#I don’t very quickly but it’s fine

[ultimateaclrecovery]

Japan day 4! More Kyoto!

Started with a photo op of the yasaka pagado part of the hokan-ji temple. And then we were off to the kiyomizu-dear temple known for its city views. It was a little cloudy but we still got some great views!

From there went the silver pagado temple and then down the philosophers path. It was raining but the path was very peaceful as we walked along the river. It ended at the Eikan-do temple. Eiakan-do had a really cool art exhibit inside and then the gardens were full of fall colors.

We then went to our tea ceremony experience. It was very curated for tourists but felt very respectful and informative. It took a lot more whisking to get the tea right than I thought, but it was all very delicious. And I got to wear a purple kimono so I obviously had a good time.

Overly long travel diary

Anthony 400 yen first temple kitomizu dera

Emma 500 yen each second temple, silver temple

Anthony 1000 yen each eikan do

We start the day at kiyomizu temple, stopping on the way to take pictures of a pagado. The view from the temple is really nice even if it is a bit cloudy. The temple itself is also a really pretty red.

We then walk for a bit and find a dog park to have breakfast in.

We take a bus over to the philosophers path. The bus is super crowded buy we survived.

We then decide to walk up to the silver pavilion the counter part to the gold pavilion we saw yesterday. Because sulver tarnishes more quickly it’s not as shiny but the grounds are still lovely. Sadly they don’t have a silver temple key chain to match my one from yesterday.

After we head back down to the philosophers path which runs along the river. Some of the leaves are really pretty colors but a lot have fallen already. The philosophers path was so full of cute bridges. It was pretty rainy but it kind of added to it in a way. There are also people with signs at various crossroads of the philosophers path to help direct tourists. There are also various public maps with the major tourist sites on them.

The philosophers path ends very near to our next temple so we head in. The ticket is more than a lot of them but we quickly see that it’s because they also have an art exhibit in the temple. They give you a little plastic bag to carry your shoes in while you walk through the temple and see the art. It’s pretty cold today so my feet are cold and the wooden floor feels extra cold.

Eikan do had lots of art and explanations about the pure land where you go when you reach enlightenment. The monk who more or less founded the temple thinks that anyone can reach enlightenment and you don’t have to spend endless hours in mediation. The temple also is one of the few or maybe only places where the two competing art schools of the day would have their art side by side.

The fall foliage around the temple is really gorgeous and their are some adorable bridges. I try to get a picture with a bridge from on another bridge but didn’t get the angles right so you can’t really see the bridge. But there’s still pretty colors and a pond. We also walk up to the pagado at the top and take in the views of the cities. I love how all the temples are nestled into the mountains/hillsides so you can get pretty views from them.

There are other temples nearby but we’re feeling pretty templed out and will see more temples tomorrow so decide to just head back to the area out hotel is in and get lunch.

Twntenyu for lunch ramen. Anthony paid 2180 for both. They had up little dividers between all the seats. It was in a big building full of mostly offices with stores on the bottom floor. Most of the other people seemed to be business people on their lunch break. I got ramen and gyoza and it was delicious but the gyoza burned the roof of my mouth a little. The warm ramen tho really hit the spot on a cold and dreary day.

We head back to the hotel to regroup. We end up taking a nap (and having some quality time)due to not finding anything else to see that we are willing to walk to. And I’m tired.

After we head out to go to a tea ceremony I booked online previously. We start with getting dressed in kimonos. They braid my hair and pin it up into a bun. I am allowed to picked my own kimono and I find a dark purple one with pink flowers. Putting it on is an experience. There are two ladies working together wrapping you all up and tying you in. There are a lot more little skinny ties than I would’ve expected. And then there’s a hard thing for your middle for the shape and then finally the big sash that goes around the middle and ties into a bow. It’s a little constricting but not too bad. I wouldn’t want to have run or need to do any deep breathing in it but fine for standing around and sitting.

They give you a pretty bag so you can take your phone and whatever with you (they know people want to take pictures in the kimonos)and then a big numbered bag to leave the rest of your stuff in. They also give you little toe socks to wear with the shoes.

We head back to the waiting room and take a couple pictures. My boyfriend tolerates the pictures. There’s a lovely women from Portugal on her honeymoon who takes a couple for us and gets one of my hair and the bow in the back

We head into the room where they show us how we can sit and how to arrange the kimono. She tells us to stay comfortable. I do not succeed in the little sweeping motion she showed to get the kimono to look pretty while sitting and it keeps gaping funny at the bottom but it’s fine.

She starts with a detailed explanation of what tea ceremony is. It’s all about the one moment and one time we have here together. And being full of respect harmony tranquilly and balance(?). She then shows us how to make the tea. There’s a lot of cleaning and the tools and doing everything deliberately and respectfully.

We start by eating the little sweets. One is hard like a smartie and has a swan on it and the other is rice paper wrapped around red bean paste. She has cut the pastry in half with a toothpick and it’s surprisingly difficult. She then shows us how we are supposed to whisk the tea.

I thought i whisked mine enough but when she comes around she says I need to do it a lot more.

The tea ceremony involves a lot more whisking than I tried to do at first, but it’s fun. The sweets before it our lovely.

We take a couple more pictures after in the pretty tea room. There’s art in the panels. The lighting isn’t great for my face (I think my head blocked a can light or something but otherwise the pictures are great.

It’s very much an experience curated for tourists and a bit of a sampler or intro to traditional Japanese cultur but it felt respectful and not gimmicky. Our tea group was all couples from different countries and about half were on their honeymoon.

We then walk through nishiki market and buy chopsticks. I buy some pretty purple ones. 6100 yen. I get three, two lavender and one sparkly. I realize too late that I probably could’ve gotten another of the sparkly and gotten a set of four but it’s fine. I also get three chopstick rests that are some sort of adorable sea slugs (I get three, one purple, but there was a fourth design but it was orange and I didn’t love it. The other two were blue and polka dot.

Apparently the yen hit its lowest in 30 years relative to the dollar.

Dinner is at a sort of americaish small plate place after we can’t get into the restaurant my uncle recommended. I try brown sugar shochu it is good but not as sweet as I wanted. We get garlic bread (with pesto), gapao rice, pork loin, and fried chicken. We then get a Dutch baby with gelato for dessert that they unexpectedly add fruit to. I hate when desserts do that because I don’t like fruits and then it can kind of ruin the taste of whatever it’s on with its sauce or whatever. And with dessert if it’s not delicious I don’t really want it. I eat the edges of my half of the pancake and then have my boyfriend finish the parts that got soaked with fruit juice

#travel diary #yes I am posting these back to back #and yes my trip was in early to mid November #I don’t very quickly but it’s fine #also too lazy to pull out my haphazard cash tracking from the diary #japan #japan day 4 #day 4 #japan travel diary #overly long travel diary

[smilesrobotlover]

Okay I'll bite. What happened in this guy's childhood to make him go to the extensive body-destroying lengths to bring his mom back??

-Sky Floor

His father left and his mother was wonderful to Edward and his brother, they loved her very much. But in the 2003 version, she died, possibly from being heartbroken over Edward’s father leaving. She was sick for days and finally passed away. In the brotherhood version it was definitely an illness that passed around Risembool (where Edward lived) and his mother caught it and she died. He and his brother missed her and Edward wanted nothing more than to bring his mother back. He thought he would use alchemy to do it, but human transmutation is very illegal because of how dangerous it is. Alchemy is dependent on equivalent exchange, and it’s practically impossible to bring someone back to life. So Ed lost his leg, and Alphonse lost his entire body. Ed couldn’t lose his little brother so he connected Al’s soul to a suit of armor, losing his arm in the process.

Oh but don’t worry! His life gets so much worse :)

#there’s two versions of this show #there’s 2003 that was following the manga but caught up too quickly so it did its own thing #and brotherhood that honestly didn’t follow the manga in the beginning but DID especially in the end #2003 is MUCH darker than brotherhood #brotherhood is dark but not as much as 2003 so if you want a not so dark anime with a definite happy ending then brotherhood is for you #if you’re fine with a dark anime with a bittersweet ending and a very messy film at the end. then 2003 works too #I personally love both #but they are VERY very different from each other lol #like it’s funny at how vastly different they are #but regardless this show is amazing. both versions have a great story #beautiful brotherhood #and well written characters #like don’t get me started on the female characters they are ALL amazing #especially in brotherhood #anyways I’m done I hope that told you enough #now it has been a hot second since I’ve seen 2003 and brotherhood so the death of their mother may be different than what I said #but oh well #today is a special holiday for fma enjoyers btw #asks

[dayurno]

are you going to read tsc when it comes out? and, if not: would you like your acolytes to give you the important kevin day updates or would you rather not?

oh my acolytes huh! well i don’t know :) it’s so nice of you to ask and i’m very touched actually…. nice to me 🥹…. i guess any (good) kevin updates would be nice and probably sway the balance on whether i read it or not, but at first glance i probably won’t read it unless it sparks my curiosity once it’s out and the story starts making its rounds around my circles :) i’m plenty interested in the period where jean stays with the foxes but i don’t much care for the trojans nor the proposed storyline*, though even a picky reader like yours truly can be convinced into buying a story if kevin day’s in it

*by this i don’t mean that i Dislike the process of jean healing but it’s just overall not my favorite theme and, to be frank, i don’t have much interest in reading about a normal well-adjusted team either. from my view tsc is aftg without my favorite parts (namely kevin day as a main character, the foxes’ messy dynamic, problematic and controversial side characters, neil’s narration, The Mafia, andrew in general) and while i am always and forever a ride or die for jean moreau, and i am glad he’s going to get better and be happy, a lot of my feelings for him don’t really stem from the idea that there is a softness underneath all the grit but actually and sincerely the fact that he is crazy. i Love jean because he’s horrible and scared and cruel and i don’t know if i’ll care much for him once he’s out of that state :) i meant it when i said a few months ago that i would’ve been more onboard with a story about the ravens (no matter how gruesome) or even a glimpse of jean’s pov in the nest, though of course nora sakavic should probably choose to be happy every once in a while so i wouldn’t ask her to write that

so tl;dr: you can send me good and relevant kevin updates if you want to and if they’re interesting enough i might read tsc in the future

#sorryyyyyyy sorry i know Healing is a big theme for the fandom but i just dont care #i dont care for it as a broad concept and i dont care for it in the context of these characters #and i know the trojans are normal good people which is also not something i care for #though i am excited for laila and alvarez and i will be looking forward to that relationship getting discussed more #but the rest is just not for me and that’s fine #i havent kept up with nora’s writing so i don’t know what it’s like Now so who’s to say! i might just as well get hooked as soon as it drop #i might finally be able to swallow the concept of jerejean even #these are just my pre-release thoughts #i also Worry and Pine and Ache over kevin and his new arc and whatever the hell jean thinks of him #only because i know kevin getting in the way of another popular ship is not going to be fun #especially when his relationship to jean is so complicated #and i will say this im not your strongest soldier if the kevin-bashing era returns after tsc i’m leaving through where i came from #so really i don’t know :)! it might suck real bad it might be totally irrelevant and i might love it to death #its super up in the air atp #which for my autistic ass is. interesting. Hard. a change i did not want #but ultimately not a big deal and my anxieties get cured very quickly by frolicking in grass and hearing cats purr #actually thank you for asking this because i feel like i havent gotten around to really thinking this through #asks

[bonebrokebuddy]

BART ALLEN OUTSIDER POV FIC PROMPT: WAIT WAS BART IN A CULT?

Bart Allen, only 13 years old, ends up getting enrolled back into school to learn about modern history to unlearn the Reach’s vastly altered version of history that he was taught and to connect with non-meta kids his age.

He goes to central city middle school after jumping back to the future. The students there quickly notice that the new kid is a very weird guy.

- Bart said he came from Keystone city yet can’t name a single thing about Keystone.

- Despite being a class clown, he’s weirdly serious about certain topics and asking anything about the future causes Bart’s eyes to glaze over for a second

- He doesn’t know anything about pop culture.

- When asked what his favorite movie was for his “get to know you question,” Bart responded that he didn’t watch a lot of movies. He responded similarly for every other icebreaker question. Including favorite ice cream where when he replied, “I’ve never had ice cream” cue the class erupting in commotion and disbelief that took the teacher 10 minutes to calm down

- He doesn’t know about current social media trends. As a few months of him in school goes by, it becomes apparent that he’s almost never up to date on current or past social media trends.

- He’s absolutely horrible at history outside of some recent metahuman & JL events.

- He doesn’t seem to know how school works. Like, a kid goes up to him and offers to do his homework if Bart pays her because she noticed he was struggling with history... and Bart acts very confused. “Isn’t that not allowed?” And that comment confuses the shit out of the girl trying to get money out of Bart and they eventually continue talking and agreeing on her tutoring Bart free of charge. After a while he opens up to her about having difficulties remembering which history is which when writing essays but refuses to elaborate, leading her to think that Bart used to go to a Catholic school.

- in the lunch room, Bart said he didn’t know who Lady Gaga was and it began a trend of kids asking if he knew who [celebrity] was & bets were placed on if he did or didn’t (Bart caught on quickly and educated himself on this the day he found out so he wouldn’t seem too out of touch. It was boring quickly so he stopped keeping up with celebrity gossip quick)

- When interrogated about his lack of knowledge in media, he said he lived an “isolated childhood” and was homeschooled until recently

- Eventually in the locker room, when changing people notice his scars (unknown why them but they’re the results of The Reach’s reign and enforcement of control over the metas)

And the middle schoolers put the pieces together: Bart escaped from a doomsday cult.

- and the rumor spreads like fucking wildfire

- That’s why he has the scars, they must have punished him for defying the cult! That must be why he escaped!

- That’s why he said he had an isolated childhood and “can’t remember which history is the correct one”

- That’s why Bart has to have the worksheets for the lower grades given to him during worktime because he’s catching up on what he wasn’t taught while in the cult!

- That’s why his handwriting is famously awful to read! The cult must’ve not let him write so they couldn’t communicate to escape!

- That’s why he’s so touchy about talking about the future!

- That’s why he’s so awkward actually talking to people! He never got experience in the cult because he couldn’t talk to outsiders!

- That’s why he uses weird slang nobody’s ever heard of.

- That’s why he didn’t know what a giraffe was!

- That’s why he randomly disappears from school for weeks at a time, because he’s getting treatment from brainwashing!

- The brainwashing treatment rumor eventually devolves into that Bart disappears randomly for days or weeks at a time from school because he needs to pray to the gods he worshipped at certain times or is trying to escape back to the cult but keeps getting brought back; to he’s under the witness protection program and needs to be hidden from cult members trying to find Bart and bring him back (backers of this version claim that’s why they can’t find any records of a ‘Bart Allen’ anywhere online is because it’s a fake identity). and so the rumor’s light connection to reality devolves rapidly

- They’re middle schoolers so the rumors get a little weird (if not downright bizarre & essentially nonsensical because, again, middle schoolers. I only faintly remember rumors from middle school at this point but I remember they started relatively normal and then got fucking weird and most made zero logical sense ) but they center around one main thing: explaining away every weird thing about Bart on the fact that he recently escaped a doomsday cult

#bart allen #flash #young justice #kid flash #impulse #dc comics #writing prompt #prompt #dc #middle school kids are the weirdest creatures and are just on the cusp of knowing Big Knowledge but don’t have any of the fine details tater #so they still make these fucking weird ass leaps in logic that make No sense and they all go ‘yep that makes sense’ #so the rumors would go from ‘he was in catholic school’ to ‘he was in a cult’ #would evolve Very quickly once the scars were found out #and the absolute devastation that would be wrought on rumors from Bart during PE #because the guy has a runner’s build and can run the mile in record time #so the rumor evolves to that Bart’s cult was about having to run/escape an alien invasion #and slowly due to middle schooler exaggeration #the rumor becomes almost uncomfortably close to reality with the only exception that time travel isn’t involved #and I think that would be funny as hell to explore #feel free to add on or elaborate on any way you wish! please tag me if you’re inspired by this to write your own fic! #bones speaks

[house-of-frangus]

help wanted please: i’m writing a fic in calorum, pre-acoc but i only watched the series for the first time last week so i’m not confident in some of the like lore & general cultural/religious stuff of the universe

basically i’m looking for someone who could try to answer some of my (probably too specific) questions abt the world in acoc, leave a comment or dm if you’d like to help!!

#idc if we aren’t mutuals or u don’t even follow me!!! #just hit me up i love meeting people & i do not bite #also fine if u don’t know like everything bc it’s not super deep stuff i’m looking for i’m just not great at grasping a lot of lore #very quickly. #acoc #a crown of candy #crown of candy #theopin #<- what the fic is abt #kttalks #d20 #dimension 20 acoc #dimension 20

[callixton]

look i know that hallucinations occurring halfway between sleep and wake are not that abnormal and lots and lots of people get them but also. they r new to me as of this summer and i would like to stop getting them please

#saw a bunch of bugs crawling along the edge of my blankets #turned on the light obv there was nothing there #it’s Fine. they just mess w my head a little and i don’t like that they’re a new thing i experience #they’re always very mild and go away quickly and i’m 90% sure they were triggered by a sleep med i was on and just. didn’t go away after #okay. goodnight again #ted talks #i don’t think this needs tagged but lemme know

[onedirecton]

Day 3! Give it up for day 3 of crying over something!

#today something was wrong with my toilet at like 6:30am 😭 please give me a break I’m begging #I video called my parents while I was crying because I needed help and I didn’t know what to do #anyway landlord has been texted because I genuinely don’t know how to fix a toilet tank that constantly runs and doesn’t fill up! #I’ll be so embarrassed if he just turns the valve on again and it’s fine 😭 #I didn’t have time to try that myself skdjsjdn I feel really stupid and incompetent #and I feel like I’m bothering my landlord so much with these smoking complaints and the hallway light issue :( #anyway while I was crying my dad was very sweet with his unhelpful encouragement and he said something like you should pray more because #God listens to children more than adults he answers their prayers more quickly #and I was like I’m #not a child anymore? and my dad was like true but you’re MY child and you always will be #and that made me cry even more 😭😭😭 it was very sweet

[runawaycarouselhorse]

#Ithought everything was fine and that I was over it quickly but my mind just pushed it alll the way over there!! #so that was fun for my subconscious to unpack while I’m sleeping very fun very excellent #at LEAST I didn’t dig my nails in or scrape myself up in my sleep #but still achy #personal #negative * #I should maybe do something other than just distract myself when triggered and apparently make it future me’s problem #don’t know what though

[musiclover2732]

so none of you were gonna tell me we got a minute and a half of Delicate (Taylor’s Version) in The Summer I Turned Pretty, leaving me to find out on my own

#with the amount of hints we’re getting for rep and 1989 i would not be surprised if debut is next #if she does a double drop tho i’ll be mad #cuz i have a feeling she’s trying to shorten rep era #she killed sntv quickly and i still don’t know why #but she seems very annoyed by this existence of the rep love songs and who can blame her #but i don’t want 1989 to be the distraction and suffer because of how she feels about joe #like this tour is about making good memories with those songs outside of their original meaning #she also seems semi avoidant of 1989 #like fearless tv got a lot of love #red tv was like the favorite child #but i’m worried something happened #maybe she had a new project and she’s trying to rush it #but then why prolong the tour #midnights was clearly still set in the past which is fine #but if she’s trying to get all the old music out of the way for new stuff this is a strange way to do it #taylor swift

[mel-loly]

-“2022..”

(read the tags)

#this is an art that represents many things that I went through and that I suffered a lot last year.. #like- for you to know how happy I am that the year 2022 is over. it's kinda like how much I'm standing up to now #because for me this year was very difficult #it was really very painful to the point of having to be the one who had to remain silent- #just so as not to say what's stuck in my throat until today #It wasn't just deaths that made me sad. it wasn't just because Brazil lost the World Cup #but there were several things that you have no idea how much it hurts to this day just to remember.. #so- I hope that many here are happy that I'm still here #for having endured so much in all this time. for staying strong and trying to do my best... #for putting “bandages” on every thing I went through. #that some wounds even heal quickly. but there are others that don’t even manage to heal #(like- one of those stains you get on your clothes and it doesn't come off. #or breaking a video game out of anger and never being able to recover it) #but even so you still are trying to find a way to be fine.. #and I'm not only here because I like it and I have friends that I don't want to lose. #but I'm also here because I want to see other people's smiles. whether with my art or even with the things I say #I'm here to show that no one is alone. nor will they ever be #that if you went through many difficulties in the year 2022. know that you were not the only one! #because I also went through it and now pls feel very happy to at least start another year and a new era.. #may 2023 be a good year. that everyone can enjoy and have fun. without so much pain and suffering like last year.. #have hope. stay strong and look at the past as a lesson on how to live even with so many things happening. #remember the good things. even if they are not many. they will help you and make you stronger.. #try to think about the now and live a new experience trying to do your best and still stay strong #I care about y'all. and I hope to stay here for another year to see each one of you well. #also- that I love you guys very much. and I hope y'all don't forget that💛 #art #i'm mel and this is my blog✌️ #my art #art mel #mel creator

[tempestclerics]

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#just put together why some of the particular interactions I’ve been having lately have been rubbing me the wrong way so much #I feel as if. I am being confided in a lot. which I appreciate - it means that people trust me and that I’m helpful to them - but also mean #I have very quickly become very aware of a lot of information #including people’s weird grudges and long-standing relationship dynamics and other things that I don’t need to know! to interact with them! #if I don’t like someone I am very bad at not letting that show on my face #and so it’s doubly unsettling to have someone confide in me that they secretly have major clashes with someone else #partly because I see them continue to interact and you could’ve fooled me #which really just underlines that I’m lucky people trust me enough to tell me things because I could not have picked any of this up on my #own which makes me so worried that I’m missing even more interpersonal land mines #but also because. if you tell me this! it is so hard to not let this poison my own relationships with whatever person you have beef with! #because I can’t keep the things I know (because i didn’t ask but you told me anyway) off my face! #I wish i were better at reading people and at keeping what I’m thinking off my face and at not being so bothered by what other people think #about me and each other #I don’t give a fuck whether or not you can smile and laugh and be fake friendly with people you’ve told me you hate. but I wish it didn’t #send me into a spiral about why you seem so fine and good at this while I’m sitting here with the information you gave me making me unable #to genuinely be friends with people I have no personal beef with #why is this so easy for you and so hard for me #five more weeks. #delete later #sola said #also if you're reading this this is not about you i just. aughhh

[skyward-floored]

Dream vacations are somewhere cold. As in you would much rather go to Alaska then Florida for vacation.

Oh for sure! Florida is fine I guess but the cold is where it’s at. I melt if the heat is more than 80, I am definitely a cold weather person

#don’t get me wrong now #summer weather is fine #but I get tired of it very quickly #whereas cold weather I could handle for a very long time #answers from the floor #anon #ask game

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

i don’t like. the irrationality created by memories

#ive spent enough time pouring over information and reading studies and making sure i know damn well how this disease works so that at least #it’s not some unknown enemy and becomes something i can understand #which is fine until im crying and shaking in my bathroom over it potentially being in this damn house once again and at this time of the #year where specific anniversaries of horrible milestones come back to haunt me #and i haven’t been fully present in going on two years now but these last two days have passed obnoxiously quickly and none of it feels real #it’s been a long time since i haven’t known the hour much less what day it is #and i can tell you about blood vessels and symptoms and all the ways this disease can function in and destroy the body but it doesn’t make #any difference when nothing feels real and i had to check what day it was and got the date wrong for the first time in years #I’m also defaulting to hyper-rationality which hasn’t happened since middle school and isn’t. a good sign #it’s just a replay of a lot of memories i can’t forgot but this time it’s not just memories and has a very much physical component which is #worse. I think. by far. #and then there’s the repercussions of this where I have to see if my brain will allow me to anything #i can hope i can still go to work and everything because i do love it but last time this happened i wasn’t able to walk into any building #without having to leave #so. I don’t know. not to mention things that don’t have to do with school or careers? #and rationally i should be asleep at the moment because sleep is so so necessary right now but that’s the one thing I’m really struggling #with right now #i don’t know. it’s just a lot and I don’t appreciate the added layer of ‘time is a circle’ #there’s other things I have to deal with and work through that are more irrational than research vs trauma response but will probably be #harder to work through because man does my brain love latching onto a grudge but. for lack of a better term. whatever #im most upset about things pertaining to a career has been messed up and that i can’t celebrate chanukah with my family #because everyone else can think about christmas but im losing my winter holiday #im just. anything that isn’t empty is scared and angry and bitter just a little bit #vent tw

[myname-isnia]

I had a moment of weakness and now regret it terribly because it has turned into just A Moment which means if I don’t get out of my head right now I will be miserable for the rest of the evening

#I was overcome with the sudden urge to paint #mind you I have not picked up a paintbrush since June #and before that since November #and so. of course. was very quickly and very rudely reminded that I am Not A Painter #the thing is… it was going fine until the paint became involved #I just… no matter how many classes I’ve taken in my life I never know how to handle paints #or colouring pencils. or markers. or anything #it’s like the second colour comes into the picture #it gets ruined #.. I don’t know. maybe I’m just shoving square pegs into round holes #I get insanely inspired when looking at paintings and I want to be able to do that too #but time and time again it has been proven that I’m not meant to be a painter #I don’t even know why I’m still clinging to drawing in general. considering I’ve hit a plateau and haven’t taken any steps towards improving #but maybe it is best to continue to stick to my mediocre digital art. traditional is clearly not for me #can you believe I once genuinely thought I was gonna go to art school? #i don’t know how I ever managed to convince myself of that. I’m useless at art #my area of expertise is pretty girls from the waist up facing a little to the side #I can do that. I’m good at that #anything else? out of luck #and yet I don’t work on branching out or trying to improve at all. I just sit here and whine #over and over again. day in and day out. I come on here and complain #and do nothing to fix what I’m complaining about. I’m doing it right now #how does anyone put up with me? I’m insufferable #I make myself sick

[spiritofjustice]

Idk if the showrunners want me to feel bad for Kelvin or not in season 2 of Righteous Gemstones but I don’t. Really. I kind of do but like 97% of the shit that happens he inflicted on himself. He assaulted his old ass father and then threw a fit when his dad fought back. Loser behavior

#psy's no punctuation posts #RG tag #Eli wasn’t right to break his thumbs but like don’t start a fight you can’t finish Kelvin lol #i know the thing abt RG is literally everyone sucks and you still kinda feel bad for them #but I have a hard time sympathizing with Kelvin at all #i also have a hard time sympathizing with Judy but I’m rooting for her a bit more in this season #actually I can’t sympathize with Jesse much this season either when I found him a lot more compelling in s1 #it’s a shame cause he’s my favorite and it feels like they very quickly skipped over what made the end of Jesses arc in the first season #interesting yknow.. #season 2 is fine but season 1 was better overall so far #this one just feels a bit over the top and Off #i also don’t really like what they did with Eli’s backstory entirely #there’s something about it. can’t put my finger on it #it’s interesting but it doesn’t fully work for me #but he does have by and large the best arc in this season #which I appreciate expanding on his character more

[jyoongim]

Hear me out. I can't be the only one that wants to fuck Al's demon form. Like not just the black eyed tentacle gig, I'm talking full form like the size and all 😭 I can take it I swear, Al (narrator: she could not)

Title: A Reminder To All…

Themes: its giving monster fuc but like oof, demon!form Alastor, tentacles, established relationship, rough sex, growling, blood, possessive behavior, antlers, animalistic behaviors.

It was a rather quiet afternoon at the Hazbin Hotel.

You were up in the radio tower straightening a few things while Alastor was out doing gods know what 

You decided that since you had cleaned up most of the place that you would take a stroll through town as some down time.

You hummed a tune as you passed many sinners out and about. Your stroll led pass the digital shop. You slowed as you noticed a crowd gathered outside a Voxtech store.

There were multiple tvs playing things in the windows and what caught your attention was the deals they had going on.

You bit your lip. Oh it couldnt hurt to window shop right?

You entered and was immediately overwhelmed by all the fancy tech.

why did hell need modern tech you had no idea.

A shiny pink camera caught your attention.

And it was cheap.

You did need a new camera. It would help with advertisement and to show the progress of the hotel you thought as you happily paid for it and went about your way.

what you didn’t know was that Vox had been tracking you the moment you left the hotel.

that camera of yours was now his gateway into seeing what Alastor was up to.

Once back at the hotel you pulled out your shiny new purchase.

you turned it on and walked around filming a bit.

You checking the footage to check out the quality when you heard a record scratch

”what is that my dear?” 

You jumped at the sound of Alastor’s voice and spun around holding the camera

His eyes narrowed on it and quirked his brow at you, airing for an explanation.

”Well Al I-I just thought that the hotel could use a camera to help with promoting. We can record our progress. Now you don’t have to do all the work.” You said with a nervous smile, hoping he wouldn’t toss it.

He walked closer to you, mainly keeping his eyes on the tech.

”and where did you get such a frivolous thing?” 

you gulped “At the v-voxtech store”

His ever-present smile tightened before he shrugged “fine if you think it’ll help”

you breathed a sigh of relief and happily went about your way testing it out.

Unaware of the growing shadows emitting from him.

after spending a few hours getting the hang of your new device, you decided to call it a night and put your camera on your nightstand as you got ready for bed.

You shivered slightly under your cover, grumbling you furrowed further to seek some warmth.

why the hell was it so cold?

you shifted again in bed to feel a heavy weight on top of you.

your eyes flew open and you were met with a very frightening sight.

Alastor.

In his demon form.

Your breath got caught in your throat “A-Al?”

He tilted his head, smile wide and sharp “Sleeping well my dear?” His voice was staticky and distorted.

you were so confused.

you hardly EVER saw Alastor upset, especially to the point were he was in his demon form.

“Why is that in your room dear?” He hissed out, jutting his chin to your camera.

You tilted your head confused at his question.

he was angry about a damn camera?

A clawed hand was at your throat.

”I allow many things dear, but this unattractive piece of scrap in your room? That is where I draw the line”

You let out a squeak as your clothes suddenly disappeared and covers ripped away.

”A-Al?!”

Your hands were quickly restrained by his shadows and your legs were spreaded to welcome him closer.

when the hell did he undress?

You felt the faint ghost touch of a tentacle slide against your cunt, teasing your clit. You let out a soft moan.

”Already soaking dearest?” He hummed amused.

You felt the weight of his dick slap against your cunt.

your eyes widened he wasn’t going to…

”Alastor w-wait! I c-can’t!”

A long tongue sweated the side of your face

”But you will darling” and with that he slammed into you.

Your body seized at the sudden intrusion. You let out a cry that was silenced by a tentacle wrapping around your mouth.

Alastor rutted into you, growling and snarling.

Your eyes faintly drifted to the camera by your bed.

A blinking red dot turned on and off.

Alastor gave you a rather harsh thrust.

”eyes on me dear”

you whined loudly, trying to shift your body to accommodate to his harsh thrusting. Your eyes drifted to the top of his head.

Antlers.

you felt your fingers itch with the need to find purchase on them.

you gave a tug at the shadows and huffed, making little grabbing motions hoping he would get the hint.

he granted you grace and your hands immediately flew to his antlers.

He let outa low growl and sunk his teeth into your shoulder.

With his dick hitting that delious spot inside you, you could feel him bottoming out.

You were flipped onto your stomach, facing the camera.

the shadow around your mouth disappeared and a claw hand found your tongue.

”put on a show Mon cher” You felt him flush against you.

Moans and whines filled the room as he  pounded your cunt.

A high pitch whine left your throat as you felt your cunt clench around him.

you were gonna cum soon.

”A-Al-la-stor Ah!” Your eyes crossed as your body tensed and twitched from your orgasm. He let out a deep growl and quickened his pace.

Did he get bigger?

you were suddenly face to face with him.

Your noses brushing against each other as he sought after his own release.

Your arms wrapped around his elongated neck and a hand found one of his ears.

you tugged.

Static ran through your body as he slapped his lips on yours and slammed his hips into you, purring as he filled you with his cum.

you whimpered as your legs were finally released and dropped.

Alastor was breathing heavy as he reached over to the camera

”hope you enjoyed the show old pal” he laughed before destroying the camera.

you were drifting to sleep as you watched him transform back to normal.

”sleep well my dear” was the last thing you heard as he tucked you into his side, humming a soft tune with a wide smile.

He gave a reminder.

Dont fuck with the Radio Demon.

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