#I do what I can in the meantime

[itspileofgoodthings]

Learning how to love my teenage boy students and they’re learning how to love me within the proper teacher-student dynamic.

#boundaries are super important! because of so much. #I’m ready to turn 30 (at least in this area lol.) just so there’s more distance #there’s still a little too much closeness in age right now #but this is the first year where it’s felt like they trust me and also want to learn from me #it’s very precious to me #because they have funny simple little hearts #anyway it’s not a scenario free from danger! because they’re literally adolescent boys #and I’m a young female teacher and it’s just never free from dangers #but it’s a gift. and feels like a gift especially because I love boys so much but never had any guy friends/was never around them #for so much of my life #like I love girls and understand them #but I also love boys without fully understanding them #and it’s just a gift to get to know them better #it’s also good when I really get to knowing them kind of as a group #and a wide variety of them #helps keep things appropriate #also they DO need really strong almost harsh reminders #of what they need to be doing #more than girls #and learning that has been interesting #anyway literally just chattering to myself on this Saturday morning #*get to know them #teaching tag #also would a husband provide these boundaries more easily and give me the protection I need? yes #lol. but you know. #I do what I can in the meantime

[luck-of-the-drawings]

THIS THING IS SCUUUFFED AS HELL & ITS ALSO THE BEST THING I HAVE ANIMATED THUS FAR. IM SO IN LOVE WITH EMIZEL. JUST WISH I GAVE HIM MORE STUPID TATTOOS. NEXT TIME THO. NEXT TIME. I ALSO LOVE VEX&VIV SOOOO MUCH. charlies flavor of Deranged is my FAVORITE!!

#cw gore #jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #jrwi suckening spoilers #ACTULY FINISHED THIS A WHILE AGO. kept going back n forth between trying to work on it more or call it done #in the end i chose DONE!! i worked on this for a full day n a half. NO idea what possesed me but it is NOT happenin again anytime soon #i shall do better NEXT TIME!! in the meantime tho OH MY GOOOOOD WHO WANTS TO SCREAM ABT THE SUCKENING WITH ME #THE FUCKINNN THE FUCKIN THING WITH VEX N VIV BEING THE SHADOW LEADERS OF THE FANGS/DEMONS #OH MMYY GOOOODDD THATS THEIR LIL MEAT GENERATOR... THTS SO FUCKED UP AND COOL UUUGHHH I LOVE THEM... #THEIR FLAVORE IS SO WONDERFUL. I LOOOVE HOW SILLY THEY ARE. MAKING PUNS WHILE PULLIN A SCREAMING VICTIM APART #vex n his lil fashiony art workshop and viv n her sterile n clean doctors office #i bet she doesnt even HAVE a medical liscense. it would be funny if vex did tho. could u imagine #they main MEDIC in tf2 together. viv is the battlemedic while vex only pocket medics for her. COULD U IMAGINE #guh i could go on abt these two forever n ever n ever i LOVE THEMM i gotta draw em more.... #OH ALSO before i run outa room. i should say. i took inspiration from a tf2 animation called POOTIS ENGAGED #the animator. Ceno0. uses black bars in the action sequences in SUCH A COOL WAYYY everytime i watch that video i feel inspired #oneday ill make more complex fight scenes... one day.... #in the meantime UGHHH I LOVE THE SUCKENING SO MUUUCH CAN I JUST FUCKIN SAAAYY THAT I THINK EMIZEL IS A SMART COOKIE!! #THESE PPL FUCKING FEAR HIM NOW!!! 'SHAMIA SHAMI' IS NOW THEIR MORTAL ENEMY!! POWERFUL ILLUSIONIST. CANT DIE. #THAT PART AT THE END THERE WHERE HE FUCKIN. KILLS HIMSELF INFRONTA THEM. THATS SO AWESOME. THATS SO METAL. AND THEN HE COMES BACK!! #I WATCHED EP 7 ASWELL BUT I WONT SPOIL IT HERE. BUT OMYGOD. EMIZEL IS SO COOL AND CAPABLE N SMART N FUNNY N UGHHHHHH I LOVE HIMMMMM #OKAY THATS MY RAMBLE FOR THE DAY THANKYOU FOR READING. I READ ALL TAGS SO YOU SHOULD RAMBLE TOO. IF YOU WANT. IF YOU CAN.

[collophora]

haha I'll never finish this

but hewwo new followers <3

#star wars #star wars the bad batch #the bad batch fanart #but the idea is cool so have this bleurg #today I broke a teeth and I don't know how #got an appointment but not before a week #it's annoying to eat 'cause the sensation is weird #maybe it will motivate me to lose weight tho #so I could finally pass this threshold of 2 pull ups in a row to 3 #and finally go to the gym without my emotional support elastic bands #do strength training with your own bodyweight they say #it will be cheap they said #yeah guess what it's hard when you're afab lol #in the meantime doing legs is easy but eeeh no one do squat competition in party #it's always “hey look how much pull ups I can do” #gnagnagna #hey people who read my tags comment which clone would win a pull up competition if you read this #ok I need to sleep #bye

[biblically-accurate-dca]

keep it up!

#my art #moondrop #daycare attendant #i've been getting a lot of attention here lately.. thank you everyone!! #im almost at 200 followers which is. wow #unfortunately i draw very slowly so i can't post very consistently #maybe for 200 i'll make that accurate dca tutorial? i'll see what i can do #anyway.. about this drawing!! it has a funny story #so.. my 'kill everyone' tshirt sun drawing actually does have a matching moon!! because i drew the idea months ago #back when i was still figuring out how i wanted to draw them #so this moon was supposed to be the matching moon shirt.. but i couldnt get the face to look right so i gave up lol #but i'll probably try again later.. in the meantime i'll keep chipping away at my other drawings

[bunnieswithknives]

The sillies!! Might gonna change Demon Laios' design later and I still need a name for whatever this AU is

#dungeon meshi #delicous in dungeon #dungeon meshi AU #au #winged lion #art #fanart #doodles #digital art #what do I call this #Some people thought that it was manipulating Laios in the comic but no it legit wanted to be human #ive got a short comic in mind to explain out its reasoning why #But it sorta doesnt care what happens to Laios in the meantime so ermm #As you can see Demon Laios is in fact getting confused by his multiple heads #He also has trouble keeping a complicated form because his small human mind isnt built for keeping track of so much #When he was transformed into a monster by the winged lion in cannon his mind was warped too to accommodate #but he doesnt get that here....... so uhhh he might not be OK long term!! #I dont have anything particularly planned out rn #Mostly just vague ideas #dungeon meshi spoilers

[renonv]

Can you draw Luxembourg? I give him 29€ an HE KNOW WHAT SHOULD HE DOES!!! PAY ME BACK!!!

I THINK THIS IS MY FIRST LUX DRAWING EVER sorry to throw the blorbos in there as well I got brain worms 🪱

#hws luxembourg #hws romano #hws spain #hetalia #hetalia world series #I was thinking abt Lux visiting his sibs @ Spain and becoming fascinated w the roach of a boy that Romano is #Antonio is experiencing some big emotions in the meantime but like WHAT CAN YOU DO WE ARE JUST BESTIES #there might be more bc I’ve been thinking about bad feelings Antonio lately skdjdjdj #that will make more sense later

[flickering-nightfall]

just asking, what if an iterator possibly gets too hot or cold? What happens if they can’t get to safer temps with out outside forces? What if they can’t get to safer temps at all?

Do you mean superstructures or puppet-bound iterators? I'm sure superstructures have a lot of failsafes to deal with temperature fluctuations, mostly via processing water intake. They're living saunas! They probably have an incredible resistance to both hot and cold, as evidence shows.

I'll talk about puppets here, but if you meant superstructures, well... a lot of what I'll say here could apply to superstructures too.

(For puppet-bound iterators, I am referring to my AU CDSS)

For heat: Puppet-bound iterators, like their former superstructure bodies, run hot and need to stay hydrated. They rely on liquid coolant that runs throughout their bodies. Ruptures in the coolant system are one of their many common problems, but with medical aid, they're not too serious. Many cases are self-healing, or the rupture will seal itself off and reroute around the blockage - like with collateral circulation. Leaks into essential systems are more of a concern than the actual loss of coolant. As long as they stay cool and drink water while waiting to get fixed, they tend to be fine.

If they are stuck in a hot region and can't escape, they'll suffer from dehydration, heat stroke, fried components, damage to organic tissue, seizures... pretty much what you'd expect. As a superstructure, Moon probably suffered from all this leading up to her collapse.

For cold: They're fairly resistant for a few reasons. One is the antifreeze in coolant. Another is the heat that they naturally produce. I'm thinking they have silicone-based skin, which is very cold resistant. They have hemocyanin, which tends to function better in extreme cold than hemoglobin. (Hemocyanin can also work at hotter temperatures. I have like a whole essay about this that I still intend to post lol.) However, the puppets have been modified to have more flexible and sensitive skin - dexterity in exchange for some durability. They're more susceptible to the perception of cold than they would be if they were a still a superstructure. Many of them also dislike snowscapes on principle, because they've been freezing their decaying metal butts off for centuries by the time CDSS happens.

Iterators in both forms are very moist, so if it's cold past their limits, their mechanical components will freeze. And like with hypothermia in fully organic beings, prolonged time in extreme cold will lead to tissue death and organ failure. Superstructures with fractured exteriors (direct exposure of internal parts to the cold air) are especially susceptible to this.

Misc theory about superstructures: Moon's superstructure was able to stay intact into Saint's era because she collapsed straight down into the water, preserving most of her shape. The canyon water could have provided the pressure and circulation she needed in the absence of gravity cores, as well as protection against land pests and insulation against the cold. Remnant slag could have her generate excess heat as well, which would keep the water surrounding her unfrozen. In a way, dying like that could have helped her live longer?!

Thanks for the question anon, this was very fun :P

#btw i am not a scientist. i have knowledge limited to what i have learned and what i can find on the internet #and i make jumps and assumptions sometimes #but you caught me in the middle of doing a CDSS writeup so I'm feeling kind of brave :^) #i love lore stuff both for canon rain world and for my au #but for my au i haven't really posted much substantial enough to ask questions about #and the universe for cdss while aligned with canon is also kind of... wild? so I've been vague out of nervousness #but there are other planets. there are other sapient races. #RW canon may very well not exist in a universe that has outer space but I build around the idea it is for the sake of my au #and i'm not sure how confusing or engaging that might be #i probably will post about it eventually though #because i'm having SO MUCH FUN with this au and this blog exists for me to have fun #but yeah. in the meantime i've only been showing small snippets and details about the iterators in cdss #ask #text #worldbuilding #cdss #anon #rw spoilers #headcanons #rambles

[thelaurenshippen]

this is a genuine question not at all meant as a rude gotcha, but I feel like I've seen lots of people cite the relatively low barrier of entry as a huge advantage of podcasts as a medium, "if you have access to decent audio tech you can make a podcast" etc etc. So where does the need to sell a script come in? Is it a financial thing, and IP thing, something else?

this doesn't read like a rude gotcha at all, it's a really good question! there is a much lower barrier to entry when it comes to podcasts compared to tv, film, theater, etc. (though not as low as writing a book if we're talking about hard resources - you can technically write a book with just a laptop and a dream and then self publish! though as a writer who has written a lot of scripts and four books (3 published) writing a book is a much bigger psychological burden imo lol).

the need to sell a script, for me, is entirely a financial thing. if I had the money to produce podcasts at the level I want to entirely independently, I would! I know how to do it! but, unfortunately, I really only have the funds to produce something like @breakerwhiskey - a single narrator daily podcast that I make entirely on my own.

and that show is actually a great example of just how low the barrier is: I actually record the whole thing on a CB radio I got off of ebay for 30 bucks, my editing software is $50/month (I do a lot of editing, so this is an expense that isn't just for that show) and there are no hosting costs for it. the only thing it truly costs me is time and effort.

not every show I want to make is single narrator. a lot of the shows I've made involve large casts, full sound design, other writers, studio recording, scoring, and sometimes full cast albums (my first show, The Bright Sessions had all of those). I've worked on shows that have had budgets of 100 dollars and worked on shows that cost nearly half a million dollars. if anyone is curious about the nitty gritty of budgets, I made a huge amount of public, free resources about making audio drama earlier this year that has example budgets in these ranges!

back in the beginning of my career, I asked actors to work for free or sound designers to work for a tiny fee, because I was doing it all for free and we were all starting out. I don't like doing that anymore. so even if I'm making a show with only a few actors and a single sound designer...well, if you want an experienced sound designer and to pay everyone fairly (which I do!), it's going to cost you at least a few thousand dollars. when you're already writing something for free, it can be hard to justify spending that kind of money. I've sound designed in the past - and will be doing so again in the near future for another indie show of mine - but I'm not very good at it. that's usually the biggest expense that I want to have covered by an outside budget.

but if I'm being really honest, I want to be paid to write! while I do a lot of things - direct, produce, act, consult, etc. - writing is my main love and I want it to be the majority of my income. I'm really fortunate to be a full-time creative and I still do a lot of work independently for no money, but when I have a show that would be too expensive to produce on my own, ideally I want someone else footing the bill and paying me to write the scripts.

I love that audio fiction has the low barrier to entry it does, because I think hobbyists are incredible - it is a beautiful and generous thing to provide your labor freely to something creative and then share it with the world - but the barrier to being a professional audio drama writer is certainly higher. I'm very lucky to already be there, but, as every creative will tell you, even after you've had several successes and established yourself in the field, it can still be hard to make a living!

anyway, I hope this answers your question! I love talking about this stuff, so if anyone else is curious about this kind of thing, please ask away.

#lauren writes things #audio fiction #producing #also I say I don't like doing it anymore #but that's exactly what briggon andrew and I are working on #it's gonna be a show where we just split profits equally bc I can't afford to pay them lol #and I'll be sound designing it myself #so apologies in advance #also my GOD lauren can you be succinct once in your GODDAMN LIFE #why are all my posts so long i'm so sorry #also I don't get into it in this post #but using my book example as a jumping off point #obviously it is MUCH more complicated than that #bc self publishing/promoting/etc. #and writing the book in the first place! #is an ENORMOUS effort #as is making an audio drama! #also the grand irony in this #is that the show i was referencing in my original post is a show i first came up with to do independently lol #a two person show for briggon and andrew in fact #and then I happened to mention it to some producers I know and they liked it #so that's a show I COULD make for no money! #but they want to pitch it out and there's no harm in asking around #and in the meantime i just came up with another show for briggon and andrew haha #lauren answers things

[sensitiveheartless]

...K this is going to sound completely out of the blue, but this has been haunting me today —

#I have found a few things while googling but my results are inconclusive! <-(this might be because i am operating with very few braincells) #Has he ever consumed a fly on screen in any show or movie? Like #fully??? #sidenote but this burning question has led me to the discovery that there is an entire wiki section titled 'MUPPETS EATING OTHER MUPPETS' #...anyway do not be concerned my brain is just in a weird headspace because I haven't properly left my room since thursday morning lol #and obviously i'm going to stay isolated until i'm better! #in the meantime I will have muppet thoughts apparently #hmmm muppet au #...oh god. has anyone done a 'bsd where everything is the same but Dazai is a muppet'? #because that would be glorious #or wait #going by muppet movie logic I guess it would have to be one human with an entire cast of muppets so — #who would the human be??? #oh no oh NO hold on wait— #what if all ability users are muppets #and Dazai's ability is 'NO LONGER MUPPET' and he can poke people and turn them into full humans #HELP #senhart rambles #polls #i do not know what else to tag this with so i simply shall not

[good-beanswrites]

I'm going to do a more serious/sweet one but while trying to write Es-Fuuta sibling dynamic this happened adsfdsf

Es squinted around the scene of the crime. Amane was sitting closest to ground zero: the plate that used to hold Es’ breakfast. Mikoto was at the stove cooking eggs. Fuuta was getting a drink over at the counter. Mahiru sat on the other side of Amane, enjoying some tea. She was the first to notice their expression.

“Is everything alright, Warden?” 

They drew themselves up, glad their uniform heels gave them a bit of extra height. “Do you know where my pastry went?” 

“Ah, I had one ready for everyone! I left one out for you near the toaster~”

“Yes, and I put it on the table. Now it’s gone.” They gestured to the empty plate. Mikoto glanced over. “I was looking forward to it.”

It was an understatement. Mahiru had baked them the night before, and Es had thought about the treat the entirety of the night, and all of the morning. Their stomach grumbled, as if agreeing.

Mahiru shook her head. “I’m sorry, I didn’t see anyone move it,” she said.

“Neither have I,” Amane said.

“I don’t know where it went,” Mikoto said. 

Fuuta shrugged.

Es squinted at him. He still stood with his back turned, fumbling with his drink. “Fuuta?”

There was no ‘I didn’t take your fucking pastry!’, no ‘what the hell are you blaming me for?’, no ‘how dare you?’ He just shrugged again, more exaggerated. 

Es moved around the table.  “Fuuta…”

He hurried to turn his body away from them. In doing so, he revealed himself to the others. Mahiru gasped. 

“You ate it!”

Finally he spoke, his voice desperate through the mouthful of food. “I didn’t know!” 

But Es was ready to take down the criminal.

“You ate it??” They grabbed him from behind, preventing his escape. 

“Hey,” came Fuuta’s muddled words, “get off!”

They weren’t really sure what their next move was – it wasn’t like he could give the pasty back. Still, they clung tight. Fuuta tried to shrug them off, but Es would show him they weren't some weak kid he could mess with.

“You think you can just go around stealing my breakfast with no consequences?” They yanked him back, throwing him off balance.

He did his best to stand his ground “I told you –”  he swallowed, erasing all evidence of the awful deed, “– I didn’t even know it was yours!”

“Ha! A convenient excuse!”

The two struggled back and forth. The others looked on with a mix of unease and amusement. They decided not to intervene. Fuuta managed to gain a moment of freedom, only for Es to use the momentum to take them both to the ground. 

They lay sprawled, still arguing about the bygone breakfast, when Jackalope hopped into the kitchen. He stared the two right in the eye.

“A-ah. Jackalope.” Es scrambled to their feet. They coughed. “My apologies. I was simply… delivering some justice.”

Fuuta stood as well, brushing himself off. “Some justice! This was as shoddy as your usual warden duties…”

They glared at one another. 

The rabbit just stared. 

Es bowed their head, their expression calming down. “My apologies. I may have gotten a bit carried away.” Jackalope started hopping away. Es moved to follow him, muttering, “Fuuta was the one who started it, though.”

“Like hell I did!”

“The pastry didn’t eat itself, now did it?”

“I didn’t just fucking fall to the ground myself, did I?”

“I’ve seen you do it before…”

“I swear, I’m gonna…!”

#milgram #es #fuuta kajiyama #just something short and silly because it wouldnt leave my brain alone #i didnt feel like writing out the exact word-sounds but fuuta's dialogue while chewing is completely intelligible btw #he sees a yummy pastry and he scoffs it down - what can ya do 🤷‍♀️ #rip es... -_- #the actual request mentioned non or post milgram and im trying for a sweet post-milgram-es-moves-in-with-the-kajiyamas thing #but while all serious dialogue kicks my ass have this in the meantime 👍 #drabbles

[mxwhore]

mutuals! I must build a portfolio

#ive been thinking about what i want to do after college and i realized that #academia isnt really for me #i dont have the strength of mind really BUT #ive enjoyed tremendously doing figures for my thesis presentation #explaining the infection processes and the metabolic routes affected in a way that isnt mind numbing #and my colleagues say im really good at it too!! #so ive been looking into getting a masters in scientific illustration and its looking really cool!! #i have to work for a few years before i can afford it but in the meantime i can build a pretty sick portfolio... uehehe #idk if you have any tips lmk!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

a snapshot of the result of spending a solid hour trying to find/create a suitable joke

#i can't find any really good short ones #like im trying to scribble a laughingstock thing where howdy makes barnaby laugh #but what joke do you tell a comedian who's ~heard it all~ #like in my mind it is Really difficult to make barnaby legit laugh #but what joke... what (short) joke indeed... #THE BEACON OF AMON DIN IS LIT aka guys 🥺 can i get some suggestions 🥺 team effort moment Mayhaps #i have read so many 'article' joke compilations and reddit threads and joke sites #agh. none of them Fit #absolutely unprompted #blinking at my computer screen with giant oversized i mean Garishly Horrific sparkly anime eyelashes #yall are so smart and so funny i know at least one of you has the perfect one. #an absolute banger yk yk #something howdy would say to get barns to laugh his ass off #in the meantime im gonna make lunch bc ive once again forgotten that food is a thing that exists #if there are no suggestions when i come back.... well nothing will happen but those brackets are Staying In The Mini Comic Thing

[corfisers]

just a humble casino owner and his driver

#officially back to drawing. now i just need to force myself to draw what i'm Supposed to #in the meantime: them #i really respect kou yoneda's refusal to draw nanahara's tattoos #his shirt is always buttoned up just enough and his t-shirt had long enough sleeves #that being said. i can do what i want and so i choose not to follow these guidelines #wips tag #saezuru tag

[pastafossa]

Ok. TRT business and a question, cause I need feedback from readers at this point.

First: the final chapter of the Raven What If fic should be posted this week, I'm about done editing it. The bigger, much more important question: So I have a potential chapter for tomorrow. I've been worrying and fretting over posting it, not because I think it's bad, but because it's short by TRT standards, currently around 2k words, and it both frustrates me and makes me feel weirdly guilty at the thought of dropping what's so much less than my usual. I'm used to being able to write longer chapters, being able to squeeze everything I want into them, and I have a literal outline of this goddamn chapter that has this good stuff in it and I know what needs to be written. I can see it right there. The movie is playing in my head just fine. But the truth of it is, my writing is slow at the moment thanks to post-covid brain fog. I'm checking in with my doctor, I've started taking specific supplements (which I'm hoping to see results from in the next few weeks), I'm clawing my way back bit by bit, but I continue to write slowly, mostly because I either can't focus or I have to stop every few sentences to struggle with a word I can't remember. It's incredibly frustrating. The thing is though, at least I *am* writing, which gives me hope. But this is where you - the readers - come in. Because right now we have two possible paths for updates going forward for a bit. Option 1: Longer gaps between our usual chapters. If we go this road, it'll take longer but as I chip away, I'll eventually have the full planned chapter, which I'd post. This would be a chapter closer to what we've had most weeks for the past oh god like 2 years. At current speed I'd drop it in a few weeks, and then hopefully the next one would come a little faster, until eventually we're back to our usual. So basically, you'd get your big chunks when the updates do come, and the same natural endpoints and arcs as before. Drawback is obviously the time between updates, so you won't be fed as often (though I'd try to find things in my editing folder to clean up and drop, like the Raven fic).

Option 2: Shorter chapters but more regular updates. If we go this road, we'd be back to weekly updates of our adventures with Matt and Jane. There'd just be less than usual for a bit and then, hopefully as I improve, you'll see the word count begin to climb back up. So in this case, you'd be getting a weekly dose of TRT, the usual fluff and angst and action, but the catch is less overall to read (likely individual scenes rather than multiples), and potentially sudden endpoints/more cliffhangers as I 'end' at what was outlined as a scene change.

Which way I go will mostly depend on ya'll tbh. I think I can make either work, since I've managed to start writing a little again and I really, really am hoping the supplements help. But since this'll potentially alter the update schedule we've had for years, I wanted to see which you'd prefer.

So, Option One - longer gaps but long chapters - or Option Two - shorter chapters weekly. Which would you prefer?

#the red thread #i have been so gd frustrated. like it doesn't help my meds and other illnesses ALREADY cause brain fog #now i have this shit #where i can literally see in my head what needs to happen but words no go for long time #and i've gotten so used to long TRT chapters that i've been fighting the guilt over the idea of shorter chapters #so i figured i'd check in because if ya'll are actually fine with that then i'd feel better about it #alternatively i just keep plucking away and eventually drop the full length chapter #i feel like the feedback for whichever way we go will help me settle and not feel bad about longer gaps/shorter chapters #in the meantime i'm doing what i can. following doctor's orders and taking my supplements #along with writing in little chunks and editing to see if that can help me retrain whatever's been fucked up basically #so. option 1 or option 2?

[beneaththegildedmoon]

Baking baby Guinness cupcakes to cope with finishing Life With Althaar on that crazy cliffhanger only to realise there isn't any more yet 😭

#life with althaar #obvs not complaining #from what i can find online the crew have been having a hell of a time the past few years #but it does seem like they are planning to finish it when they can #so i will just have to wait as patiently as i can #i now understand the vaguely ominous warnings from those of you who were listening as it first came out though lol #nothing to do in the meantime but relisten on repeat i suppose #because the hyperfixation isnt dying out anytime soon #and maybe make some kind of fanart if i get the motivation to draw again i guess #i am still definitely about to get all my irl friends listening to it so i dont have to suffer alone though lol #they will thank me in the end im sure

[averlym]

,,, little lemmings in line...

#adamandi #needed this. idk. shameless fluff. i. sjdhdjfhfhfhfhf viewing this doodle just makes me happy ok #something silly. i feel like lately i've been a lot more earnest on this blog and it's nice!! #the imagery that the lyrics evoke.... goes so hard actually. consider this maybe an outtake of the last 'where can i run' thingy #yes i get the whole lemmings off a cliff thing but also i think taking it at face value would be cute therefore this #since basically they refer to the rest of the students as lemmings.. he's human in this one i guess. #quincent thoughts. many many. but also i have been maybe avoiding engaging with quincy on a more intense level? until i am in a better #mental state to do so. because the whole academic perfection and self harm is a Thing i would like to engage with Properly without spirals #yay on me for being healthy about media! not normal and never normal. but healthy is good i guess #... hm. family is being iffy lately because you're supposed to have good acads And not stressed but i refuse to feel guilty anymore. #after this period i'll go bonkers over him and in the meantime unfortunately they won't feature as much in the content.. :< #anyways. fun fact about lemmings is that it's not necessarily a derogatory blindly leaping to deaths thing when it comes to the actual ones #like that's the phrasing and connotation right. but apparently it's more of they leap off cliff into water below or smth to migrate and onl #the rare few die (skill issue??um) and apparently the whole association was propagated by some documentary wildlife drama thing that kind o #.... hastened the chasing of the poor things off the cliff and filmed it. a bit messed up. and like i guess what a nice metaphor for the #academic context here? or a different one at least. where only a few die so they keep doing it but also for the Average lemming following #following the system is not inherently bad.. maybe i'm projecting. #anyways peep the tiny character shorthands now.. ambrose has the jacket/ bea has the hat and gloves with strings: portia has the bow on hea #quincy has the bowtie and glasses /(beatrix also has glasses. i forgot about those until i was drawing quincy's.) #'avvy why are they standing up' you ask? because four legs looked weird with ambrose's jacket. 'why did you give lemmings glasses?' ummmmm #i guess recognisability? don't look too much into it #outtakes of this include vincent standing in a circle of lemmings. it's badly drawn and frankly hilarious because they're all tiny and #below the knee. #'avvy these don't look like realistic lemmings' you are very right. i am sorry. i looked for a crowd of lemmings on google images and all i #found were political cartoons... i Can draw animals technically i swear #anyways! emotional support adamandi doodle out. going to start work now! #oh i forgot to tag the characters... hm... i guess i'll leave out the lemmings.. #? #vincent aurelius lin #.