect moment for you to even take my idea into consideration.” Stella said and started explaining everything step by step. She couldn’t help but feel very entertained by how serious and concentrated Kelly was trying to mix all the ingredients together and him constantly asking whether he was doing it right. While their muffins were baking in the oven he kept checking on them but once it was time to decorate it was a whole another story.

“Stella, I’m kicking down doors and restoring boats for a living, I can’t do this!” Kelly was frustrated as his topping cream was everywhere but on the muffin. “You need to stop squeezing it out so hard!” She exclaimed as she took his hand into hers guiding him. “Let me show you…see it’s not that hard mister kicking down doors and restoring boats .”

“Admit it...you had way too much fun watching me struggle.” Kelly said as they were finally taking a bite out of their baked goods. “I mean let’s just say I’ve never seen you getting this worked up, even over a rescue before.” Stella said wrapping her arms around Kelly’s neck and he immediately picked her up placing her on a small portion of the counter that wasn’t covered in flour.

“At least we’ll be busy tomorrow cleaning up this mess.” Kelly said looking around their kitchen as Stella pulled him into a deep kiss.

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My Journey with Yuzu

First of all, this post is a VERY long post. It's going to be quite personal, so feel free to skip it if you don't feel like reading everything. Essentially, this is my journey - from first hearing about Yuzu, to actually discovering him and becoming his fan. I also share some thoughts about what comes next in this journey.

2018 PyeongChang Olympics

I was in university working on a project when I heard news that the Olympics were about to start. I have been watching figure skating on-and-off as I child, but had never actually followed a full skating season nor watched an entire competition. PyC was my opportunity. Also, I was not familiar with the skaters, since I hadn't watched competitions since around 2014-2015.

Unfortunately, because of my tight schedule and limited resources at the time, I was unable to find a live stream of the Olympics and I gave up trying to watch.

About a few months later, maybe Summer 2018, I got a recommended ice dance video (I have no clue why or how the YT algorithm suggested me that). It was from a practice session, I don't remember whose, I just remember clicking on it because I thought "figure skating, cool".

The next recommended video was the gold-winning performance from the men's discipline - of course I watched it and loved it. Yep, that was the first time I saw Yuzuru Hanyu, his PyC SEIMEI. But then something came up and I had to get off YT and completely forgot about him.

Spring 2019 (I think)

Fast forward a year and I'm on Pinterest looking up who-knows-what. And this photo appears.

I was in awe. He looked so strong, determined, broody, he looked like he was solving an equation in his head. Because of the all-black attire, I completely missed the fact that he was wearing skates and thought he was a model or something. Never tried to find out his name.

2020-2021

Then COVID hit. Life was put on pause. More fast forwarding. I watched the Tokyo Olympics in 2021 and before the opening ceremony, I saw some talk that Yuzuru Hanyu was going to show up as the final torch bearer (speculation, more likely). Who is Yuzuru Hanyu? I looked him on Google.

This photo was the second that showed up in the search results.

It was quite the contrast compared to his first photo in which he was holding up a medal (later I found out it was a photo from the JNats 2020 victory ceremony).

So I went back to YT and saw that I had watched his PyC free skate. So I decided to watch his short program, too.

No, I still wasn't invested or interested in him. The summer Olys were starting, I was trying to keep up with several sports and my sleep schedule was a mess.

2022 Beijing Winter Olympics

I didn't want to miss the figure skating like I did back in 2018. So I got a subscription to watch the Olympics. I decided to get as informed as possible since I had already watched in 2022 the Europeans and Four Continents, too. So I joined figure skating reddit.

On there, before the team event of the Olys, I saw a bingo card and one box features "Yuzu shows up and does the FS". Who is Yuzu?!

That was my downfall. I know him, I've seen his previous Olympics programs. I decided to check his career achievements page - I was impressed then I wanted to know more about him.

I fell down and hard - in about 2 weeks I gathered so much information about him and binged almost half of his programs (every competition in chronological order), if not more.

I was rooting for him so hard, I read about his quest for the 4A, I saw his JNats 2021 Ten to Chi to and his first attempt at incorporating the 4A in a complete program. I was completely mesmerized by his resolve. Of course I found Planet Hanyu and started watching his interviews as well.

By the time the short program competitions rolled around, I was already Yuzu's fan with quite a lot of knowledge of his hardships and achievements. I also was aware of how bad the sport was becoming.

I am so glad I got to see Yuzu's SP, FS and gala live on TV. I was awake at 3-4 am just to watch him - my heart broke both during the SP and FS. But I knew I had seen something amazing, I had seen history made. I saw his Beijing practices, and his programs' medley - I knew I wanted to see him in person one day.

It's very hard to express exactly what I feel when I watch Yuzu skate, but it's like I'm transported to another world. I wanted so much more. And then the news about him participating at FaOI came. I watched those broadcasts with so much happiness.

I made plans to go to GPF Torino for the up-coming season. Plans which got shredded the moment Yuzu announced that he's going to continue skating as a pro athlete.

In retrospect, I got the compressed version of Yuzu's career - ups and downs - and that's what makes me happy. I saw his LAST competition - all of it, I'm happy for that. I'm sorry I did not see him podium, but that's another story.

I will continue re-watching his competitive programs, his galas, I will continue supporting him and finding every piece of media that features him.

I will do my best to one day attend one of his future ice shows, be it in Japan or another place.

I haven't known him for a long time, but he's made a great impression on me.

I finished reading his autobiographies on the night between 18th and 19th July. I learnt so much more about him. The next day, he left competitive skating.

Now I'm here, waiting for news about his future plans and what he's going to come up with. I am looking forward to his new programs. Yuzuru Hanyu's skating is still happening, on his own terms - that's what I care about.

#yuzuru hanyu #text #long post #rant #personal

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Red Yarn & Thumbtacks Into Darkness

We all know I can’t predict plot points to save my life, and my track record w/r/t this season of Picard is quite bad so far… but neither can I stop myself from formulating wild theories about where this whole hot mess is going. And maybe it’s just the meandering narrative, but the show keeps getting opportunities to disprove these, and it just hasn’t, which means now I have to inflict them on y’all so my head doesn’t explode. Buckle up!

Theory #1: Remmick’s Revenge

(Speaking of exploding heads…)

The thing in Picard 1.0’s brain that isn’t Irumodic Syndrome after all? The thing that’s also in his DNA, and has therefore has been passed on to Jack? The thing that isn’t part of Picard 2.0’s positronic body? The thing that seems to be beckoning Jack, with creepy red organic imagery, to join/connect with some kind of hive mind?

It’s one of the parasites from “Conspiracy” in TNG S1. It got into Picard during that episode, but after the other parasites were exposed and killed, it went dormant and waited for a better opportunity to strike, rewriting his DNA to make sure he’d be an ideal host when the time came.

But that time never came, and the DNA modifications and/or the presence of the parasite slowly damaged Picard’s brain (in a way similar to Irumodic Syndrome, I guess), which eventually killed his original body. And when Section 31 retrieved that body to take to Daystrom Station, the parasite was still inside: maybe dead too, maybe still dormant, but nothing that a nice fresh sample of modified, ideal-host DNA from Jack couldn’t fix.

Whoever’s giving Vadic her orders when she talks to the hand isn’t (just) trying to reignite the Dominion War—they’re trying to resurrect the parasite conspiracy.

Theory #2: Lateral Advancement

I loved that Lower Decks S3 presented not being in Starfleet as an equally valid and (at least potentially) equally rewarding path for Mariner. Obviously she chose Starfleet, but they made the alternative appealing enough that the obvious choice still had some weight to it. And every week I’m getting more and more sure that PIC S3 is mounting a similar challenge to the idea that every Starfleet officer, if they survive long enough, will—and wants to—become captain of their own ship.

Because listen, I love Shaw as much as the next damaged bitch who confuses “asshole” for “charm,” but babygirl does not seem like he’s thriving in the big chair. The only times we ever see him remotely comfortable—and neither lashing out nor squirming with the effort not to—is when he’s forced back into his old grease-monkey role.

If Captain Shaw survives the season—and at this point, it feels like he probably will—I think (and also hope) that he’s going to transfer out of Command entirely and become the first four-pip Chief Engineer since Scotty in the TOS movies. He and everyone around him would be so much happier.

Theory #3: Feint Praise

They had to know this season would be released weekly while they were writing it—like the seven preceding seasons of live-action New Trek were—so the fact that it’s obviously been written and edited for a binge-watch can only be deliberate sadism. Those fuckers.

However. Earlier this season, when I first watched 3.03, I thought it sucked pretty bad as a standalone episode: weird pacing, incomplete arcs, multiple anti-climactic lacks of payoff, etc. Then I rewatched it back-to-back with Episode 3.04 a week later, and realized 3.03 is actually a pretty decent first half of a two-part episode, and the absolutely outstanding second half corrected or cancelled out nearly every complaint I’d had anyway.

Well, here we are again, and I have a lot of complaints about 3.07. The pacing is weird, the character arcs feel incomplete at best, the amount of setup vs. payoff is way out of whack, and it seems to break some pretty fundamental rules of modern cinematic storytelling for no better reason than to suddenly start rushing this slow-ass plot along.

And all of those complaints are well within the ability of next week’s episode to retroactively address, if it’s indeed the second half to this week’s first. And especially so soon after my last volte-face, I’m more than comfortable giving them an extra week to dig themselves out of this one—they might actually pull it off.

#star trek #star trek picard #star trek picard spoilers #picard spoilers #picard season 3 #amy.txt

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Hospitality doesn't always have to be structured, planned weeks in advance. If we're making plans with friends who have busy schedules, of course it might need to be marked far down the calendar, and the larger the group, the further down the calendar the plans will fall. I'm just saying, asking a friend to come over impulsively, or accompany you for a walk in the park, or go for a coffee or a bite to eat, for an ambivert, these are some of the best options, because when you ask to spend time with your friends on the same day, this means you actually feel sociable enough to enjoy the experience.

An ambivert is a person who balances between introverted and extroverted traits. I feel like an introvert most of the time, which is why when social situations come up, no matter how much I've been looking forward to them, if they get canceled, I feel a sense of relief. It may be combined with disappointment, but the disappointment is on the surface, and deep underneath it, there's the sense of a weight lifted. That doesn't happen with impromptu plans. Maybe because you don't have time to overthink.

On the other hand, I enjoy making plans on behalf of my daughter. During the winter months, I organized an arts and crafts afternoon for N- and a few of her friends. One of her friends lives pretty far away, so we organized a sleepover with her, and the rest of the girls joined us around 2:00 PM. I had prepared a gift bag for each of them with paint, a small canvas, and an assortment of activities for them. We also had baked treats and pink lemonade.

I'm planning to repeat the experience next month; N- noticed a lot of wooden mushrooms of varying styles and sizes on Amazon, and I saw a package of different colored and textured mosses, so an idea formed in my mind: the girls can paint the mushrooms, make flowers out of clay, decorate their own little plant pot, and each bring their creation home with them. I think it would be reasonable to organize an afternoon of arts and crafts every three months or so, one for every season of the year.

Hospitality is a little like gift-giving. You're not thinking about yourself as you plan for it, you're thinking about the other person, how to make them happy. When guests are coming over I like to make sure I have an assortment of beverage flavors to offer, and I like to plan a menu that is easy to prepare so I can get out of the kitchen quickly and enjoy the association with my friends. If they offer to bring something, I usually ask them to think of dessert, because that is not my forte.

I try to make plans every second weekend, and leave the weekend in between to spend with family only. Last month we had three or four weekends with plans, and it wore me out completely. When I was younger I wanted to be superhuman, so I didn't recognize my limitations. Well, I simply have to recognize them now, because if I don’t it starts with a slap in the face and quickly escalates from there. It used to be frustrating to see other people with more active and full calendars than me, but I've come to realize I simply live life differently.

There is nothing wrong with needing rest. Possibly because it's a need? Our body requires care. We need to breathe, we need to eat, we need to drink, expel waste, sleep. But more than just sleep, we need to rest. That may need we need to relax and unwind. For some of us that means a twenty minute shower that uses up all the hot water, to others it’s a soak in the tub with a heavenly-scented bath bomb, to still others it's reading a novel by your favorite author, or maybe binge watching a series on your favorite streaming service. For me, it could be any one of the aforementioned things, depending on factors.

Part of self care is figuring out when you need to push yourself into doing something for others and when you really need to recognize that you can't do anymore. If your entire world revolves around you, you cannot be happy. Putting others' needs ahead of your own is noble, and yet you need to realize that you have needs as well. Those needs are not extravagant. They are needs, put simply. When you're thirsty, is there anything wrong with drinking a glass of water?

I keep thinking that in life what I most often seek is balance. Every time I think I've gotten the hang of one area in life, another starts to slip and I need to address it. I feel like I'm riding a tiny unicycle on a tightrope over a waterfall while twirling plates on the end of sticks and balancing a ball on my nose.

When I look back at all the pictures in my phone, of smiling faces, whether they're just of me and S- and N-, or they're of our friends and family, I realize that those moments make the days in life like pearls on a string. Every one has value, everyone is treasured. And think about it, isn't a gift valuable when it cost the giver something? It costs my energy to be in a social setting. And I do it anyway, because I want to do it. But I'm going to spend a few hours recharging afterwards. Either in sweats or pajamas.

#hospitality #social life #introvert problems

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When was the moment when you realized you absolutely loved Rose Tyler?

i only saw doctor who in 2021, but i'd heard of the doctor and rose tyler before, (mostly because i was a fan of sherlock during the whole superwholock era of fandom), so when i started watching the show i knew this would be a pairing worth looking forward to!

i didn't feel particularly strongly about her until s3, though---i liked her, sure, and i liked nine and ten with her, but i started to miss her only when she wasn't around (it's probably worth mentioning i binged the entire first four seasons in 2 weeks so my feelings were extremely jumbled and confused lmao) SO i started reading fic, which was probably not the best idea because i ended up ruining s4 for myself, and the whole tentoo bit---but i LOVED the otp.

it's only when i got onto tumblr (for more tentoorose) and read some truly awful takes on rose that i began to get increasingly protective, hahaha. i couldn't bear to hear a word against her. i remember reading this incredible meta by allegoricalrose defending rose against all the usual slander, and it just RESONATED, you know? sadly i've never found that post again! but yeah, it awakened something in me xD

#answered #badwolf2008 #rose tyler

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I mentioned this last night (kinda), but I think I want to talk a little bit about why Eddie Munson means so much to me. Just like... so it’s out there, I guess. Idk.

TW for HOSPITALIZATION, INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS, TRAUMA, ANXIETY, DEPRESSION, PANIC ATTACKS, IMPLIED SELF HARM

To start off, a little background: I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety since I was a kid. That’s always been there, and honestly I don’t know what my life looks like without it. But to be honest, the last few years have been some of the best and worst of my life. It all kind of came to a head on May 25th of this year. I was in a therapy session explaining the severity of some of my intrusive thoughts and how I planned to handle them, when... my therapist told me that, in no uncertain terms, I needed to go get a mental health evaluation. That night. No waiting. It was one of the scariest moments of my life, I won’t lie to y’all. I couldn’t pretend things weren’t bad anymore, and I was forced to confront it against my own will.

I was there for a good bit of the night with my roommates, but ultimately it was decided that I would enroll in a Partial Hospitalization Program (PHP). This meant starting off with 6 hours a day in a mental health facility 5 days a week for at least 2 weeks and then transitioning to 3 hours a day, 5 days a week for at least 4 more weeks (Intensive Outpatient Program, or IOP). Volume 1 of Season 4 came out 2 days after my evaluation. The plan had always been to sit down with my roommates and binge it, get through everything as fast as we could, but what I really desperately needed at that point was a sense of control, and my go-to was escapism.

It didn’t take long for Eddie to become my favorite new character of the season. By his second scene, I was completely and utterly sold. Not only did I think he was adorable and sweet and pretty and all of those things, but there was also this part of me that looked at him and felt... seen. I don’t know how else to put it. I looked at this disastrous, indulgent freak of a man (affectionate) who was judged for the way he presented and the things he liked and the place he came from and saw... so many parts of myself. I saw my own desperate fight to be difficult to swallow, to look at. It was a little bit like looking at who I wish I’d been in high school, rather than the meek little girl I’d actually been.

I started PHP the following Tuesday, still fairly convinced that I didn’t need nearly as much help as anyone else there. I didn’t feel like I was above them or better than anyone, but I still thought I had my shit together. That illusion was pretty much shattered by day 3. And see the thing about it all is that I find parts of myself in fictional characters and latch onto them for all they’re worth. Some of them are stronger than others, but like... really and truly, there are fictional characters that have changed my life. As I started to really dig into my trauma and unearth and remember shit that I didn’t... even know existed, didn’t want to remember, didn’t want to have anything to do with. As I was having panic attacks and struggling to feel safe in my own body and effectively, dramatic as it sounds, grappling with whether or not I had a future now that I was staring down my past, Eddie came up a lot. One of the therapists in the program really took to that and helped push me to look at what that meant for myself. How seeing the best and the worst of myself in Eddie wasn’t a bad thing.

I ended up getting his bat tattoo on my arm for my birthday. I rewatched Volume 1 four times before Volume 2 even came out. I memorized his scenes, I scrambled for every scrap of content I could get, gripping on with everything I had. Eddie, really and truly, became a fundamental part of my recovery process. Without that character as a metaphor, as a lifeline, as something to lean on (along with my genuinely fucking incredible support system), I don’t know if I would have made it through all 8 weeks of that program. And if I didn’t make it through all 8 weeks of that program, there’s a really good chance that I wouldn’t have made it to today.

Especially now, knowing that so many of the parts of Eddie that fed into my attachment to him came from Joe, I feel... so singularly grateful to him as a person. I really hope one day I’m able to thank him for what he did with Eddie, because I’m not joking or being dramatic when I say that Eddie Munson may have genuinely saved my life.

Anyway, that’s the bare bones (kinda?) of my story. I just felt kind of compelled to share. So thanks for reading, if you made it through the whole thing. I love you guys.

#eddie munson #stranger things #tw hospital #tw trauma #tw depression #tw anxiety #tw panic attack #tw implied self harm #i ended up cutting a lot of details out of this bc it was making me really really emotional #but I felt like i needed to say this #i guess maybe in case i never get to actually say it to joe #idk

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[ christopher briney | cis male | he/him | twenty-two ] —— it’s just another typical week in hawkins i guess — isn’t that right, mike wheeler? huh, guess they can’t hear me over heart shaped box by nirvana playing on their walkman, but it looks like they’re headed to work as an arcade attendant. did you know mike has been in hawkins for his entire life? yeah, they’ve been described as a bit stubborn, but i suppose them also being unwavering outweighs the negative. i’ve also heard people say they remind them of late dnd games that stretch to three a.m. with your best friends, cigarette smoke out an open window, ripped jeans and baggy t-shirts of musicians you love, anger and grief often masked as cold and uncaring, a feeling of love that you don’t know what to do with or how to say, and trying to find the better version of yourself that people need you to be. … however, that could just be this weeks newest rumor.

character inspos: zuko (avatar: the last airbender), eve polastri (killing eve), cristina yang (greys anatomy), kaz brekker (shadow & bone), kat stratford (10 things i hate about you), will hunting (good will hunting), elliot alderson (mr. robot), scott summers (x-men), chandler bing (friends), rosa diaz (b99)

full name: michael wheeler nickname(s): mike name meaning: who is like god? age: twenty-two date of birth: april 7th place of birth: hawkins, indiana current location: hawkins, indiana gender: cis-man sexuality: bisexual (repressed) pronouns: he/him religion: atheist occupation: work at arcade palace as an attendant education level: high school financial status: he lives at home still, so he’s doing okay spoken languages: english, spanish

tws: parental neglect, mentions of grief & trauma, lots of repressed feelings. it’s implied that ted has said something unsavory abt gays but non descriptive. mentions of mike getting in fights. ( since he is aged up there’s more headcanons about his time in high school, in season 2 it’s implied that mike was getting into a lot of trouble at school and with his parents, and in season 1 we see him standing up to the bullies so i went off of that knowledge from canon and ran with it here. )

─── ➤ mike is five when he meets his first best friend, will byers, the first day in kindergarten, getting all the nerves to walk up to him on the swings asking him if he wants to be friends. it’s still the best thing that he’s ever done.

─── ➤ mike’s mom makes him bring cookies to the next door neighbours, their names are the sinclairs, and they have a son named lucas that’s mike’s age. it’s not long after mike invites him over and realizes that they have a lot more in common with each other.

─── ➤ mike’s in the fourth grade when he meets dustin henderson, and asks him if would want to sit with him and his friends for lunch. it’s the start of a beautiful friendship between the four of them.

─── ➤ mike is ten years old when he starts to realize that his parent’s marriage is not like most. or maybe it is and they just don’t talk about it. they’re arguing more, voices carry in the house, but he doesn’t think that they realize it does. and when holly comes along mike gets shoved to middle child and he doesn’t know how to talk to his parents anymore. he doesn’t know how to ask nancy if there’s something wrong with their family he always ends up saying something else. this is the catalyst for most of mike’s emotions.

─── ➤ mike is twelve the first time he starts questioning if he likes boys or not. he’s always seen girls and thought that they were pretty but has never gotten the courage to ask them to the snowball, but there’s a guy in his class that makes his stomach turn in a way that he thinks that it shouldn’t. and he can’t go to his best friends because he doesn't think that it’s all that important to talk about. and his dad says something about boys who like other boys and it’s a moot point. don’t talk about it. don’t think it.

─── ➤ mike starts acting out at thirteen, his parents blame it on growing pains. he starts getting detentions and by fourteen he’s forced to give most of his toys away despite the sentimental value because he bad mouthed a teacher to their face. he doesn't know how to tell his friends what he feels.

─── ➤ mike’s mouth has always run hot, his parents dont understand what happened to the sweet boy growing up. his friends want to know why he acts so selfish and mike doesn’t know how to tell them anything. he’s afraid that if he speaks that it just won’t stop. his parents are still arguing and sometimes he sees his dad on the couch and he thinks that this is just what a normal family does. he takes holly for ice cream and sees less and less of nancy who he felt like was the only one who could understand what it’s like growing up in a big house where no one talks to each other.

─── ➤ the bullies used to scare him growing up, but they start to look less and less scary when they say a bad word about mike’s friends to his face. by sixteen he’s earned enough punches to the face to where his parents have just stopped caring, stopped yelling at him. he doesn’t know which is worse. they say things like a lost cause, and we don’t know who you are anymore. mike can’t remember the last time that he felt like himself. and he still doesn’t say anything.

─── ➤ mike will do anything for his friends, but he doesn’t know how to tell them he loves them. he doesn’t think that he’s ever said the word love to anyone before. even if he means it. the word love is terrifying, he’s pretty sure his parents don’t love each other, that the wheeler children were in some form of an obligation. if love is an obligation then he doesn’t want any part of it.

─── ➤ mike is seventeen and his parents ask him if he’s thought about what schools he’s thinking about applying for. he doesn’t know how to tell them that he doesn’t know if he wants to go to school. he has the grades for it despite the detentions. he’s smart enough, his teachers say when they ask him why he keeps acting up. he knows that if he puts his mind to it that he could go wherever he wants, the sky’s the limit. but the choice gets made for him when will byers goes missing.

─── ➤ he’s eighteen when will goes missing. and he feels like the world is going to concave in.

─── ➤ he’s eighteen when he meets eleven.

─── ➤ his parents know that will going missing is a big deal, but they don’t understand that will is his best friend, they don’t understand that mike will move heaven and earth to find him. but they don’t pay attention enough to realize that mike has been hiding el in their basement.

─── ➤ for the first time in his life, mike feels needed. and it’s an overwhelming feeling to be needed. ( and for the next couple of years he doesn’t know how to tell people that he doesn’t feel real unless he’s needed. )

─── ➤ they fight monsters from a different dimensions that fall, and will gets found, eleven is dead, and he watches her die.

─── ➤ sometimes mike can still feel her. at least, that’s what he tells himself. he knows that it does more harm than good making himself think that she’s still alive because it’s easier than the alternative of thinking that she’s actually gone and he’ll never see her again. on day 352 after he puts the dinosaur he showed el in the donation bin he calls her again and he tells her he had a bad day, that he wishes that she were here, they all do, but mostly him. he doesn’t get an answer. he knows that he should start moving on but mike has never been able to move on from anything. he thinks he’s starting to understand what the word love means, if only because eleven is dead. and it was too late to say how he felt. mike was always too late to say how he felt.

─── ➤ he starts getting into fights with his parents, more explosive one’s. fights where mike can’t take back the words that he’s said. he doesn’t think that he can still blame it on growing pains anymore. it’s grief and anger that he’s never felt before, he knows he’s blessed in that way. but he watched his best friend go missing, assumed dead, and watch el face the demogorgon and die, and will has been acting weird and no one can tell him why.

─── ➤ things get a little better the summer of ‘85, eleven is alive and he has his best friend back. but mike ruins it by opening his mouth and lying. he could blame hopper, but he knows that if he was just honest with his feelings then he wouldn’t have gotten himself in the mess that he buried himself deep in. eleven breaks up with him and he knows it’s not the end of the world but it feels like it. it seems a bit ridiculous given that so many of his friends, including himself, have almost died more than once. but its young love, and he never thought that he was capable of falling in love in the first place. things quickly go to shit with max’s brother billy, and eleven loses her powers, and hopper is dead and it feels like the beginning of the end.

─── ➤ mike has been to too many funerals for people his age. will and eleven move away quickly after. the party starts to drift and mike gets a job at the arcade palace with max. mike knows that he’s been unfair to max. he had never handled changed well, ( and selfishly mike wants to know if people only pay attention to him because he’s always so angry ) , but that summer he starts to slowly open up because he loved el and el loved max and maybe this is one of the only ways that he can be close to her. they don’t have to say anything during their shifts and mike is starting to understand that sometimes silence like this could be companionship instead of resentment like his parents.

─── ➤ spring break is when it all goes to shit again. he’s in california and his relationship with will has changed and he doesn’t know why. ( he thinks back to it now that he could’ve called more. he could have written a damn letter, but mike had never been good at sharing his feelings and it’s been years and you would have thought he would have gotten better at it by now. ) eleven gets taken away from him again and he’s tired of people he loves always being taken away leaving him helpless. ( he’s supposed to be the leader, the paladin, why can’t he ever help the way that he wants to? )

─── ➤ mike does too much thinking in the back of the van, sitting next to will. his whole life has felt so directionless and they keep getting into these dangerous situations and he keeps being a bad friend about it. he finds himself looking over at will when he’s not looking wanting to say everything that’s been on his mind the past few years, wanting to ask if he knows where their childhood went, that this isn’t how they’re supposed to be spending the beginning of their twenties. but he knows that there are things that will doesn’t understand about mike, and so many more that mike doesn’t understand about will. he doesn’t know what to say when will gives him a painting and he cries. he thinks about reaching out to grab his hand but he doesn’t. he stares out the window and tells himself that he should say how he feels, say more than the fact that he liked it, that he’s always liked his paintings, but it feels more than that.

─── ➤ he knows it’s a bad idea from the start, but he’s never been able to tell el no before, and max is in danger and she’s the only one that can stop it. he watches the girl he loves start choking in the tub and for once in his life he actually starts to say how he feels. he loves el. he loves el and he hates that it took this long for him to say it. he doesn’t know how to tell her all the other things he loves about her he hopes that one day maybe he’ll be able to work up to all of that. love didn’t have to be an obligation and she taught him that, it was something that you choose over and over again and they’ve been through too much to let that go.

─── ➤ hawkins splits in half. the town that he thought he hated is broken and he can’t help but feel grief over the place that raised him. the place that gave him so many of his favourite people and memories. and just like before, he has no idea what to do.

HEADCANONS:

trying very hard to be a better friend and say what he means but also you know it’s still mike he absolutely has no idea how to tell people his emotions. he will literally keep it all in until he dies probably

he is still a headass but like . he’s growing. he’s evolving, he’s trying.

helped a lot during the rebuild of hawkins

close to holly tbh that’s his bestie , when his parents are fighting he takes her to get ice cream. they are always getting ice cream.

absolutely devastated that hawkins is the way that it is and has never really voiced this out loud much because like i said he keeps it to himself , didn’t realize until it was falling apart how much he loves his little town

got into mit but declined it and lied to his parents and said that he didn’t get in when he did bc will was missing

he still thinks about going to school but probably won’t for the time being.

still has no idea who the fuck he is he constantly feels like he’s going through growing pains

feels a lot of grief still??? doesn’t understand why his parents don’t understand him, we love a generational trauma cycle <3 he so badly wants to break it and be better but he doesn’t know where to start

when he was acting out in high school he started smoking and he stopped for a while because he was (temporarily) happy and now he’s back to it lmao i hate him

i have a lot of feelings abt mike but this already long so i’ll just post more headcanons separately <3 </small>

#━━ ❛❛ // MIKE WHEELER ! ¦ i’m sorry are you lonely it’s just the chemicals . 「 about ! 」#hawkinstm.intro

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