#I might still do it

[cinnamontoastcrunch-15]

This was supposed to be for today's @wolfstarmicrofic prompt: candles, but it's now 1,801 words, so I'm just going to post it as a oneshot and upload it to ao3 instead (because it's absolutely NOT micro lmao)

Just to establish this now: this is a Talk to Me AU

Remus Lupin offers to go first.

"I'll do it."

Sirius hasn't met the bloke in his life, having tagged along with Lily, but he's not complaining. Anyone with the balls to try out the hand is fine in his books.

The hand is already stationed at the small coffee table, Remus walking calmly over to the seat pulled up in front of it and dropping down onto it. Sirius smiles for a moment, rooting through his bag and pulling out one of his white candles. He drops it on his desk and lets Peter light it.

"Candles?" Remus asks disbelievingly, Peter just nodding.

"Light the candle to open the door, blow it out to close it."

"Lift your arms," he says when he sees James behind Remus, belt in hand. Remus obeys quickly, glancing up as James lowers the belt around him and the chair, tightening it around his waist.

"Mm, kinky," Remus mutters under his breath, and Sirius snorts, entertained. Something is telling him this possession is going to be great. James yanks the belt tighter, making Remus flinch. "Fucking hell, mate."

"It has to be tight," James explains, taking a step back. Sirius moves to sit with him. James sits on the sofa, Sirius sitting on the floor in front of him. "Trust me."

"Right, once we've started the clock, it can't run for more than ninety seconds," Sirius calls to the room, the same spiel he says every time.

"Why? What happens after ninety seconds?" Lily, Remus' friend, pipes up. Sirius meets Lily's eyes with what he hopes appears as a menacing smile.

"They'll want to stay." As he explains, he lets his eyes land on Remus', maybe rattle him up a little before he starts. Remus meets his eyes unblinkingly, throwing Sirius a little bit. Nobody has been this... blase before.

"And if you die while they're in you," James interjects at the realisation that Sirius is too busy watching this man, "then they'll have you forever."

The rest of the party start muttering, gossiping. Remus rolls his eyes, and Sirius decides it's time to stop fucking around and just get on with it. Time to freak this bloody kid out, stop him from seeming so mysterious.

"Okay, enough stalling, let's go!" Sirius claps once, commanding the attention of the room. Everyone falls silent as a few people start pulling out their phones to film. "You ready Lupin?" Remus nods. "Alright. Put your hand on it. Like, holding it." Remus complies, reaching out and fitting his hand to the white ceramic mould. For a moment, Sirius observes his hand in the embalmed one, his thumb cutting through some of the scribbled writing.

He's not even shaking.

"Now," he continues quickly. He won't be so relaxed in a second. "Say 'talk to me'." Remus chuckles a little disbelievingly, eyes not breaking contact with Sirius' as he speaks.

"Talk to me." Ignoring the tug in his stomach, he watches as Remus turns his head and he jumps a mile.

Fucking finally.

His hand immediately flies backwards, his whole body rejecting whatever he's just seen. Sirius starts laughing before he can think, enjoying the first time reaction and recalling his own. Honestly? He was shitting himself too, but nobody needs to know that.

"Oh my god," Remus says, voice suddenly shaky and eyes darting everywhere. "Who the fuck- who the fuck was that?" He turns to Sirius, as if expecting an answer. Sirius is a little busy laughing, hitting James' leg once. "Who the hell was that?!" Remus asks again, louder, finally compelling Sirius to answer. He shrugs first.

"No clue, it's different every time." He dissolves into further laughter, dropping his head for a moment, before pushing on. Yeah, Remus is freaked out, but Sirius knows he isn't going to stop there, he can feel it. "You didn't do everything, though. You need to say 'I let you in', otherwise this is all pointless," he says pointedly, forcing himself to swallow his entertainment and get through the end of the prep.

Remus can do it. He knows he can.

"Hold on, wait, I'm-"

"Just do it!" James exclaims. "Do it, do it, do it..."

Fuck yes. Sirius joins into the chant immediately, watching as everyone around him joins in. Well, everyone apart from Lily, who looks like she wants to go and drag Remus from the party. Remus glances at everybody watching him, before turning and looking straight at Sirius. Something in him seems to shift, turning back to the hand, pressing his lips into a thin line and slowly reaching out.

Ah, there's the shaking.

He clasps the hand, taking a deep breath.

"Alright, alright!" He shouts, eyes screwing shut. "Okay, fine. Okay." Sirius starts willing him to do it in his head.

Go on, you've got this.

Talk to me.

"Talk to me." He opens his eyes and immediately glances away. Sirius bites back another laugh, checking to see that he hasn't broken contact with the hand.

If anything, he's just gripping it tighter.

"Go on, say the next part." Sirius inches himself slightly closer, pulling out and unlocking his phone, ready to time it.

"I- I can't look at it!" Remus is still looking away, Sirius praying for him to just say it.

"You don't have to look at it, okay? Just say it. 'I let you in'."

"I- I can't-"

"Say it!" Sirius shouts, watching him carefully. He can do it. He needs to do it.

Come on, Remus.

After taking a deep, stabilising breath, Sirius starting to think that he's going to give up, his eyes focus on a space.

Staring the spirit down.

He's such a fucking badass.

"I let you in."

Remus is immediately thrown backwards, neck flying back until his head is facing the ceiling. He exhales once and James stands, tapping Sirius' shoulder once before he moves forwards.

"Timer?" He asks, before walking over to Remus.

"I've got it," he answers, starting it as Remus' pupils dilate, eyes suddenly an inky black, no white visible.

James clicks twice, drawing the newly possessed Remus Lupin from his haze. They blink, eyes flicking to James and head starting to tilt down. Sirius smiles to himself. His face is flushed, neck covered in red lines.

Okay, strangled.

A laugh bubbles out of Remus' body, Sirius glancing down at the timer.

75 seconds left.

Sirius smiles as he watches the others at the party laughing along with the spirit. The laugh grows more maniacal by the second, until it stops abruptly, Remus' body pulling back as they choke slightly, breath stopping in their throat. He loves these ones, they're always the most interesting.

Remus' head whips straight to Sirius, tilting to the side once.

"Someone's following you," their voice is croaky, fried, and Sirius doesn't flinch.

"Really? They hot?" He asks casually. James snorts, the spirit turning and swinging for him with their free hand. Sirius cackles at that, enjoying watching his brother leap backwards with a swear. "Oh, not your biggest fan, 'ey?"

Remus' body coughs once, the spirit turning their attention elsewhere. God, this one doesn't have the best attention span, does it? He glances quickly at his phone to make sure they're making good time, before enjoying the show. The spirit leans forward and makes a biting action at Hestia, who's eyebrows raise, nervousness leaking onto her face. It doesn't last too long, though, as they make their way to Lily.

"She doesn't like you." Their eyes flick just above Lily's shoulder, behind her, and Lily looks behind her for a moment, concerned. The moment she does, every drawer and cupboard on James and Sirius' cabinet opens and slams shut, the whole cabinet yanked forward.

Holy fucking shit, this is amazing.

Sirius looks back at the phone.

"83 seconds, James, take the hand back!" Sirius calls confidently, as Lily turns back to Remus, her anxiety clear, as the spirit keep drawling about something to do with death.

"Right, come on, you've had enough time here." He reaches out to take the hand. However, the moment he goes to pull it away, Remus' free hand flies out and snatches the embalmed hand back, sending shock rippling through Sirius.

That's never happened before.

It doesn't matter, they still has five seconds. It'll be fine.

James reaches back, grabs the embalmed hand with both of his own and yanks it. The spirit just won't let go, though, their grip somehow overwhelming James'.

"Bollocks. James?!" Sirius hisses, watching the clock run as the spirit starts a chant of its own.

"Run, run, run, run," they keep going, eyes wide and burning into Lily's as the light above them flickers and bursts. Sirius covers his eyes as Peter joins James in trying to free Remus of the hand. Nothing's working, the clock just keeps going.

"James, ninety seconds, fucking get on with it!" Sirius shouts, ignoring the clamouring from everyone else and focusing on Remus. He's still shouting 'run', the lights are off, and it's been 96 fucking seconds.

"I know, okay?! I fucking know!" He groans as he and Peter try to wrestle the hand away.

Fuck it, something needs to be done.

Sirius abandons the phone, ignoring the shards from the light bulb as he surges forward and over to Remus' arm. Without thinking, he shoves his own hand between Remus' palm and the embalmed hand's palm, gripping the fingers of the embalmed hand and wrenching it away from Remus. A scream escapes him as the hand finally falls, tumbling across the carpeted floor. Peter moves quickly, dropping down to the coffee table and blowing out the candle to shut the door.

It might not make a fucking difference though, they've never done this before.

Sirius has fallen in his aggressiveness in pulling the hand away. He runs an anxious hand through his hair and immediately pushing himself up and over to Remus.

Remus has fallen forward, breathing heavily, and Sirius needs to know he's okay.

"Hey, Remus? You alright?" He murmurs gently. One of his hands goes to Remus' lower arm, the other pushing his hair back as he realises that Remus is sweating from the exertion. "We went a bit over. Remus?" Remus glances up, eyes meeting Sirius'.

Okay, he's definitely conscious.

"That was..." he looks away for a moment, Sirius pulling his hand away from Remus' head as he does that, eyebrows knitting together as he tries to figure out what Remus is going to say. "Amazing."

A relieved, overjoyed smile immediately finds its way onto Sirius' face, applauding as he stands.

"Fuck yeah! That was the best one yet!" He calls happily, turning and clapping Remus' shoulder, who's laughing along with him as James takes the belt off.

Remus Lupin.

How the hell had Sirius never heard of Remus Lupin?

#i considered writing a full talk to me au fic #i might still do it #i love this film #but it'll be after the ends of the earth is finished lol #wolfstar #sirius black #wolfstar oneshot #marauders #remus x sirius #remus lupin #moony x padfoot #young marauders #atyd marauders #marauders oneshot

[v1p0]

Everyone is posting their amazing Zim Ocs and irkensonas, makes me want to post mine too...but like everything I make their existence seems more like a shitpost than a serious attempt😭

#ramblings #don't mind me #I might still do it

[sliceocheese]

me when i pull up to the barbie movie:

me when i go to the fnaf movie with the bois:

#i was totally gonna 3d print a glamrock freddie costume ngl #i might still do it #idgaf if my older brother calls me a furry #fnaf movie

[deathbydarkelves]

Yesterday on one of my ADHD benders through youtube I found this compilation of a bunch of fun dinosaur animations in Jurassic World: Evolution 2, and I am STILL thinking about this one of a stegosaurus flopping over and then struggling to get back up.

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You can feel the weight. The way it sets its head down in defeat at first. The way you can see it HEAVE A BIG SIGH before trying to get up again. This looks like an actual animal. I'm blown away by this animation. Whoever made this animation; I love you.

#video #if only these jurassic park park builders weren't so dlc-riddled... I have the first one but I did pretty much everything you could ages ag #so idk if redownloading it would really be worth it #i might still do it

[kumezyzo]

should i buy a $350 violin on amazon? i know its super cheap. but like, if Ray Chen says its worth it and i wanna live my violin soloist dream... i dont want my cello to feel like im abandoning him, tho 🥺🥺

#im in a predicament #i might still do it #as my christmas gift #to myself #cause why not #it would be so much more easy to practice #compared to cello #i could practice sitting in bed #i wouldnt have to sit at my desk #and worry about taking forever to put it away #and it would be so easy to store #okay whatever

[kansasjustgotgayer]

So sick of recipes needing expensive appliances to be possible. And the people writing the recipe never take into consideration the fucking poor people reading and provide alternative methods.

What fucking 22 year old can afford to buy themself a food processor just to make some shitty almond-date snacks?

#i could probably ground the almonds with a mortar and pestle…. IF I HAD THOSE #as it stands if i want to make these shitty things I’ll have to finely chop the almonds BY HAND #which is sooooo labor intensive and time consuming #i might still do it #cause i kinda really wanna use those ingredients i have #i wonder if i could make date syrup…. #or maybe some time of jam even? #idk but ive got a bag full of dates and a bag full of almonds and i need to do SOMETHING with them

[kokoopa]

My original plan for this blog was to play every game the Koopalings appear in, and then do a quick review + rank all of them. But then I realized I'd have to play every new super Mario Bros game lol

#i might still do it #maybe I'll skip the mainline games and just do spin-offs

[gogtopia]

i have another webweave idea but i would use minecraft screenshots and ik it would probably look so stupid and only appeal to three ppl

#its for the maze #i might still do it

[hansoeii]

crowley

#fem presenting crowley you're everything to me #as you might know I've been recovering from an injury these past few weeks which is why I couldn't draw as much as usual #been doing a bit better so I wanted to give drawing a try again #while my arm isn't back to normal yet it feels a LOT better than 2 weeks ago #which is a good sign #still gonan take things easy of course #good omens #good omens fanart #crowley #fem crowley #why was one of teh suggestions for that tag fem crocodile #I'll have to look that up #david tennant #crowley fanart #aziracrow #aziracrow fanart #my art #fanart #my good omens art #good omens 2

[july-19th-club]

seriously have been thinking about this all night long. call me autistic but the fact that 90% of workplaces the point is not to get your work done and then be done doing it but to instead perform an elaborate social dance in which you find something to do even when you're done doing everything you need to do in order to show your fellow workers that you, too, are Working . because you are at Work . disgusting why cant we all agree that if there is no work immediately to be done. we just dont do anything

#i personally like to not be doing things constantly at all times. it stresses me out #i know there are ppl who thrive on cosntant activity #but me i like to chill out. #and the problem then becomes that i only ACTIVELY remember to do work and Find More Work To Do when im stressed #at the thought that others might want to see me working #if im ever relaxed i just dont look for stuff to do #catch 22 of modern work culture which permeates even ostensibly noncapitalist structures like public libraries #for instance: will it really kill anybody if the books get shelved by me now after a very busy day? #or shelved tomorrow morning by. well probably me since i'll be the one at the desk #not in the slightest #but it was work that wasnt being immediately done by me. therefore it was incorrect behavior #that i failed to identify because my instinct is to relax when not immediately presented with a Situation #this got me labeled as 'having no initiative' by my dad from a very early age #and even as an adult i still feel like im a child with no initiative

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The squad of all time has arrived on scene.

#dungeon meshi #mithrun #Cithis Ofri #Pattadol #Fleki #Lycion #Otta #Happy Canary Debut Day! These guys wont really get to be very present until the next season of Dungeon Meshi #But I can still be excited to see them animated!!! #Shout out to Pattadol - I also tend to occupy 'The Punchline' niche of the friendgroup. #The punchline differs from 'The Jester' who willingly absorbs the jokes. The punchline is often unwillingly the joke. #You are either the one no one likes or the well beloved little-sibiling-esque friend. Good luck figuring out which! #Yes it is canon that Otta is into Women. YES she dates younger women and dumps them when they age. #This isn't a fan made bit. It's real. #Dungeon Meshi has no romance but it does have canonically queer characters. #Shipping is fine and all but it is a running theme in the series than *everyone* who expresses romantic interest in someone - #-finds that love unrequited. Just something to be mindful of to measure your expectations of this series! #Ah! In other housekeeping notes; I'm going to *try* and add Alt Text to my dungeon meshi thurday posts going forwards. #I might not be able to do it day of but I will try to get it done within a week.

[tam--lin]

In light of increasing anti-trans and anti-abortion laws in the United States, I am once again humbly requesting you inform yourself about jury nullification, your ability as a juror to vote against convicting people being prosecuted under unjust laws. Nullification was instrumental in legalizing abortion in Canada - it informed jurors can use it to help protect healthcare workers and protesters in the US, too.

#I am not a lawyer so please do not ask me questions - I will simply google them as you might #but I do care about this so so much #genuinely: read about it. post about it on social media. tell your friends who have jury duty about it #especially those in 'red' states #it can be so powerful #tam.txt #jury nullification #I still want to get embroidered 'research jury nullification' sweatshirts made.....

[mokeonn]

"But if college was free, then people would abuse that and get useless degrees" hell yeah I would! If I could go to college without debt I would make it my job to get a degree in every little thing that interested me. I'd get a doctorate in film studies. I'd have a bachelor's degree for every science I like. I'd try to learn at least 5 languages with varying results. I would learn something "useful" like coding and then follow it up with a ""useless"" degree like art history. I'd be the world record speed run holder for getting every degree possible.

But I can't afford college without going into massive debt, so instead I spent the last 5 years trying to figure out what I am passionate enough about to consider going into debt over, because unfortunately being passionate about everything is extremely expensive to pursue.

#simon says #i love learning so much and I hate the USA's college debt system #once they make that shit free I will be unstoppable #this topic sprung up because I had the idea that im very academic and annoyingly analytical that I might as well get a degree in it #because without a degree you just seem like an autistic asshole #but with a degree? then you look like a CREDIBLE autistic asshole #don't worry I will still learn but I still want that funky piece of paper to tell everyone I learnt it #also there's some things that are VERY difficult to learn #like I would love to persue this topic further but unfortunately I would need help with that #also before you say 'try taking [blank] classes instead! it's less expensive than a degree!' im broke #my only learning resource is the library sorry about that #also this is not the post to give me unwarranted financial advice #finances are one of the topics I DO NOT care about and I WILL NOT listen to a word you say

[forestofdragons]

Seen a couple posts now about using a crab rave to try and save tumblr and i’m a bit on the fence…

On one hand tumblr is likely making these terrible choices entirely because of how unprofitable this site is. So whether we like it or not throwing some money at it is probably a decent solution.

But then there’s no guarantee. One week long crab rave probably won’t be enough to keep tumblr afloat for long. And many people have good reason to not be spending even just 3$ for digital crabs. That might not even sway staffs mind anyway.

Not to mention that both the posts i’ve seen about this have been made by christians. Which isn’t a problem by itself of course. But one of them is straight up a sexist transphobic forced birther. The other seems fine, might have some weird views on porn, but probably not a bigot like the first?

Still i am hesitant on going with a plan endorsed by someone like the first one… but it’s also been shared by people i know aint like that…

#rambles #idk #I might still do it #i spare 3 dollars for a site i soend hours a day on #to last a bit longer #at the very least so I can find somewhere #else to go before it crashes #maybe get adblock instead #been getting terrible blazed post lately #but again idk #its not till the end of july #so i have time to decide

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !! #& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

[beybuniki]

AU where Deku stays quirkless and he enrolls in UA's support department, he and bakugo befriend each other because they take the same train to school & Deku approaches him because they're both batfam fans :) they bond over common interest which also inspires them to work togetherrrrrr

#the canon event of bakugo bullying deku does not happen & i am usually not a fan of that its so crucial to them but this is a fun nerd au #they team up as either vigilantes or stay connected because bakugo interns under heroes that deku is also doing an apprenticeship under ig #deku is still connected to all might idk maybe thats his biological father for real this time or like he can be their bruce idk #anyway i think they'd be so fun as a duo i'd love to see deku navigatebattles and crimes without a quirk #and they have nerd discourse in their free time ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww #bnha #midoriya izuku #bakugo katsuki #deku #mei is deku's best friend in this universe :) #she covers for them when needed they rlly should be vigilantes sorry