#about chapter 9

[tartarduck]

words about tot chapter 9

Gave myself a solid day to stew in my thoughts about ch9 and I just want to say that mihoyo is EVIL for timing it right before the anniversary. I don't know if I can be happy knowing Luke is suffering all alone in every conceivable universe other than his personal story/card timeline.

Point 1: How the chapter explored Luke's feelings of guilt for... Existing I guess?

I've been eagerly awaiting the reveal of Luke's survivor's guilt. The whole [wanting spirits to exist so he can at least apologise, or do SOMETHING, but knowing they don't] is such exquisite angst. I'm very happy they took the effort to write it in (though fortune tellers actually scare me in real life).

And now onto the related Point 2: Luke's feelings of guilt for literally everything else

I was reading through Luke's birthday greetings, and realised how often he calls himself greedy for literally wanting anything. God damn, SHE IS YOUR GIRLFRIEND IT'S NOT GREEDY OF YOU TO WANT TO SPEND TIME WITH HER --

That aside, it comes back to the theme of Luke Pearce's thought process, which in my brain goes a little something like this:

Good thing happens -> I do not deserve this

Bad thing happens -> It is completely my fault and no one else's

Which, might I add, vaguely reminded me of something from a lecture I forgot from my psych undergrad years. I'm worried for you, Luke. Please, Dr Yishmir, refer him to one of your colleagues for mental health.

In his personal 'route', he finally starts to come around with the idea that sometimes bad things... just happen and it's no one's fault (thank you, strategically placed rainbow in iridescent heartbeat). But in the main story? He's been feeling guilty ever since he saw MC after avoiding her for YEARS. There's no Aaron meddling with the two of them, or MC helping him clean his mess of a house to kick-start a card story. This is the man who hid in the attic after sending his confession after a YEAR of dates with MC -- the main story doesn't even give him a chance to start forgiving himself.

Basically, Luke Pearce is a mess in the main story, because everything that makes him un-messy happens by pure chance.

Point 3: Luke's black and white thinking of good and bad

One of the highlights of this chapter for me was Luke's anecdote about him faking a cold so MC would go out with her other friends and forget about him. Now, that's all well and good until he compares himself to the mum with Munchausen's syndrome, who is the closest thing we get to a 'villain' in this chapter. On top of his guilt, this whole I'm either a good or completely bad person mindset is really not doing favours for his mental health.

His anecdote also happens to be an interesting parallel to shape of you, because I remember Luke specifically wished to be forgotten in that card. He wants what's best for MC (because he thinks that he's taking everyone's love from her) but he also wants something for himself. And because he doesn't believe he's able to do both, but also because he isn't able to let go of his 'selfishness' sometimes, he thinks he's an awful person.

And now, to the last to do in my rant agenda.

Point 4: what happens in chapter 12. (Spoilers for CN server, but only about the Luke scene)

1. Ohmygod. He's going to run away. I can't see main story Luke NOT blaming himself for nearly hurting the MC. In whichever timeline, his priority is to keep her safe, and god, if he thinks he's a danger to her, the only way to keep her safe would be by disappearing again.

2. I'm going to read too much into this but MC trying to get Luke to recognise her while she's being pinned to the ground is such delectable angst. He's always worried that she'd forget about him -- whether it was the 8 years or literally just hanging out with other kids at school. But here she is, in a situation where he's essentially forgotten about her. The voice that my brain concocted up for MC was extra desperate in that scene.

Anyway, that's all I had to say about the recent main story developments in ToT. Keep the angst coming, writing staff. What a power move to send this out right before anniversary on BOTH servers. If there's anything I've taken away from this, it's that Luke stans are absolutely unhinged. Twitter circle people, I see you requesting more angst. How can we get even angstier than Luke nearly hurting MC while he's dressed in the outfit that he wears for his proposal card ??

#a long rant #about chapter 9 #tears of themis #just text #and i wrote this completely on my phone in one sitting so forgive any spelling/grammar errors #i needed to just . get this out

[cherrywhite]

Silt Verses protagonists // Returning Home

#the silt verses #hi just realized carpenter and faulkner's returning home episodes are both chapter 9 of s2 and 3 respectively #idk what to do with this info #anyway something that makes me deeply emotional about this #just the way all of them return to it #paige expecting to come home to an empty abandoned place. surprised to find what's there. seeing the land as unpredictable. #carpenter knowing of the ruin of her previous childhood home. haunted more by the people she left behind. finding no comfort in being back. #faulkner being optimistic. saying perhaps his home could be a temple one day. this is the safest place i could be he says #(and I can't help but think about faulkner leaving marks before he left his home. so that no one else could find a home there.) #(both paige and faulkner returning home when they have no where else to go) #hayward looking up at his old home fondly. there's nothing left for him there. nothing he can find that he doesn't already have. #let her have the lie of me he says.

[chloesimaginationthings]

Based Jodio

#myart #chloesimagination #jojo bizarre adventure #jjba fanart #jjba #comic #jodio joestar #jojolands #JoJo part 9 #he said this in the new chapter #Jodio really did pull the minor card and he’s so real for that #the best thing about jodio is he really acts 15 💀

[fromtheseventhhell]

George did not write Arya naming babies in Winterfell and taking care of a child in the middle of a WARZONE just for y'all to say she's not going to end up with kids/family because she's "not that type of character" 😒

#arya stark #asoiaf #a character centered around family and /pack/ who spent the entire story wanting to return home to/with her family isn't #going to end up with a family of her own (outside of siblings) because she doesn't want to be a trad-wife...okay #she was 9 years old on the run and worrying about how to fix Weasel's hair can we bffr for two seconds #Weasel latching onto Arya's leg...Arya using her name as an alias in Harrenhal...that's literally mother and daughter #impact so great she has her future love interest taking care of kids in her memory when he initially wanted to leave weasel #which is funny because people always want to project onto Gendry as the /family man/ type who has to convince Arya when it's the opposite #Arya is going to have a romance and family as a non-conforming woman on her own terms and I think that's beautiful #the unfeeling detached persona y'all try to project onto her is never going to stick she literally thrives off of community #it's very obvious when you speak on a character without having read their chapters btw

[artingstarvist]

Chapter 3 / 14 "Anger & Frustration"

Summary: Hua Cheng grapples with his anger issues; Xie Lian grapples with his language issues.

Additional Tags: Coffin Rescue, Coffin AU, AU - Canon Divergence, AU - Different First Meeting, Hurt/Comfort, Angst with a Happy Ending, Identity Reveal, Revenge Plot, POV Alternating, Blood and Injury, Dream-Reality Confusion, Canon-Typical Violence, Hua Cheng AND Xie Lian have Self Esteem issues, Hua Cheng & Xie Lian Invented Love, Slow Burn, Mutual Pining, Hua Cheng bout to make it 34 gods

Chapter 3 is up! Also forcing you to look at actual post-coffin Xie Lian I'm so, so sorry lmao. What have I done to my beautiful boyyy.

(I keep having to remind myself he canonically did get stuffed into a coffin for many years I'm actually doing him a favor in this fic)

Oh also, I updated the tags a bit now that I got the rough draft done. This one definitely counts as Slow Burn and Mutual Pining. 😁

#tgcf #tgcf fanfic #hualian #heaven official's blessing #tgcf fanart #things I did not think about when I started this: I have to draw a whole lot of Corpse!XL #it aint easy but this is my life until like chapter 9 lmao #my fic #my art #tgcf wed continues

[feuer-bluete]

Having never played rdr1, switching from Arthur to John was hard and it took me about 100hours just to get used to him and another 100 to grow fond of him. But now he is my special boy just like Arthur. 🧡

#i am in the middle of my second playthrough but yesterday and today i took a break and went to my original save to spent some time with John #and his horse Unshaken #rdr2 john #john marston #rdr2 #rdr #rdr2 arthur #arthur morgan #red dead #red dead redemption #red dead redemption 2 #red dead redemption two #for anyone wondering it took me about 350 hours to play chapter 1-6 #about 500 till I had not only the 100% but also the compendium full #and a bit more for the last achievements #then i did nothing important for a bit and started my rerun at like 700 hours? #now i am at 960h of rdr2 #in 9 months

[heartofalifer]

sometimes I lay at night thinking what exactly did daisy write in the description of alec hardy's tinder profile and what pictures did she use that made her think that could get women to swipe right on him. was it selfies? was it candid photos she took? was alec wearing that blue jumper on and reading a paper with his legs crossed in the photos? I need to know

#alec hardy #broadchurch #because if i saw alec hardy wearing The Blue Jumper #with glasses on and reading a paper #and that photo was a side profile of that #i would have swiped right IMMEDIATELY #funny tho #because then afterwards ill google him up #and karen white's article about him will definitely come up #and turn all potential suitors away #also im having a writer's block #i AM STUCK TRYING TO FINISH WRITING CHAPTER 9 of this fic im writing urghhhhhhhhhhhh #david tennant #look #david tennant is a very good looking man #but if i saw Alec Hardy in real life in a universe where i dont know how DT looks like #i would look at him and scowl #“dafuq u mean he's in charge” #man cant even trim his beard or iron out his suit #also that princeloww post about the tinder convo led me up to these thoughts so thanks for that i guess #alec hardy is tumblrs resident grumpy wet cat #h: broadchurch

[soaps-mohawk]

"A good Omega kneels for their Alpha," "But a good Alpha kneels for his Omega."

Uhm hello???? I love that line??? It holds so much m power for me

Fun fact: I actually wrote that line while working on Chapter 9. So that was the first line I wrote for this chapter. I think it might be the best line I've ever written.

#i'm so glad someone brought it up because I've been thinking about it since chapter 9 lmaoo #answered

[islandoforder]

i'm sorry i'm sorry i know my 911 posting is like years out of date but they really had buck say "i've been ana" to eddie's face and i'm supposed to feel normal and platonic about it??

#9-1-1 #911 #evan buckley #buck buckley #eddie diaz #ana flores #buddie #like i am trying so hard to finish this stupid phd chapter in the next two days and i have been not logging on for idk how long like a week #and i saw this episode probably also about a week ago and YET #i cannot stop thinking about this #if they were not trying to do a slowburn what are they trying to do #am i actually getting queerbaited by the weewoo show or am i just impatient

[chandralia]

Bakugo Katsuki.

#this week. #LISTEN TO ME CHAPTER 396… 3+9+6 = 18 AND I SWEAR TO GOD IF HE DOESNT LIVE TO BE THAT AGE #😭😭 #I cannot BELIEVE it’s been ONE YEAR… a full year??? like 12 FULL MONTHS SOON TO BE 365 DAYS?!???? #like genuinely a FULL YEAR #????? #ALL FOUR SEASONS AND EVERYTHING?!?!?? #OUR PLANET WENT AROUND THE SUN #what about Deku’s sun huh??? the light of his life??? his other half??? his—dare I say—soulmate??? #how am I still processing #I’ve had a year to do it shdkdhsjkddh #THIS IS STILL UNREAL TO ME #bkdk #dkbk #bakudeku #dekubaku #:’)

[eldritch-ambrosia]

WIP Ask Game

I've seen a few posts like this and wanted to give it a try!

Here's are the titles/brief ideas for my current wip Merlin fics. If you're interested, feel free to ask about the one that intrigues you the most and I'll post a snippet or say something about it!

The Wedding Knight (Merwaine, Explicit)

secret relationship rumors (Merthur)

pwp, Your Eyes Glow Ch 2 (Merthur, Mature/Explicit)

carving wooden dragons as gifts (Mercelot)

arthur returns after five years (Merwenthur)

whump, love triangle, Waiting on You Ch 6 (Merthur)

Rival Princes AU (Merthur)

Cowboy Gang AU (Merwaine)

pwp in the rain/temple, Eye of the Storm (Merthur)

Artist/Secret Wealthy Patron AU (Merthur, Explicit)

ygraine is summoned

searching for Emerys (Merthur)

#rosewrites #rosewip #bbc merlin #bbc merthur #merthur #merwaine #merlin #arthur pendragon #sir gwaine #guinevere #mercelot #merwenthur #wip #currently bouncing around my wips #so 9 and 6 have chapters currently being worked on #but my inspo is darting around and I wanna talk about my other plans and ideas! #been writing so much this year but i haven't posted much since jan #i may also be finishing one at the top of the list rn so it may be out tonight #fanfiction #my writing

[tightjeansjavi]

I’m literally fucking throwing up right now!!!!!😭😭😭

#i can’t do this #she’s his babygirl in every universe 😭😭 #joel & ellie #the rite of movement #chapter 9 #sneak peek #no I won’t shut up about this #joel miller #ellie williams

[the-kr8tor]

Chapter 9 sneak peek 👀

(warning: WIP)

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Update will be on Saturday, hopefully 🤞

#bdas #katy mumbles #katy updates #9 is very dialogue heavy and lots of character development for them #*me* oh this might not be a long chapter based on my notes. *also me* 5k and just about halfway done 👁️👄👁️

[mxtxfanatic]

So i was reading a wangxian fic last night, and it started out great: wwx ran away from yunmengjiang and ended up in the cloud recesses and met lwj and they became friends. I got super excited cuz it was very promising, but then a couple chapters in jc appears and then they do the whole “oh no wwx and jc love each other, they are best bros, wwx left because he didn’t want to cause his siblings pain by them having to be associated with him, jc begs his beloved brother to come back because he will always have a home in lotus pier, etc” and I immediately wanted to throw the whole fic away, but i guess im a masochist (and honestly it’s so freaking hard to find a good wx fic that doesn’t somehow involve the homophobic grape) and kept reading.

That was a mistake, long story short the whole thing ended with both wwx and lwj being best of friends with jc, lsz loving his grape uncle who’s the best and just so amazing and them all living happily ever after. Im so disappointed in myself for reading that crap 😩

Wish I could find that post someone wrote about how in mdzs fics, when Jiang Cheng shows up, the plot and all characters warp to accommodate him. No matter how in-character everything and everyone is, once Jiang Cheng enters the scene, it becomes the most ridiculous fanon mess that breaks even the logic of the story that the fic writer, themself, set up. Op was so real for that.

#mdzs asks #anon #still remembering the fic where the whole conflict was jc explicitly (and overtly homophobically) rejecting wwx’s wish to get married #and wwx fought him on it THE WHOLE STORY #but then in the last chapter jc cries about how he just wants wwx’s life to revolve around him #so wangxian agree that lwj THE HEIR OF ANOTHER CLAN should marry into lp #so wwx can continue to prioritize jc #despite that entitement being THE conflict of the story let me remind you #9 chapters of conflict just to end on the most ridiculous ooc ‘happily ever after’ #because the author couldn’t commit to jc not being entitled to wwx’s life

[eerna]

honestly Noragami deserves some kind of an award for being the most intense downward spiral of "it can't get any worse than THIS, right???" I've ever read. I haven't known peace since Kazuma did that stupid spell on Yukine and it's only gone downwards from there

#we're on the FINAL CHAPTER. like even if it is twice the length of an usual chapter it is still the LAST ONE. #and THINGS HAVE NEVER BEEN FRIGGIN WORSE. #isn't the final chapter supposed to WIND THINGS DOWN and DEAL THE FINAL BLOW TO THE VILLAIN and then be DEDICATED TO WHERE ARE THEY NOW #so WHY are we doing THIS then. #noragami liveblog #noragami spoilers #like 10000 times over the past 9 years i've made the ''adachitoka when i said i wanted X to happen i didn't mean it like THIS'' joke and it #just keeps. happening again. yatori meets again after half a decade and it's only so that she can be MURDERED IN FRONT OF HIM #WHILE HE IS SCREAMING AND BLAMING HIMSELF AND THINKING ABOUT SAKURA AND HOW HE GOT HER KILLED TOO #YUKINE WATCHED IT HAPPEN BUT COULD ONLY BARK IN PAIN #and not only that. the GODS ARE KILLING PEOPLE THE SHINKI ARE STINGING THEIR MASTERS LEFT AND RIGHT #I HATE THIS. THIS IS SO EVIL. I AM SO SAD. #anyway hiyori better be fake dead. this better not be happening. idc if her return is unrealistic i dont CARE she CANNOT DIE

[mtndw-whteout]

Should I be thinking of one off fics for my au? Probably not!

Am I going to write them even tho I'm not finished with the main one? Absolutely!

#the listless #atlas thinks things #my brain is churning #UNLESS placing in backstories works well with the main fic #atm they dont #but who knows! #god i just wanna tell some1 the entire plot so i can ramble about the backstories #slamming my head against the wall #falls to knees in wallgreens #sobs #lolol #also main fic is planned to only be like 9 chapters long #eheh heh :(