#Why is so much wrong with me

[i-may-be-an-emu]

tw gender dysphoria vent poem thing

I dont feel at home in my body

It used to me that it wasn't mine

Now I see a fragmented glimmer of who I could be

But he's so far away

And parts of my body are still wrong

They disgust me

#transgender #ftm #transmasc #trans #nonbinary #tw gender dysphoria #poetry #Kinda #tw vent ish #cw vent #gender dysphoria #dysphoria vent #Depersonalisation could also be A Thing #I learnt abt it today and yeah #Im so broken #Why is so much wrong with me #Its ok #Seriously #but yeah #Idk #Im ok though

[penny-anna]

fanfiction writers when a character is remotely non-human

#just came across this in the owl house fandom #i love u guys but why so much purring #like don't get me wrong. i have also written this #but why

[stoopidstapler]

SO IVE BEEN GOIN INSANE SINCE THIS TRAILER DROPPED. JUST. SIMON. SIMON. SIMON.

#simon petrikov #fionna and cake #adventure time #goin insane over him #thers no words to describe how im feelin #i wish i could draw somehtin better but i am goin INSANE #FINALLY. AFTER ALL THESE YEARS. we are being FED. #ALSO?? HOW THEY SHOWED HIM EXACTLY WHEN THE LYRICS GO ''WHATS WRONG WITH ME'. LIKE HELLO??????? #ive seen so many good theories PLEASE GOD WRITE FICS I AM BEGGIN I LL DRAW U FANART BLS HEL P #IDK WOT IM GONNA DO FOR A WHOLE MONTH #SOMEONE KNOCK ME OUT TIL THE 31ST. HIBERNATE ME. HELP. #also i need to put it out there the first thing i thought when i saw this trailer was simon is tryina rewrite fionna and cake #which is why their world keeps changin so much? idk idk #ive seen so many different ideas and they are all so good please help #ALSO GOD. THIS MAN IS JUST GOIN THRU IT. AND ITS ONLY BEEN A QUICK TRAILER. #im sorry for so many tags idk where to put these help #maybe i should make an actual blog for like. whatever. n reblogs. help.

[thedreadvampy]

Losing my shit about this article in which a transphobic Tory was so busy panicking about existing in the vicinity of a Trans that she almost certainly misheard "jeans" as "penis" and decided that not only was this a problem with the other woman, but also that the world must be informed of this pressing danger.

"a trans woman! I had to stand directly behind her....I thought, 'this is going well', I'm handling The Situation fine'..."

translated: I saw a tall woman with broad shoulders. How would I get out of this alive? I thought. she has a PENIS. PENIS PENIS PENIS. through some force of PENIS I mean will I managed to PENIS behave normally towards her. My hands were PENIS PENIS PENIS shaking as I tried to dry them. summoning up all my PENIS courage I said 'dryer's crap innit'. she turned to me and said " yeah I'm just goiPENIS PENIS PENIS"

It's been a week and I'm still shaking. This proves trans women are the problem and I'm not weird. I'm fine. It's fine. If you think about it I'm the hero hePENIS!!!!!

very this

#red said #it's just. I'm obsessed. #everyone on Twitter is saying 'never happened' and i think they're wrong #this absolutely did happen and she's been obsessing over how vindicated it made her feel enough to WRITE AN ARTICLE ABOUT IT #because she MISHEARD SOMEONE IN A CASUAL CONVERSATION #i lay out my reasoning thusly: if you were INVENTING a scary trans woman in bathroom story out of nothing. why would it be this? #why would you go with 'we had a banal conversation until she said a sentence that makes no sense and that no human has ever uttered #but which does coincidentally sounds almost exactly like a mishearing of a very NORMAL thing to say in the circumstances #then she left and nothing else occurred' #if you were going to INVENT a story you would probably make it MAKE SENSE or SOUND THREATENING #i truly believe this is a very authentically told account of what she thinks happened #because who would. by means other than mishearing. think 'I'm going to wipe my hands on my penis' makes any sense at all. #a) 'I'm going to dry my hands on my genitals' says the presumably fully clothed woman #b) who then proceeds to leave without doing anything threatening #c) WHO SAYS PENIS THREATENINGLY? sorry it's writing out 'penis' repeatedly that made this jump out to me but like. who says that? #you might hear someone talk casually about their dick or cock but i stg it's only doctors and TERFs who casually use the word penis much #it's so. clinically descriptive. it's a weird use of language. but it IS. something you could plausibly mishear from 'pants' or 'trousers'

[willowser]

i really think having an emotional connection is so important to bakugou sexually.

like, i think he has to be in the exact right mood in order to get off by himself at home alone. can't be too tired, can't be too stressed out, can't have too much on his mind regarding work or other things, and even if it's been a while and his body is sensitive and wanting for it—if his head is not right, he can sit there for hours and never reach his peak.

which is why i think ultimately he doesn't do it that often, because it pisses him off to waste the time and not find the release. makes him more agitated. i think porn for the most part doesn't help him because he's too picky, literature probably helps a bit more, but he's still picky, and his imagination can get him there, but his headspace has to be right.

i think he's slow to hands-on stuff, when your relationship starts, and you can tell he's going to be like that pretty quickly. he responds to your touch like it's an accident; you reach out to hold his hand and he pulls his back like your knuckles have knocked by chance, like you're too close. it's not meant to be a rejection of any kind, it's just—he doesn't want you to touch him if you don't want to. if you don't mean to.

but when he realizes that you mean to, that you want to—

it has him skyrocketing. surprises him terribly, the affect you have on his body, and how quickly, because not even he can always have that affect on his own body.

you reach up to push some hair out of his face and your fingers skirt his cheekbone and he feels like a stupid gross disgusting puddle of mush. you loop your arm through his and lean into him while you're walking and he feels like a prize, like he's yours and you're his and you want everybody to know and that gives him a rush of pride that makes his head woozy.

he's dropping you off at home after date number he-doesn't-know and you're staring up at him outside your front door and he knows he should kiss you so he does and his whole body lights up with a heat he doesn't recognize at all. just from that.

and then he finally gets it: that heart-aching, stomach turning, body shaking want he's only ever heard about, and now finally feels.

#UGH you make him feel like he's going insane #he's laying in bed at night wide awake staring at the ceiling wondering if there's something wrong with him LOL #should he be thinking about you this much ? it can't be healthy to think about you THIS MUCH right ? #something HAS to be wrong with him bc why is he thinking about you smiling at him and laughing at some not-funny joke you made and #WANTING TO RIP OUT OF HIS SKIN RAAAAHHHHH #he wants to blast himself into the sun he's CRAZY #oh man i love him so #HE makes ME insane #✿ thoughts: bakugou

[some-internet-stranger]

The champions!

#this took forEVER to make #ok ok it was like 4 hours #but still #love them so much ahh #WHY IS DARUK SO HARD TO DRAW THO #like I thought Revali was a challenge #and he was dont get me wrong #but daruk ahh #maybe i should practice drawing non human characters more often??? #huh well whatevs #zelda #botw #tloz #fanart #mipha #urbosa #revali #daruk #botw champions

[fryday]

it's the way "you're not gonna want your dinner" was 110% an offscreen interaction. dan's voice went super quiet (only directed to phil, not for the mic to pick up). his light disappointment/admonishment/fondness was totally genuine, not played up, and was obviously addressing something they've been through a thousand times before (but again, this was neither explained nor exaggerated - it wasn't delivered for the audience's sake). and then phil's immediate, unbothered "i am" while staring blankly into space before he looked at the camera and turned it into the disappointed grandma joke (@manchesterau pointed this out!). we witnessed a full, offscreen, completely domestic moment between them and how blessed are we

#at this point i'm gonna get “you're not gonna want your dinner” tattooed on me with no context #and in the future my kids will see it and think i did it for their sake to remind them not to snack #when really i did it bc some gay youtuber very fondly warned his husband not to snack and forever altered my brain chemistry #wtf is wrong with me actually why do i care so much about this HAHA #anyway #dan and phil #dnp #rambles

[dreadark]

that ivan loves till is the most obvious thing about them

but. does ivan know that…?

the ivan that regards his own feelings as shallow, the ivan that learned how emotions are expressed only from copying others… does he even know that the love he’s felt for so long is love? probably not. and part of the reason is the one he loves himself

because the easiest example he has of love is till's feelings to mizi. till outright calls it love, and ivan watches him so much he has to be aware of this and till’s love to mizi is totally unselfish, right. he doesn’t seem to actually want much from her—just that she's still there and still "mizi"

but ivan can't be satisfied with just watching he… wants. ivan wants till’s attention, till’s affection—

surely this selfish wanting can’t be love

...no wonder he was never able to express his feelings straightforwardly when he belittles them so much but he can’t stand not having anything either, so he does… whatever he does instead to get any scraps of attention he can, from someone he's convinced doesn't care about him at all only showing affection when till can't see it, right until he knows he's going to die

but ivan's feelings for till are all he still has of himself... to think of them as shallow...

I've seen this translated as "I should've been kinder" to him (till) or to her (sua)

but really, the one he should've been kinder to was himself

#alien stage #alnst #alnst ivan #ivantill #i have a lot of thoughts on till -> mizi too but this is long enough #just attempting to rewrite my twt rambles more coherently #idk why i wrote this so dramatically tho... #'thank you for being the victim of my shallow emotions' is going to haunt me to my grave #ivan's character is just a careful balance between his natural freak nature and his extreme depths of self-loathing #making him the most miserable guy ever #...really once you realize so much of what went wrong is thanks to ivan just hating himself too much to even think of them as friends. well #c...can we bring him back... don't die like this..... #(also you know. with the implications of how 'pets' are treated #wanting someone physically must feel... even more wrong

[demeterdefence]

even ignoring everything else wrong with lore olympus (which in itself feels impossible) there is just something really egregious and insulting at the way a "modern retelling" over an ancient greek myth just full-heartedly whitewashes the entire culture and mythos.

and it's not like rachel is the first to do it - greek myths and legends have been whitewashed for centuries, depictions of the gods have been categorically stripped of their ethnicity and origins long before rachel got a hold of them. it's the fact that rachel goes out of her way to insult the original myths whenever she can, that she emphasizes and pushes a western-centric mindset and viewpoint over and over and over and not only reinforces the whitewashing, but continues it down the line.

like, this is the first episode.

rachel goes out of her way to mock the original styles and wardrobes of the ancient greek world, and i get her attempt was to make persephone feel "out of place" with the more "modern" clothing that the other gods wear, but it really just does more to a) demonize demeter, who is almost always in traditional clothing, b) sexualize persephone.

go even broader with it, move away from the clothing itself, and rachel doesn't even bother to use any of the ancient traditions that are core to the myths. like for the love of god, she uses a christian wedding for persephone and hades!

greece is the birthplace of modern democracy and had a powerful judicial system, and rachel instead uses the modern / western iteration of court because ... why not

(completely unrelated but the inserts of everyone except eros and aphrodite come from the stupid zoom session zeus had back when he first charged persephone with treason, meaning we have proof yet again that rachel isn't drawing the characters into the scene, she's making pngs and sticking them into pre-arranged backgrounds downloaded from stock images)

and there are ten thousand more examples i could pull, because this is just the whole entire comic. you can look at a lot of modern adaptions and see where things have been modernized respectfully, and where they are done with disdain for the source material - no one is claiming percy jackson, for example, is perfect, but the author took a great deal of care in his research, and the love for the original myths and culture shine through. lore olympus has zero respect for the original stories, exemplified in how rachel demonizes demeter - the actual crux of the myth. it's bad writing and bad research and further attempts to whitewash a rich and storied culture that had people from so many walks of life, who existed in full spectrum of lgbt identity, who did not conform or even know of the world that exists today. you can modernize without erasing it, and rachel's refusal to do so is one of the many issues tacked to lore olympus.

#anti lo #anti lore olympus #i didn't grab the best screencaps bc there was literally so many to choose from lmao #but the wedding always bothered me SO much #ur in ancient greece!!! why are u doing this!!! #like i don't think it's wrong per SAY to have phones or tech in a story about ancient cultures #provided you explain how / why they're there #but of course there is ZERO world building in lore olympus

[kittynette]

*marinette noises intensify*

marinette’s voice appreciation post because i’ve never seen one on tumblr<3

#name: marinette. best quality: her screeches<3 #miraculous ladybug #marinette dupain cheng #ladybug #everyone’s always praising adrien’s voice actor and for a good reason don’t get me wrong! but no one ever talks about #marinette’s voice actress #and how good she is #like. she IS marinette. i can’t even imagine her not sounding like this #i mean i personally find her voice super pleasant to listen to #even when she’s stuttering even when she’s screeching even when she’s making strange noises #i’ve loved her voice since the start #she can sound angry and sweet and determined but never annoying even when the character is supposed to sound a bit crazy #and she never uses a fake high-pitched tone #i mean. she sounds like a real person. #so i can’t understand why she doesn’t get that much love from the fandom?? #because really #who’s doing it like her #video #mine

[p4nishers]

there's something i need to say and yall can boo me for it but deep in my heart i'll always know i'm correct: crowley already forgave aziraphale. like already would take him back at one flutter of his eyelashes. that's all.

#do i wish he wouldn't forgive so easily (tho i don't actually think aziraphale needs forgiveness since he didn't do anything wrong and #actually without his decision their love story would've been stuck as it was for more than 6000 years and also heaven would never change #without someone dismantling it and making it new) #yes i do wish that and i also wish he'd learn self worth but we gotta be realistic here he never once been able to stay mad at aziraphale #all those times they had fights where aziraphale was (mostly) in the wrong and rejected crowley what did crowley do? immediately come #CRAWLING and BEGGING back like pls yall this is why i don't read post s2 fics bc everyone suddenly seems to forget their whole canon #personalities and history w each other and it's annoying me so much like i get that we all are hoping crowley learns from his mistakes and #stops being so easy for aziraphale (not me tho) but realistically speaking it's just not gonna happen and once again aziraphale DIDN'T. DO. #ANYTHING. WRONG. yes he hurt crowley with his decision but CROWLEY HURT HIM WITH HIS TOO so if yall wants an apology dance it's gonna turn #into a waltz cause they'd both need to do it #good omens #good omens s2 #azicrow #crowley #aziraphale #aziracrow #ineffable spouses #good omens season 2 #ineffable husbands #go s2

[heartorbit]

creatures

#project sekai #pjsk #prsk #emu otori #nene kusanagi #tsukasa tenma #queuing this for like 6 in the morning dont let me fool you into thinking i woke up this early #im sorry posting at like 7pm feels so wrong. people are up at 7pm. dont like that #'why didnt you draw rui' Well why is rui so hard to draw. Anybody ever think of that. #I still havent finished that wxs nene gaming art i used as an example in my comms sheetbc i dont wanna have to render rui #Yes wxs are all my favorites. Yes that includes rui. Yes im tiering 3k in his event rn. No i wont figure out his hair #get that glowstick of a woman out of my face. He needs to het an alt hairstyle i cna draw. #sorry what was i tagging again. um. Whatever aHiiiii #WAIT #emukasa #YAAAAY #im a polyshower but theyre the only ones i drew together so enjoy yuri #i found a cute blog theme that also hides tags under a hover so i can say as much as i want and nobody can be annoyed #If you choose to look at my dastardly tags after i hid them away thats on you

[olibensstuff]

Thinking about the ablum redraw mm advertisement again💔💔💔

Eureka!

#WHY WASNT THERE A WEEZER ONE WE WERE ROBBED #I SPELLED EUREKA WRONG #goodbye forever #I love them so much #ill do something with actual line art soon I prommy #tmnt #art #mutant mayhem #tmnt mm #donatello #leonardo #raphael #michelangello #mm leo #mm donnie #mm mikey #mm raph #I finally got down my mm designs #So I can draw them comfortably now yippee #Mikes me fav to draw rn i think #Next to Leo i will always love mm leo #All of them are super fun to draw actually tehee

[sakivsiil]

Can we talk about the amount of claustrophobia TSC must have please

They just keep putting him in selectable boxes he can be controlled in

And then actual boxes like goddamn id be so done with small places

This isn't even the first time there's always been a problem with TSC and boxes

Free my boy ;-;

#alan becker #animation vs animator #ava #the second coming #animator vs animation #he did nothing wrong #free him #Please he's just a silly guy #Why does alan becker feel the need to traumatise his characters so much #(me too though) #(this is relatable) #(please give him more trauma) #ava 6

[lavender-rroses]

//JRWI RIPTIDE SPOILERS

talk to us

#jrwi riptide #jrwi #jrwi fanart #gillion tidestrider #jrwi chip #jay ferin #jrwi riptide spoilers #haven’t decided for realsies if i like this one but it’s ok #i’ll definitely find something wrong with it after i post #they mean so much to me #like…they love each other 😭 so much😭 i want them to be happy😭 #albatrio #ok here’s some little things #jays leg is straight cuz i can’t imagine she can bend it all that much #chip has some gray streaks cuz i think he lost some melanin when he came back to life (rip) #that’s also why his freckles are gone #also also he doesn’t have a little highlight in his eye. his zest for life 😞 gone #gill i think likes to wrap his tail around people he trusts and he wants to give some comfort to chip #and they’re both leaning on him/touching him to warm him up #im so excited for the next ep it’s crazy #also 110? crazy episode the tree was so funny #lavrose art

[lgbtlunaverse]

The thing that really gets me about xiyao. that will never NOT get me about xiyao. Is that they met in circumstances where for just a moment their respective stations in society didn't matter. Not to each other. Their relationship started outside of social conventions. And they spend the next 17 years trying to preserve that time, that relationship outside of society. And society crept in anyway.

#mdzs #lan xichen #meng yao #jin guangyao #xiyao #rs: i wish it could've been you #it's the TRAGEDY of it all #oh god maybe this is why cql xiyao doesn't do it as much for me despite the fact the fact they are just. so gay. #because SO MUCH about xiyao and how they work can be traced back to how they met #like down to xichen's stubborn willingnes to always believe the best in jgy and his 'i believe you had your reasons' mentality #because that? 'sometimes the wrong thing to do is actually the right thing because the situation is desperate' #that's a lesson he had to learn ON THE RUN FROM THE WEN. he had to leave his own people to die. that's a lesson he learned WITH MENG YAO #and that line of thinking thereby becomes irrevocably tied to meng yao #and changing their first meeting and pushing back that little wartime romance changes so much #it's still tasty but it's not THIS