#and has constant nightmares

[comradekatara]

my greatest flaw is that i would lowkey ship sokka/azula if i wasn’t so convinced that azula is a lesbian. bc just think about it. they’re both these hyper logical calculating masterminds with debilitating perfectionist complexes to hide their perceived worthlessness, so they’re constantly achieving, and while they never feel any real joy in winning, they get actually suicidal the second they fail at anything. they think everyone who can’t keep up with them is some sort of idiot because they refuse to live in a world where they are in fact more intelligent than most people, including the adults around them. they love making the most insufferable puns you’ve ever heard and get offended if no one laughs. they have daddy issues and mommy issues. they share so many of the things they have wrong with them. so like. just imagine how amazingly awful they would be as a couple. they would indisputably make each other worse , but in the most disastrously entertaining way possible.

#they would be SUCH a terrible couple. they would take over the world together. it would be awesome #pretty much every water / fire ship configuration involves them making each other worse #katara & zuko also have too many flaws in common #and katara & azula doesn’t work on any level but is SO juicy #both despite and because of that #the only exception is that sokka & zuko do make each other better unfortunately #I wish it could be a perfect quadrant delivering four different flavors of Nightmare Couple #but unfortunately zukka would work. really well actually #like canonically #azulasokka is still the funniest possible one tho #and I still think their friendship has the potential to be so awesome #just constant wordplay and bitching about idiots #toph mentions in passing what a trainwreck it would be if they ever dated #and sokka laughs until he cries while azula chuckles but is secretly thinking ‘why is that so funny? i would be a perfect gf...’ #azula #sokka #azula&sokka #unique kind of post for sokklas AND antisokklas #schrodingers sokkla

[embras-grace]

It's time to rant about my human in Palia: Ori Tian

He is awful and I love him. You can learn more about my human under the cut! This information is not spoiler free as his character changes over time as we learn more about the world.

Ori Tian || He/Him They/Them || 29-30 || The Watcher

Ori's history makes more sense with a few key points (some of which are spoilers you learn when talking to folks/exploring the world):

Kilima was built on the ruins of an ancient human school (I think of it as a university)

The ruins were where humans were forced to go by the human king (the Fire Temple lore) where it seems they were getting more and more ridiculous orders. I consider this to be when humanity's downfall was fast approaching.

The disaster that killed the humans was not just Flow (which I see as a global warming metaphor) but also an attack from Shadow Creatures (the Library you unlock with Jina).

The human downfall took hundreds if not thousands of years until they finally died out. They didn't go out with a bang, but with a painful whimper.

All humans have innate magical abilities. Some humans spend their whole lives learning how to tap into them, others are born with a close connection.

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Human Life

Ori was a professor at the university and the dean of the humanities department which happened to be part of the school's administration. Their specialty was ethics and mortality, especially when it came to magic and Flow. They helped students organize various clubs and organizations inside the school, as well as supporting them during walk-outs or demonstrations against the king for trying to force people into "safety areas" to "wait out the danger" instead of facing the problem head on and cleaning up the mess humans had made that was destroying their world.

To students, Ori was known as the laid-back professor who was easy to talk to, but who wasn't afraid to talk back and be firm when needed. His tests were hell on earth but his classes were fun to those interested in a good-natured debate of philosophical principles and theories. He took it easy, but he took it.

To fellow professors and adults, Ori was a belligerent and sometimes down-right rude person. He had no problem calling people out for acting immature or acting ridiculous given certain circumstance (despite being hypocritical at times as a very hyper person themselves). The amount of fist-fights Ori has gotten into in university board meetings was too many too count.

He was outspoken against the king and didn't bother to hide his politics, which put them in a lot of danger. But Ori had one special thing that kept them safe from a great majority of threats: magic.

Ori was born with a natural affinity for fire magic and his anger could become explosive (literally). His flames were hot enough to melt iron and--when incredibly agitated--he could make anything he touched spontaneously combust. Yet this natural affinity came with a strict control he tried to keep tamped down... except when he couldn't in arguments. Fire brimming at the edges of his clothes (they never really caught on fire--clothes are expensive!) and his hair becoming bright flames. It's no wonder he was considered one of Embra's chosen.

On top of being a professor, a dean, and an activist Ori also managed the Phoenix Shrine. He was the primary caretaker, although he was as close to secular as someone could get in Palia. Is Embra real? Yes. Is she a goddess? Sure, why not. Does that mean you can't argue with her and have to accept everything she says or does? No fucking way!!! Ori is whatever the equivalent of a Jew is in Palia and he is very proud of his heritage, traditions, and beliefs.

His best friend was a kitsuu who followed him around the university and joined him on a lot of his routines for the temple. They could never be separated, his friend bringing him gifts from the natural world and Ori returning the favor with food and shiny things. His other close friend was Einar--who remembers Ori and what Ori did when he died.

Ori's death happened when the Shadow Creatures attacked the school. Many had already been moved to the temples, but Ori had stayed outside to protect the students that didn't want to go yet. When the evacuation order came to get everyone to safety, Ori was left at what is now known as the Mirror Pond Ruins.

When the last students were fleeing into the library--unable to get to the Water Ruins, Ori stood as the last guard to buy them time to lock the door. His magic was always explosive and he gave the Shadow Creatures the best show he could: he immolated himself in a massive explosion to protect the students he swore to protect. Taking out any Shadow Creatures in the nearby vicinity.

The only thing left behind was a pendant.

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Kilima Life

Ori doesn't remember anything after being reincarnated. At first when he woke up Jina had to walk him through a lot of things, but slowly some stuff started coming back to him. His traditions, his knowledge of what he once studied, his love of researching, his hatred of authoritarian governments and anyone that bans or burns books, and intolerance for adults acting like immature brats.

He's slowly remembering some recipes he used to cook (thanks to Reth's help), other human languages he learned, more about life for humans, but a lot of it is very fuzzy and comes back slowly.

Still, though, he doesn't recognize the kitsuu who had great fun trying to get his attention with the help of Tau and can't comprehend why they keep little him little presents every day... and he doesn't remember his old friend Einar. Maybe it'll come back eventually, but there is one thing he is starting to remember...

Magic.

And he won't let the Order take it from him.

#palia #palia oc #palia player character #I love my fantastic asshole of a pc #he's a nice guy with a kind heart #but he doesn't put up with shit #he's already had a massive argument then Kenyatta for being a constant child about her mother #and potentially ruining Jel's chances to impress his mom for a childish vendetta #he has no patience for it #if it came from Auni or Najuma then fine but someone who says they are an adult but act likes a bratty child? #No 1000% not #he still likes her but he sees her as like a student of his #and that she has some things to learn #but in the other hand him dismissing her problems with her mother isn't cool of him #he does have some severe PTSD from his death too #he doesn't know why he panics sometimes or has nightmares or flashbacks to fire everywhere but #one day he'll remember #till then Reth Jel and Hodari are there to help him #Einar is patient knowing one day they're friend will remember them

[maxsix]

#his smile is always so adorable #jung wooyoung #wooyoung #ateez #imagine being blessed with these kinds of cheekbones #why is always a boy who gets all the nice features like this #my nephew has THEEE Longest eyelashes #and his mum has these spikey little stubby things lol #it's so funny #he moves around so much in frame #filming him much be a nightmare #you'd be constant telling him to hit his mark and stay in frame

[joyflameball]

Hm.

#cassie rambles #hunger for knowledge vs hunger for power/control #both were the nightmare king as some point #charlie has a very different opinion on both of them (she seemed to actually like wilson in the new reign cinematic while she hates maxwell #both value their own survival intensely (see this quote + wilson making meat effigies + maxwell's everything) #both have tapped into unimaginable power (wilson saying fuck you to death by making the meat effigies + him being implied to have been- #the first to make the telltale heart + maxwell with the codex umbra and constant use of shadow magic) #hm. there's something to this #dst #they should have more parallels i think. klei give me more maxwell wilson parallels right now. #don't starve #ok to tag as ship #sure why not

[astranauticus]

really not beating the brainrot allegations but genuinely this line has been haunting my brain for ages

#rolling with difficulty #vrla rwd #mrsn rwd #well not technically but close enough #asto stop drawing the same two goddamn characters challenge (difficulty: impossible) #technically the original line was 'i see mr-sn' but this way .. works better? flows better? its 4am words are failing me #also took some artistic liberties with the hypnagoug design bc i think austin's intention was that only its face changes #to match your nightmares #but everyone started describing stuff thats much more elaborate and he didnt stop them so #specifically he says the clawed arms and 'a large gaping mouth' stay constant but i am just gonna Choose Not To See that part #look theres no way for me to fit that into the design and make it work. its just not happening #i mean thank god for mr-sn's cape or else id have to figure out the logistics of attaching bony clawed arm to robot torso #(also why i strategically placed the rips on the cape so you cant see the arm underneath LMAO) #yeah after a certain point i was just like. ok how can i make the mr-sn hypnogoug as nasty and unpleasant to look at as possible #so please let me know if this made you upset/lh bc im the one who drew it and *i* was very upset when drawing this #in hindsight hypnagoug mr-sn has lowkey nightmare animatronic from fnaf energy and i've been fully over my fnaf phase for like 6 years so #not sure how to feel about that #art I made

[faggotslime]

The worst thing you can do to yourself when you're struggling mentally or with life issues is to think helping others with their own issues instead of prioritizing yourself will somehow pan out to fixing whatever you're going through.

#vent #personal #as much as i appreciate people saying theyd be there for me #trauma bonding won't fix either of our problems #i struggle with not overexpending myself just as much as the next struggling empathetic person #but please prioritize yourself over complete strangers #do the absolute best you can for yourself in tandem with people doing the same for themselves #if having a savior complex has taught me anything it is that no amount of helping others helps you #thats nit commentary about empathy either #we absolutely should care about eachother and how we all struggle #but only trying to help others wont fix anything you yourself are going through #i wish life was easier for us to navigate #or at the very least a bit easier to understand #it's not #and i hate that its a constant fight #but at the end of the day all i truly have is myself to rely in and no one else #because nobody aside me can fix my life #please for the love of god dont let mental health Tumblr find this and assume i dont guve a fuck about others struggling #i do and i care too much about other people struggling than my own struggle #it feels easier to tackle problems and find somutions when they arent your own nightmare to deal with #i truly wish someone could fix my life and i could fix someone elses #emotional communism— OUR problems 🤝 #sigh

[ruthlesslistener]

Brain, 3:30am really isn't the time to debate whether we should switch Juniper to overhead heating or keep the setup we have now in her next upgrade. We have work in 3 hours. Please let me sleep

#toasts former caretaker offered to give me a spare tub and che she had lying around #and i accepted bc I can't find that tubsize anymore BUT i dont rlly like ches... #they're very good for heat but keeping humidity constant is a nightmare and Junie requires 80% or more humidity to shed properly #the setup I have now has very constant humidity #alas

[spotaus]

Fun fact: Dream and Nightmare in my Ec-4o.verse setting are a package deal! They're both robots (Ectos) but their designs directly compliment eachother. Dream is (practically) an infinite power source for magical/electrical energy. Nightmare is a walking EMP that short-circuits all tech around him.

Their settings can be changed to be more or less intense, but Nightmare must be within a 2 mile radius of Dream or else he'll shut down, and Dream will start to overheat if he's too far from Night for too long.

There's a bit of animosity between them (largely due to Pre-war factors) but by the time they enter the story they're back on speaking terms.

#at one point they looked the same minus their chosen color palettes (unique to their models) but when the war started the Gov. overhauled #Nightmare's casing and added a few new features. #Dream was their constant power source abd back-uo generator while Nightmare made sure no one got in or out with unwanted tech. #both brothers can sense emotions (but like. in a Robot Biological way that a lot of Ectos can) #so their gimmick now is that they can perfectly sense a device's battery life. which helps them determine which of them needs to be nearby #fir example: Cross really enjoys Nightmare's company so he tends to stick close to him but Cross can get self-destructive about letting #Night drain his battery (because he's 'had worse') and Dream usually has to pry Cross away from his twin to hang out and/or go charge solo #meanwhile Ink loves hanging around Dream because he “feels so alive!” and he often forgets that Dream is a walking battery #ec-4o.verse #ec-4o!dream #ec-4o!nightmare #I think technically they're both malfunctioning and it's a defect #but it can't be “fixed” withiut destroying their memory drives and they refuse to do that (they'd need a full Core/Soul remodel)

[daz4i]

how is it. that for a whole week. the house smelled fine, and other than some dust and cat hair it was really clean too, and everything was organized and easy to find with no towers of dishes in the sink about to topple over. even tho i didn't clean that much or do anything out of the ordinary to keep the house this way. but now my parents have been home for like 3 days and already every room except for mine is inhospitable from how bad they all smell, and there's mess all over, and the table is constantly sticky, and the sink is somehow full yet barely has any dishes in it bc the way they're organized is so ineffective, and i hate it here i wanna leave so bad

#i know i probably can't run a place in the long term on my own. but. neither can they apparently!!!!! damn!!!!!!!! #idk if it's been getting worse recently or if my patience just runs thinner lately #the way they live is just incompatible with me and my needs really #ough ough ough i need to move out. I'm so scared. but it'll be good for me probably. #I'm just fantasizing abt a clean apartment. no sticky surfaces. no bad smells. mmmmm #vent #sorry i had to clean my brain out. it did help tho. i needed to complain abt this shit 😭 #today has been awful in part bc of that. the constant bad smells that stick to everything. the inability to do things when i need to #this shit makes me literally unable to function on even the most basic levels... like i didn't really eat or move much bc i felt so bad #i have an easier time when I'm alone. life becomes easier to handle when i can do it on my own terms #but I'm so scared 😔 and I'm stressed about the process of getting there too #maybe this is the reason I'm having stress nightmares these days idk. i need to send some files for that. but I'm too scared

[paradoxesofgalaxies]

It's only been 2 hours since the kids got here and I'm exhausted, in pain, and overloading. It's gonna be a long 2 days

#some trauma shit came up last night followed by nightmares so I am not particularly well rested #and the constant whining and yelling is breaking me #the second youngest has not stopped whining the whole morning #'i wanna do X' *gets her X* 'i wanna do Y' *gets her Y* 'i wanna do...' #over and over #the second she gets what she wants she's moved on to whining for something else #galactic gab #vent tw

[just-an-enby-lemon]

If I had a nickel to everytime they made Riddler have a crush on a deaged Batgirl, I would have two nickels, wich isn't much, but it's awfull that it happened twice.

#riddler #batgirl #tom king constant infantilization of barbara #ed weird saphiosexual incel phase during batman's weeding countdown haunts me #that shit gave me PTSD #whatever the fuck DC superhero girls had going with Nygma #like it was waaay better than the nightmare comic #for instance he was deaged too #but it was weird #like no one wanted that #I'm glad they changed it to an homage to Frank Gorshin later #like waaay better way to adapt the riddler #dc superhero girls #that I still like despite it #tom king batman run #that I don't like #cause it keeps infantilizing babs #and also because the whole batman has to be unhappy thing is such a bad take #on the plus side I love to use Doof's meme

[shiawasekai]

Funny how I have so many post-game headcanons and the pre-game stuff is fairly limited (albeit growing).

#personal rambles #went to sleep thinking in some stuff + further detailing it #I have a passion for weaponizing how much of a political and diplomatic nightmare the Commander would be in times of peace #as someone who is essentially a terribly powerful quasigod and can also have significant political sway #the constant headaches because public reaction has to be accounted for Everything:tm: #I see the neighbours a lot less willing to let the Commander be when there isnt a Worldwound to take care of

[tomatoluvr69]

Ok soooooo turns out visiting a city where a lot of old friends are is all fun and games until you are forced to crawl over hot coals every waking moment (you must text them* to make plans and you have plans ominously awaiting you at all times & you know you’ll be subjected to catch up chats at the start of every single one & you will be anxious to find out if you can still vibe casually with these people or if it’ll be stilted an awkward & & &

*most despicable despisèd activity ever I just want to read my books buy expensive coffees go dumpster diving and lie

#I never even lived in this city it’s just a very major one and ppl tend to randomly accumulate in major cities #scream my well meaning friend told a musician friend of ours who’s touring I’ll be in town on the date of his show here #and while I would love to see our friend. he fucking KNOWS going to live music is my fucking nightmare. he KNOWS this and now I have to go #all alone. and I kind of came here on vacation from this kind of constant stressful occurrence LOL! #it’s just that going to a small show is my NIGHTMARE for 460000 reasons lol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and I really really don’t want to!!!! #and this is like that mutual friend’s dream he just doesn’t understand that he just plunged me into nervous discomfort for my entire week #goddddddd fuck #sigh oh well at least there’s gin drinks :/ #i know I come across as utterly swagless when I come on here to vent about shows and parties I am being dragged to but consider this. #I am utterly swagless. #I’m in a weird spot where I am a loser who somehow has accumulated a rich and vibrant social life. and I feel like I’m constantly failing #to meet its challenges if that makes sense :/

[alcohol-eyes]

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#2 whole weeks sobeR let’s talk abt it #this the longest I’ve gone without a crumb of weed in my system in 5 yrs and the second longest in 8 yrs #For a long long time I thought I was self medicating the adhd but turns out I was making it Significantly worse #I have an attention span now I can watch tv without scrolling on my phone or playing w fidget toys #My apartment has stayed perfectly clean for the past 2 wks #haven’t rly struggled with eating or sleeping routines are v important wit it tho #been relying heavily on safe foods I’ve eaten the same exact thing every day for 2 weeks but it’s fine #ashwagandha helps me not wanna peel my skin off in rage #time moves INSANELY slower when ur not h*gh every waking second of the day these have been the Longest 2 wks of my life #but also I have So Much more time to do things and SO much more energy to do the things #I thought being anxious and exhausted was just my constant state of being but turns out that was Also just the weed #The insane nightmares have been The hardest part but most of the time my dreams are just weird #Feeling emotions is weird I’ve cried more in the last 2 weeks than I have in the last 2 years #I cry about good things I cry about beautiful things art as a whole is just so moving #self regulating after stressful things like work or staying with my parents is definitely New as w as decompressing after socializing w ppl #I do things like paint and journal and make silly little bracelets now #Idk man it just hasn’t been as hard as I thought it would be #A few months ago me and ******** were talking about how we’d actually k word ourselves without it #turns out the jazz cabb was making my depression and anxiety so much worse than it actually is #shits literally fine #Anyways don’t let ppl tell u u can’t develop an unhealthy relationship w weed I was h*gh every waking second of my day for 5 yrs #Last time I tried this I immediately became an alcoholic instead this time I don’t even feel the desire to have a single little drink #Overall I have A Lot more self control in every single area of my life #I don’t waste my money on dumb shit I can eat normal amount of food like a normal person #The thought of buying my favorite cookies and only having like Two of them used to be such an unreasonable concept to my little brain #I don’t know if this is gonna be a permanent thing I definitely know I can’t do it habitually #just like I learned I can be normal about alcohol if I don’t keep it in my house and only do it when socializing for special occasions #anyways if ur thinking about taking a break from ur favorite substance maybe give it a try #thx for coming 2 my ted talk if u read the whole thing I luv u take care of urself

[novathesheltie]

We have arrived in our new home in Marseille!

#dogblr #sheltie #shetland sheepdog #nova #2022 #guys…what have i gotten myself into #Marseille is a NIGHTMARE lmao #the driving here is absolutely insane #i almost got into a car accident within the first 2hrs of being here #then Nova almost fucking killed himself by being so excited and not paying attention and jumping over the stairs at the entrance of the yard #which has a big DROP and he just. WENT OVER IT. #thankfully branches and the tight wall slowed him down but jesus FUCK #(he is fine) #and yeah overall i am Stressed #this city makes me Stressed #the constant noise is stressful #the driving is stressful #the level of safety is stressful #my schedule is going to be insanely Stressful #i’ll have very long days (why don’t the french put classes during lunch break????i don’t need a 2hr lunch break) #and since i’ve done my studies in english thus far switching to french has been also a source of stress but i’m not even thinking of that- #-yet bc i am just so Stressed about the other things #i am not made for the city and i cannot wait to get this year over with so i can run back to the country side

[caimeozramblings]

Seph lorebit #1,,

I DONT HAVE A CLEVER NAME FOR THIS :PENSIVE: mayhaps I shall think of one soon!!

Anyhow, @starrynightnight I think you said a bit back that you would want to be tagged in a post like this??

Content Warnings: Light description of gore, Character death

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As Seph opened her eyes, she noticed the snow surrounding her. She'd heard of this place. Treachery. Where only the most vile of souls came, ones who had betrayed their fellow man. The cold pricked her skin as she looked around aimlessly. She knew she wouldn't be able to leave. 

   As she shakily stood up it suddenly occurred to her just how cold this place was. It was just snow, snow, snow, for miles. Maybe the occasional structure that looked as if it hadn't been touched in aeons, or someone encased in ice. 

   At the very least she wasn't stuck in ice, she'd think to herself. But at the same time, those who were; seemed to be used to it by now. Just thinking about it forced her body to subconsciously start rubbing its arms to generate heat. 

   Angels never had been made with the idea of the cold in mind, had they? Everywhere else was so warm, even the hottest of places seemed pleasant. But in the wake of cold it burned and pricked at Seph's skin. It.. hurt. It hurt alot. Even if she didn't want to think too hard about it, she hated how the cold felt on her skin. It clung to her like a lost child and no matter how she tried, it did not fade.

   She pulled her cloak closer to her body to hide most of it from the painful cold of Treachery. Had she truly deserved to be sent here? Had she truly deserved the fate she got from simply trying to speak against the Council's words? Had she truly deserved to have the Father's light held above her head, and ultimately taken?

   No.

   No she had not. The Council were just dictators who just assumed control over Heaven, and for what reason? Because they deserved it? Which mind you, they did NOT. They didn't deserve anything. If she had Venust with her at that time, she would've done something that would get her a worse fate, she knew. But it would be worth it to her.

   …

   But what did everyone else in Heaven think of her now? What did they think of her "betrayal" of her people? What did her close friends think of her? What did acquaintances think?

   The dread of her situation now wormed its way into her skull, drilling until it was all she could think about. She was going to die. She was going to die alone, surrounded by snow, all of her loved ones thinking of her as a traitor. And no one, not a soul would think kindly of her. She knew she couldn't have anyone to comfort her, because nobody would think of it, no one thought of her fondly.

   But there had to be at least one person who thought of her fondly! At least.. one person had to have kind thoughts of her. Perhaps the souls in Limbo who were unaware of her fate? Of her disappearance? She hoped that one of them would remember her at least. At least her name would not be as tarnished if at least one person still thought kindly of it.

   But if someone forgets your name when you die.. what happens? What happens when an angel dies? What is the afterlife after this existence? Are you just.. gone? Do you cease to exist? Will you come back? Are you just a spec in the void from then on, being recycled to create new life?

   Seph believed that there never truly was an end, didn't she? She believed that… that she'd be okay forever, right? She thought that she was invulnerable! She knew she was strong! She knew that she could handle anything! So why, why was this… this fate selected for her?

   Was it the Father's fault? Was it Azrael's fault? Did Azrael assign fates to all those who were alive, even Angel's? Were they even responsible for that part of their job? Or did they just separate the spirit from the body? Would they come for Seph? If so, where would her soul go? If not, what would happen? Would she.. be stuck in Treachery forever?

   She didn't seem to be tethered down by anything, perhaps because she was expected to die? Would she die immediately upon Father's light sniffing out within her? Where was the Father anyway… All she remembered was the council taking over and that was it. How long has it been? How long did God stop giving orders and when did the council start?

   She placed back and forth, trying to rack her brain for what the answer was. But.. it had been so, so long. She couldn't even remember! What.. how? Had she just gone along with it for so long that she didn't even realize that it was happening? That she hadn't realized how they scrambled for rule and how they worked on what seemed like impulse. 

   They hadn't even given her a chance when she tried to speak out about them. Were they scared? Were they cowards? Could they not handle criticism? How big of a coward did you have to be to not be able to handle criticism of your rule over what many consider paradise? She shouldn't be sorry, she shouldn't be sorry! It wasn't her fault that they were shit at their jobs!

   As she monologued to herself in her head, she suddenly felt a sharp pain in her side. A pain akin to a stab wound. Crying out in pain, she fell to her knees in the snow. A string of curses left her as she fell forward, using her elbow for support. Her wings fell down to her sides.

   Then, the sensation of being cut open tore through her and she began to claw at the snow under her hands. Tears began to flow down her face as she screamed bloody murder as the slow, but vivid sensation burned through her.

   The second set of hands she had gripped her sides so tightly that she began to bleed from where they pierced her skin. Her hands moved from the ground to her head as her screams died down to whimpers. 

   She hadn't been monologuing for that long, had she? Didn't they send her down with at least 2 days left for her to dread? How long had she been pacing and thinking to herself. It couldn't have been so long that 2 days had passed! It couldn't have! Unless she was lied to? Unless she really had walked all that time? But that c-

   Another scream ripped through her as she felt like whatever figurative wound had been cut into her body burned. It felt like something, something was tugging at her insides. Not in the good way, either. Something felt like it was grabbing her organs and ripping them from her body. 

   She wasn't dead yet, at least, but who knows whether that's a blessing or a curse? Wasn't it that if the father's light is gone, you are gone? That's what.. anyone really said to her. That's what she accepted as the truth! But she didn't think it would be this painful… she didn't think she'd have to go through such torment as the light snuffed out in her.

   Her scars that littered her body began to burn, it felt almost like every scar she'd ever gotten had reopened and began to bleed profusely. However, this was only a sensation and aside from her perception of reality, she was fine. But to her it felt like everything was being ripped from her body. It felt like her flesh was being torn from her body in the same way you would tear a rotisserie chicken apart.

   In the same moment her pain began to crescendo, she tore her helmet from her head, throwing it weakly somewhere infront of her. The wings that would cover her face were too weak to do their job.

   Technically, this action went against her morals. Angels who covered their faces weren't supposed to take off their helmet. It was a safety precaution so that others around them were alive and well. But it didn't have much use now, did it? There wasn't really anyone around to see her. Even the ones who could see her probably didn't mind too much, being numb to it all already.

   Wasn't he still here? If she called out to him would he offer comfort? Or would he scoff at her cries? Would he even respond? There was only one way to find out, she supposed, "G..abriel?" She tried to not sound pathetic, but the blood flooding her mouths didn't really seem to help…

   With no answer, she tried again, "Ga...Gabriel?" She sniffled, not a good idea since blood only further flooded her senses, "Please.."

   She coughed. As she did, crimson splattered onto the snow. Now, any time she tried to open her mouth, blood spilled from her mouth like a river. 

   Soon, she completely gives up, she uses what's left of her energy to roll over onto her back so she can look up at the sky. It's grey, it doesn't offer comfort, but.. it's fine she supposes. It's all she really has left anyhow. 

   Perhaps its bloodless, perhaps it was the pain, perhaps it was even the cold, but she could feel her consciousness slipping. No matter how desperately she would've tried to grasp at it, it slipped through the cracks of her fingers. Her eyes slowly close despite her best wishes, and she slips into a forever sleep.

   Though, maybe her mind simply made up things, but she swore that as she closed her eyes she could hear snow crunching near her and the bright wings of someone all too familiar. 

#tv wr1tes! #tv's silly little characters #ultrakill oc #ultrakill #oc #writers on tumblr #writeblr #I have nothing else to say abt this other than that I feel bad for my girl :( #I draw + write her being sooo silly with V2 n stuff but I tend to neglect her ACTUAL lore!! #like the fact that she has constant nightmares about this moment! #or that she hates the way her armor looks now! #or that she's scared that V2 will leave her to rot like everyone else she knew did! #she's a tad tragic now that I think abt it!! <:( #but it does make for good angst I suppose :^ #seph